#I'm not tagging either shows because I don't feel like it but I feel like this must be seen at least on my profile because it's silly

[angelcent]

𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐘 ・❥・ S. GOJO

summary. you share a bottle of wine with your professor at a weekend conference by the sea, unaware of his intentions and ardor for you.

tags. age gap (early 20s & 40s), professor!gojo, power imbalance, morally grey gojo, idolization, undertones of manipulation. 789 wc.

it was almost too easy for satoru to get you like this—soft and flushed with blood red wine in your veins; the thin strap of your sundress cascading gently over the curve of your shoulder, exposing more of your lovely skin to his greedy gaze. he almost envies the moonlight that's kissing every inch of your soft skin.

if everyone back at the conference room could see you now...

alone with your professor (and mentor) in his hotel suite balcony, sharing a loveseat and bottle of wine while watching the waves roll in and out. there's no trace of the diligent student everyone, including satoru, is normally met with. vulnerable—that's what you are, and satoru has never seen anything lovelier than his student like this.

and why wouldn’t it be easy to have gotten you to this point? you have so much blind faith in your esteemed professor gojo. in your wide, star struck eyes, the older man could do no wrong. that dark flame inside him that's begging to corrupt you grows at the thought of it because an ulterior motive to this would never cross your mind.

“another?” you murmur, voice thick and sweet like honey.

it's the first either of you have spoken in about fifteen minutes and satoru can't remember the last time he's been so comfortable in another's silence. probably since he met his best friend over twenty years ago. he needs you so fucking bad.

satoru smiles and declines, eyeing the loose grasp you have on your wine glass, wondering how your delicate wrist would feel beneath his teeth. “none for me. but I think it’s time I cut you off, kid.”

you sit up at this and don’t seem to notice some wine spilling with the sudden motion, or that the hem of your dress is exposing your thighs now. how would those feel beneath his teeth? "but why? i'm not drunk at all, satoru!” your lip juts out in a cute pout, unaware of how drunk you actually sound.

satoru you said, not sir. you’ve grown more comfortable with your professor throughout the conference weekend. eased into it without the ever present reminders that the university plagues upon you. he’s been a patient man, knowing you'd come around and open up to him in time. all you need is a little push to leave that kids arms.

"are you okay?" he asks with a raised brow. "you've been a wilted little flower since dinner."

under the influence you're even more of an open book, so he catches the way your eyes nervously shift towards the ocean.

"um, it's nothing," you shrug, a failed attempt at nonchalance. it's such an awkward little movement, never failing to remind satoru of a clumsy fawn. as much as he wants to help you grow and fulfill your potential, he also wants to keep you like this. endearingly naive. "i'm sorry if i'm ruining the mood, but i don't want to bore you with my problems."

"and why would that bore me?" he scoffs, trying not to let his irritation show. now he has confirmation that your boyfriend is the reason you often apologize for your own feelings. "what kind of man do you take me for?"

"an old one."

he clicks his tongue and snatches your wine glass from you, taking the final swig. "forty-one isn't old, you little brat."

you giggle. "sorry. but okay, this is about...um..."

satoru resists the urge to roll his eyes. of fucking course. “I see. alright, since I’m such an understanding man and the best professor and boss, we’ll make a deal.”

your full lips, now bitten red under his scrutiny, almost capture all of satoru’s attention. those sweet doe eyes of yours curiously peer up at him. "what's the deal?"

“we’ll have another,” you cheer at this. satoru chuckles again, the lines on his face accentuating with it. “while you tell me what's wrong, kiddo. that boy is ruining an important weekend for you and I think that’s his intention.”

and so you settle even closer, turning to face him as you confess your relationship troubles through a bottle of rosé. satoru notices the cracks and red flags immediately, knowing full well that there's no saving this. not that he'd want to, anyway. but satoru nods and hums along sympathetically, playing the part of a concerned mentor who truly intends to help you through your issues.

he can easily make his move right now and steal you away from that boy who's never deserved you, but that's not all satoru wants. he wants you to make the first move—to break every rule and boundary as professor and student. letting you confide in him is all part of it.

