#and some other stuff...ive been busy lately tho

[todayisafridaynight]

one of my fave things bout minedai is that daigo could do Literally Anything- even the most benign, innocuous thing yet it could unintentionally cause mine to short circuit for the next five hours

#snap chats #ive been having minedai brainrot all day but i dont have the energy or ideas to execute any ideas #so i will simply just ramble bout it until something comes to me #prob wont draw anythin for a bit tho- ive drawn a lot lately and im busy with stuff. Of Which Include Drawing LMAO #listen thats comm stuff its different but anyways let me continue my ramble #i think of a lot of silly lil comics and drawings but the punchline is inevitably Mine Has A Heart Attack Over Daigo Existing #i wouldnt mind drawing that all day but man i cant imagine it'd be fun to see over and over- i guess it depends on execution #but no fr i just keep thinkin of simple shit like. like idk maybe they're walkin in the street together #and just the way they have to shuffle around other people daigo has to press against him for a hot minute #And It Is A Hot Minute mine's screaming internally because daigo's so close and even if theyre in the middle of the city #he's all he can focus on somehow- the way his suit feels and the subtle ways the muscles /under/ his suit shift and move #meanwhile daigo's just I'm So Sorry Mine :( I Didn't Think It'd Be This Crowded Today :( #brb gotta reread some of my fave fics cause they capture this aspect i love so well #god i gotta start writing my own shit though i just love talking about and explorin this idea If Not Just Them In General #but im Not Good at writing <:) or at least it's hard for me to think of an idea idk #once i have an idea then i can pump something out but alas nothing's come to mind #ok i'ma wrap up this ramble because i went all over the place by accident oops </3 #i'll be back in one way or another

[meruz]

some weirdly specific artist game questions im answering while eating dinner. im gonna use my truly abysmal surface pen so theyre gonna be jittery af.

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in I feel like I don’t lose interest in projects so much as I run out of time to do them nowadays. I had a bunch of ideas for a shortbox comics fair project and then got too busy to execute and meet the deadlines. same with some zines... I still want to do them!! Idk when though. I guess when I was a kid I used to be interested in more ambitious original writing, long form fantasy type stuff. I think if you really dig through my archives you can probably find ocs from ideas like that but I don’t have a lot of interest in pursuing stories like that anymore because... idk even writing short things is tough for me.

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

I think this is mostly because ive been “finishing” art less lately? or like... making less small things and more singular big/complex illustrations? idk. it’s tough, I want to post more because I like posting art on the internet. I grew up watching other people post art on the internet and wanting to do the same. there’s a lot of artists who don’t like it but its fun to me. unfortunately this whole year has kind of been like a non-posting year tho.

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

25.  Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by Uhhhh this is tough idk. I think I’ve gotten like...ava’s demon before?

Which doesn’t make a lot of sense to me looking at the style alone but does like...make sense in the way that I think I share similar cultural inspirations with that comic like...being online in the mid 2000s...deviantart digital art type stuff. So even if there isn’t any direct inspiration there’s some shared dna probably.   I think I’ve hard art compared to transistor (the supergiant game) too and I think its like. a similar story there. Heck, If i drew more sexy characters my inking tendencies would probably get my art compared to hades just with how big that art style is culturally rn.too bad i only draw dumb looking kids.

I’ve never played a supergiant game. they look very nice and I rly respect them as a company but they’ve yet to make smth that’s really up my alley.

(unrelated but tumblr user wellnoe I’m a huge fan of ur art you have one of the biggest brains in xmen fanart imo...!! thanks for sending in an ask LOL ;-;;;)

#ask #wellnoe #viivianite

[d1gnan]

some thoughts abt aesthetics, the way people engage with my art so far and also stuff youll be seeing from me in the next year..

first off i wanna say im not actually educated on any of this and its all just coming from personal experience/ its kind of just a mad mans rambling

im the kind of person who is always curating, always putting like with like (on a consistently changing/personal/almost random metric that spans like any kind of media , things tangible and abstract, my memories, yadda yadda (everyone does this to some degree but as an artist and an introspective person, i find it hard to just let stuff go once i form a connection. (and im sure a lot of u guys reading this are like this too, tumblr is like The website for people like this) im hyper aware of everything that ever happens to me and im always trying to connect everything with everything else

(forgive me too in advance cause ive never been satisfied with my ability to explain myself and usually i just let everything i do speak for itself/dont bother trying. im really really visual and i usually think of things In pictures too so it just frustrates me to try and describe something thats worth a thousand words..

jewelry came pretty quickly to me as a favorite art form because its a way to convey some of what goes on in my head when i engage with the media i like , being able to turn all these pretty abstract feelings into colors shapes symbols.. a lot of times when i listen to something or watch something, i get almost itchy with the feeling of needing to get the way i percieved it out into the world in a visual and tangible way asap before it loses its original shape or before i forget how it made me feel. (dementia runs in my family so a lot of my art is trying to archive my feelings since i know i wont have them forever.. its almost a frantic need to be seen/known by others before its too late.

a lot of the jewelry ive custom made for people has been specifically music and film related, and thats been a great thing because i can both 1) make something that satisfies my own vision of the thing but 2) it is still easily readable by others as related 2 the source material because the design language usually is distinct enough to withstand being skewed too much by my own personal associations

moving forward tho, i have a TON of ideas for way more personal/abstract/highly conceptual projects, and have been slowly gathering pieces so that i can do full justice to my vision for them.

doing this has first and foremost always been an art form/way to express myself . i do it because of the ideas, i do it because i have to do it, and then im left with a bunch of stuff that i would like way more to be in the hands of someone who relates to it. and, i do it in a way thats not at all good for being a business owner. if i'm going to create a product, i would be going against my ideals if i didnt try to battle with all the things i hate about products. fast fashion and aliexpress craft supplies and mass production.. (to have a successful business you need a lot of the same product, it needs to be easy to make and you need to be able to get your materials cheap. all of which i can't and wouldn't do, so it's a very shit thing to attempt to make a living off of..

