#a bit early still since ive only been doing it for a week ish but i think the main factor is keeping myself moisturized

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ngl ever since i started my skincare routine my skin been on some next level shit (ignoring that lil spot i had before i started skincare)

#that spot was huge before but its slowly going #a bit early still since ive only been doing it for a week ish but i think the main factor is keeping myself moisturized

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Teacher’s pet- Part 20

So I have about two more parts planned for this Ben Hardy series but I am going to be doing a follow-on series because I love this story and still feel I have more to write for it. I hope you will all like this part, feedback is always lovely to hear.

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Summary: (Y/n) teaches at the school Ben’s boys go to and they soon start a relationship. But they have their ups and downs with the problems Ben faces with his boys and how quickly the relationship progresses.

Enjoy.

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"I'm gonna go and see our baby girl now, they said I can finally hold her today."

Ben's fingers slowly and methodically carded through (Y/n)'s hair, moving the strands into waves and brushing them from her face as he talked quietly in a soft voice. He didn't know if (Y/n) could hear him or not, she was sedated but he knew that some people in comas could still hear voices around them so he hoped that even though (Y/n) was asleep, she could hear his voice.

He had spent most of the morning here with (Y/n), holding her hand, brushing his fingers over her skin to try and show her he was still here and talking to her in case she was listening. But now he had to go and see their daughter before he went home to the boys.

Every time he left (Y/n) here he felt guilty and in pain because something could happen when he left and he didn't want anything to happen when he wasn't here. And if felt awful to leave (Y/n) here on her own and he didn't like being apart from her, but he had to go and be with the boys until everything settled and he could bring (Y/n) home.

"I'll be back tomorrow, baby." He pressed his lips to the top of her head, tangling his fingers in her hair as he was desperate not to let her go.

It hurt that Ben couldn't wrap his arms around (Y/n) or kiss her or even talk to her. He wanted to take her home and have everything be as it should. Ben wanted (Y/n) in his arms, he wanted her and his daughter in his arms in a hug and he wanted the boys at home with them and for them to be the family they should be. He didn't want (Y/n) to be ill and in pain and their girl to be stuck in an incubator without her family surrounding her every hour of every day.

The moment Ben got out of the room he just wanted to turn back around and go lay with (Y/n) but he knew if he did that then he wouldn't leave.

"Ben, how is she today?"

He didn't get more than two feet away from (Y/n)'s room before his eyes suddenly locked on her mother heading towards him.

The first time Ben had met Alicia was worrying for him since he had met her only a month before he and (Y/n) found out they were going to have a baby. He had no idea how she would react to her daughter being in a relationship with someone who already had three children of his own, he knew it wasn't the best kind of image or the best situation her parents would want for her. But he had been more than surprised when her parents had taken to him straight away and Alicia was very welcoming to the boys, she was practically another grandmother to them already.

It crushed Ben more than anything when he had to ring (Y/n)'s parents and explain that (Y/n) had suddenly taken a turn for the worst after he had told them she was recovering well the night before.

And it was too hard for Ben to stay with (Y/n) when her parents came to visit her. They came every day like Ben did but he made sure they had time alone with (Y/n) or else he didn't know what to say, where to sit or how to act. All he wanted to do was sit beside (Y/n) and hold her hand and suddenly make her better but he didn't feel comfortable when her parents were in the room. He couldn't cry in front of them either.

Ben was engulfed in a rather comforting but still crushing hug the moment Alicia was in front of him.

(Y/n) always told Ben that he had charmed her mother almost like he had charmed (Y/n) herself. His smile won Alicia over and his nature and just generally how he was made Alicia accept him into their family straight away.

"They're keeping her sedated, she got too distressed when she was awake with the ventilator and she's still on a lot of antibiotics... but the doctor said her heart isn't affected, so that's good." Ben scratched at the short hairs at the back of his head before he rubbed his hands over his face, trying to wake himself up a bit more.

When (Y/n) had woken up early in the morning, they had to sedate her because it was distressing for her to try and move and realise that she couldn't breathe. Feeling a tube stuck down her throat was too much for her, especially when it made her focus on her lack of breathing and she couldn't communicate without panicking. It was kinder and safer to keep her in a sleeping state, at least until she started to recover.

But the sepsis was still attacking her system and her lungs weren't working on their own. The antibiotics were treating the infection (Y/n) had gotten after labour but they couldn't control the sepsis. The only good news they had right now was that (Y/n)'s heart was still strong and wasn't effected by sepsis because if that happened, her chances would be next to none.

"Well s-she needs the rest... how's the little one doing?"

It was clear that Alicia was about ready to burst into tears but she was doing her best to push the tears back and keep her voice under control. (Y/n) was her only child, she had no other kids so (Y/n) had been her world and Alicia didn't have much other family other than her husband and her sister. If she lost (Y/n) she wouldn't have anyone around her except for Ben and her granddaughter and the boys.

Alicia had been to see her granddaughter along with (Y/n)'s dad, Jeremy, they visited the baby every day they visited (Y/n).

"They're letting me hold her today, I just can't do the birth certificate yet... (Y/n)'s supposed to be picking her name."

Ben could feel a bad headache forming behind his eyes, causing him to rub ferociously at his eyes to try and relieve the feeling. Their girl was four days old now and by this time Ben usually got the birth certificate sorted but he couldn't do that when he didn't have a name for her. He and (Y/n) had three names but they never managed to decide on one before labour happened early. Ben picked the name for all three of his boys and he said he wanted (Y/n) to be the one to pick the name for their daughter but right now she couldn't so he wasn't getting the certificate done until (Y/n) was better.

"There's plenty of time for that. I'll visit her after I sit with (Y/n) for a while, and if you want to stay here with (Y/n) at any point, you just ring me and those three boys can stay with me. You know I think of them as my own."

Alicia rubbed her hand up and down Ben's arm as a silent look of appreciation filled his eyes before they parted ways. He couldn't carry on this conversation without wanting to cry and it was very clear to see, Alicia didn't want to push either of them too far. Ben knew and appreciated that she would look after the boys whenever she could because she thought of them as her own grandkids. But Ben had to be at home with them as well as being here with (Y/n) because the boys were starting to get worried and he couldn't have that.

It was only a short trip from (Y/n)'s room down to the neonatal unit where is girl was and it was a route Ben walked three or four times a day. Switching between seeing (Y/n) and their daughter before he went home and spent the night with the boys before coming back to the hospital as early as he could.

When Ben reached the room that held four other newborns as well as his daughter, he headed straight over to his little girl and where a nurse was doing her routine checks.

"Mr Jones, are you ready to hold baby today?"

Ben nodded his head, finding a smile already on his lips just at the thought of having her in his arms. The moment she had been born she was taken out of the room to be looked after and she'd had a tube down her nose to help her breathe since she inhaled some fluids. But now she just had an IV for some nutrients and a few monitoring clips and stickers to check her vitals.

Doctor Mills had checked up on her yesterday and said she just needed the incubator for another week to make sure her lungs were developed enough to work properly on their own. So Ben could take her home in just over a week.

At least one of his girls was okay.

Ben tried to stop his leg from jittering up and down when he sat down, anxiously waiting for that strange yet intoxicating feeling of holding his baby for the first time.

When he first got to hold Carter, Ben had never felt a wave of emotions like that before. He didn't want to put Carter down, he just wanted to sit and hold him for the rest of his life. Then when he had James it was the same emotions but more intensified, he had another life depending on him and another boy he could cherish and look after. Finn was the smallest of all his boys, he felt like a little baby doll in Ben's arms, the kind he remembered playing with as a kid. Finn was so small and delicate but he had been beautiful.

After Finn, Ben had been sure that he had all his kids. He didn't think he would want or even get the chance to have another child, especially not after things between him and Lucy evolved in the worst possible way.

But here he was now, about to hold his fourth child, his first daughter.

The moment she was placed into his arms, Ben felt a shiver running down his spine and tingling throughout his body. He thought Finn had been his smallest child but his daughter was here, proving him wrong. She was four pounds and three ounces which was definitely underweight considering the average baby was supposed to be around seven pounds.

But she was perfect.

She had a tiny button nose that didn't reflect Ben's bumpy, slightly crooked nose that both Cater and James had inherited from him. Her hands were tiny but formed behind the rose pink mittens stuck on her hands so she didn't scratch her face. Her body fit along the expanse of Ben's lower arm perfectly and the way she curled up in his arm made him grin. She tucked her face into his chest and it tickled when Ben felt her nose brushing against his skin through his shirt.

"Hey, girlie. We don't have a name for you yet, but I'll talk to your mummy about that soon. She's so desperate to come see you when she's better, and the boys are all in love with you already, even Finn says your so pretty. My first girl."

Ben slowly brushed his finger across her cheek, smiling at the way it made her head lean into his touch before it seemed to tickle her. When he brought the boys to see her yesterday, all of them had been in awe of their little sister. Carter looked like he wanted to pick her straight up and cuddle her, James had reached his hand out to take hold of hers. And when Ben picked Finn up so he could see her, the first thing he said was that she was very pretty and sweet even if she was very small. They all seemed to instantly take to the thought of a sister now that she was here with them.

All they needed now was for (Y/n) to get better so she could hold her daughter.

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"Buddy, come on it's past your bed time, you need to try and settle down you have school tomorrow." Ben tried his best to sound sympathetic and understanding but it was hard when he didn't have the patience or the effort left in his system.

It was half past ten, both James and Finn were fast asleep in their room and all Ben needed was for Carter to either settle down or for once, actually fall asleep. They all had school tomorrow and Ben needed to try and calm his own mind down because he had to take them to school then go to the hospital to see (Y/n) and their baby.

Ben had seen this coming. He had seen the state Carter was in after his mum dropped the boys back home, he was anxious and hyper and that was a big sign that he wouldn't settle tonight.

"No, I don't wanna." Carter shook his head with a defying look on his face before he planted himself down on the sofa.

His eyes followed Ben's movements in the same way they normally did when he tried to defy his dad. He didn't look anxious or irritated, he looked blank like he didn't know where he was or what he was doing. Carter watched what Ben did in case his dad was really riled up and to see what he could get away with doing. He watched Ben down the last bit of beer in the dark brown bottle in his hand before he got up and moved to put it in the kitchen.

But the moment Ben came back into the living room, he turned the tv off and looked at Carter expectantly. He knew well enough to know that Ben wouldn't let him sit up and watch tv all night when he had school in the morning. Even if Carter wouldn't be tired if he stayed up all night, it still wasn't good for him and would break his routine of trying to settle for the night.

"Carter, listen to me. I'm tired, okay? I'm knackered, I've been at the hospital every day for the last five days and then I'm coming home to be with you boys. I can't sleep either but I need you to keep your routine, I can't deal with you being unsettled from no routine."

If Carter didn't have a routine it unsettled him because routines helped to calm him down and give him structure. (Y/n) and the baby being away in hospital and Ben running between home and hospital definitely didn't give Carter routine or structure. So Ben had to keep that routine for Carter wherever he could and right now that was keeping him at school, bringing him home and keeping set times for getting up and going to bed.

"No, you just want to deal with mum and not let me see her. I miss her and I can't sleep, I wanna go see mum! I wanna see my mum!"

Carter stomped his foot down on the carpet as he stood to his feet, his height making him just below Ben's shoulder. Carter had trouble sleeping but he was normally fine with laying down and thinking until he fell asleep. But when he was anxious like this all he could think about was what was worrying him and that was (Y/n). He thought about her and how he hadn't seen her in over five days but Ben saw her everyday. He missed her and he was jealous and angered that he couldn't go and see her yet.

"Carter she's ill, I have to be there and make sure she's getting better you know that-"

"I wanna see my mum-"

"I wanna see her too!" The way Ben's voice rose and his words bellowed back at Carter made the eldest boy take a step back. He wasn't expecting Ben to shout at him and he certainly wasn't expecting him to say that.

Ben saw (Y/n) every day so far, he did see her whereas the boys didn't get to, Carter didn't understand what he meant by that.

"Every second I'm away from her I want to go back to her Carter because she's sick! I wanna see her wake up and look at me and talk to me and kiss me and just to hold her. But I can't because every fucking second I'm with your mum, she's asleep because she is so fucking ill she can hardly breathe. I miss her even when I'm sat next to her because it doesn't feel like she's there, do you get that? If I take you to see her you'll get upset and when I go see her I cry so no, you can't go see her and I'm fucking sick of all this shit."

The tears that fell from Ben's swollen, red eyes made Carter start to cry silently because he never saw Ben cry. It was something that hardly ever happened and it showed him just how poorly (Y/n) was and how badly it was hurting Ben.

"I want your mum home with us and I want your sister here too, she's at the hospital all alone until I can go hold her. She's my daughter and I can't look after her like I did when I had you boys and it kills me." Ben's tone softened like slowly melting butter and his voice was quieter when he realised he had scared Carter which he never meant to do.

His daughter was all alone in the hospital without her family and even though she wouldn't understand what family was, Ben knew she would have that maternal and paternal instinct and know who he and (Y/n) were. When Ben had the boys they were all home within two or three days and he was looking after them. But with his one and only girl, she was at the hospital without her family and that cut Ben up into pieces.

"I miss mum."

Those three words were the only ones Carter could think of and could manage to say. And the moment they registered in Ben's ears, he went down on his knees in front of Carter and engulfed him in his arms. It didn't and would never matter to Ben how old any of his children were, he would always want to pick them up in his arms and cuddle them like they were all still toddlers.

He picked Carter up and stood to his feet until the eleven-year-old wrapped his legs around Ben's hips and tucked his head into Ben's neck, breathing in his scent which started to calm him down.

Ben kissed the side of Carter's head, moving one of his hands so he could slowly smooth his fingers over the hair at the back of Carter's head. No words were spoken between the pair as Ben silently headed out of the living room and made his way upstairs to his room. If Carter wasn't going to sleep and Ben didn't think he was either, the best option was for them to stay together and try to settle and calm down. They both needed comforting right now.

Carter stayed clinging to Ben like a monkey even when Ben laid down on the bed with his upper body leaning up against the cushioned headboard. Carter put a bit of strain and weight onto Ben's chest as he laid on his front but it didn't bother Ben, he just wanted to hug his son.

"I... I heard the new teacher talking about mum today." Carter kept his face buried in Ben's neck as he spoke but he was clearly calmer when Ben continued to run his hand through his hair.

"Yeah, what did they say?"

"She told the class that mum had her baby but is poorly so she won't be at work for a few months."

"No, buddy she won't be at work for a few months because when a person has a baby, they get time off to be with their baby. If your mum wasn't sick she still would have time off, she has to look after your sister. She's just in the hospital still because she's poorly."

Carter clearly worried that (Y/n) was going to be in the hospital for months with what he had heard the supply teacher say but that wasn't going to be the case.

"Mum is gonna get better... isn't she?"

"Yes she is, I promise."

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Atlas (8)

Summary: After years of being imprisoned on the Raft, Tony negotiates freedom for his sister Tessa. When she’s free- so is her past, and it will never stop hunting her.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x OC(Stark)

Chapter Word count: 1810

Warnings: PTSD (subtle ish), trauma, torture (in later parts), suicidal behaviors and thoughts, mentions of death, character death, injury, violence, angst, and a lil bit of fluff in there

Disclaimer: Atlas is my own, original work with characters belonging to Marvel (except Tessa and Dr. Clifton). Plagiarism is not cool kids.

A/N: this is my first work I'm posting to this platform and I’m really excited and nervous about it. Hope you enjoy- constructive criticism is always helpful as well!!

She couldn’t breathe. There was a pressure building on her left side, an itch she couldn’t scratch. Her eyes were dry, like her mouth. Tessa peeled her eyelids open, having been cemented shut, it took tremendous effort- effort she barely possessed. She couldn’t hear straight, it sounded like she was underwater. A muted beep from a monitor. Rain pelting the windows of the white washed clinical room. Something tickling her forearm. She looked down. Tony.

He was grasping her hand, resting his head beside them, hair tickling her skin. She then moved her eyes to her side where a tube was running from a patch of white bandages. Along her right arm, bandages were wrapped around raw flesh. She could still see the burn marks on her wrists. In her left arm, an IV filtered blood and fluids into her system, repairing what had been damaged. She groaned as she rested her head on the pillow.

She wasn’t supposed to make it out of there. None of this had gone according to her plan. Tessa wasn’t stupid. She knew Clifton would be on her as soon as she stepped foot out of her cage on the Raft. She knew she would have to make a choice, a choice of repentance. So, when she noticed the trap he’d set for them, she couldn’t help but take the bait. Part of her wanted to flip the script and take revenge on him. But then... then Bucky happened. He’d been so kind to her- accepting her. She felt that she owed him a truth- even if it was in the form of a dead man’s ramblings. And so she did just that- confided in him, knowing that one way or another, she was never going to come back. He wasn’t supposed to be collateral damage.

Tony shifted, his head turning further away from her. She bit her lip, sinking down deeper into the sheets.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Y’know, if you cooperated with the professionals, things would go a lot smoother.” Tony snipped at her. Tessa scowled deeper, turning her head to the side. It had been a week since the mission, since everything about Tessa had been made public amongst the team. Since Tony had released the files to the whole team, Tessa had been ignoring him every time he visited her. She was angry- the emotion palpable in the air. She had even begun to be irritable with the nurses and her doctor. Of course, they associated it with her being on bed rest for a week- knowing it would get worse because she was meant to stay there for a whole month.

She refused to allow any of the team members entrance to her room- even Bucky. Tony was only allowed in because he told Friday to over ride her command. News of her slow response to treatment had to come from the nurses or the small bits that Tony would share- which was always begrudgingly. Her therapist and parole officer were also allowed in for their visits. There had been talk of moving her back to the Raft, but Tony had shot it down, explaining in colorful detail how she hadn’t done anything wrong. Ever.

But Tessa was becoming restless. She could no longer stand the sight of the hospital room. When she was trapped within the four walls, she could only think about the botched missions and what Clifton said. She was trapped. So, she decided to take things into her own hands. Painstakingly slow, she got up from her bed, a tube no longer in her lung but it was still stitched up and painful. Most of her wounds were well on their way to healing but her mind was still fragile.

Tessa had been immediately changed into a pair of sweatpants and a t shirt as soon as she regained consciousness. So she simply unhooked her heart monitor, taking her IV of fluids with her to the door.

She hadn’t realized Bucky had done nothing but sit outside her medical room for the past week, waiting to be able to slip into the room to talk to her. Tony had been guarding her, keeping him away. Unlike his sister, Tony held a grudge. So when Tessa’s door opened and she stepped out, he was surprised. She looked like she hadn’t slept since she came back- undoubtedly plagued by nightmares. Her skin was pale, under eyes dark. When her eyes landed on his, she stiffened, her whole body freezing. They stared for a long moment, neither of them giving in.

“If you’re breaking out of your room, you’ll need to move a little faster.” Bucky quipped, a teasing tone overtaking the concern. Tessa started to take off, her gait a small, shuffle toward the elevator. Bucky stood up, stretching his arms out before sidling up beside her.

“What do you want?” She muttered, slightly annoyed and embarrassed by his presence. She almost stumbled, her left foot catching on her right. She cursed lowly, while Bucky simply hooked an arm around her waist, steadying her. She tried to push away but Bucky had an iron grip, keeping her where he wanted. He was done waiting around. He was going to talk to her whether she wanted to or not. She was going to listen to what he had to say.

“Well if you’re going for a little sight seeing- might I suggest the floor ninety? It’s got a lovely view and- bonus: less of an elevator ride.” Bucky steered her into the elevator and locked her down, his hand drawing smooth circles on her hip.

“Isn’t that your floor?” She grumbled, leaning against him to relieve some of the weight on her feet. He hummed in response and looked down at her. She was scowling, eyes glued to the floor.

“See, I’ve been waiting outside that room for a week now. I’ve had time to think about everything that was said while we were in captivity. Don’t think I’m an idiot, by the way.” Bucky watched her begin to shut down at the mentions of the cell. The mentions of her admitted transgressions. “I’ve been where you are, where you’ve been.” Tessa scoffed as the elevator dinged open.

“You don’t know me.” She bit back, eager to be out of his hold, out of his sight. She couldn’t hold herself together around him anymore. Telling him everything- trusting him with that information... she didn’t want to see him now, not when he could judge her for it. Because all she wanted from him was to be accepted. Not pitied, not scorned, not disgusted. Loved. She didn’t know what the two kisses were on that battlefield, she didn’t know what any of it meant.

“Don’t I?” He asked, opening the apartment door. The pair quickly pushed through the living room, bypassing Steve who was sat on the couch, watching the news. He had heard the door open, figuring it was Bucky so he didn’t turn. Until he heard the roll of wheels.

“Is that Tessa?” He called, watching the receding backs of the two. His brows furrowed as Bucky’s bedroom door slammed shut, cutting the pair off from the rest of the world.

“Oh, well please, enlighten me on how you know every thought I’ve ever had.” Tessa sat down on his bed, the white cotton sheets felt much better than the stiff medbay fabrics she had been confined to.

“Alright, fine,” Bucky began shuffling around his room, seemingly in search of something. “You shut yourself off from everyone, you think it keeps us safe but really, it’s just a way of excusing your pity party and prolonging suffering you feel you deserve. You keep everything to yourself, no matter how much it pains you to do that. You don’t sleep well, nightmares keeping you up. You don’t eat much- if you do it’s at random times at night, where you don’t have to interact with us. You let one person in and immediately shut them out because you felt that you could hurt them before even giving it a chance.” Bucky stopped his search, turning to look at her over his shoulder. “Am I par for the course?”

“Shut the hell up.” She growled, gently laying back on his neatly made bed. “So what if i don’t want to hurt you- why is that a bad thing? I want to keep you all safe. What’s the harm in that- what the fuck are you looking for?”

“Got it...” Bucky stood straight again before walking to her. He knelt down on the bed beside her. “It isn’t a bad thing- it’s just that you’re going about it in a destructive way. You can keep us safe and live too. The way you’re going now, that’s not living. You’re just floating from day to day. Here. They found 'em last week and sent them to me. I’ve been waiting to give them to you.” He held a hand out, intending to drop the object into her palm. Tessa sighed and held it out flat. A cool metal grazed her palm and she broke her gaze off from his to look at it. Dog tags. She held them in front of her face to read them more clearly. They were slightly rusted, but the name was still clear: James Buchanan Barnes. “I’m not judging you for a mistake made six years ago. A mistake that was made with the best intentions in mind. With the best resources you had at the time. The Tessa I want to know is still in there- I’ve seen her during those late night talks in the light of the fridge. I’ve heard her when you talked about growing up with Tony or your early days in the military. And I’m gonna do everything I can to make her happy, because she’s gone through enough.”

Tessa swallowed, feeling the beginning of tears pricking at her eyes. She was speechless- her own mind waging war on itself.

“You know just what to say to make a girl blush, huh?” She sniffled, trying to laugh through it. Bucky grinned and took the tags, slipping them over her head, pressing a kiss to her forehead.

“Stay here for the night, please? I know that you shouldn’t really be out of the med bay yet but... I want to talk to you- I want to be around you. Please?” Bucky asked, his bottom lip pouting slightly and his blue eyes shining with hope. Tessa pretended to think it over, pressing her hand to the dog tags that occupied her chest.

“Okay. I’ll stay here. Only for tonight- and no funny business, Barnes.” She winced, sitting up. Bucky was quick to press a hand to her back, helping her sit. He gave a grin that would make the Cheshire Cat bashful.

“No promises, sweetheart.”

[bucky-iss-bae]

Reminiscences - Peter Hale x OFC (Part 2)

Hello againnnn - so I’m finally back, finally going to be active. 

My life has been a mess, I’ve not been motivated, and mentally I’ve gone through a lot the last 10 months, got thorugh University, Graduated, got a job, was a shit job, got another grad job during quarentine, and it’s been good and bad... 

Sorry for never posting and being bad at this, but I want to bounce back, so now its timmmeee. Also this Fic is actually completed. 

Want to post more, and just give you guys good content xoxo 

Fandom: Teen Wolf

Pairing: Peter Hale x OFC (Calla)

Word Count: 2900 (Sorryyy, idk why it’s so long) 

Warnings: None - Slow Start I guess

Summary: Calla has grown up as Derek’s best friend, she’s known the Hales her whole life,she’s known their secrets and everything in Beacon Hills. Things in Beacon Hills are quiet, the pack are a family, and Calla realises that Peter knows more of her secrets than she realises.

A/N: Hope you all enjoy, any feedback is welcome x

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Peter Hale x OFC - Reminiscenes Part 1 

Part 2 

The days following that evening I completely ignored Peter. I saw him whenever he was lurking around Derek’s, I even went to the efforts of walking the complete opposite direction as him when I went grocery shopping. But if he remembers, everything every single thing I told him. Then I may as well die now. Especially since he’ll use that against me. This is Peter we’re on about.

“So you’ve apparently been ignoring Peter?” Derek asked once he settled onto my couch on Thursday.

I rolled my eyes, “And. There’s nothing wrong with that, he’s a psycho”

Derek huffed out a laugh, “There is when it makes him mopey. He comes around to mine in hope that you’re there you know”  

“Well, maybe he should stop trying to be such a stalker” I told his nephew. It was weird that there was such a large but short age difference between Peter and us. He wasn’t ever seen as the adult when we were younger, he had a boyish smirk, he had charm, and wit, and was so different compared to how he is now. He completely changed because of the fire, and the 5 years of solitude almost. He grew up, yet I didn’t see this change despite being the only person visiting him. I didn’t know he was the alpha yet I made a fool out of myself by being there for him, and he couldn’t even trust me.

“You sure it’s that?” Derek asked.

“Derek. If you’re here to talk about Peter then you can just leave. Actually no you can’t you don’t have an option, stop talking about Peter, tonight is about us. If you want I’ll send him a text saying hi later and then ignore him”

Derek shook his head a small smirk on his face. I felt a bit bad that I was taking Derek away from his boyfriend. But I needed my best friend sometimes as well.

“Good, now how are things with Stiles going?”

Derek huffed out a laugh, “They’re going well. Really well actually, never really thought that I would end up with him, but it’s the best thing that’s happened to me in a long time. And I sound like a soppy teenager. So let’s talk about your love life”

I snorted, “Right, what love life? Actually, I went on a date last week, it was a complete failure. I’m just glad that the girls who set me up with him don’t work in the same department as him”  

Derek started to laugh, “How comes I didn’t know about this?”

“Because I didn’t tell anyone. I didn’t even... it wasn’t even a big deal for me. I wasn’t excited, I just wanted to get it over and done with, and the worst thing is when I was getting into my car at the end of the night he tried to kiss me. And Derek I still cringe, what happened was I turned my head so fast he kissed my hair. Completely missed the cheek”

This caused Derek to laugh, loudly, at me. “Wow Calla. Who would’ve thought huh?” He asked.

I rolled my eyes at him, “Shut up. It was a mess, so I rather not talk about that. Instead, I’m going to set up a tinder profile.”

Derek still had this amused smirk on his face, it was nice seeing him like this. For the first time in years, he was happy. His life was on track, sure there were constant threats to the town, but that happens, that’s part of the job description of being a werewolf, and with Derek being a complete shifter, it makes a difference.

But being with Stiles makes a difference, you can literally see the way that he looks at him, and I haven’t seen him this happy in a long time. He’s almost that young cocky guy he once was, but a more matured version who has a history to him. Who has so much more to himself than ever before, and I’m proud of him. Proud of everything he’s gone through and defeated. I know his mom, and sister would also be proud of him, whether he’s an alpha or not, he’s still so powerful, and has such a good heart.

“Let’s get started then” He grinned at me.

I rolled my eyes and rather than Pizza we ordered Chinese food, and rather than watching a film we created a tinder profile for me. It was terrible, Derek called in the big guns and Stiles was on Face time with us, which made it even worse for me. But I didn’t mind, I love stiles, and boy let me tell you he added spice to my basic profile. And obviously gave my pictures a yes or no.

“I’ve helped you guys this far, let me help with the swiping” Stiles said through the phone.

I scoffed at him, “Derek say bye to your man he’s helped enough”

Derek shook his head with a small smile on his face, “You heard the boss” He said to him.

“All that help, you better show me your matches or who you’ve spoken to over the next few days Calla. I’ll know if you don’t”

I laughed at him and Derek soon hung up, “Come on, let’s see who’s around then”

Both Derek and I started swipping through these guys, commenting to each other, and swiping left or right. Mainly left. Let’s be honest. Most of these guys either looked like guys who were balding too early in life, or others who were after a quick fuck. Despite everything I did manage to swipe right a few times.

“Please let’s stop now. Like, if you think I’m going actually going to find anyone through tinder its... not likely. It’s just a bit of fun, could lead to a quick lay”

“The same way Stiles and I getting together wasn’t likely”

I grinned at him “I should’ve called it. When you constantly wanted to get mad at him, way back when, and you just couldn’t. But that itself feels like years ago”

“Yeah, the same way my uncle spared your life?” Derek said back.

I glared at him and hit his arm, “I hate you, and I’m pretty sure your uncle is a sociopath”

“Yeah. Same but, let’s be real here. He has a soft spot for you Calla”

“Derek, I will stab you if you don’t shut up.”

“I would love to see you try”

I narrowed my eyes at him, “I will call Argent right now and get him to help me out”

He laughed, “Alright, I’ll shut up now. I’m sorry”

I nodded, “You better be sorry... Also why do you keep bringing up your uncle of all people to me?” I asked curiously.

Derek knows nothing of what I done whilst he was away, he knows nothing of the feelings I once harboured for Peter, maybe I still do which is why I’m so defensive, but no one needs to know this. But still, there’s got to be a reason behind Derek’s madness right now. Maybe Peter wormed his way into his head? It’s a possibility.

“You just said you wanted me to shut up”

I shrugged, “Just curious. Then you can shut up, and we can watch something”

He shook his head, “The way he acts around you I guess. He’s a prick towards everyone, including you don’t get me wrong, but he’s a different type of prick round you. And he cares about you, he gets protective, worries, cares”

I would be lying if I said that didn’t affect me, but it does. Although it means nothing.

“Derek, are you forgetting that I was basically raised around him. Wherever you were, he was, or the other way around. Like he’s been a constant figure in my life for a very long time. Sure he wasn’t mobile for a few of those years. But he was still in Beacon Hills. So maybe that’s why, maybe he has something that slightly resembles feelings from when he’s younger and he sees me as the kid that he used to teach basketball to, and just putting this out there I am amazing at basketball, which has got to be the meaning behind this madness, and this is because of him, and maybe a little you, but still”

“Really? We live in this town, and that’s what you call madness?” He asked.

“Yes Derek. That is madness, you’re forgetting I’m just a human girl who only just knows how to defend herself and I rather have that as my type of madness instead of anything else”

“How have you actually been?” He asked me giving me a serious look, “Like... you’ve literally been thrown into this world again, months after your parents passed away, and sure that was a couple of years ago, but you rarely see your younger brother because he’s working abroad, and the only other family you have is us. But most weekends we’re off fighting something supernatural, and you’re just at the loft, waiting.”

I shrugged, “I’m fine Derek. I’m happy... sure I miss my parents a lot and that set me back a lot. That made me want to constantly curl up into a ball and just cry. But having you back, having this normal-ish again. These last few months, I’ve gotten better. Ive also got my girls” I said with a smile, but he looked at me, waiting for me to elaborate causing me to sigh and twist my body completely towards him,

“Derek, I’m working an amazing Job, sure it doesn’t pay the best but I don’t need the money. I have money, instead I’m doing something I enjoy, and they’re easy shifts. I’ve always wanted to be an elementary teacher, but without the stress so a teaching assistant is the best thing. And I have Fridays off, and I do talk to my brother. Just not as often as I want because he’s doing so well for himself in London. And I have you Derek, I have my life long best friend. After everything we’ve been through we’re both here and we’re both happy. Sure my life could be further along than it currently is, but I’m finally in a good place”

He nodded at me, “Good” He whispered, “I’m happy to hear that”

“I hate you” I said shaking my head, but in reality he knows that I love him and he is my absolute best friend no matter how much I want to kill him.  

