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phlyaros · 7 months

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need more on that monster attracted to death benry au STAT. it's so good actually

Firefox fucking crashed while I was typing this the first time im going to kill god. Tysm but god typing all this out again WOOF.

Okay so it starts here with “I use au's and shipping to explore concepts/characterization that I feel is overlooked/unexplored in canon” and Benry already has a lot of associations with death to me (the skeletons, his explicit dying whereas everyone else has other explanations, his 'song of death', “there are no predetermined deaths”, him being a inscrutable and inevitable force that is only your enemy if you make him so)

this is a horror-aligned thing so uh body horror and other violence under the cut

I have other stories with benry that explore his relationship with death as well, this is just the one where Benry understands how fucking bad it is for Gordon in the first place and it's more of an interpersonal conflict than one of misunderstandings. They still do misunderstand each other but like.

Anyways most of the basic stuff also goes for how I generally interpret Benry; he's a simulacrum of human life basically. He's always been dead, he's never been dead, he's always been alive and he's currently living. I made a thing a while back out of cut up wiki pages to try and explain what I think of him better but never got around to prettying it up.

Anyways. He's something like that one interpretation of a changeling to me; something that's usurped the body and eaten it from the inside out, until all that's left is him. Partially this is a plural thing to me. Old host chipped away over time until it's something else entirely. Whoever he was before doesn't exist anymore. There is only Benry. (what is benry? well, he is.)

And so uh, Deathry specifically is the horse edition of this. He actually looks human most of the time but it's fun to draw him as silly little beasts. Deathry as established is drawn to death; he feeds from this somehow (the horror hunger enjoyer in me said so) but i'm not sure yet if it's a physical sort of eating or more of an energy-based one. Leaning to both, like a vampire.

I tried making him as compatible with canon as possible on the mechanical level at first. Something that's drawn to the doomed and the damned? Well, we all know what the rescas was like. I think he's just so desensitized to death that he does understand the gravity of it on a deeper level but nobody cared when HE died so why bother.

The story itself isn't compatible though because I was listening to my fucked up and evil music and thought to myself “well if two guys were out hiking alone in the woods and one tried to kill the other with an axe would that be fucked up or what” and now that's thoroughly lodged in my head. and uhhhh the personal drama of it all.

Listen. I am a gay man. I think about frenrey and think about them choking each other to death and I giggle and swing my feet. I love when they are violence and killing.

But also I am a gay man and thinking about a literal embodiment of the condition of death sitting in a tent as the guy he personally cut the arm off of (yes, him, personally!) is slowly succumbing to the cold; wrapping Gordon in his jacket, quietly laying on top of Gordon as the weather gets worse through the night, unsure of what else he can do... comparing Gordon's blackened frostbitten fingers interlaced with his own skeletal black hands, Gordon's slowly crawling pulse to his maybe one heartbeat a minute, Gordon's once loud and comprehensive speech slowly descending to confused muttering, becoming more like him. More like dead. The rituals are intricate okay.

And uh something that makes me crazy is that Benry in canon was explicitly the thing that was holding the rift between worlds open and he didn't even. Notice. With Deathry that sheer power manifests as freak weather events, flocks of birds dropping dead mid-flight, interrupting radio signals, making compasses go crazy. That sort of shit.

Deathry also takes pictures in places he ends up. Gordon is fucking flabbergasted at the underwater caves, dive bells from the outside, impossible angles on known landmarks, but it makes sense to him later. Gordon's probably more riled up by all the random shit Benry's collected over the years - what do you mean you don't want this coat covered in decomp?? aren't you cold??

Anyway. Au is also a fun excuse to think about frenrey shenanigans. Turns up in a hospital after being missing for 3 months raving about a guy who defies all physics with wounds that are only a few days old. Thinks about him for the next month until he randomly shows the fuck up with photos of Gordon bleeding in the snow with benry posed with the axe in front of him like they're having a fun girls night out

