#and thinking out loud at this point LMAO

[fluxydrawings]

False. A WRONG thing. A pseudo-being which exists as a mimic of something better

#rapid eyes #id tag the chara but i have no clue if this thangs got a name. o7 #Creature ThingTM #fanart #my art #hi people who followed me for rapid eyes a while back. heres fanart again #drew this on call w my pal just now while loopin that song i linked. said at one point out loud 'i think this songs giving me anxiety' so l #ke! it works! LMAO #fucked w this alot. not the Happiest with it but whateeevver ylal can have it #thank u once again ta pj thumbprint brush cause i thought itd be funny for that ta be consistant between my rapid eyes fanart #also good texture lmao #tried ta make this creepy lookin hope i succeded. thumbs up!

[infini-tree]

on the other hand i think the fact that they essentially gave mr. ping oogway's backstory (ie. old man with a shady past trying to do better) is kind of funny

#mells thinking out loud on her blog again #mells liveblogs kfp:tdk #the cage scenes except with po and oogway would kill me dead though! #because i think it would be lowkey devastating seeing po have his faith shattered by the literal inventor of kung fu #is so integral to him now. and so integral to many others too that i feel his objections would feel less like a rebellious teen and more... #reasonable? i guess? even if the point is that he's acting like an 'unreasonable teen' (they even make a joke about it) #the points po says i feel would fit better with oogway than ping lmao

[mishapen-dear]

genuine question but is there any fandom where a character is well written by the majority. im thinking about fandom culture and the spread of frustration when people dont write characters well but. honestly in all the fandoms ive been in there's only like, a Select number of authors who i trust to write Well, let alone write Well AND In Character. character analysis and writing and getting inside characters' heads are all separate skills (all of which are trained by roleplaying fyi can CONFIRM playing pretend with your friends is good for you). there's been more than once where I've disagreed with an interpretation that others agreed with, and then I turned out wrong. or i turned out right. like it doesnt matter WHO is right it just matters that differences in character analysis exist, so even if you DO write well AND write in character, your in character is still going to be someone else's out of character

there's this sort of. vibe. that to play in the sandbox you Need to be able to make a castle, and if you can't make a castle then you shouldn't bother, and it completely dismisses the idea that youre in that sandbox to PLAY in the first place. there's this Weight of disappointing someone if you can't build something that they like, but that forgets that you aren't there to build them a castle. like, be KIND. if you disagree with someone then please make an effort to do so kindly. i dont give a shit about fandom discourse but there is a reason kids get removed from sandboxes if they keep throwing sand in people's eyes. but if they don't like your misshapen sand pile, then youre not obligated to change it. even if you yourself end up hating that same sand pile later- youre not building a legacy. youre playing. and sometimes the result of that play is out of character drivel. theres a reason there are so many authors and so few who i like to consistently read and thats because everyone is Fucking Around in their hobby space. hash tag brag or whatever but i can build castles. ive built several that im v proud of. ive also dug holes in the sand for fun and then tripped on them when trying to get up. I often dug a hole and then got up and fucking- whoops, its a castle now, and i didn't realize i'd made something to be proud of until after the fact. the whole time while creating shit i was Convinced it was bullshit that didn't make sense. and then other times i was Convinced it was bullshit and then i was Right and i can look back and go. huh. ew. but it doesn't matter what the end result was, because i had fun playing in the sandbox

this wasn't meant to turn into a ramble but i have Feelings about bad art and art that's badly perceived and how public perception can screw with your head and how making art youre proud of is fucking. it's so difficult!!! it's hard!! it's really fun, which is why i try to make it, but i promise you it is Okay to not tryhard creativity. even if you CAN, it's okay not to do it all the time. or ever, even. fuck around find out have fun etc

