#about school. hhhhh. 🙃

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#hi back for now bc it's fall break and I'm stuck on campus #trying not to complain about it but I've been having stomach issues for at least the past couple of weeks #it's been acting up since I got here but the past few weeks and specifically the past few days it's become a lot more intense #I made an appointment with the medical clinic here on campus and they're treating me with something for a possible stomach ulcer right now #I have a follow-up in a couple of weeks #I'm struggling to keep on top of all my thoughts and feelings and emotions right now too #which may be causing or compounding the stomach issues. honestly who knows. #all I know for sure rn is that I feel very tired and worn out despite it being fall break #and I wish I didn't feel this way #kinda sad and very tired #it's a perfect opportunity to catch up on school work that I've fallen behind on. and yet I feel completely unable to even think #about school. hhhhh. 🙃 #it's been such a hard year guys. and I don't want to complain or wallow but I wish I could just break down have a good cry #or a screaming fit if needed #just get it all out #and then maybe I'd be able to cope a little better #unfortunately I'm not sure that's how it works. so I guess I'm stuck feeling like this for now.

[galariangengar]

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#still on vacation for thanksgiving/I put the queue back to 40 posts a day #hhh first half of this little vacation was absolutely fucking horrible 🙃 I genuinely don’t ever wanna vacation with my parents ever again #they always talk about all of the fun stuff we can do and then immediately ruin everything with some bullshit #first night here/my mom threw up cuz she ate food too fast/her high blood pressure/elevation change #then my brother’s asthma fucked him up and he and my dad left back home early #and cuz my brother was coughing a lot and had phlegm/congestion… we didn’t go out a lot #my parents always disappoint me… they don’t care/love me… they treat my brother better #anyways… I spent a whole 24 hrs catching up/texting my guy friend from college a day or so ago #it was nice talking to him again/ just like how it used to be in college before the pandemic started #but also tbh…… I’ve been like… ‘in the mood’ lately since talking to him 👀 #like I’ve had a bit of a crush on him for a bit in college but I wouldn’t be in a relationship with him #but in college/if the moment came by then I wouldn’t of mind having my first time with him cuz I do trust him #HHHHH and I haven’t stopped thinking about that one guy I went to high school & college with but only have like 1 conversation ever with him #HHHH god he’s cute and he’s tall and also latino and he has his own business that he followed me back on #ok time to stop ranting and shut up now/it’s almost time for thanksgiving dinner here for me and my family #squid sister says stuff

[alkimara]

I am. Highkey screaming.

I read this post how people are kinda confused how they're looked up to n shit.

I didn't know u noticed me and then I was tagged n called friend n HHHHH I'll stop being weird now

Also I apologize because I'm on mobile and bolding things makes stuff out of order and I typed this on a colornote so I could see what I had to do

Tagged by: @goodjobmiranda

Tagging: Uhhh @aleckz13 and whoever else wants (I don't wanna spam anyone)

Rules: Tag 15 people you want to know better.

Relationship Status: Single and okay with not mingling for a bit.

Favorite Colors: Pastels, Cool colors, warm colors... I guess anything that aesthetically goes together.

Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick.

3 Favorite Foods: Jasmine Rice, Guacamole (although I think I'm allergic to some avacados T~T), and Jalepeños

Song Stuck in my head: R U Crazy ( https://open.spotify.com/track/4iBLjdxbL9VKzNEfPeZ6zR?si=6bhlNhXZRWSgKC9gBcdkWw since I'm on mobile)

Last Song I Listened to: In My Mind ( https://open.spotify.com/track/7K7PuDJvsbmfhOvIuAnHiE?si=Qwjdw88FQ_uTtuwQ4FlMKw )

Last Movie I Watched: Incredibles 2 a few weeks ago I think...?

Books I'm currently Reading: A Stone of Hope for school and Scythe for me

Last thing I googled: "open caches Warframe" I'm trying to get to Neptune lemme be

Time: 1:07 AM 🙃

How many blankets do you sleep in?: One. And then sometimes I curl up with two more, but I only cover myself with one.

Dream Trip: Anywhere with friends and not family. I already did a trip like this where I went across my country and I definitely think it was the most fun I had in a very, very long time.

Anything I Really Want: There's this pansexual pendant I'd love to get, but if my parents knew what it was called I'd perish. So... Other than that how about good grades in college ;~;

#alkimara #about me #hHEKITY #im v hap n v anxious #kek thank u for the tag it made my night

[galariangengar]

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#hhhhhh this is the second time that I received notifications from the school I applied to last year about them and got rejected from #of them not accepting my transcripts on my application and to send them pdfs HHHHH!!!!! #I just sent another email to their graduate office email with pdfs of my transcripts/ID number and a brief explanation #then I saw that like a week ago I received an email from them about one transcript from my main university #HHHH the anxiety is killing and and said anxiety is fucking up my jaw/TMJ and killing me even more!!! #it says it takes like 5-10 business days to process this and for them to say they got it #but HHHH if I don’t hear back from them that they got it and it’s resolved then I’m calling them at the end of the month #so far neither of the other 2 schools has had issues or emailed me about any issues…. fingers crossed though 🤞🏼🍀 #HHHHHH pray for me guys! I’m truly suffering and hate life and everything currently 🙃 #squid sister says stuff