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migleefulmoments · 4 years

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Ooh new wedding pics for them to rant over. Honestly if you're going to have a fake wedding why would you blow hundreds of thousands of dollars on a lavish destination event coordinated by a top of the line event planner and thoroughly document it with a bazillion photos? No one puts that much time/effort/money into a fake wedding. Also yes, the PHOTOGRAPHER is going to POST PHOTOS from the wedding, just like she does of all her other gigs. It's how professionals market themselves.

Indeed why would one go to the effort of putting in so many personal details to a fake wedding? They wouldn’t. They would have had an LA event where they would have invited all their celeb friends to get more exposure.

I can’t with the ccer’s claims about “Promotion”. YES, people will post photos of celebs to get promotion-that is how advertising works. Abby and Nonnie’s claims that everyone signed an NDA made me laugh because clearly, they didn’t. If everyone signed NDAs and both their friends and their vendors posted photos during the wedding and Darren has no power here- that makes Darren the biggest twit out there.

Once again Abby- Weddings are not private events. They are often quite public events and the majority of people share photos on social media. One’s wedding day the kind of day you want to celebrate with others and photos of their wedding attire or videos of their reception are the perfect moments to share with the public. The couple is able to keep personal moments private and fans feel like they shared so much.

ajw: Have we officially seen all of the wedding photos now? I think were previously unreleased. Thank good, now i believe it was real, thanks Katie

flowersintheattic254 You got me Katie. Now I’ve seen JeffJ there I’m more convinced than ever (Also Chuck was seen grinning from ear to ear where is your correction on the trope that Chuck was barely there or unhappy).

leka-1998 Wow. I could not be more convinced, 19683rd photo’s the charm. It’s not always easy to forget nightmares either. Black and white though, I can think of a reason why I’d like that to be fitting. ((The pics aren’t intended to convince you of anything but for their friends to celeb a couple they love and a weekend that was special. In fact, I am 100% sure that Katie Edwards doesn’t give a shit about Leka, Flowers, or Abby).

klaineownsmysoul Talk about milking something for all it’s worth. Thanks for making hisbirthday about them. JFC. We can’t get anything that’s just about him anymore. This just reminds me that her dress is a laughable disaster and he’s a really good actor who knows when there’s a camera around. Please go away now. (Somebody upset to see a photo of Mia and Darren looking super happy?).

chrisdarebashfulsmiles I know i shouldn’t but I’m laughing. All these efforts to make stans wet and make us saying something. Ab, RR and Beard just try to use the analytics tools to see that nobody cares about her as a wife and that revealing that she’s a beard would make her actually famous. C'mon. I swear you are annoying with the same shit every day. (I have no clue wtf you are trying to say here. Make stans wet? Why would anyone be wet over his wedding photo? I’m pretty sure that of all photos of Darren, his wedding pic would be the last one someone would wank to. Analytic tools? huh? This was nothing more than a wedding planner/photographer wishing happy birthday to someone she worked with. Funny that you all posted “happy birthday” posts to him and you have never met him but when someone who knows him does the exact same thing, you guys attack.)

ajw720 I wonder if Katie wishes all the brides and all the grooms she takes pics of a happy birthday? (You DID the same thing- you wrote him a HB post and reblogged a dozen others)

sandandfoamworld When you have to sell something, you need to make it credible even if what you are selling is utter shit and you know it.

To make said utter shit credible, you need to push and pull to show that even if it is utter shit, somehow it can work.

When you keep pushing and pushing and pushing but forget to pull every now and then, it means that you are trying way too hard, therefore it is not credible, therefore you will not sell it and you will also lose your credibility as a seller, because not only you tried to sell utter shit, you also failed at it (This is hilarious! more sanctimonious arrogance when nothing they believe is verifiable)

anonymous asked: Any celeb photographer would have signed a 100 nda to not release any photos.. except of course in th case of d.. in this case she must have been paid to release photos...

Not to mention. Ever guest would have signed an NDA. But we’ve seen literally a hundred. Posted by the photographer and half the guests. And copious amounts of video. It’s insanity and so far from reality it’s unreal. And a year later it still doesn’t sell. But they have products to promote as nearly every aspect was a paid ad. And these are indisputable facts.

But they are private right nonnie?

klaineownsmysoul Huh. I don’t remember a new batch of photos being released on M’s bday last fall. She didn’t want to wish the bride a happy bday and thank her as well for making her year? I’m just shocked. Why in the world would single out D’s bday and not M? Is it because he’s the half with the career and followers and she can promote this farce to her advantage this way? No. That couldn’t possibly be it. It must be something else. (YES, IT IS BECAUSE HE’S FAMOUS. This is just plain old advertising 101. You promote your business by showing the best instances of your work and if you have photographed a celeb that- is even better. Everyone likes to use the vendors that celebs used. Katie posts several wedding pics a week and she tags the couple. I don’t see Darren’s b’day mention so that must have been a story which means it was something she didn’t intend to save. I am not sure how Katie’s post is any worse than Abby’s yearly “Dear Darren” letter)

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27emailsicantsend · 5 years

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3x14 and 3x15 Andi Mack scene by scene recap + my unnecessary opinions lol

Forewarning: as from the title these ARE spoilers to the episodes if you haven’t seen it. I’m tagging spoilers out but there’s still a chance they could be seen. Also, I’m giving a scene by scene recap with my opinions of the show. I’ve been requested to do the recap but I also want to talk about what I thought from these episodes in more detail than my post yesterday. So for the most part it’ll be factual but I’m really invested in these two episodes so I’ll definitely be adding my own twang. It’s virtually impossible for me not to recap my own hype for the episodes lol. Hope you’re a Muffy and Tyrus stan bc I’ve got some cOnTeNt for you ❤️

Ok here. we. go.

