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chunyaowo · 8 months

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chapter 3 (I'm bad at giving chapter names-)

----------------------------------------------Hello and welcome to the third chapter of my fanfiction!! To be honest, I'm not really happy with most of the chapter, but of some scenes I'm actually pretty proud of. Also, I think I'm gonna go into a little break again since writings block is hitting me again :'D hope you're having fun with the third chapter tho!!

✑ originally posted on my Ao3 account --------------------------

Eveland-senpai? you mean Ike-kun?''

Wait a second… Pomu knows Eveland-Senpai? And she's calling him by his first name too? Are they friends?

You turned your head towards Pomus face..

''You know him, Pomu?''

''Of course I know him, we're friends since middle school.''

You paused.

''Since middle school? But I've never seen you guys talking with eachother?''

Pomu narrowed her eyes. ''Of course you've seen him, but you mustn't had paid any attention to him. I've greeted him several times in the corridor.''

''Oh… oops'' You scratched your back head

"Anyways, does everything else went okay?"

"Oh yeah, everyone is really nice actually!"

You told Pomu about all the other stuff that had happened.

One month has passed now since you joined the writing club. when the club has had officially ended for everyone, you always stayed there for a bit longer, to share your works with Ike. Ike was always willing to give you tips and tricks to improve your writings. He always sounded so passionate about writing. Everytime Ike started talking about something he is passionate about, you could see his eyes light up and hearing his voice sounding full of enthusiasm.

"See, and if you do that, it will give your texts more constructure."

"Ahh, I get it! Thank you Eveland-senpai for always helping me out and stuff."

You were just seeing Ikes corner of his mouth rising up.

"Of course, I love to help and I want to make sure that everyone is having the best time that they can."

Ike was always very considerate, not only towards you, but also to those around you.

flashback A week before

"I just felt a bit overwhelmed."

You were walking around the corridor, seeing Ike speaking with a familiar guy.

“Hmm? Wait isn't that the guy who I bumped into on my first day at the writing club and is that… Eveland-senpai?!”

"I'm sorry for being so quiet earlier, it meant a lot that you were speaking up for me."

Ike just shook his head in disagreement.

"I really understand how it feels not to be heard, and people just talking over you. I just really wanted to make you feel that you're not alone and be heard."

You didn't wanted to eavesdrop, but you just couldn't ignore what you saw.

"Thanks man…"

You were seeing tears falling down on this mysterious guys cheeks, while both of them hugged eachother in a warm embrace. Your lips formed into a little smile as you went off, not knowing what happened next. You just wanted them to have their own little moment and be alone.

Ike has always been like that, wanting to make sure everyone is having a good time, even if it meant that he's not feeling well. Putting others feelings before his own ones. A so called “people pleaser” in this generation.

"Earth to Y/N? Hey!"

"Hm? Oh, Sorry"

"Daydreaming, huh?"

You're letting out a nervous chuckle.

"I'm Sorry Eveland-senpai."

"There's no need to apologize for, is maybe something bothering you lately? If you ever need someone to talk to, then you can always count on me. I'm always willing to listen.”

Your eyes were locked with Ike’s, his voice sounded concerning, you could even see his forehead looking a bit puckered.

"I'm fine, no worries! Thank you for worrying about me."

You turned your gape off and smiled.

"There is no need to thank me, really."

All of a sudden, both of you just heard a little knock on the door.

Who could that be? The club has had officially ended, there shouldn't be anyone coming at this time.

With curious eyes, you and Ike just stared at the door opening itself, revealing a familiar looking person behind it.

"Oh, I'm sorry, am I bothering you?"

It was Pomu, a dear friend of the both of you.

Ike's lips escaped a warm smile after seeing Pomu entering the library.

"Hey Pomu, great to see you! And not at all, we wanted to call it a day for now. Anyways, what brings you up here?"

"I actually was quite worried about Y/N since they neither replied to my messages, nor my calls. And we actually wanted to go shopping with friends after the club activities."

You suddenly dropped your pen and started to blink in disbelief.

"Is it already this late?? I'm so so sorry!"

You clapped your hands together, to show forgiveness. After that, you stood up as fast as you could and went to Pomu.