#NOT a discourse post i am musing out loud #there's discourse goign around the dash rn or i wouldnt mention it #but the past few weeks ive seen a lot of “DONT fucking mischaracterize my guy my fuckign god” #which is one of the most frustrating pet peeve there is #but i think a lot too about little baby me #fresh on her writing journey #and how discouraged i would be if someone pointed out the mistakes id made #i made a Lot of fuckups #and i also think about this one fic where one of the characters was INCREDIBLY out of character #me today would not be able to stomach reading it #but baby me was so ENCHANTED #and it introduced to me the concept that you dont always know the reason someone does something #and it made me read even more #and because of that i eventually found Expert Skill level fics #which introduced me to MANY little tricks and fidgets ive tried to implement #there were so so many reviews on that fic that called it shit or complained about the bad characterization #but a decade later i still think about it #there were several very corny mine/craft horror fics i read #which back in the day would be called cringe #and those were what inspired me to write my first horror fic and now im Enchanted by the whole genre #theres a lot of stuff i dont like to read but i like that other people are enjoying themselves #i dont know how to be succinct i hope my point is coming across well #this ties into my thing where fiction is for you first others later #here are my credentials: bb/h fan since before the elections (hi i was the guy who noticed his lack of armour post elections) #and a cross-fandom comment trend of people going 'woa i can see this happening in canon' #im not talking out my ass i genuinely think its more important to have fun than to write accurate characterization #which. is a more 'duh' and clarifying thing than everything else ive written #but ah well c'est la vie #also also just realized this could be interpreted like that- NOT an attack on people who complain about mischaracterization either lmao #i do that too w friends. this is to reassure people who put pressure on themselves to create things Well all the time

[legionofpotatoes]

been playing bits and pieces of horizon forbidden west! game's pretty as hell

#horizon forbidden west #photo mode #my edits #yannow. it got me thinking too. the npc fidelity in this game is off the fucking shits. never seen anything like it #even ​secondary dialogues are leaving all the competition in the dust. it's an insane level of work #major burnout red flags for sure. but also maybe talking about engines as specialized tools instead of ubiquitous ones isn;t so bad? #i mean there's definitely trends. ramming down RPGs down frostbite's throat has never worked well #while decima is tearing up the open worlds and tech fidelity quotas like nbd even on prev gen #is it really about implementation at this point #maybe some engines just. work best for certain types of hard goals. and choosing that right is what matters #i pkayed this after ragnarok and that game looks embarassing next to hfw. and I'm not even saying it flippantly. I stand by what i've said #shorter games less scope lower fidelity etc. for healthier dev teams. but this can be a scalability tell tale? maybe using something #like decima can mean an easier time for a standard EA dev cycle *without* hitting these insane fidelity goals. just thinking out loud #cause forever salty about frostbite. probably wrong but hey! I am on a blogging website famous for its phobia of deeper contexts #or maybe playing as aloy gave me that stupid self confidence juice #the way she bulldozes into delicate foreign policies with nothing but her ego and hutzpah really proves that whiteness is alive and well #in whatever variant of post-post-apocalypse this story is set into. they better interrogate her issues cause otherwise this plot will like #fizzle out under the weight of her self-righteousness lmao

[altruistic-meme]

............ i want to come out.

#its so hard but also im so tired of this ya know??? #my parents will be back in may #and..... idk. theyll only be here for a month before theyre on the road again for another god knows how long #it was like 10 months this time that theyll have been gone #and i just....... i want to tell them #maybe this is a result of me reading heattstopper lmao #i got to the part about charlie telling his parents about his ed again and just started tearing up #but also I've BEEN wanting to come out i just think i might actually be to the point where i just. do it. #I'm still half tempted to just send the email i wrote lol #i may print it and hand it to my mom just cus i can never actually say things out loud #but also i need to talk to my sister first cus i think I'll need that back up #sigh #idk. i want to so bad. i want to try. #im so. ugh. #its like a block in my chest and i hate it #my sisters partner sent me a photo earlier of some item in bg3 bc it has my legal name #and i kniw she was sending it as a funny joke thing but just... yeah. #anyway #im just ranting as per usual lol #fuck #shh ac

[sotc]

On the last post I remember thinking about a few ocs for a modern au. Ethanael would be a professor, Tomaj would be a farmer turned small-town mayor and samir would be like a firefighter or construction worker.

#There's no point to this post. Just thinking out loud hehe #Oc posting #Samir is esp interesting to me because in his setting he's a community service guy killing devils lol #But he was a dock worker prior to that #So he's got like common labourer bg mixed with like a beloved community service #And also he's religious but that's cringe (to me) in modern au but he'd at least be spiritual #And I think he'd participate in like a lot of community organized events esp helping feed families and children #He's. Such a good lad lmao #Meanwhile Tomaj is also a labourer but as a blacksmith you were typically pretty influential in cities esp so I think he grew into a #Established status. Also he's such an animal lover he'd love to help shelters lol #Ethanael would love educating field SOOO much and I think would participate in a lot of community politics too