maybe this sounds a little funny too when you look at my work and then at what i have to say about it.that i think about it so seriously since it's something any one can do. my kid sister makes jewelry, it's a pretty accesible hobby. the idea of making jewelry based off of media is also the furthest thing from unique, which brings me thinking about the reception of my art online so far, and some weird stuff i've noticed.

when you're making anything that you mention is directly "inspired by" something else, you run into some pretty weird habits from others online, and a kind of unique way of engaging with "aesthetics" thats started in the past couple years. what im talking about now is less movies/music. its stuff that blurs the line between an existing body of work to reference and just a concept. ( y2k, fill in the blank-core, frutiger metro/aero).. i'm really into most eras of these fashion / design trends/aesthetics in a historian/archivist kind of way, and i really enjoy to do work inspired by things like this, but these are always way more personally influenced than anything made for a movie/music. i went semi-viral (feels so dumb to say seriously lol) on tiktok for a frutiger metro/sleepyhead by passion pit inspired bracelet.

i get hate on most posts on tiktok since its a gigantic platform(as well as praise) but the majority of comments always tend to be people correcting the authenticity to the aesthetic ive listed as an inspiration. people way smarter than me have way better things to say on this, and if i tried to go too into detail with it this post would be even crazy longer, but ive seen people call it "what aesthetic is this" culture, (some examples of this: " "this aesthetic is called this, not that" "this aesthetic is from this time frame only" xyz

i never know what to do, because i want to respond by explaining that i see these aesthetic names/labeling system solely as a tool. to help people find and connect like with like. labeling aesthetics is just recognizing a pattern. knowing the "name" of an aesthetic can help you find similar things, but there are no set time periods to any of this unless you are specifically making something that is an exact recreation of something else or making a period piece. everything comes back in some way over and over again. rigidly defining aesthetics is flawed/missing the point because aesthetics are completely individual/unmeasurable/skewed by experiences/memories/opinions. its a little different too when it comes to stuff thats actually like made For marketing cause that Will have an exact language that goes with it or whatever, but most of the time i see people arguing about an aesthetic thats not even applicable. there are genuinely no rules to what fits an aesthetic because anything you create, you add your own experiences to and are effectively continuing these patterns in a new way/ sometimes creating a whole new movement or sub category if you are really into labeling it as something directly. peoples personal art is definitely affected by their time/whatever the common design language was at the time, so thats where a lot of the names get born, but when you make it this rigid thing , "this needs to be more like this.. this needs to be more like that.." you'd be right- but only in the sense that yes, it IS that way, For You. in your mind you experience it that way, it is your personal relation to seeing these patterns. and you can use these aesthetic tools to expand on what was done before you, you can use these images to convey your own perspective so that i can try to understand it.

marketing vs personal aesthetics is a different thing that idk how to tackle with my like super limited language but for example, when someone is using a popular aesthetic to sell you something, you can tell. it's shallow and impersonal. looking back on ads that are dated and use a certain aesthetic usually tinges them with nostalgia that you can take and make into something that it wasn't because you have this priceless new angle to look at it with. if you believe in aesthetics as being this rigid thing, you dont get new ideas, you dont get new sub aesthetics, you dont get new movements, you get a copy of a copy, you get shein clothes. and! anyone can call anything they want an "aesthetic" ..any collection of things together influenced by anything in the world can be an entirely new aesthetic.. and im so sick of typing the word aesthetic

but i know that if theyre commenting something like this, they r so fundamentally different from me/ engage with the world in such a different way then i do that it would be a waste of time to try to explain..

i am a little scared when i launch some of the new projects i've been working on they'll be met with this kind of reaction. maybe ill try to write some kind of TLDR, some kind of zine to send along with any of my bracelets, some kind of manifesto about sustainability/personalization/mindful consumpution.. but it takes a long time for me to feel good about explaining myself, even this post ive deleted and restarted countless times.

ill post some more about some of the "aesthetics " (i gotta figure out better language for this shit i swear to god) ive found inspiring that have heavily influenced these upcoming projects, as well as scans from books ive collected that match the design language and i definitely want to release kind of a companion zine with the collections that include music/fashion/home photos etc...

if u have any thoughts or anything about any of this id love to hear it, or answer questions or expand on shit, this is kind of just like a word version of me throwing mac and cheese up at the ceiling and seeing if anything sticks.

thanks to anyone whos said anything nice about my stuff, i love u guys more than lyfe

and if you read all of this youre a g

💚

#d1gsart #talk tag #artists on tumblr #art #dinner party #dnr pty

[fvedyetor]

points. zelda fan. did you play tears of the kingdom?

i've gotten thru like mooooooost of the main quest (as far as i remember) and tbh i think its like. my favorite zelda game. i love fusing stupid stuff together and making silly cars that don't work at all........ also skydiving.

do u have any like. favorite tloz games? :0 like totk is up there for me but im also very fond of windwaker, spirit tracks, and twilight princess <3

yes omg!! ive finished the main quest in totk and all the shrines and caves and lightroots! just missing some quests and a ton of korok seeds lol. totk is the only game that ive actually kinda completed so as of rn its my fave i think. lately ive just been trying to max all my clothes which has mainly been just harassing the dragons for their scales and stuff hehe i do it out of love <3

ive played through all of botw except for the final boss fight. actually recently restarted my game so i could start over bc its been years but ive been too busy to play T^T cant wait for summer omg

zelda is my all time favorite video games!! i hot young parents who i grew up watching play zelda games. i watched my dad play majoras mask and my mom play twilight princess and skyward sword so all of those have a special place in my heart <3 watching them play it is why i love loz sm. no other video game franchise can compare.

