#and when you rewatch the movie or relisten to the song (cos I just realized that i also mean it about other types of art and shit)

[consultingcriminal]

okay so I'm trying to see something, if you watched Narnia as a kid and your life changed when ben barnes appeared on screen and now after many years you watch every single thing that he's in reblog and add in the tags your experience

idk I feel like there's a unique experience that a certain amount of people went through BUT I CAN'T PUTIT IN WORDS BECAUSE IT'S 3 AM

#for me it was gender awakening #for some reason this dude is in most of my major fandoms #narnia #dorian gray #shadow and bone #the punisher #like????? #one day you were 11 watching Caspian be pretty on screen and now fast forward to 2022 hes playing daddy darkles #does this have to do sth with the passage of time? #i am unwell #its like when one if your favourite actors is getting old and you can't accept it because you need more movies to exist the same way you #can't go through your day comfortably without listening to music #but also they'll forever be that young in their works #and what I'm trying to get to is that you too will always be as young as you were when you first watched it #once again i repeat it is 3 am sorry for clogging the tag #back to what I was saying #and when you rewatch the movie or relisten to the song (cos I just realized that i also mean it about other types of art and shit) #you get all these memories of younger you flood back #and you were such a little kid back then and now you have to be an adult #i need to go back to writing and vent there instead lmao #ben barnes #prince caspian #sab #jigsaw #aleksander morozova #general kirigan