#starring: satoru gojo #gojo x reader #jjk x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojo x you #gojo x y/n #satoru gojo x reader

[aziraphales-library]

Lost Fic #180

1. Good morrow dearest Mods Firstly thank you for all the good work that you all do for the fandom because this was really impressive when i first stumbled upon it and easy to sieve through. Really Wowwww I'm not much of a fanfic reader myself, but there was the monologue that stuck with me from a tiktok edit and I really want to find which fanfiction was it from (since i couldn't find the edit anymore :"") (Im regurgitating whatever i can remember so please bare with me, i hope it wouldnt be so painful.) It was from the POV of God but the narrator refers to God as "She". She talks about making Crowley and Aziraphale. Being the first to break Crowley's heart. And then she invents Creativity for Crowley because She owes him that at least. She gives Aziraphale a sword but then will give it away on his own will. She did not give Aziraphale a heart but he invented it himself. From what I remember there was no dialogue in this part of the piece. (But I wouldn't know for sure since I've never read it before...) I tried tagging From POV of God Good Omens in AO3, but I couldn't find it either If it happens to not have existed, that's alright, however are there some fanfictions that are similar to this? With the kind of emo yet touching written by God feel narration about the husbands with not much much dialogue, like as if She was just watching from above. The kind of outsider feel with the insider knowledge AHAHAHA I'm not sure how to describe it. Emotionally like bittersweet tea with a dash of honey. Thank you, and I wish you lovely days to come mods <3 - @whiskedawaybythewind

2. I'm sorry, but I'm looking for a Fic it was a Muriel & Crowley, and there was this scene where Crowley finds out that Aziraphale regrets his decision because a Pen that he (Aziraphale) stole, and send with muriel so he can understand the message. I don't remember much more, :( - anon

3. Hi! I’m looking for a relatively new fic I read a while back. It featured Azi and Crowley living in the South Downs and Crowley is snatched while out grocery shopping by a gang of mafia guys, and they ransom him to Azi, who shows up and calmly scares the shit out of them by telling them he’s “The Bookseller.” I can’t find it to save my life and I want to reread it! - @doodlegirll

4. Hello dears! First off, thank you so much for all the work you do for the fandom. I was wondering if you could help me find a fic. Aziraphale is discorporated during WW1 and Crowley was sleeping and didn't know. During the church scene in 1941, when Crowley comes aziraphale has a flashback and is barely able to save them. They talk about it after. Thanks again! - @candysunset27

5. Hi!! I’ve been going through this account for a while and it’s been so so great finding tons of fics with all the tropes I love!! There’s this one fic I saw that I can’t remember and I was really hoping you could help me find it! From what I do remember in the fic, Aziraphale is suicidal, and keeps on discorporating himself. If it’s too much of an ask I totally understand- Take all the time you need !!! 💖💖💖💖💖 - anon

If you know any of these fics please include the number in your reply! Thank you :)

- Mod D

#good omens #lost fic #ineffable husbands #mod d

[transmascutena]

thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry: #the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry. #and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think. #like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that. #and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her? #whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it? #how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions. #(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.) #when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know. #again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me. #on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything? #is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid. #either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over. #i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways) #but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about. #which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

[kestrel-wish]

Why is it whenever I notice a silly little similarity in something I feel the need to share it immediately.

#Why do I have a fantastic memory but only for stuff like this. How and why could I remember that scene in particular #I'm not tagging either shows because I don't feel like it but I feel like this must be seen at least on my profile because it's silly #No your honor I do not love comparing scenes from two completely different shows what gives you *that* idea #This is why you don't harass birds smh rookie mistake #Anyways I now have a mental compilation of at least 2 times where a cartoon character tried to chase down a bird and lived to regret it. #My brain makes connections but only for silly things sorry I don't make the rules for my brain #insert that one if I had two nickels meme idk man I'm so tired #Weird that it happened twice? I guess? #I'm literally comparing Shin Moomin and Home: Adventures with Tip and oh what do you want from me lmao

[coquelicoq]

okay, i give up. i'm calling it, time of death 11:02pm. i hereby officially unsubscribe from the l0tr newsletter. it's funny because whenever anyone asks me if i'm the type of person who always finishes a book even when i hate it, i'm like, "yes, except this one time i gave up on the fellowship otr after the first 50 pages when i was like 10." here we are decades later and i'm doing it again. and the best part is, i did actually successfully read this book and the other two in the series at some point in those intervening decades. i tried to read this book three times and only succeeded once. 33% hit rate, compared to my rate of 100% for every other book i have ever seriously tried to read. i really want to get it but i just don't. i'm giving myself permission to move on with my life. i'm not ashamed! i will say it since everyone else is too chicken apparently: some people find this seemingly universally beloved book series very boring and i am among their number!