i wanna play more games tho!! i need to find a way to stop all the time passing around me so i can just play zelda forever lol

ive also played part of a link to the past (unblocked on school computer) and part of twilight princess (got the master sword and then just got too busy :((

i also have some zelda manga!! i have 1 and 3 for tp and then one that has both minish cap and phantom hourglass. on the hunt for more hehe

i also have zelda shrine. and a growing collection of printed images of totk ganondorfs on my door. and paper dolls of zelda characters. and OMG MY SLIDESHOWS. i have two slideshows about why ganondorf is objectively hot, a slideshow in progress of all the foods from totk/botw, and a bunch of other wips (loz geography, loz timeline, etc) all in order to educate my poor irl friends. OH I ALSO HAVE A LOZ OCARINA and a little book of songs from oot and other games hehe

aaaaaaa im sorry this is so long i had an excuse to talk about zelda and i ran with it hehe

ok but my faves are totk defintely and then also twilight princess and majoras mask are up there for sure. im so indecisive tho aaaaaaaa. for sure tho the cartoon is NOT up there i do not like the cartoon at all (except for maybe zelda... but i didnt finish the cartoon so who knows)

#i think id like windwaker a lot more if my sibling hadnt spent so much time playing it on the tv instead of me :( #i really ought to play it tho #i think ive done the tutorial and then didnt touch it for years bc i was so young and i forgor #if u couldnt tell im OBSESSED with totk i love it sm #this next halloween im gonna be gerudo girlie link hehe :) #i was tp link two years ago #i could talk FOREVER abt zelda omg #if you want to see any of the things ive mentioned (my shrines my slideshows etc) just ask! id be very glad to do so #hehehehe #fvedyasks #seknots-izumimir <3 #loz #ugh my ohones gonna die oh nooo #*phone

[transcendence-au]

So about the 2023 TAUathon. Im really excited for another TAUathon! I think my Gaia fic came from a TAUthon (really need to edit some grammar stuff in that fic, been meaning too, but Ive been busy), so it is cool there is going to be another 1! Im going to try to do this (tho, I really need to update & post my other TAU fics which Ive been working on. ;0). When is the latest I should claim prompt(s) &/or add prompts? & can I claim multiple, if Im not sure which prompt I like best?

We're excited to see what you'll come up with too! Feel free to add new prompts whenever; even if you add them late and they don't get used, we can just carry them over to the next TAUathon. You can also claim a prompt as late as you'd like. I'd recommend only starting out by claiming one, unless you're confident you'll have the time to finish more than one. Multiple people are totally allowed to work on the same prompt, but in practice, people will tend to leave a prompt alone if someone has claimed it. Use your best judgment! We're just here to have fun :D

#tauathon #mod talk

[undeadromcom]

Having a Madara brainrot moment and thought I'd maybe ask for some fav hcs/facts abt him,, if you have time <3

- A Fellow MadaraP

HI GOD im sorry this is so late but tumblr are my first reply and i was so busy and pissed about it i put it off. oops but hello hello thank you oogh ive been thinking about him (mostly unpure) lately

my favourite facts r about his name… meaning calico and 3… the fact that madara mikejinya isn’t more of a thing in game or merch HURTS me i love the bull stuff but why did he get all that and not big cat vibes… he sneaks up on ppl he works WELL as a big feline

my other fave is in the shinsengumi story… just how he behaves he’s so. he’s such a freak fr?? manipulating ppl. manipulating ppl and getting called out for it. manipulating ppl and admitting to manipulating them while manipulating them. MY MANNNNN he’s so funny. he’s. So funny

i just finished the EN tour and i haven’t read the story yet but he made me so happy in the minitalks… telling anzu about sneaking around… he always seems so pleased with himself even tho im pretty sure explaining how you’re a spy is counterintuitive to being a spy… but go on

anyway not a headcanon but i’ve been listening to How Dare You Want More by the bleachers and thinking about him because it’s a song about faith and leaving your home and feeling guilt over leaving your home.. the obligation of religion.. which for him is [chefs kiss]

MAN…

#starliteulogy #HIHIHI IM SO GLAD U REACHED OUT TO ME IVE HAD THE BUSIEST WEEKEND SO I HOPE U LIKE THISSSSS #i don’t always hdcanon for madara i just like to spin his lore in my brain #if you had headcanons pls tell me i wanna hearrre #also i’ve been wanting to talk to u since we followed eachother but wasn’t sure how so i’m 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺hi #asks #enstars

[dontcrybecauseitsoverr]

update

Im about to graduate omggg, as usual, no one knows about this tumblr in my life, so that’s cool. Kaylee can know idc lol. But, somethings in  my life just don’t add up. I have a gf who I do love, and adore and all of this, but man our communication sucks, on her end, she just doesn’t text me or snap me for hours sometimes… for no reason lol, but snap score goes up but she doesn’t reply? Hurts a bit, I don’t feel like a priority in her life, she isn’t open with me about things, I have to fight to get answers out of her, and she just doesn’t tell me stuff. We’ve been dating for 5 months! Like what! Lol! I just don’t get it.so like what do i do...were not going to see each other for the entire summer. this is my longest relationship, as yall know they dont go too hot lololol. so many posts on here about gf’s and shit, i would be ruined if anyone found this, but this name is not associated to anything else of mine, unless someone like reverse searched the image, who knows. this is just my thoughts as they are thought of on paper, im sitting here listening to taylor swift, deciding about big things in my life. im going to maine for the summer month and a half or so, either i can have all the sex up there with my ex, a threesome, my bff cas who ive all fucked before lol, so thats funny. BUT, 3 months without her :L i wont even be able to see her at allll her dads a dick. i swear to god if we aren’t able to FT like 1-2 times a week, that is really gonna take a hit. theres no reason to not be able to ft me with airpods in, and all this shit, like come onnnnn do u really not want to talk to me. i just feel like this is going to end up in a text break up, i really dont want it. but shes stuck with me and my quirks and issues for 5 months! thats a long time! so who knows, i want it to work but it just may get so unberable at some point, im gona talk with her tho at least. also i just was reading up about how the brain processes near death experiences, and how wack the gamma rays are or something. and i recalled the time in senior year, when my friend was driving and making a turn into school across a busy road. (two years later a family of 4 got killed in the crash, actually by someone i knew in the dmv auto club, he went to jail, my friends and i did the math on the car crash - guy was going 125 mph when he hit them. 1 girl survived out of the family of 4. terrible) but, a car was really going fast coming towards us, and i thought it was gonna clip us, and i was in the backseat, i swear i had a marvel intro style play in front of my eyes, just flashing through life events, i couldnt even see the car coming per say, just the images that i cared about most in my life. and then we passed...and it was like nothing happened. this got off topic, but so do all my other posts. i just dont know what to do. she failed out of her student teaching this semester, and i felt i was at cause, but i dont think so. she said her mom was very upset with her, after the school stuff, and failing the driving test. but all she does all day is sit and watch tvvvvvv mannnnnn, ive tried so hard to get her to do things, and be productive and get her out of the dorm because i know what that life is like, failing out, and having no prospect, because ive been there so many times. ive been to 4 colleges! and she just doesn’t want to involve me, or just seems like she cares about me. i want it to work, i mean god, what breaking up for a month and a half just for a crazy sex summer? seems like an issue to meee lolol. not really looking forward to maine, but gotta do whatcha gotta do. fucking hell i graduate in 10 days what the hell its taken so many years im just numb to it i feel, everyone else cares way more than i do, and its gonna be a shame to try and express happiness and joy when im more just like thank god lol. anyway thats my late night talk i guess, lol goodnight?

