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missstaypuft · 5 months

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The Vampire Of Appledore

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Some time had passed since Dr Maynard had been left alone to treat Seraphimus. It had been quiet, too quiet. When the doctor had not returned, the two men naturally began to worry. What was taking him so long? Rupert entwined his fingers with Alexander’s, hands held palm to palm, as they made their way back to the bedroom. Only metres from the door, a visceral stench offended their senses, making Rupert's stomach clench. A sickening fear gripped him, believing it to have finally happened. Frozen to the spot, he couldn’t take another step, wishing not to see the sight of his dead lover that no doubt awaited him behind the dreaded door. With an understanding look, Alexander kissed Rupert’s hand before letting go, braving the door and opening it to reveal… an empty room. No Seraphimus. No Maynard. But it wasn’t empty, far from it. That was made evident by the guttural swallows and heavy panting sounding from the other side of the abandoned bed, sheets strewn across the floor.

“Dr Maynard?” Alexander's voice was uncertain as he cautiously advanced into the room.

Holding onto the back of the earl’s shirt, Rupert kept himself hidden behind him, terrified as to what he might see. There was then a brief pause in the strange noises.

"Do not interrupt me." Seraphimus huffed. Both men then stilled. Rupert could feel his lover shake, the brave façade breaking down with each passing moment. Despite this, Alexander just managed to get out the question, “R-raph?” "What!?" The marquess snapped before exhaling deeply and rising from his position behind the bed. Rupert almost gagged, his chest tightening from the unsettling sight. Before him stood Seraphimus in his long nightshirt. He looked perfect. Unlike the gaunt appearance that he exhibited only hours ago, the marquess was healthy again. His face was full, his cheeks rosy, his freckles as prominent as if he had been out in the sun. His honey-coloured hair was lush, cascading down his back in loose curls. The marquess would have been a divine sight if not for the blood that had soaked his nightshirt and had smeared over his face. The sullied material clung to his full figure, highlighting the bloated belly that lay beneath, round and heavy with litres of fresh blood. Idly massaging it, he rubbed small soft circles into the glut, his piercing eyes portraying an inhuman hunger.

#just a little snippet to test the waters #teehee #feeling insane about vampire raph #also hope this doesn't read like dogshit #the marquess' wager #vampire of appledore #seraphimus fenwick #rupert blackmoor #alexander lovecott #dr maynard #vampire #vampire au #adam's writing

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flipphone01st · 3 months

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PLEASE write the mafia 141 idea you posted🥺I'm in love with the idea so much already!!!

Mafia 141/Bartender reader- Part one

Johnny🧼

Mostly Johnny/reader in this fic, because ive decided to split this up into different parts that will focus on different characters Like part 2 could focus of Gaz/reader.

Warning: not proof read, bad joke, swearing, alcohol and smoking, Johnny is a lil shit, and pushy, poorly written accents, (if I forgot anything that could have a warning let me know )

this is literally my first time actually writing a full fic so it's probably mediocre, FEEDBACK AND CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS GREATLY APPRECIATED. Other then that I hope you enjoy :)

Stupid uncle, stupid debt, stupid bar. You hated this, but you suppose its your own fault. If only you had just closed the door when your uncle showed up at your door begging for help because he had gained massive debt to one of the most infamous crime bosses in the city... Johnathan Price...if only you had just said no and didn't drive your ass down to Price's club and demand to speak with him, didn't try and bargain for your uncle...maybe then you wouldn't be forced to work for the bastard...

Two hours...thats how much longer you'd have to spend standing behind this bar. You swear to god, if other drunk yells at you you'll shove a jigger down their throat, and your 'coworkers', if you could even call them that, weren't making your life easier. If anything they were hellbent on making it worse. "Yer lookin' a bit peely wally." Johnny chuckles while cleaning a margarita glass, it was just him today, said Kyle was off doing something for Price, you didn't want to ask what.

You glance up at him, eyes narrowing in confusion and slight annoyance "..huh?"

"Means you look like shite." He clarifies.

You sigh and stand up, nudging an empty box away with your foot "thanks... asshole." You grumble. He chuckles and raises his hands in mock surrender, "Awe come on, I'm just funnin' with ya. You look fine, a wee bit red in the face, but that's it." He grins, you didn't hate him, he could actually be quite hilarious sometimes... sometimes...You roll your eyes. He laughs and takes out a cigarette, lighting it up. "Ya want one?" He offers.

"no...I thought price didn't like us smoking around the drinks.."

"Aye, he doesn't." He shrugs, taking a drag of his cigarette. "but what ol Pricey doesn't know won't kill em."

"mm.." your nose scrunches in disgust at the smell. you take a small step away, not wanting the smoke to settle on your clothes. He blows smoke out the side of his mouth, away from you "yer no fun ya know that?" You scoff, "pft..I can be fun.", while crossing your arms, and leaning back against the bar with your lips shaped into a slightly grumpy pout. "Oh?" He chuckles again, leaning back against the bar himself "can ya? Let's see, tell me a joke."

you think long and hard "uuuuuuuuuuuh..ok I got one. What do you call a fake noodle?" Johnny squints his eyes "...what?"

"....an impasta..."

"..."

"..." You're both silent, completely silent.... just staring at each other...

"..." Johnny sighs "that joke was dogshite."

Your shoulders slump forward in defeat "I know." He chuckles, "Well at least yer aware." before taking another drag of his cigarette. before looking at you with the most smug grin you've ever seen "but that also just proved my point...yer no fun, pipsqueak."

"Pipsqueak?" You raise an eyebrow as your eyes narrow

"Yeah, you heard me. Yer a wee'un." He teased, god you wanted to whip that stupid grin off his equally stupid face. "you're not even that much taller than me."

"I'm seven inches taller than you." He points out.

"...nuh uh.."

"Fuck ya mean, nuh uh?" His eyebrows furrowed as he tries not to laugh, on the other hand, your brows furrow in annoyance. "I mean, nuh uh."

Johnny chuckles, and places his hand on top of your head. He then leans down, the tip of his nose almost brushing yours "dena it alllll ya want..." His eyes were locked with yours, the faint smell of cigarette smoke almost making you recoil in disgust. he leans even closer, you try and lean back but you're stopped by the bar. "...yer still a pipsqueak!" then ruffles your hair aggressively.

You slap his hand away, glaring at him while fixing your hair. "Jerk! Don't do that again." you grumble, and to make matters even worse, you feel your cheeks heat up a bit. "Awe, someone's all hot and flustered now." He smirks, giving you a small jab with his elbow "c'mon now, I was just joking around, relax."

