#and I am neither of those things

[acesammy]

Started posting my art to twt again but I forgot that spn twt feels like a PVP enabled zone to me

#Oof I hate it #here I just have wincest and destiel blacklisted and it’s nice #it’s peaceful #I feel no need to click to reveal posts I don’t want to see so it works out #but there man idk shippers everywhere #and I don’t really want to engage w them but i haven’t reliably used twt in like 3 years so I accidentally responded to someone there lol #that I didn’t want to #thought I was replying to just one person lmao #AND #if it’s not shippers #it’s ppl who are obsessed with the cast #and I am neither of those things #I find both groups p insufferable too #there was a time like 6+ years ago where I cared abt the cast but that has LONG since past #Anyways spn twt has always been hard for me bc I genuinely prefer to talk about the /show/ #or Sam headcanons #not the cast or the ships #lea speaks #Anyhooooooo #Vent #Also idk it kinda sucks bc I really love elton twt but I have no elton content

[girlboysollux]

i dont believe i was the intended audience of casino royale. or any bond film for that matter

#i believe that this movie was intended for heterosexual individuals who understand the rules of poker #and i am neither of those things #personal tag

[inkskinned]

oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.

oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.

oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.

which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.

but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.

which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.

and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!

and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.

the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!

and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -

what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.

and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.

#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right #what should i have done better #i did it ALL the right way #(not that there is a right way) #it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money #whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!! #and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences! #and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere #i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker. #i have always excelled at work and i work hard #i have been working since i was 13 #WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!! #ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical. #i am neither of these things. #it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much #but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are'' #.... don't i? #do i need to be luckier than someone else #or is it possible we are BOTH victims? #and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it #not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better

[comradekatara]

“if sokka had been sexist in front of toph she would’ve straight up killed him” if sokka had been sexist in front of toph she would’ve given him a high five and said “right on brother.” she’s way more misogynistic than he is

#be fucking fr rn #it’s funny that ppl think of sokka as being the token sexist of the gaang and the funniest member of the gaang #when neither of those things are true. THAT’S TOPH’S ROLE BABEYYY #toph #sokka #hot takes #(will elaborate on toph’s relationship to gender & patriarchy later ok. but for now I am going to sleep) #also to be clear I am not saying she benefits from patriarchy. she very obviously does not

[musashi]

Hi Tumblr I need to win an argument

EDIT: stop oversharing about your mental illness on my silly lighthearted poll i made to dunk on my girlfriend. you are not cute or charming and you make people uncomfortable. therapy

#wordy wendy #EDIT: you people are freaks #EDIT EDIT: nvm thank fuck #reblogs off because people are being so fucking weird pathologizing #i hate this shit #you are addicted to your identity as a person w depression #you will never ever get better until you learn #to stop identifying with the part of you that is sick and hurting #i did not make this poll about depression or poverty #i am a depressed person living in poverty and this post is not about that #and even if it was #neither of those things are normal #so if your argument is ''im depressed and poor!'' #either dont vote. or vote what the fuck.

[petersthree]

One of the best little details Succession adds in is showing us that Iverson is probably Rava and Kendall’s biological child without ever saying it, through Logan’s treatment of him.

Logan calls Iverson over at Thanksgiving. He’s reading a book to Iverson after Kendall’s attempt. He has Iverson eat the food. Logan never acknowledges Sophie or refers to her whatsoever, even though she’s often in the same room/scene as him. It’s Iverson, as the biological child (and lbr, as the white kid, because Sophie’s race definitely also comes into play) who gets the attention. It’s not good attention, obviously, but Logan seems him as family while Sophie Roy May as well be an NRPI.