"Thank you for today, Eveland-senpai! And sorry for the circumstances."

"Nonsense, don't worry about it and I hope you guys are having a fun time together!"

You and Pomu finally arrived now at your meeting spot to meet up with your friends Finana and Elira.

Elira raised up her voice a little bit in excitement as she saw both of you approaching them.

"Pomu, Y/N nice to see you guys!"

"Nice to see you guys too! Oh, and sorry for being a bit late…" you replied while scratching the back of your head for a bit.

''Don't worry about it, we were also a bit late to be honest, but hey what do you guys think of getting some coffee or in general some beverage? How does that sound?''

All of you were agreeing to Eliras suggestion and enjoyed their time in a nice comfy café that Elira picked out. Everyone had a great time, you guys were chit chatting, laughing and just had a fun time with eachother.

After leaving the café, you all decided to go for a little shopping tour through the city. You were glancing at the windows from various shops, but as all of a sudden you stopped at one specific item at a window that had caught your eye.

Finana stopped as she turned her head around, sensing that you're not beside her anymore.

“Y/N, is everything okay?”

You turned your head back towards Finana’s direction, as soon as you heard her voice.

“Oh, yeah, don't worry!” You quickly went to Finana and caught up with Elira and Pomu again to continue the shopping tour.

The next day arrived as you were sitting in the writing club again, as all of a sudden Ike wanted to discuss something.

"So everyone, I have an announcement to make."

Everyone was really surprised by it, wondering what this announcement could be.

“What do you guys think about going to the cinema as a club activity? The book 'My Belongings' is getting a real life adaption! I don't know if you all read it, but I thought it would be fun to go as a club! Oh, and it’s on my credit card account by the way!" Ike chuckled slightly.

Everyone was very excited to hear about the suggestion, that Ike made.

"Oh, 'My Belongings' ? I love that book, it's such a well written horror book! Reimu said.

"I dont know that book, but it sounds really fun!" Aia replied.

Everyone agreed and was excited to watch the movie together, even those who haven't read the book. So do you.

"It’s settled then!"

Ike clapped his hands together.

"Okay! Does everyone have time on Saturday evening next week?"

Ike was planning all the things for the movie next week. You were really looking forward to it and of course told Pomu of it.

"A movie, and then out of Ike-kuns wallet? That sounds fun! I hope you're having a great time there!"

"Thank you Pomu! I haven’t read it, but I'm really excited to watch it with everyone! But this would be the first time seeing them in casual looks, and not in school uniforms, that is kinda new, but I'm really curious how everyone's gonna look like."

"Oh, I get that! I know that Ike-kun has a really nice taste of fashion."

"Oh?" You tilted your head a bit to the side.

"Well, you will witness it next week." Pomu let out a little chuckle.

The day of the club activity meeting has arrived, you were really early because you didn't want to come as late as usual, but it seems like you weren't the first one who showed up.

Your eyes are attached to someone with a big long white coat, yellow chains, who's attached to the glasses, and brown hair where the tips are fading into a blue-ish tone. His eyelashes were pretty long and his eyes wandered off to the small tiny book he's holding in his hand, right in front of you.

Is that… Eveland-senpai? Pomu wasn’t lying at all when she said that he has a great fashion style..

"Uhm, hey Eveland-senpai!"

Ikes gaze wandered off of his book and his eyes were directed at yours. As soon as he saw you, a little smile formed on his lips.

"Hello Y/N-san, nice to see you."

"Nice to see you too! Uh, Eveland-senpai." You paused before continuing speaking.

"Your fashion style is amazing, it’s really unique which I very like! The scarf and the coat and also the heels! Do you wear them often?"

Ike’s corner of the mouth turned upwards again. It was a sincere and grateful smile.

"Thank you. It makes me really happy to hear you think so. To answer your question, I wear them pretty often in my free time. Oh and also, your outfit looks very charming too, I like the colors you chose, it matches your eye color perfectly. Oh and also.''

Ike pointed with his finger on your bag.

''That pin that you have on your bag is new, right? It looks really cute.''

The pin on your bag was a white little floof ball with a small blue feather attached to their head.