3x14

Scene starts in the spoon. It’s Andi, Muffy, and Cyrus. Muffy and Cyrus talk about Andi’s parents not getting married while Amber overhears. She gets upset and asks why. Andi clarifies her parents aren’t married, but still together and Amber makes the comment, “unlike my house. My parents are still married but barely together”. Which gets some awks looks from the table. Andi tells them she’s not sad, but angry. Then she says that B&B (Bex and Bowie) said she’s entitled to her feelings to which Cyrus claims as being manipulative?? (Still don’t see how, but he explains that they are playing dodgeball and b&b are on one side and Andi on the other. She has a ball of anger she wants to throw, but they’re ready for it. So if she throws it, they’ll catch it and then she basically can’t show her anger- he’s obviously been listening to his counseling parents hahaha). Andi asks where she can throw her anger ball (lol) so Amber takes her to a sledge hammer place (Rage Cage) where everyone is in individual cages that have old items that you just beat up with a sledge hammer.

*opening song*

Andi is laying on her bed and gets a really excited phone call from CeCe about the wedding to which Andi feels guilty. She tries to tell Bex to tell CeCe it’s cancelled but Bex refuses bc the next day is CeCe’s bday. This scene had some really good acting BTW (I’ll probably tell you when this happens too bc honestly props to the actors. And the cinematography and music in these two episodes is beautiful. Literally made me feel like I was watching a movie).

Buffy runs up to Marty at a bench and he gets a big dimple smile bc why wouldn’t he be excited to see her?? Lol Buffy starts mocking Marty’s shoes because they have toe inserts and that’s when he tells her they are for a marathon. Buffy gets confused (and lowkey upset) she didn’t know about the marathon and Marty is all, “we have a lot of catching up to do” and I’m all (you have a lot of dating to do because my soul has been empty this past season without you. #RIPME 😭 ⚰️). So Buffy gets all flirty competitive and says she wants to race as well. Marty tries to talk her out of it bc he’s worried about an injury, dehydration, etc. but this is Buffy we’re talking about and she insists she can do it and then runs away lol, but Marty can’t help the love he feels for her and smiles sheepishly as he goes to run away with her (very metaphoric. I love)

Jonah and Cyrus are walking and Cyrus invites Jonah to see a meteor shower in his backyard for a campout (good Jyrus moment if you ship that) Jonah makes a lame joke about not having a s’more in awhile and so he has “s’less”- Cyrus tells him not to hurt himself making that joke 😂😂

B&B and Andi are at a restaurant waiting for CeCe & Ham. CeCe shows up and tells everyone Ham went back to India.

Cyrus and Jonah go into a beautifully set up tent where Cyrus obviously had to out-do himself and make everything in the tent extra. I love a gay interior design queen.

Back at the restaurant, CeCe says Ham went to India for rest. CeCe makes some really weird remark about seeing him again (yikes) and the rest make comments about him doing what he needs to do and that they have to accept it and not take each other for granted. Very subtextual of the real situation, but also a great way to write off his character and play into Bex worrying about cancelling the wedding. She showed fear like she wouldn’t want to say anything to CeCe bc he’s gone, but since CeCe was ok with him leaving, Bex calmed down too. Just really well done. CeCe tried to show Bex venue photo’s and Bex tried to stop her but then Bex just says she had a problem mailing the wedding invites *cliff hanger*

Cyrus and Jonah back at the tent. Jonah is panicking about dying in Cyrus’ backyard and Cyrus brings meat into the tent but makes it all flirty and weird- I don’t ship Jyrus but the whole thing lowkey felt like they were trying to impress Jyrus shippers with date vibes haha (also the meat is BAD if you’re camping bc animals can get to you). Then an animal hits their tent at (obviously) the right time

CeCe now knows the wedding is off and is PiSsEd™️. The waiters are all completely unaware and don’t know how to read the room so they bring a sparkler cake. CeCe flips the sparkler upside down, shoves it in the cake, and exits as dramatically as possible. Leaving the mustached waiter with an awkward face like:

Then there was this weird commercial on my app promoting season 2 like bish you already know I watched that season at least twice don’t play me like that

Back to the pointless tent scene (for real- this scene was just filler. You rip off Tyrus FOR THIS? Actual homophobia). Jonah mispronounces some weird thing (and Cyrus says don’t hurt yourself again) and then breaks the tent. Cyrus makes a failed attempt at opening the tent with a cheese knife but Shazam! saves the day by telling Cyrus not to hurt himself and opening the tent with the same cheese knife (honestly, weird flex but ok). They escape and are saved and watch a poorly CGI’d meteor shower like two old men on their front porch. and yippee five minutes of wasted screen time are over. I don’t care if you ship Jyrus. It was a waste of time when we could have been focusing on the TeA of the show. *rant over- no worries. Many more to come*

Back to important matters, Muffy is now running their race. Marty doesn’t want to race. He just wants to finish in under 4 hours and Buffy wants to finish under his time. Buffy agrees with Mr. Party at first, but then hears the word “race” and bolts away like Lightning McQueen.

Bex and Andi back at the house. Bex says it went bad with CeCe bc she won’t even act like Bex exists. Andi realizes her anger and knows where to take her (you guessed it. RAGe CAGe- Andi said it wasn’t for Bex lol so she wouldn’t tell Bex where she was going with CeCe 😂 the shade)

Marty is jogging along like a middle aged white woman and sees Buffy wheezing. He gets all husband like and concerned as he catches her in his arms. (Which reminds me of a pic I saw on Tumblr where they drew her in his arms but laced it with the “Miss Keisha” vine and I was here for it). Then Marty and Buffy put their arms around each other and he escorts her to a bench. (Just saying, everyone knows Tyrus is going to involve a bench scene but as us loyal fans know, Muffy shadows Tyrus and they have also encountered two (2) benches thus far. Coincidence? Maybe. Will I believe it was a coincidence? Absolutely not). Then he puts her on the bench and acts all cute and paramedic and concerned. He’s been taking doc notes at General Hospital obviously. (He even mentions taking her to a doctor). Buffy is all like, “Run your race Marty. 4 1/2 hours. [I’m the supportive girlfriend you hoe].” And he doesn’t want to leave her and she accuses him of being a martyr? Then she snaps at him (like tf) to go away and he gets all angsty™️ and runs off and my heart broke bc I was not ready for a Muffy battle.