**

Apparently Lydia and Malia found it amusing that I now have an online dating profile. Everyone did, all aside from one person. That person I’m still avoiding but he still finds a way to worm his way into my life, especially since I’m currently sat with the girls, who are judging each and every guy whose photo I scroll through, and his face pops up.

Malia was laughing, seeing her father’s face on my phone, and Lydia finding it as amusing made me realise I need more friends other than Derek my age. Especially since Lydia decided on swiping right.

“Well, well, it’s a match” Lydia laughed, “But it makes me think, whats the maximum age you’re hitting here”

I rolled my eyes with a small scoff, trying to keep my heartbeat in place, “Well, if I wanted to talk to him. I would, yet I’m not, and you just swiped for me, that’s not fair, and guy my age are… I don’t know” I said to them.

“Well he clearly wants to talk to you” Lydia murmured.

I scoffed, “He wants to get under my skin. It’s what he does. Anyway don’t you girls have I don’t know other stuff to do?” I asked trying to change the subject.

“Nope, completely free tonight.” Lydia grinned.

I internally groaned but only seconds later was I literally saved by the bell, my phone started to ring, and Derek’s name popped up.

“Hello” I answered.

“Where are you?” He asked.

“I’m at Lydia’s place. With Lydia and Malia. Why?”

“No reason. Just, a few threats about, tell me when you’re going to leave to get home, and message me when you get there alright”

I rolled my eyes but had a small smile on my face, “Yes of course Derek. Do you know who or what it is?”

“Not sure yet. Probably isn’t something too dangerous. But whatever it is, they’re drawing other hunters to town. And now we have twice as much to look out for.”

“Stay safe then Derek. Does Chris know the hunters?”

“He’s looking into it”

I nodded, “Alright then. Just make sure you’re all safe and everything ok”

“Yeah always. Remember to message me when you get home” He then hung up and I looked at Lydia,

“What’s happened?” She asked me,

“Something else is out there, along with some hunters. And now I’m worried that these hunters will obviously know about our boys, and one thing will lead to another and someone might get hurt”

She had a worried expression on her face before looking at Malia who was on the phone to Scott, “We’ll figure it out. We always do”

I nodded, although I didn’t get involved as much considering I’m human with no special ability at all, and no badge, and well I’m not the smartest of the bunch. I just make sure everyone’s safe and worry about them all whilst making sure they eat and do their homework. That’s obviously the teacher side of me coming out there, no matter what ages I teach even if I am only a teaching assistant who works 4 days a week.  

“So Scott just said that Stiles and Chris are trying to find out who the hunters actually are, and that he Derek and Peter are going to find whatever’s out there. He told me to stay here...”

“You’re not are you?” Lydia asked.

Malia smirked and shook her head, “Nope. And I’m pretty sure you two won’t either, so who’s going to drop me off at Scott’s house?”

Both Lydia and I looked at each other before sighing and getting up, we got our stuff together, she called out to her mom telling her that we were going to Scott’s before we all left.

**

“What are you all doing here?” Scott asked once we walked in.

“You think we’re really going to let all the boys have the fun?” Malia asked her boyfriend, “And come on, I know those woods better than anything” She shrugged.

No one could deny that, both her and Chris were the best hunters here. As in being able to physically find something with the given clues.

“And I’m here to assist Stiles and Chris apparently” Lydia shrugged, everyone easily let that pass before all eyes were on me.

“I thought I told you to go home. It’s dangerous”

I shrugged, “I know. I really didn’t have any other choice” I said nodding my head towards Malia.

“Well you should just go home then. You’ll just be in the way otherwise” Peter snapped at me.

I rose my eyebrows at him, silently cursing Lydia for swiping right on his stupid face.

“I might just stay, make sure you don’t snake anyone out” I spat back to him.

“What and you think you’ll be able to stop me?”

“Peter won’t do anything, we’re not even sure what the problem is at the moment. So just go home Calla” Derek told me.

I felt a bit taken back at how blunt and rude he was at that, and considering no one decided on saying anything, I just grabbed my bag and left without a word. Because hey there’s nothing new there, being treated like I’m nothing despite seeing everyone as family. I would’ve expected a bit more considering they’ve got literal kids in there helping yet I can’t. Even if it is to make sure they’re all safe and not making stupid plans. I was there when Talia was alpha, I know how things work. Instead I just get embarrassed surrounded by my friends, and left to feel worthless because I’m of no help.

As soon as I got in my car, I knew that all I needed right now was a glass of wine, and some trash TV.

Which is exactly what I done when I got home, wine, some trash TV, and the comfort of my own apartment. And as petty as I may sound, I just hate feeling this way, and knowing that it’s something that constantly happens, I don’t see why I get involved in the first place. It’s the same old thing, I try and be there for everyone, they shut me out whenever shit goes down and I just keep running back. But no this isn’t going to keep happening because this week I will make the time and effort to go out with my girlfriends. I’ll dress up and have fun without worrying about anything else. Derek won’t be there to stop me, Peter won’t be there with his snarky remarks, and I won’t be surrounded by teenagers.

Which is exactly why I messaged my friends that I’m always talking to yet never have the time to see because I’m constantly with everyone else. We spoke for a little while before I asked when everyone was free for drinks, and guess what this girl is doing on Thursday after work. A night out, with my girls, and I can’t wait.  

Because I really felt in the mood to treat myself, I also planned on going shopping with one of the girls tomorrow after work. So no harm done there, I’ll buy myself a new outfit, some new makeup all ready for Thursday.

Peter Hale x OFC - Reminiscences Part 3 

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[shytiff]

Apr 2021 Wins

Started typing this on 4th apr lmaooo

1 - went to mcd. bought chicken + rice with the app promo. there’s a staff helping me on the order machine lol i feel badd there’s no need to do thatt. ate my lunchmade by mom at mcd’s muschola and went to sbux bcs its tumbler day. green tea latte w skim milk as usual. sent dr triya’s translation. ecmocard. started rereading goong (AGAIN. i probably have read it like 3 times minimum). still bring some feels

2 - its holiday today. spent almost the whole daylight rereading goong (turns out its pronounce ‘gung’ not ‘gong’ lol ive been wrong all this time) and finished it. the scene where they stare at each other, separated by the castle door, always gets me. got the old ipad charged (the screen are like 30% close to detaching and falling apart) and started AOT

3 - spent the whole day reading AOT. i like it when i have mini purposes in life (eg: finishing a manga series). AOT rly talks a lot about what do you want to do in life, the consequences of your choices and how you have to live with it. i felt triggered in a good way. the characters dont rly judge other’s choices, but they question them. discuss about it. give you some moral push. second gladi today. my vbg was still filpped hhhh. read aot until i felt sleepy and fell asleep. woke up very near subuh and prayed isya. my toxic trait is the horrible self care (and im talking bare minimum lol hehe lmao)

4 - finished aot. Asked irun about some aot explanations and she sent 5 paragraphs in one bubble. Slept. Flavola, kopsus coklat and somay. Also ate japota honey butter. Did 1 long input of ecmocard. Followed baepsae choreo. Moved my body a bit. Wow im not immediately sleeping. Amazing

5 - arrived at harkit 11-ish and went back about 1pm loll. super hungry when im arriving in kalideres. bought tahu colek worth 3000 (i wonder how the seller hears me through my 2 layers of mask), roti sisir and some ice cream in alfamidi. my fitlife protein powder ran out again. its my 2nd already. did some ecmocard, wasted my time after maghrib

6 - woke up late. did not have the mental strength to go to harkit so i decided to just stay home. bought sbux 1L green tea and macchiato. wasted the daylight and finally did some ecmocard in the evening,,,,

7 - off to harkit 7.30-ish pm in the rain. Took some data for ecmocard. Went to salemba to get tabung and surat bebas pustaka. Had breakfast slash lunch first, tried guudfuud (red rice, beef and omega egg). I like that the rice was not too much. Met up w ness ren and talked about isip dilemmas at sky. Afterwards went to flavola. Ordered mie rebus and roasted milk tea cause i somehow feel sooo hungry and in need of calories. It tasted so good, i was sitting in my usual seat facing the window, and the sky was a mixture of blue and grey. Brought croissant and sakura pocky at indomart. Ate the bread immediately after indomie. Went back home. Juan brought tahu gejrot that was delicious and crunchy. Internship files briefing by akis. Fell asleep

8 - woke up. Saw that dr retha was up for interview. Panicked. Thankfully it was at 12. I left home at 9:40 ish and arrived 11:50. Its a long ass way. Turns out i was interviewed with ka agassi. The doctors are so kind. They explained the gist of anesthesiology profession, and how its a choice you make, and its okay as long as you like what you do. Tried halo bowl for lunch. Sous vide chicken, rice, caesar sauce, beef bacon, and the deliciouss butter broccoli. Went back to kalideres and to starbucks. I only spent <2 hrs in there (a waste of money, i know). Bought decaf hazelnut latte (apparently the beans were kenyan something? Medium?) and butter croissant (need to cushion my stomach). Did GCP certification and sent it to the ever so kind mba Ai. Still got energy from the caffeine, did some ecmocard, read quran, read.... Toji fanfic 🤦‍♀️

9 - went to rsf w mom. We took the wrong way and had to take the long way but thank god theres still time to spare. Met dr rara. Some briefing. Went to rscm w agassi, submitted files for ijazah, went back to RSF. Girlll the cost of transport. MRT: 12K. Grab: 16-17k. Thats one way trip. Bought food at rsf canteen. Eocru briefing by the research coordinator. Ward tour w dr retha. Snacked on ovaltine provided by mba ai. Went home after maghrib by tj. Liqo along the way. Glad bersih (came late). Drank macchiato for some strength but still fell asleep quickly.i shouldnt have laid down

10 - kebakaran jenggot in the morning due to green screen positioning. Finally got the appropriate setup (after many fabric tries and cutting my mukena) at 08:30. Finished showering 08:45. Zoom was opened at 9 lmao. Somehow finished before 09:30. Zoompah w mom and dad along side me. After its ovee, some "photoshoot" w fam. At this point i was truly rly sleepy. Took of my makeup. Changed my clothes. And then racil silv dev showed up lol. I got gifts c: and then atikah came. And then i redid my makeup, this time with the help of friends to create fantastic eye make up look (which i can never pull off). Eyebrows by sil, eyeshadow and liner by cheldev lol. Took some photos. Dajen came. Talked. Videocalled w pupuy. A surprise gift from fianti came. And then chel dajen went back at 8. Still cant sleep. Slept at like 11-12

11 - lazed. Woke up, ate pizza (mom bought 2 of phd's 1m pizza) and bakwan, slept again. Matcha latte and ecmocard. Watched a bit of 2nd sinau

12 - off to rsf at 06:20. Arrived 07:15 ish. Lunch was ayam penyet accompanied by snacks that mba ai bought. Off to harkit at 14:05 (bcs my laptop somehow shut down and i lost all the unsubmitted data). And then off to kalideres at 15:30 ish to meet up w clara and search for clothes for almira's wedding. Went to lippo bcs clar saw this dress that kinda looks like the brokat given. We ate at ramen ya. It doesnt rly make you feel full, the filliny sensation was kinda like indomie. Saw that the dress looked different. Ate 1 boba pancake together at banban. Continued on to the tailor in kebon jeruk. The location was in an alley, and it was raining lol. Quoting clara: "the unnecessary struggles". The tailor was quite helpful (and she looks experienced). Arrived at clara's at 8 ish. Picked up by mom with car (it was raining) and arrived at abt 9. Hurriedly showered and tarawih and tidied up AND ITS ONLY 09:45. Its crazy how efficient one use time (and at the same time, how wasteful one can be)

13 - first day of fasting. The morning was spent taking samples. I stupidly took a sample thats not yet labeled im sorry :(((( i felt kinda tired and wanted to give up this. Give up anesthesia. Went back home at 14:00 and its cloudy. The bus was the nicer types and it was COLD. Read quran along the way. Picked up by juan. Opened laptop. And then its iftar time. I was sooo sleey and the tarawih was so long thst i closed my eyes along the way. Fianti called after tarawih, we talked til abt 21:30. And then i fell asleep

14 - went to rscm. Submitted serkom files. Met dr dyah and i hope we could somehow meet her again if we study in fkui again aamiin. Went to rsf by mrt. Arrived in lebak bulus just before it was raining. The bus took a while to arrive (usually theyre there, waiting). Its still raining like crazy so i took grabcar to AR from pesakih (39k). Played with my phone til iftar. Played phone again after tarawih and fell asleep

15 - i felt rlyy lazy and cant bring myself to wake up. Off to rsf at 07:15. There were coordinator ppl. Took sample. It was raining when i went back but i took grabbike from kalideres. Wasted my time and did not do ecmocard

16 - sampling. Snacked on keripik pisang at the room. Went back early at 13:15 ish. Picked up by juan. Sleeeept (and this is before the nightmareish mistake began)

17 - i did a mistake by telling dr retha (who took the sample today) the wrong patient (it switched in my unreliable memory. I feel terrible. Thank god shes quite chill abt it (?). Read jujutsu kaiseeen. Went to flavola. Did 1 ecmocard. Went to bandar jakarta baywalk by motorbike. Spent 135k and was quite full with many varieties. Arrived home at about 20:50. Turns out juan also had bukber with his friends. Phone call with fiiii, talked abt dimrob

18 - lazed all day, read jjk, finished my part of ecmocard (gave genky to ekal cause i was a dumbass at getting data). Ate mom's mentai rice, siomay. Drank green tea latte. Read jjk til 145 (mentok) at night. Proceeds to consume all things jjk lmaoo

19 - we took sooo long to get samples. Finished at 13:00. Went to rm with dr rara. Went back home. Watched the third sinau. Read the IMMACULATE jjk fics by celestialmechanics im IN LOVEEEE with the way s/he writes ughhhh

20 - samples took faster than usual. Mba ai did not came today. Went to RM and did some work there. Off to AR by 15:00. Arrived close to maghrib. Did not do any work afterwards lmao. Did not even wash my face

21 - magang as usual. Note to self: sit on the right side of the bus. Did nothing yesterday. Felt like shit after tarawih (but i showered before maghrib!!)

22 - todays problem was the swab sample not being there even though the staff allegedly already took it. Huft. Took a shower and out on vitacid (i cant remember the kast time i put on vitacid 😳 its probably been... a week or two?

23 - samples finished quite quickly. Already going home at 12. Lazedddd and lazed and lazed. Waited for emir to pick me up so i went to dm. Read an immaculate itadori x megumi fix thats just full of feels. Started demon slayer lets see

24 - literally just laid in bed reading manga and seeing tiktok and slept again and suddenly its 1 am. Showered. Still in a lazy mode. Havent begun clires work. Watched leah's vlog that said "go do things youve been putting off!". Finally finished the third and last video of Sinau Yuk ICU class with dr. Zeta, SpAn lolll even though the actual last class was on 7th apr. iftar was fish and chips and salad yuum

25 - woke up at like 1am since i slept too much yesterday. Ate tan ek tjoan bread and drank sbux matcha latte. Did some intern work. Read a bit of quran. Sahur. Cant even sleep again so i showered. Off with mom and dad (09:30) since dad’s going to get vaccinated at skk migas. Mom drove me to ara’s place (11:00). Talked a bit and even read quran again there. Off to GI (13:00) to meet up w regen. Walked around. Bought a discounted TBS green tea facial wash. Went back home by TJ (16:00). the bus station is a bit closer now. Arrived home close to maghrib (17:30). hurriedly showered and went to sleep (properly) after tarawih. A good good sleep since i got 9400 steps today and that tired me out lmaooo (bare minimum yall, i know). 

26 - woke up still sleepy. Slept again after iftar and woke up at 07:30. Skipped shower and off to RSF lmao. Went to medical record. Walked to the front of RSF originally planning to go to lebak bulus by angkot but i saw none. So i went through mrt instead. Stopped by at kebon jeruk and walked 800 meter (that tireeed me and made me feel parched under the sun) to risma busana for clothes fitting. Took gojek to jembatan gantung (turns out the closer halte to flyover was taman kota). Iftar was chicken noodle and risol and banana and i felt fullll and i slept

27 - today is off day since im alternating with agassi. read quran. watched shadow and bone (with 1,5x speed except for kanej and matthias nina scenes). didnt rly do any magang work except the table asked by dr retha. i feel like usually im operating on 70%. sleeping more doesnt rly add that. i need caffeine or physical activity. before i know it, its close to iftar.

28 - i ((felt)) like i had a decent amount of energy today. shouldve done some work between sahur and leaving the house but i ended up reading vampire knight lmaoooo the scenes had no business bringing so much butterflies. sampling together w agassi. mba ai didnt come in today. after agassi left did some magang work. i also went to RM to ask for more RM to bu dian. took angkot to lebak bulus for the first time. paid 5k. i had no idea which angkot went to lebak bulus and the driver (somehow knowing the right words to say) said “lebak bulus lebak bulus”. didnt read much quran on the way back. i just close my eyes and relaxed. felt kinda low on sugar. watched more shadow and bone on the way back and at home until close to iftar. didnt do anything after tarawih. slept hoping i woke up early (which i did, at 3am. but i slept again)

29 - im supposed to have ample energy but i just stuck around my bed until its time to get ready to go. read some kanej fic lol. I dont rly do anything productive after arriving home

30 - made intern log, magang as usual. Did not go to rm. Finished watching shadow and bone. Rested bcs tomorrow's saturdayyy

[purplesurveys]

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General Randomness What's the weather like right now? It’s very bright and sunny out, but January is typically one of the colder days of the year so I’m not feeling uncomfortable right now. It’s the perfectly chilly temperature I would have liked to have all year long. What are you currently sitting on? I am sitting on a chair at our dining table, which is usually where I take surveys. How many times have you brushed your teeth today? Just once.

When did you get up? I’ve been up since 8, but didn’t get out of bed until 10.

Have you been in a vehicle for more than 45 minutes today? I haven’t been in a car at all today cos I’ve only stayed home. Angela invited me to go out for some drinks but I didn’t feel like drinking or being out today, so I’ve been home the whole time.

Where is your best friend? I think Angela is at home but I’m sure she’s getting ready to go out for the aforementioned ^ drinking. I’m not sure where Gab is. How many days until Christmas? Oh wow, barely missed it, chief. There are 355ish days left, I’m guessing? Have you kissed someone today? Nope. Is your mom over 50? No, and she still has a year to go. How old were you 7 years ago? I was technically 14, but was about to turn 15 in a few months. Do you know what 'C'est la vie' means? Yep. In Gen Z lingo, it essentially means, ‘it be like that sometimes’ lmao. Do you usually take showers or baths? Showers, because we don’t have bathtubs and also because I find it much more efficient anyway. I only take baths when I’m out of town, in a fancy hotel, and want to pamper myself with bubbles and fancy body wash. What kind of bottoms are you wearing right now? I’m wearing shorts just meant for the home.

Are you wearing anything red? Yes, the pair of shorts I just talked about. What was the name of your first pet? I didn’t keep track of my first goldfish’s name but a good guess would be Goldie. I wasn’t a very creative kid, so I wouldn’t be surprised if that turned out to be right. Do you live in an apartment? Nope. I’ve been living with my parents under their roof. What color is the floor in the room you're in? Cream-ish. What was the most irritating thing to happen to you today? My thesis professor being a headache to talk to. I am genuinely baffled at how she was able to secure a very high position in my university’s administration, considering how erratic she can get. How do you feel about your most recent ex? She’s great. Do you wish at 11:11? No. Do you wish on shooting stars? I would, if they often visited on this side of the world. But they don’t, so. Do you wish on dandelions? No. There aren’t a lot where I live. Are you drinking anything right now? Mmm no, not at the moment. I finished my coffee a little while ago and while I want to make a second cup to keep myself awake, I have an early morning tomorrow so I’d want to sleep early tonight. It’s back to work for me, ugh. About how tall is your father? Not too tall. He’s like, 5′5 or 5′6.  How old is your oldest living grandparent? I only know the age of one grandparent, and that’s my 73 year old maternal grandmother. I don’t get to see my paternal grandparents a lot cos they live quite far, so with that comes my insufficient knowledge about them.  Do you know anyone who has lived to be 100+? Gab’s great-grandmother, but she passed away last November. Have you had your birthday yet this year? Nope. There’s been a mere three days into the year, so very few people would already have had their birthdays hahaha. Do you read your horoscope on a regular basis? No. You do you, but I was never a fan. It’s also a pet peeve when people use their star sign as excuses for their shitty behavior. “Sorry I acted up, I’m a Scorpio,” “I hate everybody because I’m an Aquarius,” “I ghosted them because I’m a Cancer” no it’s because you’re a bitch, Karen. Do you like the color yellow? I hate it a bit less than green (my least favorite color) only because I love the song Yellow by Coldplay and because mustard yellow isn’t that bad of a color. Are you an aunt or uncle? If my friends start having kids soon, then I’ll be an aunt. Why is your best friend your best friend? They both understand my weirdness and all my quirks and never made me feel like I was being judged. What is your hair like at the moment? Tbh it matches my top pretty well so as frizzy as my hair is at the moment, it still looks good with the tank top I have on lolol. How many times have you donated blood this year? Zero. I’m scared of needles, and even if I get over that phobia I wouldn’t be able to donate anyway because I’m underweight. Are you wearing any jewelry? No, not right now. Are you a video-gamer? I wouldn’t call myself that. I play GTA just to be a law-abiding citizen and not actually do the missions lol, I get tired of playing The Sims after ten minutes, and I only play a handful of Nintendo games. Who got married at the last wedding you went to? My mom’s brother and his then-fiancee, now one of my favorite aunts except for the facts that she’s a hardcore Duterte supporter and Marcos apologist. Do you like Chinese food? Yep, it’s one of my favorite cuisines. How far is the nearest Walmart? I can’t walk nor drive to it, that’s for sure. Have you ever been a designated driver? I’m always DD by default because I’m the only one among my friends who has a car other than JM, who also has a (much bigger) car but is terribly low-tolerance and will absolutely pass out. I get tipsy easily as well, but I sober up real quick and always make sure I’m 100% back to reality by the time I drive. Which means that I typically have to stop drinking earlier than the rest of my friends, but so long as that means I get to take everyone back home safe, it’s okay with me. What is something that always brings tears to your eyes? My mom yelling at me. Who is your 20th phone contact? My contacts aren’t numbered thus I’m too lazy to count manually. Do you have any plans to get a tattoo? It’s not completely off the table, but I’ve definitely toned down my original plans of getting tattoo sleeves and getting myself generally covered a la CM Punk (and I have to tell ya, I’m so glad I grew out of that phase). These days I prefer to have small tattoos to memorialize significant people or events, and some of my plans include my dog’s pawprint and a plate of nachos. Or a new piercing? Probably not. What would your name be if your last name was the color of your shirt? Brown. If you could find out how you would die, would you want to know? Yes. I hate the unknown and would rather be certain, no matter how ugly or nasty the certainty holds. Do you make your bed regularly? Every morning. Do you look forward to the weekend? NO. I have a 2-day meeting for my 2-day weekend. I am so dreading it. I just want to stay a lazy couch blob for another week. How much do you know about the mechanics of cars? I know how to turn a car on, go forward, reverse, brake, and open my gas tank... and that’s about it. Has anyone ever told you you should be a model? Model and beauty queen, yeah. How old was your mom when she had you? She was 26, but was turning 27 that year. Do rainy days get you down? No. I thrive on rainy days lmao. Who is the artist/band you're listening to at the moment? No music keeping me company at the moment. Do you ever take aspirin when you 'feel a headache coming on'? Not aspirin but I take a Biogesic. I dunno if those two or the same thing or not. Is there a calendar in the room you're in? Nope. Do you prefer to be in a relationship or be single? I’ve been seeing a person for technically six years, so now I prefer a relationship after being accustomed to having one for so long. If you're single, do you wish you were in a relationship? Have you ever had your heart broken? Sure. Do you live within an hour of the beach? No. I’m very far away from the beach :( How do you like your steak? Rare or medium-rare. Were you born in the 1980s? I was not. A Few Firsts What was the first sound you heard when you woke up? I woke up to the sound of my mom calling me on my phone. I was half-asleep and didn’t feel like answering, so I muted it and went back to sleep. I feel guilty now that I remember, but she didn’t call back or text me so it probably wasn’t a big deal. Who was your first best friend? It was a girl named Kaye from kinder. We were good friends for like two years, and then we got sorted to different sections in Prep and drifted apart after that. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? I’ve said her name so many times on these surveys already. Y’all know. Who was your first date to a formal dance? I haaaateeeeed the idea of asking guys out and being in a relationship for most of high school, so I made sure I only asked my cousin for my prom. How bad was your first break up? Pretty messed up. There was a lot of tension and resentment and confusion in the beginning. Throw in my grandfather’s sudden death and me taking the UPCAT, and you have my mental health completely rattled! What was your first favorite movie? High School Musical, for sure. How old were you when you had your first kiss? 16. What was your first trip to the emergency room for? My platelet count was really low, I was in danger of getting dengue, and had to stay the night at the hospital. Then there was sticking the IV onto my wrist, upon which I made a complete scene in the emergency room and thrashed and kicked around while my (very frail) grandma (sorry, Lola) tried to hold me down with a lot of patients watching lol. Where was the first place you went today? The kitchen. Who was the first person you saw? My sister, I think. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up? I wondered why my mom called, realized I was too sleepy to care, and went back to bed. Do you remember the first time you spent the night away from home? Yupppp. I was in third grade, my club had an overnight camping thingy as its culmination activity, and it was the first time ever that I was allowed to spend the night somewhere else. I remember being around a campfire, roasting marshmallows for the first time, having to share a sleeping mat with Katreen, and her kicking me in her sleep.

Where was your first big vacation to? Boracay. What was your first job? None yet. I’ll make sure to update you by the end of the year. What was the first thing you had to drink today? Coffee.

Some Lasts Where was the location of your last kiss? My girlfriend’s car, when she dropped me back at my place. How old was the last person you kissed? 21. What was the last movie you rented? I’ve never experienced renting a movie, which definitely confirms my status as a Gen Z kid lmao. But I can tell you that the last movie I watched was Knives Out. Where was the last place you went? Other than around my house, we went to church last Tuesday night for New Year’s Eve mass. What was the last restaurant you went to? Yabu. Who was the last person to call you? My mom, this morning. Who was the last non-relative you spoke in person to? Gabie. What was the last thing you bought? I got dinner from Yabu, haha. When was the last time you drove more than an hour somewhere? December 14th. That evening was INSANE. It was Saturday + Christmas traffic, and it took me two hours to travel from Antipolo to Rita’s place in Makati. JM and I drove separately cos we were a big group - his drive took FOUR hours. Why did you last get angry? My thesis prof was doing us so fucking dirty and I couldn’t do anything about it. What color was the last vehicle you rode in? Blue-green. How long ago was your last birthday? NIne months. When did it last rain? It drizzled a little bit yesterday. What was the age difference between you and your most recent ex? A month and a half. When was the last time you used a dictionary? Maybe an hour ago for a word I used in a past survey lol. Mini iPod Shuffle: Don't Cheat, Use Whatever Song Comes Up, No Matter How Ridiculous (I have several playlists, so I’ll just use the Spotify-curated playlist made for Gab’s account called Your Top Songs 2019 hahahaha) My love song: Love song - Lana Del Rey (Wow.) My fight song: Swim Against the Tide - The Japanese House My break-up song: New Light - John Mayer The song for when I'm sad: Money - Leikeli47 The song for when I'm angry: Constant Conversations - Passion Pit My song to have sex to: Bad Girls - Tennis The song about my ex: Just the Same But Brand New - St. Vincent The song about my best friend: Juice - LIZZO The song about my crush: Seventeen - no rome My 'feel good' song: Venice Bitch - Lana Del Rey The theme song of my life: Formation - Beyoncé I literally know four of these songs, which I’ve since bolded just so y’all know that I have no idea what the other seven songs are and if they make sense with the situations at hand. Gab clearly uses her account more than I do, which should be the case anyway lmfaoooooo.

#survey #surveys

[writehardwhumpharder]

This might be total crap but here's a Beat fic.

I decided to rewatch some of the show and somehow it was even better the second time. I didnt even notice at first that Beat is definitely bisexual, he really does do drugs 24/7, and oh my God he looks so cute when he sleeps. That scene where Paul wakes him up with the music killed me. Anyways here's a fic where Beat kinda OD's and is a just an unhealthy person in general. I forgot some people's names too, oh well.

The beat coursed through him, making it's way through his body which felt alive with the unnatural fire he'd gotten so used to. Or maybe that was the drugs... After all, he was the human embodiment of the club scene. Beat couldn't have been a more fitting nickname.

He hadn't been keeping track of the various pills and powders he'd been given over the course of the night. He found himself clinging to his glass of vodka in a vain attempt to muffle the stimulants. Above Beat's head were the muted colors of the club's lights, seemingly blurring and swirling together like the bodies around him. With every flash he felt his heart rate quicken but he didn't stop jumping and dancing with the music. Sweat dripped down his bare skin, t-shirt long forgotten. An unexpected shiver ran through his spine, and for a moment he couldn't tell if he was hot or cold as his skin flushed.

It took him a moment to realize someone was saying his name through the loud, pulsing music.

"Beat," they said, trying to get his attention. It was another friend of Paul's, someone Beat saw most nights. The man grabbed his hand and closed it around Beat's as he kissed Beat's neck seductively.

"What's this?" He asked, looking at the small white tablet in his palm.

"A gift." The guy said smiling. "I owed you one for last week, remember?" Beat didn't remember, but it sounded plausible enough. So without another thought he swallowed the pill and went back to dancing. There were a few women hovering around him but he wasn't paying attention. Beat closed his eyes and felt time slow down, this was why he did it. The drugs, late nights, music, and dancing, for perfect moments like this. The moment was cut short however when he felt that unpleasant shiver again, he put his hands on his knees and tried to take a few deep breaths which only served to make him a little dizzy. Time was somehow lost in the club but Beat was starting to think it's time to head home for the night. He'd been partying since they opened late afternoon and by now it was well into the early morning. There were too many people around, it was getting hard to breathe. Beat crossed the room towards the bar. He leaned over the edge, exchanging his empty cup for his T-shirt and jacket stashed below the counter.

"I'm heading out." Beat said, leaning heavily on the bar. It was as if the moment he stopped moving the energy was suddenly gone from his body, but at the same time he could still feel his heart racing along with the rhythmic shaking of his leg.

"Trying to get out of closing again? If you don't help I'm gonna have to put a limit on those free drinks." His friend joked. But taking another look at him, something seemed off, maybe it was best that he left now. "I'm just messing with you, Beat, go home you look like shit."

"Thanks, man." Beat said as he pulled his jacket on, genuinely meaning it. Weaving through the dancing mass of people toward the backdoor, Beat was glad he was leaving. He just needed some fresh air. Once he was outside Beat was assaulted with a cold breeze, or at least cold in comparison to the temp. inside. He wrapped his jacket around himself tighter. Being outside didn't help as much as he had hoped. His chest was starting to feel tight and a shooting pain had him stopping in his tracks. He groaned, putting a hand to his chest, willing it to slow down. His place was only a short walk from here so when the chest painkept coming, he decided not to stop until he could collapse onto his sofa. Beat was no stranger to overdoing it with the drugs, every so often his body would protest this crazy lifestyle, but somehow tonight felt different.

By the time he got to the stairs leading up to his apartment he was out breath. The clenched muscles in his chest made it difficult to take in a full breath of air. You know what to do, Beat, he thought to himself, just a glass of water and some rest and I'll be good as new. He practically dragged himself up the last few steps using the handrails and went straight to the kitchen. Janik was a light sleeper so no matter how quiet he was, he'd probably wake him up. Although he didn't end up being very quiet at all. The glass fumbled in his hands, falling to the floor with a thud, luckily it didn't break. He pushed through the lightheadedness and pain to try again. This time successfully filling it with water which he drank in several seconds. Beat was about to fill it again when Janik appeared in his bedroom doorway, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.

"What are you doing, Beat? It's almost four in the morning for fuck's sake. I have work tomorrow and so do you, with whatever shady side-job you've got going right now." Janik paused, leaning against the door frame. "When are you gonna stop living like this?" He asked, his voice sounding more concerned than judgemental. Beat leaned over the sink, letting his head fall forward. When he didn't reply, Janik walked further into the room. Now that his eyes were better adjusted to the dim lighting, he saw how his roommates shoulders were shaking. His skin looked flushed and clammy even in the low lighting.

