Guilt served as comfortable bed sheet, as did darkness — the price for the sacrilege of love.
But a mischievous light shone briefly from outside and Jillian perceived the shapes of the woman she had spent the night adoring: scars, dimples, hair and fat which she only loved all the more, growing ashamed of her shame, of hiding her own mangled arm.
Then she saw the thin, injured skin of Suzannes’s knees and understood.
She could not hide from God.
Jillian dropped to her own knees, cursing the cross, defying it; worshipping her lover with new passion under His resentful eye.
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I went to a local fabric store today that I haven't visited before and while they have more fabric to offer than any other store here I've been to so far, I'm not sure it'll be my favorite... because the owner was just. A Lot.
Like. I didn't ask for a lecture on how a 300€ sewing machine can't possibly do a good job and that especially new sewers need the better equipment and that starts at 600-700€. That's an insane amount of money! Especially for someone who is just picking up a new hobby and doesn't know whether they'll stick to it long-term! Even horseriding is cheaper to pick up, and that's a hobby that's notorious for being expensive to begin (and maintain).
And to then have the nerve to imply that me being happy with my machine comes from a place of unconsciously justifying my choices! As if I haven't seen experienced sewers consistenly do incredible stuff with machines cheaper than mine. As if the art could only ever be good if you use the most expensive, inaccessible tools. As if my machine (good girl) isn't fun to work with. (Side note: I've had her for six months now and already heard from two people that they'd love to take her if I ever upgrade, unprompted. But sure, she's no good 🙄)
If anyone read til here: you don't have to spend 600€ on a sewing machine. You don't even need 300€! While I dearly love mine, I know I'm in a privileged position to have been able to afford her. Sewing doesn't have to be this luxurious hobby *some people* are making it out to be. There's only a handful of stitches/functions/etc. that you really need, everything else is mostly just nice to have and therefore very optional.
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on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day
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[[ gonna be fairly inactive today because I'm helping a friend move, then this afternoon I have a 5km race, most likely under pouring rain 😢 hope to see you all tonight or tomorrow if I made it :') ]]
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Me: "Oh shoot! I've been on Tumblr for 7 years! Maybe I should see what I posted 7 years ago and reblog that? Nah... people might not want to see that... plus my art back then probably looks weird now..."
*looks it up*
Me: "WAIT - I posted a drawing of Undyne 7 years ago?! HECK YEAH - I have to reblog the angry fish!"
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Hhh scraping and clawing my way thru exu calamity and it's kinda frustrating how. Everybody loves it so much?? And it's def much better than the other exu's but I'm just having heavy brainrot for c3 specifically and I want to get back to the main characters and plot!! Don't get me wrong I'm super enjoying brennan as a dm and everyone having fun but I just feel bad bc I'm not enjoying it as much as I feel I should and I'm just. Not attached to these characters or whatever plot happens bc it's all in the past and I'm assuming they all die anyways so I'm just having a hard time w it. :<
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im not like fading out of the mcyt fandom in a normal way where i stop being interested in the content, it’s more like i am interested in the content from like. a year ago. like i routinely think about that clingyduo weekend or the early mod videos or the tom simons tuesdays but when i have the free time to actually watch stuff i am just. not interested
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