#Meron T

[andrrns]

The Not-So-Iron Fist Lady

Idol talaga si SWOH sa "fake it til you make it" mantra. While I was watching her during budget hearing and yung pagrelease niya ng statement yesterday, I was really speechless. Ito yung VP? Personally attacking Sen. Risa just because she could not answer her questions regarding OVP's mandate, the spending of illegal 125 million confidential funds, and a lot more? Watch it here: https://twitter.com/karatinyoko/status/1701130935184597257?t=yAckaz_tzzS8ZJ38VBDEXA&s=19

Her projects, kung tutuusin hindi naman ganon kalaki, permanent office and museum lang naman. And bakit may museum? Ano ilalagay niya dun? Pano naging significant yun sa buhay ng mga tao? As a spare tire, sobrang laki ng confidential funds ni SWOH! This is very alarming since may reputation siya (i mean thousands of ghost employees sa davao).

Moreover, Rep. Paul Daza specifically asked her if she was aware or familiar with the public WiFi program. However, she responded with "Timeout" after messing up so bad (like wtf the secondhand embarrassment 🤧), she couldn't answer the question herself and opted to let her USEC respond, even though it was directed at her. Here is the video: https://twitter.com/shamrocker_oo_/status/1697717373661241530?t=oWhNw1m85GmyW8eKdT-VDQ&s=19

What's even more horrifying is that her supporters are still actively praising her, painting her image as someone with an iron fist. The way they red-tag everyone na against sa reyalidad na meron sila, labeling them as supporters of NPA, is truly terrifying, especially considering that there have been abduction cases involving activists. Na natatakot lang daw ang opposition kasi supporters sila ng NPA at sa kanila ginagamit ang confidential funds para di na sila makapagrecruit ng mga kabataan. Paranoia lang daw ang meron sa mga taong nag-iisip na baka binubulsa ang confidential funds. How can you even change that mindset kung tiwala sila mismo na sa security napupunta ang funds kahit wala naman yan sa mandate ng OVP at ng DepEd?

Speaking of DepEd, shortage of classrooms and learning materials, hindi pagtaas ng sweldo ng mga teachers (kasi daw if taasan ang sweldo ng public teachers baka lumipat sa public ang mga nasa private schools teachers at baka maubusan ng teachers sa private schools 🤯), ang pag-alis ng pangalan ni Marcos sa Diktadoryang-Marcos sa learning materials (historical revisionism?), toothbrush drill, mandatory ROTC (baka daw lusubin tayo ng China, e di ba nag fei shang gao shing naman si SWOH?), at ang pag alis ng visual aids sa loob ng classroom. Ito dapat tinututukan niya as sec of deped, hindi yung security na hindi naman kasama sa mandate niya.

And I don't even know what to say about this: https://twitter.com/tonchi/status/1701272875016266114?t=dw6xq8gT9IhZfWwbm7hXGA&s=19

Meanwhile, ang laki rin ng confidential funds ni BabyM. Wala ba tayong masasabi diyan?

TBH i dont even know why i wrote this. Nakakafrustrate lang na naging ganito na ang government natin. We could have a full disclosure bill but pinili ng mga tao ang confidential funds instead. Ang mahal na ng kamatis.

[ligayangdala]

📂 KUYA’S BFF EP 7 : TAMA BA ANG DESISYON MO? | MASTERLIST

📣 JAEMIN NA. smut, angst, kuya’s bestfriend!au, childhood friend!au

✍ written in taglish | ⚠ unprotected sex (but reader is on the pill!), oral (fem receiving) | 📅 posted on july 23rd, 2022 | 🔞 minors, do not interact!

🎧 LISTEN: still friends, not lovers by slchld, whoosh

HINDI INAASAHAN NI JENO ANG MANGYAYARI.

nagising siya ng maaga dahil sa hindi malamang rason. basta na lang siyang nagising at bumangon. saktong sakto na pagbukas niya ng pintuan ng kwarto niya, ang siyang bukas ng front door. alas syete na ng umaga at mukhang kakatapos mo lang umiyak. nanigas si jeno sa pwesto niya habang tinititigan ka niyang maglakad, nung una nga akala niya ay papasok ka na sa kwarto mo, pero nagulat ito nang yakapin mo siya bigla at umiyak. you weren’t the type to seek comfort to your kuya whenever you get emotional, sabi mo kasi sa kanya dati ay matanda ka na at kaya mo na ang sarili mo. ito ata ang unang beses simula nung mga bata kayo na umiyak ka ulit sa kanya. niyakap ka ng kapatid mo pabalik at hinaplos ang buhok mo, hinahayaan lang niyang mabasa ng mga luha mo ang damit niya.

“i’m sorry, kuya”

“shh, tahan na” sabi nito, “‘kala ko ba big girl ka na kaya ‘di ka na iiyak sakin?”

jeno isn’t the type to get so angry like he was last night, hindi rin niya kayang magalit ng ganun katagal lalo na sa’yo. kahit gaano siya kagalit kagabi, lahat ng ‘yon, tila nawala nung humingi ka ng tawad. binitawan ka ni jeno at hinarap sa kanya, mapula ang mga mata mo at halatang pagod na pagod ka na kakaiyak. gamit ang hinlalaki, pinunasan ni jeno ang mga luha mo. “t-tinapos ko na… wala na kami ni jaemin,” sabi mo, lalo namang rumagasa ang mga luha mo. “kuya, i’m sorry— i never should’ve—”

“you’re forgiven na, y/n. ‘wag ka na umiyak, ‘wag mo na alalahanin. hindi na ‘ko galit.”

gaya ng pag yakap mo sa kapatid, hindi niya rin inaasahan ang desisyon mo. sinabi mo sa kanya na habang pauwi ka sa condo ay tumawag ka sa parents niyo na uuwi ka muna pansamantala sainyo. sabi mo kasi pwede naman kayong umattend ng klase online at pwede ka ring makipag-usap sa mga kaibigan mo para maasikaso ang thesis online. nalaman rin niyang papunta ang parents niyo dito para sunduin ka kaya naman nagimpake ka na ng gamit mo agad agad pagkatapos niyong mag-usap magkapatid. pag patak ng alas singko ng hapon, nagpaalam ka na sa kapatid mo at umalis kasama ang mga magulang niyo. 