#phlyaros' nonsense #asks #deathry #merc's art #hlvrai #benry

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cidnangarlond · 9 months

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dreamt about a fictional and, inexplicably, australian, drama that was bookended with this one character's line of "tess, I need you" being genuinely so gutting that even though it isn't real it's going to haunt me. like this was kind of a soap opera so it's going on over the course of years too and the first time it's because this girl and the two were teens at the time this one girl starts freaking out and having a nosebleed and says "tess, I need you" before collapsing and the tess in question helps her out. and now it's years later and there's some garden party or otherwise big party in a big backyard garden and they're adults now and the nosebleed girl from before is a nurse and a mom and she's in pink scrubs and looks cute and just freezes up all of a sudden and looks at tess and she looks kind of sad but she's smiling and says "tess, I need you" before she locks up and falls to the ground and starts rolling down the hill a little and tess who's holding this woman's baby also for some reason just locked up and fell down and rolled for a moment too As She's Holding The Baby but the baby is fine and she hands the baby off and goes up to tess and is like "NO you're NOT going to leave me like this" and she can't find a pulse or anything she just. died. abruptly. also when I say hill I mean like tiny slope it's a background the areas a bit flat it's nothing crazy. and the woman is collecting grass samples saying it may have been an asthma thing it could have been pollen or an allergy. and she's just so distraught over tess dying and when she's on this ship or ferry going somewhere another character tells her this story about how tess managed to essentially tokyo drift a ship because of some weird traffic jam on a new york river and the character is crying as she tells this story and says at the end "don't look any of that up because it's completely false I made it up" she just wanted to the character to smile you know not be so doom and gloom unfortunately it doesn't work and the lady storms off and she runs away to some work farm or labor job with her male love interest immediately after it was wild. but like. brooooo oh my god. how "tess. I need you" was said that one last time. gut wrenching. agonizing. like she knew she was about to die made one final plea to tess. good fucking god. and then I dreamt about being on a train being held hostage by a guy with large knives and guns who was intent on murdering everyone or at least a bunch of people and when a nascar driver there were A LOT of them there and in their driving suits too one of was speaking to me in a foreign language because for context I was in another country and he just kind of assumed I was From There and I was like you can speak in english it's okay just horribly desensitized to what has happened he tried asking something and I was like no yeah that guy is why everything bad is happening so uh. call someone maybe when you're off the train idc genuinely I was Fucked Up it was bad things were dire. hope I survived 👍🏻

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that-was-anticlimactic · 2 years

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hello corey :] i am very interested to see what you wrote for the response so you can answer this w it if you'd like!!

hi olly and @gayfertilitygoddess and @matcherry and @thefirstanomally :) thank you sm for indulging me i was v proud of this and have many feelings!!! also again, lowkey say some things bout s.t but it's more at the writers than the actual show because i have. Feelings. about the s.t writers lol okay so anyways- wait also i said that it makes me come out feeling heavy and :/// just because so much of media these days is so heavy and it’s just one of those shows that makes me anxious, but that’s also just me and my opinion and i realize that not everyone thinks that!

Respond: Add one characteristic to the list. Add one generalization to the list.

I guess, I kind of want to start this section by saying that I think that there is so much worth and importance in reading or watching things made for children - and yes I am going to include watching in there because children's television is, in my opinion, so much like children's literature. A characteristic that I would say applies to children's lit is that it's safe. And there are a lot of things that I could mean when I say that, but it was the first way to describe what I'm feeling that popped into my head. Something that is so important about children's lit and media in these days and ages is that it's *usually* not playing into this... horrific set up or model that almost anything "enjoyable" is expected to follow these days. What do I mean by that? Well, I'm going to talk about My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic because 1. there's worth to and meaning in that and 2. I honestly count and consider mlp as children's lit. If you look at the media that is produced nowadays, there is so much freaking emphasis on romance or sex or drugs or just violence violence violence. And this isn't me saying "oh, sex bad something something must look down upon those things". Like, I do think that watching people have sex on screen or reading about it is inappropriate for children specifically, but that's besides the point. None of those things are inherently bad in what we read and watch, but when it becomes the norm (like it is) and everything is expected to be this constant strain of all this negativity and violence and heavy topics... the world is already so heavy - too heavy - and the more we force this into what we consume, the worse we all get and the more our mindset gets skewed.

