#Look I'm not diagnosed as having ADHD

[markscherz]

I swear you would get along super with my previous evolutionary biol prof (Dr. Bulte) from Canada (CU). He loves turtles and I remember him as a kind, humble dude who resembled a french lumberjack of sorts. Does that sound Canadian enough?

Keep up the great blog! 🐸

I am sure we would get on swimmingly! Who doesn't love a good turtle—or a french lumberjack, for that matter‽ I spent some of my afternoon today reorganising a bit in our turtle shell collection at the museum, after returning a specimen that was recently used for a talk. Such fascinating and beautiful animals.

#most of the time I spend in the collections starts the same way #'oh I have an important thing to do in the collection' #*goes and does the thing* #'oh here's a problem I didn't know about or hadn't thought about recently #'I should probably do that at some point #'actually while I'm here…' #*does the other thing* #'oh cool I didn't know about this thing #'but we could really improve on it if we made this small change' #*makes the change for an hour* #Look I'm not diagnosed as having ADHD #but like #the signs are there I think #sorry tag ramble #answers by Mark #whenplantingforests #herpetology #about me #personal

[togekissies]

being an adult woman with adhd that was not diagnosed as a child fucking sucks. it took me like eight years to find a psych that would listen to me when i said i'm convinced i have, and once i did get officially diagnosed and got put on vyvanse (which works well for me!!) federal regulations on stimulants force me to see my psych each month just so i can tell them that everything is still good and they can go ok cool sending the refill to your pharmacy, see you next month.

it's fucking stupid. i hate it. my insurance gives me 90 days of literally every other medication i have, including my antidepressants, but am i allowed to get more than 30 days of another medication i have been on for nearly two years now and have been fine on??? no! fuck you!!

but by far the worst part is the psychs at the practice i go to seem to turn over once a year. so each year i get informed like the day of or day before my next appointment that the psych i've been seeing has left, and they can get me an appointment with another one usually like a month or two out. so each year i have to grit my teeth and beg for a single refill to be approved so i can make it to my first appointment with a new psych while i anxiously wait to see if i'm going to have to defend my adhd diagnosis to someone i have never met and who has all the power to decide they don't think i need it, no matter how much i tell them i do.

so anyway right now i'm killing time until i need to leave to go meet a new psych at a location that's twice as far as the usual branch i go to, and i hope to god she listens to me and is willing to have virtual appointments from now on because those are MUCH easier on me and my adhd brain and full time work schedule

#text please! #it's almost certainly going to be fine #but i lived my entire life being told there's no way i can have adhd since i was not diagnosed as a child #i'm so used to trying to convince people i do have it and it makes my life harder in a way that exacerbates my depression #like right now i'm wondering if i should bring my planner with me to my appointment #i would prefer to so i can write my new appointment in there right away #but what if this new psych thinks i don't need meds because i use a planner and therefore am organized??? #i'm fucking not! the planner is compensating for my brain! and i forget to look at it half the time anyway!!!

[iiigris]

hi y'all!!! @strawberryprism made this wonderfully cute artist thingy and I had to make mine immediately!! this style is way different than how I normally draw but it was sooo cute and a really refreshing change of pace :D

I'm very much still a baby to the fob fandom but I love it so very, very dearly and I'm really looking forward to being even more deranged with you all in the future <33

[ this is my main account btw,, my fob sideblog is @knifetrickkk ! ]

#eve draws #meet the fob artist #I have no idea how these colors look in the daylight but we'll see in the morning I guess LMAO #I should also mention that I don't have DIAGNOSED autsim. but I'm pretty sure i have it #it's either that or adhd or both but i'm pretttyyyy sure it's the tism #so that's why i included that flag lol

[official-rolli-und-rita]

Oh yeah about my psychiatrist appointment yesterday: i passed the test with flying colors, without even studying for it, and what does my psychiatrist give me as a reward? the bastard gave me autism. Fucking bullshit

#autism tag #still got the adhd test to do but i don't think i will be diagnosed tbh #i have all the symptoms byt that specific questionnaire looks like something for a 7 uear old hyperactive boy #not a 21 year old woman with severe productivity and concentration issues #still i'm happy to finally have my autism diagnosed!! #lifeblogging

