Old Habits
pairing: Joel Miller/f!former sex worker reader
summary: Back in Boston, Joel Miller was your favorite client who frequented your services, exchanging ration cards and other items deemed illegal for sex with you until he just disappeared one day. It’s years later, and now, by a stroke of dumb luck on your journey out west, you’ve found yourself in the town of Jackson and in close proximity to Joel once again, the two of you immediately falling back into old habits.
rating: E (18+!! This is smut. No y/n, porn without plot, reader’s age is unspecified but she was born before the outbreak, can be read as age gap, Gruff Joel Miller, Joel manhandling you, Joel ordering you around, rough sex, unprotected p in v (wrap it up!), oral sex (m & f receiving), come eating, deepthroating, vaginal fingering, spanking, dirty talk (a lot), praise kink, light choking, squirting, breast play, spit mention, first kiss, talks of sex work (we are respectful in this house), a hint of Possessive Joel, some feelings as a treat, smidge of Soft Joel at the end, a special appearance by Ellie who doesn’t know where Joel is (spoiler: he’s hiding in your bathroom naked))
word count: 3.9k+
a/n: This was a horny thot I wrote in one night because it wouldn’t leave me alone, and now I’m sharing it with you. Thank you to @senorabond for betaing!
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It’s happenstance you find yourself in Jackson—honest to god, dumb luck, and a series of fortunate and unfortunate events.
The plan was to cross the continent to Vancouver, B.C., where whispers talked about the QZ being a safe haven and not a complete hell hole like Boston. A group of you made the journey, and by the time scouts from Jackson found you getting close to their territory, only a few remained, and you all decided to stay in the quaint town.
That brings you to where you are now, not even twenty-four hours after arriving, and barely settled into your little apartment in a converted garage, naked and on your knees with Joel Miller’s hard cock filling the tight space in your throat. Drool drips down your chin, and tears fall from the corners of your eyes as you suppress your gag reflex.
It shocked you when he showed up at your door, having known him for years back in Boston since he used your services frequently, exchanging ration cards and other illegal items for sex with you. He loved that he could use you however he wanted, and you happily took it. He was your favorite client; then one day, he just disappeared—and in less than ten minutes of being reunited, he had you completely naked and on your knees for him.
Did you mention he was your favorite?
He’s still fully clothed, with only his pants down enough to free himself. His big hand is on the back of your head, keeping you on him while he watches from above. You can’t even take him to the hilt, your jaw pried open wide. He’s heavy on your tongue, smelling the clean scent of the soap he must’ve scrubbed with before he came over.
“Fuckin’ missed you chokin’ on my dick,” he groans. “So fuckin’ pretty takin’ it down your throat.”
Your fingers are digging into his jean-clad thighs, your eyes rolled back in your head, moaning around him, barely able to breathe. He finally lets you up, and you come off him, gasping for breath. With saliva gathered on your tongue, you let it drip on the tip of him, your hand taking the place of your mouth, slickly stroking him while looking up at him through your lashes.
“I missed this cock,” your words come out rough, tapping him on your tongue.
He’s smirking. “Yeah, baby?”
“Yes.” You nod. “It’s so fucking big and always filled me so perfectly.”
“I missed how your tight little pussy squeezed me—haunted my fuckin’ dreams. I can’t tell you how many times I fucked my hand thinkin’ about bein’ inside you again.”
What he says has you feeling hot, arousal pooling in your belly, your cunt throbbing in the same beat as your heart, wanting him so badly.
Continuing to jerk him in your palm, you dip your head down, licking at the thin skin of his sack before sucking a ball into your mouth, teasing it with your tongue.
“Fuck,” he moans.
You give the other one the same treatment, letting it go to lick a hot stripe up his shaft, the tip steadily leaking precum.
“On the bed,” he orders, roughly tugging you up by the arms to stand. “I’m not comin’ in your mouth.”
“Yeah?” you purr. The bed is behind you, and you walk backward until your legs hit the edge. “Where do you wanna come?” you ask. “My stomach? On my pussy? My ass? My tits?”