Andi and CeCe at the Rage Cage... rage. In a cage.

Marty comes running back to Buffy with a dimple smile again bc he knows she was trying to “White Fang” him from a movie they saw together (❤️). To “White Fang” is for the boy in the movie to send the wolf away, wolf doesn’t want to leave, so the boy throws rocks at him to make him go. Buffy is caught (but she ain’t mad) and I need to quote this part word for word bc it’s TOO CUTE 🥰🥰🥰

B: You’re the one who said we should run our own race

M: That’s what I’m doing

B: Wanna sit here with me?

M: No. I wanna cross the finish line with you 😭😭😭

And that, my friends, was the day my heart ripped in half from joy

Then he picks her up and they put their arms around each other (I seriously can’t. They made me cry last night and lowkey I thought it was bc I was tired but I’m fully energized and watery eyed... sooo....) then Marty makes a joke about them running and Buffy goes, “you’re hilarious” and his voice gets all soft and he looks at her all gentle and goes, “you finally figured that out” AND PLEASE TERRI STOP IT HURTS. But no, the scene CONTINUES BECAUSE MY HEART APPARENTLY COULD TAKE THAT (lies). And the scene changes and now Marty is PIGBACKING HER ACROSS THE FINISH LINE THREE HOURS LATER. LIKE STOP. STOP. I CAN’T HANDLE THESE TENDER MOMENTS. (Seriously they were together an extra three hours with him helping her. I’m WeAk). And they both get medals and Buffy compliments him so he gets all happy and tells her to keep going, but she runs out of compliments so he goes, “ok, I just wanted to see how deep that well went” with his eyes darting all over her face and then the music shifts to almost like progressive-romantic music as BUFFY PUTS HER ARM BACK AROUND HIM AND THEY WALK AWAY (the music was placed so we knew they were having a moment) and that was the exact moment I died. MY PARENTS. (Watched this scene 3 times and will 100% watch it at least 1000 more).

Then Andi sees Amber raging. In a cage. She’s like “excuse me? What are you doing here” and Amber is all mad at Jonah and Andi’s all break up with your boyfriend yeah yeah cuz I’m bored. And Amber wasn’t here for it because apparently she thinks she’s in love with Jonah now? (with tears in her eyes... I mean, love to me isn’t that angry and hating everything he does [he only sent her six emoji’s apparently and just isn’t there for her] that it drives you to physical violence but ok)-(but good acting along with the last Muffy scene but I’m sure ya’ll picked up on that from my synopsis lol)

3x15

FYI this synopsis won’t be AS long, but that’s because Muffy is absent and I have an unexpresible love for them and this episode also sent me over the EDGE with Tyrus 🙄😤🙃 but I’ll do what I can with Tyrus bc it’s still gay and angsty and I was here for that part of it (also I love the Terri devoted two separate episodes to Tyrus and Muffy. Like she really knows this Friendom and what will keep us watching lol)

Unnecessary opening scene with B&B and Andi going to the movie instead of spending time on their phones (it was cute but unnecessary. I liked in the last episode that the rage cage in the beginning scene actually tied into the episode)

*opening credits*

Buffy and Cyrus watching Kira and TJ like hawks from the bench far away and Buffy is confused af about it. She asks Cyrus and he gets all angsty (I WILL over use this word bc it’s too accurate for this episode, wait til you actually see it) and goes “I don’t know” *shoulder shrug* “I haven’t been hanging out with TJ lately”

Buffy: because of that?

Cyrus: they’ve been pretty much attached at the hip (then Kira has the AUDACITY to jump on TJ’s back) and the back. They look happy.

B: it won’t last. Kira’s not a nice person. Only took me a day to figure that out. Since he’s a GUY, it’ll take longer.

Cloud 10 with Bex and Andi discussing Bex and CeCe making up, but in front of CeCe. CeCe is still PiSsEd™️. Bex tries to talk to her and BEGS to make up with her mom but her mom is cold and I felt Bex’s pain. (Great acting in this scene too. I just wanted to hug Bex. Like did you really have to do her a dirty like that? With Tyrus and Bex, this episode is starting to feel like 3x13 again and I thought we all agreed to never speak of that episode ever again)

Cyrus is sitting all angsty and alone with some frozen yogurt in front of a greenhouse? Literally no idea where he is at but it’s such a mood lol and even funnier that TJ found him there. Like where are they?? Hahahaha but ANYWAY, TJ sits down and confronts Cyrus about avoiding him. Cyrus says he isn’t but TJ is like “kinda feels like it”. Cyrus tries to say that TJ has been occupied with Kira taking up his time and TJ denies that hard. And here’s the TEA sis:

Cyrus: you two are clearly hitting it off. Which is great. I’m happy for you guys.

TJ: you make it sound like we’re a couple. We’re not. We mostly just talk about basketball.

C: and then you give her a piggy back ride?

T: she bet me I couldn’t carry her. That was all

Then TJ tried to tell Cyrus to hangout with them more and Cyrus rejects that bc Kira knows Cyrus is Buffy’s best friend. Then Kira comes in to hoe around the scene and sits at the table. Says “heyyyy” all flirty to TJ 😒 and “hi Cyrus” direct and cold to Cyrus. Then becomes the most fake hoeeeee when pretending to agree with TJ that they should hang out more with Cyrus. Cyrus YEETS outta there and Mr. heart eyes looks like he created depression (it was that prevalent). Kira gets all needy and is like, “hellooo? I’m over here” and TJ just looks at her with the fakest angsty smile. Like why.

At the spoon, the GHC AND Jonah are sitting and Andi tells of this store called Mint Chip where they burn clothes rather than donate them bc it would make the brand look bad and lose sales if it’s with charity. Like??? Ok you actually look better with charity sooooo take two steps back B. Buffy gets the taste of wanting to be a bad guy (cue bad guy by Billie Eilish) and they all go dumpster diving and get the clothes from Mint Chip’s dumpster. Not much happens other than them stealing clothes and Buffy says her ankle hurts so she can’t get in the dumpster. IDK if that’s from the dehydration last episode (bc when she’s walking with Marty 😍 she’s limping) or if she fell wrong at the dumpster. It’s foreshadowing bc I know she has a hurt foot in a later episode so not sure where it will come in or why.

