#and isn’t as dumb as he’s playing

[lesbiansanemi]

I can’t decide if I want to make Sukuna and Uraume romantic in the role swap fic. If I did, it would be pretty slow burn and not relevant until later. I think romantic sukume is fun, but I also REALLY like them being purely platonic and each other’s most important/genuine relationship

Plus there will already be so many messy romantic relationships in that fic idk if I wanna add another one on top. Like there will be the qpr but veering into more romantic itafushikugi as well as very overt romantic nobamaki that will be VERY messy eventually. As well as VERY background satosugu as geto is still alive here and even yuta/rika as the night parade of a thousand demons never happened so rika was never released so. Hm. Do I really want or need to add another romantic relationship here?

Idk, but I’m gonna be thinking about this all day at work today and trying to come up with an answer

#I could always go with qpr sukume… that’s always a good option #idk! uraume is the only person in sukuna’s corner here even when he was a student #let alone after yuuji incarnates in him #and I also think uraume will kinda hate yuuji for trying to take over sukuna’s body #like they’re fiercely protective and they know yuuji is planning a lot more than he’s letting on #and isn’t as dumb as he’s playing #and I think adding some romantic feelings there could make that more interesting #(sorry I like jealousy and possessive behavior surprising no one) #so just. hm. hmmmmmm #kaz rambles

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

The process is a bitch and I want to fight it

#had the urge to just #delete everything and vanish without a word #because I’m once again in a bad slump but I know feeling better isn’t a linear thing!! #just fucking sucks man #yknow? #I’m fine I’m fed housed watered and loved #for anyone worried #because I know I say some concerning stuff #mostly just venting because I need to yell and sorting out what’s going on in my brain is hard sometimes!! #there is a cat purring on my stomach and another cat between my legs #the other Q is rambling about a hoi 4 game he played with a friend #things are well #so why the FUCK isn’t my brain cooperating with me you dumb clump of hamburger #stop that #I hope everyone is doing well #I need to get to sleep

[genericruleroftheflies]

Who is the best “dumb” character in television and why is it Peter of The Monkees?

#for me it because he’s dumb but not unable to function at all dumb #also I feel like its kind of established from the start #and Peter is also not surrounded by anyone way smarter than him so really it’s fine that he’s a little stupid #the monkees #maybe Eric Matthews gets an honorable mention if he didn’t fall of the deep end #also also Peter gets his redemption in head where he is playing the fool role to say Micky and everyone from having to be the dummy #hero Peter #peter tork #character analysis #this isn’t about the real guy

[killuaisaprincess]

Everyone always whines and cries how everyone ignores G//on

AND IF YOU DARE TO BRING UP KIS TRAMUA THEY ARE LIKE BUT WHAT ABOUT G

What about g KIS FANS ARE ANNOYING THEY SAY

Omg WHAT ABOUT G

MEANWHILE BACK WHEN I WAS ON A BLOCKING SPREE ALL I EVER SEE IS ANALYSIS POSTS ECT ABOUT G G AND HIM AND HIS TRAMUA AND THE BOTH TOGETHER MAYBE BUT KI ALONE MAYBE 1

SO I DO NOT EVEN WANNA HEAR IT

AND LET KI FANS CARE ABOUT KI

JUST LIKE U CARE ABOUT G

Stg these people wanna act like Ki’s life is so easy and CAA wasn’t hard on Ki CUZ WHAT ABOUT G

