#i got them a donut bc they were upset about something once and they just snatched it and didnt even say thanks im like ok

[mouthfulloftoothpasterry]

More baker Harry??? I just read all the concepts and they are so cute 🥺

THIS ALL JUST DELETED IM SO UPSET OB MY GODDHRND

Okay anyways

Like I was saying…

In a earlier concept i said that she would get a job close to the bakery (maybe a couple doors down) at a bookstore or boutique

And I could see her going over to the bakery on her breaks and he would pull her in the back so they could have a little privacy and he keeps stealing kisses from her lips bc she’s in an oversized pink jumper and she looks so cuddly :( and she’s like “were you getting into the sweets” because his lips taste all sugary and sweet and he starts to blush “I ate a cupcake before you came.”

And nights that she comes to stay over at his little apartment:(

I could see them laying in his bed, a bowl of cookie dough Harry grabbed out of the freezer, one spoon to share and they trade off after each bite, cuddling under his fluffy comforter:(

And he would turn on a horror movie because he know she would cuddle into him and grab into him extra tight 🥺 and he would act all scared so she wouldnt get embarrassed ☹️

And she would just be wearing tiny pajama shorts and one of his shirts as her pajamas for the night ☹️ and it would get Harry all soft 🥺

But also a little hard… 🥸

And instead of saying it (because he didn’t want to outright say it and get a little embarrassed about getting hard over something so small) he would pull her closer to him instead and gently rub himself into her backside until she finally said soemthing

And they would breeze past it and never say what they were doing or what they were going to do until her sleep shorts were tossed away at the side of the bed and her arms were tight around his neck with her legs latched around him so she wouldn’t slip or slide

And he would peck little kisses around her cheeks, nose, lips ☹️

It would be cozy and quiet for the most part beside Harry’s moans and y/n whimpers and tiny calls of “H” and “daddy”, switching between the names

And his little praises “making daddy feel so good” “you look so pretty like this, sweetheart” ☹️

Like I’ve said earlier I feel like he’s a very “sweetheart” “princess” “lovebug” “my love” kind of boyfriend 🥺☹️☹️☹️☹️

And they would def wake up in the morning half dressed, cuddling tight to each other and a little sweaty

Omg Stawp I could also see Harry wanting a cat so he takes y/n to a pet adoption center and he gets one of those cute little kittens that is mainly white with the black and ginger spots :( and he would name her sometime silly like “ginger” or “spot” or something to do with the bakery “cupcake” “donut”

And he’s like “now we’ve got a baby to take care of. I expect you to come and see your daughter at least once a week” ☹️

And omg

Y/n would be so jealous when she introduces him to her friends

Like her bf was beautiful, no denying that

And he comes in a cute little outfit ☹️brown pants and a soft green sweater with a white button down under it with the collar showing ☹️ maybe little Mary Janes and cute pink socks he stole from her ☹️ his hair parted opjust right down the middle and it’s all floppy and cute

And she was already jealous that he looked so cute and it wasn’t for her eyes only but her girlfriend are like “he’s so cute!” And gushing over his accent or how polite he was

And she gets to be a little bit of a grump so he’s like “aren’t you having a good time, lovebug?“ and she’s a little silent, tapping her fingers along the wooden table of his bakery and she acts like everything is fine “no, no, it’s okay. Just too many donuts, my stomach is a little upset.”

And once her friends left she would stay with him during closing for the bakery

And he could obviously tell that she’s jealous (because he knows his girl like the back of his hand) but he doesn’t press it, he just talks even if she doesn’t want to talk back, or let’s a comfortable silence soothe both of them while he scrubs down the flour caked on the counter

And once he’s shut up the lights to everything but the back kitchen he’s like “okay, why is my girl upset? Y’gonna tell me?”

And obviously she thinks it’s stupid so she’s like “no,no, it’s nothing, H. Can you just take me home, or your place, or wherever you wanted to go.” And he’s not having it and gets a little 🤨☹️ with her and she’s finally like “I’m just jealous because they think you’re cute” and he’s like “who cares! I think you’re cute and that’s all that matters. Im not running after you’re friends just because I charmed them with my obviously amazing personality” and his jokes finally put a smile back on her face 🥺

And he would cuddle her up with the their kitten resting between their belly’s :((((((

#baker!harry #harry styles #Harry styles fluff #Harry styles smut

[lukesalvez]

Sleepless | S.R.

spencer reid x reader

you have insomnia, spencer doesn't, but he'll still stay awake to keep you company in the middle of the night.

masterlist. pure fluff, just some content bc i haven't posted in a bit !

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You were fed up with tossing and turning in bed fearing that you’d wake your boyfriend, so with a soft huff you took your pillow and went to the living room.

You plopped down on the couch, searching briefly for the remote before finding it and turning on the tv. Friends was on, so you settled on the program and sunk into the sofa. Despite being on the comfortable furniture you knew it wouldn’t lull you to sleep like it used to be able to do. Insomnia was a bitch.

Meanwhile, Spencer had reached out over the sheets for you and when he didn’t feel your skin, he immediately shot out of bed. (He was pretty paranoid about your safety, you know, with his job and all.) After looking at the bathroom door attached to the bedroom but not seeing the light on,  he followed the noise of the television and found you sitting on the couch with a cup of tea in your hands.

“Babe?” he said, his voice was slightly raspy from sleep and his hair was a mess. You smiled at his sleepy state, the poor man should’ve stayed in bed but in true Spencer fashion he’d decided he had to come check on you.

“Spence, you can go back to bed. I just couldn’t sleep,” you told him as he plopped down next to you and took some of the blanket you were under to cover his long legs.

“Something on your mind?” he asked. Oftentimes when you were upset or worried it would manifest as insomnia, but now that was simply not the case. You literally just couldn’t fall asleep for the life of you.

“No,” you replied. The tone of your voice suggested that you were telling the truth so Spencer nodded, he leaned back into the couch with a soft sigh.

“Anything I can do?” Of course he wanted to help, but you and him both knew that you simply weren’t going to fall asleep for hours. You’d end up sleeping late tomorrow, or maybe not at all till tomorrow night.

You shook your head no. Wordlessly Spencer pulled you into his chest, you cuddled into his embrace immediately. His pajamas made him feel softer, that coupled with the fact that his breathing was slow and steady was soothing.

He laid down all the way on the couch and positioned you so that you were on top of him. His long legs caused his feet to hang over the arm of the sofa, the mismatched socks covering them were brightly colored and a contrast to the dark room.

“Spence, I don’t think I’m sleeping at all tonight,” you told Spencer, your voice vibrating against his chest. “I’m gonna head to the coffee shop down the street.” there was nothing for you to do tomorrow, you could sleep then. In the back of your mind you knew that caffeine and sugar would only contribute to your sleeping problems rather than fix them, but you didn’t care. For now you just wanted a cup of coffee and something sweet, and you knew that the shop would have a variety of donuts and other pastries even at this hour.

“I’m coming with you.” Spencer replied. You didn’t even argue, he was so stubborn so there was no use in telling him to go back to bed. You just nodded and pulled a hoodie over your head, it was so big that it reached the tops of your thighs and if Spencer didn’t know any better, he’d think you weren’t wearing any shorts underneath. You both slipped on shoes and exited the apartment building at 4:37 am, the walk down the block was short and you were happy upon entering the shop.

The barista looked similar to you in her facial expression, she was awake but her eyes drooped and the bags under them were further proof of how tired she was. You and Spencer walked up to the counter and each ordered coffee and a donut.

You dragged over to a booth in the corner and sat across from your boyfriend, he looked so cute with his messy hair and his hands covered by the ends of his sweatshirt.

Once you got your coffee and food, you began to eat and drink it at a slow pace. Spencer was wide awake now, that was a perk to having a job that could call at any minute– he was used to having to fully wake himself up in the middle of the night..

You sat across from each other just enjoying the other’s company, the silence that fell between you was not awkward nor uncomfortable. Here and there you’d speak, making small comments about the lights outside or about how you wanted to watch the sunrise. Spencer’s rambling of course contributed to the conversation as well but you just smiled, happy to have someone who’d sacrifice sleep to sit in a booth and drink coffee with you when it was nearing 5 am.

#spencer reid x reader #spencer reid one shot #spencer reid fluff #spencer reid #criminal minds fic #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds #cm #spencer reid fic #criminal minds masterlist #spencer reid imagine

[symptoms-syndrome]

I was gossiping with a friend about a mutual friend who's throwing a tantrum abt smth silly and I said something like "when I lash out I apologize in a timely way" (this mutual friend has a thing where they'll lash out and then like? A week later be like "sorry about that :/"

But anyway they literally responded with "I don't even know what that would look like! You always keep the peace and de-escalate" and me, who has internalized the idea that I am inherently a mean and rude person, was like :O

I guess it's hard to tell when I'm lashing out and when I'm just. Not being as overly polite/diplomatic.