[katya-goncharov]

i keep seeing really good job opportunities specifically meant for neurodivergent people, and i don't know if i'm allowed to apply if i'm not diagnosed :(

#i've seen literally two different really good internship opportunities for neurodivergent people in the last week #and both for dream jobs of mine that i never thought i'd be able to do exactly BECAUSE i'm neurodivergent #and i'm literally looking for a job right now #but also there's no way i'm gonna be able to get any diagnoses in time to apply for them. and people are probably annoyingly strict on that #so THAT sucks #literally i'm wishing i could fast-track a diagnosis for the adhd or autism that i 100% have in time to apply #but that ain't happening on the nhs

[elytrafemme]

a few days ago i had the epiphany of like, okay, i’m not kidding anybody here and the only people disagreeing with me are figments of past people who float around in my head. i have BPD. and it would take a major fucking overhaul of my entire life and the way that i have operated for seventeen years to say any different. so instead of me saying BPD with fifteen asterisks specifying i am not technically sure and this is medically recognized but not professionally diagnosed etc etc let me just say i have it.

and then now i’m like oh God but what if i don’t have it

#nightmare.personal #like at this point i think the only thing that would convince me is to have a professional say it #but my therapist literally will not diagnose me (for several reasons which are all incredibly valid) and i am not seeing another person #like i am lucky enough that i have a therapist that i can scream at for a session and then the next time talk about my last date or whatever #i don't want to have this label put on me because that's going to fuck up so much about my life #but i am literally never going to be able to get rid of that doubt that's telling me nobody thinks you have BPD you're lying to yourself #and it's like! that's not unreasonable for people to think! i know that i'm 17 and that's young for a diagnosis! #and maybe i'm biased because people have told me to look into BPD because of my behaviors since i was 13 #but i've watched testimonial videos and spent hours in forums and talked to people diagnosed with BPD and read articles about it #and i've studied the symptoms like the back of my fucking hand and i've tracked my behaviors and i've done EVERYTHING #and i've considered EVERY other option i've considered: autism ptsd bipolar adhd. to name a few #and NONE of them explained this the ONLY thing that makes sense is bpd #not even other personality disorders explain it it's just this one #and i know people think that you shouldn't seek labels but. i have been looking for a community for so long #and now i think i have one. but i still feel like i don't actually have it #and that everyone thinks i'm lying but just isn't saying anything yet

[milozephir]

you know what's a weird feeling? looking at the symptoms of ADHD in adults, seeing a list like this:

and having to come to terms with the fact that not everyone feels like this all the time???? are there people out there who don't have these feelings constantly? or even just sometimes? how?

#i'm not diagnosed with ADHD btw #i just looked it up cause of a video #on a lark #and i'm not able to get tested even if i wanted to #but like... are there people who don't have these? is having these feelings not typical? #i'm confused #ADHD #neurotypical #neurodivergent #like i'm legitimately asking. cause i've never considered myself as even possibly having ADHD but these are all things i have or have had.

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#a little bit of a happy rant... (can rants be happy? if not i don't know the word then lol) #a while ago when i was deep diving into autism research because i'm 98% sure i'm autistic #i told my mom this and i also told her i wanted to go see a psychiatrist to get diagnosed #bad idea cause my mom is the type of person who thinks ''everyone is a little autistic'' which is stupid but anyways she didn't believe me #she thinks putting labels on things is bad and we shouldn't do it #but this is not a fun label... this is an actual diagnosis!! #i digress. the point is that i stoped talking about it because i don't have the energy or desire to try to convince my mother #that i know what goes on inside my brain. #but my brother! My brother is a sweetheart #he seems like he doesn't give a shit about anything but every now and then he will drop the cutest most affirming comments #(he did that when i came out as trans too) #i'm sure my brother has adhd if not autism or possibly both so maybe he has looked it up before or at least understands it better #but like for christmas he wanted to get me a weighted blanket because i'm always talking about how i need preassure and weight on me #and also that i like rocking myself to sleep (i need one of those automatic rocking chairs for babies but like adult size) #anyways he aknowledges (let's pretend i can spell that word) what i said and my suspicions of autism #today the noise of a tiny bit of air escaping from a badly close bottle lid was annoying me #i wasn't in the room i may add #when i complained my mom was like ''damn! that hearing!'' or somthing like that #and my brother. very casually said ''it's the autism'' which made me so fucking happy that is the first time someone fucking believes me! #but then my mom went ''naaah there's no autism here'' (or somthing amongst those lines) which took my excitement aways #but anyways i love my brother and his casual support <3 #angel talks #personal