"Hey, you okay Beat?" Janik asked. Beat only hummed his response. This was starting to seem unusual.

"Yeah, Janik, I'm fine. I just need to sit down a bit." He said casually before proceeding to sit down right where he was on the kitchen floor. Okay, now he was really concerned. Janik walked around the couch to where Beat sat, leaning his head against the cupboards, eyes closed. His hand didn't even have to reach his skin to know Beat had a high fever.

"You're practically, hyperthermic!" Janik scolded. "Open your eyes." Beat let out a quiet whine. "Look at me." This time Janik gripped his chin and Beat had no choice but to look up at his friend. Just as he suspected, Beat's pupils were about twice the size they should be. "Okay stay right here." Janik said running to get his med. bag.

"I wasn't going anywhere anyways." Beat said sarcastically, but stopped when he realized his chest couldn't keep up with him talking on top of trying to breathe normally. He ran his shaking hands over his short hair while he wheezed which quickly turned into a sputtering cough. It felt like eternity before Janik returned. He even considered just getting up and going to bed. In reality it only took Janik a couple minutes to gather what he needed. Janik didn't bother asking what he took knowing it was likely some combination of MDMA, cocaine, amphetamines, and alcohol to top it off.

"Okay Beat you're hot and dehydrated so I'm gonna give you an IV, okay?" Beat nodded, it wasn't his first IV if he was being honest. "This is gonna cool you down and help your body deal with the drugs." If he had an entire ambulance at his disposal Janik probably would have done more but they would have to make do with what he had at home.

Beat felt a sharp prick then coldness spreading up his arm, but he was only dimly aware of how strange the sensation was. His roommate sat with him on the kitchen floor for a while, neither saying much.

"Thanks, Janik, I don't know what I would do without you." Beat said, lazily trailing his eyes up to meet his roommate's.

"Die, probably." He said jokingly, but there was some truth to his words. Beat was still shaky when he finally stood up and went to his own room, falling asleep almost instantly. The energy from the drugs burned right through him, leaving his muscles aching and tired after they wore off.

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Beat's phone rang at 9am, only a few hours after he had fallen asleep. Emilia had sent him several messages saying they needed to meet. His head ached fiercely, the hangover from last night attacking at full force. Beat groaned and shifted on his bed only to realize that he was laying on top of the covers, still fully dressed from last night, shoes and everything. So Janik hadn't gone the extra mile to tuck him in, he still owed him a huge favor. If not for him Beat would probably be crawling on his hands and knees towards the hospital right now.

Stumbling towards the bathroom Beat noticed he was alone in the apartment, which was a pretty rare occurance now that he thought about it. He glanced at himself in the mirror, taking in the dark circles under his eyes and sickly pale color of his face. After years of partying the hungover look was somewhat permanent so he just splashed some cold water on his face and threw on some clean(ish) clothes before heading out. Beat pulled his hoodie up over his head, digging his hands into his jacket pockets. The thrumming ache in his head only got worse once he was outside and he desperately wanted to just shut the world out. Whatever the ESI wanted better be important, Beat thought, pinching the bridge of his nose. He walked in the general direction of the city, knowing Emilia would find some way to run into him on the streets he usually frequented.

Sure enough, the red hair soon caught his attention as she made her way toward him.

"Come on, I'm taking you in." She said stiffly.

"There's a perfectly good coffee shop right over-" Beat began but she pulled him in a different direction.

"Just be glad it's me and not the agents dragging you in this time." She had a point. Beat could turn around and go straight back home if he really wanted to but the sharp look in her eyes gave him little choice. The longer they walked the worse Beat felt. He was tired and uncomfortably warm. Emilia cast him sideways glances every time he sighed.

When they got to the building Beat tried to keep his head down. Emilia refused to tell him anything until they got into the office. He tried to distract himself from the growing headache he had, he needed something soon. Something to pick him up, but he had to get through this meeting first. Then his hand made contact with something in his pocket, maybe some leftover coke if he was lucky. Emilia steered him into a conference room before he could duck into one of the restrooms. There were a few stacks of photos on the table.

"We need you to take a look at these and tell us if you recognize anyone." She said.

Beat sank into the office chair and drummed his fingers on the table, trying to give off his usual carefree persona. He flipped through a pile of pictures, no one seemed familiar, then moved on to the second pile. He opened the folder and was assaulted by the grotesque image of a dead woman. On a normal day it wouldn't bother him, but today it made his stomach turn. He stared down at the photo, feeling the blood drain from his face.

"Are you okay, Beat? You look a little pale."

At that moment another agent walked into the room, snapping Beat's attention back. He felt the headache and nausea closing in and his vision blurred in front of him. There was no time for excuses, he pushed himself up front his chair and made a beeline for the door. Emilia made no move to stop him. Beat shuffled down the hall to the first bathroom he saw, and barely made it into the stall before he threw up everything he ate yesterday, which wasn't much. The taste of bile in his mouth almost made him puke again but he quickly flushed the toilet and leaned back against the cold tile of the bathroom wall. He still felt pretty terrible, but it was nothing he couldnt handle. Now that Beat had a moment alone he didn't hesitate to drop the lid of the toilet and pull the small baggie from his pocket. There wasn't much but it was better than nothing. Beat scraped all the powder out making a small line, rubbing the rest into his gums. Beat snorted the line in one swift movement making sure to wipe his nose before exiting the stall. He really needed that.

Beat looked himself over in the mirror, as a women entered the bathroom. She stifled a scream making Beat jump. The cocaine now coursing through his system sent his heart into overdrive. In his haste to make it to the bathroom he hadn't checked whether it was the right one. Beat pushed past her and stepped out into the hall. Hopefully no one noticed. He walked back to the conference room where Emilia and the man were waiting for him. She looked at him with indifference, he almost wished she'd be disappointed. Instead she sighed as if this is exactly what she expected from him. The man beside her had the same professional look.

"So did you recognize anyone or not?" He asked. Beat shook his head. "Emilia, please see him out." Once the man was gone she uncrossed her arms and held out a tissue.

"Your nose is bleeding." She said casually. "Now let's go find that coffee shop." She smiled.

#whump #beat #amazonvideo #drug addiction #overdose #Janik is a good friend

[crinkled-emotions]

He Can Stay There

Mate, look, really sorry Harrison. I swear, it’s not you it’s my fucked up mind. Please excuse everything I do, say, or write about you in the next couple pages. Heh. I’ll be back, going to confession.

When Harrison goes down with a stomach bug, it’s up to Maxi to keep an eye on him, and Hoppo to tell a nurse to stop being so rude.

*Misha Collins voice* Well that’s not nice!

Harrison had barely been in Australia for six weeks when he moved into Maxi's spare room, where the older of the pair took the trainee under his wing. He'd never admit it, but Harrison was glad for Maxi's help- otherwise, he'd be either stuck in the middle of butt fuck nowhere or he'd be eating lunch in the changeroom stalls to avoid people. Yes, he was just that awkward.

 As I was saying, Maxi and Harrison had become fast friends- Harrison knew Maxi was there to answer any questions, no matter how ridiculous he sounded, and it seemed Harrison gave Maxi a little bit of comical relief after a rough day working. They bounced off each other and it showed.

 Harrison had gone to bed first that night, declaring he was tired and didn't feel like listening to Maxi snore away on the couch like an old man. Maxi declined that he did that, but they both knew. Harrison had been feeling off all day; his head hurt and he felt exhausted, but the paracetamol he had found in his bag helped for a little while. The problem was when he got home, he began to feel like his stomach was upset too and that scared him a little- the last time he was vomit sick his mum had taken him to the hospital and he'd passed out when they put the IV drip in.

 Maxi was fast asleep in his bed, blankets on the floor since it was the middle of an Australian summer, when he felt a presence in his room and began to wake up.

"-axi, Maxi hey. Trent, wake up. I need your help."

At that, Trent was indeed awake. He looked up to see Harrison was standing at his bedside, his face pale and covered in a subtle sheen of sweat. He was shirtless and in his underwear, and his friend sat up in confusion.

"Sit down mate, sit. What happened?"

Harrison slowly sat down on the bed beside Maxi's feet, Maxi turning on his bedside lamp for some light. He needed to get an idea of what was going on.

"I just need to know where you keep your nurofen... I'm so sick mate, I need something."

"Wait, how sick are you?"

"I... don't really think I should tell you, the evidence is all over me sheets."

Maxi grimaced, rubbing his friend's shoulder.

"Go and sit in my en-suite if you want, I'll do the cleanup since puke doesn't bother me."

"Oh no, I can't ask you to do that. I'll do it, I just-"

"-and here, have this."

He had located his nurofen box in his bedside drawer and popped two pills out for his friend, Harrison swallowing them with a tiny sip of water from the bottle he'd carried in.

"Thanks mate. Look, go back to sleep, I'm sorry I woke you."

"Don't be sorry, I'm here to help mate. You try and get some more sleep too, alright?"

"Yeah, I'll try."

Harrison got off the bed and walked back to his room, Maxi watching after him for a moment and contemplating whether he should keep a closer eye on his housemate- he hadn't seen him sick before so he didn't know what was going to happen.

 The older of the two housemates had only just began to drop off to sleep when he heard gagging, and the bathroom door being shoved open. He lay there flat on his back for a moment, just listening to poor Harrison throw his guts up, before he pitied him and got out of bed, taking a towel from the stack in the hallway near their linen cupboard. He also grabbed a spare blanket from that same area- apparently the boys had some cleaning up to do.

That could wait; Harrison needed help.

 Harrison winced when Maxi flipped on the bathroom lights, trying to turn away from them as he curled into the toilet bowl. Maxi sighed, coming over to sit beside him on the cold tiled floor.

"You alright mate?"

"What do you think?"

Harrison's kiwi accent was thicker when he was sick, and Maxi chuckled as he sympathetically rubbed his friend's back.

"Well I've got good news; you don't have to sleep in here tonight."

"What? But my b-bed's-"

Another retch.

"Yeah your bed is fucking disgusting, but mine isn't. We can set your mattress up on my floor; or you could just top to tail with me."

Harrison glanced up from his head buried in the toilet, raising an eyebrow.

"No homo though?"

"None, bruh."

"Mmmmm... maybe..."

"No, not maybe. You're coming with me, one way or another."

So, when Harrison was sure he was finished in front of the toilet, he let Maxi help him stand and then drag him back to the Australian's bedroom. Maxi plopped Harrison on to his bed and then got to work, pulling a spare pillow from his wardrobe and placing it down the other end of the bend. Harrison watched him with confusion clear in his eyes- he knew Maxi was a caring guy, he was a lifeguard for God's sake, but he'd never seen him like this.

 When Harrison's side of the bed was set up Maxi disappeared out the door, soon returning with a plastic bucket and a bottle of water. He half smiled at his kiwi friend, nudging his shoulder at one point.

"You doing okay mate?"

"Yeah. Thanks for this."

"No worries."

 Their sleeping positions changed throughout the night; after one moment of intense vomiting Maxi pulled Harrison down to lay so they were head to head, kicking the spare pillow off the bed. Harrison complained, trying to adjust but Maxi held him still.

"You're not well; just try and get some sleep."

 By 9am the next morning, Harrison was asleep on his friend's shoulder, Maxi flat on his back. They couldn't remember how they got into that position, but it happened and there was no complaints from either side.

Harrison was the first to wake up; a wave of nausea hit him all of a sudden, and he groaned as he sat up. In his feverish haze he couldn't spot the bucket, but he could see the en-suite door and made a run for it.

To tell you the truth, Harrison had barely been in Maxi's bedroom, and he'd never been in the en-suite so it took him a second to locate the toilet. He bolted, dropping to his knees just in time. There was rustling in the bedroom, before Maxi called out.

"Holy shit! Haz, you okay?"

"Yeah, yeah I'm good!"

Maxi appeared, and his eyes softened. Dammit sympathy.

"Hey, I gotcha. It's okay, take it easy. Just breathe."

He immediately went to Harrison's side, tossing a blanket over his back to keep it warm, then began to do the sympathy rub. Harrison sat back from his barf, resting his head on Maxi's shoulder.

"Sorry," he whispered, and Trent raised an eyebrow.

"What for?"

"For waking you up. I probably would have been okay."

The older of the pair shook his head, brushing a hand through Harrison's cropped hair.

"I don't care. You woke me up because you needed help and I wanted to help you. It's not an issue."

"You don't have to do this, y'know. We're off duty, not like you have to take care of me."

"You're right; I don't have to, but I want to. What kind of friend would I be if I didn't take care of you?"

"Still a good one, but a little less," Harrison joked. Maxi rolled his eyes, a fond smile taking over his features as he hugged his friend. Harrison buried his face in his shoulder, glad Maxi was there.

 A few hours later there was a knock at the apartment door and Maxi left the kitchen where he'd been making some lunch to go and investigate. Deano stood there, smiling at him through the flyscreen.

"Hey mate, you and Haz ready?"

Maxi facepalmed- he'd completely forgotten he and Harrison had agreed to a training session with Deano on their day off- today.

"Deano I'm so sorry mate, Harrison was up all night throwing up, he only really just got back to sleep and I, uh... y'know, when your roommate's sick..."

"I understand, do you want me to come and check him out?"

Maxi bristled- Harrison was asleep in his bed, how could he explain that to Dean?

"I- uh-"

"-Maxi, what's wrong?"

"He's..."

Then Harrison appeared.

 With a pillow indent on his cheek and a numb arm from a bad sleeping position, he slumped on to the couch and turned on the TV, not even noticing Dean standing at the door. Maxi bit his lip, before turning to his house mate.

"Hey Haz, is it okay if Deano comes and checks you out? Just in case something's wrong and we don't know about it?"

"Yeah, guess so."

He yawned, stretching out before basking in the cool air blasting from the air conditioner. Maxi turned and nodded at Deano, who came into the flat.

"Hey mate," he spoke gently to Harrison, who glanced up at him.

"Hey bruh."

"You get sick last night did ya?"

"A little yesterday morning too, but it went away I swear."

Maxi raised an eyebrow at his friend's confession, but received a glare in response. Deano hummed, kneeling in front of his friend.

"I'm just gonna check your pulse; sometimes you can get a slower pulse from food poisoning."

"Yeah, okay."

 So Deano conducted a quick check up with his first aid knowledge- knowing Harrison had a fever from the second he saw him, he sent Maxi to go and find the thermometer then turned back to his colleague, giving him a sympathetic smile.

"How are you feeling mate? You look like shit."

"I feel like shit."

"Okay, let's get you a little more comfortable. When did this start?"

"Not last night, but the night before. I woke up feeling nauseous at like 4am, but I pushed through it and went for an early surf."

"When did you start spewing?"

"Yesterday morning, around 11-ish. I didn't eat lunch after that, I wanted to stay and finish my shift."

Deano groaned, running a hand through his own hair.

"If Hoppo finds out about this he's going to kill you. What if you'd been hurt out there, what if you couldn't get someone back?! Harrison, mate, not again okay? For your safety, and everyone else's."

Harrison nodded, swallowing the lump in his throat- that wasn't nausea, it was more nerves and guilt. Tears threatened to well, but he pushed them away. Dean rubbed his arm.

"You're okay mate, just don't do it again."

"I know. Sorry."

Dean smiled, just in time for Maxi to return with the thermometer. He was talking as he entered the room, but the end of the sentence was the only part Dean heard.

"-I lost it somewhere under the sink but it's back and it seems to work!"

He brandished the device to the senior lifeguard, Dean placing it under his friend's arm, glancing between the two boys.

"Trent, can you get a glass of water? Don't make it cold, room temp is fine."

Maxi went into the kitchen to do that, and the other two waited in silence for the thermometer to beep. Dean glanced at the kitchen for a moment, before he smiled.

"You and Maxi work well together; I've never seen him like this with someone other than a rescue patient. Is he good at caretaking?"

"Yeah, I was surprised... he even let me sleep in his bed when I threw up on mine. I wanted the Nurofen, but he insisted and I ended up in there until 9."

Dean seemed satisfied with that answer and thanked Maxi when he returned with the glass of water. The thermometer beeped and Harrison checked it with a frown.

"Oof, yeah I'm not going anywhere until that cools down a bit."

"What does it say?" Maxi asked, Deano taking a drink of the water before Harrison could disease it. Harrison handed it to him and Maxi grimaced.

"Okay no, you're right. I'll get you an ice pack."

Maxi disappeared again, and Dean took the thermometer with a smirk.

"I love this bromance," he laughed, Harrison weakly chuckling before he had a sip of the water. Dean read the screen, and frowned.

"40 degrees, and you're still talking?! Jesus, lie down and don't move until Maxi gets back. Do you feel hot at all?"

"Under the air con? No, I'm good. It was hot in Maxi's room though after a while."

"Fair enough. If you start feeling hot you need to tell Trent, okay?"

"Got it."

Speaking of the blonde, he flopped on to the couch beside his friend, carelessly tossing an arm over his shoulders.

"What's the verdict, doc? Where do I need to stick the needle?"

Harrison paled, while Dean laughed.

"No needles, but it's probably a good idea to keep an eye on his temperature. Don't let it climb, Maxi."

"I know. Thanks mate."

He gestured to the other couch, but Deano shook his head.

"Unlike some of us who are sick or taking care of a sickie, I have places to be, things to do. Thanks though."

He nudged Harrison, leaning down close to his ear.

"Remember what I said. Take care of yourself, mate."

"I know. Thanks Deano."

They did a bro handshake, while Maxi got up to walk the older man to the door.

 Harrison felt a dip in the seat beside him and cracked an eye open, seeing Maxi leaning on the couch beside him.

"Hey Haz. You doing okay?"

"Mm. I think I'm good."

He winced, and Maxi held his shoulder.

"Talk to me."

"I feel like shit Maxi."

Harrison leaned forward, accidentally tumbling into Maxi's arms. Maxi held him up, trying to meet his eyes. Harrison grimaced, trying to dodge Maxi's hand when he felt for a fever.

"Yeah, you're burning up. C'mon, up on the couch and I'll be back in a sec."

The Australian helped his friend up on to the couch then disappeared into the kitchen. When he returned he had a couple of ice packs and a cool bottle of water in his hand. The ice packs went under Harrison's arm pits, the cool water poured on to a towel then held to his forehead. That was when Harrison realised how shitty he felt, and he made Maxi face him properly.

"I- something's not right, Max. I- I think you should take me to the hospital."

Maxi froze, an eyebrow raised.

"Oh I dunno, mate-"

"-I know I hate IVs and I know I'm shit scared, but I don't think I'm gonna get any better like this."

"Shit, okay. Okay, we can do that. Are you sure?"

Harrison nodded, despite the shaking in his hands. Maxi reached up, giving his roommate a hug before he stood, heading for his room.

"I'll get our phones, do you want anything mate?"

"Just a hoodie, please. For the night."

"Gotcha."

 The ER was reasonably quiet, there weren't many people in there and Maxi had a good look around before Harrison tugged at his wrist.

"Just pick a spot, mate."

So they sat in the back, against a wall where Harrison could get some rest against his friend. Maxi ruffled his hair, sighing.

"I'll wake you when it's time."

 Sure enough, Harrison felt a nudge to his side and glanced up, Maxi sending him a smile.

"Time to go. You still feeling shit?"

"Yeah, I just want to collapse or barf everywhere."

"Just hold on a little longer mate."

With Maxi's help Harrison stood, his friend grabbing him by the waist.

"Gotcha Hutz."

 The doctor sent Harrison down to the hospital to be monitored as he was dehydrated. Maxi walked him down, and when they got to the hospital Harrison turned to him and squeezed his arm.

"I gotta confess... we may have a little problem."

"What's wrong?"

"You see, I uh... I kind of... pass out when I see needles? Getting my injections for coming to Australia they just did all of them after I passed out from the first one."

Maxi bit his lip to hold in a laugh, as he brushed a hand through Harrison's hair.

"We can deal with that when we get to it."

 Harrison lay flat on the hospital bed, staring at the ceiling as his head thumped. He groaned, moving his neck slightly to Maxi who smiled sympathetically. He stood, coming to kneel next to his friend.

"You feeling worse?"

"Mm. When's the nurse coming?"

"Soon mate, promise. Is the nausea bad?"

"No, it's just... my head hurts, really bad Max."

"I'm sorry Hutz, I wish there was something we could do right now to help. Try and have a nap, the nurse shouldn't be far away."

 When the nurse finally turned up Harrison was dozing lightly, Maxi's hand on his arm rubbing in light touches. He glanced up, smiling at the nurse.

"Hey, I'm Trent this is our dearly departed aka Harrison."

She gave him a brief smile, coming to the other side of the bed and finding some supplies. Harrison began to stir, watching the nurse with wide eyes.

"It's time, isn't it?"

She seemed confused, getting things out of drawers as she talked.

"You're not dying Mr Reid. You're simply suffering from a little heatstroke."

"We're lifeguards; I don't think I've ever had heatstroke," Maxi spoke, Harrison nodding.

"I didn't even get it when I was a kid."

"Well congratulations, you've got it now. I'm going to insert an IV into your hand so we can help with the fluids, will that be okay?"

The nurse seemed irritated and short of time, so with a glance toward Maxi Harrison nodded. Maxi shifted, sitting on the part of the bed left over from Harrison's lanky form. He wasn't broad, but he was tall.

"Just breathe mate. Try and stay calm," Maxi spoke, Harrison nodding.

"Oh yeah mate, I got this. Don't sweat."

He winced at the feeling of the nurse touching his hand, finding a decent spot to put the tube. Maxi tugged at his other hand, making Harrison focus on him.

"I don't want you to look over there at all, alright? I'm here and you're not going to pass out."

"Woah, I already feel kinda faint..."

Maxi reached forward, hugging his friend as he'd seen people do with kids to keep them calm. Harrison was by no means childish- he just fainted at needles.

This time was no different- he went from tugging at Maxi's shirt to limp, and the nurse shot to glare at Maxi.

"What's going on? Is he afraid of needles?"

"Sort of. He faints every time he has to get one. He warned me about this."

"And you didn't think it was important to tell me?"

The nurse seemed irritated, and she worked quickly but with a different attitude.

"Woah, I'm sorry-"

"-listen, Trent. You two are not the top dogs in here, Harrison is a patient and you are a worried friend. Unlike on your little beach, you don't have to know everything about this situation. You guys don't have professional medical training, so-"

"-if I ever hear you talking like that to another patient I will file an official complaint. We clear?"

Hoppo was dead serious when he entered the room, Maxi watching with wide eyes as he gave the nurse what she probably deserved. She finished her work, nodding before escaping out the door. Hoppo turned to Maxi, giving him a grin.

"Hey mate. How's the patient?"

"Really fuckin' glad to see you."

Harrison's voice came from beside Maxi, as he showed he was awake now. Maxi rubbed his back, blushing.

"You heard everything?"

"Not really no, I was zoning in and out. I heard all of Hop's serving though, thanks for that."

"No worries boys. Glad I could help."

"I'm sorry, we're glad to see you but... who told you we were here?"

Hoppo laughed.

"Deano called me after he locked your apartment up- you forgot."

"Oh shit, right. Tell him thanks."

"Will do. He said you texted him that you were taking Hutz to hospital. Ask around, pretend I'm a worried father... bam, here I am."

Maxi burst out laughing, Harrison quietly chuckling along too.

"Thanks for coming Hoppo," Harrison spoke, Hoppo sending him a big smile.

"Anytime mate. Us boys on the beach have to stick together."

 A different nurse came in with the doctor the next time- the doctor wasn't impressed with the previous' performance and had given her the day off to consider her actions. He quickly checked over Harrison's vitals and topped up on the anti nausea drug, before winking at Hoppo.

"It's okay. I know who you guys are, and I won't dob. Only one of you can stay with him tonight though."

"I will," Maxi blurted, Harrison nodding.

"Thanks mate."

Maxi blushed, while Hoppo smiled.

"Seems these two have it figured out. When do visiting hours finish?"

"Ohhhhh, the next ten minutes or so."

"Thanks doc."

Hoppo shook the doctor's hand, watching him leave before turning to the younger two. He grabbed Maxi by the shoulder.

"I'll have my phone with me all night, so if you need me just call. I probably won't pick up the first time but try again."

Well... at least he was honest.

He then turned to Harrison.

"And you. Get some sleep, I don't want to see you back at work until you're 100% fit and healthy, deal? Don't make me lifeguard test you."

"Done," Harrison agreed. He shook Hoppo's hand too, and the senior lifeguard disappeared. Maxi watched him leave, and snorted.

"When he said he had to pretend..."

"He was lying," Harrison finished, and Maxi grinned.

"Glad I'm not the only one who saw it."

 The chair Maxi sat on was incredibly comfortable, and when the new nurse walked in to check on a sleeping Harrison she got a blanket out of the cupboard and handed it to Maxi, pointing at the couch in the room. He thanked her, waiting until she left to lay down and get comfortable.

"Hey, Max?"

Turns out Harrison wasn't asleep.

"Yeah mate?"

"Do you ever... get y'know... nightmares? From what we've seen?"

"If I didn't Hutz, I wouldn't be human. Why the random question?"

The air in the room became thick, and Maxi heard his friend swallow deeply.

"Because for the last few months... they've been really bad, like so bad to the point I can't sleep at all."

"You just have one?"

"Mm. It's just- it was a lot."

"Oh mate..."

Maxi got up, wrapping his blanket around his body. He stood at Harrison's bedside, his friend covering his eyes with his arm. Maxi watched his stomach rise and fall, and sighed.

"C'mere."

He sat on the edge of the bed and pulled him up for a hug, Harrison burying his head into Maxi's neck. He closed his eyes, letting the sobs come. He tried to hold them back for a moment but Maxi rubbed his back.

"You're okay mate, I gotcha. Just let it out, okay? I'm here."

Harrison's hands curled into fists as he gripped Maxi's shirt, unleashing a wave of sobs he'd been holding in since the first incident. The patient had been okay, but it was still terrifying. Maxi had been there for that one too, and he could only imagine how Harrison had felt.

 Soon enough the crying ceased, and Maxi wrapped his arms around Harrison so he wouldn't slip back against the bed. Instead he lowered him gently, placing his head on the pillow and checking he was really out this time before lying on the couch. It might not have been that comfortable, but he was exhausted and out like a light.

 The vomiting reduced around 5am, but only just enough for nurses to be confident Harrison was out of the danger zone. He was discharged at 10, with bed rest orders.

 At home Maxi fell on to the couch, Harrison flopping on top shortly after. Maxi made a noise of complaint but let his friend stay, chuckling.

"Yeah sure, okay. That's totally going to be where you stay."

"S'comfy."

"I'm sure it is, a lot of people love my body."

"Ugh Maxi."

Harrison pulled himself up, about to get off when Maxi grabbed him.

"Woah hey, who says I was uncomfortable? You can stay there if you want."

"Ugh, you knob."

Harrison tried to push off but ended up laughing against Maxi, Maxi chuckling too. He adjusted, looking at the clock.

"Go to bed mate, you've got strict bed rest remember? That's the only reason they let me take you home."

"Lying in bed is a waste of time."

"Me trying to convince you is a waste of time mate, but here I am."

Maxi nudged his shoulder, resting his head in the crook of Harrison's neck.

"We'd make the cutest couple."

"Ugh, you're gross."

Harrison pushed Maxi, getting up. He took hold of the couch, sighing.

"I'm gonna go to bed for a bit."

"Did we clean it?"

"Fuck!"

Harrison sat on the floor, close to a tantrum which was very unlike smiley-Harrison. Maxi shot off the couch, grabbing him under the arm.

"C'mon mate, to my room. You can stay there while I clean yours, okay?"

"Mmm... okay."

 With Harrison lying on Maxi's bed the Australian set to work cleaning Harrison's bed- he tossed the dirty sheets in the wash, putting clean ones down. He laid a towel on the pillow just in case Harrison got sick again- it could happen, he wasn't completely cured of whatever that stomach virus was. When Maxi was sure the room was Harrison-proof, he went to his room.

 Despite his hate for naps or anything inactive, Harrison’s recovering body needed the sleep and he had passed out soundly on Maxi's spare pillow where he'd been the night before, curled up with the sick bucket. When Maxi came in he smiled fondly, seeing his best friend.

"Harrison, hey."

Harrison was quite a nimble, thin but lanky guy, so there was no way Maxi could carry him without help, or Harrison being half awake.

That did it.

Maxi was tired, he needed to keep an eye on Harrison still, and Harrison was asleep on Maxi's bed.

He could stay there.

[verdigrisprowl]

July 30 Dancitron Movie Night - Gotham ep 1-3

Dancitron is still destroyed and so everyone was outside again.

Prowl spent the show yelling at the cops on TV for being corrupt, and occasionally at the criminals for being stupid. There were several moments of needles in necks, but Soundwave pre-warned Prowl about the moments, and he was able to sit through them with only very minor anxiety. He’s quite pleased about this.

After the show, Prowl and Soundwave had schmoopy talk about self-actualization. Prowl asked about Soundwave’s spark, Soundwave told him about his having a shard of Primus’s spark in his chest, and to Soundwave’s great surprise Prowl treated it like a weird but manageable medical condition rather than like a punishment and enslavement.

Then they decided to go frag.

(Meanwhile Ravage was sitting on the couch listening the whole time and i completely forgot he was there.)