[fatuismooches]

ive been busy w/ school lately as well, so pls take care ! even tho u might not know who i am (because i - fervently, is a coward) id like to tell u that i do, in a way, admire you? if there wasnt a miscommunication on my part, you said that u were scared about posting here/making this account and having the courage to do so anyway is something i wish i could do without pushing it back. ilu <3, and apologies for keeping this short ☹️

Make sure to take care of yourself too! School can be very stressful 😭💓 Also don't call yourself that!! Talking to people on the internet can be scary, but I enjoy these little messages very much.

And I'm very honored you admire me <3 and that you remembered I said that, that was so long ago... I completely understand, coming on this app to write can be daunting at first, especially with juggling real life stuff and writing. I guess I have some experience though, cuz I used to write on here a long time ago on other accounts lol.

I'm not too good with advice, but what I can say is that you should go for it. Maybe not immediately. Write some indulgent stuff for yourself beforehand. Get into the swing of things, see how you like to write. Design your blog first. So far everyone I've spoken to has been really sweet and they will be to you too. Just take things at your own pace. There's no rush, but don't give up. No matter how often you post, it's a rewarding feeling to write nice things that other people will like.

#smooches talks #i hope that wasnt too weird or poorly written... #AND DONT WORRY ABT KEEPING IT SHORT I LOVE ANY MESSAGES REGARDLESS #ily too <333 #if u ever do it just lmk id love to be moots/friends!

[noxiatoxia]

hi its me the dead anon and i would like to share that maybe 2 nights ago i was up rlly late. and i was figuring out what i was going to write back to ur last response to my other ask when i got really tired

in my strange sleep deprived state i was hit with 'inspiration' and opened google docs. within a matter of a couple hours, from 1-2 am, i wrote a pages long fic where kaoru kills himself and hikaru was so upset and made myself cry so hard i passed out.

when i woke up i looked at it and it really wasn't that good?? but at the same time it was and it made me cry again so. theres that. if you were wondering what ive been doing instead of responding

anyway very sorry about dying. ive really wanted to send u asks but ive been stressed out so im not great at coming up with hcs. very uninspired (besides my weird kaoru suicide fic but. yk)

maybe this says something about my current mental state. maybe not. idk

NOOOOOOOOO HAHSJSOKDFJ I SHOULDNT LAUGH BUT THE IDEA YOU WOKE UP FROM A HALF AWAKE DAZE AND WERE LIKE "FUCK I GOTTA WRITE KAORU KILLING HIMSELF" CRIED, THEN PASSED OUT IS SUCH A FUNNY MENTAL IMAGE.

But like I GET IT!!! same shit happens to me. I'm about to sleep but inspo STRIKES and I HAVE to get it on paper. It actually happened last night... Idk if I'll turn the idea into a full fic I'll post but it was a comedic concept nonetheless

The idea of one of the twins dying always kills me bc it's like... SO fucking sad.... the heartbreak is too much for me... i like happy endings... But like, I get it. Sometimes you just gotta write super depressing stuff. I have before.

The idea tho of one of the twins having a nightmare abt the other dying... Oughh. Like some super vivid nighmare that has one of them bolting up in bed panting on the verge of tears, immediately seeking the other twin and hurriedly waking them up to make sure they're still alive.

Like for example, maybe Hikaru waking up a month after Kaoru had his really bad depressive episode that scared the shit out of him. In his nightmare though...things don't have such a happy ending. And Kaoru does what he worried so much about every night in that dream, and he loses his little brother, and it feels so real.

Hikaru wakes up with a really startled jolt and is on the verge of a panic attack. His first immediate course of action is to turn around and nearly shake Kaoru off the bed, panickedly saying his name.

Kaoru of course wakes up sleepy and confused, barely awake as Hikaru begins to squeeze the air out of him with a bear hug. He's mumbling some things Kaoru can't piece together in his tired state, but Kaoru can tell he's really upset...so he just holds Hikaru and sleepily mumbles some reassuring things to him, and it does make Hikaru feel better, just to hear him alive and well...

Also since I'm a sucker for close physical affection between the twins I like to think Hikaru sometimes kisses Kaoru on the cheek. He did it more when they were younger, but he still does it I think under special occasions. I think this would be one of them... He was just so broken up in his dream and it scared him so so badly, so as Kaoru is stroking his hair lazily and sleepily murmuring reassurances to him, Hikaru sniffling as he's trying NOT to burst into tears, he kisses Kaoru on the cheek. Kaoru makes a small confused noise because he isn't expecting it, but he gives Hikaru a kiss back. He basically ends up passing out after that bc he's barely awake as is but Hikaru stays up long after that, holding Kaoru and just listening to his steady, deep breaths and resting heartbeat. Just taking in the fact his brother is still here and alive.

