#and also ive been rewatching bfu and ghostfiles so . prepare for me tobe absolutley fucking insufferable

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good evening. im regressing <3

#its sooooo funny how i have one (1) night thats awful in such a specific way. and here i come crawling back 2 this blog #at least i know it will always be here for me. sigh #like dont get me wrong i loooove selfships i love selfhsip content but i dont always feel like i Need it u know #like its such a big coping mechanism that when things are good im like! yes! its so cute but i dont think about it as much #and then i get some news that crushes my heart and soul and suddenly im like. oh ok. my fake boyfriends will help me feel better about this #laying on the floor. it's so dumb #not. this blog. the thing im upset about #its fine. like its cool. its not a big deal #but the specific fucked up way my brain works is like. #a solif 80% of my mind is like oh its the end of the world you should kill yourself actjally #while the other 20% is over in the corner like. #no like this isnt even bad news. theres no logical reason you should be upset about this even a little bit #aughghghhh. anyway. ive got like 6 chapters of sl to catch up on and also i watched hannibal clips yesterday #and also ive been rewatching bfu and ghostfiles so . prepare for me tobe absolutley fucking insufferable #oh and im thinking abt fish a lot so naturally that means im also thinking about merm/subnautica aus . wooohoo