#and not being able to forgive myself for it

[milagro-24]

Si decidieras quitarme todo

E incluso no amarme más

Si decidieras no perdonarme

Ni cuidarme

Si decidieras no proveer

Hasta dejar de protegerme

¿Sería yo capaz de amarte igual?

Si no vinieras a dar tu vida

Y darle un rumbo a la mía

Si te aferraras a tu grandeza

Siendo Dios!

Si no me dieras lo que te pido

Hasta dejarme en el olvido

¿Sería yo capaz de amarte igual?

Desde ya quiero que el mundo sepa

Que no te busco por conveniencia

Si estoy aquí no es coincidencia

Pues eres dueño de mi existencia

Y yo te amo sin entenderlo pero yo te amo

No se trata de lo que me das

Ni de lo que haces!

Y yo te amo! sin entenderlo pero yo te amo

Te amo por quien tu eres

Te amo porque eres mi Dios!

Te amo porque eres mi padre

Te amo porque eres mi Dios

Oooooh, oh, oh

Te amo porque eres mi Dios.

If you decided to take everything away from me

And even not love me anymore

If you decided not to forgive me

nor take care of myself

If you decided not to provide

Until you stop protecting me

Would I be able to love you the same?

If you didn't come to give your life

And give a direction to mine

If you held on to your greatness

Being God!

If you didn't give me what I ask for

Until I am forgotten

Would I be able to love you the same?

From now on I want the world to know

I'm not looking for you for convenience

If I'm here it's no coincidence

Well you are the owner of my existence

And I love you without understanding it but I love you

It's not about what you give me

Not even what you do!

And I love you! without understanding it but I love you

I love you for who you are

I love you because you are my God!

I love you because you are my father

I love you because you are my God

Oooooh, oh, oh

I love you because you are my God.

#nature #landscape #mp4 #musica

[yuurei20]

Hello!! Sorry if this is a little something out of your wheelhouse but I keep seeing people say Yana said in a tweet that the Twst’s story will continue after the current main story arc. Do you know if she actually said it or have a link to that tweet? It feels like an urban legend and idk if I can believe it without seeing it for myself. Thanks if you get around to answering this and if not then have a good night/afternoon/morning!

Hello hello! Thank you for this question!

There has been no explicit statement released by Yana, Aniplex or anyone on the direction of the main story (that I have been able to find), which makes sense!

According to the interviews we have, plans/ideas/characters are changing all the time behind the scenes (sometimes long after development has begun), so someone saying "these are our plans for the future!" at any time would be very unwise. It is a volatile industry!

Proving that something has happened is much easier than proving something has not (which is likely why a lot of these rumors get so popular), but I can certainly share the things that we know have been said! ^^

I reviewed the two official interviews that Yana has given on Twst, one published in the Magical Archives game guide in 2020 and one posted to the Apple Store in 2023, and here are all the comments that might be meant to relate to future endeavors!

・"I wrote this story with the intention of developing mutual understandings through such clashes. So no matter where this story goes, it will never be about forgiveness or saving someone."

・"I would like to have raid battles where players fight together. The theme of the game is 'making problem children cooperate with each other,' so I feel that such an addition to the gameplay would allow us to better feel the growth of the characters."

・"I would also like to collaborate with other Disney productions. The characters in 'Twisted Wonderland' are also Disney characters, so I don't know if collaboration is the right word."

・"I would also like to continue to dress the characters up in gorgeous outfits. I have so many ideas for what kind of fashion I want them to wear, what kind of makeup I want them to try…there are so many things I want to do."

・"As long as villains are the basis for these characters, I think it is important that they never become overly good people."

・"However, I am sure that more and more events are going to be held in the future, so I am wondering if parallel and ‘if’ worlds are going to start appearing."

・"The text of the first book is 35,000 Japanese characters long but book 6 has over 250,000. Up until about book 3 users are still getting to know the characters, so we prioritized helping people come to understand the world of Twst and keeping things compact. After the game was released, however, it felt like people were reading much more deeply into the story than we had anticipated. So now I include much more information than was provided during those setup chapters."

