#Uhhhhh happy thanksgiving? lol

[moodymisty]

Could you please write something with Sevatar? That man needs to get slapped around uwu

[ 𝕸𝖔𝖔𝖉𝖞𝕸𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖞'𝖘 𝕸𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖑𝖎𝖘𝖙 | 𝕬𝖔3 ]

Author's Note: Wearing a shirt that says 'Number 1 Jago Sevatarion whore' on it: Yeah I'm normal.

Summary: Jago Sevatarion really likes one of the Salamander's humans.

Relationships: Jago "Sevatar" Sevatarion/Fem!Reader

Warnings: Vague references to NSFW, The consent is dubious so tw dubcon, Violence, Stalking, Predator/Prey kinda dynamics, General 40kness, Stockholm syndrome?, Kinda Yandere maybe?, If you don't know what you're getting into reading this then I dunno what to fucking tell you like it's a Night Lord I can only woobify him so much

Word Count: 1140

It has been tense as of late, to say the least. As much as that word fails to illustrate in context, it's the only one you can think of to use.

To have Night Lords present has been nothing but a battle to keep tensions low enough in order to keep things productive, and to avoid fights between the Astartes from breaking out at seemingly every opportunity. These fights can be between the apposing legions, or even just between the Eighth themselves.

It doesn't help that the Night Lords are often times seen baiting them- taunting barking goading a Salamander to throw the first punch. They seem to crave it, most of them.

Every baseline human aboard has done everything within their power to avoid crossing paths with Astartes in deep blue armor, adorned with smatterings of blood red. Particularly when not in sight of a Salamander. There has been more than a few times where a serf or other baseline human has managed to scurry into sanctuary within a Salamander's line of sight, and in the distance a Night Lord prowls; Discontent with his prey, or toy perhaps, finding safety in the light. They will soon after find something else to occupy their time, leaving the human no longer needing to look over their shoulder. But only for the moment.

You don't have that option. Because not only have you already gotten caught, the one that caught you is smart.

He knows where you would try to hide, every single little rat hole you could try and squeeze yourself in, and he knows that even if you did flee to one of your massive protectors, he would put up a far stronger fight than any of the other Night Lords. His persistence alone sets him apart. Why did he pick you? Out of so many, why you?

It's like being hunted. But not the chase; The conclusion, when the predator decides to bat around it's prey like a toy as it squeals, begging for a mercy it won't receive.

If you screamed, would someone come? Would they be able to free you from him, or would he simply kill them and have you all alone again?

But why won't the scream leave your throat? It's like he's choking you with just his presence.

You can hear ceramite plates grind against each other as he shifts in his armor, the hissing of it's mechanics left hand pinning your right arm against the wall. It hurts bad, it'll surely be bruised and aching, radiating pain as a remnant and reminder that this isn't some sort of horrid nightmare.

He finally caught you. After so long of managing to evade the massive Astartes, him stalking the shadows outside of your safety and watching you with those void black eyes like you have something he wants, he finally sank his claws in you. He'd been toying with you for what felt like weeks, swimming around you and trying to reach out and grab only for you to pull away, and he'd laugh. Call you little. Say your name that he'd stolen after overhearing it in a way that had you swallowing a knot deep in your throat. You could only avoid it so long- for every step you took away, took he took two closer.

Many of the Astartes are currently having their five hours of designated rest- there is no one to save you in this particular hall save for the rare guard.

His other hand grips your jaw, making sure your face can't turn away from him. Your free hand paws at his wrist, and each time your fingers slip off the armor despite trying to latch onto the seams you can see the amusement cast on his face.

Is it because he likes the way your hand is too small to grip, unable to fight against someone so much larger, unfathomably stronger, or because you're squirming like sweet prey under his pitch black gaze?

You just wish he'd get on with it. To stop toying with you, making your heart pound against your ribcage. To make your skin so hot that it travels up your neck as if moving to choke you. Fear swallows you in a way that makes you freeze- even if he hadn't been holding you, you doubt you could call on your legs to run and not fall right over to your knees.

He's never gotten this close before.

His lips brush against yours like the touch of a ghost, his breath boiling hot on your skin. You can just feel the rough skin of the scar that rips across the right side of his mouth, warping the skin. It's one of many that decorate what little skin of his is visible. When he shifts, you can hear his helm hit his thigh plate from where it's attached to his belt.

"Well?"

He's so close you can barely see his eyes, and you don't want to. When ever he looks at you if feels like he's piercing you to the wall. His dark eyes and slicked black hair contrast with the paleness of his complexion, as he watches your every move.

"I can smell that fear on you."

His words lay over you like a hot, rough blanket.

"But don't think I'm stupid enough to not smell something else."

He's not gentle- neither with his words or the way his hands grip your arms pressing against the wall. Is this a part of the Madness of the Eighth that seems to hang over their legion? To just want and to take? You know that the Astartes always can with their raw power, but you're so used to the Salamanders and their stoic kindness.

It's your obvious, first thought to try and free yourself, or call for the help of someone not asleep. Though a second thought crosses moments later.

You know you shouldn't do it; He's going to eat you up and spit you out once he's done.

But you're an idiot. One with no options and that finds themselves almost drawn into the black hole that is him.

"W-What is your name?"

He's never said it, and you've never dared ask it to anyone. You feared that once you did, that you'd put yourself deeper into his grip like stepping into a bog- fighting but only sinking farther.

He laughs. Deep, and its gravel hits you in the gut.

"I am Jago Sevatarion."

His exhale smooths over your skin like hot steam; Rough lips once again scraping over yours in an almost kiss. His voice is heavy on your chest, he's not even yelling and it's loud, deep and makes the back of your neck tense. The cold metal of his power armor presses against the skin of your jaw.

"You can call me Sevatar."

#tw dubcon #Uhhhhh happy thanksgiving? lol #I don't care if you meant this as a shitpost or not I'm writing Sevatar and you can't stop me #sevatar x reader #jago sevatarion x reader #warhammer 40k x reader #space marine x reader #mywriting

[pansy2005]

so uhh lofi hip hop chill beats version of cemetery drive?? inspired by this post & artwork by 25092010

#uhhhhh #me art #need a me music tag #my chemical romance #cemetery drive #happy thanksgiving i guess #i havent done anything like this before so im not sureeee abt it but i think it came out ok #for being done in. six hours lol

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #063

If you could own your own Pokemon, which would it be? Probably like, Espeon. They're gorgeous and seem calm and overall cat-like. What is it that draws you to your favorite song/band/musician? I'm pretty simple with this, I'm just drawn to what sounds "good" to me. Have you ever had an embarrassing nickname? Not really. I mean I feel kinda weird in the very rare instance my mom calls me "Twinkie" (it was my childhood nickname; all her kids have sweets/candy nicknames, haha) in front of others, but it's whatever. What, in your opinion, is the most disgusting part of the human body? I'm like, aggressively disgusted by any genitalia, even though I try very, very hard not to be because it's an extreme overreaction and perpetuates ideas I don't support by making it seem like this big, huge deal and "gross," but I've never in my life been able to just move past the extreme "ew" impulse reaction I have. What has the ability to easily embarrass you? I couldn't even REMOTELY comfortably discuss how I RP and details about it if you're not Tez or Mazzy or past RP partners.