pagkauwi ni jeno galing sa bahay nila ria, one week after mong umalis sa siyudad, nakita niyang nasa labas ng unit niyo si jaemin. nakatayo lang siya dun at may kausap sa cellphone. nagtama ang tingin nila sa isa't isa pero agad na umiwas si jeno at dire-diretso lang sa paglalakad at binuksan ang pinto. "pre," tawag ni jaemin sa kapatid mo, "pre, sorry" tinitigan lang siya ni jeno, hindi siya galit, pero ayaw niya munang kausapin ang kaibigan dahil parang masyado pang occupied ang utak niya sa mga nangyari. "si y/n… pwede ko ba siyang kausapin?"

"tol, 'wag muna ngayon, please. hayaan mo muna kapatid ko, pahingahin mo muna siya. saka na kayo mag-usap" sabi nito at tuluyang sinara ang pintuan.

it took him one week to process what he said to you nung sinabi mong gusto mo na itigil ang kung anong meron sa inyong dalawa. "anong ititigil natin? wala namang tayo para itigil natin 'to?" tangina, napakagago ng sagot niya— at ngayon lang niya napagtanto 'yun. ilang araw ka na niyang tinatry tawagan at tinetext pero lahat 'yun nakasent at laging napupunta sa voicemail. sinubukan rin niyang puntahan ka sa school mo, pero sabi ng mga kaibigan mo pero tinetake mo raw ang remaining subjects mo online. 

nalaman ni jaemin na umuwi ka sainyo nung tumawag ang nanay niya sa kanya, sinabi nito na bumalik ka nga raw pansamantala sa lugar niyo isang buwan ang nakalipas simula nung hinahanap-hanap ka niya. kaya naman pagkatapos ng klase niya, nagdrive siya pabalik sa lugar niyo. kating-kati na talaga siyang kausapin ka dahil isang buwan na kayong hindi nagkikita.

JM: alam kong ayaw mo pa 'kong harapin, pero please, y/n…

JM: let me explain.

hindi mo alam kung anong meron sa lalaking 'to at bakit isang text lang niya ng let me explain eh pumayag ka. 11 pm, pumayag kang makipagkita kay jaemin sa harap ng bahay niyo. babatiin ka sana ng halik nito sa pisngi, pero umiwas ka kaya naman nahulog ang puso niya dahil nakasanayan niya na ito, ilang buwan niyo rin kasing ginagawa ito. old habits don't die ika nga nila. nakaupo ka lang sa tabi niya habang hinihintay mo siyang magsalita. 

"baby" putanginang nickname 'yan, wala naman tayong label. "sorry… sorry kung ganon 'yung reaction ko last month. sorry if i ever made you feel like—"

"jaemin, please get to the point… pagod ako, ayokong marinig ang mahabang explanation mo. 'wag ka na humanap ng segway, diretsuhin mo na."

"y/n, natatakot akong mawala ka sakin. nung sinabi mong tapusin na natin, inunahan ako ng takot kaya ko nasabi 'yung nasabi ko. alam ko naman na ang magiging ending nating dalawa nung una palang eh, alam kong hindi papayag ang kuya mo, alam ko rin na malalaman rin niya kahit anong tago natin." sabi nito, "y/n, mahal kita. gusto kong gawing tama 'tong sating dalawa, even if it means being awkward with your kuya, maybe even break our friend—"

"nagsasabi ka ba ng totoo sa'kin?"

"baby, why would i lie to you?" tanong nito, tinitigan mo ang mata niya, nagbabakasakali na makahanap ng butas sa sinabi niya. "are you doubting me, baby?"

"hindi naman sa pinagdududahan kita, jaemin… hindi ko kasi alam kung…" hindi mo mabuo-buo ang pangungusap mo, parang nauubusan ka ng salita kaya nagbuntong hininga ka nalang. "where does that take us, jaem? ano tayo? anong label nito?"

hinawakan ni jaemin ang kamay mo at hinalikan ang likod mo, "hindi kita gustong madaliin, baby… pwede tayong mag-umpisa sa umpisa. baby steps."

tumango ka dahil wala ka na talagang masabi. parang lahat ng sasabihin mo, kakainin mo lang rin kaya naman, "i missed you, jaem." sabi mo at niyakap siya, "dito ka na lang muna, 'wag ka na umuwi"

nginitian ka ni jaemin at hinawakan ang mukha mo, "baby, baka magulat sila tita pag gising nila magkatabi tayo" sabi nito at hinalikan ang pisngi mo.

"mag-isa lang ako, jaem. nasa business trip sila mommy." sabi mo, "matutulog lang naman tayo eh, unless…"

"gusto mo ba?"

"namiss kita jaem, malamang gusto ko" nahihiya mong sabi, agad mong inalis ang kamay nito sa mukha mo at nilagay sa kamay mo. pag sarado mo ng main door, agad mong hinalikan si jaemin, napangiti naman ito at hinawi ang buhok mong sumasagabal sa mukha mo. 

napatili ka nang bigla ka niyang buhatin at siya na mismo ang nagdala sa'yo sa kwarto mo. dahan-dahan kang binaba ni jaemin sa kama, siniguradong sa unan babagsak ang ulo mo at nararamdaman mong hinihimas ni jaemin ang suso mo gamit ang isang kamay bago niya ito ilipat papunta sa loob ng shorts mo. nararamdaman mong ginagalaw niya ito pabilog at umungol ka sa bibig niya. 

