#and i didnt even talk about musicals

[atomicengineerdetective]

I've been watching Hazbin Hotel in prime. Just watched episode 5 and I gotta ask

Why, oh, WHY DON'T I SEE MORE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT "MORE THAN ANYTHING" WHEN TALKING ABOUT THE HAZBIN HOTEL MUSIC???

Like I get it, the song before it "Hell's Greatest Dad" Is a bop reminiscent of other music from the era its parodying. I loved it.

BUT why are you only putting clips of that song when this MASTERPIECE comes a few minutes after

I honestly don't even know where to begin with this song. The visuals are beautiful, especially when we get moments like this where you can just see the absolute LOVE this man has for her daughter is so sweet and Heartwarming I just-

The voices are fenomenal but what else can you expect from the broadway talents of Erika Henningsen and Jeremy Jordan.

There is also the whole Symbolism with passing the baton to the next generation and stuff. I- I can't even get into the specifics right now Im too emotional.

But above all else THE LYRICS

ESPECIALLY THAT LAST ONE

"I'M GRATEFUL YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER/FATHER MORE THAN ANYTHING"

DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY?? CAUSE I AM. I AM BAWLING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW.

It's just so fucking beautiful man. Probably the best song I will hear all year. Obviously my favorite from Hazbin.

#Call me Sir Pentious cause Im crying like a baby over here. #WHY HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS GEM FROM ME. THIS ABSOLUTE DIAMOND #I didnt even mention lyrics like “I've been dying to find out who you are. looks like the apple doesnt fall far.” #“You are a part of who I am” “you are the only thing worth fighting for” that just BREAK ME #but oh well #BTW of course I was gonna watch and become obsessed with Hazbin Hotel. I am a theater kid that loves animation. It was like meant for me #could do with a little less obsenities but thats alright its a staple of the show #On another note I almost went insane when I found out lucifer was Jeremy Jordan. #Like its insane how that man always ends up in my obsessions. Newsies. Tangled the series. The Death Note Musical #(Im team L btw in death note but GOD Jeremy's singing made me reconsider for a milisecond in Where's the justice he is just THAT GOOD) #Erika I knew from the mean girls musical which I also deeply enjoy #its Insane the Talent this show brought in. my theater kid heart is ELATED #Last thing is I gotta say I LOVED Lucifer #Like I thought I was gonna hate him because everyone was talking about charlie's daddy issues #I thought he was gonna be neglectful and manipulative #BUT NO. He is a silly (little) father who just loves his daughter but doesnt know how to show it #And had DREAMS and AMBITION and fate in humanity. And he is just such a fun character to follow I had such a riot with this episode #Hazbin Hotel #charlie morningstar #lucifer morningstar #charlotte morningstar

[ganondoodle]

im listening to some zelda music compilations again and i gotta say 2 things

damn does the hyrule warriors, aoc included, line have some bangers or what

and damn, if you ignore the absolut blast i was having fighting koga, does totks music on its own make me feel things the game never did, like i dont wanna sound like i keep hating on it but man the music is SO GOOD in ways the game didnt deliver on and when i hear it i just kinda drift off into what id imagine the game being like with music like this and then be sad about the real one like the trailer music alone is just GOD what it made me think theyd dare do with the story after turning what was largely considered THE zelda gameplay so on its head, now surely totks gonna be daring in terms of story, its the most logical progressio-

oh :(

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #music gets to me on a level that no picture can #like when i hear the music i tear up!!!! #and yet the only times i got teary eyed when playing the game was whenever i fought koga bc i was so ecstatic to have him back #and the cutscene were gan does THAT face bc i laughed so hard about it i half cried #sorry gan #the cutscene before didnt phase me bc the story didnt hook me at all and i knew sonia was the dead wife trope #but i didnt expect that face from him and im pretty sure i burst out laughing despite trying my best to stay silent during cutscenes #anyway the music makes me mad bc its so good #some themes even have a distinct joe hisaishi feel to it and that on top of the ghibli aesthetic they borrowed from #but none of the good storytelling makes me so god damn frustrated sad #i fear the next game ngl

[lunar-years]