If you could give your best friend a gift, what would it be, and why? At some point I really, really want to get Girt a little statue/figure thing of his FFXIV character. He loves the game and has invested a load of time into it and I know he would be absolutely in love with the idea for a little room decor. What was the name of your second grade teacher? Mrs. Whitley. She was also my 5th grade teacher and overall one of my absolute favorites. Sweaters or fuzzy blankets? Big blanketssss. Ghosts or witches? I'm more drawn to ghosts, personally. Describe your ideal date. To name one I haven't recently, maybe like, a concert of a band we both enjoy. Do you like s'mores? I LOVE s'mores. What's an unpopular opinion you have on autumn? Pumpkin spice isn't all that. Are you single or in a relationship? I'm in a v happy 'n' healthy relationship. Do you like Christmas trees? I do. Do you prefer Halloween, Thanksgiving, or Christmas? While I enjoy the aesthetic of Halloween most, Christmas is overall my favorite holiday. Do you like trick-or-treating? I LOVED it as a kid. Stopped as a teen though solely because of societal expectations, lol. You have peculiar interests? The "weirdest" would probably be vulture culture, which is basically the use of dead animal parts to create art, like bones, wet specimens, taxidermy, etc. Are you crafty? I don't think I am, actually; I can draw all I want, sure, but I'm not a big crafts person. Tell us something random about you. Uhhhhh before meerkats, my favorite animal was dolphins. I had lots of dolphin stuff as a kid. Do you believe in the supernatural? I believe in spirits and their (limited) ability to interact with humans, yes. What's your favorite scary movie? I really like The Blair Witch Project (plus its sequel) and The Crazies. Do you have a comfort food? It tends to be ice cream. Are you in school? What do you study? I'm not; I'm in the process of looking into online photography courses offered by my local community college, though. Ma brought it up and it'd be something to do that I generally really like. Do you celebrate Thanksgiving? What traditions so you have? Yeah, even though the roots itself of the holiday are fucking garbage. My mom and I always go to my sister's place, where more family meets up for dinner. Do you have a Tumblr account? (If so, what is the URL?) I am literally too lazy to link it, it's steinstan. Have you ever had a crush on more than one person at once? Do you now? Yes, and no. Do you have mean comments that replay in your head and haunt you? YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP. Have you ever bought a designer purse? No, NOT interested in spending a ludicrous amount of money for a bag. What color was your senior prom dress? It was black. Would you ever consider a career in writing? Yes, I'd actually love to. Have you ever purchased a YouTuber’s merch? If so, what did you buy? My favorite shirt I own is one by Cloak, Markiplier and jacksepticeye's clothing company, but that's it. I would LOVE more YouTuber-specific merch, but I've never really asked for this stuff for holidays because I consider that stuff one of my "weird" interests that I have a paralyzing fear people will judge me for. Do you update your Facebook relationship status when it changes? Yes. Do you want your own house someday? I would actually really, really like to own my own place one day so I can do whatever I want to make it home. When you go to McDonald's, what drink do you usually get? Coke. Ever seen your parents make out? GOD NO. Were you raised in a religious house? Fucking tragically. Have you ever been asked for a nude picture? Not to my recollection, no. I think I'd remember that. Last person that saw you naked (can’t be yourself): My mom. Ever kissed someone half-naked? Yeah. Do you like bacon? Oh dude I love bacon. Do you have an annoying dog? No, Cookie is generally very well-behaved. She's always acted very unobtrusively and personality-wise is really the perfect dog for Mom and me. What was the first comic book you ever had an obsession over? I was never into comics, actually. What color was your first phone? It was a navy blue, I believe. Was your first phone a flip phone? Quite sure it slid, actually. If you’re a girl, have you ever had an embarrassing period story? I don't believe I do. What was your worst experience in high school? Just crippling depression. Do you ever use the n-word? Absolutely not. What is your phone background? My lock screen is an absolutely spectacular photo of Richard having a blast with his guitar w/ pyrotechnic fire entirely as the background, and my home screen is a skeleton doing the devil horns symbol. Have you ever gotten in trouble for using a phone in class? Nope, because I didn't use my phone when it wasn't allowed. Do you have any pets other than dogs or cats? Yes, a snake. Have you ever finished a whole video game? Oh jeez, plenty plenty. Grew up a gamer, man. Do you know anyone with a pet snake? Obviously myself, and Mazzy has them too! I might know more people, but not sure. What names do you like? To name some that come to mind quickly, Alessandra, Miquella, Amani, Justine, Evangeline, Chloe, Naomi, Damien, Severin, Vincent, and Luther. If you had to name your daughter after a Disney princess, which one? Um probably Aurora. What’s your opinion on poetry? I love it and have been on the brink of trying to write a new one for a while now. How much did your senior prom dress cost you? I have no idea. What dreams have stuck with you since childhood? Meeting/having physical contact with a meerkat. I also still REALLY want to see a complete dinosaur fossil display! Did you ever take your dog to school? Oh my god, I do remember doing this once with Teddy in the I wanna say 5th grade. I had permission to bring him in and have my classmates meet him. I don't remember the details really, but I remember he did so well and everyone liked him! God, I miss my boy. If you had had a baby in high school, what would you have named him or her? Alessandra for a girl, Severin for a boy. Has God ever healed you of anything? If so, what? No, but actual science has. What is the most boring church you have ever attended? They all bored me to fucking death whenever I'd go somewhere, but the one I grew up with, a Roman Catholic one, was THE. FUCKING. WORST. Mass always had such a serious aura full of rituals and I hated it. What is the most lively church you have ever attended? I don't remember. Do you find church fun or boring? So immensely boring that as a kid, if Mom decided we were going to go after Sunday school, I cried lmao. What do you hate the most about summer? THE FUCKING HEAT. Which part of your body is the most muscular? That... is a very good question. I have zero idea. Did you ever take Latin in school? For one semester my first year of high school. It was incredibly difficult and I quickly switched to German the next half. What is your favorite Japanese name? I have a bias towards Mi Nuong, having a character with that name. Plus is sounds beautiful to me. I really like a lot of Japanese names, though. Have you ever ran a cash register? Ugh, yes. Fucking never again. Do you think your mom is attractive? My mom is super beautiful and I swear her smile is the sun. What computer game did you used to play all the time? There were many, but there was this one called something like Amazon Trail 3 that I was obsessed with. Would you allow your children to date prior to 16? (assuming you want any) I would. Do you like salami? I love salami. Have your parents met your boyfriend/exes? Yep. Name something in your life that was a blessing in disguise: My breakup with Jason, really. Have your parents ever questioned your virginity? I know my mom has; my dad has never voiced any side of belief on this, and I don't want to talk about it with him. Do you find graveyards scary? No. Who do you consider to be the king of pop? How about the queen of pop? I really don't care, pop isn't my genre. When was the last time you made a pinky promise? Ha ha semi-recently when Girt made me promise to always tell him if I don't feel like watching something. When we hang out I truly am up for like whatever he feels like doing, I just like being in his presence, but he was concerned about boring me, lol. Do you think your parents know things about you that you don’t want them to? Mom probably does. Honestly, have you ever said a racist joke? Not to my memory and I certainly wouldn't have once I was at the age to have enough sense. I am never okay with racist jokes. If you had to be a school teacher, which subject would you teach? You know, I actually recently realized that with my enthusiasm for the language and culture and all, if I'm ever truly fluent, I'd be quite the dedicated German instructor. I'm not interested in being a teacher of any sort, though. As a child, did you ever get the chance to go to Disney World/Disneyland? Yes. What state do you live in? What’s the best aspect about this state? North Carolina, and like... nothing. I hate it here. The mountains to the west are pretty, though. Honestly it's mostly just this stretch where the coastal plains and piedmont meet where everything is just garbage. Are you someone who is really committed to politics in your area/country? I wish I was, but I'm admittedly not. I have strong opinions with what I do understand, but I absolutely do not educate myself on everything. Part of that is because I just don't care enough even though I should, but there's also the fact that this is an area I have a very, very hard time understanding. Like, information going through my ears just doesn't compute. Do you know anyone, personally, who is in an abusive relationship? Are you? I don't think so, and definitely not. When was the last time you were on a boat? Where did you travel on it? Many summers ago when I went fishing with Colleen, her husband, and her dad on a lake. Favorite fast food restaurant? Sonic. Are any of your siblings in college, or planning on going to college? No; both of my sisters graduated college, one with a Master's and I think the other a Bachelor's. Then there's me. Do you drink milk? If so, what’s your favorite kind? I do; I prefer chocolate most, but I do like normal milk, too. Not skim, though.