[bombshellsandbluebells]

me: oh man it’s late I should go take out my contacts and get ready for bed

me: leaves room with the intention of going to the bathroom. enters kitchen. sees chips. fails to have any self control and eats chips at 2 in the morning

brain: ok great, mission accomplished. go back to your room

me: goes back to scrolling on tumblr

me, 10 minutes later: ....wait a minute

truly it’s amazing it took me 26 years to figure out I might have ADHD

#funny story when i self diagnosed myself bc something i saw on tumblr was way too relatable and i went on an internet deep dive and #everything started clicking it was like this Huge Revelation. Life Changing. It felt Big #so i see my then boyfriend that night and I'm like #very seriously say so I've been looking into stuff....and I don't know for sure but it makes sense....I think I have ADHD #and my then boyfriend goes 'yeah no shit. we both do.' and i still think that is the funniest response he could have had #he was like yeah??? that's why we're so similar??? you didn't know that?? #i was like if you knew that you could have shared with the class ok

[rainbow-fairylandsystem]

my friend with autism keeps sending me articles and tests about autism (which i also might have), and i appreciate the gesture but. my plate is so full with DID and all the other shit i’m diagnosed with. i can’t start looking at even more stuff

#i'm diagnosed with like #adhd dyscalculia ocd ptsd panic disorder and insomnia #thats not to mention all the physical shit too #i acknowledge that i probably have autism and i have looked into it #but i just can't dive deep #i don't have the brain power

[electrosquash]

I feel more and more like i've been severely misdiagnosed

#and failed by the youth welfare system but that's a given lmao fuck the FDP #fun fact i've been diagnosed every single personality disorder #because i was desperate for money (thanks Hartz4 sanctions) #and the postgrads were desperate for test subjects for their PhD dissertations (thanks societal Dr. expectation on medicine students) #so they just diagnosed me on the fly. but did anyone ever think of looking in the autism direction? nah #every single symptom i'm having can surely be explained by ICD10 F60.something (they even made some up lol) #the only one i agree with is bpd though #i keep relating to autism posts here but then i remember i don't qualify for all aspects #and only because tumblr labels them all autism/adhd doesn't mean those experiences don't exist in other neurodivergencies (bc there's more) #but then again i don't qualify for all aspects for bpd either but since that's the lazy cop-out diagnosis i guess it was enough lol #i guess i'm just unfathomable like that #i think i should allow myself to relate to experiences more than diagnosises. the latter model has failed me anyway #personal

[akuma-homura]

tbh I get and understand that there needs to be more human / not robot / not alien / not non-human autistic/nd/aro/ace/ect. characters

there's an implication there of dehumanizing esp. autistic folk with how much that kind of coding happens

however

i continue to make my android characters and eldritch characters and such whi are definitely at least SOME flavor of neurodivergent, whether autistic or not, many who are somwhere along the ace spectrum, ect ect ect ect

because that is what I like the most and am most interested in and actually like wheezes as well as my own feelings about connecting to nonhumanity ect ect ect

though also to be fair, when it comes to if a character is nd or autistic or not, I never purposefully do it? They all just turn out that way because of My Me WHEEZES

And then it gets to a point where it's a bit undeniable. Like with Soleil.

#[ ;text ] #i do feel i'm... on a thin line there bc i'm not like. actually diagnosed with anything #was kind of ignored about it when younger #and now that i'm older and read and see peoples experiences and researched it i'm like ' #OH........' #but i'm poor and no money to get evaluated so. #i mean mate i don't even have health insurance #i'm like 98% sure i'm autistic /and/ adhd though #the remaining 2% is more if it IS both or just one #but the more i look and actually realize how i am the more i'm. yeah gfdgGFDSFVBG #the post and tags veered off into two only tangetially related directions whoops

[albonium]

i have so much time off compared to what my life was like 2 weeks ago idk what to do with it to the point i have huge fomo i fear that i'm not enjoying it enough which leads to me not doing anything and making things worse