"walang panties and bra, baby? naughty mo ah" ngisi nito at hinalikan ka ng mabilis sa labi bago ibaba ang sando mo para sumuso. napakagat ka ng labi at napahawak sa ulo niya dahil bigla niyang kinagat ang utong mo, "sorry baby, i'll be gentle" sabi nito, he trailed gentle kisses on your chest, to your stomach, to your hip bones before he fully removed your shorts. hinayaan ni jaemin na ipatong mo ang hita sa balikat niya at sinimulan niyang halikan ang loob ng hita mo hanggang sa nakaharap niya na ang ari mo. pinaghiwalay niya ang labi nito, he licked long stripes kaya naman napaungol ka at umarko ang likod mo't napahawak ka sa headboard ng kama mo. 

"jaem…! tangina—" ungol mo, you can feel a knot forming inside your stomach kaya naman naipit ng mga hita mo ang ulo ni jaemin. "kuya jaem…!" namilipit ang buong katawan mo nang maramdaman mong labasan ka dahil sa dila niya, agad na inilayo ni jaemin ang sarili niya sa’yo, naghubad ng pantalon at umibabaw sa’yo habang nararamdaman mong nagkukuskos ang ulo ng tite niya sa puke mo. hinalikan ka ni jaemin sa noo, bago niya ipasok ng tuluyan sa loob. napakapit ka sa bisig nito dahil isang buwan rin ka ring walang sex, kaya medyo masakit.

mabagal ang pagbayo ni jaemin, akala mo ninanamnam bawat sulok ng loob mo’t pinapanood ka niya habang napapapikit ka sa sarap. sweet and slow— the last time you two had slow sex was months ago, nung napag-usapan niyong maging friends with benefits. since then, hindi na naulit ang slow sex sainyo, mainly because the two of you liked how thrilling things can be. sa kotse, sa banyo, sa hallway ng school mo kapag bumibisita siya sa’yo, sa parking— lahat ‘yan kung hindi quickie, rough sex. 

diniin mo ang ulo mo sa unan mo kaya naman nagkaroon ng tsansa si jaemin para halikan ang leeg mo. “sobrang ganda mo, baby…” sabi nito sa balat mo, “malapit na ‘ko.” nalalasahan mo ang sarili mo sa labi ni jaemin habang binibilisan niya ng konti ang pagbayo, pinulupot mo sa bewang niya ang binti mo kaya naman lalong lumalim ang tite niya sa’yo. sabay kayong umungol nang maramdaman mo ang mainit niyang tamod sa loob mo, dahil sa pagod, hinayaan ni jaemin na ibagsak ang sarili niya sa’yo at hinalikan ka sa pisngi.

hindi mo namalayang nakatulog ka na dahil sa pag-humuni ni jaemin malapit sa tenga mo. hindi mo na rin naramdaman na inalis niya na ang sarili niya sa’yo at nilinasan ka, inayos pa ang iyong damit bago tumabi sa’yo sa kama. lalong lumalim ang tulog mo dahil nararamdaman mong sinusuklay niya ang buhok mo gamit ang daliri habang sinasabihan ka ng matatamis na salita, sana lang pag gising mo kinabukasan, andyan pa rin siya.

kaso nadismaya ka nang magising kang mag-isa sa kama, mag-isa sa bahay. akala mo iniwan ka nito ng walang paalam, pero nag-iwan siya ng almusal na may note sa tabi.

thanks for giving me another chance, baby. hindi na kita ginising kasi ang sarap ng tulog mo, babalik na ‘ko sa city kasi may kikitain pa ‘ko. i’ll text you when i get there. eat well, baby ko.

ngumiti ka na parang tanga— kinikilig ka pero may bahid pa rin ng pagdududa. tama ba ang desisyon mo?

#nct smut #nct dream smut #jaemin smut #na jaemin smut #nct scenarios #nct dream scenarios #jaemin scenarios #nct hard hours #nct dream hard hours #jaemin hard hours #nct hard thoughts #nct dream hard thoughts #jaemin hard thoughts

[kimhortons]

July 22 | Manila.

i really just had to go home to Manila few weeks ago, para kumuha ng ilang damit at para makuha ko narin yung mga pabango na pinadala ng friend ko from i dunno where kasi flight attendant siya.

also had inihaw na liempo for our lunch which i also crave the most, kasi never ko pa nakita yung family ni J na nag ihaw hehe. pagkauwing pagkauwi namin, after mag breakfast, bumili kaagad kami. overnight lang naman kami so binigyan ko nalang si papa ng kaonting budget para sa bahay.

my college bff, Rachel and really planned to meet up before i get there. sakto kasi nung nag sabi akong uuwi ako on that said date, naka leave siya. so first thing in mind is Trinoma and Tacobell. mga sobrang namiss ko talaga 'to favorite places and food ko. nag grocery muna kami ng pang baon sa byahe then after that kumain sa Tacobell.

super namiss ko talaga yung tacos dun, nothing special naman talaga, kasi kaya naman gumawa nung sa bahay pero yung place rin kasi, tsaka good thing naipa-try ko rin kay Rachel kasi first time niya kumain dun, not J's first time, in fact ayaw niya dun kasi di raw masarap, pero nagustuhan niya yung new rice meal sa menu nila haha. too bad kasi talagang wala nito dito sa Bicol hays. gusto ko rin sana mag Burger KIng (which is wala rin dito) kaso medj mabigat sa tyan yung kinaen namin.

after dun, tumabay na kami at nag catch up sa Starbucks, also one of my favorite spot, yung nasa garden. after din dun, nag ikot ikot kami para maghanap ng t-shirt ni J. at dahil may promo nun sa Oxyen, syempre may 1 top rin ako haha. (thanks bubb) bumili rin kami ng Jamaican pattie bago umuwi, kasi as usual wala rin nung dito, though meron na daw, kaso sa Sorsogon pa huehue.

plano ko rin sana i-meet si Mitch at Jm at magpa massage dun sa spa na pinupuntahan namin before, kaso sobrang kulang sa time. ang hirap pala mag catch up pag ganitong bitin sa oras, kulang yung isang araw. si Jasmine nga rin sana gusto pa ko imeet kaso paalis na kami kinabukasan at need na mag rest. maybe next time.

but atleast i know, my friends back home are missing me and as much as possible wants to spend time with me rin.