[verraising]

i've been doing the ew role quest over the past couple days and they are very uuhhh. how to put it nicely. let's go with "underwhelming"

#the quests have nothing to do with your respective role which is a baffling choice imho #why am i tanking in the gridanian one when it feels more like an extension of the whm quests like they even acknowledge that you are a whm #if you leveled that class they literally are like oh it's good to have a-towa's inheritor here like ma'am sorry but i'm a gnb #why am i not a physical ranged one in the limsan one if there's so much emphasis on merlwyb and the blonde guy being gunners #doma has samurai AND ninjas. you'd think the role would be melee dps?? no that is the ranged quest #i know the justification was 'oh the blasphemy is flying so we need a marksman' but i was doing this on fucking dancer so ?? #and the ranged part didn't even fucking matter in the final confrontation anyway since you fight it INSIDE A BUILDING ALDJSFALKSDJFKAJSDF #there is also NO urgency. like if i had done those while shit was going down in thavnair this would have been even more jarring i think??? #like i enjoyed the extra lore and that the writing wraps up some past plot points but it feels a bit disconnected ?????? #idk man. also just fuck gridania and their shitty elementals <3 the end of that one had me going BOOOOO out loud lmao

[burnedself]

Oh, duh, 14 as the Errol Flynn type

#;out of time. #I'm just thinking out loud at this point lmao #But consider this: 13 being the 'I'm rediscovering myself this is the European studying abroad incarnation' #14 is doctor back in the groove. He's more settled into himself. He knows who he is and he's loving it #Not full on egotistical but. More open. More boisterous. Kinda like ncuti's doc but with a Fun Dad vibe does that make sense #His casual tardis attire is a silk robe with fun patterns. That kind of vibe

[dimitrscu]

i want malenia to have unbreakable poise… and all her attacks one shot you.. and she heals back to full, so to add insult to injury as you’re dying you see her health bar go back to 100%.. and then she tea bags you as the “you died” screen pops up and a laugh track starts playing

#look this is funny because the way some people talk about her fight you’d think this is how it actually is #‘malenia’s too hard so you have to cheese her to win’ imagine admitting that out loud to the internet #it’s the same vibe as that copy pasta #where that journalist said he used cheats to beat sekiro and didn’t feel bad about it #‘you cheated not only the game but yourself…’ lmao #tbh though i’ve noticed a bit of a running theme with these types of comments and it has a little less to do with the fight #and a little more to do with the fact she’s a woman #they say all the disgusting crap they can think of and it so obvious #the comments about her disability too are just… it’s exhausting at this point tbh #souls games bring out the best and worst in people #her fight is hard there’s no doubt about it #but the way they make out its impossible is so stupid #she has two attacks that can be difficult to deal with but there’s plenty of clips out there showing you how #and trust me if i can learn to do it then anyone can

[rosesradio]

rewatching bbc sherlock and i’ve never seen a more queercoded show in my life honestly

#which i know is the point but still #i haven't seen the show in several years so i don't remember a lot of it #sherlock's brother won't say he's his brother and it's so obvious john thinks he's an ex sjdfsj 'i worry about him constantly' Shut Up lmao #johnlock is sweet though. like sherlock impresses john and treats him differently than others (in a good? new? way) #and john's genuinely excited to see sherlock's deductions and when he first did them on the crime scene john said 'fantastic!' #and sherlock was like 'are you aware you're doing that out loud?' #and watson said 'oh sorry' or smth #but then sherlock's voice got soft and he was like 'not it's...fine' like he was actually glad someone was being nice to him :') #peak soulmatism. peak married #johnlock #bbc sherlock

[penisliker-moved]

if stampede wasnts Trigun it couldve been a solidly mid anime. but bc it is it makes me so irrationally angry

#og #vash could be cute. if he wasnt meant to be vash.. he is not vash At all to me saury #i get animation limitations they had to change his hair or whatever but also erm.. did it need to be 3d animated lmaos out loud #Controversial but i find most* 3d animation incredibly ugly ESPECIALLY 3d anime styles #ik im not everybody on earth but likee. idk. why did it have to be 3d. #asnd ikikik it doesnt have to be a carbon copy of the mange 98 def wasnt. it doesnt need to be acarbon copy of 98 bc welll girl i cn just #watch 98. but UGHHH it literally feels like they got ridof the entire space western part. which #sry girlie. thats literally the point of trigun is that its a space western sry. the characters r literally specifically made t be in a #space western. WHTEVER! and overall while the vash design is cute or whatever straight up its just so generic to me. it doesnt say anything #abt him or the setting or anyfing at all. sry;. and it doesnt even fuck heavy #like hes cute but hes cute in like a. idek... #i think vash is meant to have thicklines and stampede vash has like none and thats the main problem. u see #AND i just dont think trigun needs tol be adapted again boom sound effect. #but also i havent even finished the manga so what do i nose #sry.. sry