His dark eyes are half-lidded and burning with desire as he moves toward you with purpose, saying, “You know damn well I’m gonna come all over your gorgeous tits.” It’s his favorite place to finish. He’s in front of you, his large palms taking them in hand. “Fuckin’ missed these, too.” To end the sentence, he bends, sucking your pebbled nipple between his lips. You moan at the shock of pleasure that shoots straight to your cunt, pushing your fingers into his slicked-back, slightly damp hair.
The reason Joel was your favorite is he always made sure you came at least once—doing things he knew you enjoyed because he wanted to make you feel good. That was rare in your previous profession. Usually, it was all about the client, and your pleasure didn’t matter.
Joel’s a gentleman, though.
A hot, grumpy gentleman.
His mouth moves to your other tit, flicking his tongue over the hard bud; you feel your need for him dripping from your pussy to coat your inner thighs.
Suddenly, he’s straightening and pushing you back onto the mattress, pulling your ass to the edge of the bed. You spread your legs for him as you sit up on your elbows.
The tips of two of his thick fingers touch your lips.
“Open,” he orders, and you do, sucking them into your mouth with a moan. “Get them nice and wet for me, baby.” You massage your tongue against them, his lust-filled gaze watching intently. He shoves them further back into your throat, and you easily take them. “Good girl,” he rasps.
His hand leaves you, his focus locking on your glistening center. Dipping his head, he works his jaw to get saliva in the front of his mouth, spitting it onto your clit, and it drips all hot and wet down toward your hole that’s drooling arousal.
“Pretty fuckin’ pussy,” he mumbles, staring at it. The press of his wet digits between the lips of your cunt sends an electric shock through you that has you throwing your head back. He wastes no time, gathering the mix of his saliva and your juices on his two fingers, pressing them inside you.
A loud moan leaves you at how his fingers slightly stretch your tight walls. He’s pumping them in and out fast, crooking them to slide against that magical spot that blurs your vision.
“Yeah, you fuckin’ missed me, didn’t ya?” he asks.
“Yes,” you gasp.
It sounds wet between your legs, hearing the slide of his digits fucking into you, his thumb rubbing against your swollen clit.
“Nobody else made you come like me. And why’s that, baby?” he rasps, low.
The muscles in your belly have begun tightening, his free hand grabbing at your breasts and teasing your nipples, the sensations ramping up your pleasure.
“‘Cause it’s yours!”
“That’s fuckin’ right,” he growls. “This pussy is mine.”
He doesn’t stop his ministrations when he leans over you, his hand on your chest moving up to wrap his fingers around your throat, squeezing lightly to make you see stars.
“You gonna come for me?” he asks. “Gonna be my good girl and come all over my fingers? Let me have it.”
Everything comes to a head, and you’re falling over the edge, your back arching, body tensing, coming with a moan of his name. Waves of euphoria erupt from your center, spreading out to your fingers and toes as he continues working you through your high to help you ride it out.
“There it is,” he says. “My good fuckin’ girl.”
Your mind is hazy, thoughts feeling slow and syrupy thick, almost positive you haven’t come that hard since the last time Joel paid you a visit.
“You’re still my favorite,” you slur. He lets go of your throat as you lie back on the bed, blissed out.
“I better fuckin’ be,” he replies, removing his hand from between your legs. “You haven’t even been here a damn day.”
“I’m not doing that here,” you offhandedly comment.
It’s silent for a second.
“If this is your last time, can I pay for the entire night?” he asks. “They don’t have ration cards here, but I can trade for things you might need or do work around here. I can find some way to pay you.”
Your eyes open, squinting as you sit back up. “I’m not charging you for this, Joel. You’re not my customer here. I’m having sex with you because I missed you and want to have sex with you.”
His eyebrows lift. “Oh. Well, fuck, in that case, is this a one-time thing, or…?”
Raising your brow, you answer, “Depends on if you fuck as good as I remember.”
His eyes narrow. “I’ll fuckin’ remind you why you always made time for me,” he says, working open the buttons on his flannel shirt.
It’s off in seconds, getting a glimpse of his torso before he’s bending down to untie his boots that he kicks off when he stands back up.