You groan softly and roll your eyes, pushing him away and walking to the other side of the bar, trying to find anything that you could use to ignore him. Johnny grins, quickly putting out his cigarette and following after you "see! that's exactly what I'm talking about. Such a grump...don't tell me yer so boring that ya don't even like a bit of harmless flirting?"

"go away, Johnny." You don't look up from the drink you were pouring for a costumer "Aww, c'mon. I'm just tryna lift yer spirits." He wraps his arm around your shoulder "you like me don't ya?" He grins, not expecting a positive answer.

Your eyes widen and you move out from under his arm "no." Was your immediate response, your voice stern. Johnny grins wider and moves to stand right in front of you, leaning right up and practically invading your personal space. "Don't lie to me now. I bet ya daydream about me, don't ya? About all of us? Me and the lads, hm?"

Your face goes red "what?" He grins, almost deviously "you think I haven't noticed the way ya seem to float off into lala land while staring at me or Kyle work? When Simon's gotta rough up some jackass? Or even when price is literally just in the room with ya? Don't try to dena it, pipsqueak...just can't keep us all out of yer fantasies eh?" His hands slide their way onto your hips, he didn't seem to care about the bar patrons laughing and ooing, some even getting annoyed that the two bartenders were flirting with each other instead of enabling their alcohol addiction.

Your brain felt like it was short circuiting, it had become uncomfortably warm. If you were a truther..you'd admit that despite hating these four men...they were kinda hot. But you're a god damn liar and you'll be one till the day you die! "i-i!..no..no way!.. you're crazy! There's no way in hell id ever like any of you like...that.."

"Mm...sure... I'm definitely crazy." He leans even closer, his voice a whisper as he presses his body into you, the two of you basically chest to chest "...crazy about you." He leans down to try and steal a kiss, you're eyes widen comically large but thankfully before you could even react the gruff voice of Simon makes Johnny freeze just before his lips could graze yours "That's enough, you two 'er supposed to be workin, not swapping spit." He glares at Johnny, you didn't notice it but there was a slight hint of jealousy in his dark eyes... you didn't notice, but Johnny sure as hell did.

Johnny quickly backs up from you, and then looks at Simon with a smug grin on his face "Jeez... Yer no fun either, Si. We were just messin' around." Simon stares him down, not breaking eye contact with Johnny for a good two minutes, until finally letting out a deep sigh "just keep it outside of work..." then glances at you, "Price said you're free to go for today.."

You nod "uh..thank you." You awkwardly stutter, still trying to process what just happened and understand how it made you feel... were you embarrassed? Very. Were you necessarily uncomfortable?... strangely enough...no, you weren't uncomfortable. Simon nods then walks off into his little office behind the bar, Johnny watches him go, then his gaze wanders back over to you "Sooo, ya gonna head off then?"

"yeah.." you answer, somewhat shyly. Johnny nods, a quick look of disappointment on his face before he masks it with a smile "alright, then...have a good night, pipsqueak." He shrugs playfully, and begins walking off to serve a poor bastard that had been trying to order a drink for the past five minutes. ".. you too, Johnny.." you mutter while walking out from behind the bar to towards the break room to get your stuff and finally leave....what a weird ass day...

END OF PART ONE. Please let me know what you thought

#task force 141 #cod mw2 #john mactavish x reader #john soap mactavish x reader #eventual!gaz x reader #eventual!ghost x reader #eventual!price x reader #gaz x reader #ghost x reader #captain price x reader #mafia 141 #mafia au #soap x reader #soap mw2 #taskforce 141 #mw2 x reader #gn!reader

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weebsinstash · 1 year

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I sent an ask responding to the Izuku parts that I hope you got.(if not fml)

But I figured I should send a separate ask to talk about Miguel.

So like my thoughts have been centering on this scenario where you're his secretary or assistant because he is the CEO. He's a beta and you're an omega.

You guys have a purely professional relationship, tbh half the time he doesnt even realize you got you're heat and just finds out you called in when you dont respond. Really the only thing he cares about is you doing your work, getting it done on time, and not half-assing it.

But then he gets the spider DNA and everything goes to shit. Not only does the spider DNA give him extra abilities and enhanced senses, but it also gives him some alpha traits/tendencies.

He goes in to work thinking it'll help distract him and get him back in the rhythm of everything only to just get fucking hit in the face with your scent. Queue him rushing past because it takes everything in him not to just pounce on you.

But as I said, he only got a few alpha traits. He didnt actually become an alpha. So while he's out here wanting to just pin you to his or your desk, knot and claim you....he's completely incapable. His body is completely incapable of performing those actions and it only leans into his yandere behavior and tendencies.

I've also been think like(depending on how one writes abo), sometimes betas dont have a sent or if they do its extremely faint. Yandere beta miguel who cant even smother you in his scent because he basically doesn't have one, meanwhile you dont even realize he's changed at all because you cant smell it.

Though because he doesnt have a scent he would absolutely sneak into your house/appartment. Its basically the only upside in his eyes.

Also anytime you go into heat and have to miss work? He is immediately taking your seat from your desk and huffing it while he touches himself. Then at night as spiderman will come just close enough to be able to smell you but still not lose control of himself, absolutely getting off on your scent and sounds of pleasure from you using a toy.

God this shits been living in my brain rent free for like the last week and wont go away 😭

I got the Izuku ask :) trust me when I say I am simply dogshit awful at getting back to people and being consistent

Picture if Reader is actually a really competent employee of his at Alchemax but Miguel like BARELY pays any mind to you because, you know, he's got all sorts of shit constantly stressing him out and occupying his mind on top of migraine, and suddenly you're going into work and bringing him his preferred coffee as usual when, he tries to make small talk? You've worked for this man for like at least a year, basically only speaking when necessary, and one day you lean over to put a coffee or some papers on his desk and that brings you just close enough for him to take in a breath of your scent which instantly helps alleviate his headaches

You're basically done giving him what he needs and you're literally about to leave the room when he suddenly calls out (almost in a "wait I need to catch you before you leave" kind of urgency) and you pause and look at him with those big eyes of yours he suddenly can't stop staring into when Romeo hits you with "so .... how are you?"

