#There's something so sexy about someone whose on the same wavelength as me.

[bts-bay-bee]

see you in class, professor kim.

Pairing: Kim Namjoon x fem!reader

Genre: smut

Word count: 1743

Request: married professor!namjoon and single college student!reader, please. smutty as possible.

Warnings: infidelity, professor!namjoon, slight dom!namjoon, college student!reader, let’s pretend miss rona doesnt exist in this, unprotected sex, slight impregnantion kink, creampie, spanking, slight degradation, sex over a desk, finger sucking,

a/n: honestly, you guys always ruin me with these prompts :( enjoy kim namjoon being a distraction in class while I prepare for a new semester! also, please, please, PLEASE do NOT sleep with your professor!!! this is just smut, and it should never be compared to irl. also, this is very random but let me know if youd be interested in a jungkook sm au :)

 “Professor Kim? Y/N from Calc101 is here to see you.” You hear the department secretary say clearly into the telephone, promptly nodding at you, allowing you to walk through the glass doors.

 Nervousness blossomed in the pit of your stomach, each step through the tiled corridor only amplifying it. You could not explain it; you knew that you were about to be severely admonished, yet you could not help but feel giddy; finally, Professor Kim saw you in the way you wanted to be noticed.

 Maybe it was the fact that he had finally noticed how you lingered after class, just to ask questions that he knew you knew the answer to. Maybe it was the fact that you had made the conscious decision to stop wearing panties during your Friday morning class, instead opting to go commando with your too-short skirts.

 “Come in and close the door.” He snapped as soon as he saw you in the doorway of his office. The irritation, and ill-disguised anger laced in his tone made you gulp. Maybe it was the fact that he had enough of your stupid antics… He was a married man, after all.

 Closing the door behind you, you quickly took the seat on the opposite side of the desk, eyes downcast. You dropped your backpack to your feet, belly consumed by nervousness. Bravely, in your opinion, glancing up at him for a brief second, you immediately looked down at the floor again, his gaze much too intense to meet.

 “Did I say you could sit down, Y/N?”

 “N-No, sir.” You mumbled, moving to stand up. He tutted, jerking his head to the side to indicate he wanted you next to his seat. As you were passing the door, he tilted his head, almost pondering something.

 “Lock the door.”

 A smirk threatened to claim your lips; he might be pissed off to no end right now, but he was still about to give you everything you had wanted. Walking over to his side of the desk, your eyes trailed over the pile of test papers he had placed on the mahogany tabletop, seeing your mark sheet on the top.

 “Do you know how I hand back test sheets, Y/N?” He asked, pinching the bridge of his nose as he placed his glasses on the table.

 “Highest grades first.” You mumbled; your confidence shrunk significantly now that he regarded you with bare eyes.

 “And whose paper is on top?” He asked whilst standing up and moving behind you to grab something from the shelf.

 “Mine.”

 “Hmm,” He hummed, pressing his body against your own, drawing a gasp out of you. “You’ve gotten the highest mark, little one. We both know you’re smart, yeah?”

 Nodding desperately, you started grinding your ass against his clothed cock, breathing harshly. His hands latched onto your waist, halting your movement. You could feel his wedding band pressing into you, but right now, you could not care less.

 “If we both know you’re smart,” He began, breathing out gently, hands pressing into your skin almost too harshly. “Why do you stay back to ask questions that even a seventh grader would know? Do you want my attention that badly?”

 “Yes, sir!” You desperately whined, feeling his head dip to your pulse point. Despite being in such close proximity, he did not place his lips on you, instead he just continued teasing you.

 “But you know I’m not single, right?” He asked, trailing his wedding ring over the exposed skin on your leg, the metal bringing a welcome coolness to your over sensitized skin. “You kept trying to seduce a married man?”

 “I knew.” You mumbled, trying to press your ass into his crotch now that his left hand roamed amongst the expanse of your bare thigh.

 “And you still kept flashing your dripping cunt during 8am classes?” He wondered out aloud, right hand travelling further up your body to palm your chest. “You still kept coming up to me with your perky tits? Nipples begging to be sucked?”

 Whining in response, you felt him press your upper body to his desk, immediately flipping over your skirt to reveal your ass and drooling pussy lips. His hand barely ghosted over your skin, skimming over the globes of you ass, fingertip ever so slightly collecting your arousal.