#personal #DONT CARE HATS OFF #KIDDIE GLOVES OFF #Damm if I could block every kg person and every G Stan in existence I would #CUZ GOD FORBID ANYONE WANNA TALK ABOUT KI #AND I DONT EVEN LIKE HOW MOST PEOPLE TALK ABOUT KI OR KI STANS #DONT LIKE EM EITHER BUT GOD FUCKING DAMM #THESE PEOPLE #vent #stg I am so cut off from fandom I don’t really see this dumb shit anymore #BUT I’m sadly still subjected from it from time to time #AND I CANNOT HOLD IT IN ANYMORE #there are no tags so it won’t be going in anyone’s tags and there are slashes so just let a girl vent #I hate this fandom so I ain’t #TRUST ME I avoid it #I’m a smart person I know better than to interact with shit I hate #I try so hard I forget it exists outside my two people #plus honestly I am too old to care #Idc if kg is popular I hate it and it isn’t canon #idc if people say u should love G and he’s sooooo underrated Ki will always be my fave #AND I WILL PUT KI IN DRESES AND I WILL MAKE HIM SHORT AND I WILL DO #EVERYTHING FANDOM DOESNT CUZ #who are they? I may have 2 followers and a dream but even if they all have 60k #they aren’t Beyoncé theyre just another human the end #Besides do I really care about people’s opinions with 60k tweets I don’t think so lol #and this is from me who is like OBSESSED #but even I know how to touch grass I may be to poor too #but I’ll play games and watch movies #KI WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER 1 #but I try and touch grass sometimes

[cantofworms]

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#ok ik all the hot take asks are pre much done and the sparkly say smth nice asks are better but well I’ve been having thoughts all day at #work and want to get them out now so that’s what I’m doing lol #obvs for the past few months i think ppl are vv heavily leaning into the dnf /r and I firmly believe that they aren’t #like yes I enjoy being a multi shipper but I still primarily read dnf fics bc they’re cute dnf writers and artists MWAHH ilysm #but it’s been increasingly annoying how every move dnf make ppl hyper obsess over it and ignore everything else like blog what u want this #is tumblr dot com but I think ppl how only see dnf thro the lens of romantic do much more ‘harm’ than ppl who dont #like the argument about taking validation out of their very REAL amazing friendship just gets over shadowed by omg Dream posted a pic of #geogre they’re in LOVE and sucking and FUCKING every night. like #and then completely disregard when dnf do and say the exact same shit about all their other friends #like dream has explicitly said they aren’t dating (ignore that tho) amd that’s he’s kissed multiple ppl since coming out (ignore that too) #and their friends naturally say that they’re all single (ignore that too) idk man it’s ok they like to pander amd that dream is a toxic #dnfer but it’s all just For Funsies. another thing is ppl CONSTANTLYYYY putting geohres sexuality under a microscope oh he drinks lemonade #from Starbucks he’s soooo gay like dumb shit like that is so irritating #the fact that geogre has never once talked about his sexuality except that one instance where he got a DONO about it proves how much it #just doesn’t matter or apply to the type of content creator he is/wants to be #to be clear if he is or isn’t or dnf every explicitly announce their romantic relationship im gonna be sooooo happy and supportive like aw #dnfogies🫶🏻 but I think there’s a 99.9% chanve that’ll never happen so maybe we should all just care a Little Less and focus on out lgbt #creators if that’s smth u wanna watch/blog about idk maybe I’m just burnt out from the phandom but whyyyyy does is matter what their #sexualities are they play minecraft who cares who CARESSSS idk maybe just having older brothers around dtqk ages has made me realize that #guys will just act homiesexual no matter What #guys are just Like That and tbc I’m not saying that just bc gnf hasn’t made an official coming out doesn’t mean he’s not queer but for the #sake of his contwnt it doesn’t matter either way ? so why are ppl talking about it on the daily idk man it’s just annoying but Oh Well #at the end of the day they’re all famous white guys and nothing matters hurray !!