And you're just kind of stunned for a few moments because this is a man who basically doesn't speak to you unless he needs something, even when you go to him to pass along a message or something or other about his schedule and your secretarial duties it's typically just a sort of "got it, thank you" sort of response and you're sent on your way again, or given another task, so in ao forth. You basically can't get a good read on the man's personality because he simply doesn't talk to you enough or at least about anything other than work

He officially enters the Goo Goo Eyes Zone where when you like someone almost everything about them is so cute and had more meaning than it actually does and is basically finally seeing you for the first time. He FINALLY notices what kinds of perfumes/body mists you like to use to smell nice even if it's something you've worn for ages, the ways you prefer to style yourself, which little accessories or rings or whatever may be your favorite, little mannerisms you may have like clicking pens or singing little songs when you think you're along, like when you're doing something and it's you're just like occasionally singing, like he finds you washing a coffee cup in the break room all "--and its doooOooone!"

The need to learn more about you escalates because suddenly he's like "wait I've known them for all this time and never noticed all these things, what ELSE don't I know?" And it really is an obsessive infatuation. You live in a high rise where you don't really have to worry about closing your blinds or anything which is perfect for Miguel "don't you know i have enhanced senses" O'Hara to watch you from the roof of the next building over. You never lock your windows because, what's the point? He starts learning your schedule and meticulously taking all kinds of notes until it's the level of him outright entering your apartment to snoop through all of your things and potentially plant bugs and cameras

One day you're opening your window and kind of poke your head out to look at the city and you notice weird sorts of, almost gouges in the wall outside? What are those from? (Well sweetie, turns out, when you were going to town on yourself last night to relieve a little stress, he was the equivalent of like 10 feet away, clinging to your building, listening to and potentially recording every little gasp and finger flick)

But he gets SO frustrated when you're, you know polite, but, not exactly as receptive as he's hoped? When in reality he's still being awkward as fuck and you're still kind of adjusting to him paying attention to you, and it probably feels good to have him seemingly recognizing your efforts but like, you don't wanna. date him??? At least not so suddenly or anything, so he's trying to court you, but, it's becoming harder and harder to be around you at all, let alone when your heats start coming up. He could never tell before that your scent starts changing when That Time is coming around, gradually shifting and becoming something he finds differently hypnotic, something that makes him want to bury his nose in your neck while also, being buried in you period

He'll grow the balls to be more direct with you eventually, but he justifies everything by telling himself he just wants to get to know more about you, and that the stalking is just him trying to get to know you a little more, so when he sees you face to face he can win you over and make you his mate treat you better, obviously! He'll... he'll ask you out to dinner next week, he promises! But for now, he's just gonna, stay right here perched under your window, seeing and hearing and smelling everything

#yandere spiderverse #yandere miguel o'hara #sinprompts #yandere stuff

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jacksoldsideblog · 6 months

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Ao3 narrator/tyler fics recommations 🙏

First place goes to Unwritten by @tylerstesticles . She has not written fight club fanfic that I know of but if she did it would be the best thing ever and I'm saying this because it's true. Literally I am not lying to you. And also because I hope she does one day because I am a little parasite who gluts on the art she gives me

Anyway the rest of this isn't ranked or anything, it's all good. It is also nowhere near an exhaustive list, there's a lot of good fight club fanfic and I can't just list 90% of the ao3 tag

Hate it here by UriPara - I'm kind of obsessed with fics where they're in the psych ward. I like that this one continues with him being in denial about it all. I like the part about him building things in his garage.

the sequel to the fist is the teeth by spocklee - I really like the dynamic here, the narrator not being able to handle Tyler being nice; must be a trap. a very evil trap. it has great voice

The First Taste by Bowelm0vement - the homoerotic cannibalism we deserve! many fantastic lines in here. I like the narrator's italicized screed and the bit right before he bites him. Such energy.

brain parasites by grace_the_demon - another post- fight club fic, this time focusing on living beyond it... interesting premise and I'm really enthralled by the idea presented at the end. I think it's very in character

Something to Sleep To by Jaden56 - psych ward, appropriately gross for them.

Placebo by spam_eml - explores that inbetween space where the narrator knows and doesn't want to

Valley of the Dogs by PaxVobis - very interesting because there's this sort of desperation to Tyler. and the narrator both knows he has the power here but also is still scared enough to fight with Tyler and stay up for 5 days straight

pretty much everything for (check the gifts page) and by PaintedVanilla. Some great long fics with interesting and solid characterization especially for those who like a real boy Tyler. frankly I assume most people have read those and the Recidivism series by snottys which is also very good

Clothes Make the Man by lemon_teacake - I like when they're sweet on each other but I also like when Tyler is absolutely dogshit to the narrator. For that reason, most things by lemon_teacake. I just really love a nasty dynamic lmao I love when these fucks are rancid

and also because I have no shame, my own fic lol

I could keep going but like I said, can't rec the entire tag haha

#fight club #asks

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pommunist · 3 months

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past anon who talked about the alex's first priority being money/funds and who is apparently based to you (hola :D👋)

after reading back my ask i realize that i may have come off as a little bit harsh (not as harsh as you french fans, you guys are BRUTAL) i wrote most of it in a burst of frustration at the whole admin thing lol.

i don't think alex is some disney villian who is twirling his mustache as he watches on his past workers cry out of frustration because of the lack of communication. he just isn't as experienced when it comes to these kinds of things.

he's doing what he thinks is best from his lawyer studies, don't gave out any info that isn't 100% guaranteed, anything that comes with money is a huge legal problem and must be fixed as first, those type of things.

everyone that has known alex personally has said that he's a genuinely sweet guy (well, except his some of his workers but doesn't even have a relationship with them because of the lack of communication LMAO /coping) i don't think any of his current actions are done out of malicious intent or whatever.

all of his recent streams are probably a way to earn money and the whole egg merch is probably for even more money (the bio of the acc literally says that it is ''the best way to fund qsmp'') (i've already talked about my opinions on that)

the whole not communicating is so ''he doesn't make false promises'' and also, so he doesn't get sued. (understand where he is coming from but huge disagree)

the not having ways of contacting him via twt isn't done as a result of this situation, he deleted twt some time ago (very unfortunate timing, like, 2 days before lea's statements. he should've reinstalled it, but he doesn't need to anymore since he now has an email for when he needs to be contacted)

the events that are currently happening have been planned for months in advance (still think he should put them back a bit. i guess the german streamer is kinda understandable since he has apparently been waiting for like, 10 months?? still think he should've put it back)

i think what he wants is for when pomme's admin comes back for the work environment to be perfect but i still heavily disagree with his ways. the way he's going about it now is only going to lead to burnout from the workers :( none of what i said justifies the lack of communication btw. his actions come off as kinda tone-deaf right now.

although with the whole (understandable) anger from people about the twt admins + the union + jose's statements + the french's statements, i do think he will start actually communicating with his workers (he kinda has to with the whole jose thing, unless he wants all of qstudios garbage out in the public, which is like, a really bad thing for him)

unfortunately, i'm only based when i'm angry <3 so this is probably dogshit. but the problems in qstudios ARE fixable. (this is either gonna end up aging like milk or like fine wine. i hope it's the fine wine since i love qsmp and i'll probably completely give up on learning french/spanish if it doesn't)

holà again !