 “You want me that badly, Y/N?” he asked, his voice barely above a murmur, yet still strong, holding a domineering stance. Without waiting for a response, his hand slapped against your sensitive skin, his large palm leaving reddened skin in its wake. He continued bringing down his palm against you, his wedding band leaving darker patches, the metal biting into your skin in the most sinful way.

 Tiny groans left your drying lips, tongue darting out to wet them every minute or so. You could feel his other hand dig into your side, ensuring you did not move from where he wanted you, while he shifted his target to your slightly swollen pussy lips.

 “You hear how wet you are for me?” He asked, voice gruff and low. Dipping two fingers into your core, you knew that if you had a shred of dignity left, you should have been ashamed by the wet sound that rang in your ears. However, Professor Kim seemed to be getting off on this, adding another finger to amplify the squelching sound.

 “S-Sir, please!” You begged, feeling your core pulse at not being filled enough. “Please fuck me. I need your cock!”

 Ripping his fingers out of your cunt, he shoved them into your mouth, making you gag slightly.

 “Shut the fuck up before someone hears you!” He hissed; his mouth right next to your ear. Sucking on his fingers to desperately shut yourself up, you began grinding against him again, basically fucking yourself against his clothed crotch.

 You whined against his fingers, trying not to gag as he pressed his fingers deeper into your mouth.

 “God damn it, I want to fill your mouth so badly,” He murmured, slipping his fingers out from between your lips, your spit gleaming on his skin. You ignored his words, choosing to rub your naked core against his slacks. “Guess that’s going to have to wait, huh? My little slut wants her little cunt to be stuffed, hmm?”

 Nodding silently, body trembling in anticipation, you felt him moving away from your arched body. His free hand moved to his crotch, unbuttoning and unzipping his slacks just enough to let his angry red cock spring out, the tip dribbling the smallest bit of precum on your skin. He aligned himself at your entrance, groaning into your ear as your core squeezed his length. You bit your lip hard to prevent yourself from moaning and whining out in pleasure; the fluttering stretch of your core sending euphoric shockwaves throughout your entire being.

 After giving you the briefest moment to adjust, he began ploughing into you, his skin slapping against your own. His length rubbed against, what seemed like, every nerve ending in your cunt, your wetness only aiding in both of your pleasures.

 Realising that with the harshness of his thrusts, he was making it harder for you to keep quiet, and by extension not alerting anyone in the department offices, you reached behind you and grabbed his hand, plastering it over your mouth to keep your moans contained.

 “Fuck, what a good girl,” He moaned softly, speeding up his thrusts as he used his hand to pull you up, his ring biting into your skin. Professor Kim brought his right hand down to your clit, the rough pads of his fingers pressing down onto the delicate skin, making your knees weak with pleasure. You used your hands to support yourself on the desk, not trusting your legs to work properly whilst he continued to assault the bundle of nerves with unwavering pleasure.

 Tiny moans and sounds escaped your mouth, forced Professor Kim to shove his fingers into your mouth, making you suck on them to shut you up. Unknowingly, your tongue darted out to lick every inch of his skin but settled on the metal band that covered his skin.

 The knowledge of knowing he made the conscious decision to be intimate with you, whilst being someone else’s, made the pleasure multiply tenfold, taking you right on the brink of your high. He seemed to be on the same wavelength, your core fluttering around his cock enough to make his thighs tremble.

 “Are you close, Y/N?” He panted, thrusting into you harder as your cunt became even more difficult to leave. “Pretty, little whore ready to cum over my cock?”

 Nodding uselessly tears gathering in your eyes, your body convulsed around his cock, your entire form being taken over by your climax. Vaguely, you could hear him swearing, profanities still somehow sounding sexy coming from his lips.

 “Fuck, fuck, Y/N,” He groaned, “Going to cum in you, angel. My good girl takes my cum, right? Going to fill you up, Y/N!”

 “Please,” You whispered, feeling his cock throb as you fucked yourself on him. “Fill me up, sir, please.”