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#Taylor does not have a beef with Olivia I PROMISE you she does not gaf. #‘Taylor is sooo threatened and jealous of her!’….literally WHAT is there to be jealous of from Taylor’s pov? #I’m not saying that to diss on Olivia at all #I love her! #but Taylor is the most successful artist in the world. I promise you she is not threatened by any other artist on the charts. #especially not a 21 yr old playing arenas. they are in entirely different stratospheres. #and like. yes there WAS a time when Taylor feared being replaced/was terrified of the next new thing #but. considering Point A (she's the biggest current musical act on the planet) #I Do Not Think She Cares Anymore. #Clara Bow is literally ABOUT THIS!!! #in conclusion: the overlap between those fears in her past and Olivia’s rise does not and has not ever existed #AND SHE DIDNT EVEN F-ING SUE HER #Olivia doesn’t talk about her anymore bc 1) she’s prioritizing her own identity as an artist 2) certain stan swifties are bullying losers. #like. i truly think that’s the full story. sorry it's more boring than what the rumor mill has come up with but. #(I’m sorry I just saw a post that pissed me OFF lol) #ts

[nebuvoid]

#yuri on ice #yoi #dean fujioka #music #history maker #yoi music #i didnt even know there was another version i wasnt staying up to date while... waiting. certainly fits the current mood #lets celebrate what gifts yoi has given us. and maybe also curse whoever is responsible for this disaster #im honestly less mad about the movie itself and more about how they mishandled the yoi ip in general. the blatant disregard for what a #phenomenom yoi was during its height. its baffling its maddening #yoi talk

[mcybree]

hi I know about dear Evan Hansen so I’ll tell you about this.

The story is about a teenager killing himself and the kid he bullied (Evan Hansen) pretends he was the dead kid’s friend to make his family feel better. And also for attention a bit, also to get with dead kids sister.

the story is LITERALLY about someone pretending to be friends with a dead person after they died to get pity points.

for forever in particular is an INSANE pick from Scott. Like. this song is Evan Hansen singing about all the things he and dead kid did, and he’s lying about all of it. It seems like a pretty romantic song if you don’t know the context but it’s just Evan lying about what he and this dead kid did together

and then only us is a love song between Evan and dead kid’s sister. Who breaks up with him by the end of the musical after she learns he was lying. And they only got together because Evan lied about being friends with her dead brother

but yeah idk how Scott??? Interpreted dear Evan Hansen??? But. It was wrong

normal.

#WHAT RHE FUCUUCK WHAT THE FUUUCK WHATR HE FUCK MAN #ITS NOT EVEN LIKE I DIDNT KNOW THE PLOT. I KNEW IT VAGUELY. IVE DONE MUSICAL THEATRE MYSELF I HEAR PEOPLE AROUND ME TALK ABOUT THIS #How did scott interpret this i have to know. I have to know. What was going on in his head #the spiral. #thabk you for explaining this to me anon this is sick and twisted #It appears I have suddenly fallen ill #Goodbye #asks #asks i hate #asks i want to tear apart #asks that tell me poisonous information That will kill me #slash lighthearted. the lake

[bylertruther]

"will shouldn't use a gun in season five because his father probably taught him how to use one and that could be a bad reminder for him" have you considered that will using what was very likely a Bad experience to save his life in what is undoubtedly an even worse experience could be a good thing? have you considered that him using a skill he was forced to learn to save not only himself but (as is likely more important and meaningful to him) the lives of others could give him a sense of usefulness and safety knowing that he isn't defenseless and can stand his and others' ground if need be? especially considering that's a skill that we've only seen hopper and nancy possess, making it that much more valuable and himself more helpful to the group? after everything in s1 and s2, he's probably felt guilty for having endangered them and dozens of other people multiple times, i don't think it'd be out there for him to feel "happy" that he can finally return the favor and protect them for once (especially after having complained about being babied and treated like a doll).