He eventually falls asleep once dawn begins to filter through the curtains.

Also it's okay for not sending asks!!! Life is tough and busy. Your health & happiness is far more important!!! I really love your hikakao and ouran asks in general they are my day's highlight. But I'm here if you just want to send general asks about whatever :) DMs are always open too!

#ILL GET TO UR OTHER ASK A LITTLE LATER I HAVE THOUGHTS ON IT... MUCH TO SAY... #hikakao #ohshc #;noxiatalks2ya

[chaoticpanenergy]

Hi Peregrin!! I hope u have a wonderful day!!!!

Here r some fun questions:

1. Do u like sewing, knitting, or other kinds of craft stuff like needle felting etc?

2. Do u play video games? If so, which ones are ur favourites?

3. Are you working on any stories at the moment that u want to talk about?

storm i love you with my whole heart for that third question especially akhkjdgdhsf i have been. super busy lately, and i did not have the greatest weekend or last couple of days BUT starting at like 11pm last night i have been absolutely FANTASTIC so! it evens out i guess!

1) yes yes yes omg!!!! i love embroidery the most, ive been doing it since i was really little. and i have like. very basic knitting and sewing abilities, nothing fancy but certainly functional. i actually have never needle felted before tho!! i would love to try sometime.

2) i mostly do not—my parents didn’t allow them growing up, and now most of them just. are not fun for me because i don’t have the baseline experience needed to enjoy them lol. but i do like to get the free phone versions of certain games—i have the free phone app version of the sims and of animal crossing specifically, and tbh i suspect i like them more than i would like the normal versions of the game anyway XD

3) AAAAAAAA OKAY OKAY SO. first of all if d&d counts the campaign im in rn is SO delightful and good but i’ll probably just make a post rambling about that some other time.

i am also working on figuring out the plot for a new novel!! the main characters are brian (he/him) and xeno (they/them) and they are both aro (brian is aroace and xeno is non-SAM) and they are qpps, and they are both autistic and brian also has adhd, and they are very much the "sunshine character and grumpy character" dynamic trope (brian is sunshine and xeno is grumpy), and they just graduated college, where they were roommates for two years; xeno was an accounting major, and brian is a wizard.

brian’s whole family is magical and also super fucked up; their thing is like. they save the world from terrifying magical threats. but they don’t always win, so the strategy is just to have So Many kids that it’s okay when some people die because someone else can step in to save the day. so brian (who is the fourth out of nine kids, plus has tons of cousins) was raised with the mindset that his life didn’t really matter and that he was expendable; he fully expects to be dead before he reaches 30.

and while his family is mostly okay with queer stuff, brian coming out as aro was super rough, because he came out to give himself an “excuse” for being like “i am not comfortable with getting a life partner or having children, because that would mean i would be bringing people that i love into this family, which inherently puts their lives at risk, and i could not bear to do that.” (which. is not actually connected to his aromanticism at all, it’s bc of how his family is, hence coming out being an “excuse” for that so he wouldn’t have to admit the real reason.) so since then brian has been a tiny bit disowned bc the family has a HUGE expectation for everyone to get married and have kids ;-;

but then he met xeno!! and for a while they did not get along at all, because brian tends towards hyposensitivity and xeno tends towards hypersensitivity so their sensory needs often clashed, but then they figured it out and started to get super close and ultimately entered into a qpr. and for a little bit it was the happiest brian had ever been and he was able to just be himself without anyone expecting things from him. and it was so so good. i love them.

and then brian’s family shows up to bring him back into the fold. specifically, his older sister and brother, who are both. super manipulative and emotionally abusive. and brian goes along with it because like. he really doesn't see that there even could be a way out of his family's control or any other choice that he could make but to obey. so xeno, who is absolutely FURIOUS about all this, accompanies them on the magic adventure that brian's family summoned him for, even though xeno really dislikes magic generally and REALLY dislikes brian's family.

meanwhile brian's older sister has lowkey identified xeno as. a target. with the idea being that if she can convince xeno to take up magic and join the family, it will cement the family's control over brian through xeno. and she's definitely being super amatonormative about it too and refusing to acknowledge that their partnership is not at all like a typical romantic life partnership. xeno haaaates her.

so!! so ultimately the outward story is that there's a big old save-the-world magical adventure with wizards, and meanwhile the inward story is for brian about realizing that his family is super fucked up and abusive and he needs to leave, and for xeno i havren't talked about the stuff leading up to it much here but for them in addition to trying to help and support brian, there's going to be about a lot of personal growth stuff relating to how they distrust magic (which ultimately is going to be a symptom/metaphor/something for a lack of self trust) and learn to fully lean into their own power and own all the aspects of themself, and they'll wind up saving the day because they can provide an outside perspective when it seems like there's an either/or choice to be made with the magic stuff, and be like "actually there can be a third option because i said so, and im going to make that third option exist by incorporating my personal skills with what i've observed about magic to create it" and just. it's going to be so good. im hyped.

then for ts fics, there are several in the works but they are all big bang fics so i think i probably should not say super spoilers rn. but one of them is the logince fic i told you about ages ago that would take place in the same au as that anxceit oneshot i did, and im very excited for it, and the other two are both canonverse and super angsty with unhappy endings (one is abt the split and one is abt how virgil left the dark sides) and i am being so mean about it but also im having so much fun ahsdjklfhglsdg

OKAY THANK U FOR FUN QUESTIONS your turn now!!!!! <33

#star tag!!!! #peregrin answers #xeno and brian #peregrin said a thing

[baekhvuns]

Ok first of all, let's start with the update of our sunny Bcz it really is a ball of sunshine..