 Groaning, he released his hot, sticky seed into your pussy, filling you up. Thrusting into you gently, he squeezed every last drop of his cum into you. Slowly taking his cock out of you, he felt blood rush back to his length when his cum slowly dribbled out of your core; the white seed a stark contrast to your reddened skin.

 Smirking at his handy work, he flipped your skirt back down, scribbling his number onto your hand.

 “Go back home and send me a picture of your pussy stuffed with my cum, okay?” He instructed, almost playfully squeezing your neck. You tried to not let the smirk show on your face, your core clenched, trying to not let his cum spill out of you and onto your thighs.

 “Yes, sir.” You murmured, reaching down to grab your bag, making him groaned at your exposed, and now puffy, pussy lips. “See you in class, Professor Kim.”

#bts smut #namjoon smut #kim namjoon smut #rm smut #bts x reader #namjoon x reader #kim namjoon x reader #rm x reader #bts #smut

[mittensmorgul]

So. The lamp. As in, a sexy lamp. Like that one test. And wouldn't that just be a bibro early seasons' manly macho man ideal of heterostraight Dean (so, like, Chuck's), getting "intimate" with a disposable female eyecandy. But then he just, waves it goodbye. Good riddance, lamp. I have stuff to do, places to tapdance on. This was obviously supposed to be a crack ask but it sorta kinda almost holds water?? I'm???

Lol... but seriously... I had this exact thought... but like... haven’t said it out loud because, first off, was that lamp sexy? It wasn’t this lamp:

but it WAS dancing... Dean made it sexy by his interaction with it, I guess we could say.

Supernatural has a long-standing cracky history of Lamp Abuse, and a lot of folks immediately picked it up in that respect. I mean, I have a tag for this going back to May 2015:

https://mittensmorgul.tumblr.com/tagged/this%20is%20a%20lamp%20abuse%20awareness%20blog/chrono

So I didn’t mention the Sexy Lamp Test, because heck... SPN also has a long history of Female Character Issues, and making the comparison to actual abused lamps, even in a joking way, just struck me as... an uncomfortable subject... An Actual Lamp got treated with respect before some of the female characters SPN has treated horrifically. And I don’t think that’s the message this scene was attempting to convey.

For reference purposes, as I’m typing this, I’ve got 4.16 on in the background, and Alistair is singing Dancing Cheek to Cheek, and I’m feeling really grateful they didn’t pick THAT song for Dean’s dream sequence... okay moving on from that >.>

For people who don’t know what we’re talking about, please read the Fanlore page on what is meant by the Sexy Lamp Test:

https://fanlore.org/wiki/Sexy_Lamp_Test

It’s similar to the Bechdel-Wallace test (that at least two named female character have a conversation that isn’t about a man), but again, both of these “tests” are also specifically regarding the representation of women in media. When fandom also began ascribing meaning to Dean’s dance with the lamp, suggesting the lamp he actaully wanted to dance with was Cas... I began to rethink this. Or at least to rethink how I could discuss this.

Andrew Dabb really likes using one scene to say or suggest multiple things. The more references or parallels he can pack into a single thing, the happier he is. I mean, he brought us Jack, after all, who has served as a narrative mirror focal point for no less than six other characters. It’s... his favorite thing, I think. :’D

So, bearing that in mind, and understanding that I am NOT suggesting that any of those other interpretations are wrong, because I completely agree with them, too, and argue that all of these interpretations can be applied to the same scene at the same time here without conflicting, and that this is legitimately a valid interpretation of Dean’s Lamp Dance as well, please have a loose definition of the Sexy Lamp Test:

If you can take out a female character and replace her with a sexy lamp without changing anything else about the story, then you’ve failed.

I don’t know if there’s a Queer Content Sexy Lamp Test, but considering this phenomenon of sequestering queer content to easy to edit out quarantine zones, the fact that major media outlets are literally doing the sexy lamp to LGBTQ+ characters, relationships, etc, and literally leaving them on the cutting room floor entirely... well... that is something I find even more disturbing than the Sexy Lamp.  But that’s a conversation for another post, and for someone with a more direct knowledge of this phenomenon in media in general. I’m just here to talk about one dude tap dancing with a lamp in an anesthesia-induced dream sequence, not the whole of the media industry...