#survey #surveys #random surveys #random questions

[surveys-at-your-service]

Surveys #431-432

two biggins’ in one, beware the long post.

Do you own any Funko Pop! figurines? No. How many cats and dogs have you had as pets in your lifetime? I couldn't possibly count the cats. A lot. We've had I wanna say eight dogs through my entire life. Can your mom and/or dad play any instruments, or how about anyone else in your family? No. My older sister played the clarinet in school, though. Have you ever colored in an adult coloring book as a stress reliever? I have, but they don't really affect my stress level. Can you crack crab legs without a tool? UGH EW I hate crab legs. So mushy and just... ew. I don't think I've tried to without a tool. How many light sources are in the room you’re in? Excluding the natural light out my windows, three. What’s your favorite thing to put on bagels? Just your usual cream cheese. Who’s your favorite director? Tim Burton. I love his style. Bats: cute or gross? Bats are SO goddamn cute. What was the last really intense pain you felt? I had a sudden pain in my chest the other day that scared me quite a bit. Would you rather vacation by a beach or a lake? A lake, for sure. How would you feel about traveling abroad alone? I'd be way too lonely. What is your father's middle name? John. Where did your last kiss take place? The airport. Which movie villain do you find the most terrifying? Probably Jason. A masked guy just casually pursuing you with a knife is horrifying to me. If you married your favorite celebrity what would your last name be? Fischbach alskdfla;wer;lkwera;wle Do you stick your tongue out often in pictures? No. Which one of your family members are you closest to? My ma. Would you rather have name brand shoes or name brand clothes? Shoes. It's very important for them to be comfy for me. Are you a good liar? Yes. :x Are you proud of your parents? Yeah. If you could get backstage tickets to ANY concert - which would you pick? If Mom was with me, Metallica. She would actually fucking die if she met them. Like she cried and laughed with joy when she found out about the concert in Raleigh some years ago, and we thought we were going to go, but yeah, money. Which is better: orange or grape soda? Orange cream soda. Grape soda is so gross. Was the last thing you ate hot or cold? It was room temperature. Who was the last person in your house who isn’t family? Our landlord/family friend. I think. What color was the last swimsuit you wore? Black. Can you remember the last song you listened to? I'm listening to "Thoughts & Prayers" by Motionless In White right now. Have you ever been dumped really harshly? Ha, that is a colossal understatement... Can you do a back flip, or anything else of that sort? Definitely not. I couldn't even do stuff like that as a kid. Do you have any exes you can’t stand anymore? No. What happened to cause you to feel that way about them? ^ Are you more of a phone or a computer person? Computer, for sure. Do you have a job, and if so, where do you work? No. If not, do you want one? Not right now. I want to focus on the gym and getting in shape. Do any medical afflictions run in your family? A whole lot. What’s your favorite Mexican dish? Shrimp quesadillas. Or rice with cheese sauce. Have you ever been to a professional sports game? Yeah, hockey and baseball. Do you prefer pads, tampons or something else? I'm actually conflicted on this right now. I use tampons, but there are reasons I don't really like them and am considering something else. Have you ever ordered a specially made cake from a cake shop? Not me myself, but Mom has. What months were you and your siblings born in? My two immediate sisters were born in April and June. What did you have for dinner last night? Uhhhhh... I want to say I had a chicken pesto bowl? Have you ever had sex in/on a vehicle? No, that sounds so uncomfortable. Do you do anything to groom your eyebrows? No. I don't care about that anymore. Has your town ever flooded? Oh, for sure. Hurricane Floyd from when I was... I wanna say two or three WRECKED my area. Have you ever played at the McDonald’s play place? Yeah. That was a blast as a kiddo. Have you ever taken a picture of snow? Yeah. Do you cry easily? Very. Are you happy with where you live? No. The suburbs suck. I miss living in the country so much. Do people ever mistake you for being a different race? No. Do you hate the last person you kissed? No, she's my best friend in the whole world. What genre is your favorite movie? I actually don't know what it's considered? It's a kids movie, though. Who was the last person you were in a car with? My mom. Do you like the picture on your license/I.D. card? My permit picture is fucking hideous. When was the last time somebody hit on you? *shrug* Was the last person you met a male or female? A guy - my personal trainer. What brand is your underwear? I'm in my pjs, and only a madman would wear underwear to bed. What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? Just the rolls, really, lol. I'm not a big fan of Thanksgiving foods at all. Do you have a TV in your room? No, because I don't watch TV. Are any of your electronics charging right now? My laptop always is, though I know you shouldn't do that. I need to charge my phone, too. What was the last video game you played? Video game, not computer, I want to say uh... The Legend of Spyro: Dawn of the Dragon? What’s the biggest promise someone’s ever made to you? Did they keep it? To never leave me. He didn't. Google, Bing, or Yahoo? Google. What was the last song you had on repeat? The song I mentioned earlier. Who is your favorite person to watch on YouTube? Markiplier. :') How many college degrees do you want? It'd be nice to have a Bachelor's in SOMETHING, but I'm not returning to school. Three tries was enough money down the drain. Can you wink? Yeah. Do you own any jerseys? No. Have you ever tried to snort Pixie Stix as a child, or even an adult? Uh, no. Do you like going to baby showers? Do you go only for the cake? No. The last time Jason and I hung out in any capacity was his brother's wife's baby shower, and it's a bad memory. As well, it just reminds me of what I once wanted with him. I'll go to them and be okay, but definitely not thrilled. Has there ever been a time in your life, you felt sexually undecided? Yes, especially in the I want to say 8th grade. I had an inescapable crisis that literally lasted a whole week (or maybe more) forcing myself to believe I was straight, despite already showing but denying bisexual attractions. I was religious back then, so believed if I wasn't straight, I'd go to Hell. Then I came out as bisexual in uhhhh... 2018 I wanna say, and that was a long examination of my feelings. It felt like a massive weight off my shoulders when I accepted it. I felt legit happy. Do you think tattoos and piercings are sexy on the opposite sex? ugggghhhhh yes Do people ever ask you to do things they’re too short to accomplish? No. What color are the headphones you have at this moment in time? My earbuds are pink and white. Ever choked severely on something during lunch at your school? No. Do you eat more vegetables or fruits? What’s your favorite fruit/veggie? Fruits, for sure. My fave is strawberries. What would you say is the color of your favorite bra? I have a pink and black lacy one that is super cute, but it's too small for me right now. It just stays in my drawer. Is anyone in your family a firefighter? Who is it anyway? No. What do you usually buy when you go to the dollar store? If I'm stopping there for a snack (which is usually the only time we stop by one), I tend to get a honeybun. Ever peed in the pool? Be honest! No, that is so gross. When you’re older, what kind of house do you want to live in? I want a medium-sized house that's semi-isolated in the woods. I'd love a nice path to walk down and take photos, a catio for Roman or whatever cat I may have in the future... stuff like that. I need lots of nature. Where do you want to get married? In some sort of gothic building, though I'm sure that would be a WILDLY expensive venue, so I doubt that'll happen. Realistically, either in the woods or even a massive flower garden. Do you plan on having both your parents at your wedding? Yes. What is your favorite childhood TV show? Pokemon. Honestly, do you like school? No, I didn't. Last thing that made you cry? PTSD. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now? No big secrets, no. Last person you took a walk with? Sara, years ago. Have you ever liked someone who didn’t like you back? Oh, have I... Who was the last person to actually pick you up in the air? Probably Jason, honestly. Does any part of your body hurt? My non-existent abs are killing me from exercising yesterday. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret what would you do? While it's tempting, hand me the cash. Can you keep a secret? Absolutely. You tell me a secret, you can guarantee I'll be keeping it between you and me. Your favorite romantic movie? The Notebook. How do you feel about Valentine’s Day? I honestly like it. I love the aesthetic of it, and I know people say "well you should celebrate love every day," and while that's right, what's so wrong about nationally designating a specific day to appreciate it? I think it's a very cute holiday. Who was the last person you took a picture with? My sister Katie. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? I haven't worn jeans in yeeeeaaaarrrrssss. When I did though, I loved jeans like that, especially for skinny jeans. Do you celebrate 420?No. Have you ever kicked a vending machine? No. How do you eat Oreos? I prefer to just dip them in milk. If that's unavailable, I separate the two parts, eat the cream, and then the two cookies. Do you wear your shoes in the house? No. Would you survive in prison? Absofuckinglutely not. It's dark, but just to be entirely honest, I'd probably find a way to kill myself. Ever been to Georgia? I've been through it. Do you get your hair cut every month? Not every month, no. It needs a trim right now badly, though.