・Going forward things are going to be on a much larger scale, incorporating not only the vertical and horizontal axes of the story but also expanding upon elements such as a present, past and future. Look forward to Book 7 (currently on chapter 2)!

・"We will continue to develop this game that emphasizes the spirit of villains that cannot be discouraged, and we hope that our users will continue to enjoy it.”

・"Thank you so much for playing Twisted Wonderland. We will continue to do our best to make this game into something that can add a little more fun and color to your daily lives."

I have seen fan-rumors before of maybe an RSA arc, or perhaps the 4th years being introduced, or even the current class graduating to welcome a new wave of 1st-year students, but they are all unproven theories ^^ Very fun to think about, but unofficial!

#twstask #twisted wonderland #twstyana

[thwackk]

they all get the crazy hair gene idk what to tell you.

#idc that some of them are not directly related all speedsters look like this at some point in their lives!!! #forgive me if i got some of the timeline stuff wonky it’s literally so difficult to pinpoint #i took a break from homework to draw this becauss i’m actually going insane not being able to draw stuff for myself #jay played football in middleschool and highschool that’s canon to me now #the flash #flash family #kid flash #impulse #bart allen #barry allen #jay garrick #iris west #wally west #my art lol

[yourfavoriteregret]

“i’d be the immediate forgiveness in Eurydice” THIS IRISH MAN MAKES ME ILL

#hozier #i will never forgive myself for not being able to afford tickets #greek mythology #andrew hozier byrne #talk by hozier #wasteland baby

[gaeullie]

the complete eri guidebook (2023) full version under the cut ♡ pdf ver. happy birthday @xiaojuun !! <3

credits. with the help of: meg (@hozierbyrne) // brina (@aquablues) // aléks (@possession1981) // vianey (@souladies) // lili (@ninqz) // aweks (@awek-s) // miha (@jaebeomtual) // rachel (@gnanii) // mare (@dongkwan) // ro (@sunghanbin) // rosie (@kimjiwoong) // lulu (@fushigojos) // sofi (@yukuz) graphics: gift boxes // broccoli // orange fruit watercolor // lip print textures // notion-style scribbles // healthcare vector icons // human anatomy icons // film cutouts pack // 3d travel icons // drinks vector icon set // coffee outline illustration pack // baby vector icon pack

#*mine #oorieri #genuinely thank you SO MUCH for participating @ everyone who did . and if i didn't contact u ... im so sorry i probably didnt fully realize #that u were friends with eri um . sowwie #thank you for finding the time to think about this and . for those who did . for sending in your answers i lob u this is only possible beca #because so many people agreed to help... #a note to meg!! specifically!! because you did so much (from being my first interviewee and my lab rat to responding to the few questions i #had . to suggesting people to include and offering your help with contacting some people (although it did not work out in the end as i said #i really appreciated the thought!!) #note for meg (2): i ended up not being able to use indesign at all... it was too big for my poor little tablet skjsk i got rlly excited abt #n downloaded it strategically for the free trial to expire today or tomorrow but. had to uninstall right away... sighs) #special thanks to lili for being so sweet . i think we became a bit closer through the messages we exchanged in between this project <3 #special thanks to rachel and mare who i know are both really good friends with eri but who aren't exactly familiar with me... i was really #nervous messaging you both so thank you for being so sweet and for participating despite life not exactly helping!! #note for rachel: im sorry i ended up casually calling you rachie in my head the past month or so .. forgive me #special thanks to lulu for being willing to participate #a big thank you to everyone for opening up #and thank you to gabi and sarah who did try their best to find the means to participate #big thank you to gimp for crashing so many times while i was making this & to myself for overriding one of the most important files acciden #accidentally. good job #and finally. the BIGGEST thank you to OUR BELOVED ERI who. clearly. is just the biggest sweetest sunshine & the bestest friend to all of us #thank you for everything always ... i hope you're sleeping well by now #and of course: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! i truly wish you all the best today. and this month. and the next year and the next one and the next one an #i love you. <3 i really do #and so does everyone! clearly!!

