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cnc-hoebayb · 5 years

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Nos cae la noche y tu me abrazas..

I forgot to post this yesterday oops

Lol but here’s my little part for this cute collab @quisieracnco helped put together, so if y’all haven’t checked out her nye hc go check it out it’s perfect. Also i know that @cncohdamn already made a lil chris imagine for this too and it’s literally the cutest so go check that out babes!!

So here it goes, some mad cheesy stuff for your NYE 😘

**Y’all gotta read this shit while listening to the live version of Fiesta en Mi Casa- no exceptio ns!

You fiddle around with the straw in your drink as you sit backstage waiting. The dressing room was far, but the music was loud, giving you little goosebumps as you faintly hear the final song. You smile to yourself, feeling that some energy you had every time you heard that guitar riff.

The crowd goes crazy closer to the end and you cant hear anymore, something good must’ve happened. More screams and cheering is heard continuously, the song must have just ended. You gather your things quickly, knowing you were all gonna make a run for it as soon as they left the stage.

The performance was gonna be broadcasted through the city, it would be on every billboard and screen as the clock hit midnight. So you were prepared for when the boys stormed into the room, grabbing phones, jackets, and snacks before heading straight out into the cold city air.

You felt excited, waiting for that final moment of the year always left you with so much energy. And as you start to wonder if the butterflies in your stomach can get any faster, you’re caught off guard by a sudden hand on the small of your back.

You stare up into esos grandes ojos cafés and watch as they focus onto you. “Ya estás emocionada?” He asks and you nod with joy, “you already know it,” his hand still not moving from its place.

Chris wasn’t afraid to get close and be touchy with you, you thought; but this - this was different. Something off about this kind of touch. His hand had found a spot on the side of your waist, almost pulling you in possesively as you speed walked through the city.

Your thoughts must’ve shown through your expression because at that same moment, his cheeks flushed a little as he justified himself. “Parece que tienes frío....”

You smile and let him keep holding on. He guides you through the streets until you finally make it to a heavily crowded area in the middle of the block. There’s lights and screens illuminating the scene and it starts playing from the beginning of the prerecorded concert.

The boys all start cheering, hyping themselves up from the crowd. Richard and Erick are jumping and dancing, while Zabdiel and Joel are beatboxing over the beat of the song. You look up at Chris and he’s beaming, his eyes full of light.

“Feels good, doesn’t it?” You nudge him with your shoulder. “It’s weird sometimes, but i like it yeah” he looks down at you and smiles one of those heartfelt ones you know he really means.

“Thanks for being here, by the way,” he looks at you sincerely, “you’ve helped us out a lot during tour too, i really appreciate all you do..”

“Aw Chris,” you respond shocked, not sure where the sudden sentiment came from. You had grown close with all the boys over the time span you’d worked with them, and it was easy. They accepted you not just because you were new, but because they genuinely liked spending time and having fun with you.

Chris would always find ways to remind you of that.

“I have a surprise for you..” he smirked and wiggled his brow, already back to his playful self. “Chris nooo,” you whined, “you know how impatient that makes me, you have to tell me noW!!” You jump up and down pulling at his arms, begging him to fess up.

“I’ll give you a hint,” he grounds you by placing a hand on your shoulder. “It’s something we’ve been working on lately.” You give him a mean look to express how much you hated that hint.

“Bro deadass what the fuck u mean,” you pout and he cackles like an idiot. “Guess you just gotta wait,” he turns away from you with a sly smile and watches the performance continue on the screen.

A few minutes pass and the set is almost over - meaning the year coming closer to an end as well. You watch as a few of the boys scope out the girls they’ve been eyeing to be their kiss. As they go up and work their flirty magic, touching hands to waists, whispering sweet nothings to these lucky girls.

“I’m surprised you’re not already out there with em,” you edge on Chris.

“Naw i already got my target planned out,” he says in a cocky tone and your heart drops a little. It wasn’t a secret your feelings for him had grown into something more than friendship. In your eyes he was perfect, everything was always so natural with him and you felt so comfortable, so how could you help yourself??

You nod solemnly and stare back at the screens, not wanting to make eye contact with him. The last song starts and your heart immediately skips a beat.