#ask to tag #not that it's relevant but basically what happened was that friend (W) and I were watching a rly stupid TW show #that we both enjoy watching! its stupid but it's fun to watch it and make fun of it u know #and this mutual friend/roommate (Z) was watching it and just. would not stop talking over the WHOLE thing nonstop #and eventually was talking about stuff that wasnt even about the show #and i asked them a few times to let me watch the show and thry Did Not Stop #and so eventually i was like 'if you're not enjoying watching this with us you can go to bed?' #bc it was like 10:30 #and this was lsst night #and Z is STILL mad at me #and being really passive aggressive about it #and I'm like. I've tried beung nice to them when they're like this and it Does Not Work they just snap at me #i got them a donut bc they were upset about something once and they just snatched it and didnt even say thanks im like ok #so im not gonna play that game and im just gonna do my own thing and send 'get a therapist' juju their way #bc they did say they were trying to get one and im like p l e a s e do i cannot w this #anyway rant over #vent #negative

[moonlit-imagines]

Headcanons for being Tony Stark’s son (Part 2)

Tony Stark x son!reader

warnings:

a/n: had to split it into 2 parts bc i hit the text limit dhshaggags

prompt: continued

part 1

~sokovia was ur first big mission~

“why is y/n here, stark?” -cap

“the first mistake was letting me become a father”

“good god, tony...”

you having the time of your life crushing robots

“WHEEEEEE”

also proving useful by saving avengers a handful of times

“thanks for the assist, stark clone” -clint

rip pietro

rhodey was actually the most worried about you if we’re being honest, he didn’t understand why they let you in this one???

“y/n? y/n, talk to me! are you alive?”

“yes, uncle rhodey! i’m perfect, stop worrying!”

“i love you, kid! be safe!”

✨a good family you’ve got✨

soon the avengers broke up bc your dad cant get along with steve and it was just really awkward

but you chose your dad’s side

“sorry, steve! he pays my allowance!”

peter was actually a little okay, you know!! spazzy at first, but he was cool

“dude, you’re y/n stark! you’re tony stark’s very own son! i’m talking to mr. stark’s only child!”

“yep, that’s me. i’m what earned tony the title of ‘DILF’”

teenage teamup? ofc

“am i doing alright?”

“looking a-okay, pete!”

tony was worried fighting steve would traumatize you so he made you wait at the hotel with happy and peter

“don’t do anything to embarrass me, y/n. i dont want to see you on the news for something stupid”

you and peter ended up hanging out in your room and watching tv and ordering room service

“how do you do that so smoothly? i’d just freak out and go get it myself”

“years of experience as a spoiled rich brat”

absolutely positively being up all night and trying to fight your exhaustion

“you two seem to be getting along well. couldn’t be me” -happy

“for someone named happy, you never seem to be happy”

“not around teenagers, no”

“i remember when you loved me, ‘uncle happy’”

peter texted you every day after that

whenever flash picked on peter for “never meeting tony stark” he’d show a picture of you and him taking selfies in the lab together yes you invite him over much to the dismay of everyone else around you

plus tony was out of town and you were finally trusted enough to be left alone unchecked so like, happy would just leave at the first sign of peter

“that’s not real!”

“jealous?”

you actually showed up for homecoming on a dare (but in disguise)

didn’t wanna attract all the attention, you just wanted a high school experience

but you got called into avengers tower to help move early on :/ bad timing too cuz peter had to fight his first villain and u missed it

“dude, how do you feel?”

“bruh sound effect number two”

“oh my god”

FRIDAY heard him and pulled up the sound and you were WEAK you couldn’t stop laughing

“please....i think i broke a few ribs. cant laugh until tomorrow”

tony offered peter the avengers gig and peter said no, you were very disappointed but u understood that not everyone wanted to be in the spotlight like that

but you and peter obviously still hung out

oh, tony proposed! they interviewed you on sight!

“y/n, how does it feel to know that you’re going to have a stepmom soon?”

“you guys are aware that pepper helped raise me, right? right?!”

moving on, life was smooth for a while, there was some wedding planning, talk of you being a best man (which rhodey fought you on)

“no, i’ve known your dad longer!”

“i’m his son!”

i n v a s i o n

oh boy that was rough

bruce was surprised that you had fucking grown so much in the past 3 years good lord

“y/n...your VOICE”

“puberty, i know. when’s it gonna happen to you?”

“it hurts more when it’s from a teenager”

“uh, did you forget my birthday?”

peter’s back! peter’s back!

finally, man

“spider-kid, i could use an assist!”

“on the way!”

“aliens, why did it have to be aliens?”

up up and away for tony and peter, leaving you on the ground with all the earthly chaos and fear

“you two are the absolute worst, you know that? DAD, PETER, GET BACK DOWN HERE”

“no can do, kid. i—” *cuts off*

“oh great, no service on the space donut, huh? find a damn wifi password and call me back you asshole”

pepper was probably having a heart attack bc the news stations were having a field day but you were one of the only active avengers left, meaning you had to help clean this up

“bruce, we gotta get going”

“what? where?”

“upstate”

patching up the avengers as best as you could to take care of the threat

but you guys always win, this should be a cake walk, right?

wrong.

this was bad, very bad

after a lengthy battle with thanos in wakanda, you had failed. thanos got the stones, he snapped. the world was in ruins. but you didn’t get to see that part

you dusted away

“tell dad i’m sorry and i love him”

tony finally came back to earth hoping to see you, but upon seeing pepper’s face, he knew you were gone

“he did everything he could, tony! he didn’t deserve it!”

she was extremely upset, she saw you like a son of her own

soon, her and tony restarted their life and had a daughter, dad always wondered what it’d be like to have a little girl. it was different, it really was

she was eager to meet you

morgan stole pictures of you to hang up in her room

“when i meet y/n, im gonna give him a big hug! then we’ll have a tea party!”

tony has a picture of you and peter in the kitchen, he misses the two of you, but found comfort in the fact that you may be with each other

an ounce of hope, he had to try something

save his only son, and his other son

when he got to 2012, he was disappointed that he hadn’t let you become an avenger yet because he couldn’t see you here

yada yada he fucked up now he’s in the 70s and he fixed the fuck up and now hes in 2023

and bruce snapped

and you were all brought back and the way you kicked ass was inspiring

tony had to see his son now. right now.

“y/n, dear god! you’re okay! oh, man. i love you so much, kid. i missed you”

“i love you too. and i can’t believe you went to space without me, meanie”

“get over it”

ah, back to old times

peter and you obviously had to team up for this one! come on, what a story to tell!

and then, a snap and the warriors began to fade. you turned around and saw him on his knees

“no...”

you rushed over to where peter already was and tried to hold back tears, to be strong for him

“hey, dad. i’m here. no more missed goodbyes, okay? i’m here.”

you sat beside him and held his hand while the rest of your family made their peace with him and he finally slipped away

“y/n...are you okay?” -peter

“not even a little”

peter was worried about you, but you were worried about peter

mutual worry

meeting morgan was...surprising

pepper forgot to tell you they had a daughter while you were gone

she was so sweet and for the first month you lived at the cabin, she slept in your room

you got NO space

“i love you y/n”

“love you too” *thinking about dad bc she just reminds you of him so much*

“i love you y/n”

“love you too, morgan”

over and over

peter and you had sleepovers a lot, usually at his house bc you were the only one besides ned allowed over bc of all the spider-stuff

ned fanboyed over you

also sleepovers at peter’s were a nice break from being at tony’s cabin where you were constantly reminded that he wasn’t there

“y/n, i’m going to europe for a field trip! it’s gonna be awesome!”

“dude, you’re gonna love it. are you bringing your suit?”

“no, this is my offical vacation. no spider-manning”

“good for you, man!”

peter sent you all the pictures he took on his phone

all of them

Peter-Man: And this one is me and Ned in our crappy hotel room. And here’s the river. And here’s MJ covered in birds, and here’s the airplane, Mr. Harrington fell asleep on me

you had to come to europe once you heard what was going on

happy and you picked up peter and he was a mess

“you gave away dad’s glasses?”