The thing about children's lit and media is that it doesn't include those things, and we've been so desensitized to and forced to love those things that we see something that strays from this formula and we instantly think it's bad. Childish. Not worth our time. In believing this, people are missing out. Children are so easily shaped and young and they will believe what they see or hear. That's the thing about mlp and one of the things that makes it so incredible to me - it isn't forcing romantic expectations onto anyone, it isn't about violence... it actually teaches children while still being enjoyable, age appropriate, and something for all ages. My parents got divorced my junior year of high school, and that was probably the worst year of my life - I was miserable, I was depressed beyond belief, I was trying so hard to fix everything while making sure my younger sister (who was spiraling in all the ways that I wasn't) was okay... and one of the only things that got me through it, that made me see more clearly, was mlp. Season eight episode six: Surf and / or Turf. The message being:

“But you're more than just where you're from or who you live with. We love you because you're you, no matter where you choose to be. Something we forgot to add that both places have – family and friends who love you.”

And no one had ever told me that before. That episode was a metaphor for divorce - and even better, they released an episode about divorce once more in season nine (though they tackled a different aspect of divorce). mlp has talked about death (Tanks for the Memories), racism / segregation (School Raze pt 1 & 2), and so many other things that almost no "adult" show could tackle without making it heavy and hopeless and just... make you walk away feeling depressed and like you hate yourself. Because that's the thing: children's lit and media doesn't do that! And if it does, then it may not be in the right genre. Now, I'm not saying that all media for children needs to teach them about friendship (even though mlp does do that in a truly incredible way that has changed my life and my viewpoints and who I am as a person since 2013), but it is safe for kids. It doesn't make them feeling the crushing weight of the world is terrible I'm a bad person ahhhhhh. And they can still talk about hard topics, even without the lenses of colorful ponies. Because children's books and media can be about Jackie Robinson and about the Holocaust and about the mistreatment of [any marginalized population], and they do it with tact and with age appropriateness and while giving you hope without sugar coating things. They teach you without you realizing it (whether it's blatant "Dear Princess Celestia, today I learned..." or subtle "If you don't take care of yourself, you can't take care of anypony else") because they stick with you. It's so hard to find things these days that don't depress you and press down harder and harder on the unbearable weight that's already on our shoulders... but, actually, it isn't. Everyone just refuses to see it because it's made for children. As in... age appropriate for children. People see the title "My Little Pony" and dismiss it and tell me that it's childish and stupid solely because they heard the title and decided only five year old girls should watch something with a title like that. It's ignorance, and we as a society are trained to be ignorant because those in power want to profit off of it.

People watch Stranger Things because they like the actors or because it's "adult" and because it has that formula that we've been trained to consider "good", and as the first article suggests, there is no good, it's what we choose, like, or are manipulated into believing. We're supposed to think that Stranger Things is good because it's "for older people" and because "the actors are cool" and the premise is cool, so we ignore this forced emphasis on romantic relationships and the unbearable heaviness that makes us come out feeling worse. We don't even realize that the people creating it just want money, because if they didn't, they wouldn't keep killing off [redacted, sorry don't wanna accidentally spoil lol] or they wouldn't keep dragging the show out and making two hour long episodes. And I don't say this just because I don't really like the show, I say this because I see this formula in almost any life action show or "adult" show or "adult" book that's popular. And that's why they're popular. There's nothing wrong with liking them, but they always don't treat us with love the way that children's books and shows do because they care more about popularity, appeasing fans (which mlp did not or they would've never made the icon that is Fame and Misfortune), or how much money they can make regardless of whether or not they still care about the show they created. Hm. This is kind of long. Like, I don't regret what I said, and I may have come across kind of mean when I mentioned Stranger Things, but it was simply the first popular show that I thought of as my mind raced and I typed this. I promise I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad for liking that show, it's just also not my kind of show and I am willing to admit that bias. I could've said that about so many shows, this was just the first that came to mind. What I'm saying is that there's nothing wrong with liking things that aren't inherently childish in any sense, but there is a beauty and good in watching something younger than us and seeing its worth and seeing it as more than something for kids or "too young for your age". We can learn a lot and we can do so without the senseless or excessive violence (and this isn't me saying that violence is inherently bad and senseless in books or media, it just gets that way once the creators stop caring) or the painfully forced romantic relationships. And that's why I call it safe. Maybe even the word passionate fits here because that's what I tend to see (again, just in my experience with children's books and media). Maybe that doesn't make sense, but it does to me and it feels right to me. This may be an anticlimactic end to an incredibly passionate 1.4k words of excessive answer, but as for generalizations, I'm sure I got that somewhere in there. I could also add something here about a generalization being that picture books and cartoons get a worse rep in the field of "children's media is bad lol" because apparently being drawn or animated makes something inherently bad? But that will make this even longer and I am so sorry Dr. J & co. this is so long I just have feelings😭