“Con tus caderas,

No necesitamos ni bombillos ni estrellas..”

A little smile creeps across your lips and you feel Chris look at you. “What is it about this song that even gets to you?” He laughs and questions. You shrug how you always did when someone asked you that.

“No sé, i just, me siento algo más de mi. Like I’m not even in my own body when i hear it, es como el cielo, like spiritual i guess.” He looks at you with his mouth wide open, defientely about to make fun of you.

“You sound like you’re high,” you nudge his shoulder and stick a tongue out. “I can’t believe you sing the damn song and don’t even get it.” You turn to him with a finger over your lips, “now shh i wanna listen,”

You close your eyes and feel the cold air against your skin, taking in every part of the music.

“Cuando estamos juntos el mundo se detiene..”

When you open your eyes back up you’re half expecting Chris to be gone, off to win over his notorious mystery girl for the night.

But your eyes flutter open and you’re shocked to see him standing there, closer than ever at your side. He hangs his arm over your shoulder and whispers “i think i know what you mean now, the way the song feels..” you nod with a smug look on your face.

He sways with you to the music and sings along when his part starts. You curl up into his arm, accepting it fully.

“Puedo ver planetas en el techooo” He sings to you playfully and you follow along.

“Hey that reminds me,” you start, “What the heck was everyone screaming about earlier, what did you guys do-“ he cuts you off with a hand on your mouth lightly.

“Shh, bebesita, that’s the surprise,” you lick his hand in retalliation and he wipes it off on your jacket.

Back up on the monitors you watch as the song breaks down to its last minute, the clock counting down as well. Your eyes light up as something new happens within the song. You scramble to look for Richard in the crowd as you hear it,

“Veremos lo que pasaa”

“ShiT!!” You scream and hit Chris’ arm. “You guys practiced, omg he did the high note,” he laughs and gently guides your head to look back up. “That’s not all,” he says and you’re lit up.

“Chris-“ you say unbelievably, “did you do it??” You refer to what you both knew what was about to happen. These little parts of the song were so new and so impactful, he had been too nervous to ever follow through live. His voice could do it easily, no doubt, it was just nerves holding back his full capacity sometimes.

He looks so excited and tries calming you down, “brooo just keep watching.”

You bounce to the breakdown of the beat and little bumps form on the surface of your skin - every time. The tension is in the air the closer it gets to what you’re expecting, and a mixture of the crowd around you counting down already.

“10

8”

The music goes,

“Seremos felices, eso dalo por hecho”

“5

4”

You grab onto Chris’ hand absentmindedly and he squeezes it back. His other hand instinctively grabbing onto the bottom of your jacket, slowly turning you to face him.

“Hay una fiesta en mi casaaaAaA”

“1..”

For some reason you feel tears swell up in your eyes. The essence of his voice continuing for what feels like forever. Every second of it resonates through your bones, in your blood, your soul, your whole being.

It’s everything you could want in this moment and you turn to Chris to say how proud you are of him and-

His lips crash to yours in a passionate mess. It’s an act of something that’s been building up too long, something that needed to be let go.

You give in to it, lost hopelessly under his spell. He’s soft and tender, everything you imagined this moment to be. You wrap your arms tightly around his torso and he holds your cheek.

It feels otherworldly, and you have no other motive than to make it last. The music rings through your head and everything becomes more magical. His lips press to yours in long intervals, each touch together has a million words behind it.

He tastes exactly how you imagined and you think that now you might be addicted. Slick lips part from each other and it feels like a movie scene.

Like you’re both in a little bubble that’s only meant for the two of you. Snow drizzles around the bubble and he holds you into his chest, rocking you as he sings lightly along..

“Nos cae la noche y tú me abrazas...”

The guitar feels like a lullaby while in his arms..

You smile and look back to him, humming along to his own harmony. You tip toe up and kiss him again, not wanting to ever stop. He giggles a little too humbly against you and you pull a strand of his hair to shut him up.

“Don’t ruin this,” you sass and he peppers your lips with soft fast smooches, holding your cheeks in his palms.

