#and I'm like. I've tried beung nice to them when they're like this and it Does Not Work they just snap at me

[symptoms-syndrome]

I was gossiping with a friend about a mutual friend who's throwing a tantrum abt smth silly and I said something like "when I lash out I apologize in a timely way" (this mutual friend has a thing where they'll lash out and then like? A week later be like "sorry about that :/"

But anyway they literally responded with "I don't even know what that would look like! You always keep the peace and de-escalate" and me, who has internalized the idea that I am inherently a mean and rude person, was like :O

I guess it's hard to tell when I'm lashing out and when I'm just. Not being as overly polite/diplomatic.

#ask to tag #not that it's relevant but basically what happened was that friend (W) and I were watching a rly stupid TW show #that we both enjoy watching! its stupid but it's fun to watch it and make fun of it u know #and this mutual friend/roommate (Z) was watching it and just. would not stop talking over the WHOLE thing nonstop #and eventually was talking about stuff that wasnt even about the show #and i asked them a few times to let me watch the show and thry Did Not Stop #and so eventually i was like 'if you're not enjoying watching this with us you can go to bed?' #bc it was like 10:30 #and this was lsst night #and Z is STILL mad at me #and being really passive aggressive about it #and I'm like. I've tried beung nice to them when they're like this and it Does Not Work they just snap at me #i got them a donut bc they were upset about something once and they just snatched it and didnt even say thanks im like ok #so im not gonna play that game and im just gonna do my own thing and send 'get a therapist' juju their way #bc they did say they were trying to get one and im like p l e a s e do i cannot w this #anyway rant over #vent #negative