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beaversatemygrandma · 2 years

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What the actual fuck happened this morning. Fucked up dream. Fucked up amount of back pain. And a fucked up amount of sweat.

So. Last night. I went to bed at a decent time. About 130. Took a melatonin. I was READY to SLEEP. Then comes this sharp and throbbing back pain. So. I go about doing a few stretches i know relieve that. It. Got. Worse. I ended up laying awake until 7am. Just. Pain. And Suffering.

Finally, i fall asleep for about an hour. I ended up having this whole goddamn elaborate dream that i don’t remember half of. But it felt so damn real. I was with my ex in some huge hospital like building, hiding out from these gang members whose leader was trying to create a harem of men. He was after my ex. I saw what was going on with this guy and was like ‘uhhhhh fuck that’ and went about trying to escape from this place. There was this whole thing of running from some tall guy with lots of tattoos, accidentally walking in on him sexually warming up one of his men, and then finally getting out the doors and ending up in a disused train tunnel. Where. Take a guess. MORE of the gang were. I don’t remember what all happened in there but it couldn’t have been good.

I woke up. Drenched in sweat. My back still ACHED. It was 830. I have not had such strong suicidal thoughts in literal YEARS. Possibly the most ever. I wanted to Fucking Die. I was Tired. I Hurt. I was Nauseous. I felt like shit. There’s a goddamn spider that’s been chilling on the ceiling in my bathroom since midnight and i was too high/tired to deal with him. He’s still there. I still don’t have the energy to deal with him but the door’s shut and that’s the spider’s bathroom now. He’s a kinda big cellar spider and Ew. Anywho. I ended up giving up on sleep and heading out to the living room. I remembered how the bout of back pain in FL went. I miss the partner. I need a damn hug rn and they give the best ones and that night ended up with me realizing it was food poisoning, throwing up, and then literally just crawling into bed with them holding me and passing tf out even tho i still had major back pain and was able to sleep through the rest of the night no issues. THIS TIME. It was 8am. I was like. Okay. Maybe i got food poisoning somehow again. Might as well get rid of that. I tried to throw up. I failed. That was going nowhere and my throat hurt. I went back out into the living room. Turned on the tv. Sat there for a while just wondering what to do. Not even turning on a show. Just spaced tf out and wanting to cry. Then my sister comes out at like 930 for breakfast. She’s making cereal. I’m trying not to cry. I tell her i haven’t slept and would rather her stay quiet and leave me alone. So. She just went on her way. ate. All that shit. Once she sat down i was like. I want to lay down. My Bed. Was Still Fucking Damp. From Sweat. Like The Fuck. I made the bed so i was laying on the comforter. Grabbed my pokemon throw blanket bc that was the closest thing to comfort and i didn’t want to use my weighted blanket and sweat tf out again. I layed down. Turned on music. And just sat there pressed between soft fleece and even softer fleece. Soft and cozy. But it wasn’t the sheer comfort i had back in FL with the partner but it sufficed. SOMEHOW. I passed tf out and slept another five hours and didn’t get up til 1230. Not enough sleep still but Holy Fuck I got some.

And now here i am. Pain free in my back. Still tired as all hell. I have a headache. I was clenching my teeth bc pain most of the night and my damn wisdom teeth are killing me. I’ve taken so much fucking advil through the night I’m scared to take more. At least my back doesn’t hurt now.

Ugh. I need to eat, shower, and change my damn sheets today. But I’m tired and depressed today so. Fun.

#taks speaks #tread lightly under the read more. there's mentions of vomit. spiders. and dream crime syndacates #literally. Fucked. Up. Nightmare.#and I DON:T HAVE NIGHT MARES #i swear my brain was like 'ARIGHT PRIDE MONTH OVER HAVE A GAY CRIMINAL WHO WANTS TO STEAL AND FUCK UP UR EX'#and i'm like 'WHAT THE FUCK MAN'#i swear i spent that dream trying to keep my ex from getting pulled into human trafficking #i was realistic and goddamn horrifying #i don't need some gay yakuza member coming in and doing that. uh. no. that's fucked up man #my ex is a good dude. i wouldn't wish that on the bad ones.#didnt help that i felt my current pain in the dream either #one thing i missed tho #there's a song by tom petty on the playlist i was playing while trying to sleep #and it still has the uncut album version #so it goes silent for a few seconds and is like 'for those using cassette or vinyl you will need to flip to side b'#and it distracted me from everything for .2 seconds long enough to not have pain while skipping the last thirty seconds of the song #just something that felt so unreal and confusing for long enough that i didn't feel as dead #*o shit gotta flip my tape* *wait. im streaming this* *why wasn't this cut*#*i was like 6 the last time i used a cassette*#...fun distraction via classic rock ig

