#anyway sorry ncksncjd

[birdsong-warriors]

I don't want to talk about this much, but it may affect page uploads.

Saturday night, I was assaulted and strangled by my brother. This is not the first time he's done this, but it was severely excalated this time. I deserved it. Honestly, I wish he'd succeeded so nobody would have to deal with my shit anymore. I'm still very much in crisis mode, and I'm so sorry if I disappear. I'm praying I can continue working despite the situation, but this may warrant a short break.

I'm so sorry for any inconvenience this may cause, and I'm even more sorry I'm bringing this up at all. I need to stop talking from now on, honestly. I just wanted to communicate why I may poof. I don't know. I'm scared, and I can't do this. But I have to keep going.

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

#abuse mention #im not so afraid to use that word now #but i still feel so much guilt #it must have been my fault #im a screw up #all i ever do is ruin things and bring people down #anyway sorry ncksncjd #not cat #important #notice #i cant do this #i cant #ask to tag #suicidal ideation #im so very tired