#PLEASE its giving me anxiety

[end3rs-eye]

my power keeps flickering and i would like to send a formal complaint to JUST PICK A SIDE ON OR OFF

#PLEASE its giving me anxiety #theres a big storm rn #ive done everything in prep (unplugged stuff that wasn't on a surge protector) #and so now i just sit here #cas whispers to the void #caps

[king-krisu]

Bojan why would you think it's okay to post Nace with his one little curl Bojan I am begging you I can't do this for two more months Bojan please I'll buy the tickets whatever you want just please slow down oh my god

#bojan cvjetićanin #nace jordan #good god domestic nace has me so weak #please keep going tho its sm fun #ive never been so excited for a Bojan_cvjeticanin added to their story notification #unlike one mr jere who gives me anxiety #thankyou JO for fun sitcom content

[idfk-im-bad-at-names]

FOOLISH, DID YOU NOT SEE THAT BIG ASS CRATER? Or how Jaiden insta died? Leo would not have survived. Leo did not have a pearl in the stasis chamber, as far as I know. And she's so stubborn that he wouldn't have wanted to leave even if Foolish made them.

#qsmp #and foolish for the love of god please start putting her to sleep in her reinforced rooms #its giving me so much anxiety

[coffee-bat]

i hate to say this but i need comfort rn

#i saw one (1) mention of tumblr being a 'dying site' while scrolling before bed and now i feel legit sick from anxiety #its this 'i dont THINK anythings happening rn but i still feel like i just underwent severe trauma' feeling #probably bpd-specific i dont think thats normal. but i feel nauseous. #but #i dont think anytning new happened tumblr-wise lately right? like aside from them focusing more on managing it and less on- #-pointless additions #did i miss something? #or is it just that one person's pessimism #if. if nothings currently happening. can someone please tell me it'll be okay. #im sorry i genuiely cant sleep or calm down i feel like im gonna throw up i need someone to give me facts and logic im sorry #vent #ramble

[myriadsystem]

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#personal #i have doctors appt today with a new doctor its literally not even a real appointment i just need some stupid forms signed #but guys im so stressed im so scared ive already cried once about it today i just. i fucking hate doctors so so much #theyre all so bad. im not in the mood to be dismissed again today and its 15 goddamn degrees so everything feels bigger and worse than it is #if they dont sign the form i dont get paid any more and if i dont get paid i cant continue to try and sort out my medical #which means i continue to not get paid and im just. so scared. so so fucking scared i dont even care if we find the start if the path #to vetter my health i dont care about gettinf better right now i just need this fucking form signed but #ive already been dismissised for it once and i have new doctor jitters. what do you mean i have to tell someone new that #i have ptsd and anxiety and depression and fibro and alleged bpd but its probably autism actually and hope #hope and prey they losten to me because its other doctors that have told me this and im definitely computer illiterate i couldntve come up #with all this on my own i promise ive done zero research into my own symptoms i live with every day im a simpleton im an idiot #please believe me dr refer me to ypur colleagues for further testing but in the mwan time sign the one form i need please #im so scared. i dont know what to do. my tarot says to tryst myself and find my own authority about the situation #but like literally legally i cant i have to rely on the hope this new doctor gives her signature or i dont get fucking paid as stated #i hate this i feel so shaky and nervous and nauseous and awful 😮‍💨 #and im supposed to do groceries today. im at the very end of my shopping like if i dont go get food today #then i dont eat tonight but its cold and rainy and im super stressed abt the appointment so idk if ill be able to go shopping after #i dont wanna die anymore but like rn i kinda do this is too much today feels like too much #help me im drowning

[firebuug]

the stupid thing about anxiety that leans into straight up paranoia territory is that you can be weirdly paranoid and expectant of something terrible, worst case scenario ever to happen like, all the time, but since it's never happened to you you know it's unreasonable. but the moment one of the things you're crazy about actually happens, all those other extremely way more unreasonable things suddenly become plausible in your head by association, so now you're just on guard ALL the time. it's like throwing your anxiety a bone and because it was good that time and did a good job of preparing you for it now it's like ok! I will do this for everything else too and i will do a good job. but really it just needs to be put down