The music fades out from their perfect voices and nothing else matters. It’s just you, and Chris, and that perfect little bubble keeping everything stopped in time.

#wow i love cheesy shit yall #uwuwuwuwu #chris mi corazón #cnco #cnco imagine #feliz fin del año

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blakes-adventures · 4 years

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Just a small portion of Lil Peep relatable Lyrics to someone who is Christian. Other people would probably find even more and this wasn’t even me using his entire discord but I’d rather play Valorant than keep working on this.

“I know that you want me, you know that I want you

The memories haunt me, I know that they haunt you too

But it's alright, you'll be fine

Baby, it's alright, you'll be fine

As long as you're mine, take a look at the time

It gets cold at night, when you're alone outside

But it's fine, I'll be fine

Pay me no mind, girl, pay me no mind”

-The Brightside by Lil Peep from Come Over When You’re Sober Part 1 (2017)

“Don't you turn your back on me

Let your teardrops fall on me

Speeding away, the city in the rear view

Heart racing whenever I'm near you

Goth Boi jumpin' off stage

Carry me away, carry me away

Burn me down 'til there's nothing left

I would scream your name with my last breath

Take off your favorite dress

Lay your head on my chest

Diamonds, rubies and gems

You can have all of them”

-Awful Things by Lil Peep x Lil Tracy from Come Over When You’re Sober Part 1 (2017)

“Running away from you takes time and pain, and I don't even want to

So I'm getting high all week without you

Popping pills, thinking about you

I wish I didn't have a heart to love you

I wish I didn't play a part to break you

I wish I didn't play a part to break you” [Pills are metaphor for me personally]

-U Said by Lil Peep from Come Over When You’re Sober Part 1 (2017)

“Yeah, I thought I had a feeling before

And now you closing the door

Because you don't want me coming in

Yeah, I know I seen you before

Friday night at the store

You had another boy to hold your hand.”

-Beat It by Lil Peep from California Girls (2016)

“I just wanna die by my momma side

Tell her that I love her while my brother cry

I don't got the time for no compromise

I need it all, I'ma make it mine”

-Let Me Bleed by Lil Peep from California Girls (2016)

“Let me bleed, watch me die

I got golden teeth, she got bright green eyes

She's my fantasy, she only comes at night

She don't know 'bout me, what goes on inside

I'll let you feel my pain if you would get me high

Had to make my name, I had to break my spine

Now I'm on my way, I'm just lookin' for pain” [excluding the get me high line for me]

-Let Me Bleed by Lil Peep from California Girls (2016)

“[Lil Peep:]

All this stress

Look at this mess

Look at my head, I'm better off dead

Dyin' out west

Tryin' my best

Layin' in bed, I was comin' down then

No more pain, locked away

I go insane

I'm so insane

In my brain everyday, I go insane

I'm so insane

Leave me alone tonight, I'm good on my own tonight

I'm on the road tonight

I'm goin' home tonight

Leave me alone tonight, I'm good on my own tonight

I'm on the road tonight

I'm goin' home tonight

[Lil Tracy:]

Look in the mirror

I see a demon, I'm barely breathing

My shadow is bleeding

On the highway, baby, I'm speeding

I'm leavin' the city, you should be with me

Two weeks with the same old jeans on

I know you want to die, baby, this is your theme song

Like a switchblade, baby, just hold on

Like a switchblade, baby, just hold on”

-Dying Out West by Lil Peep x Lil Tracy from Castles II (2017)

“Left my world behind for you

I just hope you find the truth inside of you

Left the drugs behind for you

I can't help you make it through, that's what I do

Past the castle walls I hear you callin' for me

Maybe after all, I fear you're wantin' more of me

Past the castle walls I hear you callin' for me

Maybe after all, I fear you're wantin' more of me. Go”

-Past The Castle Walls by Lil Peep x Lil Tracy from Castles II (2017)

“I know that you like me, kiss me with your eyes closed

Kiss me with your eyes closed, kiss me with your eyes closed

Kiss me with your eyes closed

I know that's your favorite dress, set fire to it

I know that you like me, kiss me with your eyes closed

Kiss me with your eyes closed, kiss me with your eyes closed

Kiss me with your eyes closed

I know that's your favorite dress, set fire to it”