#img #jrnl #personal

[firecoloredwater]

(This got VERY long and accidentally morphed into a fic. The fic starts with Fax's massacre of Lessa's family and her resulting trauma, and also touches on not-quite-real-world climate anxiety, so caution reading.)

I've thought a few times about how I would rewrite Dragonflight if I were going to, how I'd streamline the plot (merge Fax and Meron, to start) and tweak characterization (F'lar can act basically the same if he's, like, 17 instead of 20-something).

But the fundamental crack at the heart of Dragonflight which I've never been able to resolve is Lessa. Because there are two things which are fundamental truths to Lessa.

The first truth is this: she is Lessa of Ruatha. She is the only survivor of a massacre, the last rightful heir to the kingdom, and she raised herself on those truths. She is, literally, a secret princess disguising herself with filth in order to hide from danger as a kitchen servant. But that's misleading, because those fairytale princesses she shares the shape of just want to escape abuse and live in peace. Lessa is actually the lost prince of a conquered land, come home to slay the tyrant that murdered her father and retake her rightful place as king Lady Holder.

The second truth is this: Lessa of Ruatha must abandon Ruatha, in order to become Lessa of Ramoth, of Benden, of Pern, and save the world.

And she can't know why she needs to go, or that she'll save the world in doing so, because if she knew what she was going to do we wouldn't have a full plot of Lessa figuring out time travel and that she needs to bring the Weyrs forward. You can make it a bit better by letting Lessa actually know what a Weyrwoman is, rather than thinking she's probably going to be F'lar's mistress, but she still has no reason to abandon Ruatha, especially not in favor of Fax's son.

I think, to fix it, Jaxom can't be Fax's son.

Lessa was the youngest of a large family. She had several older brothers and sisters; say around eight kids, average 2.5 turns between them, and even if Lessa was only four when Fax arrived, the oldest would have been around eighteen. But I will, for this purpose, say Lessa was ten, and the oldest were in their twenties.

A family that large, with a few kids grown or nearly so, whose hereditary job involves diplomacy, won't all be at home most of the time. They'll be out checking on important industries, visiting allies, sent to a Hall like the noble girls that will someday give Menolly so much trouble, or sent for fostering like those girls' boyfriends. Given the alliance-building use of fostering and Fax's having already taken over several Holds before Ruath Hold, it would be the obvious thing for Lessa's father to have sent one of his teenage sons to Fax for fostering.

Lessa doesn't think about that. She's ten, and she has just watched her entire family be slaughtered. She is hiding in the watch-wher's den, in shock and terrified. She does not think of it until a few days later, when one of Fax's men drags in a mangled body with hair the same color as her brother's, dumps it beside the rest, and declares the job complete.

Lessa's body is there too, of course, or else there surely would have been a search thorough enough to find her. There was a search, but before Lessa they found a servant's daughter of about the right age and description with a face a touch more Ruathan-typical than Lessa's own, and so the search ended.

Lessa is terrified that Fax or his men might realize their mistake. But no one in Ruatha is much inclined to tell Fax or his men anything they might not want to hear. And Lessa, without knowing it, is the most powerful telepath Pern has seen in generations. Even without intention, her desperation to remain undetected is enough to exert pressure on the minds around her.

No one identifies the servant girl. No one looks in the watch-wher's den. No noise that comes from the den sounds like a human child. No one wonders why, in the evenings, someone feels the need to leave human-suitable food near the watch-wher's den, or where it vanishes to before morning.

When Lessa finally emerges, no one wonders where this new servant girl came from. No one questions her soft hands or fancy speech or condescending attitude. They snap at her for being unskilled, and give her the hardest, simplest work, and think no more of it.

It takes weeks, months, for Lessa's shock and horror to settle enough to allow fury to emerge in more than flashes. It takes years for her to work out any plan more specific than survive, and make him pay. It also takes years, though perhaps not quite as many, for her to notice the pressure she can exert on other people without their notice, and to learn to do it intentionally.

By the time Lessa is twenty, Ruatha develops a reputation for being cursed. What grows there grows poorly. What few crafters remain seem to lose their skill. And there are the accidents: rockfalls, impossible fires, drunken fights that turn deadly, all manner of things which can kill, and often do. The more highly-placed a man is (or a woman, though few women can be described in such terms in Fax's Holds) the more accidents seem to find him.

There is weight in the air of Ruatha: the weight of grief, of hatred, of fury, of pain. A constant pricking on the back of the neck; the scent of blood perpetually half-imagined. Healers advise those with poor hearts to avoid Ruatha if possible, or if a visit is necessary, to leave quickly: something there makes the heart race and strain, and given time, a weak one will fail.

But that's not going to stop F'lar!

F'lar is 17, superior, young enough that he has never yet failed, and frantic with terror in his own way. Even a teenage bronzerider outranks all people but more senior bronzeriders (though every bronzerider is F'lar's senior), and F'lar wears both his power and his arrogance like a gaudy cape: he sneers, he orders, he demands, he pushes, and those who are preoccupied with anger and frustration about his attitude--which is nearly everyone he meets--rarely wonder why he demands the things he does, why he is so obnoxious as to stop and ask drudges idle questions about the weather and the upkeep of the Hold.

The truth is, F'lar is arrogant. His father was wiser, but his father is dead, and so F'lar is the smartest man in the world, and never wrong. He considers any behavior other than giving him what he wants to be obstructionism, all people to be his inferiors, and inferior people behaving in obstructionist ways to be the worst possible transgression. As such, he dislikes nearly everyone he meets, and enjoys needling, insulting, and upsetting them. His status makes retaliation impossible.

The truth is also this: F'lar sees the apocalypse coming, and he does not know how to stop it. He has read about how threadfall will consume the planet, and with it all of Pern's people. He knows how many dragons are needed to guard the planet, and how small a fraction of that number currently live. He has watched the Red Star grow nearer, and he has listened to every adult dismiss him with the insistence that it's not that bad, there's nothing to fear, there is no danger coming, and so nothing should be done.

F'lar's father died, and left to him the duty of saving the world. F'lar has never failed before, and he clings to that fact with the same desperation that Lessa clings to Ruatha, and all its recent history.