The dance sequence was lampshaded (lol... I love discussing this because I get to be punny without actually even making a pun... this is literally what they did) Dean’s dance with his lamp partner as romantic, by tying it directly to his observation of and comments on Bess and Garth’s explicitly romantically coded dance at the end of the episode.

Is this a commentary on Dean’s past relationships? He sure has had a lot of encounters with women who could’ve just as easily been replaced by sexy lamps. Characters we don’t even have names for, sometimes, or whose only lines were directly about flirtation or innuendo, or even as the unwitting objects of Dean’s innuendo. And while the show may have been making a commentary about that, I don’t think that was the main intent of him dancing with a lamp, directly connected with a sense of longing for a real dance partner (irrespective of gender... a lamp is inanimate, and even in this context serves as a stand-in for a person. Technically, in this test, the person is a female character, but lamps-- at least in English-- don’t have an inherent gender).

It’s also been a while since Dean’s “danced with a lamp” in that respect. He’s “kissed that dance goodbye” a while ago. And had even been struggling with it going back as far as s9, you know? He wants a relationship, but something truly meaningful, and not just occasional dances with random lamps.

They tied this to Garth and Bess, who found something truly special together. They found a way to live their best lives, and they’re both happy together. They’re... metaphorically on top of the world, like Dean dancing on the map table at the end of his scene. All Dean needs is a real dance partner who’s willing to learn the steps with him. Much as he might know who he’d like that to be, Dean himself still doesn’t know if that partner is willing to dance with him...

(I’m talking about Cas... obviously... the guy who was literally introduced to the narrative in a non-human form of screeching sound and light that shattered glass and had Dean diving for cover and hiding his face, whose original form is a “wavelength of celestial intent.” Who’s since rejected that Celestial Intent and truly come to identify with Humanity when confronted by the Divine. Who’s now had an entire decade-plus-long character arc of un-lamp-ifying himself in the story, in every possible interpretation of that phrase, metaphorical and literal.)

Dean’s moved beyond wanting to just dance with passing lamps. But he still isn’t sure the dance partner he’s longing for even wants to learn how to dance, you know? But this episode accomplished one thing in that regard. Dean actively knows what he wants. We now have to wait and see if he works up the nerve to ask for it...

#spn 15.10 #spn s15 spoilers #destiel #the scheherazade of supernatural #lol still dancing around it but heck hanging lampshades all over the place... #Anonymous

[kidrat]

Kaladin and relationships: AKA why I read Kaladin as on the asexual and aromantic spectrum

So first off, personally I read Kaladin as asexual and arospec. Initially my reasoning was that as an aromantic asexual myself I get certain vibes off him, and there are a few scenes in the first two stormlight books which back my interpretation up. And then Oathbringer came along, in which Kaladin was even more relatable than ever, and previous assumptions about him were sent packing. Honestly at this point there is an awful lot of evidence for Kal being aspec, especially when compared to Shallan and Adolin, two characters his own age whose thoughts about relationships really don’t match up with Kal’s.

I’d like to explain my thinking:

(I’m going to assume anybody reading this will understand the vocabulary I’m using, but if not there’ll be a short explanation of some terms under a readmore at the end of this post.)

I’ll begin with Kaladin’s sexual orientation, as I think that’s simpler to explain. Kaladin contrasts a lot with Shallan, whose crushes are very physical. Shallan spends a lot of time being overjoyed with how hot people are, and while I’m not saying she doesn’t also respect her crushes for other reasons, her first impression of Jasnah is how ‘beautiful’ she is, and she goes on to think about her chest a lot. She clearly finds people sexy, whereas Kaladin... doesn’t. Adolin gets less page time than Shallan, but is still shown glancing at women’s bodies every now and again.

In Oathbringer, after prompting from Syl, Kaladin finally thinks about sex. In a humorous context. And is then immediately asked ‘Are you well?’, to which he replies he was thinking of a ‘painful memory’. Meaning that the one time Kal thinks about sleeping with someone, he makes a face. Same, Kaladin. (This is in OB, chapter 10)

Onto Kaladin’s romantic orientation. I’ll be analysing a few aspects of his attitudes towards romance. 