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teruthecreator · 3 years

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THS IS A ROBBERY 🔫YOUR ROLESWAP LORE!!! HAND IT OVER 🤲if u want 2 :)

just took my melatonin bc i have to wake up at 4:30 AM to drive 16 hours to my mother’s so i’m sorry if this becomes derailed but uh. here’s the roleswap lore! or, at least, everything i’ve decided (along with matthew and corinne bc the three of us tagteamed on it)

gonna chuck it all under a readmore bc this is going to get long

so first off, just gonna run out in front and say i have no idea how this fits into graduation plot. i haven’t gotten that in plot consideration, given their character differences in comparison to their canonical selves. so, for the most part, it’s a lot of background establishment and character traits. but i do have a few plot bits that i’ve figured out bc i thought it was cool. why such a long preamble? i don’t know. help me

fitzroy maplecourt:

first off, he’s not called sir!!! because he doesn’t go to knight school!

my idea for his backstory is that the way he decides to grapple with his identity crisis/imposter syndrome (which he definitely Still has) is that instead of becoming a grander, larger than life version of himself. he just. goes the opposite.

not necessarily becoming a degenerate (bc he just smokes pot and that’s not bad he’s just vibing)??? but more just like. leaning into the laid-back nature of life that one might pick up from a lifetime in rural country.

he goes to a liberal arts school a ways away and just decides to bum around and take life not seriously. he develops a pretty large group of acquaintances being a hippie stoner; he doesn’t really pursue a degree either. i think if he picked up any major it was probably like. an art major or an english but he basically fails most of his classes bc he doesn’t care!

unlike his canonical counterpart, fitzroy doesn’t mind being called nicknames!! ones i think he has the most are fitz or roy, but basically you could call him anything and he’ll respond. that is because, instead of clinging to the concept of his identity bc it’s the only thing he feels he has, his identity is nebulous!! he doesn’t understand it and it scares him too much to be concrete, so he just lets people decide shit about him for him.

his personal philosophy is more about floating through life and letting people assume shit about him than having a solid personality and backstory that people understand and recognize. it is a more dissociative way of having an identity crisis! how fun! he also barely talks about his past, and what he does talk about are cherrypicked points of his past that fit his narrative of being a casual down-to-earth hippie

the moment that this all changes is when order decides to pop in and grant him powers!!!! wahoo!!!! here’s how that happens:

he’s baked out of his fucking gourd in his dorm room, in the spring semester of his junior year. he’s alone (which is rare) and he’s maybe a little sad, but he decides to just ignore it. he looks at his table and laughs. “hehe, what if this table just. blew up?” he says to himself. it isn’t that funny, but he laughs. then he lays his hand on the table.

the table blows up.

after that, he has magic!!!

i’m going to go into detail a little bit later about how fitzroy’s magic manifests in the roleswap universe, but i wanna get through the backstory first. basically, he gets really freaked out after his magic comes to him because it is So New and Wow What and What The Fuck.

he realizes that this new addition to his character Completely changes how people who know him would perceive him (as a bum stoner chill guy), and he can no longer have control of his narrative with this magic business. so he drops out!

well, he actually just transfers. to a school far, far away where people will never know who he was and he can rebuild his narrative with this magic incorporated into it. he chooses wiggenstaff’s because he figures the school would have more of a knowledge of magic than his libarts school, which would mean he could understand why the fuck weed gave him magic (sidenote: it wasn’t weed, obvs, but he thinks this so for a while he doesn’t smoke!)

he is now the chill hippie of wiggenstaff’s!!! most people like him because his personality is fairly easy to digest; some people think he shouldn’t be there, but he is! he starts out as a sidekick and he would’ve honestly been fine with that forever, but then he’s suddenly thrust into the hero track!!! wow!!!! i will also explain this with the magic.