[areyouwho-ithinkyouare]

me internally when i’m trying to respect and recognise that my dad has unaddressed autism that impacts the way he handles social interractions while also trying to not just excuse the shitty insensitive behaviour that has absolutely contributed to my mental health issues

#it’s like. haha yeah he handled that situation terribly but remember it wasn’t intentional and he doesn’t understand how that came across!! #i can’t be mad at him i can’t take it personally and get upset haha. hahaha. #and also it’s like. being autistic isn’t an excuse to be a dick. being autistic doesn’t mean you have to like. emotionally damage ur kid ✌🏻 #which i AM. growing up with him has fucked me up!!! and i’m allowed to be mad at that i’m allowed to be upset!!!!!!!! #but also oh god is that shitty of ME??? is that insensitive???? do i need to just be more empathetic and understanding #but ALSO also. when ur a kid that shit doesn’t matter. when ur a kid and ur dad is making you cry that doesn’t matter. #and those years of damage stick with you even when ur older and trying to be mature and understanding #literally this evening started with me trying to do something nice for him. trying to give him a gift. actually literally giving him a gift. #and it has ended with me feeling fucking….. shit. #and disrespected. and useless. #i try so fucking hard with this man and with our relationship and every fucking time i try to connect with him he throws it back in my face #like. hey! you’ve been saying how much you want to play gran turismo 7!!! i will loan you my PS5 for a while bcus i’m not playing anything #and i will BUY YOU the fucking car game for you to play it while me and my mum are away on our girlie beach holiday #like i will happily and enthusiastically do those things for you because you have been so vocal about wanting to play this game!!! #so it will make you happy right? it will be something positive for you to enjoy!!! right?!!!???? #i will bring my console down to the family tv room for you and i will send you the money so you can buy the game!!!! #oh. oh you’ve clicked around the main playstation menu for 2mins and then turned it off to watch the news. and then just open ur laptop. #not even gonna buy the game huh. just gonna open ur laptop and zone out and act line i’m not even in the room. oh ok. ok ok. #not even a fucking thank you. not even a HINT of recognition. ok ok. ok. ok. now you’re literally ignoring me when i talk to you. ok. ok. #and like!!!! i know this seems so dumb and minor and insignificant but you have to understand. it has been 25 years of this shit. #25 years of me trying to make this man happy and 25 years of him rejecting all of those attempts. #and 25 years of……. a lot of other shit also.

[mell0bee]

ALSO i’m on ep 9 or so of bahumia of naddpod and i am very much enjoying it so far. i love me some low level shenanigans & i am really enjoying murph as a DM.

#i feel like me & murph have similar styles of DMing. like he’s very much rule of cool is king and will yes and his players constantly #but also isn’t afraid to play into the more crunchy side of dnd. he does not go easy on his players if they do dumb things & i respect that #bee listens to naddpod #<- new liveblog tag (but i doubt i will actually liveblog that much unless i Really have something to say #naddpod #not another dnd podcast #naddpod bahumia #bahumia

[waugh-bao]

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#I’ve been thinking about something a friend said in regards to the lyrics for ‘Angry’ #because I was having a hard time putting my finger on why I disliked it other than the drumming #the ‘We haven't made love and I wanna know why’ bit played #and she said ‘that’s what you get for dating a 36 year old when you’re 80’ #(she also pointed out that the vocals don’t even sound like mick. which is true. the song is grossly over produced) #my point isn’t so much this specific thing with mick #as that he’s been writing songs along these lines for 60 years #and at this point it feels like we’re getting 100% misogyny and 5% creativity #it’s all bitching and moaning about being wronged by a woman and denied access to her body #I don’t really care if they’re ‘problematic’ in their lyrics to some extent or another. they’re old rockstars #but there’s nothing special or creative or even metaphorical going on #it’s like a lazy version of ‘bitch’ #I’m kind of concerned if this is the pre-released single. that it’s the best they’ve got. because it isn’t very good #((also heard mick mention in an interview not long ago that Tattoo You is one of his favorite albums. which makes the decision to trash #everything recorded before 2019 especially dumb. because that album was cobbled together from old songs and recordings. many made way before #1981. they’re almost acting like this is a change on the level of darryl. which is blatantly dumb. there isn’t 30 years left. in terms of #time or creative output))

[shaykai]