#olly tag #thank you #this was v kind of you #i'm have feelings and i feel like no one will read or respond to mine because it is SO long which like i don't blame them haha #i have many Feelings.#i hope this is at least Semi enjoyable uhygtfgyhui #corey rambles:)

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maxellminidisc · 1 year

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People really get on here and say "whatever consenting adults do with adults behind closed doors is their business" every time someone brings up how harmful certain kinks are, how communities/cliques keep popping up where being a freak isn't a fun freak but a legit predator or groomer is protected/supported, or when people make insidious efforts to get horrible shit labeled as a kink to normalize it to others, especially people vulnerable to falling victim to some of these things and it's so fucking nasty and pathetic an argument.

Not to mention the said hypothetical adults in question are like: *fetishizing and normalizing racism with each other*, *fetishizing and normalizing incest with each other*, *fetishizing and normalizing pedophilia with each other* *fetishizing, normalizing, and possibly re-traumatizing one another* and like you guys genuinely don't think that needs questioning or you think it's bad that we're questioning this in a bigger more public way for people doing this shit to do some self reflection and for the rest of us to want to express extreme discomfort and concern for how environments that foster harmful sexual practices and opinions are truly dangerous?

Do you not realize that you've absolutely bought in to the very normalization and desensitization these people want by not bothering to question shit or to make excuses and arguments for them? Plus that shit isn't private or "behind closed doors" anymore when you got TONS of people across social media platforms being incredibly loud, nasty, and wrong about truly harmful things to an audience that absolutely can and does contain people who are vulnerable to said shit.

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patbwaifs · 11 months

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i would say i'm at one extreme or the other, but i think i'm just the type of person to get locked into projects and ideas to the point of forgetting to eat or drink but feeling like i can't breathe if i'm not working on said project. From this Connor fan art to writing legal documents,

I think I'm just like this

a person of extremes - I've always seen autism as a condition of extremes. You're extremely sensitive or desensitized to any given condition. You hone in on certain things and everything else just doesn't exist.

Lately I haven't guilted myself for things.

I've been watching the Decharts' first playthrough of Detroit: Become Human and it'll make me so nervous. It took me a bit to realize that I keep waiting for something to go wrong. Like just out of the corner of my eye, someone's gonna get in trouble, someone's gonna get pissed. Sometimes I close my eyes and I just hear screaming. But it's just people playing a video game and being normal and positive. The real way I should say this is people expressing emotions in a normal way but that idea kinda suffocates me? Or thinking about how other people act pushes me into "not feeling like a real person territory" because I don't know how I act or how I feel.

i just kinda feel bad rn

I want to watch their Night in the Woods playthrough. I just finished the Bea route when I was in Kentucky and when Mae finally told Bea why she left college, I h

i can feel the blood leave my fingers

it's like each of my atoms are a separate entity from the other

Things just don't seem real.

I start speech therapy again in 7 hours and I have a new clinician and I'm scared.

My fixation on Connor is a ploy to both interact with the issues that I can't handle while also being another level of separation from it. My fixation on most things are like that. Emotional blindness, facial blindness, they just don't seem like they're real. I'm trying to look into a blindspot.

Why does trying to talk about the emotions someone else experienced feel like a crime.

Why do I want to talk about it?

I can see the words there, but if I try to type them out -

ugh.

I get a headache.

I can't let the words exist on a screen where someone else will see them. And it's not even about anything.

Or I say that last part defensively.

When Kara and Alice escaped from Todd and Amelia cried I wanted to cry - I could understand why she was crying. I think I understood why it made me want to cry.

The few times I looked at someone and really understood what they were feeling - I could count on one hand. My best friend's face as she looked up at with me a depth of anxiety and worry, to a magnitude I could both comprehend and could never describe is a moment I'll never forget.

In those moments where I understood what someone was feeling (even if we can never truly understand why) everything felt real - and grounded - and makes a type of sense that I only want to call weird because it's so rare to me.