“i think we’re past the point that i am not smart”

“jesus, peter. you should have called me about them. i would have taken them off your hands if you weren’t ready for them”

having to make sure that you guys didn’t get hurt bc this was honestly your guy’s first solo pair-up

there wasnt much backup here

finally, you defeated the evil (who apparently held a very large grudge against you. sorry mister beck) and were able to go back home

“call me if you need anything, pete”

“i will. i promise.”

and the next thing you know...peter’s identity was exposed

“i left him alone for one day!”

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[prick-up-ur-ears]

Prank Wars

trying my hand at headcannons bc why tf not? 

kat and anne decide to start a prank war with everyone else

but nobody else was included in this decision

they start by pranking jane because they think she’d be the easiest to prank

they put shrink wrap on her door so she’ll run into it in the morning

they very much regret not recording it because jane’s reaction was HILARIOUS

her face got like all scrunched up and she was batting it away and yelling

kat and anne were DYING laughing

“do you think this is funny?”

“CLEARLY WE DO”

parr is their next victim target

while jane and parr are grocery shopping they wrap everything in parr’s room in tin foil

Everything

when parr and jane get back they hear running and laughing and “shhhh” and jane is Suspicious

after they put groceries away parr goes back to her room

“WHAT THE HELL IS THIS”

very loud laughter comes from anne’s bedroom

jane and parr decide to team up and go after anne and kat

one morning jane and parr treat the rest of the queens to donuts

two of the donuts have mayo in them

they make sure those two go to anne and kat

kat immediately spit it out once she took a bite

“this is the best donut i’ve ever had” -anne, not wanting to lose the upper hand, dying inside

she ate the whole donut

jane and parr are like wtf

next anne and kitty go after aragon

they duct tape an air horn to the wall in aragons room so that when she opens the door it hits the airhorn so it goes off

about an hour later when aragon returns to her room they hear the airhorn and a scream so loud that henry could probably hear it all the way from hell

“I’LL GET YOU BACK FOR THIS ANNE”

“sure cathy”

they prank cleves with a glitter bomb

they put glitter in a folded piece of paper and put it in an envelope addressed to cleves

“hey cleves you got something in the mail today”

“oh thanks”

15 seconds later

“WHAT THE FUCK GUYS”

jane made anne sweep up the glitter that ended up on the floor

not even kat is safe from anne’s prank wrath

one day when kat falls asleep on the couch anne puts a fake spider on her chest

cue the highest pitched scream you’ve even heard

“I THOUGHT WE WERE FAMILY”

ALL IS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR AND THIS IS WAR”

kat plans a prank on anne after that

she dumps out anne’s orange juice and fills it with water mixed with mac n cheese mix

she the first person to the kitchen the next morning because she’s dying to see anne’s reaction and doesn’t want to miss it

when anne comes down and gets her cereal and orange juice and sits at the table kat is just like staring her down waiting for her to drink the juice

anne obviously notices and knows something is gonna be wrong with her breakfast

the cereal is fine

she disscreetly sniffs the orange juice before drinking it and prepares herself when it smells like mac n cheese

she chugs the whole thing in one go

she thought it kinda tasted good

kat is just staring at her in horror

anne just gives her a smug look when she finishes it

“you’re gonna have to do better than that kitty”

kat enlists the help of the rest of the queens to prank anne

of course the rest of the queens are eager to help kat

with the help of the internet they decide on a good prank

they put gelatin capsules filled with lemon-lime kool aid powder in the shower head

a couple hours later anne takes a shower

“WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS”

anne throws open the bathroom door and the rest of the queens are right there in the hallway dying laughing

anne is green

she cant even pretend that shes upset

she’s so proud

and its a good look on her so shes not complaining

jane makes a no prank house rule

anne protests but is overruled by everyone

anne, later, to katherine: “if it’s a house rule then that means we just can’t prank people in the house anymore”

#six the musical #six #catherine of aragon #anne boleyn #jane seymour #anna of cleves #katherine howard #catherine parr

[starrysence]

amusement park date hc’s with uhhh any ship you want i can’t choose

i already briefly did this for ralbert so i’m gonna do mike/jojo bc 1.) i love writing hcs for them and 2.) they just like? totally would go on amusement park dates y'know????warnings: ummm mike is an absolute disaster and gets himself hurt a lot so very small blood tw×××

●so y'know how showing affection publicly is a gradual thing for these two?? well the first date mike decides to bring jojo out on once he knows jo is comfortable w/ some pda is an amusement park date▪he REFUSES to tell jojo where theyre going until they get there▪kind of worried abt it bc what if jo hates amusement parks or something???? mikey here is in a lil bit of a panic▪but it goes down the drain the moment mike sees jojo’s face absolutely LIGHT UP when he sees where they are▪"we’re going on an amusement park date?!?!?!?!? ive always wanted to go on one of these dates oHmygosh!!!“▪hes SO EXCITED▪mike cant. he just? cant. he loves his bf so much●jojo is literally on the verge of BURSTING with excitement the entire time after they enter the place and mike loves it ▪he wants to go on all the craziest rides which actually kinda surprises mike??▪hes always thought of jo as the kind of person who would like simpler and slower rides▪but NOPE▪however,,, is mike opposed to this? no. absolutely not.▪"we should try and go on ALL the rollercoasters”▪"HECK YES"●mike is pretty clumsy not gonna lie▪at some point he cut his knee open on the corner of a metal table bc he tripped over a fuckin rock or something and jojo had to rush him to the car to bandage him up▪mike feels bad bc he knows jojo gets kinda queasy at the sight of blood▪but hes so impressed that jo’s being so chill handling this??? his boy is so strong. yes. look at him go▪"im really surprised you haven’t, like, fainted yet, jo"▪"don’t jinx it, i’ve gotten extremely close to passing out on you at least 6 times in the last 5 minutes"▪"youre so brave i love you"▪"i love you too. dont keep worrying me like this, you,,,,, you klutzy dork. please take care of yourself !!“▪'klutzy dork?’ thats the best insult jojo can muster?▪mike cant help but laugh and he Melts when jojo pouts at him for it▪"im sorry but? klutzy dork is the best you can do? youre so cute baby”▪then he like kisses jojo on the nose and jojo cant stay upset. boy starts smiling so wide mike is worried its hurting his cheeks●theyre LIVING for the amusement park food ▪jo gets SO HYPED when he sees that theres churros▪"can i get 3?“▪"babe theres 2 of us”▪"actually i meant 3 for me…. i wasnt sure how many you wanted though"▪"holy crap, jojo"▪hes is almost scared by the speed at which jojo eats the churros (after he offers some to mike, ofc)▪mike, on the other hand, lives for the classic Theme Park Pizza™▪not much to say here tbh▪he could eat several slices of that stuff▪jojo rlly has no place to judge▪he just finds it impressive ▪"9, huh? think thats a new record"▪"WOOOOOOOOO"●so they eat the food after going on all the rides they wanted to go on plus some, so they settle for some of the games!!!!!! jo wins mike a few prizes but mike kinda gets carried away and wins jojo a lot. so many things. they have to get a bag to hold it all its really funny, jojo is giggling the whole time and mike is so in Love▪and by the time theyre done bagging everything its getting dark out and these boys are getting tired▪so mike suggests ending their time there by going on the ferris wheel!!▪jojo is so on board yes ferris wheel w/ his bf LET’S GO▪the sun is setting around the time theyre on it and when theyre at the top jo sees mike in that lighting and???? what can i say. boy cant help himself▪he goes IN for that cheesy top-of-the-ferris-wheel kiss▪LO AND BEHOLD it IS their first kiss▪"wow wow wowow ow wow wosiw wo w weown ejdjfjfjfjjgkkds" -mike’s mind when jo kisses him▪its just???? everything you expect from these boys honestly▪soft. sweet. gentle. extremely loving and pure ▪theyre so wholesome yall my HEART●so mike is exhausted afterwards but he still thinks he should treat his lovely boyfriend to some dessert ▪mike knows theres a stewart’s at a gas station only about 15 minutes on the way to his place from the amusement park▪so they go there!!!▪jo is practically asleep in his seat so mike asks him what flavor he wants and tells him that he’ll get both orders from him▪"what?? no you dont have to do that…!!“▪mike can tell jojo is trying to be resistant but he can also tell jojo is extremely tired so he INSISTS▪jo tells mike his order and mike kisses him on the cheek before going to get their orders▪the ice cream wakes jo up for a little bit and they kinda just sit in the car talking for a lil while ●…….they dont get back home til the next day▪they went to like this REALLY GOOD amusement park several hours away and just got so exhausted at some point on the way back to mike’s place?? and caffeine Does Not work on mike. and jo’s already out cold and mike really doesnt wanna wake him▪so mike pulls up at the next service area and texts ike to let him know whats going on and then he just crashes y'know??▪they wake up the next day feeling EXTREMELY refreshed!! so they grab some breakfast from the service area and take their time eating it before continuing the drive back▪jo starts laughing bc he has like 50 missed calls and 704847385 texts from elmer and buttons (tHeY wErE rOoMmAtEs) and has to text them to tell them hes ok and hes gonna be at mike’s for a little while▪they had a Good Time

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wow i would honestly die for these two????? holy shit. i hope you like these!!!