Oooooh I forgot how much I hate the end of Warcraft (ignoring the MMOs I don’t fuck with those djdjjd)

#hey gang- what happened to kel’thuzad???? where did he go? why was his character assassinated SO HARD? #Also hey hey hey Illidan fighting Arthus?? and not landing a single hit????? and Vashj and Kael not coming to his imidiate aid???? #ALSO SYLVANUS NOT KILLING HIM??? #look I’m sure some things like that get taken care off in WoW or something #but WOWZERS did that last bit of the game just feel straight up bad #like look Sylvanus can be racist because she’s complex and she isn’t a perfect hero #but I refuse to accept that five minutes after she’s freed from the Lich King’s control and goes on a whole monologue about how she is no #one’s slave- that she would turn around AND LITERALLY CALL OTHER PEOPLE HER SLAVES #LIKE SHE HAD A DEMON RIGHT FUCKING THERE- I forget his name- but have it force her hand! have the demon guy be like hey girl I know my #brothers and I know their armies and if you want even a chance against them you need more numbers #it just felt weird and bad to have her turn around and do that to other people without anyone pushing her to that??? she just did it? #and she didn’t seem the least bit remorseful???? also hey again kel’thuzad. what happened. #my favorite little guy got assassinated so hard. :( #you cannot tell me he would be friends with Arthus. you cannot tell me any sort of relationship that might have been there was not just for #him to use and manipulate. you cannot tell me he wouldn’t pry his way into the frozen wastes to get shit done and make some power plays #like nothing he has some suggests that he would just sit on the side lines and accept that he’s out of the game- he’s a goddamn lich #I’m upset djdjsjjsjsjsjs all of that felt weird and bad and I will forever be upset about the handling (or lack thereof) of kel’thuzad #and also how Vashj and Kael weren’t by Illidan’s side. they should’ve been sjsjsjjsjsjsjss it’s dumb that Arthus just got to kill him and be #done with it like. immediately #anyways I have a few complaints djdjdjjd clearly. mostly because Warcraft is a beloved childhood game and I didn’t remember the ending and #it just felt bad playing through it sjsjsjjs I love the games but o u c h was that upsetting #(also worse because kel’thuzad was my favorite and he just. wasn’t there djdjsjsjjs which I think is dumb- he’s power hungry and he deserves #to act like it. let him cause issues! more than he already has! sjsjsjsjskksksksm hhhhhhhhhhhh

[ajournalingtrex]

“how was your day?”

it’s one of my favorite questions. (it’s also easy to notice that it’s maybe always the first question of the day i ask someone). on both the receiving end and the giving end, i love it.

whether it’s the words of affirmation love language in me and i didn’t realize it until this break or that it’s been almost two weeks since i’ve seen so many of my friends i don’t know,,,, but i really love it when people ask me how my day was??? it makes my heart do a little butterfly flutter

it’s that whole casual intimacy thing that’s the same thing as wishing someone sleeps well. the i care so much about you that i wish for every moment of your day to be pleasant, even your unconscious hours. but it’s the step beyond that??? the curiosity about someone fueled by love?

i care so much for you that i not only wish you well, but i want to know how you spent your hours away from me in as much detail as you’d like to give.

it makes me so happy when people ask; if you know me well, you’re guaranteed to get at least one animated story about the day. it also means i get to hear from the people i love about what stuck out about their day, which makes me really happy to listen to. it paints a vivid picture of someone’s day to day life that’s honestly so valuable to me in knowing someone. loving people in the mundane >>>>>

i live partly for words. reading was maybe my first love, with writing as my second. i love expression, i love all forms of subtle and non-subtle communication. i love vocal inflection and facial expressions, how easily we can give ourselves away to a knowing eye (and it makes me weak in the knees when people describe how they read or perceive me).

and as i’ve grown older and more confident in my identity, i’ve loved talking. there are so many topics that i could go on about for hours—very little exaggeration there. (especially with a back and forth!!!) when i’m talking and it’s very clear to me that someone is listening (via body language, probing questions, and/or building off what you’re saying) it’s such a validating feeling. it fills me to the brim with so much love. it makes my heart soar. some of my most memorable moments with my chosen family are moments where i’ve shared something ridiculously personal and it was met with least the confirmation they were listening (though so much of the time they reach so far above that and it makes me cry).

