#Theyre like my entire life sorry.

[mantispire]

And if we ever leave a legacy It's that we loved each other well

[ archie + maxie pokemon - hardenshipping ]

#hardenshipping #pokemon #maxie #archie #Theyre like my entire life sorry.

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[fruitsyrups]

I think it's so interesting to think about the unique social implications of things on the islands. Like, the animal hats & how they originally existed for the practical purpose of protection & they kept wearing them even after that wasn't a factor anymore. & how the hats we see in the present day (when Finn & co visit the islands) don't really resemble animal hats, do they? & maybe that's just to make the significant human characters (who do still wear animal hats) seem more distinct but you best believe I'm going to make it into something bigger. Oh I'm so bad at putting my thoughts into words but it's something how the hats evolved into a new meaning. & when robo susan rips friedas hat off its like a very violating moment. Something something hats, the lack thereof, vulnerability. I don't know. Sorry. I was going somewhere with this but I don't know how to explain it. You get it though. Hats are interesting.

I like to think that (when everyone got sick and lots of them died and the rest moved to a new island) there was a bunch of small shifts & the animal -> abstract hats was one of them. And Frieda still wearing her dog hat shows her still holding onto the past in some way. There we go, that's something. This isn't a total nothing post after all

#like if only i could write my dream longfic about susan&frieda with big focus on frieda's relationship with the islands especially after #susans betrayal (using the word betrayal lightly because of course it wasnt her fault but i think that was the way it felt to frieda) #and susan reconciling her childhood memories with the life shes built for herself #its so interestinggg theyre so inferesting 😭 #bc theyve both got 2 perspectives all on their own. the one they had growing up and the one they have as an adult #frieda wanting freedom and then 'accepting' not having it... and susan being all about upholding the system #and then having that taken away from her by literally losing her memory. and gaining a whole new perspective entirely divorced from her old #one. soorry im just saying a whole lot of words. anyways #thats my dream introspective dual character study longfic that i would write if i could #but alas i cannot even write a shortfic. and ive got tooo much schoolwork i need to catch up with anyway #sorry but the islands are SO FUCKING UNDERRATED??!? under-talked about. its crazy im crazy seriously they gave us all these crumbs #and can u really expect me NOT to think about it just so much. im still thinking about it #<- only thinks about it somdtimes #i get overwhelmed when i think about things im like unironically bad at thinking

[minamotoz]

the boy meets world writers creating the most heartbreaking narrative about growing up queer and closeted in 90's you've ever seen (it is entirely through subtext and poorly aged, sorta problematic jokes)

#boy meets world #im sorry im in my shory brainrot era again #i know i literally Never post abt BMW but i cannot stop thinking about this genuinely #i rewatched 4x12 aka the gayest episode and my brain is about to Explode #'its only natural' 'sure......natural' UR JOKING??????????????? #theyre so miserable bc of their own comphet yet they just. accept the fact that 'its always been this way and it'll always be this way' #they both long for normalcy and acceptance and they think that being straight is the only way to achieve that HELLO CAN ANYONE HEAR M #like. cory chasing the white picket fence nuclear family fantasy with topanga and shawn chasing what cory and topanga have #bc theyre the most stable parts of his life #and so much of corys interest in girls is entirely reliant on keeping up with shawn #he starts crushing on girls bc shawn does. he starts dating girls bc shawn does. he wants to have sex w topanga bc he thinks shawns done it #FUCKING 'i always thought topanga was the one person i could live without but shes gone and uoure here and im alive so it must be you' #ARE UOU KIDDING ME #*couldnt #im sorry im judt word vomitting i just feel. Insane #this show and this ship make me go a bit cookoo bananas

[dandyshucks]

yall this old lady craft group is the best thing ever and i want to cry thinking abt how grateful i am to have it fjfkdl i think this might be the one group that i feel wholly welcomed into and actually a real part of for the first time in my life ;-; ♡

the group leader always seems to want me to sit next to her and her daughter is always interested in seeing what im working on when she comes at the end and she also tells me abt different crochet patterns she's seen on fb marketplace or she brings in old patterns for me to look through and take what i want, and then the card maker lady is offering to give me this big old crocheted clown doll that her mum made her years ago and she immediately offered to give me a ride home without me even saying anything (so that i wouldnt have to try take it home on the bus fjdkdl), and they were all super excited for me when i told them I was able to fix my accordion, and they just... treat me like an equal and a human person and fjdksl man ... it's so nice

AND IM JUST 😭💗 about it all !!!! it all feels so foreign to me !!!! i do not know when I've ever felt so fully part of a group and an equal to everyone there !!!