The kids have an outdoor “sidewalk sale” where they give away the free clothes from mint chip and some lady comes and gets a coat. She shows up later in the episode to tell Bex and CeCe about the sale but they do nothing. It was really weirdly staged like this character had more importance in the episode and got cut or she has importance later on. IDK? She just got a ton of screen time for it to go nowhere so we’ll see. And Cyrus is a Queen and styled some guy for an interview and Buffy is a Queen and styled a lady for a first online date. Then Jonah is just himself and doesn’t know what a pencil skirt is. *cue clothing sale montage with Jonah being a player and talking to lots of girls and the GHC+Jonah looking all sweet looking at pics from the day*

B&B get a wedding gift from Celia. It’s a snow globe from the night Bowie proposed, but since it’s mailed, was sent before CeCe knew about the cancellation. Bex tries to write her a thank you card but can’t and cries through it (great acting here too- Bex just takes the cake on acting TBH)

At the sale, Cyrus shows Buffy a shirt he wants to give to TJ (which isn’t a hoodie, surprisingly). He takes a pic & sends it to him to ask if he likes it and Buffy says “it’ll look good with his eyes” and Cyrus is all “it WILL 😍”

Buffy: he’s gonna like it. Why don’t you just give it to him?

C: I thought about that. I’m not sure how much he’s want that.

B: a free shirt??

C: ME. Giving him a free shirt.

B: there’s a great way to find out

C: what is it?

B: *forcing the shirt back to Cyrus* give him the shirt. Maybe it’ll mean something to him. Maybe it won’t. Either way, it’s a nice thing to do [seriously though I stan a Tyrus Ally]

C: it’s TJ. Thumbs up on the shirt *replying to Teej lol* you should come by the sale. It’s amazing. *back to the Vampire Slayer* was that too braggy?

B: not braggy enough

C: TJ *reading the message* I’m at the park *back to Buffy* what do you think that means?

B: he wants you to meet him?

C: you think

B: why else would he tell you where he is?

C: should I bring the shirt? I’m gonna being the shirt. *walks away and comes back* the shirt feels weird

B: then don’t take it

C: *walks away and comes back*

B: *whilst saying nothing hands Cyrus the shirt with a loving, yet so over Cyrus’ gay angst expression*

C: he’s gonna be expecting it... so I’m just gonna- yeah *yeets out of there in gay*

Kira and TJ at the park. Kira asks who TJ is texting and he says no one 😤 so TJ suggests feeding the ducks and Kira decides to hoe around yet again and suggests swinging first. She’s all flirty and TJ is ~not straight and not here for it~. He’s all like “I’m not five” like he doesn’t go swinging and Kira gets all competitive over who can swing higher and makes comments reflecting his and Cyrus’ convo which gets him to get on the swing (reluctantly) and also she is on Cyrus’ swing?? So umm? Get tf off???? And that’s when Cyrus pops around a tree, shirt in hand, to see THAT DISGUSTING MOCKERY OF A FRIENDSHIP I HATE IT SO MUCH??? EWWWW. And he’s all sad and angsty and jealous so he walks away **AND AS HE’S WALKING AWAY DOES A LOOK BACK SOOOOOOOOOO HE IS FOR SURE IN LOVE FREAKING HECK I CAN’T** and I just want to hug my boi and I can’t hug him and ugh 😭😭😭 my sad tears are here.

So Cyrus sees Buffy and tells her TJ was with Kira so that makes Buffy all annoyed (she’s a real one). Cyrus becomes a liar and says they’re “good together” again. Buffy tries to reassure him it won’t last, but Cyrus isn’t sure and now has this shirt he doesn’t know what to do with. He gives it to Jonah and says he has nice eyes too??? Like umm? Rebound much, Cyrus?? Like Boo. Don’t do that. I’m here for YOU. Jonah then tells some woman about how they pulled off the clothing shop and a police officer shows up. They don’t have a license to sell and never bought the clothing so they can’t give it for free. Next thing you know Bex is getting a call (after trying to make things right with CeCe AGAIN and more A+ acting.. seriously though freaking FORGIVE HER ALREADY SHE IS DOING EVERYTHING SHE CAN) and runs with CeCe to go help bail the GHC+Jonah out of jail (this was also after the woman in the coat makes a 2 second appearance at cloud 10 to talk about the sale and NOTHING HAPPENS WITH HER SO WHY). The scene ends with the cell door closing so I hope next episode maybe this scare freaks CeCe enough into making up with Bex. But IDK.

I’ve got many mixed feelings about these episodes. Hope you enjoyed my highly detailed and opinionated synopsis of the show 😂😂 can’t wait for next week!! ❤️

#andi mack #am spoilers #andi mack spoilers #tyrus #muffy #epidode recap #buffy driscoll #marty from the party #tj kippen #cyrus goodman #sophia wylie #luke mullen #garren lake #joshua rush #bexie #cece mack #bex mack

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kxlebcross · 4 years

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hippity hoppity here goes the long ass rant about my cousin

for context - i was a kid when i started liking kpop, like 13-14 yrs old? i was still collecting plushies, reading magazines for young teens, enjoying some music and playing sims. yes, i may have had my emo episode back then with some heavy music too, and that never went well with my mum’s older sister and her heavily religious husband, but oh boi, the worst was my cousin. she is 6 yrs older than me and that was around the time she started picking out an university to go to, so the focus HAD to be on her, the important future student and her boyfriend and this and that... she was always going on about going to art school and she was really fucking talented so she had all chances to be a really great artist, getting married to her boyfriend, wanting a family and all her future, while i was just a middle school kid dressing in all black, who suddenly started enjoying some fun kpop song on their otherwise heavy metal/rock music playlist.