#i know i'm very priviledged etc to literally not have a job anymore (unless they take me back or i find something else in the meantime) and #i get to worry about not having enough fun during my unemployment period #i know #also it would be nice if i could concentrate for more than 5 minutes and write fucking useless cover letters #bc there's job offers for what i do rn and i just don't apply bc i can't write cover letters to save my life #even through i've done it before #i've written great letters that got me one of the best spot for my apprenticeship a couple of years ago #also i have great recommandations so i just ?????? should do something anything #but i can't !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and im scared of fucking up bc as i feared i was diagnosed with adhd last month and i should be taking appointments with a special kind of #therapist to work on ways to deal with it #the psychiatrist said i could take a treatment too but idk i want to try without it first #BUT I CANT FIND A SPECIALIST THAT DEALS WITH ADULTS #and taht's when i actually remember to look for one #i ddin't do much for myself recently my grandpa is in the hospital and my grandma is alone at home needing 24/7 care but she didn't want an #so i had to arrange for someone coming over and getting it paid for with a social worker etc #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah #also my parents are moving out of the house i grew up in lol

[agentwashingcat]

in the dnd group chat I was like “I can usually pick up what Miles and Kerry are putting down and I don’t know why but I usually understand what they’re trying to say even if it’s subtle and most people won’t necessarily notice it” and my girlfriend went “babe I think you’re picking up their adhd vibe”

so I was diagnosed adhd by rwby lmao

#out of mind #for legal reasons this is a joke #I really do probably have adhd but getting diagnosed as an adult afab is 🙃 #I also have anxiety which means I don't generally get the time blindness but only because I'm hyper vigilante about it instead lmao #although I've been known to look down at a video game and look back up 5 hours later feeling like no time has passed lmao #I also use the tv as a metric for time like I just put on adult swim at night so it's like oh rick and morty it's 11:30 I need to start #winding down #the amount of tags on this post is only proving my adhd case lmao

[lennydavillain]

I'm going back to being in denial about having autism /hj. It's been great guys.

#text #text post #autism #no I seriously don't think I have it anymore #i've considered the symptoms and realised #once again #that everything that makes me look autistic could very easily be explained by my other conditions #you know #the exact same thing i said before i looked at myself and told myself that I was autistic #for basically no reason other than that I looked like I was autistic #but i really don't think i am autistic anymore #i don't think anymore #NOT I'm not autistic anymore #it may have been ambiguous #just clearing that up #i don't think anymore that i've ever been autistic #and i think my autism-like symptoms are only symptoms of adhd ocd and bpd #i do not have money for a professional to tell me this nor do i trust them to diagnose me with anything #so unfortunately i'm stuck with unofficial self-diagnoses #for everything except the adhd #that one's official

[medicinemane]

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#that by the way is why I'll never bother looking into if I'm autistic or have ADHD #there's... there's sure a lot of stuff there that sounds familiar #but like... what would I get with a diagnosis? #medical bias and potential discrimination from various groups and entities; same as everyone gets out of it (which is fucking bullshit) #what do I gain? #well... I'm not willing to take the deal with the devil of disability cause I've got a house and I'd like to be allowed to make money #what they'd offer me would help but not enough to compensate what I'd lose #and I have no intention of taking ADHD medication cause... I'm so fucking close to making stuff work #rather work on figuring out how to accommodate myself rather than deal with the hassle of medication #like my insomnia makes it so even antibiotics are a pain to deal with for a week #I don't want to deal with taking a med; especially when then I have side effects to deal with; not when I've almost got things worked out #this isn't anti medication; I'm all for people taking what helps them; I just don't think it would help me #as in; even if I have ADHD and these meds fit my biology perfectly I don't think they'd help more than the downsides they'd bring #(like having to pay for them and get ahold of them when I'm 50 miles from a pharmacy) #so no disability and no meds cause I turn both of those things down #...so... what benefit do I get from a diagnosis other than an existential one of getting to know? #far as I see it's nothing; and like... gotta accommodate myself either way; I can forgo closure in return for no dealing with bullshit #it's wrong that those diagnoses bring bullshit down on people; it's sick frankly #but it's also a fact and I don't need to deal with it #it won't get me any damn help; so I'm better off just continuing to slowly try and sort shit out myself