"will doesn't have and shouldn't have powers because that makes him different and he doesn't want to be different" not only are you wrong lol <3 but how have you not noticed that will's entire thing since the very beginning is that he is different and he knows it and while he does get his heart broken over the fact that this means he faces constant unfairness in life, he still refuses to be any other way? will doesn't conform nor does he ever try to even when others try to force or shame him to. he gets frustrated and upset at being treated differently, yes, but he stays true to himself. to battle that feeling he sometimes gets that tells him he's a mistake, a feeling he gets not from his own otherness but from living in a world that Makes it an otherness and thus isolates him for it, he seeks out that which he loves and enjoys and throws himself wholeheartedly at it. will lives his truth and is willing to suffer the consequences for it. he refuses to live in darkness and let it take a hold of him. he holds on to hope and all that makes him feel better for being different. he holds on to art, to dnd, to video games, to his family and his friends, and everything that brings him joy and reminds him that it's okay to be different. in s1 joyce defends will ("he's missing is what he is") and jonathan tells him he shouldn't like things that other people (namely their homophobic dad) try to force him to like, that he should like what he genuinely likes. in s2 jonathan gives will the freak speech and tells him that no one normal ever accomplished anything and mentions bowie. in s3, he doesn't get a speech, (though joyce does tell him that when he falls in love he won't find it gross [avoiding the word girlfriend and leaving it neutral]) but he does face backlash from someone that IS trying to conform and IS shaming will for not letting go of "childish" things aka his interests, what's important to him, and what he wants. does will back down or shy away in shame? no. instead, he lets mike sit in his shame for having said something that hurtful, and he says "yeah. i guess i did. i really did." clearly this is a conversation about what makes will different aka his sexuality bc he goes and destroys castle byers (the safe place he and his brother built once their homophobic dad left which is a place will can be himself unapologetically) with what is likely a bat that lonnie gave him when trying to get him into baseball. he calls himself stupid and donates his dnd books, but i don't see this as an act of conformity (he tells mike as much, suggesting he'll just use his books + if he was ashamed he wouldn't have painted the party as their dnd characters and given it to him of all people lol). he felt stupid because he thought they'd always be crazy together, that they were of the same mind and heart still, and that they had the same brand of "otherness" if you catch my drift. then in s4 we get jonathan's tender "you're my brother and there is nothing absolutely nothing that will ever change that" which is the most direct anyone has ever been about that which makes will different. and he doesn't shy away from it! he doesn't deny it, because we can see from his confession and how he breaks down that he's desperately been wanting and needing to hear that. he accepts that love and allows himself to be held and seen by someone else, as he has every other time. because will doesn't hate being different, he just hates that he has to live in a world where that's seen as wrong and thus makes him feel like he doesn't belong because of it. but he doesn't change himself. he doesn't feel ashamed of it. he doesn't see it as a flaw in himself or others and he never has. will is different and he knows it and he wouldn't have it any other way.

will's story since the beginning has been about being different and going through awful things, and managing to not only find the light in it but also make it out stronger because of it all. it's always been about using what makes him different as a good thing and as something he uses to save himself and others.

will being good with a gun bought him time with whatever kidnapped him. will knowing how to run and hide kept him alive in the upside down. will acted as a spy while possessed and managed not only to save hopper but also tell them how to finish this. will's experiences and senses helped them figure out what was happening in season three. will's love and loyalty inspires mike and manages to bring him to a better place even if just for a moment in the van, and again he's the one that knows vecna's current state, aaaand had he been in hawkins at the time it likely would've gone a lot better because as dustin said "we need will".

taking something awful and turning it into a good thing and a source of strength is a wonderful trope. it's inspiring and empowering not only for the character but for those that could use that hope and reminder that there's always a silver lining, that life isn't all darkness and shadows and hurt. not only that, but it's something that they've literally always done for will since the very beginning. he is the prime character for that. his entire message has always been that it's okay to be different and that you can find strength and peace in that; that the things that make you different aren't a detriment, they're precisely what make you strong. like... i'm sorry, but have you not been paying attention at all whatsoever this entire time or... :/

