#a small silver dragon which is gorgeous texture for playing with if I'm stressed actually

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

I feel so ashamed I actaully followed an ad and bought something

but also not so ashamed bc a) i am getting two new beautiful necklaces (a dragonfly and a turtle!) and b) I'd seen stuff about it before it was only this ad that made me go finally 'okay given that this is a closing down sale of this thing I will make my final decisions regarding purchases' so the ad didn't really influence anything it just made me get on with it

#i will have Four necklaces when these come!! #a simple round blue-green opal I love very much #a small silver dragon which is gorgeous texture for playing with if I'm stressed actually #a dragonfly with white opal inlaid for wings #a turtle with blue opal for the shell #hmmm there seems to be a theme here whatever could it be :P #ive always had this Thing surrounding jewelry that i shouldn't get much or any myself bc that's a thing i see as gifts esp by significant #others. but part of buying jewelry for myself is kind of a release of that dream i suppose. #like i want it still so much but im learning to release it into God's hands #im trying anyway #i am trying to leave romance or lack thereof in God's hands while still doing whatever I can reasonably to encourage it #but it's funny you know. thinking about the boy. my thoughts reach out into the future and it's like the last few months ive begun to start #being able to see a future. im not just talking 'being able to see a future with him' (altho i perhaps can tho i try and stay away from #that for obvious reasons) im literally talking 'being able to see a future beyond the immediate next year or possibly the year after even. #like. /i have a future/ and ive never seen that before even when i was a child #i never expected to get to the 2020s and here wie are in 2022 #the boy #personal #catkin rambles