#aesirdoesntbyte

[akaaesir]

i do not understand ppl who think their partners "annoying" traits arent cute as fuck like "oh they snore :/" I WILL SIT THERE HAPPILY LISTENING TO THEM SNORE UNTIL I FALL ASLEEP IM SO HAPPY THEY FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO SLEEP AND SNORE AROUND ME??? "they talk too much" IM SO GLAD THEY FEEL COMFORTABLE ENOUGH WITH ME TO TALK ABOUT THEIR INTERESTS

maybe im biased but every time my partner apologizes for being "annoying" i want to fight whoever told them that because we're in it for the long haul, good and bad, sickness and health and all that bullshit and i think the "annoying" shit is endearing as fuck im glad youre comfortable enough around me to do that stuff

#aesirdoesntbyte #lgbtq

[akaaesir]

so i keep having these actually really nice and meaningful thoughts about the adventure zone but somehow the only actual coherent concept i can form is "taako goes to gay elf jail"

#aesirdoesntbyte #the adventure zone #taako #taz taako

[akaaesir]

both my cats are ridiculous

#aesirdoesntbyte #cat #cats #catthew tag #catthew purrdock #juniper tag #junipurr

[akaaesir]

so the cats love to snuggle right

#aesirdoesntbyte #cat #cats

[akaaesir]

i love my cats but WHY IS THIS ONE LIKE THIS

#aesirdoesntbyte #cat #cats #junipurr #well his name is actually juniper but im making that my juni tag

[akaaesir]

so much i see about disability is how to avoid flare-ups and exacerbating your disability but nobody rlly talks about when you do everything fucking right and you're still sick. i took care of myself, as much as i could, and i'm still stuck in bed at 8:17 pm with the knowledge at 8:30, able or not, i'm gonna have to crawl out of bed and feed my cats and make myself something to eat and take my meds. and i have to do that all in one go because if i try to go back to bed to recover from one task, i won't be able to get up again. i'm gonna try to sneak a bit of fresh air in there because that usually at least helps me feel like not everything totally sucks, but if i can't do it so be it.

sometimes when you're having a flare-up or a bad day or what have you, there's not really a reason for it. your body just went nope and that was that. and i'm tired of pretending that if i just do everything right and take care of myself i'm never gonna have these days.

#aesirdoesntbyte #disabled #disability #chronic illness

[akaaesir]

so i am on the last episode of taz balance and

i'm never gonna be over this, am i?

#aesirdoesntbyte

[akaaesir]

hey perisex trans people can yall like... not ignore intersex trans people's experiences

it doesn't happen on purpose, i'm fully aware of that, but it's also frustrating talking about my experiences with hrt and how srs affected me and how now as an adult it makes it impossible to go on the hrt i want (as opposed to hrt that i have to be on to manage my health) and having people scream that it must mean i'm purely a cis man or cis woman. i'm tired of trying to explain how srs both positively and negatively affected me and how the lack of information or consent fucking violated me before i even had a choice and getting told that i should just be glad they mostly guessed right and i won't have to get it in the future. i'll mention that my chest gives me dysphoria and people will tell me that i should be glad i have anything at all. i talk about how i get called fucking slurs on the street and they tell me it shouldn't matter because i'm "not even trans" as an intersex nonbinary person. i get the wrong types of doctors, deal with medical neglect, etc. because they're so focused on changing me to be exactly like a perisex cis man or woman or putting me in a box. and plenty of my experiences aren't even exclusive to intersex people - it's just suddenly a problem when i speak about why it can happen or how to work around it.

and when intersex people are allowed to speak on their identity and struggles, it feels like we often have to shove ourselves into boxes for convenience. there's a heavy pressure to separate and identify transmasc vs. transfem, and when we pick one, we're interrogated and harassed if we don't pick what they think we should. if our experiences don't line up with the "norm," we're just told that can't happen. if we have to change transition plans, well, were we really trans in the first place or were we just "fixing" ourselves?

is itbreally that hard to let intersex trans people speak on our own damn experiences without assuming it's an attack on perisex trans people?

#aesirdoesntbyte #trans #intersex #nonbinary #lgbtq #i queued this bc im currently mad and i dont wanna deal with it

[akaaesir]

"oh DID is such a terrible disorder people with it must be suffering all the time"

meanwhile, the DID:

#aesirdoesntbyte #dissociative identity disorder #fictive #also dont get me wrong i dont like. WANT to have DID #but i mean i live with it #im gonna have some fun #and sometimes that means shit like this happens

[akaaesir]

"gerard way is so apple" - @gay-phantasmal

#aesirdoesntbyte #gerard way #anyway so true darling

[akaaesir]

so im drunk and i was recording myself playing gutar and i decided to do mama by mcr as per usual and partway through someone started banging on my door so part of the clip is just

me: and when we go don't-

door: *banging*

me: ... blame... us...

door: *more banging*

me, still to the tune: why is someone banging down my door?

door: *more banging*

me, still to the right tune: i don't wanna play guitar no more... send fucking help...

#aesirdoesntbyte #music #my chemical romance

[akaaesir]

its sunny and 44°F so i decided it was a great time to go for a walk and let me just say

it was

i spotted another lesbian in the wild also on a walk

#aesirdoesntbyte

[akaaesir]

taps mic

low empathy doesn't make anyone a terrible person

a lot of low-empathy people are still plenty kind, we just don't take bullshit

#aesirdoesntbyte

[akaaesir]

a few photos from the eclipse

bonus photo where the white balance and focus were off but it looks kinda cool anyway (and you can still see the distorted shadows):

#aesirdoesntbyte #photography #eclipse #solar eclipse #sun #all taken on my phone too lol #i dont have a proper dslr i would love to though

[akaaesir]

kravitz would go to a spirit halloween as a joke one time in like. august thinking nobody would be there and then find getting ambushed by overexcited baby bats simultaneously an amazing and terrible experience and make it a tradition

he'd definitely slowly become a cryptid and not even know it too

#aesirdoesntbyte #the adventure zone #taz kravitz #taako definitely made him do it the first time

[akaaesir]

oh fuck i got to taako's big lore drop in the eleventh hour and the graphic novel didnt quite put into perspective how big it was for him i just. holy shit feels destroyed

#aesirdoesntbyte #i doNT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT BUT I DO #merle was like ''i lost an arm'' and taako was like ''i literally dragged myself out of total dog shit and thought i ruined it myself'' #ONLY TO FIND OUT IT WASNT EVEN HIS FAULT #im still in between the backstories but ive heard magnus' will make me cry