I personally didn’t think you were too harsh on your last ask, you had genuine concern about the course of his actions and it didn’t feel like you were attacking him or anything !

I don’t know Q personally obviously so I won’t speculate too much on what he’s thinking through this, but I agree with you that he probably isnt an evil guy and doesn’t have bad intentions with it.

However I still stand with the fact that he was at least negligent towards what was happening behind the scenes of his passion project and should’ve been more aware of the inner workings of the QSMP.

This isn’t an easy situation, especially with all the legal aspects (which should’ve been thought of beforehand btw) but I think everyone or at least most people who criticise what is going on are doing in first because they want the admins to be treated well but also because they want to trust that Q will do the right thing.

Admins and fans alike wouldn’t spend so much time getting updated on the situation and writing their thoughts if they didnt have at least some hope that things can be fixed.

Now it’s up to Qstudios to prove those who believe right and to prove those who lost trust (can’t blame them) wrong !

#qsmp discourse #asks

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hood-simz · 2 months

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Directory📝

→PSA/Intro! (read b4 u have a bitchfit)←

The name is Piqt and this blog is 18+. My playstyle features the lifestyles that stray away from the typical "happy-nucleur-family-in-windenberg" type stuff and instead sheds light onto the other side of the pond. I'm on Windows, play with almost every pack due to a beautiful thing called ✨piracy✨, been in the game since the month it released (in case you need to reach out to someone seasoned for troubleshooting), and am currently using 5+ GB of cc/scripts.

WCIF friendly and I hope I can actually help you in that regard through my shitmix of a folder!

Going forward, since you will encounter content in this pinned post that some in the community have had literal tantrums about, I would like to state ✨EA is a leech, delivers broken content again and again for a loaded price and doesn't deserve your morality✨ and I, as someone who has been pirating since 2005, will keep pirating it's content and advocating for others to do so. In the terms of me sharing my own + others mod folders, I also give 0 fucks about someone losing .3 cents of ad revenue as I believe internet ads are literal acidic dogshit and shouldn't exist.

→Tags for this blog←

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#favbuilds [builds i love by others]

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The Masterposts!

◤Anadius's Twitter (site in bio)

→Kinda speaks for itself. Kudus to this guy for his work & time in creating such programs for our community!

◤Blogger who compiles DLC content made BGC by various creators

→An absolute godsend before I got the courage to tell EA to go fuck itself and just rip their entire game + all their packs. These creators are absolutely amazing for doing this♡

◤Sims 4 Mod Manager

→Vital in any scenario when sorting mods/cc due to it's access of all the thumbnails, but you just gotta have this if you're gonna download someone's 50+ GB mod folders like I tend to do. Kudos to this guy as well for an amazing, user friendly program!

◤Sims 4 Price Call Out

→A while back I made a post calling out the insane price EA makes for content that lacks its worth + is almost always broken upon release, leaving us to fix it. This post is updated every few months and is there to show you just how much your paying for assets that lack functionality + are bare minimum in terms of design.

◤Paysitesmustbedestroyed + TS4Rebels

→Both sites hold cc content that is blocked behind paywalls.

◤My personal Mod Folder + recommended/best scripts↓

→*take note as its been a few patches since I made this list and folder, both could be out of date though as of today (04/04/24) it works- check with creator pages/popular conflict detectors if worried*

Mod Folder (5+ GB)

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Though this blog is mainly a simblr-story type blog, it will also feature CC I find appealing + reblogs of other simmer's gameplay. If you find yourself ever with a broken game, need to find CC, or just need basic troubleshooting help, shoot me an ask/PM and I'll try my best to help!! Also, though it's pretty abandoned, my older storylines are over on insta @ hoodsimz if you want to check it out

#ts4 simblr #simblr #ts4 #ts4cc #ts4 gameplay #ts4 legacy #sims 4 cc #ts4 story #ts4 cas #the sims 4 community #the sims 4 gameplay #thepinnedposts

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cielsosinfel · 5 months

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i want to eventually move over all my blusky rambling to here, because reading through even your own older posts on bluesky is still DOGSHIT. But I'm very very tired from health issues so I'll figure that out later. but I do wanna post this. I was scouring through the devnotes for Raphael, Hope and Korrilla (still haven't gotten to the end of HoH so also desperately avoiding cutscenes I have yet to reach lmao playing with fire, oh well)

AND THIS ONE! THIS ONE STOOD OUT TO ME!

Korrilla: Poor, deluded Hope. She's stubborn. Raphael loves stubborn. If she'd just agree to serve him, he'd probably have released her a long time ago. Korrilla: As things stand, she's his favourite toy. We're all mad here, but Hope in hell? Why that's the definition of insanity. Devnote: NodeContext: Complicated feelings. Both jealous of Raphael's attention and sad because she knows her sister doesn't want it.

I don't think the emotions expressed in the devnote come across in the line as voice-acted in the game, but the fact it was the writer's intention is so startling, and really explains a lot of the dynamic between these two... Hope absolutely loathes Raphael. She has resisted giving into him for an untold number of years, refused him at every juncture despite the tortures it earns her. he's obsessed with her because she's something he can't claim ownership of, no matter what he does, and it infuriates him. And then there's Korrilla. Her own sister has basically abandoned her, sided with her abuser, become deathly loyal to him, JOINED in torturing her ("Sister, my sister, oh what have you done? Sold me for soul scraps, torment me for fun!" as Hope says.) Basically wholly given herself over to Raphael as an extension of his will, as a tool and a weapon for him to make use of. Even seems to have moments of casual camaraderie with him (the silly betting over what their clients will manage do...) The depths of abandonment and resentment Hope must feel!