OmicronTheIceQueen 7:19 pm (O_O ) NoodlesAtNight 7:19 pm ((you're early lmao)) OmicronTheIceQueen 7:19 pm (I just put the link in on the off chance, normally its started by the time I'm off work) (want me to poof?) NoodlesAtNight 7:20 pm ((nah nah stay here)) OmicronTheIceQueen 7:24 pm (n.n) *Icy pings to see if its okay to come over* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:25 pm *cartwheels in* NoodlesAtNight 7:26 pm *Week two of being set up outside. Anyone who's accustomed to being there on the inside nights will notice that the couches and tables are unusually shabby looking. The beautiful red glass doors are still shattered, so they're blocked off by thick metal plates. None of Soundwave's usual lovely cubes and glasses are available; the servings tonight are all in more utilitarian supplies.* Kelpy 7:26 pm [sidles in, possibly bearing a box of snack tributes for Laserbeak (and Swoop, if she deigns to share)] NoodlesAtNight 7:26 pm *Laserbeak all but mobs Swerve and Swoop hello, all feelers for those snacks* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:27 pm !!! OmicronTheIceQueen 7:27 pm *Bridges in outside front door as normal, pausing and scenting around* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:27 pm *is not used to being mobbed but is ABSOLUTELY in favor of it* Hi Bird! NoodlesAtNight 7:27 pm {{Swoooooop.}} Chaoit 7:27 pm -comes in, looking a bit better than last week. Ish- MedicalMurdersaurus 7:27 pm Bird : > NoodlesAtNight 7:28 pm *Soundwave nods to Blaster. It's a little more noticeable than usual. Extra respect in it this time.* [[Around the side, Ice Queen.]] *The inside may be a wreck, but the external cameras still function.* OmicronTheIceQueen 7:28 pm *big predacon follows soundwave's fresh scent, totally pretending she doesn't see Racer half running , half slinking after her* Kelpy 7:28 pm Can't wait to see this place when it's fixed up and looks like it usually does. Chaoit 7:29 pm -waves back- Hello, Soundwave. Doing better? NoodlesAtNight 7:29 pm [[We are a little past half done with repairs. It should be complete the week after next. He apologizes for the inconvenience.]] [[He is, Blaster. You have recovered as well?]] Kelpy 7:29 pm Nah, not your fault. Blame the weird grey people. MedicalMurdersaurus 7:30 pm Why Dancitron broke? NoodlesAtNight 7:30 pm [[Minor quake.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 7:30 pm *wiggles to simulate a minor quake* OmicronTheIceQueen 7:30 pm Would you like an extra set of hands or more? *tail is up high rather then down for racer like normal, still pretending he's not there* that mess, I have workers that would not mind helping Chaoit 7:31 pm I'm...um... Basically under house arrest? SCProwl 7:31 pm *drives up and transforms, pulling a box out of a subspace and setting it carefully on the makeshift bar* NoodlesAtNight 7:31 pm [[If they can accurately follow instructions under extremely close supervision, he would not mind the assistance.]] [[...House arrest?]] *Soundwave eyes the box.* [[What is that.]] *Laserbeak attempts to perch on Swerve's head with one feeler while holding the box in the other.* {{You bar bot go here, bring Swoop Bird.}} Chaoit 7:32 pm I may have...worried a demigod rustedservos 7:32 pm Whoa, dont know if Ive ever been to one of these! OmicronTheIceQueen 7:33 pm The workers can do that, but you may have to make sure there's some semi-sweet energon readily available. *chuckles* or a few shinies afterwards MedicalMurdersaurus 7:33 pm *wiggles over to Swerve and BIrd* Kelpy 7:33 pm [snorts and attempts to follow directions] Okay. rustedservos 7:33 pm [walks in and sits somewhere] Oh! Swerve! MedicalMurdersaurus 7:33 pm *wiggle wiggle wiggle* NoodlesAtNight 7:33 pm [[He can make sure they are well fueled, Ice Queen.]] *Back to Blaster.* [[Worried a demigod.]] *Pause.* [[You'll explain this, of course.]] Kelpy 7:34 pm Hi Teebs. Hey Swoop. Chaoit 7:34 pm Ah...yeah. Um...oh boy MedicalMurdersaurus 7:34 pm Hi! OmicronTheIceQueen 7:34 pm Racer: *to anyone that knows the predacon hatchling, he seems rather thicker then before, and he's actively stalking Ice queen. almost properly too!* Chaoit 7:35 pm So, first question, before I get into it, you know of Harbringer and Prophet? NoodlesAtNight 7:35 pm *He is indeed. Ravage knows this because he happens to be stalking Racer (from a safe distance, of course; mustn't anger the Queen).* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:35 pm You BAR bot? :V Kelpy 7:36 pm Well, I'm a bar bot. NoodlesAtNight 7:36 pm [[Of Prophet, yes. Of Harbringer, barely.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 7:36 pm What that means? Kelpy 7:36 pm I own a bar? NoodlesAtNight 7:36 pm *Soundwave wags a feeler hello in Teebs' direction. Fuel and snacks on the table, since that's probably what he's here for most...* rustedservos 7:36 pm Ooooh, snacks! MedicalMurdersaurus 7:36 pm Oh. Have bar. Kay. : > Chaoit 7:37 pm Right, okay, so...I might have actually worried Harbringer enough that he's put me under house arrest until he's sure I'm not gonna do something like that again SCProwl 7:37 pm A few things I've picked up and held onto over the years. *she opens the lid and pulls out a single blue and silver glass from the set carefully packed into the box alongside other items* NoodlesAtNight 7:37 pm ((20 minutes, grab your food and bathroom breaks and all that stuff)) OmicronTheIceQueen 7:38 pm Racer: *has his little wings folded up and against him correctly, crouched low and scooting from chair to chair leg, or under a couch if he fits- may half got stuck between two legs... he's not as quiet as Ravage but hatchling is trying!* NoodlesAtNight 7:38 pm *Soundwave makes an irritated buzzing noise.* [[You were protecting Cybertronians as only you could. He punishes you for doing what was best for them.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 7:38 pm (*holds up miso hash soup!*) NoodlesAtNight 7:38 pm *Soundwave stretches a feeler over toward the glass. What's that about? Not a fan of the cheap metal cubes and cups?* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:38 pm *starts scouting out treats for Bird* rustedservos 7:39 pm Oh, I know this song! Chaoit 7:40 pm Well...he kinda didn't want me to die, and...I might have NoodlesAtNight 7:40 pm *Glance at Teebs. Good taste in music, hmm? He'll keep that in mind.* rustedservos 7:41 pm [bops his head ot the beat] OmicronTheIceQueen 7:41 pm *big predacon is giving the place a sniff over, not getting too close to new mechs, but not finding a place to lay down like normal....its not hard to see she's leading the hatchling around* NoodlesAtNight 7:41 pm [[Of course you could have. There were sparkeaters.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 7:41 pm *tosses a goodie towards Bird* : > Chaoit 7:41 pm .......yeah, that's why. rustedservos 7:41 pm [just now realized 'Wave has feelers. What is his life] Chaoit 7:41 pm >.> NoodlesAtNight 7:41 pm *Ravage continues watching this Mighty Hunter play, optics narrow with amusement.* Kelpy 7:42 pm [just sorta resigned to his fate as PErch And Treat Dispenser. Okay with this fate] NoodlesAtNight 7:42 pm *Soundwave leans closer to Blaster's direction. You sound suspicious, sir. In the meantime, Bird catches the snack with a feeler and cackles, munching it. Crumbs are gonna land on poor, poor Swerve. Sorry about that.* SCProwl 7:42 pm *Prowl lets him pluck it away if he so chooses* Given the structural damage to Dancitron, it seemed likely some supplies might have been lost. rustedservos 7:43 pm [sighs in Swerve's direction] OmicronTheIceQueen 7:43 pm Racer: *minor ADD, treats? oooh...?* Kelpy 7:43 pm [grins at Teebs] rustedservos 7:43 pm [perks up, waves] MedicalMurdersaurus 7:43 pm .... : > Chaoit 7:43 pm -eeeep- ...yes? -leaning away, just a bit- MedicalMurdersaurus 7:43 pm *goes to set goodies on Swerve's shoulders* Bar bot Kelpy 7:43 pm Swoop. MedicalMurdersaurus 7:43 pm hi Kelpy 7:43 pm Hello. MedicalMurdersaurus 7:44 pm *lines up as many treats as he can on Swerve* NoodlesAtNight 7:44 pm [[...Hmm.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 7:44 pm Racer: *swings near swerve to sniff at any pede or part near, but then runs off to go back to stalking his carrier* Chaoit 7:44 pm -oh, right, telepath, oops- Kelpy 7:45 pm How many snacks am I up to now MedicalMurdersaurus 7:45 pm Lot OmicronTheIceQueen 7:45 pm ((swerve might have a hatchling begging later for something << he's been noted to have noms)) Kelpy 7:45 pm //lmfao rip swerve rustedservos 7:46 pm Ohmygoshisthatalittle MedicalMurdersaurus 7:46 pm *is going to keep putting stuff on Swerve until someone stops him or there is no room and, considering how persistent Dinobots are and how good this flier's spacial awareness is, it's gonna be a while before Swerve has every surface covered* rustedservos 7:46 pm [[rip swerve, its been real]] Chaoit 7:46 pm -slendy, you're worrying him- Kelpy 7:47 pm [he's honestly not going to stop him at this point, he's curious to see how long he'll go for] rustedservos 7:47 pm grVITy falls MedicalMurdersaurus 7:47 pm *perks up* Garnet :V Me Swoop like Garnet rustedservos 7:47 pm I also like Garnet! OmicronTheIceQueen 7:47 pm ((...you realize racer will likely by climbing up there the moment he things he's aloud to start eating the goodies <<)) MedicalMurdersaurus 7:47 pm But Her Amethyst is favorite : > NoodlesAtNight 7:47 pm *Soundwave decides to go ahead and settle back into his chair. He'll let Blaster stay with that explanation. For now.* [[He likes Garnet as well.]] rustedservos 7:48 pm Theeeres a little one!!!! Kelpy 7:48 pm //lmfao god swerve's gonna end up on the floor covered in swoop bird and racer isn't he OmicronTheIceQueen 7:48 pm Racer: *peers over at teebs* ??? rustedservos 7:48 pm Hi little one! You are really cute OmicronTheIceQueen 7:49 pm Racer: *ooohh.... friend? remember's he's HUNTING....swings by to sniff at TB, noting to come back before going back to stalking Icy as she settles into a sit* ...!!!!!!!!!!!! MedicalMurdersaurus 7:49 pm *starts having to get up in Swerve's business, putting treats by his neck, to keep finding room* Chaoit 7:50 pm -oh good, he's just going to settle again, and go back to the songs- MedicalMurdersaurus 7:50 pm *pauses and looks at the screen* *CACKLES* rustedservos 7:50 pm [wiggles fingers at the little] Kelpy 7:50 pm [showing a RIDICULOUS amount of patience honestly] NoodlesAtNight 7:50 pm @SCP: [[You have no idea.]] *The feeler spins the glass.* [[Is this a donation...?]] MedicalMurdersaurus 7:50 pm *goes back to trying to set goodies on Swerve's hips* beeeeeeeeee 7:50 pm [wanders in] rustedservos 7:51 pm Aid, that you? OmicronTheIceQueen 7:51 pm Racer: *arches back, and settles into a stalk, then crouches by a chair, eyeing the adult predacon* beeeeeeeeee 7:51 pm Sure is rustedservos 7:51 pm Aid!!!!!! OmicronTheIceQueen 7:51 pm *Icy still pretends her sparkling isn't there* rustedservos 7:51 pm [hes coming in for hugs] beeeeeeeeee 7:51 pm [oh boy hello] Chaoit 7:51 pm ((annnnd I have to get roomie, I'm the only one with a car OmicronTheIceQueen 7:52 pm ((eep, be safe! and hopefully you can come back?)) rustedservos 7:52 pm [gentle squeeze hug, aid might catch a moment of air, and then hes back on his pedes and teebs is heading over to a seat] beeeeeeeeee 7:52 pm [hugs back!] rustedservos 7:52 pm 😆 : ) SCProwl 7:53 pm @SW: If you'd like to see them that way, yes. rustedservos 7:53 pm [teebs hug meter is dangerously low] OmicronTheIceQueen 7:53 pm *subtly checks to make sure she's not going to crush anything, or anyone* beeeeeeeeee 7:53 pm [poor guy] NoodlesAtNight 7:53 pm ((FIVE MINUTES then we start)) rustedservos 7:53 pm Oh gosh i love these songs MedicalMurdersaurus 7:53 pm *attempts to get a small goodie on Swerve's nose* Oh. It Pearl song. Kelpy 7:53 pm [twitches nose] NoodlesAtNight 7:53 pm @SCP: [[...Thank you.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 7:54 pm Her okay. Her good at swor-- keheh! No twitching! SCProwl 7:54 pm @SW: You're welcome. rustedservos 7:54 pm Hey....I just realized im like Steven! I bot a bubble too! Stevecutter....Traileven? I KNOW WHAT IM GONNA BE FOR HALLOWEEN Kelpy 7:54 pm Oh man. SCProwl 7:55 pm Halloween? rustedservos 7:55 pm Its this cool Earth holiday! OmicronTheIceQueen 7:55 pm Racer: *tiny growl as he slinks slowly out into the 'open,' can't help little tail lashing about for a nano, then stills.....stalks forward- FREEZES AT THE YELL THOUGH* rustedservos 7:55 pm You dress up and get candy beeeeeeeeee 7:55 pm What happens — Oh rustedservos 7:55 pm Oh, no, sorry little one. Didnt...ah, didnt mean to be loud VProwl 7:55 pm *remembers to appear outside this time.* NoodlesAtNight 7:55 pm [[Ah, the Hollow Een holiday. He is familiar with that one.]] rustedservos 7:55 pm ITs so much fun Chillsins 7:55 pm *Appears.* SCProwl 7:55 pm Why? Chillsins 7:55 pm *Is alone for once.* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:56 pm You BAR bot pretty okay at bar kehehh *attempts to get stuff on Swerve's elbows* OmicronTheIceQueen 7:56 pm ((ITS MY INTERNAL THEME SONG OMG)) Kelpy 7:56 pm Well, I try. How many snacks are we up to here. beeeeeeeeee 7:56 pm Are you..balancing snacks? NoodlesAtNight 7:56 pm {{Not enough for Bird~}} Kelpy 7:56 pm Yes opatoes 7:56 pm ... wait did the movie not start already beeeeeeeeee 7:56 pm A talent Kelpy 7:56 pm He's trying to see how many he can put on me. MedicalMurdersaurus 7:56 pm MORE for Bird : > SCProwl 7:57 pm Soundwave, would you prefer these were put somewhere else or should I leave them here? *she motions to the box* Kelpy 7:57 pm Surprised Laserbeak hasn't eaten them yet NoodlesAtNight 7:57 pm [[Leave them here for now. He will take them in when the evening is done. Others may use them for now.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 7:57 pm Racer: *stalking closer to Icy, pausing when she shifts, then starts to coil up* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:57 pm *glances as Bird, wondering the same thing* opatoes 7:57 pm ... /Smokescreen's coming in and looking over at First Aid to see if he can sit with him!/ NoodlesAtNight 7:57 pm {{Peh! Bird patient. You see.}} *No she's not. She's practically shaking with hunger. She's gonna diiiiiiiie.* rustedservos 7:57 pm Smokey! Kelpy 7:58 pm [Snickers. Poor Bird.] beeeeeeeeee 7:58 pm [aid isn’t sitting anywhere yet, he’s mingling rn] Chillsins 7:58 pm *Skirts around all of the...weirdness and takes a seat on the floor.* MedicalMurdersaurus 7:58 pm *works faster on getting Swerve's arms covered* OmicronTheIceQueen 7:58 pm *Icy give at least a short ping as warning to soundwave* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 7:58 pm *good news; here comes an exhausted-loooking dragon with a full cart of snacks! bad news; the dragon has been shaved in several clumps and smells concerningly of peppergon. She's wearing a weird hat and a blanket-cape to hide the shaved bits.* Hello, Soundwave! And Icy! VProwl 7:58 pm *Soundwave and Prowl's alternate are talking? saunters over to investigate.* Ah. Glasses for the bar? That's— *tries to think of a word that's nice without being TOO nice and therefore weird.* —handy. Good. rustedservos 7:58 pm Oh hi PRowl! SCProwl 7:58 pm *nods to her alternate* NoodlesAtNight 7:58 pm *Oh? What's the ping for? Aha, and there is Prowl. A ping for him.* [[Yes. Most useful.]] SCProwl 7:59 pm I thought they might be, yes. beeeeeeeeee 7:59 pm *waves at prowl* Kelpy 7:59 pm [would wave but then the snacks would fall off and Swoop might get destructive] opatoes 7:59 pm /Fair enough! He's going over to hang out by Fist Aid/ It's good to see you again! VProwl 7:59 pm Oh. Hi, Trail... *still doesn't remember his full name. is going to pretend that he definitely meant to call him Trail.* ... You didn't end up here while looking for Magnus's office, did you? MedicalMurdersaurus 7:59 pm (is Swerve sitting or standing?) Kelpy 7:59 pm //sitting rustedservos 8:00 pm You know, I actually did??? NoodlesAtNight 8:00 pm ((WARNINGS: Violence, blood, death; police brutality and corruption; foul language; implied domestic violence; visible and mentioned self-harm; child abduction; flashing lights; eye horror; passing mentions of sexual abuse; big ol' slabs of butchered cow meat.)) rustedservos 8:00 pm How did you know SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:00 pm ((mmm, cow meat)) VProwl 8:00 pm *so many people are greeting him. three whole people. Pings Soundwave and waves at First Aid.* opatoes 8:00 pm !! Trailcutter! It's good to see you, too! /Waving at him!/ rustedservos 8:00 pm [[I VE BEEN WAITING TO SEE THIS]] VProwl 8:00 pm ......... It seemed like something you would do. rustedservos 8:00 pm Hey smoke! MedicalMurdersaurus 8:00 pm *starts putting goodies on Swerve's feet because working from top to bottom is for nerds* rustedservos 8:00 pm [hes gonna go hug Smokey] Kelpy 8:00 pm Also Hi Prowl. beeeeeeeeee 8:00 pm ((Also I am about wanna to catch a train so I may be distracted fora minute)) NoodlesAtNight 8:00 pm *And then, without warning....* {{BOO}} *Right in Swerve's audio* Kelpy 8:00 pm [yelps and flails] MedicalMurdersaurus 8:00 pm *SHRIEKS with laughter* Kelpy 8:01 pm [snacks. snacks everywhere] NoodlesAtNight 8:01 pm *She zips around swooping as many goodies out of the air as she can* SCProwl 8:01 pm *well, since no one else answered and he said he was familiar with the holiday, Prowl's going to keep talking to Soundwave* Why do they wear costumes and eat candy on Halloween? OmicronTheIceQueen 8:01 pm Racer: *for the first time shows signs of predacon-ness as he gives a mighty (tiny) roar and CHARGES at Icy, bounding over and launches up to bite and latch onto her armor.* opatoes 8:01 pm !! /He wasn't expecting a hug! Smokescreen's lifting up Trailcutter in the hug with enthusiasm!/ It's good to see you! MedicalMurdersaurus 8:01 pm *flops backwards on the ground, DYING of laughter* VProwl 8:01 pm *Four now!* Hi— *starts when Swerve flails.* beeeeeeeeee 8:01 pm [who has he not greeted yet] rustedservos 8:01 pm [theres a happy squeeze and then hes putting Smokey down] UnkillableJazz 8:01 pm ((think I'mgonnabehereooc)) VProwl 8:01 pm *... he's not getting mixed up in that mess, he's going to go sit by soundwave.* NoodlesAtNight 8:02 pm @SCP: [[The costumes are to frighten others and free yourself from expectations. The sweets are a reward for entertaining others.]] ((you're welcome to be ooc or ic as you please!)) opatoes 8:02 pm /Excited doorwing wiggle!/ It's good to see you again! I'm glad I made it here in time, I was so busy on this project and- it's good to see everyone alive and well! MedicalMurdersaurus 8:03 pm *scoops up some of the goodies that she missed and starts juggling* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:03 pm *gives a half roar as if in extreme pain once she's bitten, rolling over onto her side as if tackled and snaps at the air and as Racer bits another spot flops over dramadicly as if dieing* NoodlesAtNight 8:03 pm *Ravage jumps onto the couch, up the arm, and onto the back of it, settling behind Soundwave. Both nod to Prowl when he sits.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:03 pm *chuffs with laughter as she ambles over to Icy and Racer. what a good predamom!* opatoes 8:04 pm ... Oh! This is a Bruce Wayne story! Kelpy 8:04 pm [scoops up some of the leftover snacks] Chillsins 8:04 pm *Can't believe he's been tricked into Batman's origin story yet again.* rustedservos 8:04 pm They made another Batman? Kelpy 8:04 pm How many batmans? opatoes 8:04 pm He's little right now He's Babyman MedicalMurdersaurus 8:04 pm *gives teh goodies a GOOD chuck so he can scoop up some more to add to the rotation* VProwl 8:05 pm *nods to them, and leans heavily on Soundwave.* We've seen this already. But not THIS way. Alternate universe? NoodlesAtNight 8:05 pm *Leans in and nods.* [[Yes. The very earliest years of the Wayne human's journey, he is told.]] SCProwl 8:05 pm @SW: [[Ah, so it's a festival event.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:05 pm *Holding legs out stiff, but waits for Racer to bound over and chop on her neck before going completely limp* NoodlesAtNight 8:05 pm @SCP: [[Yes. Very popular. Rumble won a contest on a Lost Light one year.]] rustedservos 8:06 pm Fighting! opatoes 8:06 pm ... these guys are being pretty awful to him Chillsins 8:06 pm *Chin, meet hand.* VProwl 8:06 pm For the record, the one who disarmed the criminal did it the right way. NoodlesAtNight 8:06 pm [[They are indeed.]] rustedservos 8:06 pm Has anyone here seen the new kids show Trollhunters? Chillsins 8:06 pm No. NoodlesAtNight 8:06 pm [[He has not. Children watch troll hunting?]] beeeeeeeeee 8:06 pm This is an interesting take on it opatoes 8:06 pm OH I know that show! rustedservos 8:07 pm 😀 Kelpy 8:07 pm Huh. I don't think I've seen this version. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:07 pm Racer: *pops wings up, poses on icy, he is the mightiest off all predacons! and he has won!* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:07 pm *sllllliiiiiiides back until he's laying flat, still juggling all the while, albeit more awkwardly as he goes* rustedservos 8:07 pm This show feels...gritty opatoes 8:07 pm I've only seen a bit of the first season but it's cool! It's weird seeing a kid that looks EXACTLY like one of my old friends back on Earth SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:07 pm *headlick for racer! mighty predacons get mighty cleanings.* rustedservos 8:07 pm Wait, really??? Does he? He kinda looks like that crying kid too Kelpy 8:08 pm You're gonna drop those on your face Swoop. opatoes 8:08 pm Yeah! Jack looks exactly like the kid in that show! And- I guess so? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:08 pm Nuh uh SCProwl 8:08 pm @SW: Fascinating. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:08 pm Racer: *ADD moment, oooh grooming licks! the hatchling purrs and rubs against fluffy dragon* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:09 pm *oof! getting heavy, Racer!* There you go, tough guy. *clean clean* rustedservos 8:09 pm Be strong for Mother OmicronTheIceQueen 8:09 pm *twitches* opatoes 8:09 pm /He's going to ping Round Prowl as well!/ ::It's good to see you!:: SCProwl 8:10 pm *right so there's been a double homicide, time to pay some attention* VProwl 8:10 pm ... I'm not sure that's good advice. *but then Prowl's forte has never been talking to witnesses.* NoodlesAtNight 8:10 pm [[What isn't?]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:10 pm Racer: !!!!! *tackles and chops again on icy, once she stops moving, hatchling hops off, bouncing over to where soundwave is, chittering excitedly* NoodlesAtNight 8:11 pm *Soundwave glances down and offers an arm up for Racer to climb. Would he like to sit on the spare couch space?* VProwl 8:11 pm Telling someone who has just been through seeing his loved ones be murdered to "be strong." rustedservos 8:11 pm [[my internet is crapping out 😔 ]] NoodlesAtNight 8:12 pm ((nooooooo)) rustedservos 8:12 pm [[I thing im gonna hafta end this, sorry guys : ( )) SCProwl 8:12 pm *pings Smokescreen back* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:12 pm *cleans Icy while she's down* beeeeeeeeee 8:12 pm ((Byeeee )) NoodlesAtNight 8:12 pm ((i'm sorry ;; hopefully it will be better next week)) OmicronTheIceQueen 8:12 pm Racer: *lifts up to put forepaws on soundwave's hand and arm, gives a lick. he'll come back! he saw treats...and he just hunted, its hungry work* opatoes 8:12 pm ((oh no!! 😧 nini rustedservos 8:12 pm [[im outta town next week : ( )) Kelpy 8:12 pm Does seem like bad advice. rustedservos 8:13 pm Whoops, gotta run, bye guys! MedicalMurdersaurus 8:13 pm *glances at an empty glass* beeeeeeeeee 8:13 pm See you later! OmicronTheIceQueen 8:13 pm ((be safe!)) NoodlesAtNight 8:13 pm [[Perhaps not the best. But the youngling may need support from /someone./]] VProwl 8:13 pm *... leans even more heavily* NoodlesAtNight 8:13 pm *Curls a feeler around.* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:13 pm [teebs mun, what's' our tumblr? racer can come visit if you want] MedicalMurdersaurus 8:13 pm *starts to chuck the goodies up high one at a time so they land - PLOP! PLOP! PLOP! - in the glass* Kelpy 8:13 pm //her teebs is drunkenforcefields Chillsins 8:13 pm *Lies back and spreads out like a giant starfish.* opatoes 8:14 pm /Smokescreen's going to grab a drink before going to relax near First Aid/ Kelpy 8:14 pm Fun there Swoop? Chillsins 8:14 pm *Total floor domination.* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:14 pm ((thanks!)) MedicalMurdersaurus 8:14 pm *fills the glass up but keeps landing them well enough to stack above the rim* Yah SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:14 pm ((EDWARD NYGMA!)) VProwl 8:15 pm *ooh! forensics* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:15 pm ((YEAH BOI)) *the dragon chuffs again* I like this human. NoodlesAtNight 8:15 pm [[Which one? There are many humans.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:15 pm ooh? SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:15 pm The riddling human. NoodlesAtNight 8:15 pm [[He does have a sense of humor.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:15 pm Racer: *is sniffing back by swerve again* VProwl 8:15 pm *forensics and brain teasers.* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:15 pm *lands the last treat and fist pumps* Chillsins 8:16 pm What kind...*he's listening more than watching* What kind of name is fish? VProwl 8:16 pm *prowl likes him. forensics and brain teasers are a winning combination.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:16 pm ((OSWALD COBBLEPOT)) opatoes 8:16 pm ... Wait, Oswald NoodlesAtNight 8:16 pm [[Is it not a good human name?]] SCProwl 8:17 pm *paying full attention now, this homicide got a great deal more interesting with that information about the bullet* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:17 pm ((man all this name dropping without the bat is weird 😮 )) Chillsins 8:17 pm It's unusual for a human. NoodlesAtNight 8:17 pm ((you get used to it 😃 )) Kelpy 8:17 pm //It really is lmao. i keep expecting to see him swoop in SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:18 pm ((they could've just subtitled that)) MedicalMurdersaurus 8:18 pm ((Did they seriously [Speaking Spanish] that?)) VProwl 8:18 pm ((what's this [[SPEAKING IN SPANISH]] rubbish)) ((everyone knows what mi casa es su casa means)) Kelpy 8:18 pm I don't think he likes it there. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:19 pm ((they did)) MedicalMurdersaurus 8:19 pm Them BAT that guy kehehhheh NoodlesAtNight 8:19 pm [[It does not seem like the kind of town he wishes it was.]] *Laserbeak cackles at Swoop's joke* opatoes 8:19 pm ... Wait, is this whole series like this? OmicronTheIceQueen 8:19 pm Racer: hia! *paw pat on swerve's pede or leg* opatoes 8:19 pm Where it takes place in the past? SCProwl 8:19 pm Like what? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:19 pm Kehehee <3 NoodlesAtNight 8:19 pm [[Yes.]] opatoes 8:19 pm Oooh. Kelpy 8:19 pm Hello small predacon. [nudges treat] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:19 pm RAcer: *GASP! noms treat up* VProwl 8:20 pm I think it's exactly the town he was hoping to be in. I just think he expected it would be easier to do something about it. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:20 pm *scrambles closer to Bird* : > NoodlesAtNight 8:20 pm *She pats Swoop.* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:20 pm <3 NoodlesAtNight 8:20 pm [[...He is talking about the hot dogs, yes? And not the real dogs.]] opatoes 8:20 pm Yeah! Hot dogs, I think. Kelpy 8:21 pm I hope so. NoodlesAtNight 8:21 pm [[Good.]] Chillsins 8:21 pm What's the difference? opatoes 8:21 pm This is like, the big city. There's hot dog vendors everywhere, from what I hear. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:21 pm *flops onna Icy. confy.* opatoes 8:21 pm Hot dogs are made of like... Meat. Mystery meat. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:21 pm *lifts head and gives specs a lick, still half playing dead* beeeeeeeeee 8:21 pm Pig I think Chillsins 8:21 pm So hot dogs could be dogs. NoodlesAtNight 8:21 pm [[Why do they not call it a hot pig?]] beeeeeeeeee 8:21 pm Or... cow.. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:21 pm *gives Icy a lick back* beeeeeeeeee 8:22 pm I can’t remember opatoes 8:22 pm I don't think it's all pig, though. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:22 pm ((POISON IVY)) NoodlesAtNight 8:22 pm @P: [[...Did you feel that way?]] opatoes 8:22 pm ... Is it? I've had them before and I have no clue. NoodlesAtNight 8:22 pm @P: [[That it was more difficult than you thought.]] Chillsins 8:22 pm I don't think it makes any difference. Organic goop is organic goop. Kelpy 8:22 pm Oh, MedicalMurdersaurus 8:22 pm Bird. Guess what : > NoodlesAtNight 8:22 pm {{What?}} MedicalMurdersaurus 8:22 pm Him Grimlock fight Optimus :V NoodlesAtNight 8:23 pm {{Oooo. Him Grimlock win?}} MedicalMurdersaurus 8:23 pm No kehehh Him mask all busted OmicronTheIceQueen 8:23 pm RAcer *standing up to look around and scarfing down any treats that are around swerve and swoop* NoodlesAtNight 8:23 pm {{That mean him not really King. Maybe you Swoop be King now.}} VProwl 8:23 pm @S «Not until Megatron made it difficult.» MedicalMurdersaurus 8:23 pm WHAT? *squawks* opatoes 8:23 pm King Swoop! MedicalMurdersaurus 8:23 pm NO no no! Kahaha! Kelpy 8:23 pm [amused, lets him] MedicalMurdersaurus 8:23 pm Me Swoop neeeeeever want to do THAT Kelpy 8:23 pm I thought Sludge wanted to be king? NoodlesAtNight 8:24 pm @P: [[How long into your career was that?]] opatoes 8:24 pm ... Man, chase sequences in shows and stuff always look so fun MedicalMurdersaurus 8:24 pm Grimlock and Slag and Sludge fight for leader king stuff Chillsins 8:24 pm You Swoop almost— *he feigns a yawn* —almost sensible for a change. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:24 pm Swoop and Snarl, never never SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:24 pm There's nothing fun about being chased like that, Smokescreen. SCProwl 8:24 pm They're not. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:24 pm no opatoes 8:24 pm I'm not saying it's fun, but the way it's filmed and slag is neat. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:24 pm Us not KINGS opatoes 8:25 pm They're fun sequences to follow as a viewer! VProwl 8:25 pm @S «About two thirds of a million years.» opatoes 8:25 pm Man, is that their first case solved? ... I'm guessing that's not the man though NoodlesAtNight 8:25 pm [[Why would you guess that?]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:26 pm ((hm, issat ed or oswald)) NoodlesAtNight 8:26 pm [[...Oh. That would be why.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:26 pm Racer: *slowly moving around, he looks about to jump up beside the bot and dinobot* opatoes 8:26 pm Because it's never that easy, also. Kelpy 8:26 pm Huh. VProwl 8:26 pm *agrees with smokescreen, but smokescreen said it faster so now he can't say it.* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:27 pm .... Bird. Do NOT Dinobots have King? Chillsins 8:27 pm That's a lot of dead people. NoodlesAtNight 8:27 pm {{Peh. Us not got king. Bird not any subject.}} [[...What happens now, if it is the incorrect suspect?]] MedicalMurdersaurus 8:27 pm You Bird can crown : > VProwl 8:27 pm If that information gets to the right people? The case is reopened. opatoes 8:27 pm ... Probably nothing, given how Gotham is. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:28 pm hmm beeeeeeeeee 8:28 pm Have you seen this Smokey? opatoes 8:28 pm I've seen a lot of Batman stories! beeeeeeeeee 8:28 pm That’s fair opatoes 8:28 pm He's a famous figure in human mythology. beeeeeeeeee 8:28 pm Mythology? opatoes 8:28 pm Yeah! The Batmythos beeeeeeeeee 8:28 pm Wow VProwl 8:28 pm There's an internal investigation to see if there was any misconduct in the shooting—which there SHOULD be anyway, but probably won't be. Kelpy 8:28 pm But he wasn't awqare of it OmicronTheIceQueen 8:28 pm Racer: *doing that jerky thing, about to jump, someone is going to get a lapful of hatchling* Kelpy 8:28 pm She's twisting the story! NoodlesAtNight 8:29 pm [[...And he assumes that this officer should not be telling anyone this.]] VProwl 8:29 pm But, apparently, instead of having an internal investigation, cops go behind other cops' backs to badmouth them to their lovers. Oh she should absolutely NOT be telling anyone this. beeeeeeeeee 8:29 pm Ohhhh no... VProwl 8:29 pm What a terrible police department. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:29 pm ((man she didn't hold onto that for a SECOND)) SCProwl 8:29 pm This entire investigation has been corrupt since the beginning. Chillsins 8:29 pm Sounds like everyone in this city has trust and communication issues. Too bad. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:30 pm *rolls rolls rolls around* opatoes 8:30 pm It really has been! This whole city is ridiculously corrupt Chillsins 8:30 pm *Snorts.* NoodlesAtNight 8:30 pm [[He /did/ tell you it involved him attempting to clean the city up.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:30 pm RAcer: *pounces on Swoop and runs off* VProwl 8:30 pm Primus below, these three officers all want to prove that there was a framing, why are they arguing? They should be cooperating. NoodlesAtNight 8:32 pm [[OPEN IT UP.]] VProwl 8:32 pm Yes! You did kill him! Face up to it! God! Kelpy 8:32 pm But wouldn't it count as self defense if he was attacking Gordon? [confused engine rumble] VProwl 8:32 pm Your job isn't more important than a crime! opatoes 8:32 pm ... Wait, it really was him? NoodlesAtNight 8:32 pm [[...IS that self defense?]] beeeeeeeeee 8:32 pm Oof i hope that kinda thing isn’t common... MedicalMurdersaurus 8:32 pm *pretzels himself up like it's yoga time* opatoes 8:32 pm Gotham's an outlier, I hope. VProwl 8:32 pm He was defending his partner. He'd have a case. He could get off with a temporary suspension. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:32 pm RAcer: *comes back to sniff swoop* Kelpy 8:32 pm Exactly! NoodlesAtNight 8:33 pm ((thank you jada pinkett smith for my life and everything good in it)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:33 pm ((I know, right)) OmicronTheIceQueen 8:33 pm isn't that making sense Prowl? SCProwl 8:33 pm ((yassss queen SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:33 pm ((I'm ace, but I'd let her step on me)) VProwl 8:33 pm ... Isn't what making sense? Chillsins 8:33 pm Uggggh. *Sits up to watch proper as opposed to peering over his chestplates.* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:34 pm I'm being sarcastic. but its aimed at the humans not you SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:34 pm She's going to eat him alive. She surely knows he's lying. NoodlesAtNight 8:34 pm [[She won't, but these humans might.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:34 pm Mates don't take that well. VProwl 8:34 pm ......... Then why did you say my... never mind. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:34 pm ((OOOH, DELICIOUS COW)) opatoes 8:34 pm ... I hope that's actually the director beeeeeeeeee 8:34 pm welllll that’s horrifying opatoes 8:34 pm that'd be hilarious beeeeeeeeee 8:34 pm Oh no OmicronTheIceQueen 8:35 pm *thinks* I agree that what you were saying makes the most sense. But the humans weren't? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:35 pm *plants his palms on the floor and picks his lower half up so his legs are parallel to the floor* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:35 pm *she ties* NoodlesAtNight 8:35 pm *HUFF* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:35 pm *is an air plank* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:35 pm ((sadly for smokey, it is not)) opatoes 8:35 pm ((dang OmicronTheIceQueen 8:36 pm Racer: *dares to hop onto the swoop air plank if he's not too high up?* opatoes 8:36 pm ... this is why you use speaker phone NoodlesAtNight 8:36 pm [[Oh dear.]] VProwl 8:36 pm Saw that one coming. Chillsins 8:36 pm Um. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:36 pm *wobbles since he was surprised but is plenty strong enough to balance a passenger* opatoes 8:37 pm ... is this a tarantino film is that why there are pedes SCProwl 8:37 pm She's a criminal. Of course she turned on him. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:37 pm ((SHE KNOWS)) She's going to eat him. beeeeeeeeee 8:37 pm Welp OmicronTheIceQueen 8:38 pm Racer: *happy squeak! perches on the swoop* NoodlesAtNight 8:38 pm [[Always make careful choices when spreading information.]] *Shaking his head.* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:38 pm ((omg love it)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:38 pm *the dragon watches with delight* Kelpy 8:38 pm Well, that was a dumb claim. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:38 pm She gave him a knife? Oh. VProwl 8:38 pm This is the problem with hyperboles. Chillsins 8:39 pm This is so dramatic. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:39 pm *slowly pushes up into a handstand, using his wings to balance as needed* opatoes 8:39 pm ... He probably should've known she would've asked him to do it for real beeeeeeeeee 8:39 pm Oh lord Chillsins 8:39 pm *Watches Swoop with one eye.* NoodlesAtNight 8:39 pm [[If one is going to be a criminal, one might as well enjoy it.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:39 pm RAcer: *scrabling to stay on* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:39 pm *is suddenly more interested in this show since it's got bullets and he's upside down* Chillsins 8:40 pm Shit rules. SCProwl 8:40 pm So the police work for this criminal? NoodlesAtNight 8:40 pm [[Friendship?]] *Steeples his fingers. Interesting.* Chaoit 8:40 pm ((-is back- NoodlesAtNight 8:40 pm ((wb)) Chaoit 8:41 pm ((what'd I miss? OmicronTheIceQueen 8:41 pm ((HIYA)) ((oops caps lock)) NoodlesAtNight 8:41 pm ((The local crime boss helped the cops frame someone for the Waynes' death. Gordon got onto them and got put in danger. Penguin was found out as the snitch that told another section of the cops and got beaten by his boss.)) VProwl 8:41 pm Ratbat. NoodlesAtNight 8:41 pm [[...What?]] VProwl 8:42 pm *points at Falcone.* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:42 pm Racer: *falls off swoop, sits up and pretends that didn't happen* Kelpy 8:42 pm [squints] NoodlesAtNight 8:42 pm *Taps the steepled fingers against his visor. Hmmm.* [[...He can see it.]] opatoes 8:42 pm I'm pretty sure Gotham isn't even on the knife anymore Chillsins 8:42 pm (( Goddamn those subs )) Chaoit 8:42 pm -just got done with a comm. call- What did I miss? Kelpy 8:42 pm I'm not sure I follow his logic, but... NoodlesAtNight 8:42 pm [[Though he does not believe this human is a politician.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:42 pm Yeah, this city is in the pitfall. VProwl 8:42 pm Aside from that. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:42 pm *bends his elbows enough to get some momentum to push off and flip himself upright again* opatoes 8:42 pm The city is in the pitfall, and is digging NoodlesAtNight 8:42 pm [[But, Swerve?]] *Curious* VProwl 8:43 pm He's not a politician, but he runs this city. And he runs it the same way Ratbat ran Kaon. beeeeeeeeee 8:43 pm That’s a good summary NoodlesAtNight 8:43 pm *SITS UP. Ooooh.* Chillsins 8:43 pm He won't do it. SCProwl 8:43 pm Primus. VProwl 8:43 pm He's not going to. But I don't know how he's going to get out of it. Kelpy 8:43 pm But It seems like it's sound logic if you go by his confiidence. NoodlesAtNight 8:43 pm [[Shoot the other detective?]] [[It /is/ persuasive, in a way.]] Chaoit 8:43 pm What...... oh VProwl 8:43 pm Jim isn't going to shoot the snitch. opatoes 8:43 pm this is just a bad thing to do a bad thing OmicronTheIceQueen 8:44 pm the frag MedicalMurdersaurus 8:44 pm Why that guy scared? VProwl 8:44 pm Oh. Is he going to fake it? Chaoit 8:44 pm Oh....it's...oh opatoes 8:44 pm He's probably gonna get him to fake it! And then the water NoodlesAtNight 8:44 pm [[Ohhhh.]] opatoes 8:44 pm so it makes Oswald going to be the penguin fitting SCProwl 8:44 pm You're right. He's not a good cop, but he is not as corrupt as the rest of them. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:44 pm It wouldn't be hard. The human's already bleeding. Shoot him in the ear, or the side of the head... Chaoit 8:44 pm -sink in seat, kinda wishing he'd chosen a better time to tune back in- VProwl 8:45 pm Morally, he's good. But he's still a rookie. opatoes 8:45 pm See? It fits! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:45 pm Oh. Or do that. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:45 pm hmm *she's not fond of this vid thing much* opatoes 8:45 pm He's swimming like a penguin and got some... Info? I guess? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:45 pm Him miss Chillsins 8:45 pm *Isn't either.* Chaoit 8:46 pm That wasn't a miss, that wasn't aimed to hit opatoes 8:46 pm ... Was any of that useful info like, at all? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:46 pm Miss head OmicronTheIceQueen 8:46 pm Racer: *pats Swoops face while he's upside down, then moves on to sniff for more treats, he's getting slowly bolder* Chaoit 8:47 pm He didn't aim for his head VProwl 8:47 pm ... Making him, effectively, the only cop in the city. The others are just thugs with badges. NoodlesAtNight 8:47 pm [[It tells him that there is something more going on beneath the surface, Smokescreen.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:47 pm ...Why is he telling the little one this? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:47 pm ((UHHH this is a lot to tell a kid)) opatoes 8:47 pm True! But I imagine he knew? Kelpy 8:47 pm [dangles a treat for Racer] MedicalMurdersaurus 8:47 pm Why shoot air? beeeeeeeeee 8:47 pm This seems intense for a kid Chaoit 8:48 pm He didn't want to kill him Kelpy 8:48 pm Yeah this seems like... Not something you tell a kid opatoes 8:48 pm ... Is this really the best thing to tell a kid first thing? VProwl 8:48 pm Why did you tell him just to then tell him to stay silent! MedicalMurdersaurus 8:48 pm Why? VProwl 8:48 pm What's a kid going to do to help you? NoodlesAtNight 8:48 pm [[...He knows why.]] Chaoit 8:48 pm Different set of morals MedicalMurdersaurus 8:48 pm 😕 VProwl 8:48 pm Why do you need the child's permission to do what you know is right. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:48 pm RAcer: *eyeing mechs....who can he get treats from?* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:48 pm Is the docent going to smack him? opatoes 8:48 pm ... Seriously. beeeeeeeeee 8:48 pm Do kids typically keep secrets well? opatoes 8:48 pm No Chaoit 8:48 pm It's okay...don't worry too much about it Chillsins 8:48 pm Some of them. opatoes 8:48 pm I was a bitlet once and I definitely didn't VProwl 8:48 pm If he'd shaken his head were you going to quit? And leave the city without someone to clean it up? Never externalize your moral compass. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:49 pm Hatchlings don't keep secrets well, either. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:49 pm noo, they tend to get exited opatoes 8:49 pm ... /He's laughing a bit hearing Prowl. That's a good mental image but he knows he shouldn't tell Prowl that./ MedicalMurdersaurus 8:49 pm Us Dinobots don't secrets! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:49 pm ((>penguin begins to make his way back to gotham)) ((dumbass)) SCProwl 8:50 pm I feel like I should familiarize myself with Earth laws if we're going to keep watching something like this. opatoes 8:50 pm kid no NoodlesAtNight 8:50 pm [[The child could not be allowed to learn the truth from another. He must know that he can trust James Gordon, and no other. If this was a murder by the Falcone human, and the child does not know, going to another cop with new information, questions, or any other thing may put his life at risk.]] Chillsins 8:50 pm Some kind of dark ritual happening in there. VProwl 8:50 pm Where was the child going to get new information? Kelpy 8:50 pm Oh. I guess. Um. opatoes 8:50 pm ... This Alfred's really loud and not my favorite Alred so far SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:51 pm Not exactly the proper way for a docent to handle a self-harmer, but I suppose he's stressed and terrified anyways. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:51 pm Racer: *pats at Swerve's leg chirps at him* Chillsins 8:51 pm ...Right. VProwl 8:51 pm *Oh. Soundwave warned him about this.* NoodlesAtNight 8:51 pm [[He is a billionaire. That much currency can go a long way for someone who is curious. And he does have a butler he could ask to help.]] opatoes 8:51 pm ... Kelpy 8:51 pm [dangles another treat for him] OmicronTheIceQueen 8:51 pm the frag?? Racer: *takes it nicely, then scarfs it down* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:52 pm *decides it's time to dance for some reason* Chillsins 8:52 pm *Raises a brow.* Kelpy 8:52 pm That girl is apparently at every crime scene in Gotham Chillsins 8:52 pm You Swoop have to pee? opatoes 8:52 pm ... I like her. Even if she reminds me of my alternate. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:53 pm ((catwomaaaaaaan)) MedicalMurdersaurus 8:53 pm Pee? *continues the dance* VProwl 8:53 pm *... those needles were fine. just a moment of tension and he was over it. hah. what do you know? warnings work.* Chillsins 8:53 pm The pee pee dance? VProwl 8:53 pm He's a billionaire with no reason to suspect that the name he was given was wrong. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:53 pm Pee pee dance? :V Chillsins 8:53 pm What humans do when they have to pee. NoodlesAtNight 8:53 pm [[And if it comes out that it was? What then?]] [[You think he will be satisfied knowing nothing after that?]] VProwl 8:54 pm Who was going to let it come out besides Jim? MedicalMurdersaurus 8:54 pm Me Swoop doooo becaaaause.. want to : > opatoes 8:54 pm ... This city is just a whole thing of good cop bad cop but without any good cops Kelpy 8:54 pm //that is corey in the house NoodlesAtNight 8:54 pm [[The two who are investigating Jim and know it was a frame.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:54 pm ((that is corey in the house!)) beeeeeeeeee 8:54 pm ((Oh my god)) NoodlesAtNight 8:54 pm [[They already leaked it to the Barbara human.]] opatoes 8:54 pm ... These grown ups are the worst VProwl 8:54 pm Oh, right, they DO suck at keep important information confidential. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:54 pm That's not how you talk to youths of any kinds SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:55 pm It is not. OmicronTheIceQueen 8:55 pm what. the. fragging. Pit. Chillsins 8:55 pm *Rubs under his eyes. This is tiresome.* You Swoop dance funny. NoodlesAtNight 8:55 pm *Then Windchill is welcome to fall asleep.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 8:55 pm *the dragon huffs* I'd eat him, if he was my size. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:55 pm *arms in the air wiggles* OmicronTheIceQueen 8:55 pm I can *to specs* opatoes 8:55 pm ... wait, that guy's name is Harvey isn't it beeeeeeeeee 8:55 pm They’re so violent NoodlesAtNight 8:55 pm [[It is.]] opatoes 8:56 pm ... Ohhhhh. NoodlesAtNight 8:56 pm [[They are high on their own power. Of course they are violent.]] Kelpy 8:56 pm ... NoodlesAtNight 8:56 pm [[It is not far different from how our own were.]] Kelpy 8:56 pm Is this where he gets the waddle OmicronTheIceQueen 8:56 pm Racer: *hops up and swerve has predacon lap warmer* opatoes 8:56 pm ... do humans really do this NoodlesAtNight 8:56 pm [[A damaged leg, no doubt.]] Kelpy 8:56 pm [pats Racer lightly] MedicalMurdersaurus 8:56 pm Waddles *wiggles is goofy baby borb butt* NoodlesAtNight 8:57 pm [[Oh no.]] opatoes 8:57 pm ... oh no Kelpy 8:57 pm Oh. beeeeeeeeee 8:57 pm Oh god MedicalMurdersaurus 8:57 pm KAHA NoodlesAtNight 8:57 pm [[He REALLY does not like that nickname.]] SCProwl 8:57 pm Fish hit him in the leg. It probably healed incorrectly. VProwl 8:57 pm He has anger issues. MedicalMurdersaurus 8:57 pm Him STAB in neck! Keheheh OmicronTheIceQueen 8:58 pm primus *carefully shifting, she's been 'dead' long enough, makes sure specs isn't going to fall off* opatoes 8:58 pm wait ed riddler NoodlesAtNight 8:58 pm ((i love every time jim looks at harvey like "god you're horrible")) SCProwl 8:58 pm ((go away ed OmicronTheIceQueen 8:58 pm Racer: *shamelessly being cute to get more treaths* MedicalMurdersaurus 8:58 pm ((he is so happy XD)) opatoes 8:58 pm ... I kinda like him MedicalMurdersaurus 8:59 pm ((when is this set?)) VProwl 8:59 pm Ballistics AND blood analysis? Is he the head of the forensics department or is he a multidisciplinarian? Kelpy 8:59 pm [happy to feed the baby predacon] [He's treat dispenser tonight really] NoodlesAtNight 8:59 pm ((there's actually no defined year. you will see technology of many different decades sprinkled around specifically to make it impossible to set so it can feel like it might happen any time)) MedicalMurdersaurus 8:59 pm ((That's nice.)) OmicronTheIceQueen 9:00 pm racer: *is going to be fat and happy at this rate. best. bot. ever.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:00 pm *the dragon is as stable as a rock. no worries!* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:00 pm *hops up in the air to do the splits and touch his toes* *TA DA!* NoodlesAtNight 9:00 pm [[The head of Forensics, he thinks.]] VProwl 9:00 pm ((for that reason i now choose to believe it's set in the same universe as a series of unfortunate events)) NoodlesAtNight 9:00 pm {{You Swoop talented.}} ((LMAO)) Kelpy 9:00 pm //lmfao MedicalMurdersaurus 9:00 pm Yah? :V *happy squirms* <3 Chillsins 9:01 pm You Swoop have lots of tricks. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:01 pm Me Swoop can AGAIN :V Chillsins 9:01 pm *He's almost envious. Almost.* Do it. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:01 pm ((she is so hot and evil)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:01 pm ((I KNOW, RIGHT)) opatoes 9:02 pm ((YEAH VProwl 9:02 pm He doesn't believe her and she doesn't believe he believes her. NoodlesAtNight 9:02 pm ((ngl her and starscream would get on like a house on fire)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:02 pm ((also, that wineglass was so poisoned)) MedicalMurdersaurus 9:02 pm *bends down pretty far to get a good launch for his next mid-air splits* *NAILS IT* Chillsins 9:02 pm *Applauds.* SCProwl 9:02 pm ((starscream is Oswald, but he wishes he were Fish NoodlesAtNight 9:02 pm ((LOL)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:02 pm ((or he's going to shoot lazlo)) MedicalMurdersaurus 9:02 pm *deeeep bows* Kelpy 9:02 pm Did he jut NoodlesAtNight 9:03 pm [[...She will be even angrier with him after this.]] Chillsins 9:03 pm You Swoop good at that. NoodlesAtNight 9:03 pm [[He plays a dangerous game with her, showing strength like that.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:03 pm He wants her enraged, then? NoodlesAtNight 9:03 pm [[Furious enemies do make mistakes...]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:04 pm You Bird want another trick? Me Swoop can another! Chillsins 9:04 pm No fire tricks. VProwl 9:04 pm Enraged or afraid. NoodlesAtNight 9:04 pm [[She is not much of a mother, then.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:05 pm ANY tricks for Bird <3 VProwl 9:05 pm *snorts at her unimpressed "hm."* Kelpy 9:05 pm I'm not sure I like that woman. She rubs me the wrong way SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:05 pm *the dragon blinks* That's a docent? NoodlesAtNight 9:05 pm [[The mother or Montoya?]] SCProwl 9:05 pm Mrs. Kapelput? Kelpy 9:05 pm Montoya SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:05 pm The mother. NoodlesAtNight 9:05 pm *Huffs softly at the dual answer.* VProwl 9:05 pm Maybe you shouldn't say out loud to people that you plan on killing your boss. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:05 pm is she a dragon? VProwl 9:06 pm The last time you did that, the person you talked to told your boss AND the police. beeeeeeeeee 9:06 pm ((I keep going through tunnels and losing service.)) opatoes 9:06 pm ((oh nooo beeeeeeeeee 9:07 pm ((Watching on the train isnt functional lmao, Ill catch yall later!!)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:07 pm Docents take care of the babies. At least for my species, the biological parents don't do so. We have a... poor track record of it. VProwl 9:07 pm ... Does he still have the bodies in the—? The criminals are lucky the cops are so corrupt because they're incompetent. NoodlesAtNight 9:07 pm ((dang. see you!)) VProwl 9:07 pm ((gnight!)) Chillsins 9:07 pm (( o7 )) Kelpy 9:07 pm //see you! opatoes 9:07 pm ((aww see you later! beeeeeeeeee 9:08 pm Whoops, I gotta head out. Good seeing you all! NoodlesAtNight 9:08 pm [[Goodnight, First Aid.]] Kelpy 9:08 pm Man, they really are bad at murder in this universe. beeeeeeeeee 9:08 pm Goodnight! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:08 pm Eating the bodies is the most efficient way to dispose of them. NoodlesAtNight 9:08 pm =Agreed.= [[Ravage.]] *Ravage sticks his nose in the air and hmphs.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:08 pm *the dragon chuffs at Ravage* I like you. Kelpy 9:09 pm I know someone who'd agreed. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:09 pm *walks around on his hands for maximum 'look at me Bird'* opatoes 9:09 pm ... is he using a fork come on man VProwl 9:09 pm He's a bad liar, too. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:09 pm ((be nice to Gordon, I can't use chopsticks either)) opatoes 9:10 pm yes do it SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:10 pm ((although I can't because my thumb/wrist joints pop out)) opatoes 9:10 pm come on SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:11 pm I think she knows someone's threatening him through her. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:11 pm ((my fingers hurt)) VProwl 9:11 pm Yeah that wasn't the right thing to do. It was the right thing to get the news out, yes. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:11 pm ((x.X)) MedicalMurdersaurus 9:12 pm *flips back upright and throws himself across the nearest couch and whoever is on it* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:12 pm ((he looks like the ugliest, uh)) ((uh)) ((god, I can't remember the word)) VProwl 9:12 pm No, it was NOT the right thing to leak information about an ACTIVE case when she's being told by the person in charge of the investigation that that would be bad. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:12 pm ((but he's like the idea of a frog, but ugly)) Chillsins 9:12 pm *Luckily, he is not on any couches. He is safe.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:12 pm The what? The what? NoodlesAtNight 9:13 pm *...Doesn't blame her for leaking the information but wonders how badly it's messed things up.* VProwl 9:13 pm They should and COULD have arranged it so that the information would get out in a way that, one, wouldn't compromise the case, and two, wouldn't compromise the officer who helped leak the information. NoodlesAtNight 9:13 pm *Taps a finger.* [[Have someone tell the children directly? Pass word?]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:13 pm She'd bite Harvey's head off. opatoes 9:13 pm uuuuugh what a creep SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:14 pm He is a terrible liar. NoodlesAtNight 9:14 pm [[He's not trying to be a good one.]] opatoes 9:14 pm They have really bad aim VProwl 9:15 pm He was trying to point them over to the person with a gun on him. NoodlesAtNight 9:15 pm [[It is dark. Humans do not have good night vision.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:15 pm I hear that humans don't have night vision. Kelpy 9:15 pm I feel like I'd be a better villain than these guys and I don't even want to be a villain. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:15 pm *squirms around on the soft until he's in a twisted enough position to be comfortable* opatoes 9:15 pm ... I guess, but they messed up their own place SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:15 pm Oh. As Soundwave says. VProwl 9:15 pm Passing word to the children would help slow down abductions, but it wouldn't help with the investigation very much. Chillsins 9:15 pm The pit ate him. NoodlesAtNight 9:15 pm {{...Where Pit go?}} SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:15 pm The Eaten consumes his own. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:15 pm Down NoodlesAtNight 9:16 pm {{Pfff! Of course Pit go down. It not pit if goes up.}} *Soundwave bristles.* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:16 pm WHat is? :V OmicronTheIceQueen 9:16 pm I don't trust this fleshy Kelpy 9:16 pm Arrest them, apparently. NoodlesAtNight 9:16 pm [[...What is he doing.]] opatoes 9:16 pm ... "Tough love?" OmicronTheIceQueen 9:16 pm they're arresting sparklings NoodlesAtNight 9:16 pm [[...Juvenile services. Is that not what humans call the department that arrests younglings?]] Chillsins 9:16 pm And nobody is surprised. NoodlesAtNight 9:17 pm *BRISTLES MORE.* opatoes 9:17 pm Yeah, that's what I expected. Primus, they are really digging to be the most corrupt, aren't they? Chaoit 9:17 pm /WHAT1?/ SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:17 pm *puffs up like a dust bunny* VProwl 9:17 pm Oh. Now they're arresting the young homeless for being young and homeless. Well. Fantastic. That's definitely a fantastic solution. Chaoit 9:17 pm Oh, no, I already don't like him OmicronTheIceQueen 9:17 pm *hisses at the screen* SCProwl 9:17 pm That won't backfire spectacularly at all. Kelpy 9:17 pm [bristles too] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:17 pm *hisses with Icy* VProwl 9:17 pm ((who the fuck did these subtitles)) MedicalMurdersaurus 9:17 pm *looks around at everyone and is visibly confused* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:17 pm ((A blind and drunk monkey)) Chaoit 9:17 pm Kindly jump out the window, afthat MedicalMurdersaurus 9:17 pm What hissing for? OmicronTheIceQueen 9:18 pm *all her spines lift up and fangs bared* Chillsins 9:18 pm (( A question we'd all like to see answered. )) SCProwl 9:18 pm ((l'chaim, it's not hard to spell. just. spell it out OmicronTheIceQueen 9:18 pm Racer: *PUFFS UP becuse the adult mecha are* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:18 pm *the dragon is a fuzzy, tiny mirror of Icy's Angery* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:18 pm What mad about? NoodlesAtNight 9:19 pm [[They are imprisoning abandoned younglings they neither know nor can prove have committed crimes.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:19 pm Oh Kay *doesn't think much of it* opatoes 9:19 pm uh oh VProwl 9:19 pm Oh no. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:20 pm Oh no. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:20 pm *growling* Chillsins 9:20 pm Of course. NoodlesAtNight 9:20 pm [[He gave them a FEAST.]] Kelpy 9:20 pm Well, you're the dumbass who handed them to them MedicalMurdersaurus 9:20 pm Kahahah Chillsins 9:20 pm Is that what they call working it? MedicalMurdersaurus 9:20 pm Hit him again! VProwl 9:20 pm *LAUGHS* He's throwing the book at him. Chaoit 9:21 pm Oh no. Things went wrong. NoodlesAtNight 9:21 pm *HUFFS* Kelpy 9:21 pm [snorts] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:21 pm KAHA SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:21 pm Bite all his fingers off. opatoes 9:21 pm ... wait he's doing it literally- phh VProwl 9:21 pm ... I'm sorry. That's inappropriate. Chaoit 9:21 pm Could never have seen that coming. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:21 pm *snorts* SCProwl 9:21 pm *huffs at her alternate's remark* Chaoit 9:21 pm -very flat tone- NoodlesAtNight 9:21 pm *Soundwave's biolights dim.* [[...He didn't mean feast /literally/.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:21 pm And after he draws the logo, bite his fingers off. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:21 pm *pauses, gives Soundwave a worryed look* Kelpy 9:21 pm ..... NoodlesAtNight 9:22 pm *Pats Prowl's knee. A little dark humor helps to lighten an unpleasant situation.* Kelpy 9:22 pm I don't think I like this. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:22 pm ((under the seat, ki- THERE WE GO)) Kelpy 9:22 pm [covers Racer's eyes] NoodlesAtNight 9:22 pm [[Bite her. Drag her under the seat and destroy her while she can't move.]] [[...Or run.]] Chaoit 9:23 pm Rescue? VProwl 9:23 pm ((the two of them are such good actors)) NoodlesAtNight 9:23 pm [["Dollmaker"?]] VProwl 9:23 pm ((they're so chipper/perky. even when they're being angry.)) NoodlesAtNight 9:23 pm [[That does not bode well.]] ((right?)) OmicronTheIceQueen 9:23 pm Racer: *huffs! what's going one?! WHY?! noms on the hand, his fangs are too hard yet* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:23 pm Little ones scare easily. And humans doesn't have claws and teeth. VProwl 9:24 pm She went for the eyes. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:24 pm Good. Kelpy 9:24 pm [keeps covering his optics] Chaoit 9:24 pm She took them /out/ OmicronTheIceQueen 9:24 pm ...... MedicalMurdersaurus 9:24 pm KAHAHHAH SCProwl 9:24 pm *shudders* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:24 pm Him eyes GONE NoodlesAtNight 9:24 pm =She IS called Cat.= SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:24 pm She's a good sort of hatchling. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:24 pm Kehehh NoodlesAtNight 9:24 pm *And he approves of her.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:24 pm *of course Ravage would* Chaoit 9:25 pm C'mong girl MedicalMurdersaurus 9:25 pm Her sneaky : > NoodlesAtNight 9:25 pm =Rookie mistake.= Kelpy 9:25 pm Woop VProwl 9:25 pm Hm. They consider their labor disposable. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:25 pm Racer: *he's rarely interested in the screen, but this hand is now a toy* SCProwl 9:25 pm *so glad she's only got audio description right now* Kelpy 9:25 pm [he will sacrifice his hand for the cause] NoodlesAtNight 9:26 pm *Tilts his head. Why would the father expect that he and his conjunx might die?* opatoes 9:26 pm ... You know he's ten right VProwl 9:26 pm Those are terrible instructions. Kelpy 9:26 pm I don't think trust him to choose his own course included not getting help for mental trauma. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:26 pm Why was he assuming that the little one wasn't listening? MedicalMurdersaurus 9:26 pm ((not loving this Alfred)) Fire fun : > NoodlesAtNight 9:27 pm ((there is more to alfred than shows up early on)) MedicalMurdersaurus 9:27 pm US DInobots do US own thing Go where want Do waht want Fighting fighting It fun : > Chillsins 9:27 pm If you say so. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:27 pm Racer: *grabbing swerve's wrist and hand, nomming away, tries to get treat or battle it!* Kelpy 9:27 pm [wriggles fingers at] Chaoit 9:27 pm Sometimes some guidance is a good thing opatoes 9:28 pm what about an orphanage kid MedicalMurdersaurus 9:28 pm DO say so Chillsins 9:28 pm Yup. I heard. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:28 pm Us Dinobots do eeeeeeeeverything SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:29 pm What? NoodlesAtNight 9:29 pm [[Ruthless youngling.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 9:29 pm ......................HAH Kelpy 9:29 pm Wow. Chaoit 9:29 pm Vry *Very SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:29 pm *the dragon just looks confused* What? OmicronTheIceQueen 9:29 pm she's half way to being a queen in her own right opatoes 9:30 pm . . . SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:30 pm Oh dear. Chillsins 9:30 pm *Sighs.* Chaoit 9:30 pm Um.... VProwl 9:30 pm I bet he's going to kill the hostage. Which is dumb. He should send an ear or something. NoodlesAtNight 9:31 pm [[............../Prowl./]] Chaoit 9:31 pm .... VProwl 9:31 pm What? I can criticize everyone in the show. Kelpy 9:31 pm Prowl. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:31 pm No, let your Prowl keep talking. SCProwl 9:31 pm *well, he's not wrong* NoodlesAtNight 9:31 pm *Soft puffing.* Chaoit 9:31 pm -he really isn't- Kelpy 9:31 pm Though, I guess if anyone would know, a cop would. VProwl 9:31 pm *"your Prowl." sits up sharply.* NoodlesAtNight 9:31 pm *Does not correct that.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:32 pm *in the dragon's defense, she has no defense. it's Soundwave's Prowl and Other Prowl.* NoodlesAtNight 9:32 pm ((all right, the next is the last one for the night)) OmicronTheIceQueen 9:32 pm *metalic dragon would likely agree to this* opatoes 9:32 pm ((thats fair!)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:32 pm ((understood.)) SCProwl 9:32 pm She's lying. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:32 pm *pushes himself back with his heels until he slides backwards over the arm of the couch to look around upside down* NoodlesAtNight 9:32 pm [[How do you know she's lying?]] Kelpy 9:33 pm She was there in the first episode watching them die. VProwl 9:33 pm Unless she followed and saw him when he turned the corner, she didn't see his face. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:33 pm ((he looks like the trompet)) SCProwl 9:34 pm He was wearing a mask the entire time he was in the alley and I doubt a good contract killer would unmask himself until he was safe. Kelpy 9:34 pm True. Chaoit 9:34 pm -snorts- Chillsins 9:34 pm Creepy. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:34 pm KAHAHAHHAHAAHAAAA! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:34 pm *chuffs* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:34 pm Him got BALLOON'd VProwl 9:34 pm ... Heh. NoodlesAtNight 9:34 pm [[...THAT'S creative.]] SCProwl 9:34 pm ...you've got to be kidding me. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:34 pm I'm intrigued. Kelpy 9:34 pm .... Can balloons carry that much weight OmicronTheIceQueen 9:34 pm .....hmm Chaoit 9:34 pm Well. That's a spectacle and a half SCProwl 9:34 pm Yes. VProwl 9:34 pm That's a new one. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:35 pm *completely falls backwards on his head off the couch, shrieking with laughter the entire way* opatoes 9:35 pm ... How many balloons does it take to lift up a Cybertronian? Chillsins 9:35 pm ...One really big balloon? NoodlesAtNight 9:35 pm [[Oh, yes. Humans often go flying in very large balloons. ... Of course, they are usually in a basket with safety measures and directional controls.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 9:35 pm RAcer: *wiggling free, notably heavery from eating all the treats on swerve he could reach* opatoes 9:35 pm I want a danish! Those sound tasty. VProwl 9:35 pm And usually consensually. Kelpy 9:35 pm But was that balloon *big* enough??? SCProwl 9:35 pm Humans are what, 100, 200 pounds? opatoes 9:35 pm Yeah, I think that's how much they are. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:35 pm ish? Chaoit 9:35 pm -snickers- From the sounds of it, he deserved it NoodlesAtNight 9:35 pm [[He does not know. He's never tried to attach a human to a balloon.]] [[...He wouldn't.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:36 pm *makes grabby hands at Bird from the floor* You can BALLOON bots! Kehehheh! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:36 pm It's a worthwhile experiment. NoodlesAtNight 9:36 pm [[He would. Primus.]] [[If Gordon is going to clean up his department, he could stand to do it a little faster.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 9:36 pm

