#and now that i have context im SCARED

[bookwyrminspiration]

THOMAS BEHIND YOU!! THOMAS THEYRE COMING FOR YOU!! oh my god he has AirPods in he can’t hear us THOMAS!!

#tgl #the great library #THOMAS PLEASE #i think I read a spoiler about the ending of this book or something involved. with Thomas #and now that i have context im SCARED #THOMAS #oh he’s so innocent and naive and hopeful… #they will kill you over this and you don’t have wolfe’s connections #even wolfe’s connections are running dry there’s only so much he can be covered #OUGH

[lesbiangiratina]

Okay post gear tummy now

#missing link (top left) and isuka (top right) are the best. objectively #sorry for only including 1 of the 3 or so images where they have abs the other ones scare me. #like they dont look healthy. even in the accent core art thats like. the ribbiest theyve ever been drawn. theyre unwell #and theyre more sallow than pale WHYYY DO THEY LOOK SO SICK IN AC IM SAD NOW!! hang on i have to post about 1 of their ending arts. #and yeah you get some thighs in that middle image cuz im obsessed with that 4koma panel. i dont even remember the context #the kat goes meow #gg #testament tag

[plasma-packin-mama]

UH OH!

#fallout new vegas #arcade gannon #benny gecko #fnv #benny incident #i think im gonna leave this with no further context for now! #id rather post comics than try to explain it in words bc im so bad at explaining stuff LOL #if yall have specific questions feel free to send me an ask though i would love that lol!! #also i never draw blood or gore and i know thats obvious from this drawing so like.. just hang with me ok #blood #gore #tw blood #tw gore #i dont rlly think its well drawn enough to actually scare anyone who has blood/gore blocked but i want to be safe #delilah #arcade #art #digital #benny #peepie art

[bitchfitch]

a lot of the comments on that stained glass post are really funny because they assume the horse was like, a serious attempt and not me going "ok I've never used these tools before, I'm going in with no plan and just fucking up half sqft of glass while i learn how the cutter and pliers work" and then assembling the resulting shards into something vaguely resembling a horse to get the rest of the process down in my pre research fuck around and find out phase of learning a new skill.

Also the soldering looks like shit because the articles i found in the 20 minutes i was buying the stuff to start all said "flux makes the soldering better" in really vague terms without actually like, explaining that it lowers the flow point of the solder and makes the copper foil more receptive to it. so i assumed it wasn't necessary and was just used for vague betterness reasons and didn't buy any until a few days later when I started properly researching how to do things and found out it's actual job and that it's absolutely vital to the process.

So the solder isn't actually fully bound to the tape on the horse and is just like, melted overtop it following the lines of the tape. there's a distinct oval shape where the sides of the bead are up and off the tape instead of the domed shape it's actually supposed to be.

I also hadn't bought a grinder at that point bc I'm cheap and wanted to find one lightly used on ebay and also i wanted to wait for my pay check so I'd have a Little extra wiggle room with the whole shebang before i dropped 70 bucks on a tool i might not enjoy using too much.

which is to say, the whale is the first actual attempt and not the horse.

#tbh the just fuck around and find out phaze is something more people should do #learn enough to bumble fuck your way through a project and then go 'this is shit how do i do it better' #and researching each element in more depth instead of sticking with the overviews. it gives you more context for everything the #teacher is saying #like now knowing how important flux is. #anyways dont buy stained glass flux just get the lead free stuff from the hardware store. its the same chemicals for less money #ish #the hardware store varieties arnt diluted as much because they're meant to work for plumbing and such. so they're a lot stronger #but also a lot more likely to fuck you up if you dont work in a ventilated area and let the flux sit on your skin for any length of time #im lucky i dont have any like scaring from the time i got chemical burns down the entire length of my forarm because i #rested my arm on the fluxed window while i was soldering it #like theres a noticable texture difference and ive had a massive and Bad eczema patch there ever since but no scars #my arms are hairy enough you cant see it too much though so thats nice. #bfsg

[caffeinatedopossum]

I'm so emotionally exhausted

#being highly empathetic is so romanticized but it actually sucks so much #not just for me btw. like for everyone around me too #im great at supporting people short term but anytime you need me to reliably be there i just cant #because i feel so strongly anytime im around other people experiencing strong emotions that i burn through my emotional battery #in a matter of minutes #its also almost definitely a result of my trauma. so yeah definitely over-hyped #PLUS i hate being that person thats like 'sorry YOUR emotions are too painful for ME' like wtf #makes me sound like an ass #i think it cam definitely be phrased better while still saying the same thing (like 'sorry i dont really have the energy now. is that okay?) #but it still sucks. i want to be there for people. i dont know what to do with all these emotions that arent mine #like theres always 'work through the trauma' but how?? im emotionally exhausted! #plus i dont actually see any way to reassure what im scared about cause its not like a fear of being punished triggered by others emotions #its like. I was exposed to this thing a lot as a kid and now my brain responds to it really strongly #the thing itself wouldnt have been wrong in a different context but i was a child and couldnt process the things that i experienced #and i still dont know how to