-Your Favorite Dress by Lil Peep x Lil Tracy from Castles II (2017)

“She say I'm a crybaby, I can't be up lately

Girl you drive me crazy, AMG Mercedes

Speeding down the high way, looking at the street lights

Geeking on a Friday, I can never sleep right

Knowing I hurt you, I don't deserve you

I should've curved you, I know I'm the worst boo

But I could be cool too, and you got them dance moves

And I got this vibe, I swear it's perfect to ride to”

-Crybaby by Lil Peep from Crybaby (2016)

“I remember when you used to hold my hand

Now you acting like a ghost girl

Live forever with a smile stuck on your face

You think he know you but I know you the most, girl

You will never find another one just like me

Long nights getting high on the coast, girl

Two weeks and I still got the same old jeans on

Never got a girl when I need one”

-Lil Jeep by Lil Peep from Crybaby (2016)

“Jugging on a Friday, but I saw you on the freeway (Skrrt)

I can not forget that face, I don't even know your name

I'm in love with a ghost girl, all alone in a lonely world

I just really wanna find her”

-Ghost Girl by Lil Peep from Crybaby (2016)

“I just wanna see you smile, I just wanna make you mine

We can spend time, smoke away the time

We can go anywhere you ever wanted

Anything you ever dreamed

I can make your dreams come true

I'll be on my own, no crew

Out here making these moves

Singing these big city blues

I don't wanna think about you

Every time I think about you

I swear I fall in love again

I remember everything you said

Promise me it's real

Girl, I got a deal

You could be my girl if I could be your world

Promise me it's real

Girl, I got a deal

You could be my girl if I could be your world”

-Big City Blues by Lil Peep x Coldhart from Crybaby (2016)

“Hotel rooms and skyscrapers

I got a new pair of shoes to impress her

She fell in love with the devil, the worst

Love now, cry later, it hurts

[x2]

Love now, cry later, cry later

But I always take the chance

If I could save her

She said she got other plans, d@mn”

-Skyscrapers (Love Now, Cry Later) by Lil Peep from Crybaby (2016)

“Life in the background, up and down the mountain

Then it's back to the flat-ground, hold me while I'm drownin'

If tonight was my last night, I would keep on countin'

'Til the reaper got ahold of me then I would take my last flight

Where ever did you go? I've been waitin' for weeks

I don't think I'm gonna make it, but don't take it from me

So it seems every time that I die, I wake up

When it's time to meet my maker I'll be ready for him”

-Toxic City by Lil Peep from Feelz (2015)

“I love you to the summer and back

It's not the winter, but you've frozen my heart

And got me warmin' up my liver

I would never put a knife in your back

The love I give her is kinda creepy, but screw it

She orders and I deliver

I could never leave you alone

My little mama is mad at me at the moment

Know she's such a prima-donna

Wherever you are is my home, you know I mean it

They say home is where the heart is, you're the reason mine is beatin'”

-Feelz by Lil Peep from Feelz (2015)

“I know that it hurts sometimes, but It's beautiful

Workin' every day, now you bleedin' through your cuticles

Passin' through a portal as you're just sittin' in your cubicle

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful

Tryna keep it cool at your grandfather's funeral

Findin' out eventually the feelin' wasn't mutual

You were not invited 'cause you're nothin' like the usual

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful

You wan' see your friends, but you're stuck inside a hospital

Doctor walks in and he tells you that it's terminal

Tumor in your brain and they say that It's inoperable

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful

They'll kill your little brother and they'll tell you he's a criminal

They'll kill you too, so you better not get physical

Welcome to America, the type of ish is typical

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful

Wake up in the mornin', now you doin' the impossible

Find out what's important, now you feeling philosophical

When I die I'll pack my bags, move somewhere more affordable

Isn't life horrible? I think that life is horrible

You think she's adorable, she thinks that you're intolerable

You think you can do it but your chances are improbable

Once you feel unstoppable, you run into an obstacle

Isn't life comical? I think that life is comical

And if you ever need a friend then you got me

And in the end, when I die, will you watch me?