I should not go to this place VProwl 9:36 pm He rushes on one and he only takes out one. VProwl 9:36 pm He goes slowly and he can take out dozens at once. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:36 pm I'll overload my converstion tanks panic the world *bemused* NoodlesAtNight 9:37 pm [[Fair. But still.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:37 pm I like her. Chillsins 9:37 pm *Snorts.* VProwl 9:38 pm He's being cautious. I don't blame him. It's sensible. Kelpy 9:38 pm Kinda think the city needs some serious firepower. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:39 pm *blows raspberries* Why him LOCK? opatoes 9:39 pm ... she's gonna get out of that isn't she yeeeeep NoodlesAtNight 9:39 pm [[So she won't run. Or so he thinks she won't run.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:39 pm He left a thieving hatchling with- Yep. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:39 pm Dumb SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:39 pm She's gone. NoodlesAtNight 9:39 pm [[That explains where the pen went.]] Kelpy 9:39 pm He should have expected her to pick it. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:39 pm wasn't a known thief JUST in the cop place...nest thing? Chaoit 9:39 pm Clever VProwl 9:39 pm ... She planned ahead. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:40 pm ((Why, oh why, are sewer scenes so common? Blehhh!)) Chaoit 9:40 pm EW SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:40 pm Of course she did. She's not an idiot. VProwl 9:40 pm Quite the little escape artist. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:40 pm HAH! NoodlesAtNight 9:40 pm =We cats are difficult to contain.= Chaoit 9:40 pm She's kinda amazing like that NoodlesAtNight 9:40 pm *Smug look.* VProwl 9:40 pm A /frustrating/ little escape artist. Kelpy 9:40 pm I kind of want to adopt her. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:40 pm *ICY APPROVES OF THIS SMALL HUMAN* VProwl 9:40 pm *he's afraid he's starting to warm up to her.* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:41 pm Someone handcuff You Ravage?? NoodlesAtNight 9:41 pm =They try.= SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:41 pm No one handcuffs Ravage. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:41 pm stasis cuffs are fun to break out of NoodlesAtNight 9:42 pm [[He does not know why this one is called Fish. Shark would be more appropriate.]] VProwl 9:42 pm Why's she selling out her own—? Oh. Kelpy 9:42 pm You know. These two MCU cops really are kind of dumb. Chaoit 9:42 pm In other words: /YES/ VProwl 9:42 pm He's a terrible actor. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:43 pm No one in Gotham city cares about anything, do they? Chillsins 9:43 pm No. opatoes 9:43 pm I feel like at this point, you don't live in Gotham unless you just don't care OmicronTheIceQueen 9:43 pm Racer: *falls off swerve, waddles himself over to soundwave's couch* NoodlesAtNight 9:43 pm [[It is hard to care when those who should care about YOU do not.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:43 pm Also fair. NoodlesAtNight 9:44 pm [[...It may also be unwise to care, depending on what you might be caring about.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:44 pm *kicks his feet up to hold his toes in his hands* Kelpy 9:44 pm Honrestly every time the MCU cops say something about Gordon being in on the frame and reshape the evidence to fit their version of events instead of reconsidering events to fit evidence I want to kick them. VProwl 9:44 pm For the most part, this show is not focusing on the kind of people who care. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:44 pm *looks over at swoop, debating* Chillsins 9:45 pm Not caring only perpetuates the problem. You're just complicit in the system. *Shrugs.* NoodlesAtNight 9:45 pm *Pings Swerve an agreement.* [[They are only getting in the way of themselves.]] [[Of course, he could choose to tell them what actually happened.]] VProwl 9:45 pm And now they're just... telling him. Chillsins 9:46 pm *Snorts.* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:46 pm When do movie do fight stuff? Kelpy 9:46 pm They are *shit* at their job. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:46 pm Their own worst enemies. NoodlesAtNight 9:46 pm {{Movie BEEN doing.}} opatoes 9:46 pm ... he's going to make a job opening MedicalMurdersaurus 9:46 pm Keheh But do NOW Big fight : . *: > NoodlesAtNight 9:47 pm *Thinks Smokescreen is right.* VProwl 9:47 pm They're just telling him all about their suspicions without even... *sighs* SCProwl 9:47 pm Why not try a different restaurant? OmicronTheIceQueen 9:47 pm Racer: *sneaks over and headbumps soundwave, remembered the offer before* 'avee? opatoes 9:47 pm That would be the smart thing to do, Prowl. Kelpy 9:47 pm HOw do the MCU cops even have jobs. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:47 pm ((the lead poisoning has gotten to their brains)) NoodlesAtNight 9:47 pm *Soundwave startles slightly, then leans over. Oh? Welcome back, Racer. Up the arm, if you please.* [[Likely because nobody else will take them.]] Chillsins 9:47 pm *Nobody in this show is that smart except maybe the cat girl. Maybe.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:48 pm Run. opatoes 9:48 pm yeeeeep I knew it Kelpy 9:48 pm .... Can't he just buy some shoes. Chaoit 9:48 pm Oh dear Apparently not Kelpy 9:48 pm I think he's gone murder crazy opatoes 9:48 pm Again, that'd be the smart thing to do NoodlesAtNight 9:48 pm [[He doesn't think it is the shoes that are the important thing here.]] opatoes 9:48 pm ... I guess once you've murdered, what, four people, murdering more isn't hard? MedicalMurdersaurus 9:48 pm Ah! OmicronTheIceQueen 9:48 pm Racer: *clings to soundwave's arm, he's moving stiffer...he maaay have ate too much, but won't stop him from begging for more* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:48 pm Now good stuff : > VProwl 9:48 pm *dryly* Probably because the captain has concluded they're too stupid to expose the corruption in the department. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:49 pm Oh Maybe .... no : < Kelpy 9:49 pm Apparently. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:49 pm Me Swoop want biiiiiiiig fight NoodlesAtNight 9:49 pm [[Balloon him.]] Chillsins 9:49 pm You Swoop watching wrong show. NoodlesAtNight 9:49 pm *...Perks.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:49 pm There he goes. Kelpy 9:49 pm Oh. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:49 pm Balloon! Balloon! Balloon! Kelpy 9:49 pm What was the paper! What was it! NoodlesAtNight 9:50 pm [[Bon voyage.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 9:50 pm *snorts* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:50 pm Me Swoop want balloon : > NoodlesAtNight 9:50 pm [[He is sure we will find out what the paper was soon enough.]] Chillsins 9:50 pm A regular balloon, I hope. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:50 pm Coming at this from a draconic point of view, what is the problem with tying those people to balloons? opatoes 9:50 pm Alfred, you're supposed to take care of him. Not enable this behavior MedicalMurdersaurus 9:50 pm no NoodlesAtNight 9:50 pm [[Humans cannot breathe at the heights a weather balloon will go to.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:51 pm BIG VProwl 9:51 pm The fact that they can't get them down and they die. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:51 pm BIGGEST balloon! NoodlesAtNight 9:51 pm [[Oh, they'll get them down.]] *Huffing.* VProwl 9:51 pm Well, the body. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:51 pm Ah, that does make sense. SCProwl 9:51 pm Are they filling them with helium? VProwl 9:51 pm To be fair, not that it's a great loss. Chillsins 9:51 pm What is the biggest balloon? OmicronTheIceQueen 9:51 pm RAcer: *meeps, he tries to rest head on soundwave's leg/lap* MedicalMurdersaurus 9:51 pm *holds out his arms and wings* BIGGEST SCProwl 9:51 pm *huffs at Soundwave's remark* NoodlesAtNight 9:52 pm *Soundwave will allow it and pull a tarp out of subspace for Racer to use if he wants it.* Chillsins 9:52 pm I've not seen a balloon that big. opatoes 9:52 pm .... pphphfff Chillsins 9:53 pm I guess you'll have to go on an epic quest to find one. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:53 pm *chuffs* Get her landlord, Balloonman. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:53 pm *wiggles and grins* Biiiiiiiggest balloon NoodlesAtNight 9:53 pm [[HE WAS BEATING SUSPECTS WITH A STATUE.]] *...Pardon him.* VProwl 9:53 pm If they think he's "not that bad," that says more about the department than about the lieutenant. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:53 pm *no, Soundwave, you're valid* Kelpy 9:53 pm Really. NoodlesAtNight 9:53 pm [[He does not know that he wants to see what 'worse' is.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:53 pm Worse is getting in trouble for it, apparently. VProwl 9:54 pm Well. Shooting snitches, for starters. NoodlesAtNight 9:54 pm [[Hm. Fair.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 9:54 pm Racer: *optics close, paws at tarp? what's this?* NoodlesAtNight 9:54 pm *Soundwave demonstrates by draping a corner over one thigh. See? A cover. He then picks it up and offers it to Racer instead.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:54 pm Does he? Or does he just know how to get Fish to frame someone? opatoes 9:54 pm That guy probably meant to get more balloons, considering how many corrupt cops are here Chillsins 9:54 pm *Snorts.* VProwl 9:54 pm ... One balloon is for the statue. SCProwl 9:54 pm They seem so protective of their own officers, even when corrupt. I suppose a bad cop to the GCPD would be a cop who kills other cops. NoodlesAtNight 9:55 pm [[It is probably best he only got four. Air pollution is likely bad enough in that city.]] VProwl 9:55 pm Heh. opatoes 9:55 pm Pff- SCProwl 9:55 pm Ah. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:55 pm Trouble arises. SCProwl 9:55 pm I knew it. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:55 pm ((this guy is a wild nerd oh my god)) NoodlesAtNight 9:56 pm ((who?)) Chaoit 9:56 pm That might be why he chose that restaurant MedicalMurdersaurus 9:56 pm (🐧) NoodlesAtNight 9:56 pm ((omg)) Kelpy 9:56 pm Boy. MedicalMurdersaurus 9:56 pm ((I can't tell if my gaydar is pinging with him or not though...)) OmicronTheIceQueen 9:56 pm Big queen! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:56 pm She's going to murder that cop, isn't she? MedicalMurdersaurus 9:56 pm Kahah! Him throw UP on couch! SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:57 pm Ugh. SCProwl 9:57 pm Unnecessary. NoodlesAtNight 9:57 pm [[That was unnecessary.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:57 pm Awesome : > VProwl 9:57 pm Why does he keep punching people! NoodlesAtNight 9:57 pm *He is pleased to see Jim agreed.* opatoes 9:57 pm ... Every time I hear MCU I think of the wrong acronym SCProwl 9:57 pm She could have put that thing down on his head. She didn't. NoodlesAtNight 9:57 pm [[She should have.]] MedicalMurdersaurus 9:57 pm ((I love how he never actually gets to sit with her omfg)) OmicronTheIceQueen 9:57 pm Much-crunchy-units? VProwl 9:57 pm I realize that's the least thing wrong with his conduct, but still! He needs to stop punching people! Chaoit 9:58 pm That would have been putting it down MedicalMurdersaurus 9:58 pm Punching FUN Kelpy 9:58 pm God Montoya yet again. NoodlesAtNight 9:58 pm [[You should.]] opatoes 9:58 pm Getting high? Kelpy 9:59 pm She's going to come and reveal more information, wrong information, yet again right? VProwl 9:59 pm Why does she keep doing this. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 9:59 pm Why does she keep- *chuffs* VProwl 9:59 pm They're a mess. Everyone in this city is a mess. Kelpy 9:59 pm Why does she keep breaking into people's houses. OmicronTheIceQueen 9:59 pm *squints at screen* Kelpy 9:59 pm Proably. opatoes 9:59 pm ... Oh. Chaoit 9:59 pm Yeesh OmicronTheIceQueen 10:00 pm ...... SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:00 pm ... OmicronTheIceQueen 10:00 pm How the frag is that her choice? Kelpy 10:00 pm ..... Chillsins 10:00 pm Gross. VProwl 10:00 pm Oh, well. Emotionally compromised. Fantastic. And SCREWING UP YOUR OWN CASE BECAUSE OF IT. SCProwl 10:00 pm She needs to be taken off this investigation. NoodlesAtNight 10:00 pm [[She should remove herself from the case. She is -- yes.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:00 pm Pair- or multibonds aren't exactly logical, but this goes beyond the pale. NoodlesAtNight 10:00 pm [[She is too close to it.]] VProwl 10:01 pm She is. NoodlesAtNight 10:01 pm [[You see. He told you.]] opatoes 10:01 pm ... th Kelpy 10:01 pm How do they work. opatoes 10:01 pm they don't know how balloons work- SCProwl 10:01 pm Splat. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:01 pm ((omg)) Chillsins 10:01 pm Oh joy. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:01 pm Oh no. OmicronTheIceQueen 10:01 pm from what I've seen....oh no opatoes 10:01 pm you'd think they'd know about these bodies falling and- adfspcxbncv Kelpy 10:01 pm Oh. VProwl 10:01 pm *LAUGHS* MedicalMurdersaurus 10:01 pm *SCREAMS he is laughing SO HARD* VProwl 10:02 pm *claps his hands over his mouth* MedicalMurdersaurus 10:02 pm *cannot HANDLE this* NoodlesAtNight 10:02 pm *Trembling.* VProwl 10:02 pm *he's doubled over laughing* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:02 pm I've seen dragons die like that. NoodlesAtNight 10:02 pm [[And now we get to see the paper.]] SCProwl 10:02 pm *snorts loudly into her hand* VProwl 10:02 pm *his head is between his knees* Chaoit 10:02 pm Wow VProwl 10:02 pm *he's still laughing.* NoodlesAtNight 10:02 pm *Pats Prowl's back.* Kelpy 10:03 pm Are you okay PRowl. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:03 pm *can hear someone else laughing and that's enough to keep him rolling* VProwl 10:03 pm *shakes his head* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:03 pm Someone's in trouble. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:04 pm ((I can't get over how hilarious these balloon murders are. So fucking cartoony.)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:04 pm ((I love it.)) OmicronTheIceQueen 10:04 pm Racer: *soft snore* Chillsins 10:04 pm She should be next. NoodlesAtNight 10:05 pm *...How precious, Racer.* [[He would prefer the Mayor went first.]] Kelpy 10:05 pm Same. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:05 pm He's gone for a banker, a cop, and a priest. I'd guess politician next. VProwl 10:05 pm *okay. he's still hunched over but he's watching the screen now.* OmicronTheIceQueen 10:05 pm that would be nice Chillsins 10:05 pm Need more balloons. Chaoit 10:06 pm Trap? SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:06 pm Trap. NoodlesAtNight 10:06 pm [[Of course.]] VProwl 10:06 pm Looks like one. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:06 pm How balloons made? OmicronTheIceQueen 10:06 pm trap *nods* NoodlesAtNight 10:06 pm [[In the factory.]] opatoes 10:06 pm they're just walking right into it, huh? Chaoit 10:06 pm Yup MedicalMurdersaurus 10:06 pm Balloon factory SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:06 pm To be fair, they'd need a very long stick to pop it. NoodlesAtNight 10:06 pm [[Ha.]] VProwl 10:07 pm ... USUALLY this isn't my policy, but under the circumstances I'd advocate shooting the balloon BEFORE approaching the scene. NoodlesAtNight 10:07 pm [[Agreed.]] *...Kind of wishes the Lamond human had managed about a dozen more before getting caught.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:07 pm Ah. Mayor's next. Chillsins 10:08 pm Should have offed the mayor first, then. VProwl 10:08 pm Unfortunately, he has a point. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:08 pm He does. VProwl 10:08 pm Shoot the balloon. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:08 pm Keeheee opatoes 10:08 pm Ow. Kelpy 10:08 pm Jeez SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:08 pm Ow. That would shatter a limb. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:08 pm Bad landing keehee Chaoit 10:09 pm Yikes OmicronTheIceQueen 10:09 pm didn't roll SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:09 pm That was a threat. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:10 pm ((Is it weird that I wish her bangs changed colors to match her outfits?)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:10 pm ((I know, right!)) NoodlesAtNight 10:10 pm ((no i often wish the same)) Chaoit 10:10 pm ((no, that would be awesome VProwl 10:10 pm ((now i wish it too)) OmicronTheIceQueen 10:10 pm ((....that would be cool)) NoodlesAtNight 10:12 pm *Is pleased to see the youngling eating again. The caretaker did have a point.* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:12 pm ((PUT YOUR GUN AWAY JIM)) ((NOT IN THE HOUSE, NOT WITH YOUR GF)) opatoes 10:12 pm Can he? Chaoit 10:12 pm ((that's dangerous Jim MedicalMurdersaurus 10:12 pm *yaaaaaaaaaaaaaawns* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:12 pm Mates always want to believe that. OmicronTheIceQueen 10:13 pm hmm opatoes 10:13 pm Didn't she just leak info he needed to be kept secret an episode or two ago Kelpy 10:13 pm Yes OmicronTheIceQueen 10:13 pm *sceps gets a surpize grooming* SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:13 pm She did, so he can't. But she still would like to believe that. *purr purr* OmicronTheIceQueen 10:14 pm *eyes where smokey is* Kelpy 10:14 pm Oh NoodlesAtNight 10:14 pm [[PRIMUS.]] SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:14 pm What. Chaoit 10:14 pm What SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:14 pm WHAT. Chillsins 10:14 pm *Stretches.* VProwl 10:14 pm Well. That can't be going anywhere good. MedicalMurdersaurus 10:14 pm ((boy needs to get some sleep)) SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:14 pm ... NoodlesAtNight 10:15 pm [[We will have to find out next time.]] opatoes 10:15 pm /Looking back at Icy/ OmicronTheIceQueen 10:15 pm that doesnt seem wise Chaoit 10:15 pm Not with that music it can't SCProwl 10:15 pm This city isn't going to get any better any time soon, is it? opatoes 10:15 pm no OmicronTheIceQueen 10:15 pm *griiiins at smokey* Chillsins 10:15 pm Nah, it's still like that when Batboy grows up. SpecsTheSpectralDragon 10:15 pm I should go now. The kitchen will not clean itself. *licks Icy back* Goodnight Soundwave, Icy, Racer, everyone. NoodlesAtNight 10:15 pm [[Goodnight, dragon.]] ((time marker: 10:37)) MedicalMurdersaurus 10:15 pm *stands up and shakes out all his limbs* opatoes 10:15 pm OH YEAH this song! Aww- night, Specs! Chillsins 10:15 pm *Rolls to his knees, then feet.* OmicronTheIceQueen 10:16 pm Racer: *another soft snore, as inched over to be half curled up by a soundwave leg* safe travel home specs MedicalMurdersaurus 10:16 pm Bird! Us go fly! NoodlesAtNight 10:16 pm *Leans into Prowl as much as he dares while not disturbing Racer.* SCProwl 10:16 pm ...batboy? VProwl 10:16 pm *... leans back against Soundwave* OmicronTheIceQueen 10:16 pm Racer: *zonked, he can flop and not mind* opatoes 10:17 pm /Smokescreen's getting up and dancing with this song!/ NoodlesAtNight 10:17 pm *...This reminds him.* [[The protoform you were caring for. How is she?]] MedicalMurdersaurus 10:17 pm Bird bird! Me Swoop want to flying! OmicronTheIceQueen 10:18 pm *watching smokey, debating on when he's in reach* VProwl 10:18 pm Oh—she's good. Still figuring out foot coordination but from the waist up she's pretty much got everything sorted out. NoodlesAtNight 10:18 pm {{When? Now?}} MedicalMurdersaurus 10:19 pm Yah now! And! Also! Later too : > Chillsins 10:19 pm *Stretches again.* I'm out. Gotta make sure that my punkass boyfriend hasn't let Blue eat the protoform. *Sighs dramatically.* NoodlesAtNight 10:20 pm *Soundwave smiles behind his visor. He THOUGHT Prowl might've checked up on her.* [[He should see the four he brought. He's been... well. You know.]] *Unconscious, for most of it.* [[It is good that she - Minus, was it? - is flourishing.]] *Looks over. Windchill has a protoform?* [[You have another spawn?]] VProwl 10:20 pm You ended up with four? ... How are they? opatoes 10:20 pm Hey, Sounds. Sounds, have you been resting well? NoodlesAtNight 10:21 pm {{Kaaaaay. Not long flight. Bird got repairs.}} MedicalMurdersaurus 10:21 pm Bird hurt?? NoodlesAtNight 10:21 pm [[Hm? Yes. He's... recharged rather a lot, lately.]] {{Nooooo. Home repair.}} MedicalMurdersaurus 10:21 pm OH. Home repair. Chillsins 10:21 pm *Slowly lowers arm to a not-stretching pose.* She's not mine. opatoes 10:21 pm That's good! That's good- do you like blankets or anything? OmicronTheIceQueen 10:22 pm *slooowly arching a wing over to smokey, the wing claws flexing to grab* opatoes 10:22 pm /Smokescreen's going to take a step to the side to try to evade!/ Kelpy 10:23 pm Speaking of Protoforms, I should head back and check on the ones on the Lost Light. We're hopefully sending them to Cybertron tomorrow. Chaoit 10:23 pm -just gonna watch this with amusement- NoodlesAtNight 10:23 pm [[They were doing well when they were taken from him, and when he looked at them before delivering the cure. He believes one of them will become a sheepicron. Two are twins, and one continues to enjoy listening to music.]] *Brightens a little at that last bit.* [[He wonders if she will be inclined to play, or merely listen.]] OmicronTheIceQueen 10:23 pm *cant reach with the joint with the claws but has the rest of the ig wing to flop on him* MedicalMurdersaurus 10:23 pm *wiggles* Us go flying now, Bird! NoodlesAtNight 10:23 pm [[...If she is not yours, why do you have her still?]] *To Smokescreen next* [[He has plenty, thank you. His human is most generous in that respect.]] {{Kay!}} *And Bird is off* MedicalMurdersaurus 10:23 pm *pchooo* opatoes 10:24 pm Oh! Fair enough! What about pillows? Chillsins 10:24 pm *Shrugs.* What else am I supposed to do? NoodlesAtNight 10:24 pm [[Goodnight, then, Swerve. He hopes they are doing well also. What you did for them was a great service.]] *Soundwave just taps one of his many, many points. Pillows and him don't agree.* Kelpy 10:24 pm Thanks. Hopefully they all do well on Cybertron. Night guys! opatoes 10:24 pm ... True. Scarves? OmicronTheIceQueen 10:24 pm rest well, and thank you for feeding the bottomless pit VProwl 10:24 pm ... What's a sheepicron? *guess who knows, like, nothing about animals.* opatoes 10:24 pm Nice to see you again, Swerve! Kelpy 10:25 pm [waves and heads out] VProwl 10:25 pm *it's Prowl "is this a dog?" of Petrex* NoodlesAtNight 10:25 pm [[...Send her to a facility designed to care for her? He assumes yours was part of the wave that hit the multiverse.]] VProwl 10:25 pm Evening, Swerve. *he barely said anything to him all night.* NoodlesAtNight 10:26 pm [[No, no scarves. Nothing, thank you.]] *Turns his head to Prowl and displays a flock of sheepicron.* [[Good steel wool source.]] Chillsins 10:26 pm No thanks. NoodlesAtNight 10:26 pm [[The ones that aren't Cybertronians, that is.]] opatoes 10:27 pm ... Is there anything that you'd like, Sounds? That isn't a relic that I can't give up. VProwl 10:27 pm Oh. I think I've seen those before. NoodlesAtNight 10:27 pm [[He would like a new strategy game, actually.]] opatoes 10:27 pm ... I could ask my alternate. He likes that kinda thing. Chillsins 10:28 pm *He wasn't aware that was an option, too late now suckers.* NoodlesAtNight 10:29 pm *...Doesn't know how to respond to Windchill. It's not like they can do anything about it; that's an entirely different timeline with its own rules.* *He hopes it's doing well, though.* SCProwl 10:30 pm I have to be getting back. Goodnight, everyone. Chaoit 10:30 pm -should probably get going before a certain someone comes looking for him- NoodlesAtNight 10:30 pm [[Quite peaceful, most of them. The protoform is... hm. Not like them, in that respect. Somewhat temperamental. He headbutted one of the volunteers when they tried to test the dexterity of his new hands.]] opatoes 10:30 pm I'm gonna go home and ask my alternate about it- night, Sounds, Prowl, Blaster, Chili. It was good to see you again! NoodlesAtNight 10:31 pm [[Goodnight, Prowl, Smokescreen. Thank you for asking them.]] Chaoit 10:31 pm G'night, Smokescreen Chillsins 10:31 pm *Sighs. It's not Windy at least.* NoodlesAtNight 10:31 pm *No, no. Quite the lack of breeze tonight. Up here, at least. Tends to get whistly down in the canyon.* Chillsins 10:31 pm *And it's for the best. Throwing protoforms into a facility to be tended by staff sounds like a horrible idea.* NoodlesAtNight 10:32 pm *That's what HE thinks as well, but they aren't the kind of youngling he knows much about, so he tries not to argue too much. For now.* Chaoit 10:32 pm -and up he get, himself- And thanks for the movies, Soundwave. Good luck rebuilding. VProwl 10:32 pm Hm. Well, that's /some/ kind of dexterity, at least. NoodlesAtNight 10:32 pm [[You're welcome, and thank you. He will try to finish repairs as quickly as possible.]] Chillsins 10:32 pm *Fair. His doesn't even have a face yet and it's weirding him out.* Bye, suckerrrrrs. *He's gone.* NoodlesAtNight 10:33 pm [[Goodbye.]] Chaoit 10:33 pm ((thanks for the stream! Byyyye NoodlesAtNight 10:33 pm ((seeya!)) NoodlesAtNight 10:34 pm [[Indeed. He hopes it hasn't become a habit, though. It /was/ making the necessary tests difficult to conduct.]] NoodlesAtNight 10:36 pm *Soft vent. He misses watching them, sort of. They were growing on him in a weird way. He'd never monitored anyone through their earliest days before; even Zori was already complete and walking around. It was fascinating as hell.* VProwl 10:37 pm If we arrest a beastformer for headbutting people in the streets, I'll let you know. NoodlesAtNight 10:37 pm *Twists to look at Prowl.* [[...Would you really?]] VProwl 10:38 pm ... I meant it as a joke, but if you want to know, sure. NoodlesAtNight 10:39 pm *Considers this for a few seconds. Would it be weird if he agreed? Prowl seemed to think people caring about protoforms when they weren't blacksmiths and metallurgists was weird, but who /else/ would advocate for them? Especially if they did turn out to have such a shape? Soundwave liked to think many Cybertronians had learned better than the old days, but he knew better than to trust in that.* [[...Yes. Yes, he would.]] VProwl 10:41 pm All right. I'll let you know. NoodlesAtNight 10:41 pm *Dips his helm, with all sincerity.* [[Thank you.]] VProwl 10:44 pm You're welcome. NoodlesAtNight 10:44 pm *More awkwardness.* [[He never - everything you did, when the crisis began. What you did to help everyone, and how - hard you worked, hard you wore yourself down to ensure they were safe? The Cybertronians and the protoforms. Even here, in--]] *Fidget. Well. Prowl probably remembers what happened with Whirl. No need to mention it.* [[It was - inspiring. Admirable.]] [[...Perhaps this is an odd thing to say. He does not know. But it felt as though he finally saw you as you were always meant to be.]] [[He had an idea, you'd told him, and he thought he understood, of course, but - to /see/ it.]] VProwl 10:46 pm ... Oh. I— oh. That's... oh. *oh wow look at prowl's hands in his lap those are so fascinating.* NoodlesAtNight 10:47 pm *Whatever makes them fascinating must be contagious with an extremely short incubation cycle, because he's doing the same thing with his own.* [[...Too much?]] VProwl 10:47 pm N-no, no. Not at all. I—honestly, actually, think that— feel like— NoodlesAtNight 10:48 pm *Glance up.* VProwl 10:49 pm —this is, the... the first time, in a very long time, that I've... BEEN what I'm supposed to be. VProwl 10:50 pm I feel—correct. I can't remember the last time I've felt this correct. NoodlesAtNight 10:57 pm *He's smiling, behind that mask. And not his usual thin and predatory smile. The thin metal around his optics is crinkling, and the only reason any part of his fangs are showing is because he's never quite able to close his mouth right.*