#some of u heard 'sometimes it makes you feel like a mistake' and just forgot every other season ever it seems like #but idk maybe IM the outlier here lmao #characters like mike steve and eleven i can see the conformity argument for #BUT WILL?!?!?!? #will who has always drawn and listened to his music and wanted to hang out with his friends and play dnd and who #gets made fun of for so many things even by those that mean the world to him but has never ONCE tried to change #anything about who he is over that..... THAT'S who you think thinks being different is a bad thing!?!?! #will who has never lied about being a loner or what he likes or what he wants in life or has dressed like other people want him to #will who specifically has received multiple It's Okay To Be Different speeches and came out of them believing them is the character #that you think hates being different? will who loves mike's nerdy self and thinks the absolute world of him and TELLS HIM AS MUCH AND #CONFESSES HIS GAY LOVE TO DESPITE THE SUMMER OF HOMOPHOBIA AND THE AIRPORT FIASCO AND THAT DREW A #FUCKING HEART ON HIS SHIELD UNABASHEDLY AND CONFESSED IN FRONT OF TWO OTHER PEOPLE TOO ON TOP OF THAT #IN THE EIGHTIES!!!!!!! TO MIKE!!!! WHO COULDNT TOUCH HIM AND HAS A CONSERVATIVE FAMILY AND DIDNT TALK TO HIM FOR A YEAR #IS WHO YOU THINK HATES BEING DIFFERENT . HELLO #literally everything that he goes through is turned into something 'good' because that's the POINT!!!! #HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE NORMAL!!! HE IS NOT THE CHARACTER U SHOULD BE MAKING THOSE ARGUMENTS FOR LMAO #jus say u don't want him to have powers bro don't be lying on my blorbito's name like that 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyway. crazed frenzy is over im normal now <3 #u kno how the long and all too passionate bordering on Is This Bitch Okay mobile posts go #back to being offline now byeeeee 🏃‍♀️

[ruffgem]

my dad has this weird misconception that i don't like pop music or 'old people music' ('old people' meaning his generation. so like early gen x.) which he consistently brings up whenever we discuss music... its like actually i think youre just inventing an entirely different version of me in ur mind because if im being perfectly honest ive been injecting midlife crisis pop directly into my veins for YEARS

#what are the new yeah yeah yeahs... islands.... scott mcmicken... man man... etc. albums if not this exact flavor of pop #that he is describing #like WHAT do u mean #who am i in ur mind???? #even beyond 'indie' pop he also assumes i hate like... 80s pop too #WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT??? i eat that shit up dead serious #i think maybe i said i didnt like pop music one time in 2011 when i was forced to listen to katy perry in school on a daily basis and #he just took that and ran with it for the rest of eternity IDK!! #idk how many times i can say i could find something i like in pretty much any genre (true) #he thinks im lying or something. its all a sham....

[widevibratobitch]

so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.

'you gotta sing this softer'

'what'

'this is mozart'

'this is vitellia'

'this is mozart'

'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'

'this is mozart'

'i wanna murder a guy'

'this is mozart'

'...'

'softer. gentle. mozart'

'...ok'

#they're killing me here #i already bargained for ONE (1) note in chest (thank you so so much that i am ALLOWED to sing an A3 in chest voice <333) and now THIS #THIS is why people hate mozart. fuck you. #i recorded that rehearsal and the first version sounds SO MUCH BETTER. after i did what she asked me to do its just. so fucking boring. #i hate it here #i love this duet so much but frfr im not sure i wanna do it if i have to do it on their terms. #also like sorry to be a bitch but you're a pianist girl. just stick to your stuff and let me take care of mine. #just because you're playing this like you're constipated because tHiS iS mOzArT doesnt mean the rest of us dont care either. #its possible i never will get the chance to sing the entire vitellia so i want to do justice. as much as im able. to this one chance i get #it took me A Long While to deal with the fact that i wont be able to bark that 'indegno' and 'regno' like i always envisioned. #but like. ok. whatever. i can still make it Entertaining. THIS however. no. no fucking way. #and its not even about me being a big-headed know-it-all who thinks she's better than everyone because. lol and lmao clearly im Not #but this is about having a fucking SOUL. its about actually taking the libretto into consideration too. its about trying to figure out #WHY mozart wrote it the way he did. like sorry but this is another fiordiligi case where its CLEAR that the amplitudes the crazy jumps #are there FOR A REASON. the reason is HE WANTED A CONTRAST. some fucking EMOTION. he sure as hell didnt want it to be Soft And Gentle. #i know it because i talked to him and he told me im right about everything as always and you can eat shit girl bye #grrrrrrrr im so angry #i knos i sound so arrogant here but please. please i just want to make this music fun and enjoyable. i just dont want it to be boring #please understand my vision im begging you