[kaidabakugou]

coffee dates with your mom have you spilling all your dirty secrets without a second thought 😭

#kai.rambles #idk what this phenomena is but it’s apparently common lol #im gonna tmi in the tags like it’s a little face time call bc i’m waiting at the airport for my friend #but i had a little coffee date with my mom yesterday bc we both needed a little break since the family is STILL here and hasn’t left #and we just need this whole thanksgiving thing to be over bc we’re going insane with so many relatives in and out of our homes #so we went to a local coffee shop that just opened and it’s so cute btw and ITS PET FRIENDLY so i saw many doggies there #and can’t wait to take woody when this whole doggy virus going around calms down 😔 #but anyway she saw that i was like fidgeting in my chair and ask wtf was wrong and i told her that i had a pimple on my ass cheek lol #and she was like how did it even get there like you take such good care of your skin?? #and i was like idk it just appeared there 😅 #and she was like - 🤨🤨 after your bday? #and i said like yeahhhh? #at this point i already knew she was onto me lol and we both laughed and she asked what did my bf and i do for my bday #so i told her and now she won’t stop laughing at me #for context - here’s the tmi lol - but my bf used whipped cream on me for my bday and we cuddled for a bit #afterwards with the intention of going to shower but we ended up passing out all sticky 😭 #and i quickly took a full exfoliating shower in the morning when i realized but it was already too late and now i have a pimple on my ass 😭 #and it’s like more towards the inside of the cheek so it fkn hurts everytime i sit down #and i was so paranoid after that instead of putting one boric acid capsule into my pussy i put two just in case #bc i was so scared that i was gonna get and infection of something but it’s been 4 days now #and nothing’s happening so i think i’m good but yeah i told her and now she laughs everytime she sees me or remembers it 😭 #i don’t mind bc it’s her and i trust my mom and tell her everything but i never get into detail about my sex life #so the fact that THISSS is the one thing about it that i tell her it’s hilarious #so yeah and now whoever reads this monstrosity of tags knows too #and if you did read this then come here bc i’m giving you BIG WET KISSES and taking you out on a little picnic date 💓💓 #and we can wear matching outfits and feed eachother desserts🥺

[pocket-prosecutor]

"I shouldn't be the one crying ... this is much worse for you after all. I just...I just miss you in a way."

"No...no please. I'm sorry. I should have taken your needs into account too. I'm so sorry..."

mm? adjusting to a new living situation must be hard if your partner is still scared of shrinking around you

#g/t #aa g/t #aa gt #wereshifter miles au #time to order new markers #man. the server working w me towards a very hurt to comfort scenario was inspiring #hhhfhdhfh anyway. they move in together. but Miles hasn't actually been tiny around people v often (not even Phoenix) #it's rly scary and all. and Phoenix wants to give him the time Miles needs to adjust after moving in #but the first days Miles kinda...wants to be alone at night. Phoenix sleeps in the guest bedroom #until Miles hears him softly cry and checks it out. i mean Phoenix rly wants his Boyfriend Husband close to him at night as well #he has needs. but he doesnt want to push Miles #this scene is definitely a turning point #please imagine that Miles was actually scared as hell when he entered the bedroom. 'whoa Phoenix is...really imposing now' #i almost cried when i drew this but mainly bc i have that 'take over expression of face you draw' #plus a lot of sympathy goes into this bc g/t unlocks that v strongly in me #ALSO BACK TO PAPER IT IS #this was way more comfortable #me putting over half the missing context in the tags: im sure this will be super clear and obvious to my followers! #art tag

[twentythousandvolts]

oh yeah it turns out that an ex of mine has been being fucking weird about me on here again -_- not sure what the point in posting this is i just wanted to complain. about that.