[formicarum-rex]

Some answers are combined for space, and there are two catch-alls for other adaptations. Please go ahead and specify in the tags for these! (and if you chose other, of course)

This poll is focused on canon-era 221bs, so the Rathbone movies, Elementary, and Sherlock don't get separate answers. Feel free to still put them in the tags though if one is your preferred version.

#Sherlock Holmes #my prediction is this will swing heavily towards granada #with healthy showings for ritchie having a personal hc and not imagining or prefering one in particular #mine is the frogwares video game 221B #(at least thru crimes and punishments. idk if its changed since then) #i think its because of the ''physicality'' of being able to walk around the 3-d space ''myself'' #having spent hours ''in'' it #im interested if anyone who has seen a physical reproduction feels similarly about it #forgive me if this poll has been done already

[cosmic-d1ce]

Nsjsbwjsn more Philever/Forphil writing im sorry for this one please forgive me

Phil pulled harshly against the chain holding him to the wall. His wrists hurt and he was exhausted and his throat was hoarse but the need to get away was too much. Forever sat cross-legged in the opposite corner of the room, waiting patiently for Phil to calm down.

He wouldn't.

He hadn't been calm for almost a week now.

He felt like he was on the brink of death and somehow that made him fight more. He was on the brink of death. He felt like a light kick would take him out.

But he still fought.

Maybe it was best not to.

For now.

He stopped, breathing heavily as the strain caught up to him. Everything was sore. Everything ached. His arms were bleeding and bruised where the metal hit too hard. Everything hurt.

The room was quiet for a moment. It felt strange now, after all of Phil's screaming and thrashing. Just... Quiet.

"Are you done now?" Forever asks, quiet.

Phil doesn't respond. He's not sure he can. He just glared at the other man.

Forever pushed himself up off the floor and walked closer to Phil. "If you keep this up I will kill Tallulah."

"You won't." Phil says quickly, confident.

Forever smiles and Phil falters.

"You wouldn't."

"Are you willing to test that, my love? Is your stubborness so important you'd risk your girl's life?"

Phil had very little faith in the man standing before him. He said he was going to kill Missa a few days ago and swiftly failed. Several times. But there was always the risk that Forever would go through with it. Tallulah was weak. Vulnerable.

Wilbur would never forgive him if he let Tallulah die.

Was it worth the risk? Was Phil confident enough that Forever was too incompetent to kill a Tallulah?

"You won't."

Phil was a lot of things. He didn't think a complete idiot was one of them.

Forever's grin widens. "Okay." He nods. "I'll see you later honey." He turns on his heel and leaves. The heavy metal door slams shut behind him.

The room is silent. Minutes go by. Phil feels dread pull at his heart. The silence only makes him more anxious. As the rush of adrenaline and rage passed, it dawned upon him that he had fucked up. Badly.

Tallulah couldn't defend herself.

Missa couldn't defend himself and the two kids.

No, no, no, he had to have faith, he had to, they'd be fine, Forever couldn't beat Chayanne and Missa together. Surely. Tallulah doesn't wander off that far. Would she?

Another silent, slow minute ticks by.

Tallulah is bleeding.

MissaSinf is bleeding.

Tallulah hit the ground too hard trying to escape ForeverPlayer.

ForeverPlayer is bleeding.

ForeverPlayer was slain by Chayanne.

When Forever re-enters the room, he sees exactly what he expected. Despite Phil's weak protests, Forever holds him, strokes his hair as if he wanted him to feel better.

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp forever #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #qsmp missa #Im so sorry forgive me #It had to be done #I need to break this man or the au wont be right #I pride myself on realistic writing and good characters #He needs to lose his loved ones if hes gonna fall for forever #Yk #Thats how it works #Bonus to upset you more: Chayanne trying to revive Tallulah and not being able to bc shes already dead #tw death #Forever my love au

[rusquared]