You slowly placed your hand on your chest and returned Ike's smile with equal sincerity.

''Thank you, and yes it-''

"Hey!"

Unexpectedly, you hear voices approaching you, which belonged to the other people from the writing club.

"I'm really excited for the movie, I can't wait!" Reimu said with a broad grin.

You turned your head around, and were seeing how pretty everyone was. All of them had a unique style, which represented their own personality.

“Great, everyone's here now! let's go in and buy some snacks and get the tickets now, shall we?”

Ike and everyone else were heading towards the entrance, getting their tickets and popcorn.

''Dude, popcorn these days got so expensive.'' Ike let out a depressing sigh while holding the popcorn in his hands that he bought for everyone.

''Well, your fault Eveland, you said it goes on your wallet.'' Reimu laughed insidious.

''Hey! And how many times have I told you that you can call me Ike?''

''I just like your last name!''

Ike just let out another sigh, while everyone else started laughing.

''Wait guys, what about the seat order? Doesn't the movie start soon?'' Aia tilted her head a little to the side at the same time as asking.

''Oh, right.''

Ike pulled out the tickets right out of his pockets.

"Hm, let's see… Fulgur is right on the left side. Besides him sits Aia, after Aia sits Reimu, then Y/N and last but not least, me, Alright!"

Everyone headed towards the cinema hall and was looking for their seat.

Fulgurs mouth escaped a happy sigh after taking a seat. "I'm really curious how the movie will be since the book was already really well written."

"Right?!?!" Reimu spoke up as soon as she heard Fulgur talking about the book.

All the lights turned off now and the movie finally began.

“Ahh~ I'm really excited for the movie, you too L/N-san? Ike turned his head torwards your face”

“Mhm!” you nodded.

The movie was really catchy, it had it's own style and they weren't joking when they said there was a lot of gore in it. You were hoping that no jumpscares appear, since you're not very fond of those kind of things, yet…

"WHAAAA!"

You started flinching and screaming after the first jumpscare appeared.

Ike was really concerned because of your scream, and turned his head towards yours with his lips turned downwards.

"Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, no worries I just really dislike jumpscares, they're not really my cup of tea."

"I'm not very fond of them either, but it's okay, it's gone now." Ike spoke in a calm and soothing voice to help you calm down.

Swiftly, another jumpscare appeared and you heard a loud shriek right out of Ike's mouth.

"WHAAAA"

"Hm? who was the one who said everything's okay?!"

"I ACTUALLY DON' T SCREAM AT JUMPSCARES BUT THAT WAS SOMETHING ELSE"

''AND YOU WANTED TO COMFORT ME EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE A COMPLETE MESS WITH JUMPSCARES?''

''I USUALLY DON'T GET SCARED THAT BAD''

''YOU'RE A LIAR!''

'' I AM NOT!!!''

It got silent for a bit, as both of you just glanced at eachother and started laughing together. You leaned yourself into the seat again. Thanks to Ike you could calm yourself again, but it didn't take long until you freaked out once again.

After another jumpscare appeared, Ike's gaze wandered off to you again. He noticed that your hands were shaking a bit after the jumpscare.

"Hey, L/N-san, are you okay?

You just nodded and avoided eye contact while your face is looking pale with trembling features.

Ike gathered his thoughts for a moment before speaking up again.

"Do you… might want to come a little bit closer and take my hand? It could be a bit relieving to do that. I've read the book so sometimes I could tell whenever another jumpscare appears, and let you know. It's okay."

"Huh?"

You were silent for a second.

Maybe not, it-

As you wanted to respond to Ike's question, a scream came out right from the movie, which let out a shiver run down your spine.

''OKAY I CHANGED MY MIND, THIS MOVIE IS FREAKING THE HECK OUT OF ME!''

Ike just smiled warmly while slowly reaching his hand out to you, inviting your hand to connect with his.

You hesitated for a second, but came closer with your hand to Ike's. Gliding down your fingers onto his palm, Intertwining eachothers hands. You felt his fingertips connecting with yours, and the warmth of his hands on top of yours. The touch of his soft skin sends a warm feeling through your body. It felt so warm, so comfortable. Not wanting his hand to let go, by any moment. You were just treasuring the moment you had with Ike.