#do i think they're bad books? that's the thing. i don't. i just don't personally like them #and i've decided not to waste any more of my time trying to like them. i put in the hours. it's not happening. #i tried to read them THREE SEPARATE TIMES. over the course of twenty-five years #which again is so funny. like how did 10yo me get it so right. how am i still so consistent on this one VERY specific metric #books #reading #my posts #it's a shame because people are SO into them so i do feel like i'm missing out :( but i have to live my truth 😔 #very happy for everyone who does not have this problem and either 1) happily loves the series or 2) does not care one way or the other #(also okay i do know what hereby means and i realize i have to actually unsubscribe. i can't just say it on here and hope that #the person running the newsletter happens to see this post i have deliberately censored so it won't show up #in the book or newsletter tags & removes me according only to my expressed wish in this post & without knowing my email address #don't worry. i know how this works) #(hereby is so fun to say but unfortunately my conscience won't let me use it here without this disclaimer #MISLEADING 'HEREBY' USAGE OCCURRING UNDER CONTROLLED CIRCUMSTANCES. DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME) #(UNLESS YOU WANT TO I GUESS. I'M NOT THE BOSS OF YOU AND NEITHER IS THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE)

[foxgirlmoth]

I don't talk about this stuff on here pretty much at all, but a past relationship really broke a ton of bits and pieces of my brain and heart in weird ways (I'm finally thinking about him almost never but the shit he pulled was abusive as hell and still affects me sometimes). Being in love with my current girlfriends for a while felt almost. Painful? Almost like I should be ashamed I can fall so deeply in love with people, and especially how quickly that can happen sometimes too. Thats how it kind of felt. I tend to get overwhelmed with emotions if I'm feeling them very strongly, and that has been extremely embarrassing and also felt almost like I was being a burden to those I love (which love is the main emotion that can 'get dialed up to 11' for me). It IS debilitating in some ways!!! It hasn't gotten bad enough I've been nonverbal in a really really long time but that happened this past week and it was wild to me.

Things are getting better now though! Therapy in the past has helped, and honestly having such patient and understanding partners has made a world of difference ;w;. my wife is someone who was one of my best friends and I had a huge crush on and now I can ask for cuddles and we can nap together and I've fallen so much in love. Her and her presence are literally heaven for me, I don't know if anything has ever made me happier than just laying next to her and feeling her warmth.

Worries of course flare up and I feel like I need to lean on her a lot during those moments, but I don't feel like too much of a burden to her. I love seeing the posts that say stuff like 'Its okay to be a burden' or 'its okay to be annoying' because really truly I think I need to be those things to survive sometimes. I can be 'a lot' and I can be a little bit obsessive and those things aren't inherently bad or evil of me. I just make sure I'm feeling okay during and after and make sure I'm checking in on myself often. I'm a bit of a broken girl, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely happy and living a life I love. I've written poems and everything about how it feels like it must hurt to love me and my broken jagged edges, but hey, even if it does a little bit, it doesn't mean someone like my girlfriend/wife won't go through a little bit of burden to love me, and I'm more than happy to return all of this and more for her as well if she's ever in need or feels broken ;^;

#Not to be too gay but I wanna build my life with my princess more and more #She's. So good to me and she's so pretty and she's so beautiful and attentive and she listens to me in ways I feel no one else has #She understands me so well!! And I hopefully make her feel the same #But yeah I've been a burden a lot to people due to autism (which I didn't know I had for fucking ages) adhd and physical disabilites #And she feels like she isn't taking care of me which is good because I'd honestly hate that #But she understands me and makes me a better person and that's exactly what I've wanted for forever. #And being demi/aspec is awesome with her since she's aspec too and there's no pressure for sex or sexy times but if we both want it #It can still be super fun!! We gotta figure more of that stuff out if we want but knowing each others kinks (and sharing a good bit) rocks #Idk its so so so so easy to love my wife Maxie #She's so dear to me and we've only been dating for 4 months but they've been 4 months I've felt the most alive and seen #Its so easy to be cringe but free with her too idk #She makes me better and I hope I do the same for her. I don't want either of us to stagnate yknow? #But anyways yeah this is just a big journal entry of some kind I might do these every once and a while #Not to like. Brag??? I guess. Or show my mental illness so much. Its just kind of nice if friends know where I'm at in my life I guess #And idk having outside input on thoughts can be good. If any friends see this and go 'Hey Runa this is real weird maybe tone it down' #I can look at that stuff a bit more #Gonna tag this in a way I can find it and others in the future too #Runa diary logs #But yeah you're not hearing this from me but I wanna be with Maxine for the foreseeable future more than anything. #Gotta get my degree and a good job too and she's ofc not the only person in my life (I have Sara who is so very dear to me too ;w;) #Nor is she the only 'goal' I have either. I wanna make games I wanna make art. I wanna make something that other trans people #And queer people and just minorities in general can look at or play or experience and just go. Life is worth living #I love my life right now and I'm so glad I've made it to my late 20's. #Its only uphill from here :3 #Wanna add on when I say she's not the only person in my life I mean that I have so many friends and people I love who love me too :3 #♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[ofmd-archive]