#and theyre always so happy to see me when i arrive fjfkdl #I've had coworkers be happy to see me but thats always been bc i was like... useful and made them feel good LMAO #its so easy to have coworkers enjoy ur presence if u do ur job well and compliment them when they do things well #or even just like. hey i like ur shoes. just simple things go a long way #so ppl have been happy to see me in the past but its only been bc i was useful to them ;-; #BUT THIS !!! this is just me being part of a group !!! i am an equal !!! its such a wild feeling !!! #im like... a full person !! its crazy !! #now granted. idk if they'd treat me the same if they knew that im queer and like. very mentally ill but DHDJDLL #thats okay idk i can live with not sharing those aspect of me bc it doesnt feel important in that setting #AUGGHHH it is just such a good feeling idk fjfldl i wish i could express it better #when u have been lesser ur entire life it is so incredible and wonderful to be treated as an equal #i did not realize how EASY it could be to socialize and feel safe with ppl if they'd just ... treat u like a human and an equal #like idk if I've ever felt so safe in my life around other ppl before fjfkdl this is crazy #ANYWAYS IM GETTING TOO DEEP ABT IT MAYBE SORRY FJFKDL im just soooo in awe that i get to experience this #and i wanted to share this bit of joy djfkdld #dandy.cmd

[thestamp3d3]

i cant get over how absolutely insane satosugu is...gege was born to write yaoi forced to write shounen

#sorry i remembered hidden inventory arc n im insane about them again :(( SAD LITTLE GAY PEOPLE IN MY PHONE!!! #nah but it just...OUGHHH they make me so upset!!! #its just they way they start out immediately understanding each other bc gojo has been alone on a pedestal basically his entire life+ #but then he meets geto who treats him like a normal dude!!! not a weapon!!! and just watching them annoy each other as normal teens + #makes me emotional bc theres so much cruelty and just DEATH in their world but at the least they have each other to get through it!!! #theyre the strongest together after all right!!! then toji happens and gojo starts to perfect his abilities with him automating infinity #and then the gap between the two just gets wider and wider...until the final confrontation where the one who understood gojo all this time #not only leaves him but calls him arrogant at the same time showing gojo the ONLY person who he though understood just..doesnt+ #and hes left alone again in the same place he was years ago...AND OUGHHHHH #idk i watched a video analysis of hidden inventory where the guy said geto was just as egotistical as gojo except in having a savior comple #and tbh i never though of that before!! but looking back it makes sense with how he spoke to riko + the way he slaughtered the whole villag #to not just save the girls but also prove to himself that he could make the world he wanted #the guy in the video put it basically that since the gap between gojo and geto was so wide geto would rather be the best villain+ #than second best hero and that makes a lot of sense since his ideals/goals as a villain go against his usual rational behavior #he KNOWS its probably impossible (for him at least it wouldnt be for gojo which he admits) but he has to do it for himself #sorry im rambling but AHHHHHH how tf did gege write this??? its such a small part of the story but its arguably the catalyst for everything #aside from plot wise it simply just is impactful emotionally! gege had to go thru a toxic codependent homoerotic friendship to write this+ #theres just no other way #jjk #jujustu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

[orowyrm]

in spirit i am lying facedown on the floor rn. in reality i have pokefarm dailies to complete

#i needed to get back into a petsite of some sort to ease the pain of living . sorry #but uhm. had a really tough convo w/ my supervisor today .. it went well but the anxiety leading up to it #and the fact that i spent pretty much the entire time fighting for my life to hold in tears #has left me utterly exhausted in its wake #it wasnt anything bad btw dont worry. i wanted to #clear the air and communicate w/ her about my uh. current home situation #because unfortunately ive been hashtag triggered as fuck lately at work and wanted to make sure it wasnt like #coming off the wrong way or anyone was thinking they were doing naything wrong. like theyre fine im just #constantly at the anxiety levels of a deer that just heard a twig snap lately #she was soooooo nice and understnading about it though. god i love this job