"you didn't have to," i mumble against the doorframe my friend is washing the dishes in my apartment our cookie dough chills in the fridge. "i can get to it later after you've gone home" he denies, citing bacteria, mess, the works - still, i say you don't have to. you didn't have to walk over on a sunday afternoon either. or teach me how to make this. or listen to me. my boss didn't have to visit my presentation either, take a picture with me and run back to attend a meeting. and the receptionist didn't have to attend my graduation, or buy me a plush shark (my loved ones don't have to remember that plush toys are my favorite). you didn't have to reply to my post, or send me a message, or draw on that whiteboard. my best friend doesn't have to listen to every song i send him - and leave a review, too! my friend doesn't have to text me every morning, so i leave my apartment, so i send out one email, so i don't give up on my future. you really didn't have to. i don't know how to pay it back. stop, please, you don't have to - on a rainy afternoon i spot an earthworm in the middle of a stone path, moving aimlessly. i grab a twig and unceremoniously drop it in a flowerbed. i worry if its the right soil or if i should bring some water. i suppose if it could speak, the little worm would say, "you didn't have to"

#mmm resisting the urge to apologize for multiple posts like this #instead ill just write #everything does return to the same answer #i suppose #i have to forgive myself or else i will never be able to fully welcome love #and also i have to want for myself and make being by myself a treat and not a punishment to escape #for me #i guess?

[eyedove]

does anybody have tips on overcoming rejection sensitive dysphoria. it is so bad i cant even play games right because if the video game tells me i made a decision that was not even objectively wrong but non-optimal i freak out and close it and cant come back to it for days. this has always been an issue in my general life at large but good fuckin lord. im tired of feeling like this.

#rsd #playing bg3 has been a fucking nightmare. #its such a good game. but i nearly have a panic attack every time there are dialogue options. my heart goes crazy #i have to minimize the game and wait a couple minutes before returning #and then if its Wrong i get so upset!!! and disheartened! #on good days im able to push through and laugh it off #on bad days i have to just close the game. #this happens irl. obviously. im working on it there too #but god #theres something that feels especially fucked up about being scared of the pixelpeople in my video game. #real people are scary and judgmental. i can forgive myself for some of my feelings irl while still trying to better them. #in a fucking computer game with NO ONE watching me i just. break down. like. why do i feel that way. UGH #i figure more tips on rsd at large will help me out in the long run. but if u do have more info about THIS specifically...... #mmmm might be nice to shaaaare....

[lishadra]

So the grief never stops huh it just builds

#forgive me i’m really going through it #i just miss my mom. my sister was only 9 when she got diagnosed. she was fucking nine. #i miss every version of myself ive ever been #i miss the daycare kids. i dont think theyll remember me #i wish i could say i had a positive impact on them. i hope i did #i miss being able to hope for anything or say good things out loud without worrying that irony will come up from hell and tear me to shreds #everything nice gets taken away from me #i feel like i cant hold on to the good things. they dont stay in my brain like the bad things do #fuck

[magentagalaxies]

vent incoming:

got my grades back for my courses last semester and most of it was to be expected, mostly A's, maybe an A-, etc. but i honestly can't get over the fact that my independent study (the buddy cole documentary) was for some reason given a B. like sure getting a B isn't bad per se, I usually get at least one B every semester and i honestly don't really care about what my exact gpa is as long as i can graduate, but come on. this school put me through months of psychological torment over this project and didn't even have the nerve to give me a B+??? i'm still coping with the self-doubt they forced on me and this bullshit is not helping!!