Haebom truly is a mama's boy even tho he looks all tough and manly and that's like the cutest thing ever, AND THE BABY 😭 THE BABY! (not him blushing while he watches sungho eat breakfast he cooked 😭)

he finally confronted about the kiss and haebom's like "are you gay or something like that?" 💀"🕴️...uhhh...it..just happened..., got caught in the moment" (sungho :') )😭 NO BABE IT DOESN'T JUST HAPPEN!

Bro, what's funny is that, HAEBOM'S disappointed with the excuse "in the mommmmmeent??" It's almost like he wanted him to say that yes I like you😭 he's literally pouting (sungho liked it 😏)

AHHHHHHHH-

And then in the next chapter haebom got sick and sungho's nursing him 😔🤚 and haebom cuddles him 😔🤚

Now...D.O IS LEAVING SM!?!?! I do not know how to react to that...

YOUR DAD'S SO COOL 😭 I get the scary part tho, many people believe my dad is scary too BUT HES A SOFTIE IRL LIKE-

Nah ur right, depression be hitting more Bcz of the whole solar eclipse and stuff...as a person who believes in the universe and astronomical stuff, I'm boutta burst with emotions till the 28th...can you believe...in 12 days, a new month will arise. Where...the hell did October go? 😭 I'm ready for Halloween tho 😏

wait wait if you celebrate Halloween what're you gonna be this year?? Oh and, tell me how do you celebrate halloweeeeennnn. Tht is a fun question to ask...Bcz i haven't really thought what I'm gonna be..🕴️ life's got no chill and I'm busy asf so but imma still think though.

AND OMG DID YOU HEAR SUNMI'S NEW SONG?!?! MOTHER BLESSED US WITH A CREEPY ASF SONG AND IM ALL HERE FOR IT BCZ ITS HALLOWEEN!!

I was also watching red, white and royal blue a d it was cute, but.....hmmm idk maybe Ive become used to the whole kdrama thingy but i didn't feel like, there was enough build up 😭 idk dude I mean yeah it was just a 2 hr movie but still..I'm gonna read the book though.

Oh and speaking of dramas I've been wanting to watch destined with you Bcz rowoon...oh god rowoon, the rizz he has in the drama 😏

ANDDDD I've got like two idea for a fic and the first one is a little more...how do I say it? Mafiacore? So imagine, person a and person b. person b, is given a mission to go get some imp documents that person a has (very dangerous leader of a mafia clan) which has things that's are against person B's boss so hence he's given the mission so like...an undercover spy maybe...AND A MAFIA AHHH! But as the law suggests they end up falling in love but the catch is...the real villain is person B's boss and person a had already met person b once that's how he felt a connection with him😭

The next one is Bcz I've been heavily obsessed with Lana del rey and i thought of this while listening to Salvatore....so, imagine like person a is a really vintage girl, obsessed with books, but for research purposes and to unfold the secrets of this world (not like us 😔) and so there's this Library she loves going to but she wants to read more into mythical creatures and stuff but the library restricts the specific area, so, as any protagonist would do, our person a, breaks into the library after its closing hours and goes to the restricted area that is rumoured to be haunted and stuff, there..she meets person b. A really peculiar guy, beautiful, but peculiar with a fashion sense of the 40s and 50s wearing, those suits and perfect hair that fell onto his forehead angelicly.

And as the story unfolds, they both start to get closer to the each other, of course I'd add more drama to it, but the catch for this one is that....person b is not real.

this is so very late im so sorry fbkwbdwk 😭😭

NOT THE TWO HAIRS ON THE KID 😭😭😭

“who said i hated it?”

he’s leaving sm BUT it’s only for his solo activities, for group activities he’s under sm 😭😭😭 honestly the best thing for all of them atp i need their freedom asap

RIGHT LIKE THOSE R THE BEST DADS THE SCARY IRL BUT THE SWEETEST IN PRIVATE

omg the eclipse thing??? what does it affect 😧 u need to tell me asap everything u know in detail 🔫 READY FOR HALLOWEEN BUT WHY IS IT ALWAYS SO DAMN COLD ON HALLOWEEN 😭😭 & not it being on a tuesday 🧍🏻‍♀️

i do celebrate it but unfortunate i stopped dressing bc i can NEVER find good things to be <3 my wardrobe is very lacking fbakfhak tHO ID WANNA BE OPPENHEIMERS CHARACTER the tux and the fedora hat <3 U TELL ME YOURSS WHAT ARE U GONNA BE

I DID AND I HAD TO HEAR IT MULTIPLE TIMES TO GET USED TO IT but it’s sus bc i saw no promo for it i didn’t even know it was happening tbh

no ur right that’s my exact thoughts abt it, i wish it was longer and had more to offer i wanted to know the reaction of public, a gut wrenching monologue, longer time spent apart, wanted crying scenes, a little emotion on face, the royal family contacting his president mother for some discussion and possibly expanding on the secretaries love life’s,,, 7.5/10 for me personally 🤚🏻 i rly liked the texting scene !!

STOP I SEE IT EVERY WHERE IS IT WORTH THE HYPE

now that mafia fic is very interesting bc i have this one where it’s two spies who work against each other and their mission is to get info from each other to report it to their agencies,,, fall in love, action scenes, painful separation of lies and then they meet years later to be on a mission, but this time, together

THAT LANA ONE CHAAERSSS

#✉️ : ask #[ chaerssss ]

[haithamuse]

ILY ESTHER!! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? ive been so busy i havent gotten a chance to play twst at all but i really wanna get back on the grind soon >:) you up to anything fun recently??