my heart genuinely goes out to every black woman and woman adjacent black person who's hurt by episode 7 like i was by zheng being screwed over*. white dude dumly outsmarting zheng is hurting me because she's the sole character that looks remotely like me. Seeing spanish jackie's bar exploded and that it implies she was foolish enough to accept a fucking grandfather clock from someone she cut the nose off of can't be the best feeling.

Idc if the next episode "fixes" things. The statement has been made and the betrayal has been commited. Things can be mended but it sucks cus for once i let my guard down. I god forbid felt safe. I guess that teaches me a lesson.

"But that was just it - hate was exactly the right word. Hate is a force of attraction. Hate is just love with its back turned." -Terry pratchett

That is where i'm left with this show at this current time. No i will not be taking constructive criticism from white people on this. Only voicing this so that anyone reading and is currently feeling isolated, doesn't feel alone. Cus i don't think many people will point this out.

And i swear to fucking god if any of you white saviour fucks try to twist my pain here into justifying sending hate to the writers or actors then you will get the most biting letter i am able to compose from me. Don't you fucking dare take my pain and try to use it just to get your hateful rocks off.

#ofmd #i am not black i just love olu/ctx for my pfp #but spanish jackie is the only rep black women have in this show so doing her dirty sends a message dude. whether you intend it or not #and why include such an important chinese woman if you're only gonna have her repeatedly get screwed over when she historically didn't get #screwed over once #i swear to god if anyone goes “it's not historically accurate” to excuse woc getting screwed over as if that's not a daily fucking reality #then you will be blocked and reported #not spoiler tagging this on purpose and not warning this on purpose. feel free to block me if you're a victim of this but if you're not a #victim/survivor of racism but wanna trigger warn racism cus it's “hard” for you then please block me as well #your energy is rancid in that case #ofmd essay #i guess #when i said i'm bad at essays i meant it/lh #the reason i'm putting this many caveats is because i've been on the internet for long fucking enough to see all this shit go down #it won't change that shit will go down #but i'd rather be able to just block than try to argue #also fine to reblog as long as you don't try to turn it into a crusade or a call to fucking hate actual people or to try and dehumanise poc #by acting like we're children incapable of defending ourselves or who need protecting #that's not activism either #it's just rude and a micro-agression

[brynnmclean]

y'all, I feel like I've said this a lot, it is truly a joy to be a GM, but I am so fucking ready to get out of the chair and be a player again

#the goalpost keeps moving #i think i have 10 more sessions in me max #those sessions will be PACKED. have to have a mini boss fight. the breaking of a curse. the boss fight. some kind of arc resolution #that will be player driven! whatever they want to do with relations between two groups before they go north! #and THEN the long awaited audience with gil galad to hopefully broker some kind of alliance between them and tar miriel. #winter will arrive and it will see them either at sea or in lindon. hoping for lindon but they could fuck up negotiations for sure. #the problem with my notes tbh is that there is a lot of stuff in my brain but not a lot on paper #anyway. christ. what is it like just showing up to a d&d session with a character sheet and a notebook. #AKB will be 3 years old in january #i think i'm still in the hot seat until april #i love this campaign. i do i really do. but hoooooo boy. i want a real break. #this last hiatus doesn't feel like it counted because it was schedule driven and i still have to keep things spinning in my mental space. #not to mention no one GMed anything in the meantime #there was some poll recently that was about being a player for a long form campaign like what type of characters have you played #and one-shots and campaigns that fizzled out <3 sessions in don't count #i looked at that poll and was like well damn. i haven't been a player in a long form campaign since probably... 2016. GURPs 4e. #wait that's not true-- the 5e/Star Wars Saga ed hybrid campaign that was a mixed bag. scoundrel ship mechanic zabrak life. #ha! checked my notes! that ended in july 2022 #i feel like that one barely counts though because my PC was wrangling the group to keep us on task (frustrating. i am a plot hound player) #these tags are out of hand #i'm just tired and struggling with stat blocks nbd #to be deleted i guess #do i need a loremaster tag?