when she find out, she was GIVING ME HELL for it. do you remember 2013 kpop? adtoy by 2pm, ringa linga by gd & taeyang, gentleman by psy or fantastic baby by bigbang? i fucking loved those songs. i was a kid in a really bad place in life after moving 2 countries away from the place where i was born, from all my friends, my school, my life... listen, it’s 10 years hitting this year since my mother decided about moving and i’m still not over it, so just imagine, how bad i must’ve felt back then, when it wasn’t even a year after the move? i was a devastated little kid who found a little joy in some fun, jumpy kpop tones in contrast to the usual heavy music i was listening to usually (do you remember the oldest bring me the horizon songs, all the screaming and anger? think of it as my regular playlist, my mother hated it haha). i was never a diehard fan, never had posters of idols on my walls, i only have like 2 merch pieces (and those aren’t even original cuz we were poor and could never afford it, so i looked up the merch online and my mum had a similar thing done in a local, cheaper workshop for my birthday one time, please don’t judge me for that) and it was just music for me, as well as the english, american, japanese, polish and hungarian music was just music too.

and i got terrible shit for it from my cousin, who pretty much criticized everything about me: my clothes (we were poor, i was mostly dressing out of second hand shops and surprise - her hand-me-downs), my shitty phone (and old samsung model i got for my 9th or 10th bday), my taste in books (i really REALLY loved king’s books to which one of my classmates introduced me back then), my inability to perfectly speak the language (though i was raised in a bilingual household, the main language in my house was hungarian, and i was a stubborn kid who rarely ever wanted to speak polish at home, so when we moved i could barely speak the language, had to take extra classes every day in school for almost the entire first school year i spent here because i had to learn to write and speak properly), but the biggest shit i always got for kpop, that it’s garbage, that i don’t even understand it, it’s just shitty party music with extra steps... i resented her for that A LOT, which probably had smth to do with the age difference too, but hey, whatever. i always closed up when we visited them and my mum was understanding about it, she pretty much allowed me to just hang around the place and listen to my music, play on my phone or just read a book, and my aunt hated it - but it was at least peaceful, i occasionally got the kpop jab from my cousin which i shrugged off, but that was it... until one time i spoke up.

i can’t remember what it was about - but we were all having lunch and it was easter or christmas maybe, and at a certain point i got called out for something, maybe using my phone under the table? anyway, i spoke up about treating me like shit because i was already 15 by that and i had a big fucking mouth and no tolerance for their bullshit after listening to it for two years, which ended in my mother almost going into a shock after hearing my vicious remark, my aunt’s husband going into a raging fit and my aunt telling my mum that she’s a terrible mother and raised a terrible kid. we left after that and i didn’t return to them in the following years - i just heard from the grapevine that my cousin ended up dropping out of college because “it was just too tiring and too much”, broke up with her boyfriend and then was just sleeping around with some random dudes, and generally just misrailed her life and had to move back in with her parents who were devastated after all their hopes about my cousin went to hell.

i haven’t seen them for years - we sort of reconciled a few years later when my mother forced me to do it; my cousin probably forgot by then whatever shit she was giving me earlier and we hanged out a bit, caught up and shit... i’m pretty sure it was only because she was to get married to her boyfriend and wanted the whole family there? not important.

the boyfriend is a pretty awful person imo tbh - he has some nationalist tendencies, not once spoke up in a very homophobic and derogatory way about all kind of lgbtq+ people, which in the end resulted in me removing him from all my social medias, because miss me with that nationalism babe. anyway, they got married and moved into their own place and into the family spotlight again, while i finished school and then years after their wedding my mum announced very proudly that i finished school with good grades and got into university - which immediately stirred the shit in the old shit bucket our relations were. my own fucking aunt dared saying that i’ll never succeed in life and will drop out than her own daughter would because i’m not made for a successful life. she never said it to my face - said it to my mother, who gave up a job she loved just so she could send me half a country away from my home so i could study where i wanted. i mean, i have my own issues with my mother too but i can’t not admire her sacrifices she made for me - so that sort off hit it off again with me and i once again burned bridges with them when moving out 3 years ago. seen them maybe two times since then? i mean, i never tried reaching out to them - they only ever got some happy birthdays and merry christmases on facebook, because my mother insisted i do that. they never called or wrote back, not for my birthday, not for christmas, not for anything else. i only found out in the last few months that on that christmas 2 yrs ago, which i spent alone, they were asked by my mum to please invite me over at least for a coffee. they never even called and my mum was heartbroken over it, because she was literal thousands of kilometres away, working and counted on her sister to invite me... my mum’s friends, basically strangers, ended up inviting me over for a christmas dinner in the end. i spent a family holiday with people i’ve literally seen five times in my life and they were more than joyful to have me in their company and they even got me a present, while my technically closes family couldn’t even spare a phone call.

now i’m 23 and my cousin is closing on 30 - and she’s suddenly overcome with that kpop obsession she has, spamming both instagram and facebook with mv links, fantaken photos, band-related posts and news articles, all heart emojis and “OmG i LoVe ThEm” kind of bullshit captions, she’s intensely drooling over certain members she’s posting a lot about, i’m seeing at least 15 posts daily about her bad drawings of members of the band.... listen.... if an artist doesn’t practice for 7+ yrs, the skills they had just start to fade away even if they were really talented (trust me, i know it from my own experiences, i used to know how to draw, sing and play a few instruments when i was young but then i stopped practicing and now the most i can draw in a stickman, i can’t play any instruments for shit and i’m a low average in singing too), but she thinks she’s some motherfucking superstar of drawing portraits (trust me, shes NOT) and keeps spamming all those pics and posts and shit.... and just seeing that sort of brought the memories back, of her treating me like shit over a thing she’s now obsessed with and i’m just sitting here like.... gag.

i could absolutely understand being a fan and being a group stan but there is a certain limit after which being a fan turns into that gross, twisted thing. do you know all those memes that go along the lines of “i don’t hate kpop because of the music, i hate kpop over the r*tarded fans it has”? that’s a whole ass mood. i’m sure that everyone who’s at least interested in kpop heard of the insane psychofan part of the fanbase.... and she’s turning into it. she’s fucking drooling over some famous strangers while she’s like... 30. and has a husband. would it be so hard for her to “keep it in her pants”? i’m super NOT interested in seeing all that crazy fan shit she’s pulling and honestly she’s grossing me out and you know people like her are the reason i can’t even fucking enjoy kpop anymore the way i did earlier - because it’s being fucking pushed down my god damned throat every-fucking-where i look. just calm the very fuck down, please. behave like a god fucking damned adult.

