#and still trying to copsrent with this god awful human being

[rose-tinted-nostalgia]

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#my mom is sick #and I moved hours away #and I’m thousands in debt #and still trying to copsrent with this god awful human being #who seems to get more controlling by the day #and I still have no one to talk to #and I’m so overwhelmed that sometimes I can’t feel a thing #I shut it all off #and the moment I feel the anxiety or the pain settling in I turn it all off #becsuse I think I’ll break and I can’t be broken not now #and isn’t that the strangest thing #it’s a bizzare feeling #not relief #no it’s like the opposite #it’s the tension you’re always holding in your jaw #so second nature you don’t even realize you’re doing it #I feel so disconnected #and stale #and there’s so much emotion threatening to burn me from #the inside #and I’m so goddamn flammable #I can’t sleep #I don’t know what to do