It just occurred to me that I'm describing empathy.

I guess I was caught off guard when I was moving books around last Sunday and had a surprise moment of empathy while listening to a video game stream. With a stranger. From 5 years ago. time isn't real! And I feel like I get in trouble if anyone finds out!!!!

I have always been called a grounding type of person - to the point where I use it when people come to me in distress. But I don't talk about why I think I'm "so grounding." This space between someone in complete disarray and my understanding of it becomes a paradoxical anchor for them. Because I don't react. I don't freak out - because I don't understand what I'm seeing.

I understand that they're feeling - but I don't understand. I can catch that first moment to see what does the hysterically sobbing person need (whether it's normalcy, grounding, to lean into the pain... and as long as I'm relatively fine myself).

But I don't get why any of it is happening. What comes out of their or my mouth. None of it feels like it's happening.

When she cried, I wanted to cry. And it was another moment where things felt real.

#tw ed implied #night in the woods spoiler #nitw spoilers #vent #i guess?#i always say im going to bed but then i dont #and i'm trying not to turn back on my decision to have this exist where someone else can see it...#augh my head ahhh #journal

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that-bajan-kid · 4 years

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Boku No Hero Academia Chapter 281 SPOILERS

(I don't think my heart is built to be thrown around like this)

Wait does that mean Aizawa can't see him? ARE THEY SEPERATED FROM GRAN TORINO?!?!?! Shigaraki's body looks like it's breaking apart and, again, I don't know how to feel about that.

I'd be more at ease if I knew who was going Plus Ultra. I've decided how to feel about Shigaraki's state and it's concern for his and everyone else's well being. But right now it's mostly his.

Shiggy flashes back to that bitch that left him on the street and it still pisses me off that not a single soul stopped to help him.

Shiggy says that the filth turns into rot, which turns into decay.

So he's basically blaming the heroes for coddling society into a false sense of safety and an over dependents on heroes. As a result, the people who are left behind, the ones who really needs saving like he did, are ignored and cast out. Those people are left with no other choice but to retaliate and cause destruction.

As deranged and insane his rantingbmust sound, he's not entirely wrong. His whole situation could have been avoided had the people around him not been so over dependent on heroes and had actually reached out to help him. I mean, none of them even bothered to call the police. HOW ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO KNOW SOMEONE NEEDS HELP IF YOU DON'T FUCKING CALL- no. I'm not gonna rant about this. Aw man the anger is coming back.

Am I an idiot or was his arm always attached to his body? Whatever, not important right now. What is important is how fucking scary Shigaraki looks here. I am very concerned for his well being. I want the heroes to win but not if that means Shiggy dies.

Endeavour launches a butt tonne of fire at him saying he's already dead but Shiggy manages to dodge.

Endeavour is wondering how the he'll Shiggy is even moving rn while Gran Torino pins Shiggy to the ground. GT is thinking about how Endeavour's fire power has dropped tremendously, which obviously means he's overheating and should very much not be fighting right now.

GT is thinking about how Shigaraki should also not be able to move when said person spins around and crushes his leg.

OH SHIT HE'S GONNA KILL HIM ISN'T HE??? In front of everyone. Oh no. That face looks alot like the one he made when he killed his dad.

Oh fuck he's having a flashback. He really is gonna die. It's Nana giving Kotoro away with GT lurking on a nearby rooftop.

Nana explains that she basically removed any evidence of him being her son and her speech bubbles go from straight to incredibly wobbly the more she talks about him all while Kotoro's words echo in the background.

Present day GT is on the ground in obvious pain and he thinks "Shimura, our decision--". Does that mean he had a say in what happened to Kotoro? Or does he mean her decision to give him away and his decision to stay away?

He is beyond dead. Huh. I thought I'd be more emotional about it. Oh well.

(Edit: I just realised All Might probably saw his old sensei get crushed.)

Giving Kotoro away really tore Nana apart. All that heartache and AFO still managed to fuck with her family.

OK NOW I'M FEELING EMOTIONAL. OH MY GOD I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT MIDORIYA. Don't waste your time Endeavour, he's not listening to anyone anymore. Here comes the tears. Fuck that was a really delayed reaction.