Usually, he kept his clothes on, so there weren’t many times that Joel got fully naked when you were together in the past. With all the skin on display, your eyes take in the scars littering the parts of his body he bares—there’s a new one on his lower abdomen that someone clearly had to suture, the skin puckered.
He’s so broad, his chest so wide, seeing the strength and loving how his belly is a little soft. Your eyes follow the trail of coarse hair below his navel, leading to his hard cock, bobbing between his legs as he pushes down his jeans and gets them off.
He’s incredibly attractive, and yet you have no idea his age, never asking because it wasn’t any of your business, but now he’s no longer your paying client.
“How old are you?” you ask.
Standing at his full height, you watch him spit onto his fingers, using them to languidly stroke over his cock.
“Fifty-eight.”
“You look fantastic for your age.”
“Thanks.” His eyes meet yours, and he’s moving forward to drag himself through your wet slit. “How old are you?”
“Not fifty-eight.” You wink. “I’ll tell you if you buy me a drink.”
“Deal.”
Apparently, he’s done talking, notching himself at your entrance and snapping his hips forward to bury himself inside you in one smooth thrust. Moaning in unison, your hands claw at the bedding from how he fills you, falling back against the mattress.
He’s big.
He’s the biggest man you’ve ever been with, feeling the delicious burn at how he’s stretching you and so full it’s brimming on too much.
“So tight,” he groans. “Fuck, I missed bein’ inside you.” He’s got your legs over his arms to keep you open for him.
His hips bump into yours, giving you a second to get used to him, and you can’t get over how good it feels to have him inside you again; how right. Once you’re relaxed, he’s pulling almost all the way out and pushing back in hard. With how wet you are, he moves with ease, setting up a hard, steady pace that has your head spinning.
“Miss bein’ split open on my cock?” His voice is deeper, the words slipping through gritted teeth.
“Yes,” you gasp.
Looking up at him, his eyes are dark pools stuck on the jiggle of your chest, his eyebrows creased, and teeth bared. Sweat is shining on his skin, a flush working its way from his chest up his neck to his cheeks, grey strands of his hair sticking wetly to his forehead.
You press your tits together with your hands, tweaking your stiff nipples while he watches with rapt attention, licking his lips.
“You fuck me so good, Joel,” you moan. “I missed this. I missed you. You feel so good inside me.”
Heat is coiling in your tummy, winding tighter with every push and pull of his hips.
He leans forward, his pace speeding up while he bats away your hands to roughly palm at your breasts, pinching your nipples.
“Fuck,” he groans, seeing his throat work as he swallows hard, and you can tell he’s close.
All of a sudden, he’s standing back up with a grunt. “Hands and knees,” he orders, smacking your hip. “I’m gonna give you what you want.”
What he says makes you throb, excited for what’s about to happen. He pulls out, and enthusiastically, you’re flipping over and getting up into position with your knees at the end of the bed, sticking your ass out, presenting it to him.
His palm slides along your spine as he sheathes himself back inside, making you whimper at how much deeper he is like this.
Gripping your hips tightly, he fucks into you, slowly building up to a punishing pace, pounding into you like he’s finally letting go of all his pent-up frustration and anger he’s bottled up since the last time he was with you. Using you to relieve his stress just like before, allowing him to take it all out on you. His thrusts are knocking the wind from your lungs and stuttering your moans, hearing the slap of his flesh meeting yours and the squelching of his cock working in and out of your slippery cunt.
Perspiration builds on your temples, his body colliding with yours, and you’re in heaven. Your eyes are closed, taking what he’s giving you, pleasure cutting through you at the slick slide of his dick spearing into you over and over again.
A hand comes down on your ass in a loud slap, the sting making you clench and gasp at the heady rush you get, pushing back for more.
“Is this what you wanted?” he grits out, his pace never waning. His hand lands again. “You like this? You want more?”
“Yes!” you sob.
His other hand makes contact with your plump flesh, going back and forth until you’re mewling.
His fingers are digging into your waist, the heat at the base of your spine is growing rapidly. Your arms give out, and you lay your head on them, drooling from the onslaught—your heated skin is buzzing with every nerve alight in bliss, red-hot pleasure scorching in your belly, knowing you’re not going to last much longer.