Current relationship in detail. I'm single and should be. If you were kicked out of your house, who would you call/go to? My dad. List things you spend money on in an average week. Nothing. Rate each of your sexual partners (if any) from 1-10. He was honestly a 10 lmao like I don't have a lot of experience at all, but yeah. Post the last FB group/page that you joined. I actually don't remember because I've been on break from Facebook for around a month. Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship? No... Think of the last person you had sex with. Do you think they’ve slept with anyone else since they last slept with you? I'm sure he has. He dated someone right after me for like... eight months or something? Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to? I think that's very obvious by now. What board games are you good at? Idk, I don't really enjoy board games. Is there a sport/hobby you keep thinking about taking up, but that you’ve never quite gotten around to starting? Definitely no sports, but I've been wanting to get back into video editing. I just... haven't, even though I have the software. Do you think pranks like egging/toilet-papering someone's house are funny or immature? They're incredibly immature. I see zero humor in them. Do you think “sleeve tattoos” are a good idea? They're hot as fuck, man. Is there anything in particular that your parents argue about? What? I'll just say they're divorced for good reasons. Do you ever actually read the “Terms and Services” when you sign up for websites and such? No. If you have a handheld games console (a DS or GameBoy, for example), how often do you use it? Almost never. Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, what do you say? Realistically, I wouldn't answer because I don't answer numbers I don't recognize. Hypothetically, if I knew it was him, I'd probably say something along the lines of, "Hey J, are you okay?", because something must be seriously wrong if he wants to talk to me of all people. If your best friend was kicked out, would your parents let him/her live with you? Mom absolutely would. Are you afraid of falling in love? I'm terrified of it. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now? I wish I didn't. Have you ever kissed someone & wished you didn’t? Yes: Tyler. Did you get kissed last night? Haven't been kissed in years. Do you enjoy going through a carwash? Bring out the rainbow soap and it's hype lmao. How did you get most of your scars? My cat, ha ha. He sometimes plays way too rough, and I just scar very easily. Ever had to take an inkblot test? Yes, when I went to a psychologist. Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do? Maybe? Have you ever seriously slapped someone in anger? My sister as a kid on her arm. Safe to say I got in trouble for it. What/who woke you up this morning? Just my body. Who was the last person to be in your bedroom besides you? Mom. What’s one of your locked text messages? da;lsd;fakwer I have one locked from Sara that says something like, "You are so beautiful." I cried. Have you ever finished a game of Monopoly? I think? Jason and I used to play the digital one you could download on the PS3. Is there anyone you know who’s in any way paralyzed? No. I mean, I know of a girl who went to my school who was paralyzed from the waist down in an accident, but I didn't/don't know her personally. She was a MASSIVE deal in my education community. Like you would see "prayers for (name)" on school and church signs. The truth all comes out when someone is drunk, true? Usually true. I sometimes think back on the one time Jason was drunk, and he just told me in the most adoring voice, "I love you, Brittany." It's painful as fuck to remember. I really do wonder if he meant it, given this was in the later half of our relationship. When was the last time you felt disappointed in yourself? Constantly. How about feeling disappointed in someone else? I dunno. For you, do you commonly feel more jealousy or envy? I definitely experience envy more often. Do you rely on the heads/tails flipping of a coin sometimes for decisions? No. Do you have any specific chores you do around the house? I'm supposed to empty the dishwasher in particular. For you, does comfort or fashion come first in dressing? Comfort, 100%. Have you had two friends that absolutely hated each other? No. Do you like Laffy Taffy? I do. That sounds pretty good right about now. Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners? Electric. Are your biceps at all noticeable? Yeah, no. Have you ever seen a walrus? Yeah, at SeaWorld as a kid. Did you ever have one of those Easy Bake ovens as a kid? Yeah. My little sister in particular was obsessed. Does your bathroom have a theme to it? No. From inside of your house, how many doors lead outside? Two. Are there a lot of trees in your yard? No. :/ I miss that. Have you ever liked someone that treated you like crap? No. Have a best friend? Yeah. :') Does it bother you when your best friend does stuff without you? That is so childish. Everyone needs space sometimes. But to answer the question, considering she lives many states away from me, obviously not. Is there a secret you’ve never told your parents? Yes. Does anyone hate you? I wouldn't at all be surprised if Jason does. Colleen might, but I really don't give a shit if she does. What’s the one thing you regret more than anything? The way I spoke to Jason after the breakup. If only I could take those letters back. Do you remember important dates? I am VERY bad at dates, doesn't matter how important they are. What’s some lyrics from a song that means a lot to you? "For such a little thing, you sure are in your own way" from a Mother Mother song. Who gives the best advice? Sara. Who do you usually see in your dreams? :) Jason is nearly a permanent fixture. Jeez, I'm bringing him up a lot in this one. I'm surprised my PTSD isn't dragging me into a pit for it. What type of cake did you last eat? Uhhh I wanna say double chocolate? Mom got two slices from the store for me and herself a long time ago. How many of your friends are gay or bisexual? A large number. I don't feel like counting. What’s your favorite type of sandwich? Just your usual peanut butter and jelly. When was the last time someone asked you out? Did you accept or decline? Years ago by Girt. I accepted. Do you like The Offspring? Sure, I like a handful of their songs. One pillow or two? I sleep with two. Do you like Mad Libs? Sure, they can be funny. Are you suicidal? Well damn, just throw that in there. Anyway, no. I'll admit I've had very brief, passive thoughts very rarely as of the late, just wondering if there really is a point to me being here, but I'm not actively suicidal at all rn. Where do your grandparents live? They're dead. When alive though, they lived in Florida and Michigan. Do you cut yourself? And this one? No, I haven't in many years. What is your pet’s name? Roman and Venus. Have you ever been to Canada? No, but I'd love to visit. Aren’t babies overrated? "Overrated" is definitely the wrong word... I don't particularly find a lot of babies cute and I don't want my own, but they're not overrated. Have a built-in pool in your backyard? Never have. Ever won yourself a stuffed animal? Yeah. Ever had someone else win you a stuffed animal? Yes. Ever been to a circus? No. I wouldn't set foot into one. Ever shot animals? I never, ever could. Do you consider yourself intelligent? I USED to. I think I'm dumb as shit now. School knowledge did not latch onto me well, I guess. Have you ever run away from home? Yes. It was so overdramatic. I came back hours later because I had my phone and Mom texted me threatening to call the cops. Do you put family first, friends, relationships, school, or something else? I will never put my mental health behind anything/one again. What’s something you’ve stood up for in the past? When Colleen and I were friends in middle school, we both spoke before the class in absolute disgust at how our classmates were treating our poor substitute teacher. Colleen had AT them, while I was more tame about it but still wanted to bash into their heads that they were all being absolute trash to the poor man. What’s something you worked extremely hard to get? My mental wellbeing. Granted, I'm not exactly "well" now, but once upon a time I was living in the deepest ocean trench as far as depression goes. Are you satisfied with your body image? Hell no. I really, really, really hope loyally going to the gym will help me with that. Have you ever been labeled negatively or otherwise been called something extremely derogatory? Not that I know of. Have you ever seriously taken advantage of someone or been taken advantage of? No. Have you ever been seriously ill? Mentally, immensely. Physically, not really. I've had some nasty stomach bugs, but nothing truly severe. Have you ever befriended a former enemy? Ha, it's funny, I used to hate Jason's first ex/heartbreak for how badly she hurt him. Like she could've been falling off the face of the earth with only me to save her, and I'd let her keep falling. I hated her. Yet now we're Facebook friends and comment on each other's stuff like it's nothing, ha ha. She reached out to me a few years ago to apologize for high school stuff (she also hated me for Juan - her ex or something along those lines - being interested in me instead of her), we chatted a bit, and now I think she's great. If you’re not religious, would you ever pray as a last resort? If you are religious, do you often pray for other people? I don't pray anymore. That's all I'll say to keep this from becoming potentially very offensive. Have you ever dated someone, then after you dated they came out of the closet or switched (for lack of a better word) sexual orientation? I'm pretty sure my middle school boyfriend Aaron is gay, but I'm not certain. He vanished from Facebook a long time ago. Has a boy/girl ever walked a ridiculous distance just to see you? How about vice versa? I tried doing that the night of the breakup. By car, I know it was a seven-minute drive, but walking there, never mind at night, was ludicrous. I only didn't manage because after a few minutes, Mom came after me and kept cutting me off with the car. When was the last time you felt really uncomfortable? Right now. My abs REALLY hurt, and I'm also cramping like a motherfucker after not having a period for 3+ months because of TMS therapy. I'm still pissed about how it had a physical effect on me, but didn't mentally do what it was meant to. Is there anything that your mom is really known for as to how she is as a person? She is very, very loving and lives to help others. Who have you been talking to the most today? Nobody, really. I've spoken with Mom obviously, but for the most part, today's been quiet. Are you nosy? I can be pretty damn nosy, yes. What’s the meanest thing you have done to a friend? Consistently flirted with her boyfriend behind her back. I was 12, okay? If your ex called you crying, what would it most likely be about? THE ex, I have no idea. I don't know what's going on in his life, besides his mother dying quite a few months ago, but I don't see why he'd contact me about that. Who was the best kisser out of all the people you have kissed? Jason. Have you ever been told that you have an annoying laugh? No, but I think I do.