HORIKOSHI WE FUCKING TALKED ABOUT THIS I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD DONOTFUCKINGTOUCHHIM

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSHJDIDJWODJSOENDOWNODDNWODNDONWDONEODNEJWNDIWNDODN

Oh my heart. Fucking fuck. I swear this manga is gonna kill me. I completely forgot about her too. My respect for her just rose exponentially. Shit. He just stabbed her with something. OH NO. Please don't tell me.

Midoriya tackles Shigaraki and yells that he will never forgive him and Shigaraki responds with he can't forgive any of them.

Izuku just took an elbow to the stomach and spit out way too much blood for my liking. Izuku turns all his rage into power and really lets Black Whip loose. Endeavour gears up for another attack. Something's wrong I can feel it.

Is that a knife or the bullets? He's reaching into his pockets rn so is he only just now taking them out? Endeavour is gonna give himself heatstroke.

Fuck.

WHO THE FUCK IS THAT SPYING ON AIZAWA?!?! AND WHY IS THERE A FLASHBACK TO ERI CLAUSE?!?!?

This manga is not good for my heart. Izuku just saw his previous mentor get squished. That can't be good for his mental health. And yeah Katsuki barely knew him but he still just saw someone die. Everyone is going to need a therapist after this.

I don't know why it took me so long to react to GT's death. I was ready to freak out about and then it was like all the emotion left me. Am I becoming desensitized to all this violence and death? That can't be right, only two people are confirmed dead. Maybe Twice just took everything out of me.

I feel bad for Nana. She tried her best but in the end it was all for nothing.

Aight, imma head out and try to come down from my current adrenalin high.

Until next time.

#boku no hero academia #boku no hero academia spoilers #bnha #bnha spoilers #bnha manga #bnha manga spoilers #bnha 281 #rip gran torino

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zimanddibdiary · 4 years

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DIB: >ENTER THE CORNMAZE!

Dib guides himself and his alien companion towards the maze as the line moves forward. He's very aware of how uncomfortable Zim is with the closeness of other 'stinky' humanoids by the tight pressure against his arm but he’s also willing to forgive it. 'I did offer my arm...' the human muses, it was more beneficial to the both of them. They've certainly been into more interesting situations in the past to say the least.

The entrance is somewhat inviting, the bright flickering of artificial light is better than most entrances in the area so Zim isn't too specious of what could be around as they finally enter. The alien is oddly quiet however and when Dib glances down to do a little mental check on the smaller of the two, he's not surprised to find the Irken scanning the area viciously with his eyes, but the simple act of him clinging to the human's arm is very, very new, at least he’s able to match the human’s steps.

The walls are made of thick straw or hay, basically harmless except for the various props hanging off them. Giant wads of spider webs, ominous red eyes from who knows what, scarecrows covered in blood nailed to wooden crosses, decaying prosthetic bodies scatted about, Dib is more or less desensitized to all the visuals but the experience never gets old.

As they walk, the screams of real and recorded humans alone are more than enough to make Zim jump and cling to Dib, who is only becoming more excited by it all, Dib is positive he thrives under the idea of not only being in danger, but being surrounded by the supernatural; good or bad. Zim not so much, destruction is more his thing so long as it's him causing it. Dib knows Zim well enough to make the conclusion the alien is taking in the new environment so intently, it makes him far more easy to read. He looks freaked out for sure and if he hadn't had his costume, Dib's willing to bet the alien would look even more freaked out.

Now that Dib thinks about it, this is the first time he has someone cling to him as he walks. It's mind-blowing enough that that person is Zim yet, even more so to the fact that Zim is still alarmingly quiet. Although, nothing has happened, Dib still feels the urge to ask how Zim is doing and the alien retorts courtly with a 'shut your noise-hole human', obviously not impressed.

“C'mon Zim, you're taking all this way too seriously.” Dib tried to lighted the Irken up as they slowly move through the path, the sounds of their footing is almost drowned out by the creepy music blasting. “It's not that bad, it's all fake remember.”

“Fake or not! It's horrible! Repulsive! How can you stand to expose yourself to this garbage! My exquisite senses are being tarnished by every second of this!” Zim says angrily, but continues his semi-vice grip on the human's arm. Dib couldn't help but laugh, that's more like the alien he knew.