And if I tried suicide, would you stop me?

Would you help me get a grip or would you drop me?

Run away, make friends with the moon

Why you trippin'? You'll be with your friends soon

Comes a time when everybody meets the same fate

I think I'ma die alone inside my room”

-Life by Lil Peep from Feelz (2015)

“There's something up on my shoulders

I'm older now, but feel hopeless

On the streets and feel like a soldier

Told ya, I don't eff with no posers, no

See him geek like he posin', but he a punk and he know it

He ain't bout ish but he show it

I flip the switch and I'm copin'

He mess around with my dollars

Prolly found himself with some problems

And some trauma chasin' them commas

But I gotta eat, so I'm on it, honest

You don't know better than me

So don't tell me who to be

You don't know better than me

So don't tell me what we need”

-We’ll Be Fine by Lil Peep x OmenXIII from In the Bedroom, I Confess (2015)

“Running away from me but I'm not giving up on you

It's just the way I be

It's just the way I see things

Take her away from me but I'm not giving up on you no

It's just the way I be

It's just the way I see things”

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savingfairies-blog · 7 years

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not a poem i wrote this cause its 1am and im bored

every day i set my alarm for 5:45am to allow myself a fake ‘lie in’ and then when it goes off i turn it off and go back to sleep and set another alarm which is usually 7. when i open my eyes its usually just before 7 and so i quickly turn the alarm off before it goes off, i don’t know why but the idea of an alarm going off after i have already woken up really bugs me and quite frankly i hate loud noises and abrupt deafening sounds, especially when i have just opened my damn eyes !!!? sometimes i think i must have died in a past life of being screamed at or another alternative life i would have probably drowned because the ocean scares the crap out of me but thats another story for another day. and so after i have switched the alarm off quickly before it goes off puts me in a bad mood all day, i usually, although i should take full advantage of waking up earlier, get back into bed and go back to sleep because after all i’ve still got time hunny. then i wake up to my mum or dad telling me to get up and asking why i haven’t moved yet and it’ll be like 7:30 and i’ll be like shit i have aprox 28 mins to get dressed to catch the bus at the bus stop 2 mins away for 8. so i dash out of bed like sonic the blue hedgehog and i sometimes think wow i’m way too hungry a gal gotta catch breakfast and make myself late which i’ll get into. so its usually two slices of lightly toasted bread with whatever chocolate coated cereal we got in with some water. i hate water, it tastes like weird, if you think water has no taste then i envy you cause i taste some weird taste every time i drink water from any tap, any bottle, any source. i take it upstairs and eat it on my bed cause it tastes better that way for some reason and it makes me feel more relaxed about being behind schedule. hate that word schedule like some people (like my dad) say shedule n i’m like wtf. shed? also an ugly arrangement of letters sorry schedule fans. and so i probably watch anderz which is a vlog channel on youtube by helen anderson and her life is a lot more interesting than mine so it spices things up a lil you know. and practically swallow my breakfast whole cause i’m in that much of a rush and then pick an outfit which takes me forever and turns out to look shit anyway lol kms and dash straight into the bathroom like sonic himself and go to the toilet for my routine wee and then wash my hands, brush my teeth, wet my face with warm water, put clearasil face wash on my face and then rinse it off with water again and then wash my hands again. because i have an addiction to washing my hands and i like to carry hand sanitiser with me wherever i go but its usually not enough because i like the feel of cold water splashing on my hands and hand sanitiser thats been sitting in the bottom of my above room temperature bag doesn’t quite compare. so then i put deodorant on and get all my fresh clothes on ya know the drill !!! and go sit on my phone again and continue to watch anderz vlogs and then see the time n think ooo i’m really living life on the edge here so i start to put makeup on my face and most of the time i don’t look at my face while putting it on because over the years i have grown accustomed to not liking my face at all for a various number of reasons and so i prefer to not look at it much ya no it really kills my vibe and i wanna feel like queen b not a rodent ok . i usually take a long time to get ready to then only look like a large poo emoji hahah !!! but then i chose my trainers that i’ve grown a little collection of and i set off for the bus feeling fine. after checking i have the correct £1.40 in my pocket so i don’t have to