-sanj 💕

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[etudias]

(Edit: I am aware of the typo in the title, it should be experience)

Hi there, my name is Alessandra and I am going to tell y’all about how the whole college application process went for me. I think my experience ended a little differently than most, or at least most that people will share. It honestly took a lot for me to feel comfortable posting this so I really hope that it will help someone out there. It is however a very long post, so I am going to break it up into sections, feel free to read only what you need/want.

1. Researching Schools

I got excited for college. I was excited to go to college for as long as I can remember and was looking up different schools on site’s like the college board one, bigfuture, which by the way, I recommend, since probably 10th grade. So come Junior year I had a bunch of schools I was interested in. I ended up visiting a few in Boston over spring break that year. I visited Harvard, MIT, and Boston University (clearly my sights were set high). I did not really think it was that important to visit colleges, and that I should just visit the ones I got into to help decide (I now know that college visits can actually really help you get into a top school). The summer before senior year I worked hard to narrow down my list. I ended up with 12 schools that I applied to. This may seem like a lot to some, or not many at all to others. Most people I know applied to more like 5-8, but I know some people who applied to 20+, you gotta do what’s right for you. I wanted to apply to more honestly, but based on costs that is the number my mother and I agreed upon.

2. The Schools

Okay so in alphabetical order here are the schools I applied to:

Barnard College

Brown University

Carnegie Mellon University

Case Western Reserve University

Duke University

Georgia Institute of Technology

Harvard University

Massachusetts Institute of Technology 

Stanford

University of California - Berkeley

University of Georgia

University of Pennsylvania

So, some reasoning on my choices. I heard someone say something that I fully agreed with, and after everything still do. That you should apply to as many reach schools as you can because it raises the chances of getting into just one. So with that I applied to a bunch of reaches, a few meets, and 1 safety. The one safety school I decided on was because it was in state and in my state if you have a 3.75+ GPA and some other requirements, you get full tuition to in state schools and I knew that given the money, there was really no other school that I could consider a safety school that I would choose over it. I still stand by this choice.

3. My Stats 

You are probably going to ask this and I’ve decided to be upfront and tell you because why the heck not. I sent in ACT scores, not SAT (although I did take it). I got a 32 (33 English, 33 Reading, 35 Science, 28 Math), I should have spent more time studying for the math as that score never changed, but it was my 3rd time taking the test and I was over it, my goal had been a 33, but to me that was close enough because I was tired. My GPA was a 3.875 unweighted and a 4.063 weighted. My school did not offer many AP courses, I took all that I could with the exception of 2 history courses that I had strong reasons for not taking and when I had my Harvard interview and I talked with the lady about it, she wholeheartedly agreed and said that as the counselor of her private school she even made her school stop offering those courses, so yeah I feel pretty valid about that. (Ended up taking 7 AP’s if you are curious about which ones, they are on my about page) I basically got all A’s in my academics, my B’s came from some arts classes and health, I know, I know. I’m going to briefly mention my school in this section because it is sort of related. I went to a public arts high school that is ranked number 2 in the state for academics and 75th in the nation. It was extremely rigorous.

4. Extracurricular’s and other application stuff

I was very involved. I participated in theater for all 5 years (my school was 8-12). I did technical theater and by 10th grade was crew head for shows and in 11th grade I worked every show (which at my school was a lot). Senior year I became a stage manager which is a big responsibility and sort of like being a president of a club, but even more responsibility. I calculated the hours I spent with theater junior year alone, 300 hrs. I was also very involved in orchestra, all 5 years. My school has 4 orchestra levels, the first two comprising the lower orchestra, 3&4 comprising the higher level orchestra, based on skill level, not age. I was in orchestra 2 for 8th and 9th grade, orchestra 3 for 10th and 11th grade, and orchestra 4 for senior year, orchestra 4 was a big deal, with only 11 members and you played not only in the higher level orchestra but also the touring orchestra. Lots of hours. I also played in my county’s honor’s orchestra for 2 years. I was on the executive board (basically president) of my schools National Honor Society (our school only opens it to seniors, so I was only in it for 1 year). I was part of Beta Club for 4 years. I was a math tutor. I founded a Girls Who Code club at my school and taught it. I was in our award winning mock trial for 2 years. I was a member of my schools Gay Straight Alliance. I babysat all throughout high school. I did more than that but this is already long enough and you can tell that basically, I was a try hard.

   Let’s talk about summers. The summer after 10th grade I went to a 7 week long summer immersion program for coding called Girls Who Code. The summer after junior year I went to a week long orchestra camp, then my states Governor’s Honor’s program, which in my state is very prestigious and hard to get into (I think its like a 10% acceptance rate). I was a software engineering major and a math minor there. (Those are really the summers that count, but all other summers I went to orchestra camp)

   More application stuff, I had a fair amount of school awards as well as the aforementioned Governor’s Honor’s. I got recommendations from my pre calculus teacher, who I founded a Girls Who Code club with, and my world history/ap psych teacher. They both loved me and I’m sure wrote great recommendations (with the exception of UGA where I did not send any). All the schools I had interviews with went extremely well. I was a legacy for Duke. I had an alumni friend write an AMAZING letter of rec for CMU. I felt my essays were strong (and checked by 3 or so people).

   My major: I basically applied everywhere as a computer science major. I felt good about this with the way I spent my summers, some of my extracurricular, and classes I chose to take. I wrote a fair amount of essays about this and I feel as though my applications demonstrated the work I had put into bringing more people (especially women) into STEM, specifically cs, and my interests and knowledge of cs.

5. The Decisions

Finally the good part right? Well at least for you readers. I’ll go in order of the decisions (although towards the end I forget the order a bit because it was tech week and show weeks for my schools biggest production, I was busy) and add some commentary on some. (All regular decision unless otherwise noted)

MIT (Early Action) - rejected, it hurt a little being my first, but not unexpected

Case Western (Early Action) - deferred, then waitlisted, then rejected, everyone from my school got the exact same decisions from them and there were people from the bottom of my class to the very top lol

University of Georgia - accepted, oh boy I cried because finally thank goodness somewhere at least

Georgia Tech - waitlisted, then rejected, this one still stings, people with all around weaker applications from my school got in that applied early. the acceptance rate dropped from 40% to 8% between early and regular, biggest regret is not applying here early, once I was waitlisted here I felt for sure I wouldn’t get in anywhere else

Barnard College - waitlisted, still waiting to hear. at this point i just felt like I was getting waitlisted everywhere

Harvard - rejected, expected as are basically the rest of these

U Penn - rejected 

Brown - rejected

UC Berkeley - rejected

Duke - rejected, but damn that letter I’m still mad about, like the fact the I got rejected was unsurprising at that point, but they sent me 3 long paragraphs of rejection bc I was a legacy saying how sorry they were and how many times they reconsidered my application. One sentence would have been better.

Stanford - rejected

CMU - rejected, and man I knew it was coming but it was the last school I heard from, my last hope, and it was closing day for my last school musical, this was a bad day, not so much for this one school but just the process in general

6. Reflections

So I got into 1 school, yup just 1. My safety school that’s it. Let me tell you I was devastated, not over any particular school, but that I didn’t get into any others. I ate 4 donuts and cried a whole lot the day of that last rejection. I got really REALLY stuck on the fact that I would only ever read that one acceptance letter, that one congratulations. I moped around and was sad and upset with my self and full of regrets like why did I not apply to more schools, it was a bad time. But let me tell you that time really showed my what good some friends could be, friends really helped me through that. Even though I had only one school I waited till the last minute to commit. So yes, fall 2018 UGA here I come, go dawgs! (and really its not a bad school, especially the honors program) I worked really hard to get myself excited for this school and as much as I am, with the major I want to go into, I know it is in my best interests to transfer, no matter how much I do not like the idea of transferring (its a good school don’t get me wrong, just not the best for my major). I am still trying to come to terms with the idea of transferring and honestly this whole process in general. I do not think I would have done things much differently, I put my best into my applications, honestly if I changed anything I would have just applied to more schools and probably only more reaches or meet/reaches at that. I have come to accept the decisions (mostly, I still get quite down about it from time to time). It was an odd year for decisions at my school in general. We usually send a good amount of students to top top schools like ivies and the equivalent, but this year no one got into any, heck our valedictorian is going to UGA too. (I think it has something to do with our class being super strong overall, 50% had a 4.0+ weighted, so therefore none of us really stood out) So yeah it really freaking hurts only getting into one school, I’m pretty sure I went through all the stages of grief, but now I am in acceptance and just getting excited for college!! and I am SO EXCITED

   If anyone has any questions about this process, my inbox is open.

