#angel and collins

[glialcell7429]

I’ve been rewatching RENT, specifically the 2008 version (imo the best version, also free on YouTube). Since it’s the first musical I ever really got into, it brings back fond memories. It’s been eye opening to catch all the little things I had no appreciation for as a high school freshman, for instance: the song Contact.

I didn’t like the song when I first saw the show because I found it kind of discordant. It felt like a random sexual interlude in between two heart-wrenching songs that felt like it had no purpose other than to be a tonal palette cleanser. But now, knowing more context for the history of AIDS activism at the time, I think I have more insight. When RENT first came out in the mid 90s, there had been a shift in the narrative about HIV/AIDS from a “gay plague” to an illness that could impact anyone and a multitude of reasons beyond sexual (e.g. Ryan White, a teenager and hemophiliac who contracted the disease from a blood transfusion). This marked a valuable shift because it opened the general public to being receptive to funding research, humanitarian aid, etc. as it because more of a public health concern than something that could be banished to a “shameful” region of society and ignored.

However beneficial this increased awareness was, it does sideline the more “unpalatable” people who did contract HIV from explicit, “devious” sexual encounters. So, Angel’s refrain in Contact “Take me” can mean not just “take me [sexually]” and “take me [up to heaven]”, but also “take me [in my entirety]”. Take me as a queer, cross-dressing person who got this disease from unprotected gay sex and realize that your activism includes all of me. Not just the flattering parts of me (generosity and creativity) but my sexual identity and all of its taboo rituals and “distasteful” debauchery that the people don’t want to have to acknowledge to fully support the people living with this illness. HIV and AIDS activism isn’t complete until the conversation includes everyone; even society’s unsavory underbelly. I think the repetition of the word “lover” in Contact as well as I’ll Cover You and the reprise serves a similar purpose. I’ll Cover You is very sweet, romantic, probably easier to digest for the general public of the time. But, “lover” is used in both songs to signify that the palatable and unpalatable are inextricable; Collins and Angel’s relationship being accepted can’t be conditional on just the cute, mild aspects of their relationship, they’re also queer men who have (probably non-vanilla) sex and that’s a fact that has to be part of the conversation around a sexually transmitted disease.

Also, side note: the depth of Angel and Collins’ relationship feels a lot more apparent to me this go-around. Like, I think they kind of felt like a loving foil to all the turbulent relationships we see throughout, that didn’t have drama because it wasn’t plot relevant, but in retrospect, they didn’t have drama because in the shadow of such a finite time limit, the little quarrels were probably insignificant. Collins and Angel never had that full 526,000 minutes together, and they spent what little time they had in full, head-over-heels love for each other. Similarly, I used to think Angel, say, providing groceries for Mark and Roger or buying Collins a new coat was just, like “Oh here’s this great character who’s just an infallibly good person to balance out these other assholes.” But, Angel must have known she didn’t have much time left, and in as much as she was generous by her nature, I’m sure she was also generous because she knew her time was coming to a close. Which absolutely breaks my heart.

#rent2008 #rent musical #rent #musicals #broadway #angel and collins

[strawlessandbraless]

I love when they’re gossipy little queens

💙💚

#they’re married #dean desperate to have inside jokes with cas but the angel just doesn’t understand #intricate rituals #destiel #spn #castiel #lgbtqia #lgbt #dean winchester #supernatural #deancas #misha collins #jensen ackles #spn crack #scoobynatural

[sailorsally]

it's been a hot minute (three years)

#i miss my gay autistic angel #castiel #misha collins #spn #supernatural #destiel #sally blogs #1k

[the-gayngel]

this clip will always be famous to me

#destiel #jackles #misha collins #the gay angel #castiel #spn

[casdeans-pie]

So I bought a couple of old Supernatural magazines off ebay because I wanted something for Misha to sign at a convention

And I'm just mesmerised by this whole page spread of Cas

#UGH the prettiest angel in the garrison #going insane over this actor man again #castiel #misha collins #supernatural #bless whoever put these on ebay #theyre from jan 2011 wow! #pie says stuff #spn magazine

[af-queerart]

"Destiel Christmas"

Christmas is upon us. If you want a Big Card or a Mini Card of these two handsome boys, visit my Shop. I published this drawing before Christmas to add it to the shop and if you want to give a delicious gift.