[there-will-be-a-way]

Thinking about who I really want to be in my life - and who makes an effort to keep me in theirs. Thinking about how, during our Sunday evening family gathering, no one asked me how I've been. Maybe they're just tired of my bullshit, is what I thought. But if someone close to me came back from detox, I would ask them how they're doing. No matter how many times it's been. Because I care.

Thinking about how during the last three months, it's always been me to ask my sister to hang out. Maybe this week I won't ask and see what happens. Thinking about how during the time I lived in a different city, it was always me who drove the long way (and payed a shit ton for the bus tickets even though I'm piss poor) to visit my family. Thinking about how when I invited my parents over for cake and coffee, they forgot and I stood there with the cake I baked and no one but my aunt and me to eat it.

Thinking about how people who have known me for a couple of weeks have a better idea of who I am than the ones who've known me my whole life.

Future roommate takes moving to a different state into consideration. If it weren't for the good friends I have here (and my professional support system), I would fuck off.

I'm tired.

#person posts #addiction tag #my mother showed silent support though by not drinking this evening #it was the first time in my life I saw her sitting at the fireplace without a beer #anyway #feeling sad rn because I care so much #but they don't #or they just don't understand maybe #sometimes I feel like my family and I live in different worlds #and that mine is too shameful for them #after telling one of my friends about my addiction she hasn't massaged me either #and before that it was always me who initiated contact too #and she never asked me how I'm doing #I won't text her again #sometimes all effort is in vain and you have to let people go for your own good and theirs #this situation is really showing me who I'm important to #and who wants to be with me #I'm grateful for everyone who stays and who stood with me for this long

[arklay]

WIP TITLE MEME.

tagged by @prometheas @denerims @faarkas & @aartyom to do this – thank you all so so much ily guys! ♡

tagging: @aelyosos @brujah @cultistbase @florbelles @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @jendoe @lightwardens @liurnia @malefiicarum @morvaris @nocticulas @nuclearstorms @risingsh0t @shellibisshe @solasan @swordcoasts @steelport @voerman & anyone else who is writing right now, i'm sorry i don't really know at the moment! also as always, no pressure to do this! ♡

rules: post the names of all the files in your wip folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it

so, i'm going to expose myself right now and show you guys my wips checklist doc. these are all the ewskers, obviously. i'm not really 100% on my writing rn, so i won't share snippets, but i will do summaries and tell you about all of these (and maybe bits from my little plan outlines). y'all get a variety and a half lmao

i may share snippets of last one, but no promises because it's spicy and i might get a bit uncomfy sharing. and with the first one, i showed what i had a bit ago before deleting the posts, and there's only been a bit of progress since, but the whole two fics aren't off limits for little moments or insight

#tag games. #hi i'm still kicking hi. moots if you tagged me in things they are in my queue rn i promise i'm just slowly coming back on here #so. this still isn't everything by the way. but these ones have either writing or outlines done for them sooooo yeah :) #which i also might show some of what my outlines actually mean. it's basically pieces of dialogue and actions i write down to remember #the direction i want a scene to go in because i don't want to forget about it you know? #okay. thank you guys all for tagging me!!! i'm sorry if i've missed any things you've made over the past like idk week or so cause i've #been frazzled and taking breaks from here cause of something but yes if i have missed any like creations pleasee you can always send them #to me via dms or you can put them in my tracked tag (which is userarklay not just arklay) 💖 #also as you can see i have a favourite era teehee clowns figuring out their feelings is very special to me. but omg there are so many #moments missing. some i even have outlines for but are not 100% on the direction you know? there's so much in my brain always. wish i had #the energy to do them all at once augh. but very special moments going on here. they are just so special to me and mean a lot to me #idk what to say like it's not cringe or embarrassing anymore cause they really are where i find a lot of creative energy and comfort #because of how special both their characters are to me and how much just depth i've given diana this whole year. like they are my lil guys