#kush speaks #rant #personal #listen... im not gonna name the band #lets just say its not a rookie band so its not like shes a paedo drooling over literal children #its just mainly about the crazy fan behavior shes presenting #from what i know she started being a fan in january #and she went batshit crazy in like 3 months??? cuz ive been seeing those posts since march i think??#or april? smth like that #i earlier didnt pay much attention tbh #but now that were in lockdown she probs has way too much time on her hands #and shes spending it being a psychofan lol #and its just making me uncomfortable #REALLY uncomfortable #supporters of that behavior pls do not interact #cousin hate tag

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youmightaswell · 5 years

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Die!

Say ‘Yes’ to the Dress?

I have secrets. Nothing so awful, but just weird stuff. This is the most benign of recent things that have been bothering me. So I figured I’d start with this. A sort of mental amuse bouche, if you will.

I also have a burning desire to out myself. To free myself from self-blackmail. I tell myself that I will not bully myself into feeling bad and worrying someone will find out my indiscretions; I don’t negotiate with terrorists, even if the terrorist is myself.

So here is some recent weirdness I need to off my chest.

I guess it all started around the same time with two things converging.

The first one was that my friend Karina told me she is getting married in September and to save the date. Normally I hate weddings, but this one will be fun. It’s her second marriage and her fiance is the best guy she ever dated. I love him. He is cute, funny, super successful and a chef to boot. You’ve seen him on television. It’s being held in a cool hotel and is small so I’ll know most of the people there. I even have a date: my friend of 30+ years is going to go with me. He is going through a bad divorce so he is single and lives right by the place.

Sure, I’m me so I am also a bit sad. Like where the fuck is my guy? When’s my second marriage with a guy far better than the first? Where’s my huge ring and huge dick and fancy new apt?

But I digress.

So Karina texted me a dress she liked. She wanted something not too weddingy and “edgy”. The dress, though, was a one-of-a-kind she tried on from an Israeli designer to the tune of $4,000. She could afford it but it just seemed silly to spend so much on a dress. She was hoping to find an alternative, and quick. So, curious, I started researching to see what was out there. I found a few great ones – midi white dresses with lace but that are more cool evening dress than formal gown. Anyway, over the next few weeks she’d text me others she likes and back and forth it went. I had wedding dresses on the brain. She still hasn’t decided on which to wear but is close to a winner. Me? Well, that’s for later in the story.

Concurrently I was excited because I had just found a website about two months ago that has incredibly cheap shit. I was reticent about ordering something because those wacky Chinese-based sites can be very hit or miss. But I read the online reviews and finally ordered a tassel bikini which upon arrival became my favorite swimsuit ever!

Soon it became compulsive. I found a 20% off code and ordered a few other bikinis. As previously noted I do not need any bikinis. I own about 45 swimsuits now. I worry that I can’t stop the collecting process. See? Harmless but nutso.

Most came to about $8. I soon tried dresses, tops, stickers, earrings.

The site posts a link to new ware arrivals daily. I’d eagerly wake and race to the computer to see if anything new was posted that I’d just love. I still can’t stop doing it. Thankfully most of the stuff doesn’t fit right and gets returned promptly. Still, I’d say I spent about $1200 in total in the last two months. Not anything horrible, but still, behavior I need to monitor.

Most of the stuff on the site is cheesy but there are a bunch of gems as well.

Shortly after I began my addiction, I bought two dresses I had absolutely no need for, but luckily when Karina alerted me of her impending wedding I was excited I might get to wear one of the two of my cheap, yet stylish dresses to the event. Serendipitous, no?

[As an aside do you like either of these for me for a fairly casual wedding? Which is your fave? They will be coupled with black open-toed Louboutins that I’m wearing in this bday picture– and and aside to the aside, the lace bodysuit i’ wearing in that pic was $14 from the same cheapo site.

I love it and got so many compliments on it at my bday dinner.]

This?

But then I took this one step further – a step into what might be considered dysfunctional, bordering on pathetic.

I found a white delicate dress with a mesh and sequin overlay that I loved. I thought to myself that if I were to get remarried I’d want to wear it. I would never spend thousands and probably not even hundreds on a wedding dress. If I were to ever get married I’d do so on a beach with like 4 people there so I’d want something to wear that was cute and throwaway – you know, like my first husband.

I obsessed over this dress. Probably a combo of being jealous Karina gets to have a big day in a white fancy dress and my desire to shop (cheaply) until I drop. I visited this dress online daily for a few weeks. I read every review and looked at every post. (People are encouraged to post pics of themselves in items they bought for bonus points towards discounts.) This dress seemed to fit everyone so well. A few people bought it for their bachelorette parties or their rehearsal dinners. One wore it to her court wedding.

So I began rationalizing: it’s summer, maybe I’d be invited to a gala? Maybe some sort of fancy charity event? Further rationalization: It’s so cheap – just $22 with my discount that even if it sat in my closet doing nothing for years it wouldn’t be a hardship. It couldn’t hurt to just buy this white, mock-wedding dress to try on, could it?

It arrived so quickly! I felt like I was doing something wrong and bad unpacking it so of course it was titillating. It wasn’t like I was setting up appointment to Vera Wang’s bridal atelier and trying on dresses for a fake wedding. I wasn’t regaling folks with the tale of how I met my phantom boyfriend who lives in Canada. This was harmless and different. Indulging a weird need in myself I hadn’t realized I had, but that felt so good.

And so it turns out this dress looks amazing on me. It’s sexy and demure all at the same time. I tried it on and walked around my house, too scared to snap a picture, for fear someone would see me in this white fancy dress and ask what the occasion was. Never mind that I live only with the dog, and she has witnessed far weirder.