Ko-Fi link in my X and IG Bio

Colored Pencils 2023

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#castiel angel of the lord #destiel supernatural #supernatural #queer artist #misha collins #queerartwork #destiel spn #destiel art #destiel is canon #colored pencil #spn fanart

[rainsongdean]

CASTIEL ✯ 18 SEPTEMBER 2008 ✯ I'M THE ONE WHO GRIPPED YOU TIGHT AND RAISED YOU FROM PERDITION

spn collage series - 10/?

#hbd weirdcore angel of the lord liddol guy thanks for changing the course of history #castiel #supernatural #spn #cas day #lazarus rising #misha collins #spn collage #spnedit #supernatural moodboard #spn moodboard #spn aesthetic #supernatural aesthetic #spncreatorsdaily #spndaily #spn web weaving #supernatural web weaving #spn 4x01 #destiel #shae.collage

[dahliasunset26]

Darlin Headcanon

Besides gender, Darlin is one of those mesmerizing beauties that are even intimidating, and Porter reaction was proof of this, men like him are handsome and they know they are so when they see someone that they actually think is hot beside them it's pretty notorious.

Quinn are the type of people that can convince a really beautiful person that they aren't.

And more of Sam's praises are about how beautiful he thinks Darlin is.

There's a widely spread headcanon that many pack members had a crush on darlin when younger, and that angel think that darlin is hot.

Darlin is etereal beauty personified.

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted shitpost #redacted sam #redacted darlin #redacted headcanons #sam collins #redacted david #redacted angel #redacted porter #redacted quinn #redacted shaw pack #david shaw

[wegorka]

He did the voice, and we LOST it!

Also, may I draw your attention to the muscle play under this cloth, lord have mercy!

In the meantime, Mark is having the time of his life, while I'm having an existential crisis.

I'll be recovering from this con for a long time!... until the next con, I suppose 😅 Addiction will do that to you 🤷‍♀️

#misha collins #misha fucking collins #spn #supernatural #destiel #deancas #angel of the lord #liverpool comic con #comic con

[breathingmelancholy]

sparking you guys imagination (Castiel's version)

#supernatural #spn #misha collins #castiel #angel castiel #castiel fluff #castiel smut #castiel x reader #castiel spn #misha #misha x reader

[strawlessandbraless]

Thankful for them

#mouthful of Angel Thursday #spn #dean winchester #destiel #thanksgiving #castiel #deancas #supernatural #misha collins #jensen ackles #spn crack #happy thanksgiving #cockles #they’re married

[sunshineboy-greer-collins]

seeing, perceiving, eye contact

nsfw!! if you’re a minor don’t read this.

cw: exhibitionism with Guy and Gavin, orgasm denial mentioned with Sam, ‘puppy’ used as a petname with Ash, and obviously very explicit!

Milo fucking Sweetheart and when they look away from him, he gently holds their chin, turning their face towards him again “Come on, sweetheart, let me see those pretty eyes of yours”

David fucking Angel in front of a mirror so they can see themself and every time they look away, David will stop moving until they look at themself in the mirror again “Look in the mirror and see how beautiful you are Angel”

Honey sitting in a chair and just watching Guy while he masturbates, instructing him on how fast to move his hand and the like, giving him praise and calling him desperate when he starts begging for their touch “Honeyyy, stop just looking at me and do something! Pleasee”

Asher sitting on the floor between Baaabe legs, looking up them while they gently cup his cheek, as he begs to give them oral, and they tell him to wait like a good puppy “Please, baaabe, I will be good, I promise! Please let me make you cum”

Gavin who fucks Freelancer against a window after cloaking the two of them so that no one would actually see them, but whenever someone looks at the window Gavin will still go “You see that deviant? They’re looking at you and how fucked out you look right now…”

Darlin’ who asked Sam to try orgasm control and now, after being denied multiple times is nothing but a whining, moaning mess that doesn’t know how to form a sentence “You can look at me all you want with those pleadin’ eyes of yours, Darlin’. I’m not gonna let you cum unless you use your words.”