(probably also why someone remembering something about me sends my brain into a spinning frenzy.)

but one of the most beautiful things about words are the innate desire for a return!!!! letters aren’t sent to be read and then shoved into a back drawer, never to be seen again. no!!!!! communication is a two way street love!!!

i love responses. i LOVE hearing other people talk. other people are so interesting!!!!!! please just talk. what i would give to hear certain people just talk forever. i love listening. (i try hard to be good at listening!! it’s one of the things i'm most conscious about.) i love when other people infodump. i love hearing nuanced opinions and i love personal stories. i love asking questions that people give thoughtful responses to. i love hearing things about other people. i love knowing things and remembering things. elaborate stories and simple anecdotes and personal details and self-proclaimed preferences make me so happy.

tldr; i just love words, i guess. i just wanted to write about words and how i love words and why i love words so deeply. (and it’s my blog damn it. if you got this far you clearly wanted to hear me rant about words).

and i miss people and i try so hard to love people with so much of myself. (and a surefire way to brighten my mood? ask me how my day was.)

#sometimes i’m like there’s no way i’m words of affirmation #then i remember how much i love words and i see #probably common misconception: words of affirmation isn’t just compliments! #or at least it isn’t for me and i can speak (lol) for me #(though compliments do make me cry) #please just let me talk. or talk to me!!!! it makes me feel so full #my boyfriend and i talk for a lot of the day now #he gives me a play by play of what he’s doing (so i do the same) #and uses it as an obvious excuse to talk to me #even though he already knows everything i’ve done with my day #he still asks me how my day is #it hits my heart in a very fond spot #(he is not an outlier) #(which is why the lot of you have heard from me so often over break) #(and one of the reasons i’ve been able to keep my head above water this break) #(thank you for talking to me you dumb fucks) #(please keep talking to me if you can/if you want/if you have the time/energy) #(rank lettuce leaf shapes. send me pictures of dogs. tell me your strategy for cutting hangnails) #(i don’t care) #(except for maybe that last one. i’ll still hear it just not in grotesque detail)

[astral-catastrophe]

my sister is such a bastard /neg

#bestie. You literally always control the speakers in the house and play your shit #Typically music that either one. Gives me a headache. Or just straight up rubs the wrong way and sensory issues #But I play one song #And suddenly I get yelled at by a bitch three years younger than me #Even my father is annoyed. But he’s dumb sometimes and won’t fucking do anything when my sister is being a brat #Like sir that’s your child. Tell her that she can’t be like this #Like. When I was making dinner a few days ago #I had my music going. Right? #She made me turn it off. And played her own shit #I’m gonna start causing problems in return. Bc clearly attempting to be the bigger person isn’t worth it anymore #She’s got something coming. Bc oh man can I be petty when I put my mind to it

[idontevenuse-thissite]

Anyone got any fics where everything’s the same except Matsuda is actually just obfuscating stupidity? He’s so good at that everyone believes him.

L obviously writes him off immediately as Kira’s ego wouldn’t let him be anything other than brilliant therefore Matsuda is not Kira. Since his actions are stupid he is. Light’s first impression of Matsuda was “dumb” and therefore he writes him off as stupid, paying no further attention to him.

Is he in reality for or agains Kira? Well Kira’s reducing the crime rate significantly isn’t he. But since the task force reacted so strongly negatively he won’t bring that up again. Is Light Kira? Yes obviously, there’s no reason for L to act this way unless he was certain. He doesn’t have any evidence though and doesn’t want to worry the cheif. But would capturing Light really do good, sure people would stop dying but that would just eventually result in other people getting hurt.