But as you know sometimes a small thing can be a gateway to bigger things.

The site suggests other items similar to the ones you purchased that you rated highly.

And lo! Turns out there is a long gown with a train that is the same exact dress but in gown form. What is this fresh anxiety I feel? Well, now that I made peace with the fact I bought a knee-length white dress with fantasies of a beach wedding, I was seguing into fantasies about wearing an even more formal gown.

And yup, I bought that too. And yup, it fit amazingly. Like seriously this dress (okay, so now there are two dresses – judge if you want!) was made for me. Sadly there is no rationalizing this one away. There is simply no event I can be asked to attend that it would be appropriate attire for – except my own wedding.

So now I keep touching them in the closet. I keep peering at them sort of hidden among the more mundane work-a-day dresses, my two dirty little secrets.

This holiday weekend I got home from a barbecue and later after I had bathed, had nothing to do. I found myself putting on and wearing my gown for hours.

Yesterday I found myself casually (actually rather intensely for about two hours) looking on the internet for a blusher-length head piece that would go perfectly with The Dress’s flowery pattern. (FWIW: found one but didn’t buy it. Yet.)

Then this weekend in the NYT Vows column the wedding of a Lyme sufferer was highlightedand featured her in an amazing fringe skirt for her wedding. I mean I have the Lyme and the skirt, so where is my fucking husband?

I did confess all this weirdness to Yale and he told me to come down and we should just watch movies while I wear my gown. But I’m too scared somehow I’ll ruin it. I told him I hope I die soon so I can be buried in it. He suggested with no mockery that I should add that directive to my will.

So there you go.

For all you know I could be typing this very entry while wearing the full-length glory.

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thestangossip · 5 years

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I’m that anon you asked to message you privately. I’m not making tumblr just for the proof, but sending you this submission with a bunch of private info, so you don’t have to post it.

Again, take this all however you want (i can’t and won’t prove/convince you of anything 100%). Rachelle’s bf is rudymaarek. He’s a French guy, so that’s why R goes to Paris frequently. He lives with her in LA tho. So yeah, the guy made his IG private Saturday night, but he posted stuff in NY about 4 days ago (that’s why i said it’s possible they all hung out on Friday, not Saturday when the video was posted). The video was posted 7am NY time (4am LA), it’s possible R uploaded it on her way back to LA (she’s known to lategram a lot of her stuff).

Now, about the people in the video. Again, you can take this with a grain of salt or whatever the saying is. A guy in the video is willmakris, he posted similar stuff to that bar video, just a few hours earlier (again, that’s why i think it was a lategram). He recently came back from Italy, and was in NYC since then (according to his stories). Also posted stories from NY a few hours ago and some post geo-tagged as Philly, but that might be just a tag. Anyway, wherever he is now is not LA. A woman in the video is lyndarochas. She set her IG on private sometime yesterday, so i obviously can’t prove anything (not that I’m trying tbh). But she posted a bunch of (again) similar stories around the same time of that video with E. That Will guy was featured in her stories, too. According to IGs of some of R & E mutual friends (Felicity and I guess her name is Kate) they all hang out a lot. Last time was in late July of this year, in the similar setting to this bar/restaurant that’s in the video posted by R. Cameron & Beej also posted from that bar quite a couple of times in the last 3 months. I guess it’s called a Bowery? Idk, I’m not a New Yorker. But it’s near that infamous bridge and I really think it was where they celebrated Seb and Beej’s joint bday. It has quite a few bars along that bridge and E seems to hang out there a lot with her friends. I might be wrong about that bar tho, so again, not claiming anything. Btw, fun fact, both that Will guy and Lynda were at Will and Alissa’s wedding.

So yeah. Also Rachelle posted that waffles story almost 19 hours after that video with E. She easily could’ve gone back to LA during that time (besides, might be a lategram). I obviously can’t prove anything 100% and believe me, I’m not trying to do so. Either of us can be right or wrong. I just think that R turning up in LA almost a day (or two - in case of lategram) after posting that IG story doesn’t necessarily mean that E is in LA as well. I do find it kinda shady that R posted just that one video of E and nothing else (she usually posts a lot). I can actually buy the troll theory 🤔.

Also, (it’s just my opinion) I don’t think that E would go to LA when Seb is most likely about to return. I don’t think he’s going straight to Greece after LA. He might spend a day or two in NY, pack some stuff maybe… besides, he seems to be quite busy now. E had so many chances/weekends to go visit him, but she didn’t. Doubt she would now. But she def could ask her friends to make it look that way. She did it with that art post (the one before her latest selfie). She was there with C&B who posted stories, but didn’t feature her. Later, when she posted those pics, her friend Joey commented a day she was there, which is the same day C&B were there. Also the same thing happened recently when Toby Hemingway posted some video with Seb’s voice in it and ppl started freaking out over some brunette’s shoulder, lol. E was in NY that day, bc C and Will posted stuff from the Met and we know that Will doesn’t hang out with C&B without E. So her behavior is def shady. She made sure to reappear before Seb is off to Greece, after almost a month of hiding. But I sincerely don’t think she’s in LA right now or was at all during Seb’s visit. Again, not claiming anything here. It’s fine if you disagree or don’t believe. I don’t believe quite a few things you say too. It’s just opinions, assumptions. Nothing is a concrete truth, therefore can’t be presented as 100% facts.

wow this is really interesting and super in-depth. kudos to you anon. I’m inclined to agree with you, and tbh the latergram wouldn’t surprise me. I’m interested to see what everyone else things

#mod jasmine #submission

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teenageangstpaidoffwell-blog · 6 years

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Other people

want to keep in touch.

Well, here I am- capitalizing the beginning of my sentences and everything. This.is.30.! I didn’t think I’d ever come back to this journal. Didn’t think I’d journal at 30. But here I am.