#honestly it's kind of hilarious ngl. especially bc i also got my documentary work counted as an independent study the previous semester #and the previous semester even tho i barely worked on the doc itself #(mostly just planning and putting together the crowdfunding which was still a lot of work but like compare it to the past few months) #they were willing to give me an A (my school doesn't do A+ so this is the highest mark possible) #vs this semester. like i'll admit my final assignment was late and could have been more polished #but i was literally on tour in documentary-mode 24/7 for several weeks. i filmed an entire comedy special! i put together a live interview! #not to mention having to fucking negotiate with my own college censoring the footage they'd promised me of an event i put together #and play nice with a professor who literally outed me on twitter in an attempt to cancel one of my best friends #at this point the ''B'' feels more like a petty grudge than anything else #like ok we can't get away with *actually* fucking over jessamine's grades bc clearly ze did do the work. but let's just give zir a B #like i will admit the audio quality in my final isn't great. and i could have used more polished footage in some sections #but counterpoint: 100+ students were arrested at a protest while i was editing and i was having a mental breakdown #the fact that i finished *anything* is goddamn impressive especially after they essentially conditioned me to hate myself any time i was #working on a project i loved!!! #due to the aforementioned student arrests my college did put out an option where we could change any letter grade this semester to pass/fai #so anything passing wouldn't impact our gpa if we didn't want it to. so i could just change the B to a ''pass'' #but really what's the point. ''B'' is still a good grade and my GPA is fine (3.65 on a 4.0 grading scale. 2.0 is required to graduate) #it just sucks that after what i went through last semester i feel like nobody takes it seriously #i was reminiscing earlier about how it's honestly kind of funny how after that professor outed me on twitter #i was at the hotel with scott like an hour later sobbing and having an existential crisis about my relationship to gender #and scott was so supportive but also awkwardly being like #''i know i should offer the crying child a tissue but where the fuck are the tissues in this room what do i do'' #and he just handed me a full-on towel instead like oh my god he was trying his best but also so clearly out of his depth #but of course i then had to remember how when i told that story to a different professor to be like ''this is how much scott cares about me #this guy called me fucking UNPROFESSIONAL for crying in front of the subject of my documentary????????? #like yeah maybe so but how DARE you call me unprofessional when a different professor tweeted my full name and gender without my consent #in an attempt to fucking cancel one of my friends for ''misgendering'' me for using pronouns i'm fine with him using!!! #i don't think i'm ever going to be able to forgive my college and i don't know how i'll be able to get through one more semester #that experience genuinely changed things about my psychology that i'm not proud of and i need to work through #so if i have to miss a goddamn kids in the hall event because i have class this november i am going to set something on fire

[devilsskettle]

things i’m trying to do for my life to be better summer 2023 edition —

-> exercise 3x a week at least

-> eat protein

-> find easy recipes with few ingredients so i’ll actually be consistent about cooking actual meals for myself

-> less caffeine: no caffeine on non-work days or after 3 pm

-> habit stacking

-> no phone in the morning (admittedly a challenge because it helps my brain wake up but at what cost)

-> california sober

-> read Something

-> fruit

-> hydrate

-> being consistent about doing the dishes + laundry

-> slowly but surely getting my room together in a way that is fit for human habitation

-> i am a body before i am a mind so i need to prioritize my physical needs

-> traveling as much as i can afford to

#framing these things as trying to make my Life better instead of just trying to Be better is helping also #and being flexible about how i’m achieving these goals also and forgiving to myself if i don’t do everything on this list every day #because i’m not going to be able to do that lol and it’s fine #2023 #anyway i do think i am doing well with a lot of these things! which is progress #what i actually need to start working on now is the next steps of my career #somebody hold me at gun point and force me to apply to these certificate programs #also i should probably make an appointment with a psychiatrist to refill my meds #but i haven’t taken them in a hot minute since i ran out and i’m feeling good so idk maybe i don’t need to do that #maybe that’s the devil talking but i want to see if i can manage my symptoms with these lifestyle changes before i go back to meds

[suntraitor]

im sorry mom and dad, i know i messed up bad

#scp 166 #dr clef #50th fucking drawing of me in jacks necklace bc guess what #im sad about it again!!! #i remember 035 being pissed when he saw us after what i did and i remember kondraki trying to talk to us and i remember how much- #shame jack felt #im sorry jack #im sorry dad #i did what i had to do #lyrics are from parents by anna clending #vent #sorry to vent on main and in the scp tag guys #i will do it again #PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS ME//RI I HATE BEING CALLED THAT NAME SO FUCKING MUCH #i honestly just need to cry it out but i wanted to draw #someone talk to me about my memories i promise its not all traumatic #like fr one minute im making flower crowns for my friends and the next im killing myself for the ''greater good'' #fuck the foundation #and fuck you too jack but i forgive you #epon.txt #traitor art #or whatever the fuck our art tag is #might post more vent art later but t b h i just wanna sleep i oddly miss my cell. i miss cain and able #i miss my brothers ^