Ike's face was a bit covered with a shade of pink, like the cherry blossom trees that are blossoming outside and so do you.

As soon as another jumpscare appeared, Ike started to gently caress your hand. Gliding down with his thumb along your fingers, making sure there's nothing to be scared of.

"Its okay, I'm here. If you're scared, then feel free to squeeze my hand as much as you like."

With every touch of Ike, you started to feel a kind of warmness inside of your body.

You didn’t know why you’re feeling this way, but you knew one thing for sure: You wanted to stay like this as long as possible.

During the movie you and Ike exchanged eachothers opinions about the movie. It was a really great time and it was so much fun as well.

I'm so glad that I got the chance to sit next to Eveland-senpai. It's so much fun..

As Reimu turned her head a bit to the side, a small smile appeared on her lips.

"Awww"

Selen turned her head towards Reimus direction. "What the… Reimu, I knew that you really like horror movies, but that you find them cute is a tad too much…"

"No, just look at them!"

Reimu pointed her index finger towards you and Ike.

"Aww, okay now I get you."

After the film ended, everyone went outside and exchanged eachothers opinions about the movie.

''The movie was… something else.“ Selen said while looking dead inside.

Fulgur just giggled. ''You're not really good with horror, are you?''

A sly smirk appeared on Reimus face after she tilted her head to Ike and your direction. ''Well, I know someone else who is not really good with horror.''

Ike snapped after realizing that he was caught and cleared his throat.

''Uhm, anyways let us discuss how the movie was another time in the writing club, we will have a more quieter environment there. Thank you everyone for sharing the experience with me,see you all on monday!

"Eveland, wait!"

Reimu made her way quickly to Ike as she whispered something into his ear. Ike remained speechless for a bit while his face turned into a deep red shade.

"GODDAMMIT, REIMU CEASE THIS!!"

Reimus lips formed into a sly smirk as she went off while giggling to herself.

"Dang it. I shouldn't think about it too much." Ike sighed while shaking his head.

''Eveland-Senpai!''

''Hm?''

ike turned his head around, seeing you standing right in front of him.

''Thank you for being so kind earlier, you know, letting me hold your hand and stuff.''

You started bowing to show your gratitude to Ike.

After seeing you bowing, Ike's mouth escaped a little chuckle.

''It's not a big deal, I just wanted to make sure you're okay.

Ike truly is a considerate person, he is always so kind towards other people and is always making sure that everyone is feeling well.

''You're really kind.'' you said with a more quiet voice

''…Hm?''

You started to wave your hands.

''Nothing, see you on monday, Eveland-senpai!''

''…''

Ikes lips once again shaped into another sweet and genuine smile.

''Yeah, see you on monday.''

To be continued.

#Fluff #ike eveland fluff #ike eveland x reader #ike eveland x you #fanfiction

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1000sandwiches · 3 months

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Tue, Feb 6, 2024

Lately I have become extremely nostalgic for the Web 1.0 era of the internet. It started with me looking at archived Usenet posts via Google Groups, but has turned into me spending hours on the Wayback Machine looking up sites I used to haunt back in the 90s and early 2000s. Stuff like The Gaming Intelligence Agency (which is still up somehow), Elfwood, Toriyama's World, or various rabbit holes from the Anime Web Turnpike. I really miss the days everyone had their own website (I had several if you're wondering. A Flame of Recca fan site, for example). I want to be one of the cool kids and join Neocities in hopes it'll give me a similar vibe, but I haven't done HTML in years and feel a bit intimidated by it. So for now maybe a Tumblr diary will do. So that's what this is, a rambling online diary like the kind I kept as a teenager. It seemed cheaper than therapy.

Rambling about being a new parent and venting about my in-laws below. It's not particularly interesting. Next time I'll just write about video games I'm playing, probably.

I became a dad in November 2023. My emotions and mental health have been sort of all over the place since the day we checked into the hospital. I had always wanted a family of my own, and my wife and I both felt we would regret not having at least one child. I have a lot of insecurities about being a first time father at my age. I'm 38 now, and I just keep thinking about how I'll be 43 when my son is 5, and worry I won't be able to keep up with him. But here we are.