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[elfnerdherder]

Ill Intentions: Chapter 22

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Chapter 22: End Scene

When Tattler News released the ‘Special Edition’ of ‘Will Intentions’, Nicole pinned her copy to a corkboard much like Will’s. She’d already snuck into his apartment, taken photos, and recreated something of his workspace within her own office, to better step into the shoes of what his fans were calling ‘a vigilante move’. 

To partner with the Tattler News release, she’d also released a special post on her blog with a ‘tell all’ interview courtesy of Freddie Lounds, coworker and ‘close friend’ of Graham. She’d already received four more subscriptions, as well as twenty new messages in her inbox, thanking her for her hard work. 

I saved an image of the handkerchief! someone had commented. I’ll try to find one like it at the store. Maybe I’ll cosplay it. 

Lounds had asked to see the handkerchief Nicole had mentioned, but it was never revealed in person. The look on Lounds’ face when she was told ‘no’ made Nicole more than grateful she’d put a lock on her jewelry box before the reporter had shown up. 

As for her end of the bargain, she’d passed his manuscript along to her agent. Anything more, and she’d have her own story about uneasy trips to the FBI to tell her readers. 

- 

Abigail didn’t speak to Will until they were somewhere in Vancouver, BC. She spent most of the trip with her earphones in her ears and her head towards the window. Given the time, Will didn’t press her. It seemed she’d been playing a game with him for almost as long as he’d been playing a game with Hannibal. 

And yet, no; what game do you think you’re all playing? 

The border situation had been tricky, but the homeless man –Mike, Will kept having to remind himself –was more than true to his word at getting them across. Once across, it was the sort of drive done by someone who had a very important place to go with little time to get there. They stopped for gas and nothing else. The next couple of days was nothing but yoo-hoo’s and donuts, Will’s dreams bleeding into the waking hours of watching hill after hill of white pass by. Blankets of it draped along the interstate, but the plows had done their job. If their car appeared suspicious, no one stopped them. The more they kept to normal hours of traffic where it was difficult for cops to keep an eye out, the better. Hannibal remained in the backseat and only got out when absolutely necessary. 

“I’m not sorry for not telling you,” Abigail said by way of greeting. Will stood beside the passenger door, a cup of shitty gas station coffee in one hand and a lit cigarette in the other. His watch had died somewhere just before the border. Since ditching his phone, he hadn’t felt the need to dig through his bag in order to charge the thing, seeing as how one without the other was somewhat of a moot point. 

He glanced to the black, blank screen, and he wondered why he was even still wearing it. He hadn’t thought about his steps since Hannibal’s office. Streak broken. He wasn’t sure if that meant something, and if it did mean something, he wasn’t ready to unbox it yet, much the same way he wasn’t quite ready to unbox that there was another person inside of his head that killed people so that he didn’t have to. 

“I didn’t tell you a lot of things,” he replied. 

“You didn’t call, either,” she said, and it took him probably longer than it should have for Will to realize she sounded almost hurt by it. He wasn’t quite focused; maybe the watch having a blank face was more of a problem to him than he thought. 

“If I’d known Hannibal had gotten to you first, I would have been…more forthcoming,” he admitted. When she didn’t speak, he took a drag from his cigarette and continued, “hell, when he was breaking into my apartment, you could have just let him in. I asked Beverly to house you because I didn’t want to make you a target of yet another serial killer.” 

“I didn’t actually get fired from Subway. I quit.” 

Will hummed in agreement. “Figured that an hour into the drive.” 

“I followed Beverly following you sometimes, too.” 

“We could have all carpooled if you two communicated better.” 

“You first,” Abigail shot back. 

That was fair. Will’s cheeks ballooned, and he blew air out slowly, counting back from ten. 

“Abigail,” he said, and the look she gave him made this so much harder. “You’re…not guilty of anything, really.” 

“Says the guy that called me ‘the knowing bait,’” she retorted. 

“No, I mean it…” he sighed and looked around the decrepit gas station pointedly. “I’m abetting a murderer.” Silence. He scowled and continued, “right now, you could walk away and not face any legal persecution should you go back to the states, whereas I would go to jail. That guy in there –” 

“The one you stabbed –” 

“I don’t remember stabbing –look, him too. The three of us would go to jail, but you wouldn’t.” 

His cigarette had burned too low; he let out a hiss when it singed his fingers, and he stubbed it out on the tire before tossing the butt of it in the trashcan by the pump. Too late, he saw the warning on the pump that said not to smoke while gassing up. Will glanced about, but there was no one to scold him on the dangers of such endeavors. There was only him and Abigail at the moment, and he’d have almost welcomed Hannibal coming to interrupt them. He could imagine how a psychiatrist would be a much better option for giving advice than he would. 

Abigail looked out past the cars parked just at the treeline, the expanse beyond it. Her expression was difficult to read, a mix of something pained and something hopeful. 

“I don’t have anything else,” she said, and when she looked back to him, she smiled. In that moment, he’d have called it genuine. “I told you before, I’m looking for closure. Since that’s all that seems to matter to me at this point, I’ll stick around until I find it.” 

Will sucked air in sharply, frowning. “The consequences –” 

“I know how to juggle consequences. I can weigh the risk of pros and cons.” 

Given how long she lived under the roof of the Minnesota Shrike, he believed her. When it was time to go, they climbed back into a beat-up Tahoe they’d swapped somewhere in the middle of nowhere, and she made a point to lay her head in Will’s lap, much like she had back at the apartment.  

Much later, Will would find a polaroid of the scene tucked into his jacket pocket, the colors washed out and faded but still good. He tucked it into his shirt pocket, to preserve the color. 

- 

“I’m just outside of Tattler News, Jerry, and here we’ve got not only fans of the paper demanding answers, we’ve got some of Will Graham’s ‘avid fans’ here with signs! Just this past evening, as we know, Will Graham’s apartment was invaded by the FBI, boxes upon boxes removed from the scene as they attempt to glean over anything they can in order to find both him, as well as the Chesapeake Ripper. So far, there is no information revealed as to whether or not they have any solid leads to their whereabouts.” 

“Now, I know we’re dealing with the Chesapeake Ripper, Chet, but I think what’s interesting are the avid fans of Graham’s you’ve got gathered around you!” 

“Yes, these people aren’t here for news on the Ripper, they’re actually here for Will Graham. You can hear some of them in the back, chanting –you can hear it, can’t you?” 

“Yes, of course!” 

“They’re upset that the suspect in the disappearance of Hannibal Lecter –” 

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[my-decade]

Some simple RFA headcanons

Jumin: -loves when his s/o wears red lipstick-not nearly as kinky as people think he is -has no idea what curly fries are -fave animal after cats are fish, which is why he has them in his house -when he’s super stressed you may catch him standing there staring at the fish with a dead look in his eyes -knows the sesame street theme song by heart (this one is kinda canon lol) -was deathly afraid of the character big bird as a toddler and would cry when he saw him, but grew out of it quickly -got teary eyed at mc and V’s wedding -once asked jaehee to bring him a popular flavor of donut so he could try it. when she put the glazed donut in his hand, he stared at it for about 20 seconds as it started to melt on his fingers before looking up at her and saying blankly, “It’s gross.” -but he secretly ate it later anyway out of pure curiosity  -doesn’t care much for TV but has somehow seen the fullmetal alchemist series and he actually really enjoyed it, but nobody knows this -Was once offered a laffy taffy at work, to which he replied, “No thank you. I must not laugh at work.” -he said this with an impassive face in attempt to make a joke. -it did not make his employee laugh. -likes pizza but has only tried the fancy, healthy gourmet version his chef makes for him -gets along surprisingly well with young children

Zen: -Loves playing with his s/o’s hair idly. like he’ll be turning a random lock of her hair in his fingers when they’re next to each other even though his own hair is long enough to do that  -is used to getting compliments so they don’t surprise him EXCEPT when his s/o compliments him, it still makes him blush because he knows she’s not saying it to suck up to him, it’s an honest compliment -has never been to the beach or seen the ocean in real life, but he thinks it would be a really romantic setting for a date -cried when his first child was born -is okay at cooking but TERRIBLE at baking even in a toaster oven he somehow always burns it -last one in the RFA to get married -he describes his eye color as “bright ruby” -loves watching plays as much as he loves acting in them, and has written drafts of plays of various genres and themes -loves Mexican food -has been cutting his own hair for 4 years now to save money -a big fan of Beyonce  -has seen Phantom of the Opera 7 times already and owns it on VHS