[planetxiao]

i’m gonna end up playing nightbringer and forget i’m only on lesson 29 in the og game 🥲

#ᥫ᭡ °. ⊹ thinking out loud #it’s gonna pick up at lesson 80 at some point #and i will be so lost #and then remember #‘OH YEAH’ #‘i never made it that far’ LMAO

[hua-fei-hua]

working with kids every day for 5.75 hrs straight every day is kind of tiring but YESTERDAY we finally got to do what I wanted (prompt the kids into writing stories) and it was so beautiful n glorious in the times when my coworker wasn't, like, obviously dismissing everything

#in order to motivate the kids she decided to make it into a competition but the way they judged it was by having kids vote #'did you like that story' when read out loud to everyone which is not how i would want art to be judged #art's job is not to be LIKED by the MASSES; the job of art is to EXPRESS something to other people!!!!!!!!! #also she was on her phone when reading the kids' stories out n so at one point i just stopped reading a story #hushed the kids n turned to stare at her to call her out bc WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF EXAMPLE ARE YOU SETTING FOR THEM #if what you have to do on your phone is so important please just leave the room! go to the staff room the chairs are much comfier!!!! #the kids don't even think i HAVE a PHONE bc they never get to see it!!!! #anyway i just want these kids to grow up knowledgeable of the world and appreciative of art and kind of heart #(is working with them for four days this week) lol #but a lot of them return over n over again every break so they get familiar w/the workers over time #anyway i'm gonna bring candy to work (if i remember) n give it to the kids whose stories i liked best yesterday #hopefully today we will run out of ideas to do with them again long before free play time bc i wanna propose doing improv w/the kids #we're gonna fuckin 'whose line is it anyway' this shit i hope lmao #花話

[ariesbilly]

sometimes i'll be watching a video or reading up about a certain mental illness from people living with it and im like "oh some of these things are hitting..." but not to an extent that it debilitates my life? but also it feels like its certainly happening more than it should for like normal people lmao and i can never tell if these are just symptoms of my anxiety that cause certain feelings to be heightened or if theres something else going on

#just like for example #im watching this video about schizophrenic delusions #and the ladys talking about how she personally has a thing about mirrors and feeling like theres always a camera in them #or how shes always aware of cops around her because she has a thing about being followed by cops #and im sitting here like oh yeah i too am hyper aware of cops around me cuz i think im gonna end up getting arrested for a crime i didnt #even know i committed #but like thats probably just my anxiety #i do not think im schizophrenic btw im just using this as an example since im here #anyway my point is i'll hear about symptoms sometimes and be like 'oh yeah i have that more than a regular person probably does but also im #aware enough of them generally to be able to ignore it and not let it consume me so its probably a non issue then' #except there are other things where if brought to my attention i literally cannot let it go #but then that also my just be phobia related #like theres some things where if someone mentions it to me i will not be able to stop thinking about it and become very paranoid #im being vague cuz its about a fear i dont like telling people incase its used against me lmao #so you understand my position here #but again.... could just be phobia + anxiety coming together to fuck me up #i did have a therapist tell me once i might have ocd #thats another thing im always questioning #idk im doing a lot of talking im just thinking out loud here but like i would like to be able to go through life sometimes without being #plagued by such thoughts #(the paranoia and shit)

[crowtrobotx]

I was just sitting here thinking that the world needs more trans Heis content and like. Then I remembered that I can just Do That. So maybe in the future when Chrysalis is done. Maybe we should have some t4t bi4bi Kris n Karl moments.

#also again I ask… is their ship name just krarl lmao what a horrible word #genuinely not putting this out there for clout or brownie points just thinking out loud and setting this as a reminder #🦋

[pseudowar-archived]

if price fakes his death in mwiii, nik is going to have a full fucking meltdown

#mun » ooc #with lots of weapons #thinking out loud at this point #btw lmao apparently there's spoilers on tiktok #please save me