[awitchsheartif]

Just found out the lead singer of a band I like is a twitch streamer

my day has been ruined

#“oh i see you like X did you watch Y?” #“excuse me wot” #i can't imagine this applied to many bands so people will know what i'm talking about without me naming any names but omg wild #“im better than everyone else i like them for the music” vibes but ironically #for context they are my 2nd listened to band on spotify wrapped - and i didnt even know

[flowers-that-sing]

how to cure the sudden onset of horrible and inexplicable rage

#bobbi babbling #ive tried punching my mattress and screaming and jumping around and throwing pillows #im still furious #there’s literally no reason for it either #it’s just because i have fucking BPD #i’m so angry #my voice is too high i sound like a girl and i cant hit any of yhe notes i want #and the singer is a woman! and she has a deeper voice than i do!!! #i hate my voice! #and my parents dont give a shit about anything i have to say but they expect me to just listen to them #and be the perfect obedient little puppet of a daughter #they didnt even do anything actually. they just dont care about music or stranger things so they dont listen when i talk about either #but they don’t care about ANYTHING i say! they dont even care about ME or what makes me happy! #all my dad cares about is if im STUDYING #I DONT WANT TO STUDYY IM ANGRY #I HATE EVERYBODY AND I HATE MYSELF #i want everybody to just go away #i want them all to just fucking die! #no i dont. thats bad. i dont want them to die. #I HATE EVERYTHING #I WANNA JUMP OUT A WINDOW #I HATE EVERYONE #i hate having fucking BPD what is WRONG with me #WHY AM I SO ANGRY?! #bpd posting #and im so unremarkable #everyone is better than me #everyone is talented at SOMETHING #everyone else is special #why am i not remarkable at anything

[hiddenbeks]

carth watching in increasing despair as this random soldier he escaped the endar spire with and who agreed to keeping a "low profile" makes an enemy of tarisian nobility and the local crime lord, loses all their credits in pazaak games, enters a dueling ring with the excuse of regaining the credits but really just wants to blow off some steam, goes to a sith party with the excuse of searching for leads on bastila's whereabouts but really just wants to see how fun the sith are to party with,

#the 'prodigal knight' and 'dreaded sith lord' is also the wildest party-goer in the galaxy babyyyy #the sith are not fun to party with btw. cant hold their liquor and the music choices are mid #this is what ultimately sets liah on the light side path (not really but thats what she tells everyone. half-jokingly.) #also i havent actually lost any credits in pazaak yet. i beat that one guy in the cantina who claims to be the best player around. ha #but like Canonically liah is so bad at pazaak. or maybe its just bad luck. either way she keeps losing but cant stop playing #she simply cannot say no to a challenge. be it card games or duels. i love her #ch: liah #el plays kotor #im having a blast w this game but i cant stop thinking abt what it could be if it werent so old n limited by the technology of its time #the quests could have more layers n paths n outcomes...... #like what if the sith party was bigger what if you could get absolutely shitfaced n fail to find anything that could help in ur search. lol #instead of just. u walk in to apartment. u briefly talk to guy who invited u. screen fades to black. #everyone except for u is passed out on the floor bc they had too much to drink. u didnt even get a chance to drink. #quest proceeds. loot sith armor for disguise and be on ur merry way. no partying for u. #sigh. kotor remake....... you remain in my dreams........ #also disclaimer theres nothing wrong with a game being more linear!!! #not every game has to have the complexities n permutations of modern rpgs!!! sometimes simplicity is better!!! #but im just saying. it would be fun and its fun to think about. #also btw some of the dialogue in this game sounds like its written by a child. its a bit painful at times. but anyway

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

Me, my friend, and her daughter (she's 5) were walking at the park today and her daughter just reached up and grabbed my hand and held my hand for like 5 minutes while we were walking and i almost started crying