[filthyjanuary]

feeling sad :(

#sorry this is such a dumb thing to be sad about im a grown ass adult but like two thirds of the people i invited to my birthday #either cant come or said they would then bailed and like #some of them have legit reasons but some of them i'm kind of like :/ ok well i put in so much effort for yall would be really nice #if a crumb of that was reciprocated #idk i dont ask for much on my birthday i just want to have a nice dinner with my friends #and i have friends who like throw the biggest tantrum fusses about their birthdays and make it this entire spectacle #and people still humour them so it's kind of like #idk #do i really suck that bad that you cant make a saturday evening work to like eat good food #idk maybe next year i just wont plan anything #and everyone'll be like BUT SIMA IT'S THE BIG ONE and i'll be like well! i wish it werent! #bc it'll suck even more to have people not come lmao i dont actually think i've ever had a milestone birthday people just dont give a shit #this includes my parents idk like they are nice to me on my birthday but like no birthday was ever like hashtag special #and like the holidays already sucked so bad this year they did not feel like the holidays half the people i got presents for #didnt get me anything which is like fine i dont give presents to get them back but it kind of sucks to not even get a card? a thank you??? #idk this is so stupid i am turning 29 i pay taxes this should not be a big deal #maybe it's bc i feel like half my 20s were pandemic years so it kind of sucks that theyre basically over and idk im just feeling sad and ol #and lonely and just kind of shitty and unlikeable #AND IT'S DUMBBBBB TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST IDK WHY I'M CRYING FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE

[boxwinebaddie]

does jersey vape?

AJSJAHSHAHAHA THIS IS SOOOOOOO!!!!! HELP

excuse me!! ~nO~

except for this one time...Fml.

tldr: jerseykyle had just gotten off work, he was Fiending, it was not his finest moment ( do not smoke my friends ) and the rm! version of the pep chapstick corner store was out of cigarettes...so jerseykyle was like holy shit what kinda fucken Whacked Out establishment is this?! where the Fuck are my cigarettes like??? choke!!! i literally keep the Lights ON in here!! ( he does tbh ) & the shopkeeper guy is like Wait! Okay, So We Don't Have Any Cigarettes But We Do Have...

and when i tell you this man breaks out a blueberry freaking JUUL.

again...it was not his proudest moment...bc he did spend...his last like 30 dollars on it...i'm embarrassed. EVERYONE AT THE APARTMENT CLOWNED HIM!!! like every single day were like 'hold on guys! gotta hit my vape xx' HDSLKHSD all like 'Wheres my JUUL? So Uncool!" when kyle was no having it like okay haha very funny WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU PUT MY jUUL!!! i'm....oh my god. Never Again! smh

listen, okay? i don't blame ky, i blame the guy kyle was sleeping with!!

( who, you know, may or may not have been a broody french exchange student...yknow, yknow ) also!!! when your best friend is dead & you see him everywhere sometimes u gotta take the edge off.

...i will say that kyle specifically smokes the Clove Ones...

...bc theyre herbally and kinda taste like stan.

ANYWAYS!

wHerES My JUuL!!!

-uncle nina, the anti smoking agenda ( jersey pls quit )

#sorry i was gonna answer this more seriously but #i needed to take a break from the kyle cant say i love u ask #it was ruining my life so #UNFORTUNATELY YES IT HAPPENED ONCE #IT WAS EMBARASSING #THEY TOLD RAVEN #HE ALSO POINTED AND LAUGHED LOL #SO BLONDIES AND THE CD BOYS ALL MADE FUN OF JERSEYKYLE FOR VAPING IM CRYINNNGG #when is cd covering wheres my juul #and dedicating it to jerseykyle #i do think they should make it a diss track during the ravesey divorce heeeeeelp absolutely brutal!! MESSY!!! speaking oF #sad stan drunk and doing the really bad jersey accent ON STAGE and the entire audience being like OOOoOOooOoH~~~ #and also dropping the punk rock cover of we are never getting back together by taylor swift i wanna cry and THROW UP #hater behavior but we have no choice...but to ravenStan #uncle nina stop talking abt the ravesey divorce its not real stop it theyre in love

[adellovesrowan]

"alright, guys, let's do this one last time. my name is adel young. i was bitten by a radioactive spider. and for the last two years, i've been the one — and only — spider-girl. you guys know the rest."

"i work at the diner, go to school, save a buncha people — but i couldn't save my sister. so, i stick to saving everyone else. also, my two best friends want me dead on a flaming stick. crazy, right? guess that's the life of a hero."

alternatively, au where adel is your friendly neighborhood spidergirl.