#survey #surveys #random questions

[buoyantsaturn]

Just wanted to say hi :) and happy early thanksgiving (or Thursday if you don’t celebrate) hope you’re doing okay and your family as well :) it’s pretty slow around here, but I’m happy about that haha though it feels weird being home so early when everyone else is still in school :) but I’m making it work (read: reading way too many books and eating a lot of good food haha) oh, do you have any book recs? also, I’m loving the camp counselors au and can’t wait for the end!! blessings and hugs :)

hello and happy almost thanksgiving!! im. very bummed out that i cant see anybody for thanksgiving but now i just get to spend a Lot of time bonding with my dad while we both figure out how to cook a turkey. he got a 10 pound turkey. there’s 3 of us. i don’t eat turkey. it’s gonna be fun!

it feels SO weird being home for class lol especially since all of my classes are late in the day when my mom’s home, so i’m just in the basement shouting at my computer while she’s trying to watch tv. might get to do the whole next semester like this too! that’ll be fun. 

oh man.........when was the last time i read a book that wasn’t percy jackson...........uhhhhh the song of achilles is always good and by good i mean i cry every time. tina fey’s autobiography ‘bossypants’ is very good but apparently i read only books about greek mythology and biographies about comedians. half of me has turned into my mother. maybe read circe by madeline miller? i havent read it but i mean. same author as tsoa its gotta be good. also annabethisterrified wrote ‘outrun the wind’ which ive been interested in reading but! who has the time

aaaaa thank you im so glad you like the au!! im sad to see that its over so soon (and with it went all of my motivation) but i cant wait for you to read it on friday!!! hopefully i’ll remember to post it early in the day

#ask #anonymous #camp counselors au #c.j. at college #wordsofink

[nerdzewordart]

I was tagged by @bamboo72498 on my main blog, but I thought i’d share it here because this is where most of my writer friends visit me lol

AO3 name: nerdzeword

Fandoms: oh boy. um. I have fanfiction for Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, All for the Game and My Hero Academia posted, but I also have one in the works for the Magnus Archives

Tropes: FOUND FAMILY!!!!! seriously though i will read anything really. Especially AUs. I love AUs.