count it at the bus stop with a potential bus arriving or even worse, on the bus when i can feel peoples piercing eyes on me and i am terrible at counting money quickly sorry its not my fault you’re late for work deborah, i’m late myself and i can’t have the guilt of you too this gal already to emotionally unstable n i’m gunna collapse. i double check the change like seven times while i’m standing at the bus stop and keep a look out for the bus. one time i was at a bus stop (the other day actually) and because the bus stop is on a road just before a corner, you can never be sure when a bus is gunna come cause u can’t bloody see wtf who’s idea was this ?? and so whenever you hear a bus like engine roaring up, you gotta act fast. so i’m stood at the bus stop, a woman comes and stands behind me, cool i’m not alone whatever. a bus imitating noise comes along and i sure as hell move my ass fast from inside the shelter to outside of the hut where i get as close to the edge of the road to depart and climb on board of the bus. after aprox 3 seconds a truck flies past and i jump out of my knickers and back the hell up, i’m sure the woman thought i was straight up going to take my 19 years that morning, it didn’t happen. i feel a little silly, the bus comes, i’m running late like most days and by now i don’t even see the point in checking the time, i either make it or i don’t, looking makes it more real so i chose to do a timeless sprint from the bus station to the train station flying past everybody at, in my mind, 70mph. i feel like a bird flying through the air, by about 5 minutes into my power walk i feel like a penguin trying to fly and my shins start stabbing and feeling like they’re gunna snap off and because i’m in no form fit, i can’t breathe and this particularly day i was wearing heeled boots, bad move wtf you should have gone for one of my nice selection of trainers silly. i speed round a corner feeling good and like lightning and then my ankle swerves on an uneven pavement piece (wtf ?!!!) and i nearly fall on to a bunch of 16 year old middlesbrough college sport boys. its embarrassing but i’m already red from the flight. i run up the stairs going light headed and get on my train with 2 minutes to spare. i couldn’t breathe but it was brilliant, i did it. the train usually sets off like 5 mins later than 32 minutes past 8 as it should. i don’t mind much, in fact i couldn’t care less. i then proceed to pant and break into a mild sweat and because i’m an idiot, i never pack water and so i dehydrate but least i’m gunna make it to uni right? so i put my bag on the seat next to me and put my earphones in because i don’t have any friends as you will probably realise lol. i put a bit of kanye on or something like that, maybe london grammar if i’m feeling suicidal or feeling like i’m gunna die from a heart attack because of the exercise, i’d wanna go out to something nice like that ya know. train trugs along, thornaby, stockton, billingham, seaton carew and then hartlepool. it goes on further to better places like cool newcastle but stops there for me like most things in my life hehe !! so then i get off and power walk into the uni building with kanye or something blasting down my ear canals making me feel like a full blown g. i often forget my uni card so the g stops usually at the door where i stand pondering how the hell i’m gunna get in and if i’m ever gunna make it. usually someone comes and then they have a card and so its cool, i get up the stairs and go into the room where the magic happens lol jk. nothing happens here in the story for like ¾ hours cause i just sit by myself occasionally doing some work while taking breaks of staring into space because not many acknowledge me haha :) i then realise nothing will literally happen if i just leave, so then i go home again, sometimes after an hour lol i just hate it. i like the course, i love drawing even though i can’t really draw anything but apart from that i just wish the train would be completely late :) so i repeat the travelling process but in reverse and get home for like 2/3. i then go on the computer often playing sims and then get a shower and get my pyjamas on and get into bed. i don’t talk to anyone apart from my family all day every day :) my friends have dropped me which is ya know a bit disheartening but you can’t persuade someone to like you so i’ve just left them to it. i’m alone now and i’m depressed. my days are just slow but racing past and everything is going downhill by the second. 2016 was shit. hope 2017 isn’t or i dunno what i’m gunna do. i have my friend Shannon, she’s like my bestfriend but its a bit poo cause shes in uni so its hard to get to see her much but im going to manchester to see her for a weekend next week and we’re going to see jeremy kyle live so thats funny, i actually can’t wait. But the rest is drab and i hope for change and i hope i find some friends around here haha

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