Words are spilling from your lips incoherently, Joel grunting behind you, your entire body trembling, something big building inside you, thinking you might explode.
No one has ever wrecked you like Joel does.
You’re a mess.
A puddle of a person.
He’s so deep it feels like he’s reaching nirvana inside you with every hard stroke. Pleasure has taken over your senses as it grows and expands inside you til you hit your breaking point, shattering around him with a cry of his name, coming so hard, he gets pushed out of you with a wet gush that splatters onto his thighs.
A long, low guttural “Fuck,” sounds from behind you, hot ropes of his come landing on your fluttering hole and the puffy lips of your sex.
You feel wrung out, and there’s a possibility you might actually pass out.
Hands spread your asscheeks, humming in the back of your throat when Joel’s tongue licks through his mess, feeling the vibrations of him groaning and the scratch of his beard against your sensitive skin. He makes another pass and another, not stopping until he’s gotten every last drop of his spend.
He smacks your ass when he’s finished, the mattress springs complaining, and you jostle when he falls onto it beside you.
In the past, once Joel came on his place of choice, he’d take a minute to collect himself, then pay and leave.
What you don’t expect is him pulling you into his arms and spooning you from behind with his nose buried in your hair while hugging you close.
The latter is better.
Much better.
And simply nice.
It didn’t matter you both were drenched in sweat and other bodily fluids—you've been grosser.
Minutes pass where the only sounds are your labored breathing—ten, twenty, twenty-five.
“Wanna spend the night?” your voice is hoarse when you ask.
He nuzzles into you, squeezing you tighter.
“Yeah, but I have to be up early to meet my kid for breakfast.”
His answer has your brain screeching to a halt, wondering if you heard him right.
“What did you say?” you ask.
He turns his head to speak more clearly.
“I’m gonna stay the night, but I’ll have to leave in the mornin’ to meet my kid for breakfast.”
He didn’t have any children in Boston…
“How old are they?”
There’s a smile in his voice when he answers, “She turned sixteen last month.”
The math isn’t adding up…
“Joel?”
“Yeah?”
“Did you secretly have a kid in Boston I didn’t know about?”
You’d been to the apartment he shared with Tess a few times when she was away, and there were no signs of children.
“No. Ellie came into my life a couple of years ago or so.”
Around the time he disappeared from yours.
“Oh, she’s adopted.”
“And a pain in my ass,” he says in a fond tone.
“So, you’ve got a daughter now. Probably should’ve asked before I started sucking your dick, but are you seeing anyone?”
“No.”
For some odd reason you can’t explain, the answer relieves you.
“Single dad. That’s very sexy.”
“I’m glad you think so. What about you? Are you seein’ anyone?”
“Me? No. Been too busy trying to stay alive.”
“I know what that’s like. Do I still fuck as good as you remember?”
A huff of air leaves your nose. “Yes.”
“Wanna get that drink with me tomorrow night?”
Smiling, you answer, “I’d love to.”
There’s knocking on the door, and you’re wondering who would stop by after seven p.m., thinking maybe it’s one of your friends you traveled with or a neighbor welcoming you to the community.
Joel groans as he gets up, heading toward your bathroom while you grab a blanket off the bed to cover yourself.
Unlocking the front door, you hide your body behind it so all they can see is your face as you crack it open, finding a teenage girl on the other side.
“Hi, can I help you?” you ask.
“Hi! I’m sorry for bothering you, but I live in the house—” She points behind her with her thumb at the home you share the property with, “—and I didn’t know you moved in until Tommy told me at dinner and I wanted to make sure you knew who I was so you don’t try to kill me or some shit when I sneak out of the house in the middle of the night when the guy I live with is asleep.”
She said a lot of things, but what you’re stuck on is—
“The guy you live with…? Is he your boyfriend or something?”
The girl makes a disgusted face and gags.
“Gross!” she exclaims. “No! He’s basically my dad, but I don’t call him that ‘cause it’d be fucking weird.”
Your eyes widen, closing the door a little more so she can’t see past you.
“What’s your name?” you ask.