[wally-franks]

I feel like people underestimate wally so bad. (In like a lot of aspects.) He obviously isn't a 100000000IQ mastermind. But he also isn't some dumb clueless fuck. He knows his shit!! One huge aspect where it really shows is that he knows how to stay out of trouble!! I think when you work at jds that's literally the smartest thing you could do. Try to get along with as many people as you can and STAY OUTTA TROUBLEEE

#there was originally a whole ass analysis slash rant in the tags abt him but I'm trying so hard d. sooo hard to keep myself away from... #sharing my rants ueuahah nothing bad. I just. really like wally and uhh #hate when people either infantilize him to death or portray him as some huge moron #whenever people call my wally pure and soft I'm like iwuwhsjj if that's what you wanna think‚ sure‚ but just telling you that he's still a #bit whiny\sassy like the og one #I just don't get to show that side a lot because I'm just all busy with shipping stuff HAHAH #but you can bet your ass that he complains abt Sammy at work LOL #lordy if anyone is gen interested in my whole rant tell me because gah damn it's long but it's basically just going over Wally's knowledge #like. he knows what's up HAHA I feel like people don't realize it

[flopity-flips]

idk if this is a hot take but honestly as fun as think dante/lucia is i honestly don't think they would or could work out- at least until dante sorts through his baggage. but even then, Dante is someone who craves his humanity so bad- going so far as to outright deny his own human blood while simotaneously insisting he's human. i feel like- were he not completely emotionally wrecked by his own existence feeling like a curse- he'd want someone human. someone as far away from the life of a devil hunter or devil. but by getting involved with him they become a part of that life- one way or another, tragically or not. it's part of the fact that he's just a walking bundle of contradictions.

#i also have no vested interest or bias in Dante's relationship given that i selfship nuh uh no i do not #but it's also part of why I don't dig Dante n lady either #i feel like their relationship is complex- like #maybe once a while after dmc3 they hooked up cuz they're both sad they're both repressed and they're both a bundle of emotions #what is this tension between us? but because they're young and dumb they don't realize until after oh wait this tension was shared trauma #but even then Dante keeps everyone at arms length its p clear that lady and trish rly only stop by when they need something or they're #bored. perhaps just a wellness check on dante if he's showing signs of a slipping mental state #but in general I love the sort of sadness behind dante and lucias relationship as is rn too #that sort of heartending feeling of rejection and Dante's fear of letting her get hurt or thinking no one can love him #it makes my heart hurt and I love that shit #idk I'm rambling i saw some light chatter abt dante/lucia #but im not looking to get into ship wars over it lmao im just tossing out my two cents on the two #but my opinion should once again be taken with a grain of salt considering i selfship hard with him. im cringe but im free #devil may cry #dmc #amanda rambles #i need a tag for dmc lore musings cuz im reading this over and it just sounds like rough notes lol #just an uninterrupted nonsensical stream of consciousness lmao #oh fuck i gotta schedule an appointment with a therapist lol

[goldenkid]

i’m so scared of going on placement this semester btw

#this post originally had a GIANT tag ramble but that baby went in the drafts #anyways gist is my first two placements from first year were both a struggle and i didn't rlly engage with people because of that #so this placement i'm stressed abt making friends with the people i'm staying with...but either it'll happen or it won't #all i need to do is show up say hi and then. be around #i don't need to stress and 'be on my best behaviour' because i'm so scared of missing an opportunity #like it's ok. just be yourself. friendship will either happen or it won't you can't force it #and also i was stressin about the struggles from my last year's placement and scared they'd come back again #but then i was like wait....i struggled so much last year but i learned from it #and now i've found a routine that gives me balance #so all that suffering wasn't just shit...it was teaching me stuff #and the struggles weren't just me being weak and weird and fucked up - they were a legit thing i had to go through to LEARN #so i could find a way of living that's good for me #anyway that made me feel better :) bc i was like yeah...it wasn't just shit for nothing...i learned a lot from it #and i will be strong and put all that into practice this term #and it will be good!!! #anyways yeah #this probably doesn't make any sense but it's been good to think about and i feel better now #goodnight lol

[sharkneto]

In the promo pics, five’s the only one without a hotel sticker(even Lila has one) and his umbrella sticker is the only one that isn’t stuck on properly and is lopsided. Do you have any thoughts about that? :’)

I'm about to be very boring and probably a little disappointing, but I don't 😅 I enjoy reading other people's speculations (and there are some cool ones! this is a fandom of thinkers!) but I myself just kind of... Enjoy The Surface Level of promo material. I like to look at and find all the little details and make some broad connections (like, Klaus is probably going to die - temporarily - and his poster has the HOb cockroach) but anything beyond that, what they're going to mean and what they could symbolize in any detail I leave to others to pick at and I'll read it as I choose to. Idk, we know so little and I find it more frustrating than fun to pick over them now, myself. I'll just wait for the season to come out and then I can look back at the promo material and go "oooh that's what that was teasing at!"