#succession #sophie roy #logan roy #iverson roy #I am always thinking about this I’m ngl sjsjssj it’s just one of those small things in the background that you see #how Sophie is just completely disregarded by Logan because she’s neither white or biologically related #janie rambles #janie overthinks media

[bitterlyromantic]

i hope dennis slaps mac across the face when he tells him I Love You for the first real time. i hope he does it out of fear because of the sincerity that coats mac's eyeballs and the emotion that frames them. i hope he feels so fucking bad about it afterwards and it haunts him till he can't stand it and finally says it back but does it in his scared afraid way and he refuses to meet intense eyes that fill with rage but overflow with pain and there's tears and blood and bruises but the tenderness of the bruises are met with a sweetness that's always been there wanting waiting yearning and curling in itself over and over again

#becausw idk the fear of being overexposed n thrown out #anyway #love having a maggot-infested head i don't feel ill whatsoever girl #macdennis #imagine i am smoking a cigarette staring at the ceiling/sky almost yelling (i do neither of those things) #can i wear a tanktop in it too i never wear those

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

It's not a moral failing to dislike Snow White btw

#I don't like snow white! the disney movie specifically I'm meh on the fairytale it depends on the interpretation #I don't care for it! and no I'm not a huge fan of the themes #it's not a moral failing to like it either btw it is a personal choice #but I am so tired of seeing extended posts telling me why old disney was perfect and all new disney is evil #neither of those things are true

[revvethasmythh]

An idle thought, really, but I think it's interesting to see fandom latch on the metaphorical interpretation of things like Laudna's relationship with Delilah as a metaphor for addiction or Imogen's psychic powers as a metaphor for either chronic pain or queerness, but there's much less attachment to or discussion of the characters who explicitly, canonically dealt with exactly those things. By which I mean Scanlan's substance abuse, Veth's alcoholism, and even Ashton's chronic pain (which feels like it was discussed much more before it was confirmed canon, and seems to be brought up mostly just as ship fodder these days). I suppose one could argue the devotion to the metaphorical interpretations lies in the fact that it's an interpretation of canon as opposed to being explicitly so, meaning there's more wiggle room to project a personal interpretation onto it. Explicit canon is more concrete, less malleable to the individual viewer. Still, if we're going to talk about addiction now in a metaphorical sense via Laudna, it leads me to wonder if we will see further discussion of the characters who explicitly dealt with addiction (Veth and Scanlan), as opposed to Laudna's purported allegorical version of it

#take this with a grain of salt because I was not directly involved in the fandom when major things re: veth and scanlan's #substance abuse issues were ongoing for the most part #so if there WAS a wider discussion of this that has happened in fandom I might just not know about it #that said in my experience it has not come up much at all #so even if there was discussion you rarely see it come up in the ongoing reception of the characters #which may just be an effect of WHO those specific characters are #i.e. two consecutive sam pcs (explicitly) vs now a marisha pc (in the metaphorical sense) #because I am familiar with scanlan often being called unfair and veth often being called selfish #but re: laudna many of her decisions (see: killing bor'dor) have the blame shunted onto other characters (orym) to absolve her #of having made those decisions to begin with #neither veth nor scanlan have ever been shown that kind of leniency in the fandom that I know of #particularly as it pertains to their very real struggles with addiction #ANYWAY this is not going into the maintag lol. lmao even #like am I fan of the comparison to addiction? eh. it doesn't quite feel like it fits. like it's not a perfect comparison #but like I'll play ball with it a little I guess since it's been brought up in canon

[kanerallels]

The fun thing about Tangled is that it inevitably makes me want to write more Kanera fan fic (be it Tangled inspired or otherwise)

#i'm almost out of tangled scenes to rip off for kanera fan fic :( #that's okay i'll just write my anastasia kanera au instead or something lol #ironically i am writing neither of those things right now #but i am writing kanera! and it feels good #i haven't written those two in forever #i missed them #kanera #kanan jarrus #hera syndulla #swr

[samgelina-jolie]

I've been watching ST since s1 came out and I feel like over the years peoples opinions of this scene have changed drastically but maybe that's just me?

I feel like even my own opinions on it have changed, It's a lot more "50/50 they're both in the wrong" to me now than it was back in 2016, but still I want to hear what people have to say. Please feel free to add your reasons in the tags!

