#and then goes and does something sneaky and gross just not the overtly mean thing you were thinking he was going to do

[f0point5]

Now I’ve realised James Vowles is just Robin to Toto’s Batman I can’t unsee it and I hate him a bit.

He is so articulate and his tone is so soothing but I don’t like anything he says. This is a man who wouldn’t crack an egg to make an omelette, he’d just boil them and think that makes him a better person.

#sorry but the vibes are off #he’s giving nice guy #hey I would never do that to you #I’m a nice guy #and then goes and does something sneaky and gross just not the overtly mean thing you were thinking he was going to do #Toto is the player and JV is his nice guy sidekick #he’s not better he’s just not hot enough to be obviously awful #f1 #formula 1

[culturalcicada]

You know, I never really think of things as "freakish" in a negative way. An exceptionally bizarre sexual fetish? Pineapple on pizza? Sure, whatever, you do you. A serial killer murdering people for fun? Yeah, that's undeniably evil, but not exactly more damaging than killing people for oil, is it. Freakishness got nothing to do with it.

But now that I think about it, there is one thing that's really fucking bizarre, AND evil, and much of the evil really DOES stem from the absurdity. I'm referring to whatever the fuck the USA has become in terms of sexual and gender liberation. As well as most other social justice causes, I'd say, but gender and sexuality is what I feel the most confident talking about.

It's not just the USA of course, pretty much every country where being gay isn't illegal has it to a certain extent. But everywhere else it's more common for people to be mostly open-minded, or mostly bigoted. But the USA? The grotesque fucking hybrid overtakes it all.

It's hard to thoroughly explain it in a blog post. But it's fucking everywhere. Gay people hating bi people, bi people hating trans people. Queer people getting angry at queer people being openly queer. Bisexuals telling pansexuals they don't get to choose their own label. Pansexuals telling bisexuals they don't get to choose their own label. TERFs high-fiving as another person gets convinced that "queer" is not okay to use in most contexts, and ends up having to use the 8-letter acronym because the 4-letter acronym doesn't include them. Trans people who feel comfortable in their bodies fighting with trans people who don't. Queer people unironically reposting nazi propaganda on social media, convinced that there's an epidemic of sneaky child rapists somewhere out there in the queer community, and it's totally the most dangerous thing we're facing right now.

Queer people genuinely wanting to be normal. People wanting to continue being gay, maybe even queer, but still wanting to be normal. Maybe it's the conservatives who are the real weirdos. Maybe we can continue to give in to our instinct to ostracize weirdos. Maybe we don't need a revolution. Maybe we can, uhhh, embrace weirdness and deviation from the norm, and accept everyone, excluding those people of course, you know what I mean. I mean, come on. There's gotta be some people we can still judge easily. We've got a new Deadpool movie to make, a progressive one, and it wouldn't be okay to have fun watching innocent people die on the screen, right? Maybe we can have him kill nazis or something. That's not gonna happen, huh. Okay, hear me out. Pedophiles. That's gotta be it, right?

Gay people calling each other pedophiles. Gay people worrying about being pedophiles while straight people worry about being gay. The difference of course is that being gay is both objectively okay and acceptable nowadays. Being a pedophile is neither, though there's been some rumors about the latter.

Gay people worrying about being freaks, not just because they're gay, oh no, they're openly gay, but they won't even let their gay friends know that they're even freakier than they appear. Straight people worrying about being freaks, but being lucky enough to not have to deal with that multi-layered bullshit... usually. People feeling a little gay, and wondering if that makes them more or less weird than being fully gay, whatever the fuck that means. Gay people worrying about being freaks, and wondering if that makes them straight. After all, it's been established that straight people are the real freaks.

Furry porn artists with three different alt accounts for increasingly bizarre kinds of porn worrying a lot less often, the lucky few. Hopefully they're not the only ones with a chance to achieve some peace of mind.

Some people blowing a fucking gasket and telling asexuals it's too overtly sexual of them to be asexual in public. I guess there's some twisted logic in it. After all, if they're asexual, then other people aren't, and that's gross isn't it. Even gay people? Even the normal people?

I haven't been this scared of myself ever since I first started thinking I may be gay, but before I learned that it's okay. To be gay, that is. Not to be gross and weird. That I'm not, hopefully. I'm scared again, but this time it's rational. It's normal to not want to be a sexual predator. I mean, that's what I was worrying about before, but that's because I was gay, not because I've been reading problematic fanfiction. It's a legitimate concern this time. It's coming from trustworthy people, for one thing. The friends that accept me. I mean, I thought I could trust my family too, but they thought gay people are more likely to be sexual predators. That's obviously wrong. Things that keep me up at night today, not quite.

But still, things must be getting better. Avengers Endgame had its first gay character, and it was pretty mediocre as far as representation goes, for sure, but at least he was a normal person and not a caricature, so that's better for sure. And my family has come around, too. They're no longer homophobic. In fact, they're gender critical.

#(don't take anything I just wrote here at face value) #(treat it more like a poem or whatever)