“What can I say? I'm a sucker for this stuff.” Dib says wholeheartedly as he keeps his eyes out for any pop-up artists, the best he could do in order to ‘protect’ the alien is detect when someone wants to scare him, he looks like the easiest target in the maze, actually, he is most likely the easiest target within the entire amusement park.

The human then gets distracted by the alien pushing into him further, a nervous noise coming from his throat. He looked over to see the Irken avoiding the rotting hands positioned in a grabbing motion coming out from the giant wall hay stacks. Dib shakes his head in amusement.

'So far so good' Dib thinks casually as the screams of other humans who have been frightened sound off every so often, the flickering lights of white and red mixing everywhere. For a mili-second, Dib debated if flattering the alien would help him relax more but just as fast as the thought came, he pushes it away. This truce must be affecting him a little too much.

“Dib, the path is becoming wider!” Zim comments urgently. “is there an escape route here somewhere?” Dib can feel every move Zim makes against his arm as he moves his head out in search for said escape route.

Dib looks to confirm that yeah, the path is growing more spacious, but only to give the people a choice; one path essentially continues onto the one you're already taking, looking similar in form, if not darker and more narrow. While the other path leads you upwards toward a more open area with a decent amount of trees; a forest. Immediately Dib knew they can't go that way; that's when they chase you until you find an exit out there somewhere. The chances of losing Zim is much higher that way.

“Not anywhere near here Zim, let's take this path-” Dib pushes towards the more narrow path and Zim pushes back.

“I am not suffering through another horrendously cramped area again Dib-filth. Take Zim the other way!” The alien demands, looking up at the human for the first time since they entered the place. Dib has to admit, the look Zim is giving him is rather charming, it sort of makes him easier to give in to; he’s determined yet scared out of his little Irken mind. Zim’s vulnerability (and clinginess!) only adding to the sudden appeal, making it oddly becoming of the Invader.

OPTIONS:

>>LISTEN TO ZIM’S DEMANDS AND TAKE HIM TO THE FOREST! MAYBE HE’LL RELAX MORE OVER THERE.

>>FORCE HIM INTO THE NARROW PATH, IT’S FOR HIS OWN SAFETY AFTER ALL! AS HIS BODYGUARD, YOU HAVE TO MAKE THAT CALL.

((I’m gonna give this method a try~This is one way I can see the fanfic being a little more interactive, so send in an ask that favors the option you think is best! They’ll most likely fight over them for a bit before a decision is made but the fun part is the fact that idk what will happen just as much as you guys do lmao let’s see how it goes! This event will be through Dib’s POV btw, I want to switch them up throughout the story tho!))

#[[DIBCAM]]#{event02}#i hope my writing is alright hehe #ARTTAG

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I'm posting this here (with the last one to show I really did write that) so I don't take like an hour of everyone's time in the comments to just rant about things.

So! Even Alphys admitted she was going to stop you but she didn't, because she felt it was an adventure. Basically, her love of anime saved you. And she tells you that. It's unclear how long this has been going on, I mean, we could argue that, in the light panels puzzle, Mettaton was there to rig the puzzle/spy on you. I mean, Alphys probably hacked into it to make it safe for you, you know? It was programmed to be random. But yeah, Mettaton tries to kill you -- to save humanity, which is honestly a great motive, I feel that, have fun.

But yeah! Undyne, Sans, Alphys, Mettaton -- Papyrus didn't know what would happen, he only thought you'd be captured. Dude's innocent. Doesn't even kill you at all. I mean, he does beat you up, and I doubt that if we saw him in any other context, any character whose motive is to capture your playable character would kind of be a bad guy, you know? I mean, I'm not going to go around town beating people up and locking them in my shed so I can impress people and crap. But it IS a video game so whatever. Ethics are butter.