#in my case its like. i was highly paranoid of car incidents happening. but i was able to like. nap in a car comfortably cuz it never hapened #but i was ALSO unreasonably so paranoid about likr. inexplicably suddenly just getting a bullet to the skull. like out of nowhere anytime #so now that a terrifying car incident HAS happened to me now im like okay #im super high guard about that now and can barely close an eye in a vehicle without shaking. but. now that thats plausible. #whats saying im not gonna be sniped any moment any time while in public . who says. #i as a perosn know its exteemely unreasonable and sily especially considering where i live. but now that my anxiety has been fed #it's basically all gone downhill into insanity #anyways i need therapy but i dont have time energy or transportation. SLAYYYY!!!!!!!❗❗❗❗🫡 #txt #to detract this from myself therefore cancelling out any vulnerability on main: if i give an oc anxiety please know #it is this level of crawling up walls 'my head is going to blow off in five seconds and you need to shield me' bullshit and not 'oh no ppl.

[monstriiss]

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#god trying to get an adhd assessment is nightmarish #why does it cost $600+ for a single session like EXPLAIN??? #and it's so hard to find a psychologist who is taking new patients like please i just want to not be held hostage by my brain #one told me i would have to go to australia to get an assessment i just ghtiuhgituhgiutrh #I WILL get a stupid diagnosis i swear to fucking god #i've given up trying to go through the GP because the doctors here simply do not give a shit #them: its anxiety #me: but i dont feel anxious #them: mmm no sweaty it's anxiety :)))) #;; ooc. #;; tbd.

[sucktacular]

Hey y'all weed posting on main, hope u don't mind. So anyway, babies first weed plant is working away!!!

#weed #drugs #shes a bit scraggly but also her seed was from a dried up weed branch i found in the back shed #that had been there for god knows how long (at least a year) lol #so im surprised she even got this far WOOWOOO LETS GO GIRL YOURE BEAUTIFUL #also those bulbs with the orange bits are okay and fine right? #my research suggests theyre just female parts but i was like oh god what if shes turning hermaphroditic #i think... i think shes okay tho. honestly i hope she finishes up soon cuz its getting cold out at night... worried for her #sucktacular sucks #ive no fucking clue what strain she is but judging by online research + old roomies weed preferences shes probably a sativa! #which idk how thats gonna go for me cuz im an indica bitch #my anxiety is insane dude im too scared of sativa lol #anyway everyone please give her a kiss goodnight!!!! 💕💕💕 #also i hope this isnt the most pathetic weed ever grown LMAO shes doing so good all things considered

[the-kipsabian]

i am this 🤏 close to a mental breakdown :)

#i havent been called or texted or emailed about things today and its almost 4pm so im giving up. no job for me #also the valentines is definitely heightening my anxiety. i thought i could just treat this as any other day #but im getting slammed from all sides with sappy messages and all lovey dovey stuff and its not good for my brain #i wanna go back to bed please #night is an absolute mess on main

[i-look-back-and-laugh]

I saw a post mentioning this and now I can't think about anything else

The probability of getting a second season of Buddy Daddies is so minuscule and with no source material that means we will be left entirely in the dark

THINK ABOUT IT

We won't see Miri grow up

No more Kazuki/Rei interactions

We probably won't know if they'll stop doing their dangerous assignations and look for other jobs (I can totally see Kazuki being a chef)

We probably won't experience a Rei that feels confident in his role as a co-parent

What will happen with Rei's father and the organization? Maybe the last chapters will wrap that up maybe not

Once episode 13th roles out that's it

May the joint work of fanart and fanfiction guard our souls

#buddy daddies #brainrot #this is giving me anxiety #its 2am #please #kazuki #rei #miri #i already miss you #why

[biteapple]

? Olive has the same meow for "please come pet me while i eat" and "please come here and play with me" now, which only developed after i bought her a new toy (quickly became her new favorite) which is interesting. maybe this is a general meow for "pay attention to me" now .. she no longer really meows for being pet while she eats anymore after buying this toy for them both, for some reason, which is good (that was a REALLY bad habit of hers ive been trying to wean her off of)