but yeah!! that’s fitzroy, for the most part. now we’ll move onto the other boy

argonaut keene:

he actually prefers if people call him argonaut, but he’s less likely to correct people than canon fitzroy Or canon argo. he’s a tad bit shyer in this universe!

argo’s backstory pretty much follows the same idea of his canonical background, but with some key differences that shape him into the character he is in the present!

basically he still grows up on shebrie’s ship, surrounded by crewmates and the salty sea air. but his fascination with the sea doesn’t manifest into this swashbuckling lifestyle that he has in canon.

what fascinates him more is the ship itself. how it functions, how water wears down wood, how directional currents can affect navigation. basically, he becomes invested in the sciences part of sealife more than the pirateering. he has special interests in marine biology, but his heart remains in nautical engineering. figuring out ways to make the ship run better, faster, and more efficiently consumes his childhood thoughts!

shebrie encourages her son’s craving for knowledge with tomes and books from all over the world about anything related to engineering and nautical things. he’s homeschooled, basically, but he becomes rather intelligent within a few short years!

and then, well....shebrie dies. yeah we aren’t escaping that finality, sorry folks. that part of canon Still Applies.

after shebrie’s death (coughMURDERcough), argo is. traumatized! and he makes the decision to almost entirely sever himself from his life on the sea. it’s all too painful to look back upon--the times he spent studying with his mother in the captain’s quarters, rattling off dolphin facts as they sailed onward, dreaming of turning gears as the ship gently rocked him to sleep--and so he just decides to throw the whole thing out!

he can’t ignore his lifetime of education, though, so he continues to pursue it. with the remainder of money his mother left behind, he enrolls himself in a boarding school of science and technology, with plans to continue study in Only engineering. no more nautical Anything on his roster.

eventually, when he is old enough and graduates high school, he roams around...trying to figure out what to do. he doesn’t have enough money for college, so he can’t continue his scholarly efforts yet. he works around, job-to-job, city-to-city, and just notices how...delayed everything feels. like society is suffering under this slow pace towards innovation.

and that’s when he decides his next course of action. if he were to discover the root of some problem and engineer a solution, he would be famous! he would gain notoriety and praise and--and all the things his mother had as a captain. but he would have it on his own, separate from his mother, and separate from his past.

he figures out his next course of action: attend a school that will give his prestigious enough marks to be accepted onto a research team, find a problem, solve it, help the world, maybe earn a little bit of that credit and respect that would make him feel like he was doing his mother proud.

the thing i want to emphasize here is that argo’s take on helping the world comes from that morality that canon fitzroy has. canon fitzroy wanted to be a knight because he wanted to fairly and justly instill ideas of “good” and “bad” onto the world. roleswap argo has a similar moral sense, but instead of establishing rules he wants to fix the “bad” and make it “good” in a technological/scientific sense.

the only school argo can think of that can get him that kind of notoriety is wiggenstaff’s. getting onto the HOG board would mean he’d have access to countless resources and be respected by a large audience, which would give him the opportunity to make change happen. even if he’s only a sidekick On Paper, what matters is that the diploma would give him the ability to Apply to the HOG. so he drafts a carefully worded letter for a scholarship and achieves a full-ride!!! epic

like fitzroy’s magic, i’m going to break down argo’s relation to the unbroken chain after i get through backstory stuff. but trust me, I’ve Thought Of It

argo sort of blends into the background at wiggenstaff’s. or, he would, if his roommates/friends weren’t so Fucking Out There. fitzroy is enough to make him always be visible, but even the firbolg’s massive frame means eyes are always on him. which makes him nervous!! he doesn’t like the attention (as opposed to his canonical self, who revels in it for the self-esteem fuel) his insecurities manifest more in what he’s Doing rather than what he Is, mostly because his identity is barricaded by a wall of trauma repression

he’s still plenty funny and witty, just quieter. also he’s a lot Meaner than canon argo, at least to me. because if you irritate him he Will just completely shut you down with words. motherfucker doesn’t bark but he will most DEFINITELY bite

that’s their backstories, for the most part! in terms of how they interact together:

as established, they meet prior to wiggenstaff’s on a tinder date (during the grace period of argo working odd jobs and fitzroy about to be granted immense fucking power) and end up casually dating during the course of their wiggenstaff education. argo is a nervous goober and fitzroy just likes making him blush. it’s very cute.

