#am naseous

[roseinrapture]

i literally cannot this morning

#cat didn't let me sleep #chest pains on purr #am naseous #am broke #gonna ask mom or fam for tings #instead of being hopless #ughhhh

[boxwinebaddie]

spoiler alert: chapter thirteen of pep is the begining of the stan healing arc and in the beginning of it, stan throws on his biggest, rattiest boy pajamas, puts his hair back in the standana, plays his emo throwbacks playlist and starts cleaning his entire gross ass house from top to bottom & that's based on true events bc its literally just me every time i clean my room after a major depressive episode

#sorry i'm not posting please know i am fighting demons #and the demons are whatever the hell is behind my end table #legit me rn in my death note teeshirt w my hair back in the hello kitty gloves wincing reaching into a crevice pulling something out n goin #AAAAAAAAAAA #*chugs cider* #eEWEEWeEwweEWWEWWEW #*chucks it in the trash* #shivers #idk if i'm naseous bc i have the freakin stomach flu or because of whatever fumes i am breathing in from my biohazard room #sorry i keep it real on here #every instance of pep!stan or raven being nasty #is just me like literally every time i'm so sorry i wish i was jokin #i want to be kyle pile or jersey so bad #i am a nasty gross disgusting goblin girl from hell #anyways...back to the trenches holy fuck i hate my life #but yes if ur waiting for a response...i'm sorry #i am in nasty horrible room girl hell also i'm sick #to my stomach and of my shit smh

[communicore]

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#em's rambles #god i am so fucking anxious about my health this shit sucks #everything makes me worry and i feel naseous and yet im not thirsty but i pee so little-less than what im drinking and just #i feel really scared lile what if something was missed in my appointment and theres a serious thing going on i dunno about #what if its my fault? #im so anxious its hard to focus on anything other than my health #i wanna cry

[bmpmp3]

ive been having a lot of fun incorporating embroidery onto paper drawings in school recently (inspired by a printmaking teacher i had once who sometimes stitched her prints, it looked really cool!) but one thing that has kind of been bugging me is how my instructors have been talking about the gendered aspect of it. i know using any form of textile practice in contemporary art is gonna get some kind of thoughts about the historical concept of "women's work" and i dont mind that thats chill thats like normal. its not what, i, the artist, is focusing on personally, but death of the author and all that, as an interpretation its an interesting thing to think about and equally as valid as my intention. also a good topic for essays and such

BUT today my instructor tried to convince me that i can embroider directly on printer paper instead of the thicker papers ive been using and i was like ABSOLUTELY NOT maybe YOU can but I have BIG CLUMSY SWEATY HOT MITTEN HANDS and i Destroy printer paper by looking at it funny. the second a photocopy reaches my skin its already wrinkled. gloves dont help my sweat is too powerful. im CLAMMY leave me ALONE hfkjrwefhjegrfe

and there is an unconcious bias ive been noticing of a lot of very progressively minded artists assuming that i can do this shit delicately. listen. embroidery can be a very delicate and masterful skill that people hone over decades. but not everyone who does it is that skilled master. some of us just like to clumsily sew string through stuff so they can feel the texture. and some of us are really sweaty.

#actually the way my class and department faculty in general talk about gender and feminism in art is a little offputting in general recently #the focus on softness and delicateness and stereotypical markers of femininity is chill thats like an interesting thing to think about #lots of things to explore and critique and then embrace as not innate 'womanly' things but as like. human. as women are human #that type of thing. but theres been a lot of simultaneous emphasis among my peers of like this universal womanhood? #woman as the archetype. and woman as something wholly different from anything else. and the universal 'sisterhood' #i dunno im like fat mixed race kinda gnc and more visibly disabled than i think i am so i was like #never gonna be fully brought into that supposed 'universal sisterhood' anyway #and whether i personally think of myself as a woman or not in general is nobodys business least of all my own #BUT it is bizarre - this universal womanhood narrative. i think exploring one's own femininity is extremely interesting. #is it soft? is it hard? something else? all kinds of ways to think about it #i think the pitfall im falling in with my peers is the habit of assuming you need to make art as a universal message: theres no such thing #any 'universal message' you make will always exclude people you dont mean to exclude #if you depict your universal womanhood as young and soft and skinny and feminine and nuturing - then i might wonder #about the women who are outside of that. what about that fat masc 60 year old woman who cant nuture for shit #(gets so hard i get naseous. i think i hauve covid) i dunno its on my mind a lot #maybe thats just the way things go even in art spaces that are trying to be progressive? always a type of woman who is in vogue #a type of woman who is considered the default? and whoevers outside of that is left out of the conversation entirely #(<- bmpmp3 discovering the basics of misogyny live in the tags of this tumblr post LOL but yknow what i mean)