But yeah -- most characters have had a motive to kill you, like, they WANTED to kill you except you beat them/out-determined them -- or something stopped them from it. But Asgore is the only one who has no motivation whatsoever to kill you. Like, everyone goes in detail about how killing you would BENEFIT them, how it's part of their life goal, their plans, their persona. But Asgore tells you he feels SAD, he's upset that you won't get to pass, he tells you to go live your life, he asks you to go prepare. Asgore is the only character whose motive is to help you, and whose agenda ISN'T like, all strung around killing you. His only reason is that the day his two children died, he yelled "this is war," and people took that seriously. I mean, maybe it was like, metaphorical? Maybe he didn't even think they'd actually want to kill all humans? Maybe it was more in a "darnit they killed our kids I hate them" way? But SERIOUSLY -- we know the only reason Asgore is doing this is because he wants to be there for his people. We know that he's only agreeeing because it makes his people happy. We see monsters as sweet people, which they are at some point, but also -- these people are the same dudes who keeps going on about "hey, have you heard? we're gonna kill another human and get out, sick". How many times do they talk so nonchalantly about killing humans who fall down? Like, it's been established that killing random kids to get to freedom isn't ethical. Toriel says it, everyone eventually tells you that, even freaking ASGORE keeps showing he believes it sucks, too. Yet the only reason it keeps happening is because, just like Undyne, the people of the underground are GLAD it happens. They WANT to get to the surface. And yeah, humans sucked, they hurt an entire kind of people just for some crap reason, they slaughtered them until they could only surrender, then they freaking SEALED THEM UNDERGROUND and left them there to die???? Like seriously????

And the game tells us that, and obviously you feel terrible. You're a human, you have to make things right. You can't leave them underground, you can't just do that. You feel part of those guys who hurt them. You're a human, you're the bad guy, you're their enemy, you hurt them. They're freaking justified, you say. Honestly, who doesn't want revenge? Who doesn't want freedom? Who doesn't want out of that situation?

Okay so edit: Asgore said that "every human who comes here must die". Textually, right? He did say that? Okay, so yeah, scratch that other thing. No reason. But he's still been the only character to not want to do that like, immediately after saying it. Everyone else had CONTINUED. Everyone else doesn't have that excuse that they're honor-bound to keep their promise to the people. That's only ASGORE. Yet you have Undyne CHOOSING to kill, you have a place where it's so mainstream that people like Papyrus can think that getting a place in the guard will make you COOL, you have kids talking about freaking UNDYNE in school. Like, can you believe if Toriel was here, they wouldn't even talk about that? Have you seen how she reacted, how horrified she was? She ran away for crap's sake, she even fought you to keep you safe, she came back to you and confronted Asgore. I don't think she would ever have worshipped the Guard like everyone does. But yeah, that's the thing. It's kind of part of the moral of the game how, when you do something for a long time, you lose your morals a bit. You become desensitized to what happens; Flowey explains how resetting made him bored of the world, and it's the same phenomenon that made the killing easy. So maybe after so much time talking about what the guard did, the underground started to normalize it, until there were no Toriels left to say, hey wait, these are kids, these are people, we can't murder them.

So yeah. And nobody really opposes it, except Asgore. Undyne fights you to save her people, just like Asgore. And maybe everyone does want to do that. Maybe that's just it, maybe it's kind of justified that they kill people who pass down? Right?

So yeah. We're left with that big moral dilemma at the end, becahsd we can't prove either point without disproving rhe moral of the game. Killing random kids is wrong, but the monsters are justified in killing them. So is it good or not? You're the bad guy since you're a human, but you're also just a random kid who fell down. Feel bad for what humans did, but also you shouldn't be killed, but also you should.

I mean, eventually, we can just say, yeah, Flowey's bad. Chara's bad. Whatever, you know? The few antagonists we see that you can't really befriend are the only ones we portray as evil. Everyone has a reason -- Flowey's bored to an extreme, Chara hates humans, we know and we support, they're all wonderfully crafted antagonists we're almost happy to see at this point. I mean, see how sympathetic we sjow them in comics or art? Flowey is grumpy and kind of a sarcastic, annoyed lil thing, who yells threats and might kill you sometimes, but overall he's fine. Chara's almost not scary after all those AUs where they're this killer whose violence is mostly used for dark humour or just comedy, they have a knife and threaten you but it's mostly dumb, and they like chocolate and screw around with Flowey. And whenever they're threatening, they'll be against Sans, or Frisk, to show the duality between them. And yeah, I guess it's just that there are no easy answers in this game so we make up our own. There's a reason things are called dilemmas, it's because they're hard to choose from.

#undertale #undyne #dr alphys #metatton? mettaton?#queen toriel #king asgore dreemur #gerson boom #frisk the human #chara the human #flowey the flower #dr w.d. gaster #writing #pictures

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