#ohh i'm ''[their] shitty ex''?? dude our last communication was me being Scared out of my fucking mind and Apologizing for Being Scared #like. scared Of Them. and their response was 'i cant remember the last time i was this mad at someone'. #like i realize now they were a fucking loser and just liked the Aesthetic Idea of me while ignoring everything Real about me but still. GOD #<- not venting just giving. Some context if You guys have seen them posting about me????? #genuinely dont care if u r mutuals with both of us idc i have their url blocked im chilling these days. but like. Man it has been 3yr and #youre still telling people im Horrible for Getting Scared Of You? give it a fucking breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk #delete later #EDIT. they didnt do anything That Bad the 'scared' is a result of Psychosis. they werent abusive or anything just didnt respect boundaries

[sidereon-spaceace]

My homework for tonight: double-check the etymology of the name "Sibyl", cuz according to an initial search it used to refer to oracles

and I think it would be really funny to still inflict Visions And Omens on my Silly Big Weapon Guy. Literary predeterminate naming let's goooooooo

#ramblings #final fantasied 14th being like 'heres The Echo to provide narrative context and exposition and to also show your guy is Super Special' #me being like 'lil guy got that weird sickness others get when they travel through space too much now he Sees Things. inconvenient.' #i dont even have plans to use it to Further The Plot like 'aha we're supposed to go HERE instead-' #sid is just 'man come on im trying to take care of other shit right now-' #'dont have time for losing sleep to prophetic dreams or scaring the hoes by getting a waking vision i just wanna grill for stars' sake' #i need an oc tag #skysail

[whump-queen]

sketch of my oc maya <3

#I’m really trying to post more wips and sketches and not be as much of a perfectionist #she is in a story I’ve been planning and I have a few drabbles written and shit she does some emotional and physical damage #im getting to the point where I look at it and all I see are the mistakes so its time to put it down for a while #but yeah I really wanna post the stuff I have for her but I need to write the first chapter first for context but ahh #she is INVOLVED IN THE SEVEN STORY 👀👀 #I’m scared of her #akias art #my post #my art #my OCs #oc maya #Maya oc #oc art #anime art #digital art #sketch #ok there you have it now it’s TIME FOR MY BUTTERNUT SQUASH #IM SO EXCITED #got distracted by this piece but it’s SQUASH TIME NOW BABES

[lanshappycorner]

you know i have like what 5 younger cousins and they cant all draw (although i think like 2 can) but they like making up stories and they r all very creative which i thought was kinda weird bc .

they r all very similar in that sense but also its not really weird bc i mean they are cousins so it makes sense that they are similar, but considering not all of them talk to each other, they somehow rubbed off on each other

so one day i was talking to one of them and then we started talking abt The Past and my cousin started reciting some of the stories i told him over Nearly like 2 decades ago which i Do Not Remember (when i was a kid i had a very active imagination, i would make up stories every day and tell my younger cousins bc i was in charge of taking care of them and uhh it got them to be quiet for a while💀)

and one thing led to another and then i realized that i may have been the cause of their overactive imaginations now .

#my cousins were like yeah i know u dont remember them but those stories were like a core memory to me #and i was like oh so it was my fault 💀 #i started thinking abt it bc i have one older cousin and she is creative yeah but not in the same sense as the rest of us #so then i was like then why are all the cousins after me the same and then i realized the common denominator 💀💀 #bc my older cousin didnt really help raise them bc she was busy with college (big age gap) so i mostly influenced them ......... #its always a shock to me whenever my cousins bring up stories i made up when i was in like 2nd grade bc i sure as hell dont remember it #one of my cousins is also an insane clean freak and im like bro why r u like this and he was like BECAUSE OF YOU and i was like wdym #and he was like when i was little i had like no hygiene and ate my boogers and then one day u told me a horror story to get me to be clean #and u scared me so badly i became a clean freak for the rest of my life . (for context he is almost 20 now) #and i was like............oh..........sorry........

[m0e-ru]

i miss friendship so bad i miss you okyakusan do you feel the same

#kommento #// ah the parasocial relationship marketing strat itsok tenchou's got this in order <- crying as they speak #// my writing's been on the polar opposite ends of the spectrum whereit's tooth rottingly sweet indulgence but its too far into the au i #// cant talk about it or it's too dramatic and out of context so i cant post either because of the lack of . context #// it's crazy and i've been here for three years and took three years to mostly get everything figured out #// it's okay my customers come and go and i have new ones who might want to experience the story real time as i wanted so long ago #// but im not sure how that'll work now actually im kind of a bit scared #// a fixation made during the pandemic is so special to a girl did you know #// anyway im doing as many creative endeavors as I can when i can #// i really love you all & your support throughout the years whether you just got here or have been here for quite a while im blowing kisse #// i should get back to real work soon i hope everyone's having a nice day !!