And yet apparently Korrilla's jealous that Raphael is still so fixated on the sister of hers who refuses him at every turn, when she's practically his star employee, the person he relies on most. Everything she does for him and he still wants a woman he cannot break down into wanting him. Jealous yet still sad about what her sister is going through, still having this shred of empathy, even while thinking Hope is bringing it on herself, because wouldn't it be so easy to say "yes"? Wouldn't it be so easy to give in?

idk these three drive me crazier the more I think about them

And it's not like Korrilla wasn't subject to Raphael's violence, if we go off this note, but apparently she took to the Hells and the expectations of its hierarchies and means of survival very quickly and very well. But that still means violence, fear and intimidation were used to secure her cooperation and loyalty in the beginning, right? Did she watch what was happening to her sister, so much firmer in her morals, and decide "I will avoid this by any means necessary"? "If I just show Hope how good she can have it by agreeing to Raphael's authority, she'll come to her senses"? Me spinning headcanons in my mind lmao

Also personally I don't interpret this jealousy as a romantic thing on Korrilla's part, but who knows what the writer's intention was. Literally the only mention of these feelings of Korrilla's, as far as I know, is this devnote. I will keep an eye out as I continue to play and adjust my interpretations accordingly lmao

#rue in baldy gate #korrilla #raphael #hope hearthflame #mine poste #raphhope

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graciousdragon · 2 months

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I FUCKING DID SOMETHING FOR ONCE LET'S GO!!!

ok so i was listening to this song like a week ago and i saw this animation clear as day in my mind and i knew i had to try and storyboard it out while i was thinking of it. i wanna do the full song at some point because it is So Very Them-coded but i do not have the time rn and will not for a while (i barely had the time to make this) so for now i just made sure i got the really complicated part out of the way. figured i'd post it because. why not lol

anyway. this is for my Darkest Desire AU story!! it's called Glitching Fates!! i am so normal about it and i have been for years now. it is. so far removed from the source material but i do not care it is very special to me :]

as a sort of summary for what's going on here, the night guard and Will used to be really good friends but they both ended up getting busy with their own lives so they couldn't interact as much, and then the whole Glitchtrap possession thing happens which reunites them but also drives a wedge between them since Will is blindly following Glitchtrap while the night guard is trying to find a way to stop Glitchtrap.

i am so not fucking normal about these characters you all have no idea. oh my god. they have permanent residence in my mind rn. i need people to ask me about them or else I Will Become Violent (/j)

hope y'all liked this, or at least i hope y'all found my passive-agressive notes to myself funny lol. under the cut i typed up all the handwritten ones in case y'all want to read them but can't make out my handwriting

a fuckin uh.. pillar or somethin idk

ooh cool scene transition

how do i convey that he's walking onto a train

dismissive wave

hair is longer to indicate passage of time

pretend this shot doesn't look like total dogshit ok?

hey how did my anatomy manage to get That Much Fucking Worse this far in

there is Something wrong here. i just cannot tell What

that is. so much better what the fuck

ok that's all thank you for looking at my post :]

#rys.txt #rys draws #WAVING MY ARMS AROUND WILDLY LIKE ONE OF THOSE WACKY WAVING INFLATABLE TUBE MEN COME HERE AND LOOK AT MY POST PLEASE!!!#I FINALLY COOKED SOMETHING!!!#i finally figured out how to draw decent side profiles that don't look like i'm totally ripping off jamie hewlett's art style i'm so happy #on the topic of my au being super different from the source material. let's be real for a second #does anyone out there have a darkest desire au that isn't totally different from the source material? do those exist?#i don't think i've ever seen one everyone's always taking a ton of liberty with it. and that's okay! :D #anyway. these two are everything to me you don't understand #please. if anyone seeing this wants to know more about my story PLEASE ask me about it (no pressure)#my ask box is open you can ask me anything about this and i will answer happily (or in the notes here is good too)#even if you have no clue what the fuck is going on here. if you don't know shit about fnaf or darkest desire i will explain it for you #glitching fates #glitching fates au #dawko #dagames #night guard dawko

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auxiliuno · 1 year

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I love how you wrote my last request so here's another. I feel manic but dogshit lately so please gib angst.

König and ex gf Y/N bump into each other again at a German cafe after so many yrs. Lil happy catch up over coffee (that Y/N prolly initiates bc knowing König). They had a good relationship but shit didn't work out as young peeps. She lives abroad now and just returned to town to visit family, so as much as the relationship was rly special, it's old and unrealistic and both are just happy to know the other is doing great.

Then days after, he lowkey wants a friendly chat again but finds out that she died in a car accident. Now König doesn't know if he wants to cry or not, and if he should visit (he prolly will). Gawd it's a whole level of sad when it fits upbeat music. Song reference? Alexa, play Never Forget You by Noisettes.

And thank you, have a good day.

Hello! Thank you for requesting from me again, I'm really happy you enjoyed my first writing! 💗 I hope you feel better soon darling :( ik how it feels to be in a bad place so I'm sending you lots of love! XOXO 💝

König x ex!reader

Hurt/angst

Sfw

Tw: mentions of death and car accidents, funeral, crying, cursing

How long has it been? 2 years, 3 years? No, definitely more than that

The time you spent with that boy washed away like sand on the seashore

Memories fade, as do old relationships

You just never thought you'd see him again

On a trip back to your hometown, to visit your family

You go to your favorite café, the one you always went to before you went to work abroad

The smell and atmosphere of the café brings back so many memories, of good and bad, happy and sad

Nostalgia is truly a weird thing

As if he knew you were nostalgic, he was sitting at a small table, in the back of the café, looking over it

That's when his eyes meet yours

Both of you freeze momentarily; time seems to stop

None of you dare to move, waiting for the other to initiate the first move

Like how it was, and always had been, you were the braver one

You started your way to him

He shifts, clearly startled by your sudden eagerness

"Hey, is this seat taken?"

"No"

Well then that's your que

You sit down across him; time seems to go by painfully slow. You both don't dare to look in each other's eyes, not knowing what to say. Having to take the lead again, you part your mouths to say what he didn't have the courage to say. "How have you been König?". He seems even more disturbed by your friendliness, shifting in his seat; he answers: "I've been fine, you?". A bit more comfortable now, you decide to be more open about what you've been up to, despite the fact that you both had history.

"Well, you know, just been working, doing the adult stuff....paying taxes and shit." You try to be a bit funny, but you think you sound awkward to him. He smiles, he missed this old you, you've never changed ever since you were children; that takes him back to his younger days, with you. You continue on: "I found a good job abroad, and it pays well. It's also a job that I've always wanted to have.". "I know, you've always been adventurous, wanting to get away from this small town.". You nod, surprised that he somehow still remembers that about you.

"What about you? What have you been up to? You ask curiosly. Truth be told, he had grown up and looked way different from the young boy you used to know, but his personality didn't seem to change much; his body was just a man now. A handsome man at that. You briefly wondered if he was seeing someone else know, but quickly remind yourself that it's not what you're here for. He's just an old friend you knew.