*Prowl deserves to see that. He deserves to be given the full truth for what he did for everyone. So Soundwave takes the visor off with a feeler and lets the smile sit right where it is while he replies.*

[[It pleases him to know that. It is all he has wanted for you. That you finally felt that way...]] *Twitchy fingers. Offers a hand?* [[He hopes it will never leave you again.]] VProwl 11:05 pm *Prowl catches sight of the visor lowering first; and then immediately focuses on Soundwave's face. Oh. Hi there. That's a—that's a very nice smile. Hey. Hi. Wow.*

... Uh. *eloquent.* Thank you. For—saying that. This. And—hoping it all. *okay, he's not going to be able to talk if he keeps looking at Soundwave's face, time to drop his gaze— oh hey a hand. takes it.*

... Do you feel correct yet? Or are you—still searching for it? *prowl was fairly confident everyone came out of the war looking for a place they felt correct.* NoodlesAtNight 11:13 pm [[You are welcome.]] *Gonna just. Lift that hand to his face for a second, if allowed. Settle it against the side. Feel the real Prowl. He got a glimpse with that kiss (and oh, how his spark flips at the memory) but this one would be nice too.*

[[...He is unsure. He is more - correct, than he has been in a long time, but--]] *His smile falls a little.* [[Yes. He's still looking. He does not know that he will ever find it.]] *Pause.* [[Or if he still can.]] NoodlesAtNight 11:17 pm [[...He does not know that he ever was, in truth. He does not think there were many who came out of the Well the way he did.]] *Not many remember it as well as he can.* [[But he will try, regardless.]] VProwl 11:19 pm *Prowl lets Soundwave lift his hand, and gladly cups his face, running his thumb against the side.* ... A year ago, I never thought I'd be correct again, either. VProwl 11:22 pm *He leans closer, pressing his crest to Soundwave's.* You helped me find my way back. I'm—home, now, and I have you to thank more than anyone else. If there's anything I can do to help you find your way to "correct," just—just ask. NoodlesAtNight 11:27 pm *Soundwave closes his optics to focus on the spot where their crests meet before nuzzling them together a bit.* [[It was his honor.]] *The smile almost returns to where it was a moment ago. Not quite, but close.* [[Hm. Do not tell his past self he said that. Their spark couldn't handle the shock.]] *He pulls back, but only far enough to let him kiss Prowl's crest.* [[Thank you. He will tell you if he thinks of it.]] VProwl 11:34 pm *Huff.* Helping a poor, broken Autobot muster up the resolve to become a police captain. I think both our past selves would be equally shocked. *he dimmed his optics and lowered his head enough for Soundwave to kiss him.*

... What IS going on with your spark, anyway? NoodlesAtNight 11:36 pm *Soundwave freezes where he is. If he spoke aloud, he'd be nervously mouthing this against Prowl's helm.* [[...What do you mean.]] VProwl 11:43 pm When Whirl was infected, I got the spark signal generator to act as bait. Crank it up to multiple sparks, so I'd be more appealing than anything else in the area. But the moment you showed up, he focused on you instead. I checked later—the generator was outputting thirty-eight spark signatures. VProwl 11:46 pm And Un— Unicron said that you—I don't remember the words—you stink of Primus, something like that—which at the time I assumed just meant, in contrast to /me,/ since I was the only other one there and my avatar doesn't have a spark signature—but, I'm not so sure now. I've seen other footage of him, and he hasn't said things like that to anyone else. NoodlesAtNight 11:47 pm *Frag. Frag, frag, frag. He still doesn't move. How can he account for this? He can't claim it's deployers. He does NOT have thirty-eight deployers. Think faster, Soundwave. The more you delay, the more reason has Prowl to believe you're hiding someth--oh, Pit. There it is.* VProwl 11:49 pm So. *he sits up straighter.* Is something—going on with your spark? Because, if there is—whatever it is, it's making you VERY attractive to things that want to eat you. And that's highly concerning. NoodlesAtNight 11:49 pm *...FRAG. He's bound by that /damned rule,/ too. How could he POSSIBLY give an alternative explanation that would not be hurting them? What if they go into battle like they did with U-- like they did before, again? If he doesn't tell Prowl the truth, it could lead to some serious planning problems. Injury. Death, maybe.* *He shutters his optics again. It'll be easier if he doesn't have to see Prowl looking at him. Right?* VProwl 11:51 pm *Soundwave's taking a while to answer.* ... If it's not something you can share... NoodlesAtNight 11:51 pm [[It's... not /his/ spark. Anymore.]] VProwl 11:51 pm ... I can think of over twenty different things you might mean by that. NoodlesAtNight 11:55 pm [[You are one of the most intelligent mechs he has ever met. Tell him, Prowl...]] *He pulls away and bows his helm. The tone of his mental voice drops to such quietness it's almost hard to pick out from what would normally be floating around in Prowl's head.* [[If it is not his, and - and Unicron said /that,/ then...]] *Vent.* [[There are /not/ twenty different explanations.]] Yesterday NoodlesAtNight 11:55 pm [[So what does it leave you.]] VProwl 12:02 am You underestimate how many explanations I can come up with. But—fine. Highest probability, averaging nine independent theories into a single broad one? You completed some sort of ritual—something like Megatron with the dark energon or a Prime with the Matrix—and traded your, I don't know, your independence or autonomy or something, maybe literally your spark, to Primus or some representative, in exchange for a massive power boost to or replacement for your spark. And maybe something else—the deployers who'd died, maybe. NoodlesAtNight 12:07 am [[You are, as ever, a brilliant detective.]] *His feelers slide out to curl around him, protectively and comfortingly.* [[The deployers were not involved. They were - something else. It's not important.]]