So why would Matsuda do this? Well, curiosity maybe. People tend to reveal more when they don’t expect you to piece together the puzzle. To protect himself, people see him as harmless.

Just thought it would be an interesting idea

#touta matsuda #death note #Matsuda obfuscating stupidity #matsuda playing dumb #death note fic request #I would so read this from the perspective of Matsuda #he isn’t happy with people constantly insulting him #but it means they still see him as dumb

[rachelchinouriris]

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#rads love to baby louis as if he isn’t a 30 year old millionaire lmaooo #it’s weird they treat him as if he’s a defenseless baby who’s dumb and stupid #he’s a businessman #he’s smart #he’s been in this industry for 12 years ffs #he knows how to play the game #i get wanting him to reach number 1. i want it too. but telling fans to off themselves is disgusting #get off your high horse and realize some people can’t afford to spend it all on him #and if you’re like ‘well now people who could afford it won’t’ i listened to the leaks and still bought a physical copy #it’s almost as if it’s possible to do both and it’s almost as me listening to the leaks won’t make my enthusiasm for the album disappear #god they’re so ughhhh #anyway leaving for a couple of hours. don’t want them to ruin my day #jackie.txt

[soulvee-animationz]

Dude I am 100% fucking sick of living man :(

#vent #my dad sounds upset so I’m too scared to leave my bedroom #He’ll get mad at me over random things too like pausing on the stairs or something..then #then he interrogates me over what I was doing when I literally have no idea what I did wrong… #then he’ll get upset at me “playing dumb” when in reality I don’t know what I did wrong #man i want to curl up into a little ball and watch fnaf showtapes all afternoon… #I’m scared to do anything that isn’t faking a smile around my dad I’m so scared of him #no adults aside from my mom ever believe how shitty of a person he is…he’s got everyone wrapped around his finger… #it sucks..everything sucks..

[0celesteisthebest0]

AHH THE PAIN THE PAINNN(I’m being partially dramatic)

#hi y’all back to ranting in the tags because writing here makes me feel like it’s hidden even if it isn’t #anyway one of my friends got into the Pedro fandom and I’ve been sending her some of my fave acting scenes he’s done in his various roles #I’ve also been sending her edits and stuff and just screaming about how cool tlou is #and then a stupid part of my brain hit me with this big ol guilt when she was asking about the kingsman movies because she knows i have a #lot of opinions on them #and I was showing her clips and she said she likes how he plays the character but won’t watch the movie and just watch the tik tok edits of #him which totally understandable i have issues with second movie and I didn’t have the heart to tell her he dies in the movie so I let her #just live in bliss but man there was a little voice in my brain telling me i abandoned my stupid cowboy and like!!! that’s just so dumb #I HAVENT WRITTEN FOR HIM SINCE LIKE OCTOBER THAT IS NOT ABANDONMENT! #>:( stupid brain making me feel guilty about not being able to write even though i want to write like so freaking bad BUT I HAVE NO TIME OR #CONFIDENCE SO ITS JUST MAKING ME STEW ANGRILY IN THE CORNER #like i have so so so many thoughts but I have no time to write and my confidence in my skills is next to none now and I’m just not enjoying #myself! which sucks because i love writing but anytime i write stuff in like a moments notice I say the absolute rudest shit imaginable and #i just sorta give up! #sighhhhhhhhhhh #i don’t know how to make if fun anymore because the thoughts in my brain or fun but when I try to transfer that to writing on a doc i beat #myself up. so it’s like a purgatory! goddddd 😑 #my humblest apologies to those who read this word vomit it’s just been thoughts that have been stuck in my head since… may? or maybe more #tbh #Celeste speaks #shit happens i know. i just kinda need to be like hey I’m confident in what I do…without like immediately saying something mean to myself…