-          Missing romantic cues (ie. Not being On That Wavelength):

In Words of Radiance, Kaladin and his men enter a tavern. A ‘pretty’ woman who works at the bar smiles ‘brightly’ at Peet, right after Rock declares that Peet is their way of getting seats in the tavern. Kaladin does not appear to recognise this woman’s crush on Peet until Sigzil, who like Rock had obviously recognised this, brings up marriage. He then admits he hasn’t thought about his friends marrying, although he ‘should have’. (WoR, chapter 46).

In Oathbringer, an ardent repeatedly stares and sighs at Kal, and he doesn’t appear to think anything of this until Syl (a spren who in most situations isn’t as aware of human norms as Kal) points out that the ardent thinks Kal is ‘pretty’. (OB, chapter 10). Not noticing other people’s crushes, feeling embarrassed about this, and not regularly thinking about romantic concepts like marriage are all common arospec experiences.

-          Having fewer crushes than other people:

In total, during Kal’s entire life, he’s had two ‘crushes’ (quotation marks because you can make a strong case for them all being squishes). Personally, I’m counting Laral and Tarah for now but not Shallan, which I’ll explain later, and Kaladin cites Tarah as his first ‘real romance’ (OB, chapter 99), so it’s unlikely he himself even counts Laral.

It’s impossible to know how many crushes Shallan and Adolin have had in their whole lives, but it’s definitely a higher figure than Kaladin for both of them. Shallan has had feelings for four people in the series so far (Kabsal, Jasnah, Adolin and Kaladin), while Adolin has courted... pretty much everyone. At least six of the girls he’s had feelings for are named.

The extremely small number of crushes Kaladin has had compared to similarly aged peers is honestly enough in itself for Kal to self identify as grey-aromantic, since that’s a common reason for people to use that label.

-          Confusing platonic and romantic feelings:

This could just be as a result of asexuality, but Kaladin’s crushes come across as much less intense that other people’s. The chapter in which Tarah finally appears (OB, chapter 112) is a good example of this. He implies his feelings for her grew over time, and eventually picks his job over the biggest romance he’s ever had.

Kaladin also manages to mistake his squish on Shallan for a crush for a long time, basically interpreting ‘I admire this person’s strength, like their smile, and enjoyed cuddling with them’ as ‘I have romantic feelings for this person’, which a) is adorable and b) ...Kal honey no that’s a squish. In Oathbringer he has this conversation with Syl after Shallan ‘picks’ Adolin:

‘I don’t think I loved her, Syl. I felt... Something. A lightening of my burdens when I was near her. She reminds me of someone.’

‘Who?’

He opened his palm, and she landed on it, forming into the shape of a young woman with flowing hair and dress. She bent down, inspecting the rock in his palm, cooing over it. Syl could still be shockingly innocent-wide eyed and excited about the world.

‘That’s a nice rock’, she said.

The implication here is clear; Shallan’s positivity reminded Kaladin of how his brother used to help him through his depression, and he mistook this for romantic feelings. In the above passage he indicates his realisation to Syl (who honestly acts like the embodiment of amatonormativity in this book.) by showing her a rock, something Tien used to love.

The confusion Kaladin feels about whether he feelings are romantic or platonic is a common experience for some grey-romantics, but could also be interpreted as him having not realised he is aromantic yet.

-          Being romance repulsed:

There are several examples of Kaladin being uncomfortable around PDA throughout the series, but the most obvious is in Oathbringer when Shallan and Adolin’s affection is described from Kal’s PoV as ‘nauseating’. The passage then goes on ‘He liked them both... just not together.’ (OB, chapter 77). The implication of not liking them together seems to be that he wishes to spend time with his friends without having to deal with romance, and the detail that he feels nauseous when faced with it explains why.

It’s possible to read this passage as Kaladin feeling jealousy either because he has feelings for Shallan or because he is single, but due to his own realisation later on that he doesn’t have feelings for Shallan, and since he never expresses interest in a relationship with anyone else, that can’t be the case. ‘Nauseating’ would also be a pretty weird way to describe jealousy, and Kaladin honestly seems like he’s just made uncomfortable by the romantic affection itself, which is again a common arospec experience.