*It's easier now that someone else said it first. All he has to do is give the finer details of the story they already told.*

[[Several years ago, the Shockwave he was...]] *Shudder.* [[The one in a mutually poisonous relationship with him. He acquired an artifact that had been traveling the multiverse. Astrotrain found it, but did not want it. It became a gift to him.]]

*Give him a moment. Even easier, it's still on hard mode. It's just not on nightmare mode.* VProwl 12:09 am *THAT Shockwave, huh? Well, this was already off to a great start. Prowl nodded, waiting patiently and pretending he was absolutely not burning with curiosity to find out what this mysterious artifact is.* NoodlesAtNight 12:22 am [[His natural spark is... It was in serious disrepair, then. Even now, another merge could kill him.]] *He licks his lips. Please let that admission never come back to hurt him.* [[Shockwave knew this. It was meant to be used to stabilize him. A rare moment of kindness. And /he/ was desperate to stay alive as long as possible, now that he had others to live for again. Anything for the guarantee of even one more decade to spend with them, after so long without.]] *His ventilation pattern hitches there. They really do mean everything to him, Prowl.* [[It was a shard of Primus' own spark. He came to us to reclaim it.]] *The tone takes on something creeping toward the edges of hysteria for a second.* [[/Shockwave sprayed Primus in the face with a bottle of acid./]] *Because it was Shockwave. Of course he had no time for 'gods'. And now he's back to the tone he'd been using before.* [[Primus left without taking it back. It had already melded with his own. It will be part of him as long as he is alive.]] NoodlesAtNight 12:22 am *Whether it leaves when he dies naturally or Primus comes back to get it won't make a difference. If it's ripped loose, his spark will destabilize anyway.* VProwl 12:32 am *Halfway through Soundwave's story, Prowl's optics widened. And when it was over, for a long moment, all Prowl could think of to say was,* ... That's the most Shockwave thing I've ever heard in my life. NoodlesAtNight 12:32 am [[Isn't it.]] NoodlesAtNight 12:33 am *It could almost have been said with fondness. Maybe one day long ago it had been, but no more. Now, he just hated the mech.* VProwl 12:34 am *And somehow, Prowl couldn't quite stop his own thoughts from flickering to Tarantulas.* NoodlesAtNight 12:36 am [[Fool that he was, he later swore an oath to Primus that he would answer only to him, do all that was within his power to preserve Cybertron and its inhabitants, and do what he could to make up for his involvement in the original spread of dark energon and waking of Unicron. He did not know then how neatly he had enslaved himself. He did not know that until we battled Unicron together.]] VProwl 12:36 am ... I'm not seeing anything foolish in that, but go on. *maybe the "answer only to Primus" bit, but if you ACTUALLY believe Primus is divine then it's not a terrible idea.* NoodlesAtNight 12:43 am [[He is a fool because he became /bait,/ Prowl. That is his punishment for stealing this. He has no idea how long he will live now, but that is what he will be until he ceases functioning. Every sparkeater. Every facet of Unicron. Anything that will want what he has because they would want the source. He promised to go in and face them. He made /himself/ into the thing he resents now having to always be.]] [[And for doing what he thought Megatron was an idiot for doing with a different source.]] VProwl 12:44 am ... Hm. Well. Far be it for me to question the motives of gods and monsters, but I don't think you're being punished. I think that smelling delicious to Unicron is just the natural, logical consequence of having a chunk of Primus in your chest. It's not a divine punishment, it's an odd medical condition. NoodlesAtNight 12:47 am *Soundwave just. He just sits back and stares at Prowl for a moment. How can he - an odd medical - is he--?* VProwl 12:47 am *What.* NoodlesAtNight 12:48 am [[...Nothing. You just - have a way with words, at times.]] VProwl 12:49 am I hope that's a compliment. NoodlesAtNight 12:49 am *Shaking his head a bit.* [[He thinks it is.]] VProwl 12:49 am Oh, good. NoodlesAtNight 12:50 am [[It /feels/ like a punishment.]] [[...And he's so very tired of feeling owned by another.]] VProwl 12:53 am Well. In the course of a few months, you've been chewed on by Unicron AND Whirl. I think anyone would feel punished. *Prowl turns more fully sideways, pulling a leg onto the couch and draping an elbow over the back.* Has Primus been making demands of you? Has he been forcing you to do things you don't want to? And I don't mean have you felt like he is—has he actually? NoodlesAtNight 12:59 am [[Primus hasn't demanded anything since he refused to return the shard. Requests. Conversations. The occasional gift. No clutching him by the throat and forcing his hand.]] *Pause.* [[But he has been silent for far longer lately than ever before. It is - troubling. Frightening.]] *What does it mean when someone who was nice to you after you stole something from them stops being nice?* VProwl 1:01 am ... Ssso you resent the fact that you've made /yourself/ feel owned my another, because you /voluntarily/ decided to serve someone who's asking nothing of you. That's— I— hm. *hold on. He's got to figure out how to explain this.* NoodlesAtNight 1:02 am [[...............It sounded less stupid in his own mind.]] VProwl 1:02 am ... That's like deciding to wear a collar around your dom and then getting mad he didn't ask you to take it off. NoodlesAtNight 1:02 am *His optics widen. PROWL, YOU CANNOT CALL PRIMUS HIS DOM, THAT IS FIVE KINDS OF BLASPHEMY...* VProwl 1:03 am ... What? *look. he understands bdsm dynamics. it was the best metaphor he could think of.* ... No, wait, because he didn't even agree to be your dom. NoodlesAtNight 1:04 am [[PRIMUS IS NOT HIS DOM.]] *He looks ready to die on the spot.* [[If anyone took that honor, it would be you, but you prefer to be the-- /hm./]] *No, NOW he looks ready to die.* [[/He sees your point, may we please never refer to it in these terms again./]] VProwl 1:05 am I meant metaphorically. Was it not clear that that was—? Okay. All right. *pause.* ... I'm fine with switching. NoodlesAtNight 1:07 am *One of Soundwave's optics and the right corner of his mouth takes up a five-second tic before he resets his vocalizer and tries to fix his dignity with it.* VProwl 1:07 am Sorry. I think we got a little off track. NoodlesAtNight 1:08 am [[A little.]] VProwl 1:08 am Anyway. My point is—I don't think you're enslaved. Or being punished. Or bait. Or a fool. VProwl 1:09 am ... Maybe you're just used to seeing people that way. NoodlesAtNight 1:10 am [[...As which one? You listed four.]] VProwl 1:11 am All four. Not simultaneously, but in general. *he's somewhat aware that Soundwave does not think very highly of the vast majority of people.* NoodlesAtNight 1:13 am [[...You would not be wrong.]] NoodlesAtNight 1:16 am [[He has decided. It was a compliment.]] VProwl 1:16 am I'm relieved. *... if he reaches for one of Soundwave's hands...?* NoodlesAtNight 1:17 am [[And he - thanks you, for it. Even if he does not know that he likes what the truth as you suggest it is implies about him. Though that is no fault of your own. Only his.]] *Starts to reach for Prowl's. Hesitates. ... Goes ahead and lets him take it.* [[Somehow, he feels better, despite that.]] VProwl 1:20 am *good. this is his hand now.* I'd think it's better than being divinely punished to serve as Unicron bait. Medical conditions can be mitigated. Tarantulas has some tech to block EM fields, maybe he can make you less appealing to... *oh. right. tarantulas. prowl's still mad at tarantulas.* NoodlesAtNight 1:20 am [[NO. No one else can know.]] *Looks genuinely, actually, VISIBLY panicked at the thought.* *Armor puffed out and everything.* VProwl 1:21 am No, no, of course not. *god, could you IMAGINE if TARANTULAS knew.* We wouldn't have to TELL him. I could ask for the tech without explaining why, or use it on a different project. ... Assuming we're ever on speaking terms again. NoodlesAtNight 1:23 am *Harsh vent. Okay. Okay, good. He thought - for a second, he was afraid Prowl would - and then everyone - okay. Okay. Slowly de-puffing. Very slowly.*

*Once it's about halfway back to normal:* [[Do you want to be?]] VProwl 1:24 am Mm. Don't know. *never mind that. prowl squeezes soundwave's hand. moving on.* So. What other—I don't know a good word—sssymptoms do you have? You've essentially got a spark bond with Primus, does it come with the whole... remotely sensing each other's pain deal? NoodlesAtNight 1:26 am *He can take that hint. They'll set that aside. Even if he /was/ hoping it would serve as a way to jump away from his own. But he already gave Prowl that much, he might as well go full in at this point.*

*He squeezes the hand back, looks down to Prowl's leg, and up again. Can he talk while resting?* VProwl 1:27 am *what do you want with his leg? you can have it. it's free real estate.* NoodlesAtNight 1:34 am *Just to use it as a pillow, mostly. This kind of discussion is as physically exhausting as it is mentally - an odd phenomenon he's never figured out how to explain.*

*He'll shift himself around for a second, transferring the hand grip from one to the other while he gets settled, and rests across the couch with his head on Prowl's lap.*

[[He isn't sure. It is much... larger? More powerful?]] *How do you describe this kind of thing?* [[Than any of the deployer bonds. He does not know how to properly understand it.]]

[[He is more sensitive to the presence of dark energon than he ever was before. And he sometimes wonders if it... if it has changed who he is, at all. Overwritten him in some way, like what he told you about his "Thing". Or given him other ideas.]] *Frown.* [[He would prefer to think that is his own doing.]] NoodlesAtNight 1:36 am *Sometimes, when he thinks too hard about it, he gets a little scared that he only went down this better path because he got pushed there.* [[...He sleeps more. There is that.]] VProwl 1:37 am *oh. that was a very disturbing thought. Soundwave gets a hand squeeze AND an offer of Prowl's other hand.* You're tired more, or you're less restless? NoodlesAtNight 1:41 am *He'll take the other one and squeeze both.*

[[The first. There are times when he feels like he could recharge for a century if someone or something didn't wake him.]]

*Soundwave tilts his head back to better look up at Prowl.* [[He is almost never /not/ restless. There is far too much to learn. Too many questions to answer. So much to know...]] VProwl 1:44 am *Prowl very nearly smiles.* Somehow, I'm not surprised. NoodlesAtNight 1:46 am [[Perhaps one day he'll be able to tell you about you that, too. For now, he has something better in mind.]] *Tugs him closer with those captured hands. Got a whisper for you.* VProwl 1:48 am *All right? He leans in. Although he has a guess where this might be going.* NoodlesAtNight 1:49 am *Soundwave just nips his cheek. The whisper is more of an accompanying mental image. He's feeling particularly grateful right now.* *And it's been so, /so/ long since they were in the same place and alone and as comfortable with one another's presence as this.* VProwl 1:51 am *oh. he likes that. Prowl turns to brush a kiss along the corner of Soundwave's mouth.* ... Although we should probably go inside first. NoodlesAtNight 1:52 am [[If you absolutely insist.]] *Bridge? Bridge.* NoodlesAtNight 1:53 am *And, hey. He still hadn't gotten around to putting those chains back in the apartment, either.* VProwl 1:54 am *bridge it is. the chains can wait; the second they're somewhere that Prowl can kiss Soundwave properly, he's taking advantage of it.*

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[megalony]

Family of six- Part 4

I’ve finally managed to finish the next part of this Murderer! Ben Hardy series so I hope you will all enjoy it, feedback is always lovely.

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Summary: Ben and (Y/n) have a son together and are pregnant again but things take a worrisome turn when (Y/n) develops severe morning sickness and they find out they’re having triplets.

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"When can we go see mummy?" Billy's voice was quiet and tired but there was curiosity in his words. The five-year-old looked up at Ben with tired eyes that had been staring at the same walls for the past two hours now. Every person that walked past them was a source of interest for Billy because he could think up a story for them and a name like they were characters in a movie he was watching to cure his boredness.

"We'll get to see her soon buddy, she's just with the doctor right now."

Ben rested his chin on top of Billy's head as he tightened his arms around his boy who was perched on his lap leaning back into Ben in a way that showed he was growing tired. For the first half an hour Billy had been silent but content sitting on Ben's lap wrapped up in a comforting hug but then the longer they waited the more uneasy Billy seemed to feel. He wanted to go see (Y/n) and see if she was better and the waiting made him anxious much like it seemed to do to Ben.

To a certain extent Ben didn't mind the waiting, it felt better to wait a long time because it meant that (Y/n) was being treated and checked over. But then again, the longer Ben waited the more it made him suspicious that something had gone wrong for it to be taking this long to get her settled and in a stable condition. Ben didn't want Billy to be here waiting and panicking with him but Ben couldn't take him home in case the doctor came out to talk to him. As soon as the doctor had talked to Ben he would let Billy see her and then take him home.

Ben still had to ring his parents and tell them what was happening, even though they lived almost an hour away he knew that he and (Y/n) would need some help and they were the closest people to help that Ben could think of. (Y/n)'s parents were close by but they weren't on speaking terms with (Y/n) since the moment she got engaged to Ben so he couldn't call them.

This situation was going to go one of two ways, either (Y/n) had suffered a miscarriage and Ben would definitely need his parents around so he could look after (Y/n) and help her cope. Or if they hadn't lost this pregnancy they were going to need a lot more help considering they were only four months along and something like this had happened so early on.

"Is mummy gonna get better?" Billy leaned a bit further into Ben's chest but he wouldn't look up at Ben, a sure sign he was uncomfortable with the topic and was afraid of the answer he was going to receive. He simply looked down at Ben's hand and started slowly drawing patterns on the back of his hand, tracing the pad of his finger over the tattoos on Ben's knuckles. It was fascinating to Billy to look at all of Ben's tattoos but it did sometimes confuse him. Ben had so many different tattoos covering his skin but then Billy would see other people and his friend's parents and wonder why they didn't have half as many as Ben did.

"Course she is, that's why the doctor's looking after her."

"You said when mummy's ill you look after her."

Ben tipped his head back against the wall and rubbed at his eyes for a moment to try and relieve the headache he could feel forming behind his eyes. He didn't like how anxious he could see Billy becoming and he hated that he couldn't do anything about it until he had managed to speak to a doctor.

"Buddy, I'll always look after your mum but when she's sick like this a doctor needs to look after her and give her medicine which I can't do-"

"You give mummy medicine! You give her her tablets, why can't you look after mummy?"

"Baby calm down." Ben hooked his hands under Billy's arms and gently lifted him up so he could turn him around on his lap, wanting his son facing him. He could see the panic building up in Billy's eyes and the desperation creeping in the tone of his voice.

Billy associated hospitals with death and danger and it was somewhere that made him feel unsafe and uncomfortable. When he had a chest infection last year and had to have fluids drained from his lungs it hadn't been a good experience for him considering he had only been four at the time. And he knew Ben had had family go to hospital and never come out again. He didn't want (Y/n) to be here because it seemed like a bad sign to Billy, he didn't quite understand that people went to hospital even when they had only small or minor problems.

Whenever Billy was sick or ill (Y/n) and Ben looked after him and whenever (Y/n) was ill or upset or had any kind of problem, Billy knew Ben always tried to do something to help. He looked after her and calmed her down, Billy wanted Ben to look after (Y/n) and no one else.

"I do give your mum medicine, I sort her tablets out and I look after her, but I don't make those tablets or tell her which ones she needs and maybe she needs some new tablets for now which is why she needs to see the doctor. But when she's better and comes home I'll be the one looking after her I swear. She's gonna be fine baby, you don't have to worry."

Ben rested his chin on Billy's temple and sighed when he felt his boy burrow into his chest like he was trying to curl up and disappear. He hoped his words were enough to calm Billy down because there wasn't much else that Ben could say or do to try and make him feel more at ease and settled right now. He wanted to be able to tell Billy that (Y/n) was going to be perfectly fine and that she could go home soon but he doubted (Y/n) would be going home for a few days at least and he knew she wasn't going to be fine for a few days or even weeks.

But for now he could only tell Billy that (Y/n) was getting the help she needed and it was going to make her better in time.

A few minutes of silence passed between the father and son before Ben looked to the left and instantly recognised the doctor walking towards them as being the one who was now treating (Y/n).

"Buddy, why don't you play a game on my phone for a minute so I can go talk to your mum's doctor?"

Billy looked up at Ben with wide eyes but nodded in agreement all the same, he let Ben pick him up and move him onto the seat next to him before he got his phone out of his pocket. Ben had two phones, one for work and one for personal use which he always let Billy use to play games on. There was no way that Ben could let Billy use his work phone in case he saw something he shouldn't or it rang and Billy tried to answer it. He didn't know what Ben did specifically at the club and Ben wanted to keep it that way.

Getting to his feet, Ben walked a few paces away from the waiting area and over to the doctor who had a warm smile on his face but it didn't make Ben feel any more at ease.

"Mr Hardy?"

"Yeah, is my wife okay?" Ben slipped his hands into his back pockets to stop himself from clenching his hands into fists out of nervousness. He needed to feel like he was in control of every situation or else he didn't know what to do and right now there was nothing about this situation that Ben could control and help with.

"She's awake now. We've put your wife on an IV drip due to how dehydrated she was when you brought her in and she has anti-emetics going straight into her bloodstream so that it actually stays in her system."

With (Y/n) not being able to keep anything down it was the only and easiest option to just have the fluids go straight into her bloodstream along with the medication that will ease her constant sickness feeling. She won't keep throwing up or gagging or generally feeling sick with the anti-emetics and with them going straight into her blood rather than her stomach it meant they could get through her system and work without being thrown up. That was a big relief to Ben to know that (Y/n) could finally have the medication and have it work for once.

"What about the pregnancy?" Ben wasn't stupid, he knew that with the state (Y/n) was in she could have easily miscarried with how dehydrated she was when he found her earlier and if he didn't get to her sooner (Y/n) herself could have become a lot worse off.

"The pregnancy doesn't seem to have been affected. Your wife will be monitored for the next week or two as she is still at risk of miscarrying but with her now having fluids and proteins straight into her system there shouldn't be any problems with the babies."

Ben nodded before he tipped his head down to look at the floor, needing a moment to gather himself and his thoughts. It had crossed his mind more than once about what he would do or say if they lost this pregnancy. Triplets wasn't what they had been expecting or what they initially wanted in the beginning. But they still wanted to have kids and neither Ben nor (Y/n) wanted to lose any of the three new lives they had created.

"We need to keep her in for observation for at least a week so we can get her fluid levels up and get your wife to start eating and monitor the pregnancy and she may need to stay for longer, depending on how quickly she recovers."

"Can I go see her now?"

"Of course."

Ben needed no more than that to make him turn on his heels and head over to where Billy was at contently playing a game on his phone. He scooped Billy up into his arms, letting him continue playing the level of the game he was focusing on.

"Alright buddy, we're off to see your mum now and then I'm gonna take you home, sound good?" He settled Billy on his hip, taking his phone back the moment Billy handed it over, no longer interested in the phone now he knew he could go and see (Y/n). The waiting hadn't been too bad for Billy, he was easily content by looking at his surroundings, his mind had the ability to run away with him and he could sit with his thoughts. But it was the worry of not knowing if (Y/n) was okay that had been hard on Billy.

Ben knew his son had been unsettled and shocked by seeing (Y/n) in such a state. He was very close to (Y/n) so finding her in the bathroom like that and having to see her so ill was frightening for the five year old and it hurt Ben to see his son be so distressed like he had been today.

Neither of them knew what to expect when they entered (Y/n)'s hospital room, although Ben had been told (Y/n) was awake part of him expected her to be asleep or half conscious like she had been earlier.

Ben rubbed his hand up and down Billy's back as they both looked over at (Y/n) the moment they entered the room. (Y/n) still looked as pale as she had done when Ben found her earlier in the bathroom. She could barely keep her eyes open but as he got closer Ben realised that her lips weren't chapped or pale in colour anymore and she didn't have a cold sweat anymore. It was surprising to Ben that (Y/n) was awake right now when she had only been barely lucid earlier and it surprised him even more that she hadn't miscarried. As much as he was relieved and overjoyed that (Y/n) was still pregnant, it was surprising because of how dehydrated she was and how little she had eaten.

There was a drip taped to her left hand and one taped into a vein in her right arm which Ben knew were both for the fluids she needed and the anti-emetics, both of which would be going straight into her bloodstream. There was a monitor checking her heart rate which was thankfully silent at the moment so there was no background noise to focus on.

"Mummy!" Billy started to wriggle in Ben's arms, feeling a desperate urge to scramble over to (Y/n). It had been little over two hours since he had last seen her but Billy was yearning to burrow into (Y/n)'s arms and reassure himself that she was okay.

"Hey baby." (Y/n)'s voice was scratchy and very quiet but the tired smile on her lips was enough to calm Billy right down and make him almost jump out of Ben's arms and onto the bed. He crawled his way up the bed until he was level with (Y/n) and flung his arms around her neck, burrowing into her side when he felt her arms cocooning around him like a safety blanket.

"Buddy be careful with your mum, mind the wires."

Ben leaned over the pair of them so that he could help Billy move under the drips rather than laying on them like he was so that he didn't constrict the fluids (Y/n) needed. When he was sure that Billy wasn't laying on any wires or tubes, Ben sat down in the seat next to the bed.

He could feel his heart beating just that little bit faster in his chest at the sight in front of him. It was normal for Ben to find Billy curled up next to (Y/n) o the sofa or in bed, as much as he loved following Ben around like a lost puppy, he was always attaching himself to (Y/n). But it made something inside of Ben churn to see Billy curled up against (Y/n) when she looked as ill as she did and when she was laid in a hospital bed. It was like Ben was looking at a familiar photo but the background was different or something was missing and it was making him feel uneasy.

"You better now mummy?" Billy tilted his head up so his chin was perched on (Y/n)'s shoulder and the way he looked up at her with puppy dog eyes made her heart melt in her chest. It was as if he was willing for her to be better so they could all go home when deep down he knew (Y/n) wasn't going to be coming home tonight.

"I feel a bit better now baby, but I can't come home just yet." (Y/n) slowly started to card her finger through Billy's hair to try and calm him down when he frowned and looked like he was about to cry.

"Why? Daddy said he can look after you-"

"Buddy don't start that again, please. You know your mum has to stay here and get better before she comes home. The doctor will look after your mum and I'll look after you."

Ben didn't want to go through this again, he knew Billy was just desperate for them all to go back home where he felt safer and more at ease but right now that just couldn't happen. Ben couldn't make (Y/n) better by magic and neither could the doctors and if she went home right now all that would happen would be a repeat of today. (Y/n) wouldn't eat because she wouldn't have the medicine going straight into her vein and she would lose fluids. It was very clear that if she lost anymore fluids they were in danger of losing her and not just the babies.

"What about baby, is baby okay?" Billy still looked unsure and rather deflated at the news that (Y/n) wasn't coming home with them yet but he was clearly trying his best to stay positive. He slowly moved his hand and looked down to (Y/n)'s small bump that he started to rub like he was soothing the baby and making sure they were okay.

Neither (Y/n) nor Ben had the heart or the courage to tell Billy just yet that it wasn't just one baby. They both knew that the news of three new siblings all at once wasn't going to be exactly what he wanted to hear. The five year old did want siblings but he also liked being an only child because he got the attention he wanted from both his parents. Three new babies in the house was going to steal the attention he had so far and it wouldn't be as fun as he thought having a sibling would be.

"Yeah, the baby's okay."

"Can you play a game on my phone again for a minute buddy just so I can talk to your mum before we go home?"

When Billy nodded, Ben fished his personal phone out from his pocket and handed it to Billy when the five year old sat up on the bed. He planted a loud kiss to (Y/n)'s cheek before he slowly scrambled off the bed and sat down on the chair next to the door to give his parents some space to talk.

"I left you for one morning and I end up getting Billy calling me cause you collapsed in the bathroom. Why didn't you tell me how bad you were?"

Ben watched the way (Y/n)'s eyes flicked down to look at her hands which were resting on her stomach so she didn't have to look at Ben's burning gaze. She knew he wasn't telling her off or angry with her but she knew that he was uneasy about this. Billy had to call him and tell him to come home and that was something that had never happened before and that Ben didn't even consider would happen. If (Y/n) just told him how badly she felt in the morning he would have stayed and could have been there when she collapsed instead of her being home alone with Billy.

"Billy called you? I was gonna ring you but everything just seemed to blur and switch off... how badly did I scare him?"

A sigh escaped Ben's lips when he saw the tears forming in (Y/n)'s eyes at the thought of scaring Billy like that. He tangled his hand with hers but moved his other hand to the back of (Y/n)'s head, knotting his fingers into her hair as he leaned to kiss her temple.

(Y/n) didn't remember much about this morning, she knew that suddenly she felt like her insides were churning and as if her stomach was shrivelling up into nothing. When she collapsed in the bathroom everything else seemed to blur together into a mush of voices and movements. She remembered Ben's voice and being in the car but the timeline was skewed, all (Y/n) knew was that Ben had brought her to hospital. Being told that Billy actually had to call Ben made (Y/n)'s heart break in her chest and she knew how badly hospitals upset Billy.

"He didn't understand, he thought you were asleep and asked me to come look after you but he was scared. You were badly dehydrated doll and I can't have you getting that bad again or I'm risking losing you, not just them." Ben's eyes darted down to (Y/n)'s stomach where he moved their entwined hands to brush over her skin.

The thought of losing (Y/n) scared Ben and there was very little that scared him. His family being at any sort of risk was the only thing that could make Ben panic and he wouldn't know what to do if he lost (Y/n), nor did he really know what they would do if they lost this pregnancy. He wouldn't know how to help (Y/n) or what to say or even how she would react to something like that and Ben didn't want to know. He wanted (Y/n) to be safe and okay and for their three babies to be okay.

"The doctor said the medication will start working now and I'm under observation for the next week or two."

"It'll work because it's finally getting into your system for once so hopefully you'll actually be able to eat and drink something. I don't wanna leave you doll because you're still in a bad way but I need to get him back home. I'll get everything covered at the club and bring Billy back tomorrow after preschool, okay?"

Ben didn't want to leave, he wanted to stay and reassure himself that the medication and fluids were working in making (Y/n) better and stopping her state from deteriorating any more than this. But he also needed to get Billy back home for something to eat and to settle him down since he had had a distressing day. He would bring Billy back tomorrow to reassure him that (Y/n) was still okay and getting better and so he could see (Y/n) himself. Ben didn't exactly like the thought of going home and not having (Y/n) there, he hated not having her at home it was always like something was wrong or missing and he couldn't fix it.

But at the same time, Ben knew that Billy would most likely be crawling into bed with him tonight.

When (Y/n) nodded, Ben managed a small smile before he leaned down to press a kiss to her lips. He knew when he first found (Y/n) in the bathroom earlier her lips had been chapped and dry from dehydration but he was relieved now to feel that her lips weren't dry or chapped.

"Okay, come on buddy say goodbye to your mum so I can get you home."

Ben tried to bite back his smile when (Y/n) buried her face into his neck, breathing in his scent which made a shiver run down his spine at the feeling of her breaths against his neck. She didn't want him to go, sleeping without Ben was extremely hard even with how tired and drowsy she felt right now. But he had to go and take Billy home and she knew her boys would be coming back to see her in the afternoon.

"We'll be back tomorrow, doll."

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Wow, the past few days have been unreal. I last updated on Thursday in the morning soon after they had started pumping in pitocin. From 12pm, May 12th, until 5 am, May 14th, I was dealing with contractions. 41 hours of early labor and it only led to being dilated by 4cm.

I used a fitness orb, a fitness peanut, slow dancing, varying leg positions. Nothing pushed me into active labor. They kept saying to make it to 6cm and we'll be in the home stretch. The contractions got so strong throughout the day, too. I didn't want an epidural because I didn't want to do it so early. If the beginning took this long, can the ending really be that short? I wanted the baby in my arms but I knew he wasn't ready so I waited for him to give me a sign. (Note we can freely say pronouns now)

I believe at 10am on May 13th, they broke my water because I had made it to 4cm. It felt like things were moving so nicely! The doctor who came in at 6 am wa snot very comforting -made me cry. She gave me minimal answers and her visit was brief. Had I obtained the knowledge of inductions and labor that I have now, I would have been okay, but it was all so new to me and she was very curt after working her 24 hour shift. I wish she would do people favors and just not do those shifts. It would give her a better bedside manner. She basically gave me my first crying spell and I felt so desperate for four hours.

A new doctor came in soon after that. She reminded me of General Holdo from Star Wars, except I have no clue if she had purple-ish hair. Though Jackie, the nurse who talked a lot, had purple-ish hair. I could see it sticking out through her hair cap thing. Our room was always dark so I didn't really see much going on. Anyways, they broke my water and the contractions quickly turned into pain, pain and more pain. Not cramping pain, but pain nonetheless. I was on 2-30 levels of pitocin (whatever that means), and when the water broke, I was contracting every 1-2 minutes for hours on end. I breathed through all of them, dealt with the pain and kept my mind on the goal.

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I was thankful for the nurse we had the night before they broke my water, Shawna, because she knew how to just be there for me. When the new nurse came in after that terrible doctor visit, I wasn't all too thrilled cuz she talked a lot and overexplained things, but she at least made it very apparent that she cared. Shawna came back later in the evening, but she wasn't my nurse. She just knew that I liked her and she just wanted to help. It was a relief to have her there for a little bits she came in on.

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May 13th was like one last date day between Ryan and I. Besides the constant pain and regular contraction pauses, he and I just talked, hugged, watched Falcon and Winter Soldier, cried, laughed, and appreciated the other one being there. We barely got any rest. Though Ry was able to get a bit more than me, but not much. It was honestly a blurry of a day for me since I spent most of staring at focal points (the red light from the TV being turned off or Ryan's eyes or the up button for the bed or even this white piece on a red container on the baby's soon-to-be panda warmer). Im trying to write as much down as possible, but I know I'll miss a few things.