F'lar is searching for candidates, for the future Weyrwoman and future riders, but he is also searching for allies and scouring every Hold he passes through for its prevailing attitudes and common knowledge. Do the crafters' sons know the Ballad of Moreta? Do the farmers have enough children to weed the fields as thoroughly as they ought? You there, drudge--what do you think of this grass among the paving stones?

He is not pleased by the answers.

F'nor is older, but he calls himself sixteen. He follows F'lar loyally, as a younger brother ought, as a wingsecond must. He goes where F'lar points and does what F'lar asks, and no one questions his motives: as a loyal wingsecond and little brother, he is motivated only by obedience. No one questions, either, when he finds the free time to put on a charming smile and chat with the girls near his age. Did many of the herdbeasts have twins this spring? How has the fishing been; more storms than usual again this turn? That outbreak of illness he heard of in the next Hold over, have the healers gotten it under control yet?

It is true that F'nor is loyal to his father's favored son, and follows F'lar's orders without complaint. That does not make his obedience thoughtless, nor does it mean he lacks his own initiative.

And so they wind through Fax's holds. Here and there, they pick up people as they go: some on Fax's orders, some on F'lar's. Sometimes there is disagreement, in which case F'lar's preference wins, but sometimes things align perfectly, as with a couple they overtook on the road to Ruatha: young man and pregnant wife, with an old runnerbeast and their life packed into a cart. If F'lar insists the young man is a strong candidate (enough that an exception may be made for his age), and wishes to take him to the Weyr, the couple will have to leave all their belongings behind in Ruatha. Fax is hardly inclined to refuse.

The young couple, of course, join the party for their own reasons.

Fax and F'lar do not think of this. F'nor does, and speaks to the couple with smiles and offers to reason with F'lar on their behalf should they find that they hate life in the Weyr. He concludes that they had no plans, that a future in the Weyr is as good as any, and that the common people are rarely inclined to argue with men such as F'lar.

And so the party reaches Ruatha, last of all Fax's Holds, as Fax had hoped that F'lar would find what he was looking for elsewhere and leave before the visit become necessary. Fax keeps his guards close: meat shields in case of accidents.

The visit goes much the same as in canon. Oh, it differs in the details, in the people present and the conversations they have, but Ruatha is still a place of bad food and worse feelings. Fax is tense, irritable, angry, and F'lar loves to needle.

But some details are critical. Gemma, who breaks an argument despite her best efforts by going into labor, is the wife of the young couple. As she is not Fax's wife, this pauses the argument, but does not resolve it, and under the pressure of Lessa's will, it soon resumes.

But F'lar is a dragonrider. For years, he has lived with Mnementh as a presence and pressure on his mind; he is well used to acting only on his own will, and not on the stray thoughts of others. And so it is not him that breaks and initiates a duel. Nor is it Fax, who is less resistant to Lessa's will but deeply fearful of this malevolent place, and unwilling to leave the circle of his guards over insults that F'lar has been provoking him with this entire trip.

It is the young man who steps forward, shaking with his own and Lessa's will, and announces himself as Lokan, a surviving son of the late Ruathan Lord, and the rightful ruler of Ruath Hold.

It is, of course, Lessa that allows her brother to win. Fax is a powerful, experienced figher, and Lokan cannot match him.

But Lessa is there. She drags pebbles under Fax's heel, clouds his mind, and slows his reactions. In the end Lokan is wounded, but Fax is dead, and Ruath Hold belongs once more to Ruathan blood.

F'lar is reluctant to let his star candidate go, but if F'lar were to deny Lokan's claim to Ruatha, Lokan would have to be executed. Besides, Fax was no use to F'lar, and the lord holders that replace him might be, and so F'lar declares the Weyr's recognition of Lokan as the rightful Lord Holder of Ruatha. Fax's men are sent away with minimal bloodshed, though perhaps a few accidents.

Lessa reveals herself to her brother, and Gemma survives the birth of her and Lokan's son. Perhaps he is named Jaxom; perhaps his parents name him instead after Lessa, or Lokan's murdered father, or Gemma's father, who saved Lokan's life years ago.

F'lar seeks out Lessa, to her complete disinterest. But Lokan, while in hiding, was in a completely different sort of hiding than she was. He was warned and spirited away by minor holders, allies of their father. In addition to being much older than Lessa when their family was killed, he still had access to harpers and lessons while in hiding, and he understands politics. He encourages Lessa to go to the Weyr, as a Weyrwoman would wield political power and be able to back Ruatha's recovery in a way no other ally could.

It is a brief day, perhaps two, of relief and joy, before Lokan's wounds develop an infection. Less than a week after reclaiming his Hold, he dies.

His son is only days old, but still the rightful heir, and Lessa will never want to interfere. Lady Gemma becomes regent. As she expected and trained to be Lady of Ruatha while it recovered, she is well prepared despite her grief.

Lessa, victorious and devastated and reeling, follows her brother's wishes to the Weyr, and the promise of power that she can use to protect her nephew and sister-in-law.

She will, of course, find the power to do much more than that.

#Pern #Dragonriders of Pern #DRoP #Dragonflight #meta #fic #I didn't INTEND to fic And Yet #not certain if this counts as gore but it's at least strongly implied #what with this all starting with a massacre #also slightly-off-of-real-world climate anxiety #and murdered children #as part of the massacre #but probably worth singling out for clarity #I have not proofread this at All #I'll reread it tomorrow and do typo checks and probably also some edits for clarity #but right now it is Too Long and I intended to sleep a few hours ago

[kriegborderlands-moved]

WE ARE THE BEATEN AND THE SCORNED

MOVED!!! This blog is no longer in use starting december 1

tara/oryx/hyde/oz (ozzie if we’re mutuals). (not krieg. but you can call me that idgaf really). he/it + more. white perisex tme syshost. 18. npdtism + more. visually impaired.

hyde dislyte and krieg bordered lands irl (NOT IN THE DELUSION WAY) but with less murder.

pls tag paranoia inducing content. if you get into discourse a lot i wld prefer you not follow

under 18 please block the tag “nsfw” and “18+”

incredibly unpleasant to be around for long periods of time. bc ive got scary disorders and i dont bother to mask online

more down there 👇 (blinkies at the very bottom pls be advised!!!)