“Ellie.” Oh, fuck. “What’s yours?”
After introducing yourself, you ask her, “What’s your adopted dad’s name?”
“Oh, yeah, you should know that. I’m surprised he hasn’t come by to talk to you yet.” She looks around like she thinks she’ll spot him in the backyard. “I actually have no fucking idea where he is. Probably the bar,” she says with a shrug. “His name’s Joel.”
“What does he look like?” She’s entertaining, and you want to hear her description.
“Oh, he’s old as fuck and big—” She spread her arms wide, and you smile. “—but not in a fat way, like in a big, strong man way?” That’s accurate. “He always looks fucking grumpy or like someone pissed in his coffee.” Also true. “So, if you see an old, grumpy man who barely talks to you, it’s most likely Joel. Wait, come have breakfast with us in the morning and you can meet him! We meet at the mess hall at eight!”
“No, no, Joel doesn’t sound like a people person. I don’t want to bother him.”
“Everyone bothers him. You should still come. I’ll save you a seat.”
“Maybe. Well, it’s been nice meeting you, Ellie. Hopefully, I’ll come across this elusive Joel.”
“He’s a grumpy asshole, but he’s still polite and will definitely stop by at some point to introduce himself, which you should tell him I stopped by like a good, responsible neighbor.”
“A good, responsible neighbor who wants to make sure I don’t try to kill them when they sneak out of their house.”
“Yeah! You get it.” She gives you a double thumbs up. “Alright, it was nice meeting you!” She walks backward, saluting you. “I hope you’ll come to breakfast tomorrow!”
“We’ll see!”
With that, you close the door and lock it.
Turning around, you glare at the man who peeks his head out of the bathroom.
“Is she gone?” he asks quietly.
“I live in your backyard?”
“Yeah, I woulda told you, but we didn’t do much talkin’. Did she leave?” he asks again.
“Yes,” you answer, walking over to the bed and tossing the blanket onto it. You’re in desperate need of a shower even though you took one earlier, heading towards Joel.
“I can’t believe she sneaks out when I’m sleepin’,” he sounds genuinely betrayed, and you think it’s adorable.
“She’s a teenager, Joel. It’s what teenagers do.” Slipping past him, you turn on the shower, the sound of roaring water filling the air.
A long sigh leaves him.
“Are you comin’ to breakfast?” He’s still naked, his arms crossed over his chest, resting his hip against the bathroom sink.
Your head snaps toward him. “Do you want me at breakfast?”
There’s the tiniest smile on his face. “I want you for breakfast, but don’t mind if you eat with us. Just, uh—” He scratches at his mustache. “—don’t mention how we know each other…”
“No shit, Joel. We’re just old friends.”
“Yeah, old friends…”
“There you go.”
There’s a curious expression on his face.
“You really enjoy fuckin’ me for free?”
You snort, getting in under the warm spray and closing the shower curtain behind you—bless Jackson and heated plumbing. “Yes, Joel.”
It’s a bathtub/shower combination, and he follows you in.
Your face is under the water, feeling lips press to your shoulder from behind, blazing a path to the side of your neck, goosebumps rising on your skin.
Turning to wash your back, there’s an odd look on his face, his eyes a little bigger, not knowing what’s going on when his hands gently cradle your jaw.
A surprised sound leaves you when his mouth claims yours in a searing kiss—something he’s never done before and refused in the past. His lips are plush, melting into him as he kisses the air straight from your lungs.
It feels like there’s been a shift, the walls he always kept up with you crumbling from showing genuine interest in him without a payment.
There comes a point when you’re aching for air and break away with a gasp while his lips streak across your jaw and down your neck, sucking on your pulse point.
“Joel?” you pant.
His head comes up to meet your eyes, his chest rising and falling hard.
“I’ve always liked you,” you tell him. “If I wasn’t desperate in Boston, I never would’ve charged you for your time—that’s how much I enjoy fucking you. Add in you making it all the way here alive, and how cute you are when you talk about your kid; I like you even more. I’ve always liked you, Joel.”
He smiles, his eyes crinkling at the edges.
“I’ve always liked you, too, baby.” His mouth descends on yours once more.
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