#hey guys sorry i havent been active first month of college is rly tough #i finally have the time to relax for a bit and draw something for myself as a reward #anyway my friends and i talked abt a spiderverse!au so heres adel #her hero name is icebreaker ! the radioactive spider that bit her either got infused with nitrogen or spent its entire life in a freezer /j #but like her name she has frost powers among common spidey abilities ! she cant rly conjure ice out of nowhere but she manipulates water p #particles to freeze into ice ! #i based her design off an ice skater bc i feel like she'd oftentimes glide on water that she frosted and froze #also mentioned sister is kat ! surprise !!!! <3 ( i am so heartbroken over this ) #also you would never guess who the two betrayed best friends are. because theyre definitely not rowan and ben #maybe ill draw rowan in all their glory. if i have the time to again dknfmdnd !! but back to college assignments now #adel young #jacob's sibling #hphm #harry potter hogwarts mystery #spiderman!au #spiderverse!au #icebreaker!au #fanart #mine

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

JO: Well, what do they look like? DOCTOR: Well I expect myself their basic form is analogous to a cephalopod. JO: What's a cephalopod? DOCTOR: An octopus. I thought you took an A-Level in science. JO: I didn't say I passed. Urgh, an octopus. DOCTOR: They manifest themselves as a disembodied, mutually telepathic intelligence. JO: But if they're disembodied, how can they hurt us? YATES: They make themselves bodies when they need them. JO: You mean like Frankenstein? - Fun quote from S8E1 for you

oh that IS fun thank you!!

#completely not the point but a pet peeve i have is when in tv theyre always justifying how a character knows something #by going 'learnt it in school' #like????? hello? do writers not live in reality? #like 1) who the fuck remembers anything from SCHOOL #and 2) do we not hear things just randomly all the time that we remember? #like i get it it's easier to say you learnt a thing at school it's a concrete place where people learn things in life #easier to say than 'uh yeah i guess i just picked that up at some point during my life' which is how i think we know most things we do?? #and MISknow most things we do too bc lots of things we just pick up like that are not really entirely true #but like thats the knowledge people function on #you just read a thing one time right? you just heard a thing one time #who knows where or when #anyway CHARACTERS DONT NEED TO JUSTIFY THEIR KNOWLDEGE IT'S NOT LIKE I CAN hashtag twenty twentythree #dont you worry writers it's actually more believable i think if people just know stuff and dont know where they got it #anyway sorry not the point #cephalopod!!! 🐙🐙🐙 frankenstein!!!

[stinkrascal]

even though it was buried in the tags of my last text post, that text post was the first time ive ever admitted to any of my ocs having The Diagnosis which is also My Diagnosis which means ive just somewhat admitting to having The Diagnosis which is My Diagnosis and wow that was extremely nerve wracking but it also felt nice to get it out there. this is my coming out post i guess

#definitely gonna delete this later i just wanted to ramble for a minute #idk why but this specific diagnosis was the most difficult thing to come to terms with #being diagnosed with adhd and bpd that was nothing but THIS ONE? it ruined my life for at least a few months #which is so silly bc when other people have this diagnosis i think nothing of it #but when its Me it just brings out this horrible complex inside of my heart #so having an explanation for that kinda stung you know. but hey its there now #a lot of this journey has just been me trying 2 unlearn the harmful stereotypes abt myself as far as The Diagnosis is concerned #and learning to treat myself kindly in spite of my insecurities which at times feel like a direct byproduct of my diagnosis. its a lot #but yeah. Yeah. idek what im trying to say anymore #shoutout to my homies who felt like aliens their entire childhoods only to be diagnosed later in life we are so strong and whatever #kisses you on the forehead #also tbh it feels good to project it onto my ocs. it makes me feel better about myself #making brie autistic as shit makes me feel more normal because in my head im like well shes living her best life. why cant i #and all the straud kids too. theyre still living their best lives and theyre totally confident w themselves and they accept their diagnosis #and they accept its just a part of them you know!! nothing to be ashamed of. so why cant i #THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY im very emotional right now. ik this is kinda weird but i really want to find the confidence #to talk about this without feeling embarrassed about myself. autism rocks ! #this is literally the autism website idk why im nervous right now you are all literally autistic why am i so nervous LOL

[cloneslugs]

god i really only remembered it & clicked it together when writing that but . rusty really refuses to help brisby w cloning . he turns down a lot of money & opportunity to help brisby w cloning, and this is before the clone thing is revealed & its all just chalked up to his father's research at that point but its really soooooooooo . they're his life work, and it's all just for his boys, its just to keep them alive & around & to let them live when theyre stuck in this life of constant danger and screw ups that rusty didnt want & when he's such a failure he cant even keep them alive so many times that they haunt his mind . its not his failure as a scientist that haunts him, its his failure as a father & how he can acknowledge his father as a brilliant scientist but a terrible father . but what is he bc he's doing what any father would do isnt he? wouldnt you do anything to bring them back? and you succeed in that but youre also haunted by the fact that youve let them die so many times & thats not a successful thing thats also failure .