My wife was induced and spent 30 hours in labor before the doctor finally gave us the option for a C-Section. She didn't even hesitate to say yes, honestly just relieved to get it over with. The operation went fine, but apparently I am a lightweight when it comes to gore. Seeing my partner's blood and guts all over the surgeons had my anxiety screaming. Also, no one will ever believe me, but during the surgery the anesthesiologist, Bob, was playing on his phone. All of a sudden an ad for homemade marinara started playing, and the whole room stopped to stare at him. Surgeons still covered in bloody bits. Bob just mumbled "bad timing" and turned the volume down. What an absolute legend. I love you, Bob!

The experience of holding our son for the first time was just as powerful as I had always heard. So many different feelings washed over me all at once. I'd never even held a baby before then. Seeing my son being held up against my significant other's head made me cry.

Unfortunately, I am a peon at a public library, and my wife works retail, so neither of us are great breadwinners. Oops. Sorry, baby! So now we have super fun medical bills while we also figure out a budget. Currently we are living with my in-laws. Having to adjust to both our newborn and their family routine has been a challenge for us both.

Some days are great. Others are hard. Especially in the first month, where some nights the baby would just scream his head off for hours. I knew I hated loud noises, but I never realized how triggering a baby's cry could be. I'm not suicidal, but I've spent several nights imagining a scenario where I'd jump into my car and driving off a cliff. This has gotten better recently as he now does fairly good job of sleeping through the night. It's a lot easier to be patient with his crying when we are not exhausted.

My wife had a few struggles with post-partum depression. The week after giving birth, her hormones were all over the place and she had frequent panic attacks. One morning she woke up, walked into the living room and saw our son, only to then throw up. She is over this now thankfully, and has put a lot of energy into figuring out how to be a mom. I'm very proud of her.

The In-laws are a huge help, but there are pros and cons to their assistance. There are times where my wife and I really need to learn how to deal with our son's tantrums by ourselves, but the grandparents will insist on taking him. I appreciate the help, but I worry about not being able to handle him myself. In fairness, I might struggle to get him down for an hour, but Grandma can get him to sleep on five minutes. It's like dark magic for grandparents, I swear.

I am also prone to feeling like a burden on the family. I notice a lot of little corrections. Stupid things like say I take some chips from the cupboard and I know I'll put them back in a moment. I might decide to leave the door open for a moment, but Grandma walks in and immediately shuts the cupboard. Other times I might leave a light on which Grandma turns off while I'm still using. I also feel like every interaction I have with my son is being judged. If he's crying and I set him down for a few minutes, someone feels the need to swoop in and take him from me. It's like leaving him be in his bassinet while he's awake his frowned upon.

My In-Laws also have a family culture where everyone hangs out in the living room together all day. This is completely new to me, and I'd rather be alone in my room most of the time. It doesn't help that they are a family that keeps their television on all day and I get very sick of hearing the news cycle repeat over and over. This recently had consequences when Grandpa came home from work sick, and apparently keeping the baby in another room, away from the sick guy, was never even considered.

As you might expect, our baby got sick. I was pissed. I just couldn't believe that I would come home from work to find grandpa coughing just a few feet away from him, and no one thought to keep them separated. Our son then passed his cold onto the rest of the household (not covid or flu, as several of us have tested negative).

So that brings us to now. A week after getting sick, I am still having issues with sinus drainage along with aches and pains. Our son is doing better, and you can't even tell my wife was ever sick. I'm very jealous. I should probably take a few moments to proof read all this, but I've already been typing on my phone for an hour and feel silly about posting this at all.

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mysticangst · 7 years

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Any type of angst for the rfa+ v and saeran I'm a sucker of sad shit

Sorry for taking so long to post! Anyway here ya go! Enjoy! I’ll post the V and Saeran ones later! This is where MC dies and how the RFA acts after MC passes away.