[m4niackkyun]

Hi. (Announcement in the tags)

#uhmm...i don't know how to explain this... #so my family has been having a lot of trouble lately #mostly our relationship with our step father #there's been ups and downs..well..more on the downer side. the only main reason my mother married him was because of..well.. #money..as trash as that sounds. i can't deny the fact that I've been able to continue my studies due to his financial support. #i don't want to justify anything that i've probably done wrong to him but emotionally right now—i'm simply scarred to the point where— #I don't think I could heal without professional help. I've been struggling a lot with it ever since of what he did #i felt disgusted. dirty. I felt lost. I didn't want to forgive him. maybe this is the punishment i have to endure because I didn't have it— #—in me to forgive him. I know the principles of my religion and it is stated that one must always find forgiveness towards others. #no matter how big their mistake is. but you see—I'm not God. I am human. my kindness isn't as grand and as big as Him. #my patience is limited and so is my forgiveness #that applies the same to my mother. my mother is a very patient person when it comes to her husband. but yet again she isn't an angel— #nor is she God. she is also human and has limits to what she could handle and what she could forgive and forget. #they argued tonight. and I don't think it'll slide or end well like the past arguments. and I'm sorry to say but— #I won't be able to be active all that much either. #without him now I'll probably have to look for part time jobs. which is gonna limit how active I will be here and on my main account #I will probably go into an indefinite hiatus for some time #maybe I'll come back...maybe I won't. hopefully I will. just...pray for me that I have it in me to continue doing what I love and— #—sharing these little bits of what I do in my free time with you. #I won't have the time to reply to anything for the time being. college tests are on the way and I have to prepare myself for— #—the better or worse. #if things go downhill and you don't hear from me for a long while. then this will probably be my last post here. #I'll still be able to reply to messages on other platforms #but I just don't have the emotional stability to talk right now. No it's gonna be fine. I have faith in me and God. #I know that He doesn't put His children into burdens that none of them could handle. #and if He thinks I could handle this. then I will. and I can. He is with me and so is all of your faith. #that puts me in a sense of reassurance a little hahah... #yeah.. so...I'll see you then..bye.

[irawhiti]

man there is really no way out of poverty huh. like for real.

#no matter how much money i save up over years and years it literally won't ever be enough #i'm just never gonna get anything i want done like top surgery and i have to accept that. at the bare minimum it's gonna take over a decade #i have over 10 thousand dollars worth of dental work that needs to be done now #which would have been completely free if my parents just took me as a teen. free. but they didn't because they're abusive fuckwads #so now i gotta foot the bill. i'll never forgive them for a lot of things and that's one of the biggest things lol. #it's gonna cost several thousand dollars just to get me out of here back into a city too not even including finding a place and paying bond #everything i've saved up for literal years now is literally nothing compared to the bare minimum to potentially stop being fucking homeless #i've lost all the weight i gained from being able to feed myself bc i'm back with my parents with even less access to food than last time #so i'm just like... chronically malnourished and fainting all the time again. it really feels like the past few years were for nothing #i wish i had a bed. i haven't had a bed for well over a year now. #it's so fucking expensive to be homeless and for what. i was able to take a shower for the first time in two weeks today #taking a shower costs $30 for me. i'm so tired man. #delete later

[caffeinatedopossum]

I feel like for my whole life I've been so patient and so forgiving and that has always been the only thing about me that was rewarded to the point that I genuinely don't know if it's okay to stop being that or to be less of that or to be impatient and frustrated and angry as well

#i dont want to stop being soft but i do want to stop being small #i want to forgive people who deserve it but i dont actually trust my own judgment enough to find out where i should and shouldnt forgive #and i want to be patient and helpful and kind but i only have so much effort to give and im so tired and there is so much that no one knows #how can i explain patiently when the explanation is that i am not? the explanation is that i am losing my patience #its hurting me that people dont know what they are asking questions about but they are asking so they deserve to know #but i dont know if my being tired and in pain is a good enough reason not to tell them. i cant punish people for not knowing #but then is it okay to burden myself for knowing? and to what extent can i be expected to be able to handle it?