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currently into destiny, borderlands, monster prom, horror games, metal music, pikmin

i block whoever the fuck i want. proshit and t*rfs fuck off. zionists aren’t welcome. not a safe space for ds.mp, hp, h*talia fans, and av*tar (j*mes c*meron movies) fans (idc if you consume it critically you still disgust me). may softblock pr0wl fans.

don’t hate on my favs on my own posts

there are times where i genuinely have no desire to communicate with anyone. please respect that.

i have a boyfriend i LOVE HIM and sometimes i post about how much i love him

alter tags (BROKEN, CLICK #tagnav)

oc masterpost (BROKEN, CLICK #tagnav)

#pinned post #tagnav: #fav #cc #no1 cc #tarart #doodle tag #insp #save #ref #all time fav #watch later #tagnav #tarastrike tag #tfrequiem #taranation bullshit #me

[kengkastanyas]

meron na sa suking tindahan 😍 t ice lang talaga bibilin ko pampaantok, kinilig ng very light. pde na kong di magpadeliver. hihi

#wala lang share ko lang

[bonitamusic]

Tracklist :

Coco Jones - Put you on

Duncan Gerow - Ari Lennox + Joe = Pressure

Ella Mai - Our song

Oya Noire - Naked

Tems - Ice T (Kun edit)

Dave Hirsh - Emergency contact w/ Tekowa Lakica & Rokkai

Nanna.B & Mndsgn - Akasha

Pip Millett - Hold up (interlude)

Duncan Gerow - Tems Ft Brent Faiyaz + Notorious Big = Found

Cleo Sol - In your arms (Flwr Chyld flip)

Meron T - State of mind

Hannah Abdul - Cause I love u

Hennessy - In my head

Kehlani - Get me started Ft. Syd

The Floacist - Let me

Tweet - Iceberg

Amaria - Get away

Sza - Shirt Ft. DNoel (Tokyo Ave remix)

S31kken - No love

Bxks - Collateral Damage

Bxks - Work like Ft. Kish! & Kish!

Nolais - Nobody but you x Matts

.Kai - Nobody

Maina Doe, King Ivy & Ijal - WYA Ft. Valve Sounds

Cynaa-Nicole & Buto - Wolves

Kia Harper - Without You

Erica Leshai - Stingy

Annisya & Fathan Maulana - Lights out

Fathan Maulana, Jo Soegon - No Better

Annisya - Vulnerable

Theo Croker - Theo Says Ft. Ego Ella May & D'leau

Iamnobodi - An idea Ft. Emmavie, Zacari & Josh J

#tracklist

[goldennikko]

ako naman ata yung lutang ngayon, okay lang naman po yung day ko..actually, ayaw ko na magising bukas kase math and sci po unang test namin🥲🥲 SINO BA NAMAN HINDI IIYAK DON (baka si 🐧) ISTG SHE’S YOUNGER THAN ME BUT LIKE MAS MATURE PA ATA SIYA SAKEN😭😭, ang ganda din po ng handwriting niya nakakaiyak tapos yung saken mukhang scribble ng bata. di nga po ako makapag sulat ng straight, lagi papuntang heaven or 6 ft under yung sulat ko😭😭

-🦩 (parang naging rant yung msg ko😭)

good to hear! oh no onga noh exams niyooo. don't worry, sabay tayo mag eexam whahshaw meron pa rin ako exam tomorrow, but di na siya NAT. more... deadly ang exam ko bukas

it's always the younger one much more mature hawhsa damayan na lang kita sa handwriting, bibe q. i have shit penmanship T~T

and you can rant ha <333

#nikko reply! #nikko filo moments! #nikko 🦩~ #nikko 🐧~

[iamnotaxl]

Kwento sa Pangalan ni Ayo.

(Nasanay)

Nasanay ako sa tayo. Kaya nakalimutan kong meron pa ring ikaw at ako. Ikaw na may sariling buhay sa labas ng tayo. Ako na mas madalas magkaroon ng sariling mundo sa mga halusinasyon at imahinasyon sa utak ko that keep on running without fail.

Tulog na nga lang ang pahinga ko, e. Ikaw yung inaasahan kong pahinga pag hindi ako nahihimbing sa kama but when you said that you were tired; nalunod ako.

Nung una akala ko nakakatakot malunod. Best experience pala. Kasi naman, natuto kong huminga. Natuto kong sumuporta sa sarili ko ng hindi umaasa sa'yo. Na hindi humahawak sa tayo na binuo natin. Na hindi kumakapit sa mga pangako mo.

Bakit ko kasi nakalimutang 'ako' lang pala nung una kaya lang dumating ka? Dumating ka ng inaasahan ko na 'di tulad ng sa iba; unexpected daw. Alam mo bang bumuo pa ako ng outline kung paano natin patatakbuhin ang tayo?

Hindi ako nagtagumpay doon, huh? Kaya siguro dinahan dahan mong inalis ang letter t sa tayo. Naging Ayo. Kaya yun ang ginamit kong pangalan.

Kaso habang tumatagal inalis mo rin ang letter y. Natira na lang sakin ang a at o.

Ginising mo na lang ako isang araw na bibigyan mo ako ng letter k. Sabi mo sa akin, k ka na ba? Sana k ka na.

Para nga tayong nasa show ni Kris Aquino, yung 'Game Knba?' Patawa.

Kaya mo pala sinabing sana k ka na kasi...aalis k na. Gusto ko sanang mag mura kasi para kang nag spray ng alcohol sa sugat ko.

Naalala mo yun nung nasa Muzon tayo? Winisikan mo ng alcohol yung sugat ko sa braso na gumasgas sa alambre.

Sabi mo kasi mabilis lang gagaling. Tama ka nga. Natuyo agad ang sugat kaya nawala na yung hapdi.