"I got the military job I wanted." Swiftly, he meets your eyes for a second to see any sign of admiration or fondness for his new job. He thought that maybe joining the army would make him more scary, more manly, less of the young and dumb boy he once was. Yet your expression never wavered, but you seemed proud of him. He was fine with that. "That's really great König! I can't imagine the hard and tough training you went through to join the army, I'm very proud of you." Your answer was so genuine and kind. It made his heart ache a little. Just a little... "Yeah, I'm happy you think that." Wow, what a conversation killer you thought. Seems like you still need to take the lead, even in a conversation.

"So...." You start slowly, pleading him with your eyes, to say something too. "So, why are you back here?" He asked, genuinely, he was curious; he hadn't seen you in such a long time, didn't hear from you either, and now you just suddenly show up? And he happens to see you? Fate must have set you guys up, again. Dumbfounded, you answer: "I'm just back to see my family, I miss them a lot, and this town, even if I acted like I wanted to get out of it. I never thought that I could miss it so much, or maybe I just missed the memories I made here." Wow. What a deep answer. Were you also thinking of him when you said the memories you missed? Does that mean you missed him? Part of the reason why he was in this particular café today was because he missed you.

He missed the memories you both made here, the numerous dates you guys had here. He just didn't expect to see you. Lady luck really smiled on him today, so why does it feel like he's fucking it up? What does he lack? What's wrong with him? Hadn't he grown into a better man now? Older and wiser, kinder and smarter? You break his train of thought when you suddenly tell him that it was time for you to go, you still had family to visit. He silently curses himself for letting you sit in silence with him, when he had this chance to talk to you again. He just mods politely, tells you that it was nice to see you again, and maybe you both should go out to catch up again sometime. You nod and agree: "Here's my number if you want to contact me König." Althought taken aback by your boldness, he eagerly takes your number. "Here's mine. See you here, same time, same place, in two days?" You agree and say your goodbyes to him, little did he know, he should've cherished this time better, as it would be the last time he ever got to see and hear you again.

The two days went by so slow. He was still processing the fact that he actually got to see you again. "Should I wear something nicer today?" He thought. "No, it's just a casual talk over coffee. Nothing special." He opted for a white button-up shirt and rolled up the sleeves, paired with dark jeans and leather shoes. At least he looked presentable enough. At the same time as yesterday, he drove to the café. He sat down in the sane spot as yesterday, patiently waiting for you. After he waited around 20 minutes, he decided to text you."Hey y/n, are you okay? I'm waiting at the café for you. If you are running late, it's okay, just lmk." Simple, yet to the point. He waited about 10 minutes for you to reply or call him, but there was nothing. Anxiously, his thoughts started to waver and think the worst. Maybe it was your plan all along, to get him to trust you, and then to hurt him like this. No, you wouldn't do that; you never were that kind of person. He knew he needed to stop being so insecure and worried, so instead, he decided to drive to your family to check on you instead.

It was a short drive, from the café to your family house, which he remembered was on a small but peaceful street. Driving by, he saw it; it was the same as he remembered in his teenage days; small yet cozy, you had a younger brother that most likely already moved out too. The house had all sorts of flora and greens growing outside of it. Your parents had a passion for gardening and always kept everything presentable. Parking his car on the side of the street, he got out and made his way up the steps of your family house. Nervously, he knocked on the front door a few times, anxiously waiting for someone to answer the door.

After a few minutes of worrying and anxious thinking, your mom opened the door, looking distraught and her eyes a bit red. "Hello Mrs.l/n, how are you? I came to check up on y/n after she didn't show up to our...catch up day today.". He was so nervous about talking to your mom again, fearing she would get mad and shut the door on him since you guys weren't a thing anymore. Instead, she looked a bit relieved, but tears started welling up in her eyes. "K-könig, it's so nice to see you again... It's y-y/n, she...she got into a car crash just half an hour ago. She told me she was on her way to see you." His heart dropped. "W-What, Mrs.l/n, are you sure? Y-y/n can't really be....gone? Right?" He was shaking now, stuttering through his words. "I wish I was lying too König, but we just found out too, after the police called us.". No!no! This can't be! After all those years of missing you, he got his chance to talk to you again, and now you leave again? It can't be true! "Would you like to come in and have a seat König? I'll make a cup of tea for you, " she sniffled. Still shocked, he nodded and went inside your house. The smell and feeling of your presence hit him like a train. He couldn't help but let tears well up in his eyes, nose starting to run. Your mom gently pats his shoulders as she leads him to sit down at the dinner table.

After he was seated, she started to make some tea in a kettle: "she had missed you a lot." She told him suddenly. Shocked, König looked up at her from his hands, "she did?". "Yes, she told me yesterday night about how she ran into you at her favorite café, and how you hadn't changed much. She said you reminded her of home." Fuck. He started crying harder now, after he heard what your mother told him. You really missed him? And all this time he was worried about what he did. You truly were a kind soul. Your mom turned around and gave him a hug. "I know it's hard König, I know you must have missed her too. Otherwise, why could you have come all the way to our house to check up on her?" He shifted, agreeing with what she said. "She would've been very happy to hear that you still care about her this much, after all these years.". He started bawling now. He didn't care if it was embarrassing. He didn't care if he wasn't manly anymore. All he wanted to do was to mourn for you, for the soul mate he lost. For the one who slipped from his fingers all the time.

Your mom continued: "After the police are done investigating who the driver that ran into her was, and after they...they gather her body... we will be having a funeral for her. We would be happy if you'd come." "Yes, yes, I will be attending her funeral, Mrs.l/n." "Good, she would have wanted you to. Would you like to stay here for tonight?" She asked kindly. "Thank you for the offer, Mrs.l/n, but I think I should go and think about everything." "I understand König, but you are welcome back here anytime okay?" He nodded, thanked her for the tea, and went about his way home.

On the drive back to his home, he couldn't stop the waterworks from coming. He was never the type to cry so hard, especially not over someone. But you, you had been different. You bad been someone special, someone he held dear.

Now that you're gone, he doesn't know what to do. He was probably going to drink his night away and reminiscence all the good times you guys had together.

The day of the funeral came back. All your friends and family were gathered together on a gloomy, cloudy day. The sky looked like it dared everyone to go home, for it would start storming anytime soon. Looks like even the heavens were downcast from your death. He stood alongside your mom for the rest of the funeral. He brought your favorite flowers and set them on your gravestone solemnly. Silently, he promised to himself that he would never, ever love anyone unless it's you again.

Omgggg this was one of the longest fics I've ever written 😭😭😭 I'm sorry it took kind of long, and I apologize if there are any errors in here, I was too lazy to go back and proof read it 😞😞😞 I hope you guys enjoy it tho!