#she didn't want me to leave when i was leaving 🥺 #we saw a little baby mouse in the visitor's center at the park and got the people there to rescue it and she wanted to pet it so bad 🥺 #i think my new best friend is a 5 year old little girl even though I'm really awkward around kids #like what do you talk to them about? hello child i am 23 and depressed but you are 5 and adorable pls don't ever grow up #i gave her a bee i crocheted bc it was from a kit that andrew got me and it was supposed to be a 'turtle bee' where it was a turtle and you #took it's shell off and it was a bee. i only ever got around to making the bee part and then we broke up and i couldnt look at it anymore so #i gave it to her and she's like why doesn't it have a mouth and my first thought was well kid I didn't feel like looking at it anymore and #you'll appreciate it more than i will so you can have it even without the mouth. #im debating on giving her the squishmallow he gave me. cause it's currently wedged between my bed and the wall #but it's cam and he was my favorite squishmallow before Andrew got it for me. like i already had one this one is a different edition #so like i want to keep it bc it's a Christmas sweater cam. but i dont want to keep it bc ouchy memories. and she'd get more use out of it #than it being wedged between my bed and the wall so i dont have to look at it #we were driving back from this store bc her mom had to pick up a uhaul and she was too small to ride with her so she got to ride with me #and this poor little 5 year old had to carry the conversation bc i didnt know what to talk to her about 😂 she's like what do you do when #you're home and im like don't tell her you lay in bed all day you can't tell the chils you're depressed and im like i like to read and play #with my animals and crochet. she was very jealous that i have cats. and when we were driving back from the park i had music on and her mom #and me were talking and shes like I CAN'T HEAR THE MUSIC GUYS and her mom goes that's her way of telling us to shut up. and then we stopped #talking and she's like i still can't hear the music 🙄 so i turned it up some and im like jen im introducing your daughter to waterparks 😂

[mildmayfoxe]

i had a bad dream (a fine dream that put me in a bad mood when i woke up) about being at some kind of music performance/recognition ceremony and people kept asking why i was there because i wasn’t playing and i had to be like “i dunno” and then at the end i found a pamphlet that had a big “recognition of musical excellence” section that had my name and a specific performance i was part of listed and i was like “hey that’s why :)” and showed it to some people incl this one person who kept flirting with me who was suitably impressed and then somehow within just a couple minutes i lost the pamphlet and the person with the bag of them was like “yeah i don’t have any more” so then i didn’t have any more proof that i was supposed to be there. and then i woke up

#the performance my brain picked was so funny too bc it was an all-state performance which IS impressive but i wasn’t even first chair i was #just there. even though they did let me in a year early which is impressive but i was just part of the ensemble i didn’t even stand out #actually that was the only all state i did why didn’t i ever do another all state #anyway i think this happened bc the other day a friend of mine was talking to me about my musical experience & she was like ?? why DIDNT #you go to music school??? and why aren’t you playing now??? #like i dunno man have you ever done something for ten year and then not done it for another ten years and now you know you’ll never be as #good at it as you used to be? esp bc as an adult you don’t have built in music programs to join? for free? #i dunno. anyway. i miss playing music blah blah blah whatever. #now i have to figure out how to turn my day around and it hasn’t even started #chatpost

[ghostmaggie]

the lightning thief musical might just be perfect media

#i am so fucking!!! #the motifs and themes are chefs kiss #the way it teases out the characters and themes and plot of the book so evocatively while doing its own thing and keeping it fresh #the voice of it all!!! #it's all ive listened to or thought about for several weeks and no one i know has listened (despite many hints) #like ugh i listened to it forever ago and thought it was fine but kinda meh and cheesy #past me you were WRONG ok you straight up didnt get it #also if this in any way makes u wanna listen do but make sure you go in open minded and ready to accept what they are ready to give u #which is love and friendship and lore and angst and sense of self #and also i have to recommend listening to my curated extended playlist that slots back in 3 of the cut songs #(5 cut songs were released as bonus tracks and theyre all fun but one is more of a bit and one is duplicative of another song in the show) #(as in literally shares some dialogue) #so while try does tread some of the same emotional ground of lost it gets to stay while in the same boat sadly does not #ily tho itsb #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk #pjo #tlt musical #post #eta: oh and don't even get me STARTED about the Implications of the roles that are double/triple/etc cast #GABE IS LUKE IS ARES #CLARISSE IS MRS DODDS IS KATIE GARDNER #SALLY IS THE ORACLE IS SILENA IS CHARON #(i know the katie and silena thing doesnt feel like much but oh!! in my heart it is so much) #GROVER IS MR D DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE GALAXY BRAIN MEME IN MY HEART RN #and just to close the loop chiron is all other male gods and also medusa and it's so!!! #we don't have time to unpack all that but t #it's always rotating in my mind

[be-good-to-bugs]

maybe i am cool and fun to be around. i feel like people dont like me but ive hardly been around anyone in so long so i have no proof of that.