#i think the camera breaking was too far #but he had a genuine right to be upset not just on nancys behalf but also his own?? #Steve is also in those pictures and they were taken in HIS backyard without consent #i think personally jonathan in that instance is just more in the wrong but neither of them are really the good guys #it seemed to me ​nancy was uncomfortable with the things both of them did #anyway pls reblog for sample size and all that #im NOT trying to stir drama NOR am I defending other s1 steve actions #stranger things #steve harrington #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler #jancy #stancy #stoncy #stonathan #<- just so people see it #show: stranger things

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

phone calls my detested

#i had to make a vet appointment and Wow i am not cut out for this whole independent adult thing lmfao #i had to write down a little script for myself... #i feel so bad for the receptionist i was stumbling and 'uhhhhh'ing my way through that call #fuck and when i was supposed to end the call. i didnt realize #I DONT KNOW THE PROTOCOL OKAY #do i hang up??? do i say bye??? she didnt say bye so was there something else i was supposed to say #she hung up so Yay but oughhhhhhh what the fuck #youre telling me people just Know how to carry a conversation? they just Know the routine? sounds fake #i had to rev myself up for the call too #put on a hat. put on sunglasses to trick my brain into thinking we're outside doing things thus fabricating confidence #phone in one hand fidget-dodecahedron in the other. Pacing #my brain is a normal brain that works perfectly fine thanks for asking #absolutely unprompted #i feel so connected to my neanderthal ancestors when i have to make a call #theyre being stalked by a smilodon... i have to talk to a person... same Fear <3 #no but fr whenever i have to talk to someone my thought process shuts down Completely and i forget that im a living human being #fight or flight - neither. freeze and play dead #i think in my next life... i would like to be... a decorative plant #perhaps one of those tall ferns outside a seaside barbecue restaurant #i'd Win at that life. id be so good at photosynthesizing & rustling in the ocean breeze

[mitamicah]

Random sketches from this past week- it is mostly Käärijän because that reunion fed my soul 💚💗

(oh yeah and some freehand attempts of me to draw Edgar the baby seal and Frank the flamingo x’D 🦭🦩 )

#I love these two idiots and their antics be it platonic or not #they are do dang cute #i didn't know about the twilight thing while drawing neither the heartfelt goodbye to titanic #so I am quite surprised I got one of those into the sketch dump either way x'D #jere pöyhönen #käärijä #bojan cvjeticanin #joker out #edgar the baby seal #frank the flamingo #esc #esc2023 #mine #my own art #I can tell me if I am sharing too much art too often

[hella1975]

ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher) #like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

[valiant-portabella-pirkko]

Flourish AU - Dragonheart Pirkko - Durmond Priory

Champion of the Caustic Elder Dragon

"Lasting change isn't gentle. It's harsh, abrasive, and inescapable. Either we'll adapt or we'll die trying."

"A better world starts with deciding what we're prepared to lose."

#my posts #guild wars 2 #gw2 #gw2 fan submission #Dragonheart Pirkko #Flourish AU #with all the sales going on i finally finished her look #she needed the maguuma shoulders + wanderer mask #(the wanderer mask NEVER goes on sale so if you want it you better grab it like Now. no really look at the gemstore history) #(it hadn't even been in the store at all since 2022 and this is the first time it's ever been on sale I Am Not Joking) #the only thing i wish is for a Vlast variant for the Aurene leggies for her but oh well. not every dream will come true. #i really gotta talk about this particular AU sometime tho tbh... #in Regrowth she's afraid of what she is and could become. #in Flourish though? she accepts even the parts that scare her. her power isn't something to fear. it's a tool and a weapon. #the blood of the jungle dragon flows through her veins and Tyria WILL hear her ROAR. her ENEMIES should be afraid. #she becomes the Champion of Vlast for a lot of reasons but the most significant is that they're so much alike. #neither has ever been anything other than the destiny that was set before them... and they don't know who they are outside that context. #they're trapped in roles they were molded for since their first breath. they barely understand the world they were built to save. #and yet... in spite of it all. they continue on. they do what they must. they fight for those who can't fight for themselves. #they're going to figure it out together... because in this big bright bold world they're the only two that REALLY understand each other. #they want to leave the world better than it was for them. #... even if they likely won't survive to see that happen. #the future will be better because it has to be. it must be. otherwise what have they spent their entire lives fighting for? #they don't belong to this world... but they can still build a better one. one that won't need anyone like them ever again. #I have... many thoughts about these two...

[icewindandboringhorror]

Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample #around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!' #or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then #the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later #HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone #if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours #of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof #people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed #that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional #except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see #it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk #And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests #are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just #chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac #ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was #too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them #quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol.. #ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof #of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the #tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character #focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about #people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol... #This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough... #yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah.. #Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe #that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you #entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like #''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that #in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did #do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..