Have a great day!💐

#könig headcanons #mw2 headcanons #mw2 x reader #könig x you #könig x reader

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aihoshiino · 9 months

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thots on saito now he's back?

So Saitou has thots now...............

More seriously, I don't have a ton to say just yet since his reintegration into the cast is so fresh but I'm tentatively interested to see how things go. I really appreciate he wasn't just uncritically accepted back into the fold and that Miyako smashed his face in with a brick offscreen like she deserved so my bare minimum for vibing with this plot thread had been met and I'm excited to see where we go from here.

About Saitou as a character in general... I think I like him a lot more than I maybe should do? LOL

Not necessarily because he's an unpleasant or unlikable character (though I would totally get it if somebody was off on him) but because I think my fondness for him is pretty out of proportion to his actual role in the story. I've said this before but the Strawberry Pro family from volume one (Ai and the twins & Ichigo and Miyako) is my favourite dynamic in the manga so Saitou kind of inherits a lot of goodwill on the basis of being part of that group alone.

I am also, like any other gay person with taste, extremely weak to the trope of "guy accidentally becomes the dad of a troubled teen and doesn't even realise it" so Saitou and Ai's relationship was basically cooked up in a lab to make me so so so so so so so sad and soft. I also just think he and Ai have a really fun rapport when they're together and getting to revisit it is one of my favourite part of rereading or rewatching the prologue arc. Wanting to see more of that dynamic is one of the big reasons (apart from, you know, The Obvious) that I wish we'd get some kind of comfy happy end spinoff or an anthology or something.

I also really like what he does for the series commentary on the entertainment industry, however accidental or otherwise it was on Aka's part. I think when you're writing a story like OnK which is so strongly about commentary on abusive systems, it's very easy to make it onto a black and white issue where everyone involved is either an active perpetrator or a hapless victim - OnK is refreshing to me in that it's very honest about how many people there are in that fucked up system trying their best to just make good art and minimize any harm done in the process but end up perpetuating harm regardless.

Saitou is in this gray area for me where I think it's undeniable that he was complicit in exploiting and hurting Ai - at every step of the way, Ai was a Strawberry Productions commodity before she was his daughter and Saitou loved her even as he was feeding her to the idol industry meat grinder. But at the same time, B-Komachi gave Ai hope. It gave her opportunities and a goal to work towards and it got her out of a truly dogshit situation that she had no power to change without help, even before she was pregnant.

So it's like... yes, Saitou was complicit in Ai's suffering, but he was also one of the very few people in the industry who really, genuinely gave a shit about her. He's not blameless by any stretch, but it's hard for me to WANT to blame him especially since like... the dude lost his daughter!!! I think that's punishment enough, don't you?

Man, I had a lot more to say than expected lol. Thank u for the ask, anon, I hope this was interesting to read!

#oshi no ko #oshi no posting #onk spoilers #ichigo saitou #Saitou Ichigo

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woodchipp · 3 months

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Okay, quick preface, I'm an Omori fan if you couldn't tell.

Why does Omori's bad writing matter to you so much? I'm not trying to be patronizing, I ask this as a genuine question. like, is there a specific reason you have for continuing to talk about it? I know this probably comes across as hostile, but it isn't meant to be. I'm just the kind of person who genuinely asks these sorts of questions.

Also, just because he's my favorite: do you like Omori as a character? Do you think he's a cool dude?

Hope you're having a nice day. I mean that.

I like talking about its bad writing because

1) In general, It's just a fun exercise in writing analysis. OMORI really wants to be taken seriously, but when I do try to take it seriously, it falls apart. Spectacularly. And figuring out all the ways it falls apart in is what's so fun! It's like studying a car crash and what could've been done to prevent it. Dissecting bad writing can also make you appreciate works that feature the same ideas but execute them better all the more!

2) As I said in this post, a big reason why I'm as obsessed with this game as I am is because of how much the wasted potential hurts. I liked some of the ideas the game presented (e.g. the very premise of a young boy trying to cope with the suicide of a loved one by creating a big dream world to distract himself)! The characters' concepts are pretty nice on paper! The game could've been decent!

Unfortunately, the execution is dogshit. The story doesn't read like it has actual thought put into it - it reads like a string of bullet points trying to present the illusion of a story. Not only that, but it doesn't treat mental illness with tact it is purported to have either - it only uses it as a convenient way to exonerate two of its characters of their really shitty actions.

And, well. I don't exactly find this acceptable for a game that had six years of development, more than $200,000 poured into it and is hailed as peak representation of mental illness across what seems to be the entire internet.

As for Omori himself... I don't really have anything to say about him as a character because, like Sunny, he isn't one. I do feel kind of bad that the game's Protagonist-Centered Morality and his status as Sunny's Evil Depression™ mean that his solid arguments get dismissed by the audience as Sunny's irrational self-loathing, though, so here's that

#omori #omori game #omori fandom

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pegasusknightsonly · 6 months

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im going to put this under a cut in the hopes i don't have to keep censoring myself for searches bc that's annoying

honestly i think even the premise of "there's something juicy in Severa and Lucina given that Cordelia abandoned Severa to go and die for Chrom" is completely misguided. i think to believe that that would work you have to also pretend that the basis of Severa's entire character is that she is NOT trying to avoid any further comparisons to the mother who raised her to feel inferior and then abandoned her. but that is what she is and that is what drives her

i know heroes loves to have Severa walk into a room and yell WHAT'S UP CUNTS I HAVE A COMPLEX ABOUT MY PERFECT MOTHER but this really only comes up in awakening when she's talking to Cordelia! who is, you know, the other person in that relationship!

her dad? it doesn't come up until the A! she's trying to manipulate him to buy her clothes and only brings it up as a last resort to get what she wants! and she doesn't get any reinforcement of her beliefs!

Cynthia? it doesn't come up! she thinks Cynthia is cringe

Noire? it doesn't come up! she is not-so reluctantly Noire's protector and source of strength

Kjelle? it doesn't come up! she is gawking at Kjelle's abs and trying to find excuses to touch her and spend time with her which Kjelle has a SHOCKING amount of tolerance and patience for

Brady? it doesn't come up! she wants an evil minion

Owain? it doesn't come up! she thinks HE'S cringe and he takes this a lot less well than Cynthia did

Inigo? it doesn't come up! inigo is kind of harassing her in this one! not his best look!

Laurent? it doesn't come up! they go shopping together and Laurent indulges his fetish for being yelled at

Gerome? it doesn't come up! Severa is kind of harassing him in this one! not her best look!