I viewed my habit of journaling as something I was leaving behind. Didn’t need it anymore. I’ve done some form of journaling/documenting my life since I was 8 or 9 years old, I guess I can’t stop now. I go back and read about myself through the years (after all, our selves are usually our favorite subjects) and love to re-live certain days/times/memories as I read. It takes me back in time in a way and I often times wonder how I could have had that mindset or been that immature. Everything takes time, especially maturity.

Maturity for me took quite a while it seems, as I re-read the last entries I posted. I laugh at most of the things I’d written. So dumb, so clueless. How I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to keep going forward, push yourself more, and to not give two shits about that dumb boy back in college because guess what? You aren’t with him anymore! Those silly trivial things that seemed to matter so much to you are just blips in your story and will not matter in the long run. You definitely did better, my dear. That’s what I’d say. I always try to look at the tough times as learning experiences though.

Well, as it turns out, boyfriend and I turned into fiance and I- now husband and I. Very happily married. Almost one year! Nuts to think about. I also told myself I never wanted kids and now I can’t wait to start a family with him. He’s the best thing that has happened to me in my life besides my parents and I feel lucky and happy every single day. He goes above and beyond for me and does everything he can to keep me happy. He’s funny and he always keeps me laughing (something I so very need). Looking back on my old posts and the tough times I think ‘I wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t have been there’. It feels so good to be in a loving relationship and know that I’m where I’m supposed to be.

I work for a great company now and am on my second career path. I love almost every aspect of it. I make about $50k right now and I have the ability to bonus every month. I’m second in command and my pilot is one of the best people I’ve met. As much as she can be a bit scatter-brained, messy and lacking in managerial skills sometimes, she makes up for it in stride in other ways. She is such a genuinely nice person and it’s so rare to find that these days. We just click, too. She gets me and I get her with little to no effort. It’s so nice!

I try not to equate it to astrology, but sometimes I can’t help but connect the dots when I come across them. She and I are exactly one week apart- same birth year and everything. She is a sensitive soul, an old soul, like me. It just feels really nice to know someone who is similar. I’ve not experienced it before in a friend.

Speaking of astrology, journaling was one of the ways I’ve read to help with all my ~*feelings*~ with my moon being in Scorpio. Seems I’ve been on the right path all along with turning to journaling even at a young age. I think I’ve always known I needed somewhere to vent and to place all these thoughts/feelings/rants.

I had my annual review last week and she told me that I’m her “greatest find (but don’t tell anyone :)”. She made me cry. It felt so good to hear that I’m appreciated. I will go above and beyond wherever I work- I’ve found that I have a strong need to feel appreciated for it. I feel like I do a lot there and it was so nice to finally hear it. She told me that with the next store manager opening she is going to recommend me to Jen. She said it’s a double-edged sword because she wants me to succeed but doesn’t want to lose me. I agreed and told her that she’s the best partner I could ask for and that I truly enjoy working with her but wouldn’t want to leave. Just typing all this is making me tear up because it will be hard when we don’t work together. Gah, I always feel everything so deeply. It is a blessing as well as a curse.

Part of my over-analyzing and becoming more self-aware has revealed many things to me off and on the past few years. I always struggled growing up and didn’t really know how to process my many emotions. Part of having such an emotional moon sign/Capricorn sun/whatever: I feel everything. Hell, I sometimes tear up when people tell me something tough they’re going through- I can feel their pain.

I’ve also realized that I have the potential to use that passion for good or...bad. It’s not hard for me to be a bad bitch Scorpio moon. I’m trying so hard not to be. I’m trying to use it to make people happier, better, more motivated. Sometimes though, it just feels good to be the badass. I can tell people are intimidated by me and I don’t mind it...most days. Here’s the ego talking. *self eye roll*. It does feel good to not be scared of anyone really. I mean, if someone were to come barreling down on me with a shotgun, then duh, watch me run for the hills. But with most people, I can spot their intentions a mile away and know their personality within minutes of talking to them and I do like that about myself.

I’m really happy with where I am right now. Love life is good. Work life is good. I do miss my family and wish I could see them more. Despite being mostly content, I am always analyzing everything. This world is crazy. Everyone is glues to their phones. Staring into screens. All day. I’m always looking into everything, researching conspiracies. Everything we were ever taught in school could have been a lie. They could tell us whatever they wanted to and we’d have no way of knowing if it was the actual truth or not. Maybe one day we will know. I try not to let it affect me too much.

To update the friends: Kat and I text almost every day and we make an effort to keep the friendship going. I’m going up to visit her for her bday next month! Margo has a baby now and that’s all she really cares about. I’m happy for her, but we don’t talk anymore. It sometimes makes me sad, but we are different people now. I may reach out to her when I visit Kat though. We’ll see. Meg is too selfish and a liar and I haven’t spoken to her in what feels like a year. I don’t care about her anymore. Amy and I haven’t spoken in ages. We’re friends on social media, but that’s about it. It’s sad to lose close friends, but that’s life and growing up I guess. I recently re-read all my old journals from when I was an overly-emotional (What, even more so than now?! Ah, self-deprecation at its finest.) teenager and reading it felt like I was there again. It was so nostalgic. I wouldn’t have ever remembered half of it if I hadn’t written it down. It all seemed like such a big deal at the time. And it was. It’s nice to look back and see how far I’ve come. I think I’m getting better with age, like a fine wine, they say.

Marlon reached out to me via text before the wedding last year. I didn’t have his number saved, but I could tell it was him from the way it was written and the area code. I was surprised he still had my number. He said something like “Am I allowed to say congrats on the engagement?” like he was unsure of what to say since I deleted him from social media a while ago and I’m sure he noticed and was maybe lightweight offended. He must have stalked me and saw my engagement pic. Anyway, I was just straight to the point and said “Thanks!” and left it at that. I think he may have said something else and I didn’t respond. I don’t humor those feelings anymore, especially when someone has aided in a past broken heart. I’ve learned to cut ties so I’m not left holding the broken pieces. Love, friendships, workplaces. If it’s not working, you gotta move on.

That’s where I’m at these days.

Anyway, I felt the need to write and update. Maybe see you soon. Maybe see you in another few years.

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