Jihyun: -can’t sleep in complete darkness, so he actually uses a night light -he used to visit the aquarium with jumin when they were kids -not too keen on PDA but he does have a habit of kissing mc’s hand in public and often holds her hand -doesn’t care for horror movies, but they don’t scare him either -loves rock music, and piano paired with electric guitar -is terrible at playing instruments -doesn’t like bell peppers -eats cheerios bc he thinks they really do help with cholesterol  -its really difficult to make him angry, and when he does get angry it can be hard to tell because his face will be really calm and he still might even be smiling -jumps a lil when he hears someone curse in public (LOL) -loves the desert and uses it as inspiration for his paintings a lot -can speak the most english out of everyone in the RFA except for Saeyoung, who knows 18 languages -was never called by his name (Jihyun) by anyone except MC, including Rika. -doesn’t know much about memes but he likes Kermit the frog -grows a lot of flowers, herb, and vegetables in a backyard garden, where he spends a lot of time in with a giant sun hat like a really cute old man -has that super beautiful, charming Chris Traeger-esque smile that can convince anyone to say agree with him, but this doesn’t work on the RFA since all the talking is done in chatrooms or the phone and they know him too well

Saeyoung: -scared of butterflies -Elizabeth 3rd actually REALLY likes him and Jumin lowkey hates it so much -tried to hold a seance for the internet famous cat Tama, a calico cat who worked as a station master at the Kishi station railroad in Japan before passing away -really good at diy, he and mc do a lot of random and possibly crazy science experiments in their house  -once pranked mc by acting upset and then telling her he was pregnant and she was the father, mc actually believed him for a solid 9 seconds -current password for his front door has to be spoken in an accent like Shrek -can dance perfectly the entire song “Catallena” by orange caramel -he and mc rarely fight but when they do disagree on something he’ll talk to her in another language just to get on her nerves. it makes her laugh but also stuns her bc it reminds her of how freaking smart he is bc he knows 18 diff languages -on the other hand when she’s mad at him she won’t call him Saeyoung, she’ll call him Luciel, and on the rare occasion where she’s really pissed at him, “Seven Zero Seven.” -Loves the song Rocketman by Elton John -forgets to take down holiday/seasonal decorations for months after the holiday has passed

Yoosung: -is actually really good at coming up with lyrics on the spot and rapping them to a beat -has a really tiny sneeze -has the prettiest eyes in the RFA -quit LOLOL for the most part, only plays it here and there when he has free time now -likes kpop, specifically 2ne1, and was disappointed when they were disbanded -he forgets that he’s not naturally blonde a lot -loves couple items and having matching clothes/items with his s/o. he really wants to do a whole matching coord one day -Took full responsibility for Rika after she was finally placed in a center to take care of her mental health, is really supportive and visits her whenever he can so she knows she’s not alone -somehow always manages to win at carnival games no matter how rigged they appear to be -Favorite superhero is Nightwing -wants to buy his s/o an engagement ring from Tiffany and Co. and is saving money for it -wanted to be a pilot as a child but gave up that dream when he was older because he was afraid of heights -has written a 42 chapter long fanfiction based on the world of LOLOL. His penname is not his real name, so no one knows he wrote it except for Seven, who never mentioned it out of kindness. The fanfic has over 2000 reviews and is known famously in the LOLOL fanbase for how well it was written -can’t handle the taste of coffee no matter how sweetened it is, it always still tastes bitter to him

Jaehee: -loves sushi -sometimes forgets that she doesn’t actually need glasses to see -the walls of her house are covered in post-it notes with reminders of stuff she needs to do, whether its for work or for personal -likes growing her hair out but it gets tangled really easily and has to be combed through at least once every day so she’s always cutting it a bit here and there -designed the uniform for her cafe herself -has low blood pressure -owns a lot of watches bc people constantly gift them to her -wears really low heel shoes bc she’s terrible at walking in them -Has a habit of sticking her pens behind her ear and then forgetting they’re there -doesn’t like pet names -Was never really good at art or very creative as a child and it effected her self-esteem -can’t draw anything more complicated than stick figures, but somehow is pretty good at latte art -the number one thing on her wish list is an ebook reader, and to have enough free time to read a book on it -played the flute well in high school but never really liked it -has seven alarms set up in her phone that go off everyday for different reasons -is the most fearless at catching bugs or spiders than anyone else in the RFA -doesn’t have a pet bc she’s afraid she wouldn’t have the time to care properly for it, but if she could have one she would like a snake, turtle or small reptile

#mystic messenger #707 #jumin han #zen #jihyun kim #jaehee kang #yoosung kim #personal

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my kiddos valentines plans;

copying danni sorry about it.

ivy; dierks was on set so ivy spent the day with her roomies and she kissed cecily on the cheek and bought her a box of heart shaped chocolates lmao. jack sang to her and she fucking Loved It and she told him that dierks wouldn't mind sharing her today and that she was claiming him as her valentine (i'm so sorry). she didn't see will and was sad about it so she sent him a text telling him that she's upset she didn't get to ambush him for cuddles. she also sent conner and riley valentines cards each lmao none for u monty my dude. anyway she spent the evening with dierks, they probably went for a really nice meal and then went back to his for Other Things.

scotty; as we know scotty went a little overboard on donuts and was trying to see how many donuts it was physically possible for him to eat. how is that boy still in such good shape? the mind boggles. anyways he very unapologetically claimed laura as his valentine but he definitely shot eloise a cute, flirty little text. he tried to summon up the courage to text alfie and callum, too, but he chickened out. he definitely sent out texts in the morning to laura, lydia, evie, and all of the cheersquad (including alex), as well as one to christian too.

hazel; haze was definitely working and she had the best day ever handing over cutesy, loved up cupcakes and donuts and the likes to all her customers (though she was a bit baffled by the lovely gent who decided to order 96 donuts!). she got home and decorated cupcakes with ella, and also put up a cover of herself singing love story by taylor swift cos she's a fucking Nerd.

andrew; drew was on set flirting with everyone. he kissed lo. he kissed maggie and ember, too. dierks ducked outta that shit like there's no tomorrow, and he decided he'd just give emma a hug instead of pushing his luck. but he told her that she was pretty and tried again to ask her out on a date lmao.

amelia; AMELIA FLORENCE BARTEN WENT ON A FUCKING DATE WITH LEVI LOWERY

cody; lmao idk kit gave her chocolates and she gave kit a kiss on the fucking mouth lmao. she actually did not go drinking on this here evening, she sorta behaved which is boring. she doesn't give two shits about valentines tho.

darren; darren, you know fucking what i hate this dickhead. i hate him so much. darren spent a lot of time writing a Song for someone (danni don't fucking look at me), but he also sent taylor, james, brooke, bea, alex, rachel, finn, attie, mellie, and harper valentines cards. harper got the biggest card and he painted a god damn family fucking portrait on it, ferris included, because he's so ridiculous i actually hate him a little bit.

hero; hero was definitely working and she gave riley and foster valentines cards and was brave enough to even give riley a kiss on the cheek and a hug. she went to see greyson and brought him a card too, with extra cuddles and told him that she loves him. she wanted to spend more time with him but she had a date with calvin and she felt really guilty because she was worried about greyson, but there you have it. she also got hunter a valentines gift and sent bennett a text that took her 4 hours, 17 minutes, and 21 seconds to muster up the courage to send. she made audrey breakfast too but she didn't make a fuss or anything, she just wanted to do something nice for her bc she adores her.

billy; billy oh my fucking god billy spent the day pining after simon and then feeling guilty about it. he thought about julian a bit, but less than he did last year on valentines day. he's making progress. he wished simon (AND ALL OF HIS EMPLOYEES) a happy valentines day and then went to see how rhodes was doing. he checked on him probably more than he should have, and told him he loves him and then stole one of the cookies harper made for him. he spent the night cuddled on a couch with harry while watching valentines day and regretted it a little. eliana hid in her room because ew, romance.

jax; jaxy was evie's valentine and he decided not to send ronan a text because he's a chicken. he took evie out for a meal though and they stayed up all night watching movies and waiting for daisy to get back from her date so they could get all the details. at his apartment, of course, because he didn't wanna risk seeing ronan. which means oz was probably present for date talk, i'm sorry baby boy.