HELLO TEA I LOVE U MORE !!!

no but i feel u !! i do still run my daily stuff on twst on auto, but i haven't had time to catch up on any events n stuff sobs :( BUT BUT i'm excited to hear it !! hope ur gonna have lots n lots of fun <33 ( n my discord dms are always open if u wanna brainrot <3 )

mmmm i've honestly been chilling on my other blog lately to take a break from main blog n social media in general.... school has been super stressful but i finished the semester at least ! i'm just gonna relax n play some games for the next few days while on my break n prepare for the next semester !! so yeah... trying my best to push thru lmao

HOW HAVE U BEEN THO ??

#(❀❛ ֊ ❛„)♡ — mootsies ! #₊˚ʚ ᗢ₊˚✧ ꒱ — tea.

[thebigsick]

venting in the safe house

if someone finds me on tumblr then i gotta end it all. just somewhere to speak my mind, hopefully find relief for the thoughts having. i keep thinking someone is coming behind me but its 12:30. i find myself in a redundant cycle of "attachment" issues with people, i want to leave the only real "friends" i have and just be myself, or just ghost everyone i know because everything so far has just been a waste of time. all the time shared with my friends was for nothing as i realize i "don't even really like them". I start thinking that and it's not real, it's not true, it's probably not honest. I see everyones lives progressing and moving in a great direction, the way id want mine to be but it feels like i just keep getting held back for a reason. i keep feeling like i have no real attachment to these people. at the end of the day, after all the things we do and say like getting food and laughing or making fun of other people, there is nothing solid between and any of them. they all wanna hang out with each other and some people just between them, but never everyone. sometimes i'm excluded and usually i get it; people do their own thing and i shouldn't be reliant on others for my happiness but they are supposed to be -my friends-. when i'm bored i talk with -my friends-, when i want to hang out i message -my friends-, when i have problems i can tell -my friends-. it's not like that tho and i get i can't have it they way "I want to", i just wish i some form of that. it feels like everyone has a much stronger bond to each other except me. i'm a loose end, it doesn't matter that much if i am there when they're hanging out or not. it seems like everyone has that thing to back to, that thing to fall back onto, that safety pad but i don't. I can't explain it that well but i will try. i don't think i'm close with anyone enough to rely on them the way everyone has/does.

i feel lonely around this time of year, it's annoying. i have been telling myself i dont need anyone for a long time, now it feels like the castle of lies ive built for myself is coming crashing down. i think someone like me, someone in my situation or in my position should have a kind of person like that, but no. idk why i think especially me but i think that would be nice. it would be great to have that sort of connection. its so late jeez work tmr too. i think ive been trying to fill my time/ keep my myself busy to avoid feeling like this. it has worked so far but it feels the effect just wore off. maybe this is a moment of weakness but the feelings have stuck with me for some time. iv'e had these thoughts many times before but never got them together and written them down. again, i wish i could tell someone i trust this instead.

my worst fear coming from this is that my friends will move on past me and hang out with each other because they are closer or have more similar personalities. i know our friends aren't perfect but it feels like their flaws are being amplified right now. i gotta brush my teeth.

ok done. my airpods are shit too. had some time to reflect and these thoughts will probably age poorly, whatever. i think i said "but" too much, its ok. i think this form of venting is helpful for me because it's like im telling someone this. i know no one is gonna see it yet it feels like the only way to could actually relieve myself from the dark room my mind is in rn. i hope it gets better. its 1am. idc we up already so long atp couple minutes cant make much difference. I wish someone was there for me emotionally. i dont think i have a "ton of baggage" but for the basic stuff. i dont know how my mom does it. just her, for years. she has more actual problems too. she is the strongest no doubt.

it doesn't seem like anyone actually wants -me-. if we are talking about making jokes, playing the game, music making talk, it's great. but when it comes to real, deep, ego-hurting feelings we all have, im a ghost. no one turns to me or think i need someone to turn to.

you know it might actually be partly my fault for not being vulnerable but that's only because i have some trust issues i think. just wish i had that one person, that ride or die, that go out "guns-a-blazin" person. im 16 now and im feeling like i might never get that person for myself. its like there was a pre-partner choosing period that i missed and now that we started, i'm stuck by myself.

im definitely not ugly or anything like that so i dont issues of that stuff, its purely rejection. lets say if i start talking to a girl i like, what i think very likely will happen will be this: we start talking, i do most of talking, the start and end of the conversation. she is clearly not interested in me but is just messaging because shes bored. she tells her friends about how i keep messaging her and dont stop. i try to move past the talking stage and she shuts it down. things are weird with us and i try to talk to someone about it and *poof*. nothing.

this music is really my main thing 🤞🏾. listening to it and making it has been there everyday for me for years. people must think i have it figured it out, right? There isn't a support system for this stuff. I MEAN theres OBVIOUSLY the "yo ur music is acc fire" comments all the time which i am honestly grateful for but it doesn't seem like anyone truly cares about this shit as much i do at all and you know, that's ok. if that was my only issue i had, id be that guy fr. it's just another thing.

i hope i find it tho, so badly, i think it would be such a positive impact on my life. maybe this music shit could get me that attention im so badly craving but probably not. is that it tho? am i just craving attention? is the lack of attention in my life effecting everything else? i hope this inspires me to go find that someone. i essentially want that special someone is what ive been trying to say this whole time but when i say it like this, i just think "wow buddy, you and everyone else".

[oksullen]

THE SEPTUM LOOKS GOOD ON YOU i saw your face reveal! i am fond of piercings too tho i only have my ear loaded for now :) btw goodluck on your dental surgery! i hope it all goes well

the photos tho... STUNNING OHMYGOD i miss going out cos ive been busy lately. and by going out i mean out in the city cos ya know the city sometimes sucks. i miss nature, man. i'm hlad you had fun on your trip! the photos look great and if i ever come visit america i'll make sure to keep in mind your recommendations :)

also the proposal was also cute aaahhhh what did you say? did it have a ring or smth? u guys should have taken a pic!! lol

MY GOD YOUR DOG I SWEAR everytime you send a pic of willow she grows bigger and bigger but she still has that cute look on her face i wish i could pet her and chloe looks cute!! look at her stretch 😭 i bet chloe is older than willow but willow is wayyyy bigger omg

nothing much has happened in my life recently i just wanted to check on you,, tho i am graduating from my degree in two weeks which is awesome but it also means real-life adulting problems but nah for now i try not to stress so much on it. for the first time, since i love planning, i am enjoying life as it is.

stay hydrated love i am happy to hear from you!