Porter who, even though he isn’t looking at them, is well aware that they are looking at him “You know, Treasure, just because i’m reading doesn’t mean i can’t feel your eyes on me and you practically squirming in your place… you looking to do something, dear?”

#i might make more like these later #doing the colour thingy was sooo fun omg #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted sam #redacted sam collins #redacted darlin #sam collins #redacted david #redacted milo #redacted david shaw #redacted milo greer #redacted angel #redacted sweetheart #redacted freelancer #redacted gavin #redacted guy #redacted pizza guy #redacted honey #redacted asher #redacted asher talbot #asher talbot #redacted babe #redacted baabe #redacted porter #redacted porter solaire #porter solaire #redacted treasure

[romirola]

Headcanons for Sleep Troubles (and Coping Techniques) of the Shaw Pack

David: Nightmares. We know from David’s audios that he had nightmares as a child. Even as an adult, David will occasionally have a nightmare that leaves him sweating and shaking. When he was an adult, David would suffer in silence, never wanting to wake Asher or face the reality that his father was no longer there to help him deal with the nightmares. Angel, however, never fails to awaken during David’s nightmares. They never pressure David to go right back to sleep. Instead, they meet David where he is, sometimes providing him with a soothing, steady monologue or letting David talk out what he can remember of his dream, until he finally feels safe and tired enough to sleep again with Angel.  

Angel: Insomnia. Angel suffers from bouts of insomnia. They chalk it up to their racing thoughts and try to make light of the condition, despite the toll it takes on them. Angel loathes the way insomnia creeps into their daily life: headaches, a lack of coordination/motivation, irritability, and more. When Angel is in the midst of an insomniatic episode, David will come up with a few excuses to rationalize his staying up with Angel. He finds it easier to stay awake when in his wolf form, which just so happens to give Angel the chance to shower him with love and relax with their mate until their mind finally slows enough to let them fall asleep. 

Asher: Sleepwalking and Sleep-shifting. Asher has the inconvenient habit of shifting into his wolf form and walking around the house. His penchant for wandering around means that Babe triple-checks the locks on the door at night to ensure that he’s not a covert liability. If they catch Asher mid-episode, Babe will gently usher Asher back to bed, careful not to wake him. In human form, Babe can usually figure out how to engage with Asher in a way that aligns with his current dream. When he’s in wolf-form, Babe finds that just their presence and tender insistence for Asher to follow them is enough to get him back to bed safely. 

Babe: Sleep Paralysis. (I’m borrowing this headcanon from @nat-seal-well.) When Babe’s sleep paralysis overtakes them, they struggle to distinguish reality from imagination. As terrifying as it is for Asher to have to watch Babe endure whatever horrible things they see/hear/feel, he always makes sure to stay with them so that they aren’t alone when they finally come back to their senses. He’ll gently rub their forehead and kiss them, offering tactile reassurance as he whispers to them until Babe realizes they are safe and in control of their body. 

Milo: Snoring. Milo snores loudly and constantly. It’s an uncomfortable disorder that not only annoys Sweetheart and Aggro, but causes Milo discomfort, too. He wakes up with a dry mouth, sore jaw, and always feels groggy upon waking up in the morning having not slept well. The problem is, no matter how much Milo wishes he could stop snoring, once he’s asleep, he has no awareness of or control over it. When Milo starts to snore, Sweetheart tries to roll Milo into a more comfortable position or prop Milo up with pillows until his snoring quiets and he settles back into a restful sleep. Sometimes, Sweetheart includes a shoulder/neck massage in their repositioning, and judging by the way Milo snuggles into their touch and smiles, he’s grateful for their touch even when he’s not conscious. 