[maaaxx]

chopped 15 inches off my hair today and dyed it red and im too hot for all of you now no one talk to me

#for context im apostolic #for yall who dont know apostolics are the types of christains who dont cut there hair and dont wear pants #and dont wear skirts and dresses below their knees #i dont have those beliefs specifically but my beliefs are most simular to apostolics than any other christian denomination #so i consider myself apostolic #and it was never really pushed onto me but i just never got my hair cut besides like three trims in my life #because i was scared of the church judging me #and my autistic ass is too scared of change #but im part of a really good church now and theyre not judgy #and im having a crisis #and so i did what tik tok told me to do when im having a crisis and i cut off all my hair and dyed it #its like right above my shoulders now and a really dark red- almost brown #and i love it #it feels like im rebelling against something #but im not #but i dont look boring anymore #max thinks shes relevant #im talking about being apostolic on a tumblr account that i have because i write gay fanfiction #love that for me

[angryborzois]

bro i havent even read the spinoff but ryuusei has been appearing in my dreams for two days in a row now send help

#tr spinoff #sato ryusei #ryusei satou #tokyo revengers spin off #istg if he appears for the third day im gonna virtually punch him #he needs to stop stalking my dreams #i dont even know him as a character yet #i hope that scares him off from my dreams for now #for the record i have nothing against him id just rather have context about him before he starts haunting my dreams #angryborzois rambles

[bibberbang]

i dont think you should be able to take coffee and alcohol together like it shouldnt be possible. that sounds like a combination of drugs that should kill you

#or like they fight inside you and cancel out like probiotics and antibiotics #i know thats not actually what happens but u know. #well on a more personal level i have realized i hate drinking at family events. no wonder! that seems like it should be obvious #given my backstory... like the FEW times ive had a drink at my parents house i was pretty uncomfortable the whole time. #i guess i dont understand why youd want to take a substance that lets your guard down in an environment where u need to be wary #but then i remembered most people arent wary at family parties. my dads family is just insanely toxic #and if im chilling at home with my butch it is nice to have one (1) drug on a special occasion #ok context #i went to my cousins wedding shower today and won a bottle of cranberry wine. its pretty gross but i watered it down and had a tiny bit #and i just feel reallyyyyy chill and comfy right now. so yeah ive figured it out! #the end goal of trauma is not always to engage with the things that once triggered you. but in my case it worked very well for me #because now i know i dont have to be scared of glorified dish soap. and in fact it can be fun on a rare occasion

[caruliaa]

deciding if i want my text post about my father for today becuase too many would be whiny to be about how i get very terrifed anytime he raises his voice and thats prob not normal (which i already knew but yk) or a snarky "how come my dads on discord i though that site just pushed and agenda and tricked people into thinking theyre gay? that why i wasnt allowed it right?"

#see i was writing this post from the perspective that the first one was very concering and the second one is funny. #but yk i j realized to people that arent me theyre both concerning. ok. #my immediate response to seeing my dad on discord btw was to leave the official acnh server j bc thats like the most official server im in #and i got Scared. which is dub bc my dad doesnt play acnh why wld he use that server. but i Got Scared. #also ill tell u like the story of this first one which is that like. basically my sibling connected their phone to the internet at school #to reasearch smth and when they did they got a message from our mother abt watching a movie which was prob from sunday bc #apparently my mum was watching die hard then nd they joined for a bit idk but the fact that they got it now meant they kept being like #'thats weird do you guys think my phone is haunted i tihnk it might be' not entirely seriously #i also very like casually kept being like @na its probalby just a glitch those happen' #nd at some point i was very lightly like 'yk i dont think getting into the who thing of if ghosts exist is worth it when u cld just ask abt #the text message later' and rthe thing is fucking !!! my dad was literally agreeing with me !! but like he also seem somewhat actually like #upset and mad over my sibling saying their phone was haunted or at lest he was raising his voice and like seem mad to me #(i think he thought they were bieng fully serious abt the phone being haunted. nd that tht Not True bc it doesnt align w our religous #beliefs. but also idk if he brought up religon at all) #but the thing is my sibling was literally fine but like. auugh i got scared and freaked out #at some point i just put on my headphones nd tried to ignore it until he had moved on yay. #this happended in the car btw u guys need that context bc cars are eveil places for this reason parents are always Saying Shit there . augh #its so dumb like. this is why even when my parents r being fine i cant like. be around them. because they have caused me actual fr trauma #like intense trauma that impacts me every day bc i see them every fucking day. and i cant get away from it. so fun. #anyway. sorry this became a vent. SAD ! #flappy rambles #vent