Nung binigay mo sa akin yung letter k sabi mo, hawakan kong mabuti. Kaya Kumapit ako ngayon sa letter k.

Sa sobrang pagkapit ko sa binigay mo, hindi ko na napansin na unti unti ka na rin nawawala.

Ang natira na lang sa akin ay tatlong letra. A, k, at o.

Hindi na kita hinanap. Bakit pa? Nakikita naman kita palagi. Hindi ka rin naman nawawala. Umalis ka lang naman sa loob ng tayo na binuo natin, e.

Kaya yun. Yung dating tayo. Naging pangalan ko pa sa facebook when you remove the letter t.

Tinanggal mo yung letter y tapos pinalitan mo ng k.

Nung sinabi ko sa'yo okay na ako. Sabi mo, "Mainam. Tapos na ako sa'yo."

Manhid na yata ako nang marinig ko yan. Hindi na kita iniyakan, e.

Hilig mo sa slowburn. Parang yosi. Dahan dahan nasusunog at dahan dahan rin pumapatay. Buti na lang buhay pa ako kahit patay na yung tayo. Kasi sa pagmamanipula mo ng mga letra sa binuo nating tayo; ang natira na lang ay ako.

Ako na si Ayo na may binubuong mundo sa labas ng tayo. K na rin ito, at least nagtira ka para sa ako.

Ako na gamit mo sa sarili. At ako na gamit ko para sabihing ako na lang mag-isa kasi wala ka na.

Salamat nalang sa tayo, dun nabuo ang pangalang Ayo. Pipilitin kong sabihin ito ng walang halong pait. "Thank you kasi sa pagkawala mo may bago na akong pangalan."

Isang paalala na hindi na ako buo dahil hindi na (t)Ayo kumpleto.

K lang. Nasanay na ako.

[hannahhhhhhh]

My experience in online class^^

hello gusto ko lang ishare sa inyo kung ano-ano ang mga naranasan ko sa online class. 2020 aug nagsimula ang online class dahil sa pandemic grade 9 ako nun. Nung una sabi akala ko madali lng kase nga online naman kase yun pala hindi. first time ko lng mag online class nun kaya nangangapa ngapa pa ako sa gagawin lalo na kung ano mga pipindutin kase wala naman ako sariling selpon bago magpandemic. Anditp yung hindi ko alam kung anong pipindutin ko kapag mag jjoin sa class tsaka minsan walang signal ang data at meron pang mga maiingay na kapitbahay na akala mo walang nagkaklase sa katabing bahay nila at makasigaw ay wagas.

Pero masaya din naman sya lalo na sakin na may social anxiaty. minsan nag ooffcam ako para kumain HHAHAHHA well yes ginawa ko yun dati T^T tapos sasabihin ko mabagal ang net kaya ako naka offcam pero nakain lng talaga ako. tapos ang masama pa dati ewan ko ba naliligo ako habang naka oc T^T grade 9 ko yun omg di ko alam bakit ko ginawa yun HAHAHHAHAH anw di ko na ginawa yun one time ko lng sya ginawa kase init na init ako tapos may class pa kami kaya pinagsabay ko

#my blog

[ligayangdala]

iba talaga kapag tagalog yung smut fics na binabasa. onti lang talaga mga filo writers dito kaya sanay ako na in english yung mga smut na nababasa ko kaya parang ang intense kapag binabasa ko yung mga works niyo 😭😭😭 lalo na kapag nababanggit yung etits and canto(t)n WBAHSHMFHEJDKWJD AYOKO NA FEELING KO ANG ILLEGAL BASAHIN PERO ITULOY ANG KA-HORNY-HAN CHARENG

p.s can i be 🧼 anon? thnx pwoahhh 😘

AAAA SA TRUE pero alam niyo ba kung bat namin ginawa tong acc na to hahaha kasi may nakita kaming tweet which is ito:

tapos sabi ko (admin g) kay admin l, what if try namin gumawa ng tagalog blog kasi meron ding spanish ata yun sa nct smut kung tambay kayo don kasi tambay ho kami don 😵‍💫 tas ayun nagulat kami biglang nag-blow up 'yung una naming smut which is yung kuya's best friend hahsdahha tas shuta natatawa nga kami habang sinusulat 'yung kuya's best friend kasi napa-"oo nga no parang ang weird pag 'yung tagalog ng dick/cock/pussy 'yung gamit" pero ewan nageenjoy naman kami pareho sa pagsusulat jahahssha

andami kong chinika puta anyway ! welcome 🧼 anon

#🎭 admins #📥 ligayangdala asks

[joyceebels]

Thank You Lord

I thought, magiging drain na ako buong araw..

S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D

pero hindi pa natatapos ang gabi.. may biyaya na kayo binigay sakin!!

may sahod na ako!!! :D

Thank you po.. 

P.S. hindi po pera nagpapasaya sakin ha.. kundi yung blessing na akala wala pero meron pala.. :) 

Always expect the unexpected, joyceee

[bread-roses-and-chrome]

School year's finally coming to an end! The hell week(s) are fucking over!!! ...I need to catch up on my media list. In any case. I'm curious, are there even any leftist writers or artists in PH out on Tumblr? Kind of doubtful, but why not?