#the bin #there have been some people who seemed to wanna be friends. i wish it couldve happened. #there was one of my sisters old coworkers who said they wanted to be friends. i really wanted to get to know them and hangout but i didnt #have tbeir contact info and my sister kept randomly having falling outs with them bc shes the worst #they stopped wanting to be around my sister. apparently they still wanted to be my friend but i never got her contact info #she seemed so cool. she showed me her los and monster high collection one of the few times we hung out. i wish we coulda watched #barbie movies together or smth. but no. #how do you meet people? where do you meet people who like the some kinda stuff you do? is it all just luck based? #ive been thinking music shows might be a good idea to try n meet people. that seems to be where a lot of people meet their cool alt friends #i wish i wasnt so lost on how social stuff works. others seem to just make friends wherever. but whenever i talk to people it ends quickly #how do you turn an acquaintance into a friend? some people will meet somone once in a circumstance where theyd never run into them again #and theyll become friends. how do they do that? i know its not luck. how do people have conversations in ways that lead to that? #how do you even learn you have these common interests or that you just like their personality? i hardly know what to talk about that isnt #immediately relevant. i do pretty well socially in work settings bc i can make some casual conversation but its all pretty enpty #i feel so awful every second of the day. nothing distracts me from it. i just wanna talk to someone. watch a show with someone #hold soneones hand. not be alone all the time. #i miss telling jokes. its like such a big part of me and how i interact with people. i have bareky gotten to joke around with anyone in #months. i think that especially is crushing me honestly #i just. i feel SO BAD. every day feels so long and horrible. its only one more month and then things will change at least somewhat but #everyday is so hard to get through. every hour feels like forever. i hate it. i can do anything to feel better #i feel empty of everything besides horrible feelings

[skyburger]

i know their asses are fake music fans i know wamuu has never heard a single george michael song hes never even heard wake me up before you go-go. esidisi doesnt even KNOW about highway to hell. kars is also there

#SORRY IDK ANY CARS SONGS #i did look them up on spotify and like i listened to it and its good music!!!! but ive never heard it before LOL #anyway. i feel like ive sinned spelling acdc and wham like that #but i always spell kars with a k he looks stupid with a c... Automobile? your name is fucking automobile? #anyway as much as i just wanna call them wham and acdc. if i write them the official localization way #its easier for me to make clear when im talking about wham! (the pop duo) and AC/DC (the rock band) #anyway im allowed to post this because like well firstly why wouldnt i be #but secondly george michael is my moms fave singer #and before i discovered mcr i would say ac/dc was my fave band cuz that was like the first real artist i would just #sit down and listen to all their music you know #like before that i didnt have a fave!!! i would just say i liked 80s music #cause tbh all i listened to was video game songs and the radio #and i feel like half the radio was and still is one hit wonders #so id listen to one song by someone on spotify and like it but then i just wouldnt care for any of their other stuff a lot of the time #anyway ac/dc and eventually mcr were my gateway drug into like becoming a Music Guy (aka having more of a taste in music than i did + #when i was 12 years old.) #tldr wham is my moms fave band (''pop duo'' technically i guess but stfu its a band) and ac/dc was my first fave (and i still love em) #so im rightfully furious (jokingly) that these faker jjba villians dont even listen to their music!!!! THAT MUSIC IS BICHIN!!!! #stop killing people and listem to everything she wants by wham! please. please. it will fix you #also heres my formal apology to santana because like i have beef with kars for being kars #but santana didnt do shit i just dunno any songs by santana #like the band. sorry to mr. santana himself i will listen to your music one day i promise #anyway sorry for the ramble i looooove talking #muffin mumbles