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As the day progressed, my energy level dropped substantially. I gave up my fitness orb life and I embraced bedrest for the first time in the pregnancy. Going to the bathroom was difficult and I was constipated. Stupid magical hemorrhoids that appeared two days before going in the hospital.

Those pesky IV issues got worse. As my pain increased, I had to deal with a 5 IVs. After the one in my elbow went off sixty thousand times, the nurse finally called the anesthesiology team to try another spot but with a deeper vein. She found it with an ultrasound, which was neat, and she had to really numb my arm to get it in there. It was the best IV, though. It really stuck in there and I only had minimal issues with the IV tower. Thank goodness because I was at my wits end at that point. Though Jackie ended up finish the IV and reconnecting my pitocin and fluid drips...she taped the IV to my hospital bracelet. So when anyone tried to scan it, I had to twist my arm painfully.

The one time, the food people came. I twisted my arm to have them read it, and they didn't even scan it....but we'll the damage was done. I had accidentally disconnected everything. The IV started gushing blood like a fountain and I just sat on my fitness orb with nothing much to do but hope it stopped soon...or that someone would come in. My husband actually had to go get someone because there was blood everywhere. All the while, I was contracting every 3 minutes at that point. So a fountain of blood just pushing out while squeezed my own legs. What a trip! The final IV sat in my arm up until May 15th...it was annoying to breastfeed with it in. I had to finish my toradol pain meds before it could come out.

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As the day went on, I kept contracting but nothing changed...at 10pm, they finally told us our options: more of the same or having a c-section. We were looking at a failed induction if we didn't progress to 6 cm by 5am, May 14th. At the point, it would have been 18 hours post my water being broke and the chance of infection would then steadily increase. I didn't take the news well and I cried. My night time doctor, who I had seen in the office and who is actually a midwife, was the one who broke the news. She tried to say it was natural to feel sad about this, but honestly...nothing was going to console me after here the word "failure".

Just like my sister, the pitocin failed. Before they officially said it failed, they did a pit rest (a 1-2 hour pitocin break) and then started the process at 2 levels again. We made it up to 10 levels before they called it at 430am. My cervix stopped at 4cm and there was no changing it. Though at that time, I had finally accepted the c-section. It was the right choice and it meant getting to see our baby sooner. We just needed to pray again for safety, healing and life...plus tell our families that I was having a c-section. They were wondering where we went for so long because I just cried for a while and asked that my husband not share anything until we were ready.

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The surgery was interesting. I wasn't really contracting anymore but I was exhausted, starving, shaking, and ready to be done. They wheeled me over without my husband so they could give me a spinal anesthetic, still no epidural. I sat there breathing in and out. Using yoga techniques to keep myself present and prepared for a flexible response. I hate the idea of needles going into my spine. I don't care about needles...it's the whole losing movement permanently issue. I need to be able to move and fidget to breathe calmly and react appropriately.

After they were finished, they slowly lowered me back. My legs went numbs and I started to shake uncontrollably. My teeth started chattering. It was if I was extremely cold so they put 3-4 warm blankets on me. I can't remember how many but I do know there were 5 total on me when all was said and done. They splayed my arms out like I was being crucified and I made sure not to move them beyond the shaking. I have no clue how long the procedure lasted but it was light outside when they were done. I believe it was less than an hour, but I honestly don't know. Time had become irrelevant yet so necessary by then. Time still hasn't recovered and it's been almost 3 weeks. (Note: I've been writing this on and off since the hospital stay.)

C-sections are weird. You're awake for the whole procedure and you can feel everything happening to you - the incision, the hands rooting around your insides for the baby, the baby coming out with their arms and legs hitting the sides of your open stomach as they leave, the uterus flopping around. There's just no pain involved.

When my baby came out, he didn't cry much, but when I heard his first squeal, my husband and I cried, too. He was finally here. Our baby boy was alive and well. A 7lb 5oz baby measuring at 20 inches even though he was a few weeks early. He was fully grown and ready to be with us. They measured him, cleaned him a little and got all his vitals while the doctors finished up with my stomach. They gave him to my husband to hold and I got to slightly touch the baby. I cried the whole time because of how happy I was. It was the most fulfilling moment and it was just the beginning of my son's life.

The surgeon was the OBGYN who recommended us to the fertility clinic three years prior, almost to the date. We had come full circle. She still has a weird bedside manner, but the whole thing was surreal. She did a good job and we all made it out safely. My husband was so nervous holding our baby. It was his first time ever holding a baby. I didn't want a c-section, but I was glad when everything was over. My legs remained numb for a while - a few hours I think? In order to graduate to the mother/baby unit and to eat, I had to be able to move my toes. It was a weird feeling to be able to move my arms and not my lower body. Around my incision, I'm still a bit numb there and apparently, I could be for a long time.

We took our first picture together and I look terrible, as if I had gone through pain for 3 days straight. My husband, the always photogenic one, looked great and our son could barely be seen. At least we have this family photo - even if no one else is allowed to see it. My body was still shaking. My shoulders were starting to hurt and feeling was coming back to my lower extremities slowly. They were prescribing me motrin, tylenol and oxy. I only took tylenol because the rest seemed frivolous. Sure, I was in pain, but nothing compared to the contractions and well, I survived all of that with just a tylenol here and there for headaches.

By about noon, I was starving by this point. It had been 30ish+ hours of early labor since I had last eaten. We ordered food (with some hiccups along the way) and finally got to eat when we arrived the mother/baby unit. It was then we started our four day stay of recovering, figuring out parenting, breastfeeding, and personal survival, and being interrupted every hour by nurses, doctors, consultants, social workers and who knows who else. I had only gotten about 2-3 hours of sleep in total during the 3 days of delivery. I matched this during the first few days of parenting, too. Even when I got home, I lived on 2 hours max for about three days straight. A week+ of no sleep really did me in. I was exhausted and finally got rest when I slept through a few alarms. Thankfully my husband took over that night because I needed it.

While in the mother/baby unit, our son had dropped about 10% of his birthweight. He was dehydrated and having a tough time pooping because of the weight loss. It was getting much milk because my nipples wouldn't stay erect while he was eating. Plus he kept falling asleep and it was hard to keep him demeanor.

A lactation consultant visited 6 times. I didn't like the first one, but then we lucked out with Renee for the rest of the visits. She was understanding and she didn't pressure us to breastfeed her way. She thought of different ways to encourage us and give solutions, such as a nipple shield or supplementing formula. Renee revealed that her oldest went through this as well and that it doesn't help when the hospital staff tells you how to do everything their way without listening to your needs. I commend her for her absolutely genuine care and reassuring assistance.

A few nurses were stellar (not Shawna awesome, but still great to have). Katie gave us our first few hours of rest. It also hurt his weight cuz I was delayed on the feedings, but she gave us swaddlers, extra blankets, shirts, etc. She also made sure to talk to us like we were humans and not patients who were leaving in a few days. Kristie was the first one to see me cry and she knew exactly what to do. She brought us the right sized nipple shield and flanges. She brought us a ton of formula. She helped ease my feelings of hopelessness transition into a sense of pointed purpose. The other nurses - Salimah, Anna, Natalie and a few others in the mother/baby unit were the best parts of the stay. Even if they all provided varying levels of care.

The doctors were too quick with their check-ins and I didn't really enjoy their presence. They had the best intentions but we felt like a mark on their checklist. I assume they have too much to do in one day.

The room was small for a three person family but large enough for everything we needed to do while there. Our baby had a little plastic tube of a bassinet with two drawers of storage. My husband had to sleep on the most uncomfortable couch out of the three he ventured on. I believe it was this one that he caught an ear infection from because he didn't use the bed setting. He used the regular couch setup because the bedding was slanting.

The bathroom was pretty big, though. I put many mesh underwear and large pads on in there. It's where a nurses used a perineal bottle on me and showed me how to use it. It's where I took my first post-surgery shower and found out my stomach was numb still. I liked our original room with the induction unit best because of the couch for my husband, and I loved the huge size of the labor/delivery room. The bathroom for the mother/baby unit was best. It was right next to my bed during a time when it was hard to walk. Plus it served as a dish washing site and a great place to rest from all the noises in a hospital.

I had a catheter in from the c-section and by the time they took it out, I was very hydrated. Peeing clear impressed the nurses who took it out - I guess it's the little odd things that make the day better.

My husband and I fought multiple times in the hospital and since coming home. We're exhausted. We don't fight often, but when we do, it is normally because one of us is tired...and well, we're always tired right now.

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It's now 6 weeks post delivery and our little guy is doing well. He's a tad under the weather (doctors says a cold), but otherwise he is 11 pounds and 22 inches long. He grows pretty fast so he may be heavier by now.

These last few weeks have been very tough and I've gone through a lot of emotions. It's a lot of work and we asked for it. We really wanted a child and now we're finding out how hard it is to raise one. Yet would I trade my son for anything? No. This shows how bad we wanted a child and also how much we are still willing to sacrifice in order to hold him for many more years. The birthing experience was not what I wanted, but he came home. That's all I prayed for...and it's exactly what we got. I can only be thankful to God for his life right now. My heart feels warm.

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This post took six weeks to write because I don't have much time anymore. Most of it was done while in the hospital, but some parts had to be completed or filled in afterwards. It barely covers everything that happened during our 6-day stay. It was a long and arduous time, and now we are met we an harder time of caretaking. Parenthood is so glamorized and I'm here to tell you how much it shouldn't be. The afterglow is wonderful and the heart fuzziness is neverending. No, seriously. I feel joy even when my son is crying and I don't know what to do to help. Yet, we paint pictures of cuddling babies and doing fun activities, but it's a lot more than that. Make sure you want a baby before having one. It's a lot of work to get to the time where they can take care of themselves alongside you. It's years of waiting for them to grow old enough to just pee on their on own. It's many days wondering if you're doing okay as a guardian. You just hope they survive your mistakes and your novice-abilities of taking care of a human life. As rewarding as it may be, you are forever changed. For at least the beginning parts, you will not have much time to do anything for yourselves besides eat and sleep, which is still something you lose and have to reteach yourself and your baby how to do at the same time.

I'm not complaining, just not being dishonest. I'd rather be open about my struggles than to sink in self-negligence. Sure, I probably have postpartum depression in a mild sense, but I am actively working to go beyond it. It's been tough to not have much time for myself, but I can't give up. I have to do this for my baby and for my husband. I have to keep going for myself, too. I owe it to me.

[fasa-umich]

One Last Time... Kaitlyn Barron & Izzy Poquiz, 2019-2020 FASA Co-Cultural Chairs

The end is here

Kaitlyn: So, I guess we’ve reached the end…

Izzy: Looks like it :,). It seems like just yesterday we were scrambling to plan fall semster’s events, let alone PCN. How did we pull everything off?

Kaitlyn: I honestly have no clue lol. As you continue down Izzy and I’s brain dump, laugh, cry, take note, and cringe at our escapades from a year we will never forget.

^AHAHAHAHA Dank.

EPISODE I

THE CULTURAL CHAIRS AWAKEN

Tinikling on the Diag… Adobo Night….PCN...Lumpia Night… oh my! Cultural Chair may seem like a lot, because it truly is. However, it is a role like no other. With your Co-Chair (who may become your new best friend) it’s you against the world in spreading the Kultura!

^One of our proudest accomplishments

On paper you’re tasked with putting on 3 cultural events each semester, with a specific emphasis on Philippine Cultural Night. This entails facilitating PCN Committee meetings, staying in contact with venue staff, developing programming, finding a speaker, picking a theme, creating and printing programs, working closely with the Performance Chair(s), ensuring we have the right amount of funding, overseeing decorations, picking a menu

Kaitlyn: We may be overwhelming them!

Izzy: Touche. Let’s break it down to the necessities:

EPISODE II

THE RISE OF THE KULTURA: CULTURAL CHAIR TOP TIPS

1. YOUR CULTURE IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT

a. We both are by no means experts on Filipinx / Filipinx-American culture! We have certainly become well-versed in researching, fact-checking, being open to learning, and seeking out ways to represent diverse identities.

b. YOU define your identity, and you are in a position where you can help others explore what Filipinx / Filipinx-American culture means to THEM. This is exactly what makes Cultural Chair so difficult... and so worth it.

2. PLAN AHEAD

a. Trust us, PCN is a huge event to wrap your head around and making sure you get work done before you return to school is so very important. Plus you have all summer to talk about  your ideas, which is fun with school not in the way!

b. Organization is the name of the game. Out of all the handy-dandy resume skills to have, effective organizational skills and time management is KEY.

c. By no means do you have to be a master planner, but planning an event as big as PCN while delivering on your responsibilities as a board member and student is no small feat. Know yourself. Know your limits, Most importantly, know when to ask for help!

3. TRUST YOUR CO AND TRUST YOUR BOARD

a. #THETEAM THETEAM THETEAM

b. #What team? WILDCATS

c. Your Co and fellow Boardies are your greatest support system. They are there for you when you want to cry or yell at something (a point that you almost certainly will reach), they always got your back. When you’re having a particularly busy time academically, ask for some help. Utilize this resource wisely!

4. REMEMBER TO HAVE FUN

a. It can be hard sometimes to find some humor and fun when you have to deal with logistics, event planning, or serious discussions. But remember that you ran for this position to make a difference in FASA and to get people engaged with this culture we love so much. Take a break and crack a joke, it really helps when the PCN budget looms in your face.

b. Your time on board moves fast. Like crazy fast. Despite all the past testimonials and boardies saying the same exact thing, it still surprises us how quickly our time as Culturals has come to its end. Cherish every moment and use your time efficiently and effectively.

^So fresh and so clean

Izzy: Speaking of fun, Kaitlyn and I DEFINITELY had our fair share of dank dynamic duo moments… All the stressful and unsavory moments that come with being cultural pale in comparison thanks to Kaitlyn and I’s ride-or-die support we have for each other. When I felt outside pressure, it was easy to eventually push through because I always knew Kaitlyn would be fighting in my corner alongside me.

^CULTURALS UNITE

Kaitlyn: Full disclosure: PCN planning starts as soon as you are elected, so yes March is already go-time. So naturally, Izzy and worked together much over the summer (sometimes twice a week on end), but as we were on opposite sides of the country, FaceTime became our best friend. 6:30 am was probably the earliest I woke up for a call (the time difference is something else), but not once did either of us complain. Those meetings were where we tossed around event ideas, speaker options, and found Pamana our chosen PCN theme. We would hash out the nitty gritties of PCN and go off on tangents about Game of Thrones. I will miss those early mornings and late night calls.

EPISODE III

THE CO-CHAIRS STRIKE BACK

Your greatest friend or worst enemy?

Hahaha jk jk …...UNLESS?!

Cultural Chair is a role that we would say is pretty near impossible to do alone. Nor would this role be as fun and rewarding if you were alone. Your co is there to be your greatest supporter, picking you up when you feel like the world is ending. Whenever one of us had a rough week, the other would take on more to make sure the job got done. When you’re bouncing ideas for PCN it helps to have someone else there to workshop and discuss your grandest and craziest of ideas (cough cough storyline PCN cough cough). When you are running an event like Lumpia Night it helps to have someone to direct the night’s events and interact with members, or escape to cook lumpia for 30 minutes cause you’re overwhelmed by all the people talking (lol), your co has got your back. Even more than the role, we were there for each other as friends, there to cheer up on an off day or “study” for hours on end. This year wouldn’t have been possible without the dream team.

^Young and Naive

Izzy: Before we say our final goodbyes as Culturals, let’s share a little bit about how we got to FASA in the first place.

I’ve come to realize that FASA has been in the back of my mind ever since I attended PCN waaaay back when my Ate Melissa was organizing it. I, a tiny four-year-old, was just there for the ride. Little did I know that FASA would fill the cultural deficit that was missing from growing up in my white washed, small(ish) town. Once I was on campus, my desire to join and immerse myself in FASA was pretty intense. I stalked all the social media, flipped through the old FASA albums, and wondered if FASA would actually live up to my increasingly high expectations. In time, I would meet my fellow former freshman and build friendships that I’m endlessly thankful for. I’d also run for board and even win alongside the GOAT, Kaitlyn Barron herself.

^How could you not love this person

Kaitlyn: I remember going FestiFall freshman year and instantly spotting the Filipino flag waving around high in the air. I ran to it and haven’t looked back from it since. 

Growing up in an Irish-Filipino American household, I was often at odds with where I landed. I was too white to be Asian and too Asian to be white. Even with the bountiful diversity of my Southern Californian upbringing, I did not appreciate my Filipino heritage fully. Once I came here, separated from my family and all I knew, I clung to the anchor that was my mom’s culture, claiming it as my own and one that I would be willing to fight for. I grew to realize that I am Filipino enough, not because I knew the entire history of the Philippines, but because of the love I held for this culture I have grown cherish.

EPISODE IV

A NEW PAMANA

Izzy: Our love for Filipinx American culture and will to claim it as our own have been the driving force behind our time as Cultural Chairs. We worked tirelessly, meticulously, and passionately to create an environment that supported all of you to feel the same pride to be a member of our community.

We hope that Tinik on the Diag got you excited for a packed year of the FASA Performance we’ve all come to know and love (shoutout to Bea, the honorary third Cultural Chair). We hope that Adobo Night and Lumpia Night gave you a little taste of home when you were feeling a bit homesick. We hope the cultural workshops that we’ve put on helped you to think critically about important topics that affect our community. We hope PCN inspired you to look back at the rich legacy behind us and look forward to the vibrant new Pamana that you help create each day. 

Kaitlyn: I can fully say this has been one of the best years of my life, and I credit much of it to FASA. Leaving home was scary, but coming here to Michigan I found my new home in FASA. I’m going to leave all the thank yous to Izzy, but to her I have many thanks:

Izzy, You helped this shy lil bean find her place far away from all I knew. From long nights throwing ideas at our iconic google docs, to supporting me whenever I didn’t feel Filipino enough for this role, and of course all the times we got distracted and just watched YouTube videos and GoT reruns. I will forever be grateful for your friendship and love. I’m the lucky one who had the privilege to call you my co. 

Izzy: Maraming maraming salamat sa inyong lahat. 

To all of you still reading this, thank you for allowing Kaitlyn and I to have our Academy Award speech moment. We’ve been feeling a lil sentimental <3

To FASA, thank you for giving us the once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to grow and learn about ourselves, our culture, and our community. Thank you for letting us share a little of ourselves with you this year. 

To our future Kultura Chairs, You’ll do great, you’re doing great, you’ve done great. Cultural Chair requires a certain level of comfort with being uncomfy, and confidence when it seems the odds are against you. You have Kaitlyn and I’s support, and if you need us we’re only a text away!

To my fellow boardies, our board was undeniably special. I feel so fortunate to have had the opportunity to work with a group of individuals so diverse in leadership style who still always made sure there was respect and understanding for each other. I'm proud to say we’re living proof that a successful working relationship is possible with your friends. I already miss y’all so much. 

To Matt and AJ, it was the best of times, it was the worst of times, (but mostly the best of times :,) ). Thank you for giving us the room to let our creativity truly shine and the guidance to keep things on track. I would say I’ll miss all the assheadery, but I have a feeling that’s not going to end any time soon. 

And to Kaitlyn, there are LITERALLY no words that can convey how lucky I feel that we were brought together to do this job. Thanks to you, I learned so much about how to stand up for my beliefs and how to become a more empowered individual. Love you lots, co. 

SINCERELY YOURS IN CULTURE,

Kaitlyn and Izzy

#2019.20 #FASACultural

[asroarke]

I find your drunk self stories to be hilarious. Kind of want to hear how drunk you would describe the fics you write.

 been a while since you asked me this, but I had to get drunk first so I could do this properly. Don’t worry Mellie is sitting next to me to make sure I dont’ say something dumb.

OKAY UP FIRST: Matched. Basically twenty of our fave homies live in a house, and someone in there is gonna love them real hard, but THEY DONT KNOW WHO THAT IS YET. HOW WILL THEY FIGURE IT OUT? so theres like a truth place they go to, dont remember what it’s called since I wrote this back in May, and if you and one of your other homies go in there, you can find out if you’re soulmates BUT YOU MIGHT NOT BE AND THEN YOU WASTED THE CHANCE. i feel like I’m not explaining this well. oh, it’s also a reality show. I feel like that’s important here. Long story shirt, Bell loves Clarke, Clarke loves Bell, AND THIS FIC IS THE BIRTH PLACE OF THE SHIP I CAPTAIN: ICE JAHAAAAAAAAAA. come for the bellarke slow burn, stay for Roan and Wells falling madly in love amidst the chaos of eighteeen other dumb dumbs. 

Mismatched was based on Matched. They’re like a little family. a fanfic family. sometimes a family is just an obscenely long reality show au and its follow up, a shorter but still unnecessarily long one-shot where bellamy and CLARKE accidentally go into the truth booth early on in the competition and end up trapped in a hotel for SO MANY WEEKS

Medici Magic: bruh. I remember going to a renaissance fair and being like omg BELLARKE COULD FIGHT SO HARD HERE. idk dudes. all the squad works at a renaissance fair. bellarke hates each other, but not really. then bellamy high key loves her, but is like NO I DONT. then theres some plot here and there. then there was the first time i ever tried to write smut and then i didnt sleep that night because no one commented immediately and i was like OH MY GOD I FAILED and now im like oh ok. that was fine. also ice jaha is there. everyone should ship ice jaha. wells and roan could be perfect together if only the writers let them exist in the same season. now they’re in heaven banging it out.

Wrecked: DESERTED ISLAND. drama. intrigue. THE ONLY MISTAKE WAS THAT I GAVE CLARKE GRIFFIN A DRESS WITH POCKETS. ok there were other mistakes, particularly grammatical ones BUT GRAMMAR IS A SOCIAL CONSTRUCT. but seriously, dont know what i was thinking with the pockets. the LEAST believable thing ive ever written. anyways, errybody is there. i made echo a villain, and since she and i are friends now, I feel kinda bad about that. also theres some roarke action in here. bellamy is shady as fuck, but that’s kind of clarke’s kink in the fic so it works. also smut. 

I’m Gonna Leave You Anyway and the rest of its series’ squad: you know, the show i based this fic on was one of my favorites. AND THEN THE FOURTH SEASON HAPPENED AND I JUST DONT KNOW. anyways, bellamy and clarke have commitment problems, but end up banging it out. they fight about dumb shit because they’re scared of being heartbroken. also the fellow delinquents are real nosy about bellarke’s love life and they all need to calm the fuck down. oh and there are two little one shots that i think are cute. they buy a house and bellamy is like I’M GONNA MARRY THE FUCK OUT OF YOU, and then in the next one clarke is too busy makign fun of bellamy all day to notice that homeboy gonna propose. I laughed, I cried, and I wrote smut. 

Double Infinity: tied with Matched for my fave fic I’ve written. they have like NOTHING in common tho. bellamy is out to avenge his mom’s death. the people responsible?! CLARKE’S FAMILY. drama. suspense. guilty late night phone calls with Kane. Bellamy decides to romance Clarke to get closer to her family, but, spoiler, the fake relationship didn’t turn out to be all that fake?! (also some ice jaha if you squint, #rideordie) bellamy learns that clarke is also super sneaky, like hella sneaky. and what the fuck is going on with ECHO? do we like her? do we hate her? did we laugh at that joke in the beginning where bellamy accused clarke of having a hit man on her speed dial ONLY TO REALIZE THAT SHE FUCKING DID THE WHOLE TIME? lies. betrayal. late nights in storage units. smut. a wedding that arkadian magazine called the go to event of the year turned into BELLAMY’S WORST NIGHTMARE. The fic is obscenely long and is about as EXTRA as I can get 

Something Always Survives: darkness. no literally. clarke “but did you die?” griffin gets abducted and put in a pitch dark cage along with some other homies. guess who her prison neighbor is???? omg so the fic is HELLA creepy at times but i was in a spooky mood because october, but like… ALL BELLAMY DOES IS TALK TO HER THROUGH THE WALL AND TELL HER STORIES AND LOVES HER AND AAAAAAAH. i cried a lot during this fic bc like BELLAMY loves her, and he had never even touched her or seen her. all he did was hear her voice. like sure, they were being used for creepy lab experiments and were constantly fearing for their lives, BUT THE PINING. i started off basing this on the oa and then somewhere in like the first two chapters i went off the rails and i kept listening to gregorian chant while writing it so like that might explain a lot???! 

50 First Proposals: i mean i just wrote this today. i haven’t had enough time between posting it and now to have coherent drunk commentary for you. but like, bellamy proposes to clarke a lot to get free desserts at restaurants, BUT THEYRE JUST FRIENDS OK and then hes like no we’re not justs friends I love the fuck outta her. idk dudes. i either write ANGST where they just stare longingly into a corner as they can only hear each others voice for a fucking year, OR I write FLUFF where everything is perfect and life is great and bellamy is great. 

Fatal Innocence: I HOPE YALL ARE READY FOR A DOUBLE INFINITY WILD RIDE. just started this one. chapters gonna be long as FUCK. htgawm au. somebody murdered somebody BUT WHO IS THE MURDERER? and whyyyy? is roan gonna try and bang clarke? how is sweet precious baby angel monty gonna hold up after burying a body? WHAT IS ECHO UP TO THIS TIME?? does marcus just stare longingly at a photo of abby while sipping scotch? sea mechanic is real, here. EMORI is gonna fuck shit up. WHO IS DEAD? (i mean read chapter one and you’ll find out) also like bellarke is gonna fight so much and it’s gonna be real fun. if you like murder fics. if not…. go read matched.

Anyways, I think that’s all my fics. idk. i went out of order a bit so now im confused. SO, that’s drunk me’s thoughts on the stuff sober me wrote. if you have any questions for drunk me, hit me up now-ish otherwise you’re gonna have to wait until the next time i show up and mellie is here to babysit meee.

#asks #drunk asks #i have no idea if i actually answered the question #BUT HERE WE ARE #LETS HOPE SOBER ME IS AMUSED

[the-waifu-smackdown]

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smartass cough i mean yeah lets get started on this

1- You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

I’d ask them how one of us managed to teleport over 1000 miles and why im naked.

2- What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? 

uuhhhh we broke up and we haven’t talked in months.

3- If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? 

yeah kinda

4- Is your last name longer than six letters? 

yes

5- Was your last kiss drunk or sober? 

all of them have been sober

6- Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? 

yeah. put simply i made too many strong advances

7- What does your last received text say?

putting aside memes its “it me”

8- How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? 

fuck i cant remember that

9- Where was your last kiss at? 

probably my room

10- When is the last time you saw your sister? 

idk its probably been over 7 months

11- What do you drink in the morning? 

milk. or water. usually water than milk then water again.

12- Where did you sleep last night? 

my room

13- Do you think relationships are hard? 

depending on the relationship, yeah. i mean if you feel that a relationship is hard then its not a good relationship.

14- If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? 

as much as i would want to say otherwise, no.

15- You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? 

it would be extremely awkward

16- Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? 

rainy

17- Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? 

i know people who have my middle name as their first name

18- Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? 

pajama pants but that’s going to change in about an hour

19- Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? 

if things go as planned then no

20- Does anyone like you? 

yes

21- Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? 

my ex’s name started with an s

22- Is the last person you kissed gay? 

i think they were bi?

23- Is there a person you CANNOT stand? 

yeah the person who kicked me out of my last home

24- Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? 

many times

25- In the past week have you cried? 

i cant remember the last time i cried.

26- What breed was the last dog you saw? 

mutt

27- Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? 

outside of the shower. i ain’t wanting to get my towel any more wet than its getting

28- Have you ever kissed a football player? 

no

29- Do you think you’re old? 

no

30. Do you like text messaging? 

yeah

31- What type of day are you having? 

too early to tell

32- Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? 

maybe once

33- Do you prefer warm or cold weather? 

i prefer cooler weather bc jackets. but not cold because snow is horrible to drive in.

34- Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? 

yes

35- Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? 

a relationship

36- Are you a simple or complicated person? 

i like to think myself on the simple side but then again all people are complicated

37- What song are you listening to? 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IK6eLTNV1k

38- When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? 

i try to

39- Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

she knows a lot about me and i know a considerable amount of her

40-What made you start liking the person you like now? 

shit that’s a whole can of worms. i guess its when she convinced me to start taking philosophy classes and fencing and i got to start spending a lot of time with her her slowly learning about her and her good sides and her bad sides and at some point i fell for her.

41- When did you last receive a text message?

at 4:30 am while i was asleep

42- What is wrong with you right now? 

shit bro i aint even about to touch that. too much to talk about

43- How well do you know the last female you texted?

if we are talking about the group text then ive been friends with both of them for over 6 years now. shit its been 6 years? if we are talking about individual conversations then i would like to say that i know them pretty well.

44- Does anyone disgust you?

remember the person who kicked me out of my last home? yeah.

45- Would you date someone right now if they asked? 

it depends on a lot of things; if i didn’t  know who they were and they asked me out of the blue then i would probably refuse but if it was someonw who i knew a bit better then i would consider it.

46- Are you in a good mood right now?

i suppose

47- Who was the last person you talked to in person?

a friend of mine

48- What color shirt are you wearing? 

aqua ish?

49- Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

i wont say there has been anything that i haven’t wanted to hear. definitely things that have made me uncomfortable but not anything i would outright say that i wouldn’t want to hear

50- Anyone you’re giving up on? 

i give up on people on a daily basis you need to be more specific

51- Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? 

shit i cant let myself hate them

52- Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? 

yeah

53- Do you like rain? 

yes

54- Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? 

as long as its not excessive not really

55- Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? 

you mean right now?

56- Do you like to cuddle?

yeah

57- Are you shy? 

kinda? i know how to be sociable when i need to. learn how to do something sop that you don’t have to do it.

58- Do you get along with girls? 

most of my irl friends are girls

59- Have you dated the person you texted last? 

no

60- What do you carry with you at all times? 

phone, wallet, notepad

61- If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? 

i used to live in a building that was supposedly haunted. once you get on good terms with the ghosts its not that bad

62- Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

if its the right kind of relationship then yeah.

63- Think back to October, were you in a relationship? 

no

64- The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? 

i don’t think id be able to function of they kissed me on the forehead

65- Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? 

define cute. how are we using this?

66- How old are the last three people you kissed? 

excluding my mother we have about 21, 25, and 21

67- Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? 

do them myself

68- Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?   

zebra

69- Do you have any stickers on your car? 

yeah. because i bought the car from a family i was friends with it has a zombie family on it. if i can fins my triforce stick ill put that on there too

70- Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?     

who? who?

71- Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?     

android

72- When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? 

i dunno

73- Do you like diet soda?     

eh

74- What color are the walls in your room?    

beige

75- Are you 16 or older?     

im older

76- Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?   

what?

77- Do you have a job? 

yeah i gotta get ready soon for that

78- What are your initials? 

NTS

79- Did you ever have braces?    

no

80- Are you from the south?     

no

81- What does your last status on Facebook say?    

i haven’t touched Facebook in ages

82- Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?

yes

83- Are you closer to your mom or your dad? 

probably my mom but I’m really close to my dad too

84- Have you ever done cheer leading or gymnastics? 

does yoga count?

85- What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? 

probably guardians of the galaxy 2

86- Do you smoke? 

no

87- Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? 

probably heels unless they are stilettos on any type of high heel

88- Is your phone touch screen?   

yes

89- Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? 

my hair only slightly curls so straight

90- Have you ever snuck out of your house? 

i think so. its been about 4 years since i lived at home and if i have it would have only been once

91- Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?     

rivers are fun

92- Have you ever made out in a car?    

yeah

93- …Had sex in a car? 

…i dont think i have?

94- Are you single or in a relationship?     

single

95- What were you doing last night at midnight?   

reading this ask and deciding to go to bed and answer it in the morning

96- When’s the last time you saw fireworks?   

last night

97- Do you like the camera on your phone? 

its a decent camera

98- Have you ever had a friend with benefits? 

i guess my first relationship was actually fwb situation but honestly it was so messed up that i cant even remember

99- Have you ever passed out from drinking?     

no

100- Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

probably

101- Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

every time a girl wants me to do her raw

102- Name your favorite Kesha song:     

i think blow is my favorite

103- Do you have any tan lines right now?     

right above my butt and some subtle tan lines on my arms

104- Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?     

are you crazy?