Number of fics: 53 posted, but i have another 27 in my wip/maybe abandoned folder

Fic I spent the most time on: uhhhhh i have spent a lot of time on some fics that have not yet been posted, but as far as ones that i have posted, probably The Lost Potter?

Fic I spent the least time on: Probably A Kitten’s Tale? I think I remember that one going pretty fast? I’m not really sure to be honest. Before I got actual medication, I tended to have to write my entire fics all in one go if I ever wanted to actually finish them, and i’m not great with time to begin with.

Longest Fic: i can’t believe this is making me dive into my stats. smh. So it looks like of the one’s I’ve posted so far, Path to Happiness is the longest, but i can tell you right now, that my AFTG Big Bang fic is already longer, and it’s not even done yet.

Shortest Fic: my drabble ‘Distractions’ which i always have to resist the urge to delete so moving on.

Most hits/kudos/comment threads/bookmarks: all of those answers are different what the hell. Okay so in order: Hester Rose, also Hester Rose, Path to Happiness, and Little Miracles

Total word count: 218,174 not including the thousands upon thousands of words of fic that i have just hanging out in my google drive, or waiting to be published because schedules.

Favorite fic I wrote: fuck. um. I love most of them really, but I think I’m most proud of either Stealing History or Little Miracles, which i love for very different reasons.

Fic you want to rewrite/expand on: I have about 45 pages of extra content for Whatever She Wishes, that I would like to eventually format into some sort of coherent story line and post, but so far it has not happened.

Share a bit of a WIP or a story idea you’re planning on: For my most current WIPs, I have my AFTG Big Bang, The Lost Potter, my witchy au (aka The Seer and the Sigil), a fic I can’t tell you about because it’s for the AFTG spring exchange, and I’m in the planning stages for like five or six fics for the AFTG Bingo blackout that the cupcake squad and I are planning. All of those are fics I have worked on in the last week alone. 

This is from my Eldritch Horror AU for said Bingo. Because I love it.

Aaron: Hey asshole, are you coming to Thanksgiving or what? Don’t make me deal with Luther and Maria alone.

Asshole Twin: That sounds like a personal problem to me

Aaron: Fuck you. U coming or not

Asshole twin: ya I’ll be there. Think I can convince my cryptid work roommate to be my fake boyfriend for it?

Aaron: y. Can’t convince him to be ur real date?

Asshole twin: shut ur fuck.

I tag: @colubrina @justadreamfox @autumnalpalmetto @makebelieveanything @kittyfeathersflying @rosyredlipstick

#tag game

[skiasurveys]

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What was the last thing you made with your own hands? ummmm idk What was your favorite toy as a child?  either my game cube or my plastic toys lol   How many TV’s are in your house? currently in my apartment 2. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Go for hikes n stuff How do you feel when you see a rainbow? nothing rly, just think theyre pretty. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? yes kinda.  Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader? nope. What is your idea of paradise? Just being peaceful and happy ig. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like? I do Do you believe in Hell? yes but i dont believe everyone goes to hell for sinning, i rly believe only the worse go down to hell. (Rapists, pedophiles, serial killers..) What one thing have you done that most people haven’t? had to bury my dad at 16 What is the kindest thing you have ever done? Im not sure. Are you a patient person? i can be.   What holiday should exist but doesn’t? im not sure. I think there are too many lol What holiday shouldn’t exist but does? thanksgiving tbh What’s the best joke you ever heard? ... Where is the most fun place you have EVER been? disney land <3 Is your hair natural or dyed? natural Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front? Both. I have a few secrets but nothing super crazy  What is under your bed right now?  nothing rly just paper If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home? maybe go home lol If you drive do you frequently speed? no i try to stay the speed limit. i dont want a ticket hahahah What is the world’s best song to dance to? somebody to love What song was on the last time you danced with someone? uhhhhh Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? disney  What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo? tigers maybe Would you consider yourself to be romantic? yes  If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?  prob? What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it? sleep If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick? fuck idk  If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole? equator bc warmth Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television? tv for sure i love music! What do you think makes someone a hero? being there for someone idk this is a broad question ahha What cartoon would you like to be a character in? hmm idk Name one thing that turns your stomach: cannibalism What was the last thing you paid for? i bought a shirt off urban outfitters :) Are you a coupon clipper? tbh no Get anything good in the mail recently? not yet Which would you rather take as a gym class…dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling? dancing What insects are you afraid of? bees n wasps If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say? idk What’s the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? tbh nothing i am basic If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be? chicken nuggets lol or burgers What are your parents interested in? this is broad

[deeeelightfuldee]

How many cats and dogs have you had as pets in your lifetime? oooo boy. ok lets see. 5 dogs, 9 cats?

Can your mom and/or dad play any instruments, or how about anyone else in your family? My mom doesn’t play anything. My dad is a drummer

Have you ever colored in an adult coloring book as a stress reliever? Yes. I’ve done it this week alone, just to try and calm down a little.

Can you crack crab legs without a tool? i have no idea. I don’t eat crab or anything in the sea for that matter. 

How many light sources are in the room you’re in? ooo good question. umm, eight? lol

What’s your favorite thing to put on bagels? uhhh cream cheese.

Who’s your favorite director? i really don’t know, i don’t follow who directs what.

Bats: cute or gross? i mean, I don’t really care.

What was the last really intense pain you felt? lung pain during this whole nonsense.

Would you rather vacation by a beach or a lake? either. 

How would you feel about traveling abroad alone? I would love to, but I don’t see it happening with the travel restrictions these days.

What is your father's middle name? He doesn’t have one. he’s got a family name and the men who have it do not have a middle name. Where did your last kiss take place? uhhh I believe on my driveway 

Which movie villain do you find the most terrifying? no clue, tbh. none that come to mind

Do you stick your tongue out often in pictures? I don’t think ive ever done that. 

Which one of your family members are you closest to? My mom. one of my brothers and my sister.

Would you rather have name brand shoes or name brand clothes? brand names just don’t matter to me, but if i was forced to choose i guess shoes?

Are you a good liar? no. not at all.

Are you proud of your parents? Im super proud of my mom.

Which is better: orange or grape soda? orange

Was the last thing you ate hot or cold? hot. so yummy.

Who was the last person in your house who isn’t family? uhhhhhhh, idk who was here when I wasn’t in town, but prior to that I would imagine em/nathan

What color was the last swimsuit you wore? green 

Can you remember the last song you listened to? something from the toy story soundtrack lol. I’m binge watching all four today... I am using Kile’s disney+ for as long as he has it. I don’t think he watches it ever, so I imagine it’ll cut off soon.

