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[Suna Rintarou x Reader]

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[Tw: toxic relationship; mention of drug use; panic attack; blood]

Perhaps it wasn’t about the way the day started as a boring one, because there was no yelling from them or the fact that his wounds were getting better and you almost couldn’t see them anymore or just the fact that it seemed like a normal day from the start of their relationship.

It was uncanny. All the loud silence in their small apartment and the clean air, which was something he didn’t get as much as he would like to. There was no smell of weed or any kind of drug, just a peaceful atmosphere. Why?

Why there were no plates threw to him? Why were there no joints put in his mouth without permission? Why they weren’t yelling and throwing fists in his face? Did they overdose themselves, again? Did they faint from a withdrawal? Were they in pain? And if so, why did he feel so good and released when he imaged them suffering and leaving him alone? Or a better question: why did he felt also lonely when he saw their lifeless body in his mind?

“Love? Are you okay?” his voice was trembling, maybe with fear or with relief, perhaps both and none, confusion of feeling hit him, Will they answer, will the silence remain as an empress over the so-called home of them. He feared what he can find once he gets to their shared room. Maybe it was the thought of being alone again, or the thought that he would enjoy it because they would free him from their grasp once and for all. Would he find someone better? Or maybe he didn’t deserve a rewind of this fucked up route he took when he first fell in love.

A giggle made him jump out of his skin. The lord just laughs in his face because he thought that this could end so easily. It was their laugh, and it was drenched in LSD or ecstasy. He couldn’t tell the difference anymore, anyway. Should he go get some water, hoping it will calm them down? Perhaps he should just move his legs already before something bad would happen.

He opened forcefully, the door which was protecting them from the eyes of strangers that somehow always came in the apartment to get their daily dose of something, drugs or his food. For the love of God, he knows this isn’t how a relationship should look like, but be dammed their hold was comforting in all those lonely nights. Their soft hands on his skin and the way they wiped his tears in the beginning. He missed that.

“Rin!” their voice was so sweet, maybe a little too sweet. Sweet enough to make you throw up only after you smell it. “Sweetie, there is a party, a good one! You can invite as many people as you want, the more the better as long as they know how to keep their mouth shut.” Their hands found their way around his neck as two snakes that would never let him go, neither kill him, they were just playing with their mouse. Their lips painted passionless kisses on his cheeks and almost kissed him on the lips, yet he felt it was wrong so he moved his head away.

“Did you- just now? Oh God, Rin, I thought we got over those incidents. Can’t you just let me kiss my boyfriend? I miss your lips, darling.” slaty-sweetly words were those. He wanted to kiss them too, but they weren’t the person he fell in love, they weren’t the high school sweetheart anymore. He wanted to say all those words, he wanted to yell and throw a tantrum because he feels suffocated.

But in another part of the same city, much closer than you would have thought there was Osamu Miya talking on his phone with a friend, [y/n], perhaps just catching up with each other or just chatting about an annoying blonde with a brown undercut.

“One sec, [y/n], someone else is calling me. I’m going to come back to you.” the grey-haired twin said as he put you on hold and answer the other call. “Yes?” he said, more as a question because he didn’t bother to see whose name was on the screen. It surprised him to hear his other friend's voice, Suna, almost begging him to come to a party with as many trustworthy people as he can.

“Please, I don’t think I can go through the entire night, hell! I don’t even know if I can go through the whole day without someone next to me.” it wasn’t something that never happened before, Osamu knew about the way his relationship was going and told him so many times to end it, that he is there if he needed someone to be next to him when it happens but every time Suna would say that he loves them and would never give them up so easily.

“Ok ... fine, but I am going to bring only one more person, I hope. They might help you with- you know what.” as he said that on the other side of the phone call Rintarou smiled and thanked his friend for always agreeing with his pledge of help. As Osamu said that, Rin closed the phone call, which meant he can go back to talking with [y/n] and asking her to go to the party with him. “I’m back, did you miss me?” he asked playfully, which made you roll your eyes back. It wasn’t every day Osamu Miya made jokes like that.

“Sure, I did Samu, but what's with the playfulness out of nowhere?” you asked with a soft smile on your lips as you placed yourself on your bed getting comfy for an all-nighter on your phone with Ao3 and Spotify. Little did you know, Samu had already made other plans for you.

“You see, I have this friend, and he invited me to a party, and I was thinking we should go together - I mean as friends! I kinda need your help with something.” as he said that, a notification sound made him jump a little, Suna just texted him the address “And you can’t say no! Remember the time when I helped you with Atsumu’s flirting? You still didn’t repay me for pretending to be your boyfriend.” he continued without giving you the time to say that you just want to be lazy in your bed.

Next thing you know is that you were searching for some clothes which were decent for a party late at night. As soon as you found something, Samu texted you that he just arrived in front of your apartment complex. You put some shoes on, took your phone and charger in your pockets, locked the door [please remember to always lock your door kids] and gone you were.

As he said, in front of the complex, Osamu was leaning on a random wall looking at his phone, probably scrolling through Instagram. He didn’t seem to have come with a car which made you think he was going to drink at the party or maybe the location was closer than you would have thought. You waved at him to catch his attention, and you did. Samu raised his head from the phone and smiled at you.

“Thought you change your mind. Even if you couldn’t because if you would have I would just drag you with me, with a leash and all.” the young adult said giggling and handing you a bag with onigiri and some water. “Just a reminder to stay hydrated and healthy.”

