#and we are hideously understaffed

[meat-wentz]

Wtf happened at Riot?

okay so. i’m not the best person to ask because i didn’t see any of that happening!! personally, i’m not the one you’re gonna see at barricade or in the pit, it’s just not for me! during tbs, we started to try to make it into the mcr crowd, but when i tell you, there was a NOTABLE shift in the air, it was like a fucking wall of hot hot humidity and pack so tight it felt like if you tried to make it in, there’d be zero way of getting out, we said fuck it, nope. there were two stages right next to each other that shared the big screen, the roots and riot stage, and mcr was at riot. we were on the roots side up against the barrier for the vip viewing area, which ended up being really chill! we had a good crowd around us, like seriously such delightful fans, and about halfway through mcr the security team for the vip area started handing out water to us and checking up on us. there was a moment on the other side of the vip area where someone had passed out and it seemed like security was having a hard time getting them over the barrier/getting to them and it did take a bit for enough people to get over to them to carry them out of the crowd and that was pretty scary, but everyone around them seemed to be trying to help them out and flag as much security as they could and to clear a path. personally i had a great time and i cried my eyes out and screamed my face off and spent all of today recovering. i think probably the worst experience i had all day was the merch line where i got royally fucked, after spending 3 hours in an ill-organized line (if you could call it that), that was hideously understaffed, and where people were shoving their way into the line and cutting, like i know a few people almost got into it around me because some were just shoving their way in. all the artist merch was in the same tent, and again, zero lines, manned by one staff member per merch table, each having to grab merch for and check out 4-6 people at a time. i was literally two people from making it to the table when they sold out of dunes shirts and i was like cool fuck it i’m gonna leave and not waste my opportunity to see other artists i wanna see! i have two other shows in la, so i’ll grab merch then, no big loss. but all in all i had the time of my life, dunes was great, mcr changed my life, and i have felt so full of love all day.

#i will also say i was in pretty severe pain throughout the day because i slept wonky a couple nights before we left #and my neck like just DID NOT recover in time #plus 9 hours in airports and planes on thursday which did not help #but yeah i thought the crowd was gonna give me a way harsher time and most everyone was super respectful of my space!!! #also has anyone talked about jamia at the dunes set yet or #i was staring at her like that’s my fucking wife #there she fucking is #my wife #mcr #my chemical romance #anon #my show #ask

[lyrasjordan]

it's been 24 hours (and a truly hideously understaffed workday) now and i still cant get over last night. i feel so stupid. i went to who i thought was a close guy friend's house who i've known for about 8 months ish now and we used to work together and he DID ask me out a few times when we first met but he very much knows that i am a lesbian and has known for a long time and i've made is soso clear i'm not interested. and he STILL kept giving me more and more to drink, and even refilled my glass after i said no more but made a joke about it and then kept asking me if i was sure i'm a lesbian and kept saying shit like 'if you weren't gay i would wanna be with you' 'you're so pretty how are you gay' like i get that he was quite drunk but i had made it so clear for months and he kept referring to it as a date and he put his hand on my thigh a few times. and i just felt so sick, and unsafe, and uncomfortable. like i thought we were genuinely friends and i feel so stupid

#personal. #tbd #im sorry for venting about this again i just feel like such an idiot #and like ive done something wrong #he said i made him feel like i wasn't gay ? and he had a chance ? like what part of i am a lesbian and i dont want to go out with u is lead #ing u on #i dont know what else i could have done #i actually liked this guy ? like i thought we were good mates #i just feel really lonely rn like this was a really triggering thing for me #i know it sounds so stupid and inconsequential #and i dont wanna tell our mutual friends but i do want my friends to reassure me im not insane or alone in this #feeling like ? idk #i just feel crap and weirdly violated #i could just do with some comfort but i guess rewatching succession with a glass of wine will have to do

[wyntereyez]

I may have to quit.

So I've mentioned how we're understaffed, and how these Covid rooms are kicking our asses, yeah?

Well, they've just made everything WORSE.

Originally, all the infusions, Covid and non were on one side of the third floor. Six rooms total. Which seems hideously unsafe for the non-Covid infusion patients.

So they opened up the six rooms on the other side of the floor for Covid patients.

And instead of having Covid on one side and non-Covid on the other, they decided to put the Covid patients on BOTH SIDES, increasing the amount of work for everyone.

Plus we had one day a week when we aren't supposed to get the Covid patients. They started bringing them in that day.

This isn't a small increase; this is 45+ extra rooms a week, all done by the same couple of people.