Have you ever been dumped really harshly? once. it was horrible. every other time I’ve done the break up.

Can you do a back flip, or anything else of that sort? heck’n no. unless im going into a pool maybe.

Do you have any exes you can’t stand anymore? yes

What happened to cause you to feel that way about them? he sexually assaulted me

Are you more of a phone or a computer person? my preference is laptop, 

Do you have a job, and if so, where do you work? not currently.

If not, do you want one? yeah i’d like to have income.

Do any medical afflictions run in your family? yes. a few.

What’s your favorite Mexican dish? pork tacos from mama marias omggggggggggggg.

Have you ever been to a professional sports game? yes. bulls games, bears games

Have you ever ordered a specially made cake from a cake shop? of course.

What months were you and your siblings born in? january, july, august, august

What did you have for dinner last night? nicks.

Do you do anything to groom your eyebrows? absolutely. to keep the shape n such.

Has your town ever flooded? uhhhhh to my knowledge once. it had rained SO heavily for like a week and the local ponds and lakes were over-flowing. a car literally floated down my road. it was so weird.

Have you ever played at the McDonald’s play place? when I was a kiddo yes. not often tho cus I didn’t like the smell, it was always sticky, and there were always bratty kids.

Have you ever taken a picture of snow? only every single day it snows

Do you cry easily? i notoriously do not cry in front of anyone. I am not a crier. when I lost Kile I cried for weeks.

Are you happy with where you live? I love it.

Do people ever mistake you for being a different race? No

Do you hate the last person you kissed? no, i’m not a hateful person

What genre is your favorite movie? drama, romance, kids lol

Who was the last person you were in a car with? Mom. she picked me up from the airport.

Do you like the picture on your license/I.D. card? yes. I always seem to get the nice workers and they help so much.

When was the last time somebody hit on you? yesterday. blegh. 

Was the last person you met a male or female? hmm. Iiiiiii wanna say male. 

What brand is your underwear? I think the pair im wearing is hanes.

What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? usually green bean casserole.

Do you have a TV in your room? yup. watching TS1 right now.

Are any of your electronics charging right now? my phone. of course it was on 2 percent.

What was the last video game you played? acnh on the switch.

What’s the biggest promise someone’s ever made to you? Did they keep it? that they will be there for me forever and always take care of me. no. 

Google, Bing, or Yahoo? Google.

What was the last song you had on repeat? more by bobby darin

Who is your favorite person to watch on YouTube? froggy fresh

How many college degrees do you want? i have two. I’d like my masters and/or phd

Can you wink? yes but I dont think it looks good lol i have to get better

Do you own any jerseys? I did, I dont know if I have any still

Have you ever tried to snort Pixie Stix as a child, or even an adult? No. i wasn’t a dumb child and i certainly wouldnt do that as an adult

Do you like going to baby showers? Do you go only for the cake? not really no. 

Has there ever been a time in your life, you felt sexually undecided? no. 

Do you think tattoos and piercings are sexy on the opposite sex? im not into piercings on guys. tattoos are fine if they arent trashy

Do people ever ask you to do things they’re too short to accomplish? all the time.

What color are the headphones you have at this moment in time? kind of a creamy taupe-y color

Ever choked severely on something during lunch at your school? no

Do you eat more vegetables or fruits? What’s your favorite fruit/veggie? i probably consume more fruits? but i love both. 

What would you say is the color of your favorite bra? white

Is anyone in your family a firefighter? Who is it anyway? no. sadly

What do you usually buy when you go to the dollar store? i cant even tell you the last time i went to a dollar store.

Ever peed in the pool? Be honest! I would have been murdered lol no i dont do that. it grosses me out.

When you’re older, what kind of house do you want to live in? something on a lot of land, big front porch.

Where do you want to get married? probably a courthouse. maybe outdoors?

Do you plan on having both your parents at your wedding? no. just mom.

What is your favorite childhood TV show? recess

Honestly, do you like school? no. i looooooooooooooooooooooooove it.

Last thing that made you cry? probably dejavu.

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now? sort of yes.

Last person you took a walk with? liza, em, dutch, della

Have you ever liked someone who didn’t like you back? i think currently to be honest. 

Who was the last person to actually pick you up in the air? lol either mario or an old friend david

Does any part of your body hurt? yeah. my muscles have been weakening sooooooo bad it is so painful. 

If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret what would you do? Million bucks. noooooooooooo question.

Can you keep a secret? Sure.

Your favorite romantic movie? sleepless in seattle probs.

How do you feel about Valentine’s Day? I loved it for the longest timeeeeeeee. i dont think ill love it as much this next year, but maybe by then ill have met someone new who knows.

Who was the last person you took a picture with? uuuuuhhh probably one of my nephews/niece

Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? Some do, some dont. 

Do you celebrate 420? Nope. verrrrrry much not my thing.

Have you ever kicked a vending machine? i think so lol

How do you eat Oreos? with milk. 

Do you wear your shoes in the house? sometimes. my preference is slippers. we usually wear something on our feet because gram needs to and so does mom.

Would you survive in prison? probably not, tbh. 

Ever been to Georgia? the state, yes. many times. the country? never.

Do you get your hair cut every month? gosh no. my dream is to get my hair done professionally again sometime, but its so daggum expensive.

Current relationship in detail. I am single. i will probably start casually dating soon. 

If you were kicked out of your house, who would you call/go to? i dont even know. I always imagined I’d go to kile. but who knows now.

List things you spend money on in an average week. i can go several weeks without spending.

Rate each of your sexual partners (if any) from 1-10. ooooooohhhhhh, id rather not.

Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship? i am convinced bill would not give a fig whether or not im in a relationship. mom, however, would probably be EEEEEEEEXXXXXXXXtra cautious now.

Think of the last person you had sex with. Do you think they’ve slept with anyone else since they last slept with you? oh im sure. 

Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to? yes. even if we don’t talk anymore... theres just always a connection.

What board games are you good at? oooo, i’m very good at board games.

Is there a sport/hobby you keep thinking about taking up, but that you’ve never quite gotten around to starting? quilting. its expensive and im not wanting to get it all cvid-y

Do you think pranks like egging/toilet-papering someone's house are funny or immature? Immature.

Do you think “sleeve tattoos” are a good idea? there are people who can pull it off, but it is notttttttttt my style.

Is there anything in particular that your parents argue about? What? debt bill put my mom in. they don’t speak tho.

Do you ever actually read the “Terms and Services” when you sign up for websites and such? the first couple years. 

If you have a handheld games console (a DS or GameBoy, for example), how often do you use it? I don’t use the switch handheld, despite really wishing i could. the controllers are broken and beyond what I can afford. so I just use the tv dock.

Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, what do you say? i’d pick it up 1000000000000000% , I just would be so curious what they would say.

If your best friend was kicked out, would your parents let him/her live with you? absolutely.

Are you afraid of falling in love? I am. I don’t ever again want to feel the way ive felt with my two heart breaks. 

Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now? yes, but the feeling is lessening. I responded to him for the first time in... idk how long. thinking he’d be eager to talk and be responsive. he wasn’t. it just pushes me further and further from feeling those feelings.

Have you ever kissed someone & wished you didn’t? no, i dont think so.

Did you get kissed last night? goodness no. 

Do you enjoy going through a carwash? I love it.

How did you get most of your scars? benny. by far.

Ever had to take an inkblot test? I have taken 2. One for a fellow student in a classroom who had to administer it for a project. another time in a psych class the prof asked me to for a demonstration

Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do? yep! the only time ive been grounded.

Have you ever seriously slapped someone in anger? no. I do not get physical in my anger. I withdraw. 

What/who woke you up this morning? Just me.

Who was the last person to be in your bedroom besides you? My mom. dropping off ice water and benny.

What’s one of your locked text messages? I don’t even know if this phone locks messages tbh. I used to do that all the time on my t9 phones.

Have you ever finished a game of Monopoly? I think maybe 1 time.

Is there anyone you know who’s in any way paralyzed? Yes.

The truth all comes out when someone is drunk, true? I wouldn’t say alllllllll, but i do think inhibitions are lowered so it makes it easier

When was the last time you felt disappointed in yourself? messaging kile and realizing he isn’t interested in responding. makes me feel so dumb.

How about feeling disappointed in someone else? something a family member did to me this past week.

For you, do you commonly feel more jealousy or envy? ummm. lately it’s been jealousy. i dont like people taking what was mine. but i’m learning if they had access to it, that likely means that it is best to let it go. so maybe im now leaning towards envy of like beautiful relationships.

Do you rely on the heads/tails flipping of a coin sometimes for decisions? uhhh, not unless its like in a joking, light-hearted manner.

Do you have any specific chores you do around the house? when im not sick... i vacuum, dust, do dishes, wipe counters and table, do laundry of others, disinfect, etc.

For you, does comfort or fashion come first in dressing? I would say 51% comfort and 49% looking nice

Have you had two friends that absolutely hated each other? yes. lots of jealousy due to their feelings toward me.

Do you like Laffy Taffy? No. not my style of candy

Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners? manual.

Are your biceps at all noticeable? hardly.

Have you ever seen a walrus? absolutely!

Did you ever have one of those Easy Bake ovens as a kid? no. one time moms friends daughter (who was significantly older than me) lent hers to us... but there were no mixes of anything. so I didn’t know what to do with it.

Does your bathroom have a theme to it? nope.

From inside of your house, how many doors lead outside? uhhhhhhhh 3 if you dont include the garage door.

Are there a lot of trees in your yard? i wouldn’t say a lot. I wish.

Have you ever liked someone that treated you like crap? treating me like crap cuts down my interest like immediately.

Have a best friend? meh.

Does it bother you when your best friend does stuff without you? no.

Is there a secret you’ve never told your parents? yes. I dont need to concern them or worry them.

Does anyone hate you? kiles ex(?) i am sure does.

What’s the one thing you regret more than anything? hm. i dont really have any.

Do you remember important dates? yes. almost always.

What’s some lyrics from a song that means a lot to you? “what if we could put the world on hold and finally meet somewhere inside of the world? I would meet you... would you meet me?”

Who gives the best advice? mom

Who do you usually see in your dreams? :) It varies. depends on who I think about.

What type of cake did you last eat? graduation cake. 

How many of your friends are gay or bisexual? I have like 4 casual friends that are, but my closest friends are all straight.

What’s your favorite type of sandwich? buona chicken one. bless it.

When was the last time someone asked you out? Did you accept or decline? tonight. I said maybe once this quarantine business is over.

Do you like The Offspring? I know a couple of songs but I definitely can’t call myself a fan. << same

One pillow or two? 12

Do you like Mad Libs? not really no.

Are you suicidal? no. I mean there are moments where I think wow, i dont want to be here. but not like let me put together a plan.

Where do your grandparents live? my fathers parents were killed by a drunk driver bout ten years ago. My mothers father passed away maybe 12 years ago. My gram is fine and lives in the room down the hall. 

Do you cut yourself? not purposely

What is your pet’s name? benny and lottie.

Have you ever been to Canada? not yet.

Aren’t babies overrated? no, no. theyre expensive af though.

Have a built-in pool in your backyard? i wish more than anything but no.

Ever won yourself a stuffed animal? maybe once or twice. I one time had a guy win me an animal at a carnival and i found that sooooooooooooooooo attractive.

Ever had someone else win you a stuffed animal? woops. yes. lol

Ever been to a circus? i think when i was really little.

Ever shot animals? I have not. i couldn’t. 

Do you consider yourself intelligent? I do. It is something I have some confidence in.

Have you ever run away from home? when my dad was abusive, yes. 

Do you put family first, friends, relationships, school, or something else? faith, family, friends, school, relationships (only cus im not in one)

What’s something you’ve stood up for in the past? my faith.

What’s something you worked extremely hard to get? my degrees and honors.

Are you satisfied with your body image? no. I am honored to have a body that is capable of all that it is.. that has been my “home” all these years. the body that still breathes life every day, thats all incredible. I dislike having the fat that I do, as I worry it could be off putting to others. but then I realize im fine being single, so then my body imagine is fine. its a weird cycle.

Have you ever been labeled negatively or otherwise been called something extremely derogatory? yes. when I worked and a customer didnt like a policy or whatnot.

Have you ever seriously taken advantage of someone or been taken advantage of? never to my knowledge have I taken advantage of someone else seriously. I have been VERY seriously taken advantage of.

Have you ever been seriously ill? trying to get over it now tbh

Have you ever befriended a former enemy? uhhhh, not that I know of. I tend to be friendly to everyone, but I can’t think of a situation where it was an enemy.

If you’re not religious, would you ever pray as a last resort? If you are religious, do you often pray for other people? I do pray for others quite often. it’s important to me. I sometimes will see strangers and immediately start praying over them. I actually almost started my GRE late because I was praying over every person I saw in the room lol.

Have you ever dated someone, then after you dated they came out of the closet or switched (for lack of a better word) sexual orientation? no. not to my knowledge anyway.

Has a boy/girl ever walked a ridiculous distance just to see you? How about vice versa? yes! like 8 miles lol. I have not. 

When was the last time you felt really uncomfortable? this past week.

Is there anything that your mom is really known for as to how she is as a person? shes everyones favorite. shes kind, funny, sarcastic, down-to-earth, warm.

Who have you been talking to the most today? mom lol

Are you nosy? I think it could be perceived as nosy but I love to make people feel ridiculously special. So I will sit and ask questions just to get them talking about themselves. If I recognize the personal questions are not working, I’ll keep it totally light.

What’s the meanest thing you have done to a friend? i really dont know.

If your ex called you crying, what would it most likely be about? if we consider kile an ex, it would probably be that he feels overwhelmed and feels alone because he doesnt have me or his ex anymore. :(

Who was the best kisser out of all the people you have kissed? ooooo thats hard to narrow down.

Have you ever been told that you have an annoying laugh? no. everyone comments on how they love when it turns wheezy.