#her meow for ''please play with me'' USED to be a very high pitched cry which changed #i feel like ive been playing with her in the same amount as i used to though so i dont think its that #she has the ''pet me while i eat'' habit because as a kitten my family had many adult cats that used to bully her #so i would make sure they didnt push her away from the food dish by staying near her when she ate. which she then wanted into adulthood #i then specifically would feed my cats upstairs in my room after that went on too long #that was a combination of a lot of bad things all at once that she grew up in (family only giving cats one food dish & free feeding them) #i would later atleast convince them to add a second and third dish to different areas that i'd maintain #while having my own food and water up in my room for my cats #.. still .. there were 7 cats. #its a lot better now though. there's only 3 cats that live in that house now. and i took my two girls with me here #i get to care for them how i'd like now .. its better that way #she developed the very high pitched cry when i left for a year while i was trying to sort out my living situation. #apparently she used to meander the house carrying a toy around and looking for me the year i was away #i know thats a separation anxiety thing (she also does this when i go to work and go to sleep) but she'll do it for play as well #they both have different toy collections and styles of play they prefer that im trying to add to and expand #i wanna get one of those kick-y toys next. those fish that wiggle. i think Olive specifically will LOVE that #Hope is more of a ribbon-toy and laser light girl. Olive likes to kick and kill her toys but has overlap with toys Hope likes too

[i-miss-my-90gb]

I need this guy to come back and fix our plumbing 😭

#he left and didnt come back its been like idk 20 minutes maybe more #it gives me anxiety but also please fix thie #this*

[opens-up-4-nobody]

No hate at all ( I wish you the best) but it is so funny that your blog is called opens up 4 no one but you have all those ... journal entry things. You open up for everyone all the time (again it's very interesting), but the irony is just so funny.

My username comes from my favorite song when I was in like 8th grade (little house by the fray (one of the most emo cringe songs ever lol)). But yea the irony is not lost on me, it's bc I don't talk to anyone irl 🙃

#also im just a very open person. like if u ask me something irl ill probably just tell u #i dont really give a fuck. but also im just so unhappy currently that im just anxiety shrapnel everytime i open my mouth #but like im very self isolated and i talk to other ppl and i cant tell if what i do deviates from the norm #bc everyone is like oh yea i dont see ppl enough #but like. i only talk to ppl at work and i avoid coming in when ppl r around. the most i talk in a week is probably when i meet with my #boss for like an hr every week and we have to cancel all the time bc shes busy #i dont even text people. like my parents might text me once a week and we'll go back and forth like 2 texts and thats it. then maybe they #call once every month or 2? so idk that seems unusal to me but its my life so its hard to tell #but thats y i vent on the internet so much bc i literally never talk to anyone in my daily life when im not trapped on long car rides #its not as bad as when i was an undergrad tho. then i would go week long stretchs only uttering thr words please and thank u #bc then i was truely not talking to anyone and hadnt developed socal skills lol #unrelated #my dad Said i was only hermit spectrum lol bc i dont really get lonely #on the hermit spectrum*

[louisarmpits]

I hateeee being asked to do audit things for work whyyyy do my managers ask me!! And why cant i say no!!!!

#like thanks for trusting me ig but PLEASE STOP ASKING ME IT GIVES ME ANXIETY #and how do i say no?? i cant. #:( #i should be happy they trust me with such important things but. why me #i want to be invisible #i said yes #:/ #and its the week after my birthday and i took a few days off for my birthday and now i wont even be able to relax bc I’ll be thinking about #the entire time

[t4tdanvis]

Tumblr randomly logged me out I was so scared I got banned for no reason again </3

#🪻.txt #tumblr make your site work challenge PLEASE its giving me anxiety

[ghostfungus]

My head hurts so fucking much

#rambles #please give me anxiety meds #its fine i just have to get through this week (its not fine) #im working. so much! #7h today 7h tomorrow 4h thursday over 9h friday at MY OLD JOB!! #8h saturday again #if this seems normal. i am disabled #its worth it i want and need this job. but jesus christ #oh and i worked 8h monday TOO!!!!