daisy; went on a date with reuben and had a great time. went back to jaxy's to tell her wee squad all about it, but she definitely stopped by kit's for kisses, cuddles, and her daily kit time. also it was shane's birthday so she didn't forget about that and she brought him a gift and gave him a cuddle and told him to get his shit together with mickey. sorry bout her.

jason; definitely gave caroline a card that said 'i pika-choose you' on it and he was really proud of himself. he gave her loads of cuddles, as always, and sent delaney, elsie, tara, annie, and wardo cute texts too. he didn't do much, though, and just spent the night teasing caroline probably.

lucy; lucy pined after bea a little, if we're being honest. she also sent james and marley long and soppy texts, but spent the night at home doing nothing.

henry; baby boy went birdwatching with wren and blushed and giggled more than is probably socially acceptable, he had a great time and has definitely bombarded riley today to tell him all about it.

indy; indy went out with justin, raegan, and colton, and spent the whole night feeling nervous and insecure. she told justin he's a dick more than once, but never in front of rae or colton. she also spent the morning kissing everyone and anyone that would have her, cuddled with mellie for a solid hour, and felt really guilty about leaving her. she definitely climbed into her bed once she got home though and told her to never ever let her leave the apartment ever again.

ronnie; ronnie spent the day contemplating making max proud by overcoming his fears and throwing himself into the fucking ocean after seeing the card taylor sent. he watched bend it like beckham but then he just felt worse because he's not dating james, he's not dating david beckham, and he's not dating jonathan rhys meyers either.

lizzie; lizzie thought a lot about conrad, a lot more than she cares to admit, and spent the day with richie of course. she wished conrad a happy valentines day too, and then kissed him on the cheek the next time she saw him. she knows angelica will never let her live it down, though.

katie; spent the day working and tried to say hi to holly but she didn't look best pleased so she decided against it. spent the night with her hons tho, and sent noah the soppiest valentines card the world has ever seen. she got a kiss from angelica and turned bright red but tried to act cool about it, and when a guy chatted her up while they were out she panicked and told him that she already had a valentine and hid behind seth. seth still doesn't know what happened, unless kevin told him because kevin nearly cracked a rib laughing at her.

cassie; cassie was carter's valentine but let's not pretend she didn't give so many cuddles!!!! she made noah pancakes (with extra syrup) and screamed when reuben told her about his date, and helped him pick out his outfit (he didn't ask, she just sort of got ahead of herself), and she made sure to text will and louis telling them that she hoped they had the most super duper valentines ever. she cried when dixie told her about their parents, i'm so sorry. and she sent a secret valentines card to kevin but you didn't hear that from me.

jess; jess pouted a lot and was mad that cassie got to be carter's valentine. he still has convinced himself that carter has a thing for her, and cassie's always talking about just how handsome carter is and even the jess wants to yell I KNOW!!!! in her face he doesn't. he just pouts.

isaac; noah sung to him and isaac pretended that he hated it. noah sung to him and isaac pretended that the flutter in his chest was just heartburn. noah sung to him and isaac pretended that the reason he couldn't stop thinking about it for the rest of the day was because noah just irritated him so much. noah sung to him and isaac's cheeks were pink for the whole of rehearsal.

monty; MONTY PINED OVER RILEY AS PER FUCKING USUAL and had a mini breakdown to adam probably. he gave riley chocolates, and a card, and comics. as a pal though, as a buddy, as a friend. he wished shane a happy birthday too and was far more composed in doing so than he was during any of the time he spent with riley. it was a day.

rose; rose didn't do much. she was working and she kissed clarke, kenny, and harvey on the cheek, and that was that. she also teased kenny relentlessly about harvey but what's new there. then she went home and watched horror movies all night.

david; DAVID KISSED BENJI BECAUSE OF COURSE HE FUCKING DID. and he saw cecily at work and tried to dazzle her with a smile but she seemed a little alarmed and so he tried not to frighten her some more.

blair; went on a date with jimmy, much to robbie's dismay. she didn't mind, she got to spend the day with her fav boy and wellington's newest and cutest farmboy. she was really content and took a cute selfie of herself kissing jimmy on the cheek, as well as taking some pics with robbie because she knows how important memories are to him.

clarke; spent the day thinking about love and wishing that she wasn't such a mess. she bought beau some chocolates and told her what a great job she does, and she probably said something really heartfelt and soppy to rose, kenny, and harvey. she went home and waited for bailey to get back and she made her dinner.

barry; barry got flowers from ellis and tried to remain as civil and composed as possible. he smiled, thanked her, wished her a happy valentines day, and popped one of the flowers into her hair for extra measure. he gave all of his students one piece of valentines candy each, and took all of the cards he received home and stuck them into a scrap book lol. he kept ellis' flowers, too, and put them in a vase and is taking very good care of them, thank you very much. rudy and lola were with their mother so he spent the night alone and he sent caroline a text that he thought was 'cute' but it actually just said 'Have a good one x', so.

cedric; cedric may or may not have shed a tear or two when he saw the drawing from diego, but nobody needs to know that. he has it framed in his shop. he made origami butterflies for diego, and origami horses for nobody in particular. he's not sure why he picked horses, but they just sort of called out to him and now they're hanging from the doorway in his shop. he spent the night with all his pets, though. nothing special.

séamus; dixie wished him a happy valentines and so he had a really really good day. darragh wasn't around all day, probably off drinking and doing lord knows what. he laid low for the day, writing songs and missing home.

rory; kissed ellis and told her that she was his valentine, but he's rory so he went out and ended up stumbling in at 3am with some fella he met whose name he can't recall. a romantic, so he is.

mack; roy forgot it was valentines day and absolutely nobody was subtle in letting her know what they thought about that. she defended him, and defended him some more when he got upset about adam's card. he cooked her a mediocre dinner (no he didn't, he ordered chinese and pretended he cooked it), and got them a cheap bottle of wine (the man is Loaded, but he's a dick), and mack didn't stay the night. she told adam he's a dick but gave him a hug and a kiss and thanked him for the card, even though he's still a dick.

steven; steven didn't know what to do with himself so he just spent the day with his sisters, and sent sonny a text telling him he missed him.

caleb; caleb and becky went out for a meal and did cute couple things. it was nice, they had fun, and he didn't get injured.

jj; wee bab spent the day with mariana (his foster sister) and her daughter, he was working at a novel idea first tho so he saw taylor briefly and panicked and spilled hot coffee down his front. it wasn't cute. he and mariana didn't wanna go back to their house though so he took her and her daughter out and treated them to dinner. then he spent the night painting and drawing in his bedroom, as always.

teddy; TEDDY MET CARTER AND WAS SHOOK AND HUGGED A CUTE BOY. he also had the courage to ask ryke if he wanted to be his valentine bc carter told him that it's ok to ask a straight boy to be your valentine as friends. he was nervous but it was innocent so he figured it was ok. he also hugged wren a lot and he sent his mum a bouquet of flowers and a pretty pearl necklace, and told his parents that he loves them. he probably spent the evening hanging out with ryke though.

jensen; probably glared at lux a little bit while thinking about the fact that she's pretty and that's annoying and dumb. he's a child. he went to work and then hung out at the bar and that was it. he told sawyer she's his valentine, tho. no takebacks.

#things;

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A Post that I really don’t know if I should post

Wow okay here we go, we’re doing this.

You all are probably wondering, what is this? Is everything good? Is she good? The answer to all of these questions is yes, I am good. The reasons I’m sitting here writing this is 1.) I feel like my story could help someone 2.) I’m done HIDING my life around certain people 3.) I currently have an unapologetic mindset right now.

Now you’re wondering “girl! tell me what’s up.”

I am going to open up about my battle with depression and anxiety.

Some of you reading this might know me and some of you might not but if I’m going to be completely honest and transparent, I am not doing this for attention, pity, or pats on the back. I’m telling my story as a way to reach out to others who may be feeling the same way I have for the past eight months. In my high school years, I have concluded that telling your story could help someone. I’ve learned that telling your story is not easy and that telling your story might come with post testimony doubt. I also want you to know that I am not telling my story to expose anyone, I am simply telling my story because I want to help and inspire anyone and everyone who reads this post.

Buckle up, grab a drink and a snack because this is a LONG story.