PEA!! THANK YOU- THE SEPTUM IS ALSO NOW FULLY HEALED!! :00 I want to get my ears all pierced up to but for some reason im more nervous for that than the nose.

for the dental surgery it was a piece of cake. surgeon said I was the best patient ever, and I felt no pain after. now the orthodontist has to pull on the tooth that won't come up (yup- im not really a kid anymore and im still missing a tooth smh) also you'd think eating soft frozen cold sweet foods would be great but i got so sick of ice cream and pudding so fast- thankfully im back to eating normal!!

the trip was so fun omg- id love to explore other countries and part of the world. my countries that my family came from are in midst of extreme war so there goes that D: but omg if you ever get the opportunity to explore America I suggest it highly!! despite all the stuff America is going through right now it's a beautiful place.

ALSO THAT GUY- he was a street performer and in major cities those guys will just pressure you into taking photos with you and then paying 😭 BUT I willing paid for the photos with the 'show ladies' (take that as you will) I totally plan on going back in the future.. NOT with my family either.

and about Willow- I was able to sit down with my mom over dinner and discuss some matters, especially those with Willow. it took a lot of convincing and its going to take a lot of my personal time but she said we can keep Willow. I am now visiting her house throughout the day to spend time with Willow. I take her outside for a while and feed her and take her for walks- or basically give her what a dog deserves. Hopefully when I can finally afford my own place I will take Willow with me.

ALSO CHLOE- she's such a smart and sweet girl but she was never trained so she's kind of a nut job LOL!!

ALSO- saw your post about getting your diploma,, IM ASSUMING YOURE ALL DONE!?!?! YIPEE CONGRATULATIONS 🎊 👏 💐 🥳 🙌 💖 (I JUST SPAMMED EMOJIS LOL) BUT THATS SO EXCITING IM SO PROUD OF YOU!! what'd you major in again? what's your plans on that?

I enjoy 'talking' with you even tho it's over a phone and our timezones are so different- though I start work again soon and classes I'm September I'd love to keep in touch!!

ALSO- BONUS WILLOW PHOTOS!!

[wooahaes]

Hi!! It’s the baby teume here again lol thank you sm for the rec I’ve been through their blog as well aksnsksmskdnd but hey I’m a svt Stan too !! It’s so weird we Stan a lot of the same groups and I’m so grateful we have such a good writer in all the fandoms I’m in as well 😂😂

As for my treasure bias, it was originally mashiho (I mean it still is) but I’ve added more people to the list lmaooo like yedam as of now and I’ve been crushing on Hyunsuk since last night 💀 it’s impossible to decide lol and I’ve just sorta accepted the fact that I’m just gonna probably work my way thru the whole group at some point lmaooooo and my favourite song that I’m obsessed with right now are I love You and JikJin as well as both the versions of darari! (At this point I feel like I should just name their entire discography lol ) it’s been maybe a week or two since I started stanning them and I’ve already finished watching all the tmap episodes and most of their variety content lol I think I might have a problem💀

im about to take a final but i wanna respond first hehe i love talkin abt my boys

omg then double hi then!! i literally cannot remember if i got into svt first or trsr because it was around the same time but i joked with my non-kpop friends that a group has to have at least 8 members for me to stan (or be SHINee) but brb gonna cry thank u for that compliment!! theres SOOO many good svt writers out there <3

(rest is under a readmore bc this feels long and i dont wanna subject anyone scrolling past to a long post dskfhdsf)

also incredibly valid of u... my trsr bias changed a lot before i finally settled on yoshi (for rn, at least? hopefully it wont change bc i love the him but things happen lmao). i personally came in originally being biased for asahi and junkyu and then i realized yoshis the literal cutest and so is mashi and so is hyunsuk... i think now ive just been calling myself a jline stan (haruto isnt as high as the others but ive adopted him so hes my son now alongside the others in the maknae line /hj). u have taste tho <3 but stanning trsr means u have taste sooo-

but also literally felt tht abt crushing on hyunsuk... watching the concert was what got me lmao his stage presence is sooo good and he cares so much abt the others!! also i love his facial expressions lmao he does this cute lil nose scrunchy thing sometimes and its. genuinely so cute.

GOD i loved "i love you" so much when i was first getting into trsr!! the lil fingerheart and bob they do to the "lovin' you lovin' you love you" bit??? lives rent free in my head idk why its just so cute. + the song has some of my fave choreo from them and i cant explain why lol

jikjin is also v v good!! this comeback was my first comeback as a teume so i have a special place in my heart for jikjin <3 and DARARI my MOST beloved!!! i adore her so much... i was literally so excited for darari choreo and then she was given to me <3 i still kinda wish we had a real mv for darari but im not gonna argue w getting the remix lmao (both slap but i prefer the og bc for the softer comfy vibes)

also ur so much better than me dsfkhdsf i dont remember where i left off on tmap but i got busy with life stuff and dropped it for a bit :( i do wanna go back and watch the rest of it sometime!! i respect u so much tho sdfkhdsf im just bad at sitting down and watching stuff in general lmao (my kdramas usually take... several months for me to actually finish watching)

anyway welcome to stanning treasure u will not regret this <3 i love them all so so much and ive been missing them a lot lately :(

#wooahaes.ask #asks.anon

[batbaffle]

meme day meme day @gxmonth

ive been saving these...

bruno is 5ds but *blue haired mid series best friend*

diabetic alert crocodile 😎

#gxmonth2020 #yugioh #yugioh gx #i rlly wanna draw that misawa and tanya one btw #and some other stuff...ive been busy lately tho #yes im posting this at about 1am bcus im up