#ÀAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA STOP

[narutomaki]

I think it all ties back in a way to me hearing "it doesn't look like it does in my head" and just nodding along confusedly. what do you MEAN by that? WHAT DOES THAT MEEEEEAN?

there is nothing in my head when I'm drawing that is not essentially spoken words or like. noise movement makes. to me when I picture an arm raised up I think about the rustle of fabric and the air reacting to it more than I think about what it looks like in words. even.

like "flap whoosh gesture curl fingers smarmy grin" the only time I have come close to seeing things in my head has been when I did like. 7g of shrooms in one night spaced over a couple hours.

#AND I STILL DIDNT EVEN GET MUCH VISUAL EFFECTS AND IT PISSED ME OFF. I FEEL NASEOUS AND HEAVY FOR WHAT? FOR NOTHING!!!!! #any way. the way i will never fully understand how another person perceives the world because i am not them. #fucks me up! #ÀAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA STOP #when i close ny eyes i see NOTHING. WHEN I VISUAL THINGS I SEE NOTHING. I CAN LIKE. IMAGINE DRAWING IT BUT LIKE. #THERESNNOTHING.... SONWTF DO PEOPLE MEEEEEEAN