Sorry for the boring answer 😅 swing on back to me after s3 comes out and we’ll do a deep dive together lol

#i feel a little like a stick in the mud writing this #but i do like seeing other people's thoughts on it! #i'm just not into trying to parse out ''these guys are going to team up because they're looking in a different direction than the rest!'' #they're either going to team up or they're not and i'll find out in 40 days #idk i might also be slightly off from it because going into s3 is a totally different experience than s1 and s2 was for me #i started the show significantly after s2 had come out #and *somehow* i'd had no spoilers #all i knew was they were a superpowered family #i didn't even know what their powers were - i spent ep 1 piecing that together while we met everyone #and that was *such* a rare experience for me it was delightful #i don't care about spoilers - i'm vocal about this - but to come into some media as big as tua without any prior knowledge was special #anyway - now i'm coming into s3 and know it's not going to be the same #i'm active in the fandom and i've written over half a million words about the elderly child #i've thought *a lot* about this series #but i feel like some of my reluctance to jump into the speculation is a last attempt to try and preserve some of the unknown for myself #anyway this tag ramble got long whups #tua s3 #sharkneto speaks

[yeleltaan]

//Hello everyone! Alright, here’s an update on things:

I’ve got one more exam to do before I’m done. The good news is that I’ve got plenty time to prepare it, and I’ve decided I’m not going to wait until then to do the things I want to do. That being said, I know it’s going to take me a little while to truly pick up the pace here and I’d like to give a little priority to adopting some healthy habits and improving my lifestyle.

There’s one thing I wanted to address though. I realize that I haven’t really engaged much with the dash and most blogs, both the newcomers and the returning faces (which, by the way, I’m very glad to see back- seriously, it’s lovely to see characters embark on new stories when they seemed to have reached a conclusion, and watching writers come back to the fandom after some time away).

Truth is, I’ve found the dash overwhelming lately. This comes partially from me being too busy to engage, and therefore experiencing something like FOMO because I can’t quite keep up with stuff and be a part of it. The Soulsborne RP community is either getting bigger or becoming more visible to me, and that’s great, but it does also present a challenge to me because if I’m engaged in your character and/or blog, I want to see what you do! I want to see all these things you’ve put effort into, I want to give you feedback, send an ask here and there, have my muse interact with yours!

If I give your post a like, I haven’t just looked at it. If it’s a drabble/headcanon/thread, I’ve read it and re-read it to get a good understanding of it and try to find whatever clues or references you’ve put in there. Perhaps it’d be better for me and the other mun if I gave likes more liberally, but I don’t know, it’s important to me that if I give your post a like, I’ve genuinely had a moment where I’ve stopped and paid attention to nothing but that exact post.

Anyways, where I’m getting with this is that I do feel rather bad that I haven’t quite been able to... welcome? you with the attention and energy I would have liked to have given you. I hope that despite the delay with which I approach you or continue our interactions, we can make up for lost time later.

I’m unsure how I’m going to handle this. I don’t intend to unfollow anyone because of this, as my issue isn’t a lack of interest but my difficulty displaying it and putting it into practice. I do think I’m going to keep a fairly passive attitude (for now) when it comes to seeking new RP partners though, because I cannot comfortably seek and approach some of the blogs I’ve seen mutuals interact with when I’m already struggling to give my time to said mutuals. I’ll still be happy to plot and write interactions with blogs that approach me though.

Anyways, thank you for your patience once more and hopefully it won’t take long for you to see me more here. May things go well for you!