Yoosung

* he was at work when he received the phone call* When he heard you were involved in a car accident and rushed to the hospital he dropped everything and went there* When he arrived he learned that you had died in the hospital not long before he had arrived* He felt the world crumbling down when he heard those words* you were gone, you were dead* Seeing your lifeless body on your death bed made it worse* It was hard enough to believe you were actually dead but there you were* He didn’t even get to say goodbye* he couldn’t help but wonder, why is everyone he loves being ripped away from him?* He can barely handle stepping into his own house because it all reminds him of you* Because of this Seven lets Yoosung stay at his house for a while to help him cope better and to make sure Yoosung takes care of himself* He never plays a single game anymore* You both would sometimes play games together so now games even remind him of you* What was the point of enjoying it if you couldn’t enjoy it too?

Jaehee* You had gone to visit your family for a few days. * Before you had left to go on your flight, you both exchanged goodbye kisses. * She counts down the days, her excitement grows as the day you come home nears.* You wouldn’t be returning home. * The day you had your flight home she received a call.* She couldn’t believe what she was hearing. * No, no, no. Not you. There’s no way. You can’t be gone, you can’t. * Turning on the news, she saw that the words were true. * The plane crashed. You were gone.* She would wait for this to just all be fake. For this to be a bad dream and you would walk in with the smile you always wore. * That was not the case. * She had kept the cafe closed for weeks.* She couldn’t walk in without being reminded of you and next thing she would know she was crying.* It was the other RFA members who had to help her get back on her feet and work in the cafe.* She knew it was what you would of wanted.* So she opened up the cafe again but it wasn’t the same without you.* It was just her* She would never see you kindly greet the customers with the smile that could light up a room* She would never hear your voice* She would never receive your wonderful kisses* Never again.

Zen* You died because he was drop dead gorgeous* Sorry not sorry oops* You had saved his life* But whether or not he was alive didn’t matter to him* It was you that mattered most* It was late when it happened* you two were walking home* It was so quiet that neither of you bothered looking before crossing the street* Next thing Zen knew, he was being shoved out of the way before seeing a truck* He immediately dialed emergency services* But the damage done was too severe and by the time they arrived you were dead* The fact that you sacrificed your life killed him* Well actually it killed you* He found himself slipping into old habits* He started coming to the bar more often again* The rest of the RFA noticed his habits and began to worry* Jumin came visit him one day to confront him about his habits* He almost started a fight with Jumin* “Don’t you understand? It’s my fault that she died!”* For almost a year he stayed away from acting* One day he was looking at photos of you and remembering the times you were alive* He remembered how you encouraged him to follow his dream no mater what* He began to visit your grave everyday* He also started acting again* It hurt that you weren’t there with him but he would remember that you would want him to be happy

Jumin* he had done so much to protect you, to help you, to keep you safe* He would give up everything if it meant having you by his side again* But even all the money in the world couldn’t buy a life back* He made sure you were in one of the best hospitals* He did all he could to make sure everything would go fine* But things still went wrong* When you were declared dead he refused to believe it* He yelled at the the doctors to try more but you were already gone nothing else could be done* When he first sees the baby he starts to tear up* The child is a constant reminder to him of you* At first he has to pay someone to take care of the baby for the first few days because every time he looks at the baby it’s like a slap in the face* He buries himself in work to try to forget for a long time* Lots of cat projects* But he tries to take responsibility for his child and take care of them* As the child grows he takes them to your grave often to pay respects* He always tells them all about you and how amazing of a person you were

Saeyoung* He had everything he could ever dream of. * But that didn’t last.* He worried about putting you in danger but he swore he would protect you* You were both going to have children* Grow old* Live happily for the rest of your lives* But of course, nothing goes as planned.* An enemy tracked him but went after you* He will never forget the day he walked in to see you lying on the floor, dead* While he was away, someone broke in and killed you* He would do anything he could to get back at the person who took away your life, even if it took years* He locked himself away and worked and worked until he found the person who killed you

#mystic messenger #mys mes #mystic messenger headcanons #mystic messenger imagines #yoosung #yoosung kim #jumin han #Jumin #jaehee kang #jaehee #707 #luciel choi #saeyoung choi #saeyoung #Luciel #v mystic messenger #jihyun kim #mm

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