-          Caring deeply about his friends:

Although its obviously not a uniquely arospec experience, the importance Kaladin places on his friends and his relationships with them is very relatable to me as an aromantic. At one point he expresses sadness over the fact his men will begin to have lives again, since if he doesn’t ‘know where they are’, how can he make sure they’re safe? (WoR, chapter 41)

It seems Kaladin has a very aromantic attitude towards friendships, wanting them to come first and for his group of friends to remain each other’s first priorities even after marriage. It feels as though, due to lack of or differing attraction, Kaladin never switched to what society sees as an ‘adult’ view of relationships, still viewing friendships rather than romances as the relationships to plan his life around and focus on.

To clarify, all of this is my own opinion, formed by being aspec myself and reading Kaladin as a person like me. If one or two of these examples seem wrong or like a reach to you it’s probably because it’s the combination of them that make me interpret Kal as I do, and this post was meant to explain how they all fit in to that interpretation.

Vocabulary under the cut:

Alloromantic: not aromantic or on the aromantic spectrum

Amatonormativity: the harmful assumption that romantic relationships are central to every person’s life and that everyone’s goal is to have one.

Aro: slang for aromantic.

Arospec: on the aromantic spectrum, could be aromantic or grey-aromantic.

Aspec: on the aromantic and/or asexual spectrum

Romance repulsion: A feeling of extreme discomfort some aros get around things like PDA/getting asked out/romance in the media etc.

Squish: someone you want to develop a friendship with/a friendship crush. Important to a lot of aros.

#kaladin #stormlight #Oathbringer spoilers #aro arcanum #aro tag #cosmere ref

[izzythesinner]

1-100 (:

you think i wont answer all 100 but youre wrong 

1 - Who was the last person you texted?

My friend Sam

2 - When is your birthday?

June 9th

3 - Who do you want to be with right now?

My girlfriend

4 - What sports do you play?

None lmao

5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?

Abby Groovy

6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?

Passionfruit by Drake

7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?

My gf…lots of sexy time

8 - What do you feel right now?

Anxious

9 - What chocolate is your favorite?

Dark chocolate

10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?

Technically, 1 bf and 4 gf’s

11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?

Dank memes

12 - Who is your favorite blogger?

Astrometrically

13 - Where do you want to be right now?

In bed

14 - What do you want to be in the future?

Psychologist

15 - When was the last time you cried? Why?

Last week. Bruh its work

16 - Are you happy?

sometimes

17 - Who do you miss?

Tyler and Katherine

18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?

I really can’t answer that

19 - What was the best thing you were given?

My imagination

20 - Who was the last person who called you?

My friend Sam

21 - What is your favorite dish?

Lasagna bruh

22 - Who is your bestfriend?

Astrometrically aka Tyler aka  my son

23 - What is your biggest regret?

Not loving myself more

24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner?

Unfortunately

25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?

Tyler

26 - Name someone pretty.

My friend Caitlyn

27 - Who was the last person you hugged?

My girlfriend

28 - What kind of music do you listen to?

Everything but country

29 - Are you over your past?

Sometimes

30 - Who is the last person in your contacts?

My sister

31 - What kind of person do you want to date?

Someone who is on the same wavelength as me

32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?

Sometimes

33 - From whom was the last text message you received?

Sam

34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?

Jeans

35 - How’s your heart?

Damaged, probably very unhealthy as well

36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”?

Not yet

37 - Do you like someone as of the moment?

Well fuck I hope so

38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend?

I hope it was all worth it/

39 - Do you have any phobias?

Claustrophobia

40 - Did you try to change for a person?

yep

41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone?

Head? Idk man

42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship?

Not anymore

43 - Are you in a good or bad mood?

I’m in an ‘or’ mood

44 - Name someone you can’t live without.

My mom

45 - Describe your dream date.

Evaporating into the earth

46 - Describe your dream wedding.

I’ve actually never thought about it so…

47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?

I���ve never received any ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

48 - Have you ever been kissed?

Oh yeah

49 - How long is your longest relationship?

A year

50 - Do you regret your past?

Sometimes

51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?

yep

52 - Have you ever cried over someone?

A lot

53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?

yeah

54 - Are you a crybaby?

Hell yeah

55 - Do people praise you for your looks?

Lmao sure

56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?

Who hasn’t

57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?

Unfortunately

58 - Do you like getting hurt?

No

59 - Does anyone hate you?

Probably

60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”?

Not yet

61 - What hair color do you prefer?