“Kinky, man.” you said as you took an onigiri out and started munching on it. “Oh, I guess the party is close or maybe you want to drink and that’s why I don’t see your car here?” you asked with your mouth full, which made Samu almost choke on his own onigiri while walking in a direction. He nodded, but you didn’t know which was correct. Was it close, or he wanted to drink? “Dude, yes what?”

“Yes, the party is close.”

After 20 minutes of walking, you took a turn and end up in a small alley which had a coffee shop, or what it looks like a coffee shop, which had tons of different colours lights going out through the windows. You guess that’s where the party was, but damn, those lights made you dizzy if you stared at them too much. “Here we are.” Osamu’s voice made its way to your ears, and a sigh escaped you. “I know I should have told you before getting here, but it’s a drug party - I don’t do them ... and this is why I end up taking you here. I told you my friend invited me here, yea? Well, he is here because his toxic someone and I know how sweet you can be, so I thought that if I get you two to meet -”

“You want to set me up with someone who has a partner???? Dude, it’s not like I don’t understand your reason, but your friend made his own decision to remain in the toxic relationship.” you said and the boy next to you sighed, but that didn’t stop him from pushing you through the door. He just wanted to make you two to get to see each other at least. “You motherf-” you were about to swear but you got blinded, for a moment, by the lights.

The music wasn’t as loud as you thought but the smoke was like a veil over the whole location, and the smell, the smell made your head hurt, good thing you had a forgotten mask in one of your pockets so you putted on. It wasn’t like it actually helped with something, but the smell minimizes a little. Samu said he is going to search for his friend and left you were you were, alone with nobody you knew. “This piece of shit, left me with junkys and nobody that I know. He just said ‘bye-bye’ and puff he disappeared.” you cursed the grey-haired twin. You moved through the sea of people, searching for a place you could sit.

You finally found a chair, and you sat down. It wasn’t like you walked that much, but you did have in plan to just stay in your bed all night and read. You threw back your head and silently yelled from frustration. “He could just let me be, but noo he had to drag me here for his match up power.” you mumbled, at least he gave you a bottle of water before entering this place, who knows what could be in the drinks.

“You really will not let me kiss you?! You are my boyfriend, mine! Nobody’s else! You piece of trash nobody would have been with you! I took you!” yells made you raise your head to see what is happening. A person with black hair and bad posture was getting yelled by another unknown person. See, this is why you don’t complicate yourself with relationships.

“Fuck you! You aren’t the person I fell in love with! You are just another junky who wants to feel validation!” the black-haired person yelled back, which made the first person throw to the poor man a glass made bottle in to his face. Blood started dripping from his nose, lips and forehead. What the actual hell? What is wrong with the person who just threw the bottle?! You sat up in mere seconds and made your way to the two of them. You instinctively caught the wrist of the black-haired man and pulled him away.

“You psycho! No need to make him bleed! You could just talk it out!” you yelled at them and after you ran out, on the balcony with the bleeding person. When the fresh air hit your face, you took down the mask and made the man sit down. “Let me take care of those wounds, okay?” you said as you inspected his face to be sure that there is no piece of glass in it. Luckily enough, there wasn’t any, so you wiped the blood from his face. He had a pretty face, his eyes were dark but told you so much about his experience, his jaw wasn’t sharp but it matched his vibe. He looked like he was about to cry. Poor him. “I’m [y/n].” you said tenderly as you stopped wiping the blood.

“I- um, I’m Suna Rintarou.” he said, and his voice was trembling, which made you see that his entire body was shaking too. This man was abused before, for sure. If it was the first time you bet, he wouldn’t have been here with you. “I-I’m sorry for the trouble.” he continues, taking your hands in his hands and putting them away from his face. “It’s fine, everything it’s fine now.” you whispered, not pulling your hands from his. He looked like he needed a soft touch on his own accord right now.

His breathing was going back to normal, but a well to known voice made him shake so hard and hyperventilate. “No, no, no... they’re going to find me!” this looked like a panic attack, no joke. “Hey, hey look at me,” you said softly “they won’t ever touch again. I’m right here.” His eyes were becoming teary and he could barely breathe normally, his every breath was caught in his throat and his face was changing colours becoming pale almost blue. “Suna-san! Please calm yourself.” you tried to snap him out of it “Suna-san, can I kiss you?”

Even if he couldn’t hear well, he heard the question which caught him by surprise and made his breath come to normal a little. You knew you just had to distract him from the thing that made him panic. “What?” he asked, confused, and that made you smile. “Thank goddess you are back to normal.”

“I wouldn’t say no.” he mumbled to himself. He couldn’t lie to himself anymore. He knew that this is the last time he is going to see his partner- no, his ex. He won’t accept this treatment. He fell out of love a long time ago, he just despised the feeling of being lonely that was all that kept him next to them. “You can kiss me, if you still want!”

His reaction was so innocent, which only made you lean and kiss his cut lips, still tasting the dry blood on them. You didn’t know if you wanted to go further from this sweet kiss, because it might trigger him, but for your surprise he actually asked permission with his tongue to explore more of your mouth and you accepted. His tongue was exploring every inch of your mouth, perhaps finding comfort in this. A soft moan escaped him and his face was flushed. His hands found their way to your cheeks and pulled you closer, maybe because he enjoyed this so much and didn’t want to let go to this serotonin hormone.

“I see you met each other.” the voice of your best friend, nobody else that Samu ruined the moment.

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