#aandddd the shitty parts of this site are really really shitty

[abnormalpsychology]

Sometimes this site gives me a much brighter flame of hope for the future and sometimes it makes me a whole lot worse. I think that’s worth being transparent about actually

#aandddd the shitty parts of this site are really really shitty #there’s this strange agreement on some things as if tumblr is a hive mind yet #like there is not one agreed opinion and idk #i forget there’s no real answers to anything because I’m not even trying to find answers I just want comfort #i feel like a bad person for enjoying things all the time just because of being here #despite the common claim of ‘renouncing cringe’ #shame is so deeply entrenched in nd people and society that it just seems so hard to let go of #it’s literally perfect for oppressed people to use to make fun of others like ‘we’re the good kind tho not them’. #the purity culture of this place is so insanely insidious because none of us will ever be clean enough for each other. #that’s why we’re human beings and not. products #tumblr’s isolated but it’s not nearly as free as anyone here would like to believe it is. nor superior #other ways to cope with shame besides more shame would be nice you know what I mean #personalposting on main sorry #LMAO AND ME NEITHER! #and I’m hypocritical just by sharing this much rn to cope lmaoooooo #i post everything I post with the hope that it might help someone #and of course I’m fucked too! #insert that article that’s like ‘we should know less about each other’ lol #the commodification of the human spirit etc etc #existential dread and capitalism and etc etc etc #vent #bbge.vent