I have no preference

62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?

Everything

63 - Do you love someone as of the moment?

My mother 😊

64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?

Lmao I’m thinking about it right now son

65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?

Yes…. Devin the Jesus man

66 - Can you live without internet?

Probably not anymore

67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?

Bulls in the Bronx by pierce the veil

68 - Are you good at holding back your tears?

nope

69 - Are you a crybaby?

Yes x 2

70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?

yeahhhhhh

71 - Are you a KPOP fan?

Somewhat

72 - Do you study hard?

Lmao

73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love?

yeah

74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight?

Yes it was nice

75 - Have you ever ridden a boat?

Yes tons of times

76 - Did you have an accident last year?

yeah

77 - What kind of person are you?

A good person I hope

78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?

(:

79 - Have you ever been jealous?

All the time

80 - How can you prove your love to someone?

A dope ass mix tape

81 - What are you thinking right now?

work

82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts?

Making me look up stuff… oh man its tyler. Only cause his name is Broke Papa

83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?

(: what do you think sweaty

84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?

Many times

85 - Did you ever badmouth someone?

Too many times

86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?

Everyday

87 - Do you have trust issues?

A lot

88 - Are you broken-hearted?

Very much so

89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?

My mom….omg I’m a mommy’s girl

90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?

no

91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?

somewhat

92 - Who do you want to marry?

Will Smith

93 - Do you believe in destiny?

yes

94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?

I have. Not anymore

95 - How do you look right now?

Terrifying

96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?

no

97 - Have you found your true love?

Well I believe we have multiple true loves so probably

98 - What should you be doing right now?

Anything but just sitting here

99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends.

Nour

100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough

Constantly

[obnoxiouslivingofmine]

Woah. My version of to all the boys I’ve loved before.

Hi A,

Finally, I have found someone who loved me the way you used to. Who thinks the same as you do! Thank you for making me realise how much I needed such relationship and visualise everything on the long run.

Hi K,

Thank you for making me realise that I should look after myself, that I have to at least groom myself to look better- beneficial for looking at jobs and being respectable as well! 🙂

Hi C,

Thank you for making me realise that no matter how strong you think the relationship is, a guy will always possibly cheat on you, with your bestfriend. It was the most painful thing I have experienced my whole puberty days. I longed for someone never coming back, someone whom I thought will fight his feelings for my sake.

Hi M,

Though this was an infatuated crush, thank you so much for making me realise that there are fuck boys all over the place whose willing to just get the flesh they wanted from you because of your looks and your sexiness. I realised I should be proud of my body because girls wants it. I am blessed with such sexiness.

Hi T,

Thank you for making me understand that being short tempered isn’t a good thing. That whenever you choose a partner, you should really consider the wavelength of your brains. Both of your perspectives and your similarities. Thank you for warning me and essentially almost having that relationship but, it was way too awkward to be with you. Maybe youre waiting for something to make everything work for us but, its too late hun.

Hi J-S,

Thank you for making me realise that mending myself is the hardest part I have ever done in my life. Thank you for making me feel helpless in times that I hoped for us. Thank you for making me dream about our future, and also making me realise how blurry our relationship would have been. It made me realise that it takes time to heal.

And finally, the most lucky and most stupid of all the most painful relationship I have had:

J-T.

Hi fucktard. I am just so mad. It started with holding hands, eating out, dating, calling each other. It was so fast. But the stupid you were abusive. The stupid you never realised that all the words that comes out from my mouth has its own levels.

Your filthy mouth spread the issue about me doing it first rather than you, and your fucktard ass messaging those girls I asked you not to.

Yelling at me for losing at your stupid game is something I will never forget. How immature right? I make my time for you and all I get was yells.

If only I can hit your balls right now I would, for how many times I cried, questioned my morals and worth, those times my feelings were dumped and those times that I was disrespected.

And up until now you won’t ever stop talking about me and how you felt you were cheated.

Is that how it goes? Like, you were abused almost the entire relationship and that was unacknowledged. And even if when you were saying you were breaking up with him and he disagrees? What part of ‘ayoko na’ doesn’t he understand?

Anyways, hey fucktard, you can say whatever to anyone and I know how karma will come back taking all the things you took from me. Asshole.