Sounds like a crowd I'd wanna talk about writing with. Reblog, comment, PM, whatever. Preferably PM. ^^

Please lang, Lord, sana meron. T-T

#writing #creative writing #philippines #i realize how federal this post sounds #but i'm in the middle of duterteville and i am losing my goddamn mind #leftism #progressives #anarchism #communism

[starscreamuniverse]

MAY 05, 2024 RANDOM THOUGHTS

Today at work, pang-night shift ako and time check 5:46 A.M. Sunday May 05, 2024 here in QA, still single and cute haha : ) Wala lang, gusto ko lang mag-blog now at natapos ko naman na lahat ng tasks ko sa work, waiting na lang ako ng uwian. Madami akong gusto ikwento here sa blog like I don’t know where to start? Where to begin all my stories ba? Mga heartache, heartbreak, kalutangan at kabaliwan? Haha… April 30, 2024 madaming nangyari aww, Kileg ang accla haha, may dental appointment kasi ako nun haha, cute naman ung dentist, may mga eye to eye contact moments kami, then masaya ako pag nakatingin siya sa akin and naka-smile, may karapatan ba akong Kiligin? Ayoko talaga mag-stalk pero chineck ko fb niya, solo pic na lang, dati profile pic niya 2 yrs ago is with Jowa ehh. And yun yung first time ko siya ng nameet, taken siya nun, now I don’t know, if sila pa ba? Break na? May effect kasi siya sa akin or delulu lang ako haha, Kaya same as before sinilip ko fb niya. May chance ba tayong maging friends? May 3 sessions pa ako Kay Mr. Dentist, so I don’t know what will happen to those 3 sessions, exciting na kinakabahan. Update ko itong post na ito, if my progress ba. So ayun speaking of my teeth, for removal na yung braces ko, then upgrade ko yung Jacket crown ko to Zirconia, then Retainer na din ako. Nag-start na din akong Mag-exercise and intermittent fasting, I have 6 months to do my Mind and body transformation, 3yrs ago na din siguro since palaging nasa back of my mind yung gusto ko talaga ma-achieve yung flat stomach, kahit walang abs, pero if magma-abs ako edi much better, then yung love handles ko, I want to shred it, aside sa aesthetic effect na gusto ko, I want to be strong physically. 33 yrs old na ako, I am not getting any younger, I really have to take good care of myself, for me : ) Dapat simulan ko na ulet basahin yung book ng 48 Laws of Power ni Master Robert Greene. Ang daming kailangan gawin, need talaga ng time management. Priority ko now, yung health ko and peace of mind. Then pakonti konti, try ko na mag-minimize ng gamit, para pag dumating na yung time na, it’s my turn to lipat somewhere new, easy na lang ang process, mahirap ang maraming gamit. Daming iintindihin, sasabay sa isipin. Ano pa ba gusto ko i-share dito? Gusto ko i-upgrade yung clothing style ko, yung wardrobe ko, Kaya gusto ko din mag-vacay sa Pinas ng makapamili ng clothes. Napansin ko kasi, pero T-shirt lang meron ako, wala akong damit na Alam mo yun if may mga event, Bumili pala ako ang air-fryer last month, Mura lang bili ko, I think worth it naman siya, then after ng braces, I want to buy IPL device para sa hair removal, ohh diba.. sa Vacay ko pala if ever, plan ko pag-uwi ko, Magpafacial at mag-pakulay ng hair then pagawa ng new eye glass, and gusto ko din mag-enroll sa driving school. So ayun, 6:41 A.M. lapit na Juwian, iligpit ko na itong mga gamit ko haha, IPad Pro + Logitech keyboard ang gamit ko while typing this blog. Wala lang haha : ) Mwahh, Mwahh : )

#selflove #cutedentist

[charmemma]

[alestairelek]

April 23 (T)

I still feel really sad but yeah, isang subject lang yata mahahawakan ko this term tapos hindi pa tapos yung process ng pag-reactivate ng account ko which means baka hindi pa ako makapagsimula ng turo bukas. No work, no pay pa naman.

Anyway, kahit na naloloka na ako at nau-unfairan sa buhay, meron pa rin talagang mga tao na naniniwala sa kakayahan ko.

Isa na dun si Dr. Gumban (colleague ko). Sobrang saya ko na nasabi ko na sa kanya lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. Kasi ang tagal niyang nag-leave for her health then last year ilang beses lang namin siya nakita, binisita namin siya.

Last time nag-heart-to-heart talk kami sa faculty room then yun sabi ko sa kanya, "Ma'am alam niyo nung bago pa lang ako rito, sobrang thank you po kasi ang dami ko pong natutunan sa inyo tas never niyong pinaramdam na bobo ako." Kasi may mga ganun na seniors eh hahahaha! Naiyak ako nun sa sobrang appreciation.

Sabi niya, "Ha e nung nag-demo ka kaya andito ako nun, ang galing-galing mo," lalo akong naiyak kasi ang tagal kong hindi nakarinig ng ganung klaseng validation na alam kong TOTOO at meant talaga ng nagsabi. Lalo na sa point na 'to hindi ko na alam kung para pa ba sa akin ang pagtuturo. Para siyang nanay ko ganun. Lahat halos ng mga senior faculty members parang nanay ko na yung tingin ko sa kanila, kasama si Ms. SP saka Ma'am Jo. Ilang beses na kong umiyak sa kanila kasi sobrang bigat talaga ng nararamdaman ko.

Then siya naman nagkwento about sa mga anak niya, etc. then kung pano niya sinu-survive yung kanyang sakit. Sobrang tatag talaga ni mam, kahit na minsan may mga sinasabi siya na ayoko nang isipin kasi nalulungkot lang ako.

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Today, April 23, nag-message sa'kin si mam kasi magpapa-sub dapat siya kaso hindi na tuloy, tapos binigyan niya ako ng gift!!!! Grabe naiiyak talaga ako kasi narinig ni Lord yung prayers ko pero ang hindi ko inexpect ay kay Ma'am Lily pa manggagaling. Sabi pa ni maam e sana pwede raw ako mag-sub sa kanya, sabi ko opo mam, kailangan ko rin po yun eh haha. Noon talaga ako lagi yung sub nang sub sa department namin dahil kailangan ko talaga ng pera.

Pinapanalangin ko talaga na bigyan pa si Ma'am ng strength kasi iba yung pagiging blessing ni mam sa mga tao sa paligid niya. Nakaka-radiate yung tawa niya, yung mga hirit niya.

Taurus si mam! haaha

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Balang araw kapag ako naman yung may capacity, tutulong din ako sa kapwa ko kasi alam ko yung feeling ng walang-wala. Nakakaiyak na nakaka-frustrate. Kaya maraming salamat po sa inyo na tumutulong sa'kin at nagpapalakas ng loob ko.

Matapos ko lang talaga 'tong masters. Haha