[rjalker]

Bleghhhh

#why am i naseous #and who decided to make that word so hard to spell

[uraandri]

currently experiencing the worst possible side effects of menstruation

#shitting and throwing up #i did not think it was gonna get this bad #i ate bad food yesterday #as in bad to eat when you are naseous #so now i am experiencing the concequences #i made my self some soup #so it's just gonna be soup and water for today #i am more upset about this fucking up my day #oh well i'll survive #ura.txt

[shcherbatskayas]

i am being so brave right now (not going to sleep despite being so so sleepy bc i am waiting for my laundry to dry)

#i am exhausted to the point of insanity i got almost no sleep last night #i woke up every two hours and then had to go through the whole day with a migraine #and then did not nap to avoid making my sleep worse #so now it's 9pm and i am naseous and light hurts and i“ #i'd kill to sleep for 8 uninterrupted hours #honestly if this migraine doesn’t get better i might have to call off tomorrow

[ittybittybumblebee]

Damn!!! They were right about you just need to find something to obsess over to improve in ur art bc yess i am drawing so much and i have seen it happen everytime i get rlly into something that i draw so much and get the practice from it im doing great this is awesome i feel so good to have something to obsess over again

#i think about my fav show too long im gonna throw up!!!/pos /pos /pos #i have never thrown up yet but i do fr get so naseous bc i feel like im gonna explode in a good way #everyone who likes btb i am giving you a leetle kiss on the head this is great we are so awesome we love our funny burger show #im gonna bite something i lvoe... burger clown

[dcwnrisen-aa]

lmfao

#woke up with a headache and was feeling naseous #then got super irritated with a sink full of dishes that weren't there last night and a mess that i had to clean up because of my brother #its a pet peeve of mine to clean up after other people ugh #then went to the bathroom to breathe and realized mother nature has me bleeding like a stuck pig #my irritation is valid tho lmao but it's amplified by how irritated i am by these things #tmi /

[master-gatherer]

I should have brought saltines

#i had to come into work today #at 6 am no less #im hungry but the thought of eating my packed lunch makes me naseous #need bland until tummy better #or am more rested

[kawaiianimeredhead]

I wanna be and am being so whiny because my tummy hurts

#one of the most annoying not feeling good feelings #i am so sure I'm not hungry #but i also feel like i should eat something because like idk maybe it'll fix it #but the moment i started thinking about food i got so naseous #): #don't mind me

[zzzzzzepis]

literally gave myself nic withdrawl on accident and now I want to kill something

#everything is so fucking cold and nauseating #I threw up yesterday and I could not understand why #cuz I fucking was low on juice so I've been hitting my pod less often #which since I'm a chain smoker resulted in my body freaking out and trying to kill me #like I had a hot flash in the shower constipating pins and needles I am sooo fucking stupid I cannot believe I didn't realize this #shivering on my mattress cause I couldn't fucking eat dinner #too naseous

[kalamity-jayne]

Fuuuuuuuuuck meeeeee😩

i am very fucking sick today 🤒 and it super sucks.

I can’t even muster the strength to do my estrogen shot😭

#my whole body hurts including my teeth #think i might have a fever too cause I am super sweaty #but the second any part of my body leaves the blankets I get chills #hella naseous too #fml

[narutomaki]

I think it all ties back in a way to me hearing "it doesn't look like it does in my head" and just nodding along confusedly. what do you MEAN by that? WHAT DOES THAT MEEEEEAN?

there is nothing in my head when I'm drawing that is not essentially spoken words or like. noise movement makes. to me when I picture an arm raised up I think about the rustle of fabric and the air reacting to it more than I think about what it looks like in words. even.

like "flap whoosh gesture curl fingers smarmy grin" the only time I have come close to seeing things in my head has been when I did like. 7g of shrooms in one night spaced over a couple hours.

#AND I STILL DIDNT EVEN GET MUCH VISUAL EFFECTS AND IT PISSED ME OFF. I FEEL NASEOUS AND HEAVY FOR WHAT? FOR NOTHING!!!!! #any way. the way i will never fully understand how another person perceives the world because i am not them. #fucks me up! #ÀAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA STOP #when i close ny eyes i see NOTHING. WHEN I VISUAL THINGS I SEE NOTHING. I CAN LIKE. IMAGINE DRAWING IT BUT LIKE. #THERESNNOTHING.... SONWTF DO PEOPLE MEEEEEEAN

[queenquid]

Boy howdy I did Not miss SSRI side effects

#my mouth is fucking dry #my limbs are jittery #i am naseous

[anthillkid]

i just looooove watching movies that will ruin my night nd probably my tomorrow as well

#i am so naseous rn