#anyway im having alot of fun watching it how relaxing. i havent watched a live action series for a while its mostly been animated

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#hm. i regret looking up some random good place picture to reblog and write my thesis in like i usually do after i find a show i like #or. encounter. lol #but a good place is fun!!! i completely avoided it because i just assumed that every self righteous person on tumblr #was gonna analyze it and hyper evaluate it and i just. knew where that was going fandom community wise #but now amanda told me a little bit about it and now that ive stopped interacting with fandoms and started watching a show.....my own way #im enjoying it!! im loving all the characters and the plot twist ending season one was completely unexpected!! #i totally knew something was off that the place was (perfect) but the fact that it was michaels first design covered it! #anyway im having alot of fun watching it how relaxing. i havent watched a live action series for a while its mostly been animated #it feels haughty to say animated and not anime. but i have been watching su and adventure time so like its not just japanese animation #anyway im stressed i talked to my mom today about my not wanting to be around vic like. ever again and she cried about it #i feel bad because i want her to be happy. but shes clinging to the (oh i would have left vic long ago if the love of jesus wasnt inmy heart #like. come on mom youre miserable. #but i dont have the guts to say something like that when shes crying #and i feel selfish for saying that but like. its not my responsibility to make sure my mom makes decisions good #i want to tell her that shes miserable and she should leave him. but i just. cant respond to someone who just keeps repeating #but i love him! but gods plan! #come on. youre willing to put up with him and be miserable with him even though he abused us kids constantly. #it pains me to think be it really does say something about your nature #she asked me if i still believe in god. and i told her that i do. but i dont go to church. or even call myself a christian #because im disgusted of what the people who do call themselves christians do. got these. nazis who are just evil people #calling themselves christians!! people who worship the god of unconditional love! that eats me up i cant imagine #no i still believe in god or whatever. and i still believe im supposed to share kindness and love whenever i can. and to grow #and to become the best me i can be. rn thats just making it thru the day but im working on it #anyway today was stessfull had to talk to my crying mom. i had to worry and research about affording my medicine which i dont even need #dont even need to live but if i have continuous seizures ill get brain damage like second hand life threatening disease bitch #and the depression medicine is pretty affordable without insurance. but still i can apply the same money saving method and save more mons #and then oh what was the other stressor. oh yeah i didnt clean my room. i was supposed to do laundry and i didnt. i could rn but. its late #oh well ill hit the first day of work rough and do my laundry asap after work #and my work schedule. was supposed to check that but i didnt. cuz my boss decided its a good idea to post it on my days off #and not email it to me or something. i get it hes busy but like. fam.