THIS IS BS AND I CAN'T DO THIS.

[elpsycongruent]

👀 can you tell us more about your shark training experiences? that sounds so cool!! 🦈

Yeah, sure thing!

So you might remember that I used to work as an aquarist for a while, and the reason I got that job while being hideously under-qualified? I started off as an intern, and they were suuuper understaffed, so I just kind of. Slid into a real job.

And back in my intern days, as my main internship project, I got to train a zebra shark.

He was a Good Boy™ who only sometimes ate the fins off of his tankmates. (He did not start fights, but he did finish them.) The fact that I can’t remember his name is... mildly distressing, but it was a mildly comical human name, like Alfred or Hubert.

The ultimate goal was to get him comfortable swimming into a stretcher for vet work. I didn’t actually get that far before my internship ended, but I still got to do some pretty cool work with him.

Anyway, he’d been target trained before but hadn’t kept up with it, so step one was getting him used to it again. This involved a lot of gently bonking him on the nose with the target to remind him how to do it. He got with the program pretty quickly, and started bonking his own nose on the target during feeding time. (And only occasionally biting it and refusing to let go.)

Once we got that down, it was time for step two: following the target. Now, instead of getting his fish right after touching it, he had to swim along for a few feet, keeping his nose pressed to it. Again, my boy passed with flying colors.

The next step was a little broader: getting him used to the stretcher being in the tank. This was kind of hard to gauge, and made somewhat more difficult by the fact that this wasn’t exactly a solo tank. There were two other target-trained sharks, and... I want to say fiveish nurse sharks that had their own feeding schedule? Not to mention all the other fish in there. And the other humans doing their own stuff while I tried not to get in their way.

Anyway, I only made it as far as getting him to swim into the stretcher; I didn’t get to the next steps. But hey: I still get to say that I trained a shark, right?

#answer #siriusmistake #shut up lulu

[ghostwmost]

a gal i hired very reluctantly because we were hideously understaffed RAN out of work today to compliment an old man on his R*AGAN/BUSH shirt so the river of my mercy runneth dry

#also she's never not on her FUCKING PHONE

[dxmedstudent]

Eventful nights...

You might remember that I was due to start a very understaffed set of nights this week. By sheer luck, we managed to procure one locum colleague over this last set of nights. So we weren’t as hideously understaffed as expected. Though still, you know, understaffed. But to a degree that we could cope. Workload-wise, it was manageable, thankfully.

But it was not without drama.

We admitted more than one case of suspected  child abuse, and that’s a side of paediatrics people rarely discuss. But it’s something to remember, when considering the job.  The constant need for vigilance, not only in terms of your clinical judgement, but in terms of safeguardng. This isn’t the first time that we’ve dealt with it, but each time is difficult emotionally.

Later on, the parent of another child became abusive towards staff on the ward. When your child is sick, it can be an immensely stressful time, however not all people are able to channel their upset, anger or tiredness appropriately. Although the NHS is supposed to have a no-tolerance policy for abuse, in reality NHS workers are human. We try to do our best to understand how scared and anxious  people might be feeling, and we don’t rush to call security press charges. But it means that as a workforce, we put up with a lot of things that we shouldn’t tolerate.

The parent was more fractious than the usual angry or anxious parent but we were able to calm them eventually. Although we didn’t require the security team ths time, sometimes it is necessary. We should prioritise our own safety and have a low threshold for getting help if you feel it is necessary. You are not alone and you do not you have to put up with aggression. Too many wonderful doctors, nurses and HCAs I know have been brought to tears by patients or relatives whose stress was expressed in entirely inappropriate ways.

My ward sister kindly commended me for staying cool under pressure, but really I had felt like wobbly jelly inside when faced by someone who refused to calm down. I was glad that my colleagues acted calmly and as a team. I feel that this side of medicine is important to share as well; it’s not all life saving operations and fuzzy recovery stories. There’s a dark side to medicine and it includes difficult situations like this. And it happens to many of us; normal people just tryin to do our best.

Perhaps the main reason I think this week went OK is because it’s still less horrible than the paediatric cardiac arrest we had to deal with a few of weeks ago. I don’t really have the heart to describe it.  Or the needlestick injury that I had before that.  Fortunately, I’m OK despite a few ups and downs. We learn and we grow from experiences that challenge us, and doctorhood is full of  experiences that we’ve not had before.

#junior doctorhood #my life #personal #medicine #abuse #child abuse #medblr #junior doctor