#really have so much to think about from as/sisted sui/cide. #i think R has always hated his life but the boys are so special but like k/illinger says hes afraid of success . he holds himself back #he distances himself . but its not just from su/persc/ience its from being a dad too . but theyre his entire world genuinely . even when #hes an asshole . i really dont think in all his times of failure & fucking up & all his tr/auma & nightmares & etc . i just think about #how the boys haunt him . i really dont think anything would have pushed him to be sui/cidal except the fact that hes a failure of a father #too i really do think losing the boys the first time would have killed him inside . and i really do think it also adds up that thats why #he uses detachment to cope/protect himself even tho he loves them so much like that #text tag #hes my pookie bear my everything sorry he means the world to me the clone slugs make me wanna explode theyre the obsessive point of a #fathers maddening love

[awsugar]

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#sorry personal post #i just threw my vape out #becuase i need to stop because on my new medication i can get blood clots #and its fucknig stupid because ive put off starting the meds for WEEKS #when theyre supposedly going to actually treat my alopecia and thats all i wanted ever in my entire life #and i put it off for vaping like its idiotic #i need to stop so i threw out my vape #but im afraid im going to like #compensate for not vaping by drinking more and continuing to overeat #which are both things that im also trying to stop doing #and its just really fucked up #i need to just chew gum or something #its hard out here

[idkanameatall]

Also guess who finally got a cane!!

#im so sorry you have to get one.. #but what if you grow dependent and #have to use one your entire life? #the duck quacks #i found a good one at the thrift store which can change heightd n shit and also looks very neat! #its so cool i love it so much #all the comments IRL so far have been smth along the lines of or #AND FUCK THEM!!! #THIS CANE SLAPS IT LOOKS SO GOOD ITS SO FASHIONABLE I LOVE ITTTT #IM TEMPTED TO PUT STICKERS OR SMTH ON IT? but i need smth waterproof #car decals? i mean those are waterproof #altho i always wanna keep the current look hmm #anyways im so fucking excited it looks so good and was so cheap #also the lowest height setting is small enough to fit into my bikes bag thingy #so i can bring it with me on trips!!! i dont need to walk a longass time or take the car (or have the unsafest bike ever) with my crutches! #like man i love my crutches but theyre so bulky sometimes and it can be a bit annoying #i might test my cane out soon as well but idk what for hmm #i dont *need* them atm coz pains been low so i havr to wait to test test them #but i think it could be neat to bring them out

[floradanika25]

Im watching mitchell vs the machines and its hitting too close to home

#i love katie #even though my father is very supportive of my artistic side #im constantly hiding parts of myself and my hobbies i c #in a way that i cant not fear being judged and isolated if i shared them #im katie if katie had hid all the quirky and weird stuff #also i just lowkey hate the dad im sorry #im not a big part of how they are trying to blame her for wanting to get away #she finally found her people a place she fit in a place she wanted to be #and snap no you are my daughter family blah blah family is more important than your happiness’s #the worst part is that i just KNOW theyre going to be like And see that roadtrip was good anyway and if we hadnt gone #the world would have ended #but what the dad did with the roadtrip wil NEVER be right #and yes i have a long rant about this and it #but i cant really finish it before i have actually watched the entire movie #its not the movies fault its just what the dad did and i know that was never meant to be good #i just dont like how they’re painting katie in relation to that #you know about when it comes to screens #screens are a great thing in sooooo many ways let people have them #bc someone uses a screen does make them the bad person #just bc someones best way to life quality is a screen doesnt make them a bad person #just bc someone wants to get away from their family and parents doesn’t make them a bad person #let her live let her be herself #let her be with her people #ofc you should try mending family bonds and work things out with your family #and spend time with your family #but if you bad does something like that #especially without telling or asking you #i would almost consider that abusive ( ofc that depends a lot on what else he does as well but still) #that gets painted as a way less bad thing than it actually is #bc oh look family quality time