It all starts at the end of December. I have lived in IL for six years of my life so the winters there are like post apocalyptic. I mean just imagine the whole world was about to end, it’s dark, the air is bitter, everyone looks like they’re going to die. Okay so we have the setting, it’s cold and snowy and just plain gross outside. Winter is probably the worst season, don’t get my wrong I LOVE Christmas and hot cocoa but I mean winter just drags on forever. Anyway, I was dating someone at the time that I thought loved me (I’ll explain later), I was lying to myself and telling myself I was okay but really I was drowning in anxiety. I was slacking off in scholarships, school, and spending time with friends and family. I just simply did not want to do anything, all I wanted to do was come home and sleep. If I had my way I wouldn’t even get out of bed. Now I was on some medication (birth control) for my excruciating periods, which is part of the reason I was feeling so depressed but these depressive thoughts didn’t really go away after I stopping the BC. Later in January, my boyfriend at the time broke up with me in my own driveway. I was convinced we could’ve fixed things and that I was the reason things weren’t going the way they were supposed to.

The Relationship and Break up:

This is a big part of the story that I’ve been debating on whether or not I should write about but I figured it’s not fair to leave out such a big chunk of my story. This does not expose this person, this is all true and from my POV.

Now that I’ve got the disclaimer out of the way, we can get started.

Now my ex and I have been friends for a long time before dating and after the summer of ’16, we decided to start dating. It was the beginning of our senior year and everything kicked off great. We went on cute dates, he got me my favorite donuts, lunch, we would watch movies, you know everything that boyfriends and girlfriends do together. Now he and I went to different schools and I lived about 20 mins away from him so we didn’t really get to hang out unless we were a). At youth group or b). Friday nights. I felt a lot of anxiety about hanging out because I felt like every day we didn’t hang out was the time we were wasting to be with each other. Before dating he told me that he was busy with all of the extracurricular activities that he was involved in, I told him I understood (I really didn’t) and that was the end of that conversation.

Flash forward to about September. School had already kicked off and things started to pick up with both him and I. I had choir meetings and events, football games and other things that my friends and I did. He and I only saw each other on Fridays and Sundays and that was taking a toll on me. I felt like he was not giving enough time to the relationships. I felt like every day that passed was a day that we could’ve spent together and he simply didn’t think it was big deal. This goes to say that not everything went wrong because of him. I tend to be passive aggressive when I am frustrated or mad at someone and I hate confrontation so I would tend to brush things off and not talk about my troubles with him. I would open up to him about my depression and the anxiety I would feel but that would tend to lead to unkept promises that just disappointed me in the end.

So the fall and winter months were filled with fights and me continuing to be passive aggressive toward him. They were filled with him promising to make more time and then breaking them when something came up. Blowing off conversations and plans that we had made. It was all just anxiety filled months that I usually spent the nights crying about. There were times that I didn’t want to go to (and I didn’t) and times where I wouldn’t want to go to youth group because I didn’t feel like getting out of bed. It was like I felt like I didn’t deserve to feel happy and when I did go out I would feel anxiety about my ex and me.

Now it’s the second week of January and I felt like things were finally settling. My boyfriend and I had been really great and spending time with each other and I had been consistently feeling better about myself. The truth bomb moment happened. He told me that he had a mandatory show choir event that he couldn’t miss even if he wanted to. Now, this doesn’t seem so bad! Oh, but it was. His show choir event had fallen on prom and not only prom but my 18th birthday. FML. I expressed how upset I was and I just couldn’t get over the fact that he couldn’t come to my prom. I was having a really hard time balancing everything from the ACT and college applications, I didn’t really need or want this news. I felt like my world was crashing down on me and it sucked.

Things weren’t really getting better and I was getting depressed again. Not only was I sad but I always had this weight in my chest. My depression not only made me feel like a slug but it also caused me to act irrationally. I would just lash out or shut down, there wasn’t really much of an in-between. I remember one day I was feeling insecure in our relationship and confronted him on much he hung out with this one girl, I guess we’ll call her A, ya know like PLL. I remember there was one instance where I had finally got the courage to tell him that I was feeling depressed. I had opened up and told him how I didn’t have any motivation and that I didn’t want to get out of bed. He humored me for awhile but then he said something I will never forget. Can we talk about this later? This is all exhausting. What a slap in the face.

I guess all this and the fights him and I were having were just too much for him to handle because he soon broke up with me at 11 pm in my driveway.

You guys. This break up was NOT good, I mean this has to be the worst break up I’ve ever been involved in. I literally lost it. I lost it so bad that I couldn’t even drive my car home, I had to get his brother to drive me, I was such a wreck. I was screaming and bawling and begging, gosh I looked pathetic but at the time I felt like everything was just too much. After his brother drove me home, my ex and his brother's girlfriend drove into my driveway. My ex-got out of the car and jogged up to my sobbing mess of a person and told me that he didn’t think that he could handle being together anymore. Just went I think I ran out of tears, the floodgates opened. It was like when you’re trying to turn the sink on so just a little water comes out but you turn the faucet too hard and it just starts spewing out and splashing everywhere. I ran inside and just broke down in the middle of the hallway. My parents rushed in to see what was going on and asked and asked: “Maddy what’s wrong?” They exchanged worried glances and finally got me to calm down. Once I calmed down I told them what happened and that I was feeling depressed. That’s when they decided to take me off the BC to see if that was the root of the problem. Long story short, it was the cause for the heightened anxiety and depression but even after being off of birth control I still felt no motivation.

The Aftermath

Everything was going great. I got into SWU in Central South Carolina and I got into the OneLife program. I have great parents who are proud of everything I do, I have a good set of friends but something still felt off.

As summer approached I made myself excited for the upcoming trips. I was going to Haiti for the second time, I was going to Myrtle Beach and NOLA. Don’t get me wrong I was excited about these trips. It was my last trip with everyone that was graduating in StudentLife but like I said something seemed off. I just couldn’t fully get over the fact that I felt so heartbroken over the break up that happened five months ago. Y’all remember A? Well, she comes back in the narrative. I noticed that my ex and A had been awfully close. I have to admit that I felt a pang in my chest each time A and my ex-were around each other. Since I am being honest here, I really never liked A and that made everything much worse. I felt like I had to like her because she was part of my youth group and I felt like “well if I just suppress my emotions about her and my ex, everything will just calm down,” but it didn’t.

I have learned that holding in your emotions is not going to help anything.

One night in NOLA we went to this small music gathering (I don’t really know what to call it) we were all dancing and hanging out, I was having a good time until I noticed that A and my ex-were dating together. I don’t know why but that struck a nerve within me and I became angry and sad. I didn’t want to feel upset because I wanted to have a good time in NOLA and I wanted to spend time with the people I actually cared about but this situation 10X worse.

Flash forward to the last night in NOLA. I was still bitter at my ex and A. I had said to one of my friends “I don’t like her.” I felt like I was being honest and that wouldn’t get back to her because well, I trusted my friend. Wrong choice Maddy. Low and behold he told her what I said and she started crying. Now if I’m being honest I didn’t really care about the way she felt because in my head she made me feel awful as well. I know she didn’t really care about the way she was making me feel when I saw her and my ex together. I know this because about a week or so after NOLA my ex and A were dating. I, of course, apologized for what I said behind her back and we were cool for the rest of the trip but nothing will ever be the same and we are not friends.

EDIT- I just want y’all to know that at that point in time I didn’t care, with that said I have done a lot of growing, thinking, and praying about the situation. I was definitely a bitter person at that point in time. Now that doesn’t mean that I have to like everyone but I have forgiven them for what I feel they have done. I just want to put that out there because there is confusion. 

From that experience, I learned that I can’t compact my feelings and I shouldn’t feel that I need to compress them.

I also learned that I don’t have to be friends with everyone.

Why was I mad he moved on?

Well, I have my reasons for that. I was mad because he was hanging out with her a lot while he and I were dating. I felt like he was going to leave me for her and you know what? He did. That’s exactly what he did and right in front of me.

When you know your right about your boyfriend liking another girl while he was with you, it feels like you’re not good enough. I mean how could you feel any other way? Not to mention I was still feeling depressed. I rarely wanted to leave the house during the summer and I almost didn’t want to go to school in SC. I felt like I wasn’t good enough to do anything.

When someone shows that they don’t care about you, it hurts you in ways that you can’t describe. I mean I could find a way to describe that but it wouldn’t be worth it.

How’s it going now?

I’m glad you asked! It’s actually all looking up now. I am currently enrolled in OneLife here at SWU and I’m making amazing friends and progress with my relationship with God.

I have realized my true worth and that I always have someone there for me… his name is God.

When you give it all up to God, it all doesn’t seem so bad. When you surround yourself with people who also want to grow with God and with people who will listen to your struggles things don’t seem so bad.

I have found that life is better when you weed out the toxic people in your life.

While I have a long way to go in my journey, I finally have the peace to walk blindly where God wants me to be.

Thanks for staying with me on this journey.

All the love,

Maddy