Sweetheart: Hypnic Jerk. (You know that odd experience of beginning to fall asleep, only for your part or all of your body to jerk involuntarily, bringing you back to wakefulness? That happens to Sweetheart frequently, sometimes multiple times a night.) Being a stealth, sometimes they even wake up to parts or all of their body cloaked involuntarily. It frustrates Sweetheart to no end, to be on the cusp of sleep and then have the promise of sleep suddenly ripped away from them. Some nights, they are just exhausted, and it feels deeply unfair that their active mind wouldn’t slow down to let them rest. Even when Milo’s deep in sleep, something within him must sense that his mate is in distress, because he’ll always roll over and take hold of Sweetheart until they do, finally, fall asleep. 

Darling: Sleep-talking. Darling has a lot to say, both awake and while dreaming. They talk endlessly when they sleep (or chuff and growl if they fell asleep in their wolf form.) Remarkably, they never seem in distress when they sleep-talk. Instead, it sounds more like they are chatting about their day, even if their responses don’t make actual sense. (Once, Sam could’ve sworn he heard Darling say, “Why is my green paint all over the brownies, Steve Irwin?”) Sam doesn’t mind in the slightest. He loves to hear Darling’s voice and to know that they are deeply asleep, safe at his side to have any dream their heart wants to conjure in their mind. 

Sam: N/A. He may not sleep often anymore as a vampire, but when he does, he sleeps deeply. It’s no surprise, as his sleep hygiene is nearly perfect. As a human, Sam had many sleepless nights due to worries, frustrations, self-destruction, and, after enrolling at D.A.M.N, all-nighters. Once he’s a vampire, Sam decides to make a deliberate effort to bring the world (and himself) more peace, and that shows up in his sleep. 

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted headcanons #redacted david #redacted davey #david shaw #redacted angel #redacted asher #redacted babe #redacted milo #milo greer #redacted sweetheart #redacted sam #sam collins #redacted darling #redacted darlin #redacted shaw pack

[mrsdemie]

Alexa Demie for Pop Magazine

#alexa demie #barbie ferreira #zendaya #hunter schafer #sydney sweeney #euphoria #angel #waves #jacob elordi #maddy perez #bella hadid #petra collins #bella #pop magazine #miu miu

[skunkox]

Lap Dogs

This was originally just gonna be Asher and Darlin', but ya know, redacted brainrot.

Asher:

Legs over Baaabe's lap

Lap = Pillow

Has done the half sitting half standing thing in wolf form on Baaabe.

Whines when told to move

Has jumped into David's lap on more than one occasion.

Still dose.

Angel sits in Baaabe's lap to make it "fair"

Has sat on milo and pretended to not notice.

Lap time pocky game.

Puppy dog eyes only work once a month.

Darlin':

Thinks Sam's lap is their home adress.

Has growled from his lap

Lap = pillow

Has been force-fed vegetables/ medicine ( Only time Sam has used force)

Refused to sit in Sam's lap for week after.

Has pushed Ash off of Sam's lap before it could happen.

Darlin' and Ash have both sat on each other's backs after wrestling in both human and wolf form.

Has jumped into Milo's lap during horror movie nights as teens. (They both deny it.)

Has used puppy dog eyes when Sam tried to get them up. (Man is whipped)

Milo:

Doesn't sit in SH's lap often but won't say no to a little pampering.

Likes when SH runs their fingers through his hair.

Thigh appreciator

Enjoys looking into their eyes and reaching up to their face.

It's a sandwich if he's pulled into SH's lap and Arggo sits on his (hope I spelled that right)

Make out sessions be like

David:

Won't sit in Angel's lap bur has laid his head there.

Does indeed snore when he sleeps there (drools too)

Totally wasn't lulled by the Minecraft music.

Chest scratches? Yes. Angel is sworn to secrecy.

Will rant about how a job went.

When he's really sick and out of it, will actively hunt Angel down, make them sit, and lay there.

Will and has growled when Angel starts to move too much.

My apologies if Milo and David's are a little off.

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted headcanons #asher talbot #redacted darlin #redacted baaabe #redacted tank #redacted sam #sam collins #redacted milo #milo greer #redacted sweetheart #redacted david #redacted davey/angel #david shaw #redacted angel

[af-queerart]

Handsome Angel

Colored Pencils 2021

#castiel angel of the lord #castiel #cas spn #spn castiel #castiel supernatural #hannibal fanart #misha collins #colored pencils