Yarne? it doesn't come up! it's about Yarne's training and cowardice! you knew this already!

Morgan? you're not going to believe this but it doesn't come up. the one person who could be a completely blank slate for Severa to unload her issues upon and instead they talk about cooking

lastly and leastly, mrobin (she's just being rude) and frobin (FINALLY. IT COMES UP. IN THE A. you can go read it for yourself on serenesforest wiki )

Severa's own description of herself is "snarky and competitive". i just don't buy that she would willingly try to make herself into cordelia 2.0 if she has any choice in it (SIDENOTE: I HAVE THOUGHT THIS PART OF TFP3 WAS DOGSHIT AND UNEARNED SINCE IT WAS RELEASED. #JusticeForCynthia it should've been Severa in tfp1) when she is so consistent about wanting to be seen as her own person and she is consistently successful in that!

. and ultimately none of this gets into how much interest LUCINA would have in someone who is aggressive and competitive (based on her support with Kjelle? none) or in being seen as an inferior substitute for her dad for someone to protect their issues onto. i think she would just rather be happy and in fact the VAST MAJORITY of Lucinas supports are about the genuine reciprocal affection she shares with her friends because she mostly talks to men and Lucina really doesn't like other women.

ok ! maybe go back and play awakening sometime instead of trusting what people who last touched a 3ds in 2016 think they know about the characters and i am including the heroes writers in this ❤️ peace and love

#hater moment #ylisse blogging

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thedemonscrawler · 2 years

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I don't really have any questions about Permission Slip but I wanna say that I completely fucking love the story so far because of how well it fits into what an actual mall would do, if there is a daycare and there are lost children then of course the children will be placed there until their parents come, and that's not something I see a lot in fanfics because they portray Fazco as complete dogshit at their job but that is like standard procedure

I also want to say I truly adore how you've characterised Sunny because the majority of the fics I read have him being very childlike and almost infantilised which doesn't really make sense? He has anxiety but that doesn't make him useless, he is trained and ready to take out threats to the children in the daycare as well as handle any and all emergencies that may arise, and that is something you portray very well in how it clashes with Gregory's stubborn nature as well as the fear of getting caught and decommissioned

I'm really looking forward to how Moon is gonna come into play and how he will help because he is first and foremost a caretaker, but he is also a part of security, as well as a very violent figure who is going to be clashing roughly with a protective papa bear and a stubborn gremlin of a child, so overall nice work

Aaa thank you! I am unfortunately cursed with "think about things too much" brain, so I turn that to my advantage by doing things like going "okay, so how would this work within reason" for things like the Child Murder Franchise.

There's an advantage to having Gregory as the secondary protagonist! Since Gregory is a child, Sun actually knows what to do in looking after him. That means keeping Gregory safe to the best of his ability, trying not to worry him by showing his own nerves, etc. I wanted Gregory to keep some of the independence offered by being a horror game main character, so their relationship ended up more like "older cousin looking after younger cousin", or an uncle after a nephew. Sun is the 'adult' here and is taking responsibility for what happens, but he's also 'young' enough to listen to Gregory's input and follow the 10 year old's lead. I've joked with my sibling that Sun and Gregory are the ones in this party with the braincell.

Oh man, Moon... I've said in an older post that a good chunk of this fic is working around Moon in some way, and I hope what I got planned will be as entertaining to other folks as it is to me.

#thank u for ask!#i can totally get why you would need or want a more childish Sun for the narrative #and early on i felt kinda bad that Sun wasn't as anxious as I've seen others #but really the story demanded that he have SOME degree of confidence as a companion #his job is to look after kids and Gregory is a kid

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asteracaea · 9 months

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I hope that Taylor doesn't give Olivia a hard time over Olivia's song The Grudge seemingly referencing Karlie tagging her as the Big Sur dashboard daisy and implying that the daisy aka Taylor is full of vitriol with the lyric "Ooh, your flower’s filled with vitriol"; the 's contraction at the end of a word like Olivia used at the end of flower means either is, has or us, meaning that that lyric is supposed to be read as "Ooh, your flower is filled with vitriol" which is what makes the lyric read like a dig towards Taylor about being tagged as the dashboard daisy by Karlie.

Taylor can be an outright asshole to people she has a beef with but the only other person that Taylor's had a beef with that said something that could be read as a dig towards Taylor about something to do with Karlie was Yael Braun and Taylor destroyed Yael's life in return. It'd be really shitty of Taylor if she tried to take down a kid who's not even old enough to be allowed alcohol for saying something Taylor didn't like because the kid is understandably and rightfully hurt that Taylor let her fear of being replaced as an artist make her treat this kid who idolized her worse than dogshit.

i didn't take this song to be referencing the dashboard daisy (although lacy made my ears perk up with "eyes white as daisies"!) but i unfortunately do wonder if there was a specific taylor reference being made with the "your flowers filled with vitriol" line, or even a more vague metaphor referring to her.

i've been struggling with this song because my mind has been infiltrated with this feud narrative but i just can't believe things went down the way people say they did. it's all very confusing to me and i've seen/read things that make me wonder what really went on, but i just cannot believe that taylor would ever do something like this. maybe something happened and olivia did get upset with taylor, or maybe she's not singing about taylor at all. i doubt we'll ever know. olivia seems to be practicing secrecy as far as subjects go. but the popular version of this story just doesn't make sense.

i agree that it would be super shitty if things went down the way people say they went down. so shitty, in fact, that i just do not believe it. i don't know much the songwriting credits stuff but if things even went a little bit how people say, then i imagine it was a legal thing between lawyers, not a personal call between the two women in which one was mean and chastised (and traumatized...) the other. i just don't think that matters like this are handled that way. maybe some other tumblrinas more connected to the music industry can weigh in about that.

but also..... i know none of us actually know taylor as a person. we don't. but we've witnessed how she behaves for the past two decades and everyone who has ever met her or worked with her in any capacity only has glowing gushing positive things to say about her. that says a lot to me. taylor works all the time to raise up others, empower and advocate for others. why people are so eager to believe this bizarre story about her being so insecure and jealous and trying to sabotage another artist's career, i will never understand.

and did taylor destroy yael's life? i dont think she did. if anything, one could argue that scooter did that... but i like to picture taylor and yael thick as thieves now ;) she got the house got the kids got the pride, right?

#working hard to avoid 'she would never do that!!' statements #but come on guys #haven't y'all been around for a while...?#i understand that it's important to avoid blind hero worship #and i dont think i'm there #i have been very disappointed by her choices in the past #but this feud story... doesn't fit the pattern of the character of the person we have been watching for almost 20 years

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