#posting this at late hours (for me!) because I am driven by impulse #ooc #I'm also admittedly hesitant to start liking posts sometimes... it's silly but when I haven't really engaged with someone for a long time #it feels odd to break the ice with certain things. It's probably not worth it to think that way and I am working towards fixing that #working towards feeling less anxious about the simple stuff. Because we all need some feedback and interest from people to keep going #and feel appreciated #and I don't like that this flaw of mine gets in the way of me showing my appreciation to the things you put hard work into #nothing prompted this btw- it's just that I've been thinking about this a lot last year #and with the resurgence that came with Elden Ring. I hope people don't interpret my quietness like there's some 'bad blood' going on #I don't want to like... limit myself to one spot in the fandom either #I think that's one of the biggest factors to how I initially lost my drive to write Ornstein: got too comfortable in one spot of the fandom #so when most of those people started to leave or become inactive I had a really rough time approaching the others #even though I genuinely had nothing against any of them. I don't want that to happen here and I want to be engaged in the community #'Croc don't use the tags of your ooc post to add 50% of the information' challenge when #jokes aside. I hope you're all doing alright. Looking forward to making these posts less necessary! ^^ #also I hope the 'this is how I treat likes' part doesn't come off as pretentious. I only want to give a little perspective and clarify that

[valkyrietookmoved]

Now it's my turn to grill you about twisted wonderland dating options

Between Malleus and HiMERU?

And between Vil and Shu? 🎤

God... You had fun with this one didn't you ya devil /j

Though it pains my soul because I absolutely adore Himeru as a character I... I have to say Malleus. He's just... It's just like you said at the very least for now he's well mannered he shows he cares and cares deeply and yeah he's a bit awkward and doesn't really understand his own feelings well (and at the very least from some of his lines you can infer he's definetly lying to himself about some of them just to cope, at least imho) he doesn't really wear the same sort of mask Himeru constantly has to out on. I feel like while Malleus confusion about his own feelings might make it difficult to get closer to him he isn't actively putting up a wall (like himeru would do) and just by talking eventually he'd get used to it and would be able to express himself a bit more freely. Also he's chill I'd listen to him rant about gargoyles and grotesques and I'd accompany him to walk around decrepit and desolate ruins any day. We'll cross the bridges of "this means your royalty now" and "your life spans are wildly different how will you cope" when we get there... Probably.

*inhales*..... Okay the difficult one is now god you're evil. They're just... They're like different flavors of the same person god what am I going to do... (Also I love them both extremely how dare you make me chose). Okay so... After thinking a lot about this a lot (I got this ask while walking my dog about uh.... Two hours ago I've been thinking about it ever since), I think I have to say Vil. He might be a perfectionist but I feel like it's a lot more focused on himself unless his goal needs to include other people. Yes he's very strict but partially it's due to his responsibility as a house warden and I think that as long as he sees you're putting effort even if you don't reach the level he's at that's enough to kinda ease up on you and let some things slide. In the hand Shu's getting better but he still would be very much pushy about his ideas and he believes is perfect and if you don't reach a certain level I feel like he'll definetly jumo at you and I cannot deal with that. Also I feel Vil is a lot more outwardly affectionate and a lot more able to read other's emotional states and actually take it into account more than Shu has ever been unless they explode in his face. Also from a more "how would I survive this situation and get to a point where I can be more or less comfortable" point of view, I'm prone to crying even when I feel extreme levels of anger and I think Shu would need the raw power of dry anger to be able to drive a point home while I might be able to manipulate Vil into being nicer to me if I just end up crying in front of him sjdldjdosodkskd

Ask game

#this is why you're wrong #yes you're right #ash asks answers #korka 🩸 #enjoy I had fun thinking about this #i needed to be a bit evil at the end I feel like either of those two men would break my emotional state if I spend too much time with them #also I definitely hold some very /very/ different values of beauty to bith Shu and Vil #but I feel Vil would at least respect my point of view if I sound confident enough and show that I've spent a long time thinking about it #while Shu would just be like and I would have to play the card (upon my death) #or just end up in a screaming match and end up crying out if anger and frustration because it just doesn't get through his thick skull #I'm being very hard on Shu he can get ro be very sweet if we go by lines he says but I partially belive that's #1. because he's talking to the Producer so they don't actually see each other that often and soend that much time together #and 2. anzu is actually extremely hard working and actually productive and good at her job so that probably softens him up a lot more #and I am definetly not that so it would cause problems #WELL THAT GOT LONG EVEN IN THE TAGS OK IWKDDKKDKD #i still oove you Shu but by god you'd be such a nightmare to live alongside with #call me when you get some therapy and some more emotional stability <3