fitzroy is still less inclined for the romantic than argo, who remains a steadfast absolute romantic internally. fitzroy still holds a lot of the self-doubt and distrust that canon fitzroy has, only it manifests in him not taking anything seriously! which means when he catches Feelings feelings he basically freaks out

argo still falls in love really quickly, only now he’s more conflicted about it because being in love means trusting and trust means communication and communication means Oops Years Of Trauma Are Being Unloaded Uh Oh!

now i’m going to touch on the big points that i find really interesting: fitzroy’s magic and argo’s relation to the unbroken chain

fitzroy’s magic:

chaos is not the being that grants him magic. it’s order!

my take on what this means for what deity is on what plane of reality is that chaos is more Needed so they are the one that is physically On Nua, while Order remains in dreamscapes because they are already a constant amongst the tangible world. yes i know this directly contradicts the reasoning for why theyre Supposed to be where in canon, leave me alone i’m having fun.

my reasoning for this switch is because chaos stands to be a contradiction to everything canon fitzroy has going on. he has a very strict, nailed-down understanding of himself and the world. everything he thinks is in black and white, bold statements, no questions, he follows rules and obeys the law. untiiiiil chaos gives him magic and shocks him out of that complacency. they lean into his inner impulses and that rage he’s kept locked deep inside. they allow for magic to Explode out of him, rather in calculated bursts or with intent.

which is why order is more fitting for roleswap fitzroy!! because fitzroy, in this world, has less of a concrete grasp of himself and the world. he purposely lets himself be nebulous and goes with the flow. thinking of the future in real terms is not something fitzroy Does, he has no plans and that’s Fine. order seeks to give fitzroy a backbone, to put it simply.

his magic doesn’t go impulsively out of him. it is calculated--it comes with thoughts and intentions. the reason it surprises fitzroy when the table blows up is because he didn’t think his thoughts or wants would amount into that, but that’s what order is trying to show him. that his intentions matter. that he matters and he has to Think and Focus and Be Here.

i’m still not sure if his power would manifest as lightning??? because the imagery for the lightning works perfectly for canon fitzroy because of the random power of lightning strikes. but for roleswap fitzroy it’s more like...thunder. like Purpose. thunder happens because of a reaction--it comes with intent. if differing air temperatures collide, it creates thunder. that combination is purpose + intent equating in magic.

i think that part needs word bc like. how would one quantify thunder?? i think fire might also work really well because the idea of a controlled fire. like things have to Happen in order for fire to start, it can’t just appear like lightning can.

order’s manipulation relies more heavily on the concept of boosting him up as a savior/hero, rather than boosting his ego and desire for power. fitzroy Has no desires in roleswap world--he’s just there. but when he gets put on the hero track, now he’s suddenly been given purpose. and order uses that to be like “wow, look at all these people who rely on you! look how important you are! don’t you want to use this magic for good?? to do good?? start a war with a demon come on pussy :-)”

OH YEAH also he becomes a hero in this universe (like in terms of tracks) because of the fact that it directly contradicts how he views himself. for canon fitzroy, it was showing him how much more he is capable of without the restrictions of morals (i.e, king fitzroy). but roleswap fitzroy doesn’t Have an image he wants to bolster! he doesn’t think he needs it and, frankly, he doesn’t care for it. the hero tracks carries with it all these stereotypes and expectations that now directly contradict his personality--thus showing him he is capable of more.

okay now for argo’s business jesus christ this post is so long and im NOT EVEN DONE WITH ALL THE POINTS I WANTED TO MENTION

argo’s relation to the unbroken chain:

so since roleswap argo has less of an association with his past (and, by extension, the memory of his mother), he is less inclined to join the mysterious cult that his mother was a part of.

moreover, he doesn’t necessarily believe the shit he’s told??? he’s way more skeptical of jackal than canon argo is--immediately questioning why and how jackal knew his mother, and constantly trying to poke holes through his narrative.

generally speaking, if you try to talk to roleswap argo about his mother or his past, he Shuts Down. like completely. and that usually results in him snapping at you or just clamming up completely. mostly he just gets really snippy and angry because Hey Shut Up Dickhead I Don’t Want To Talk About It

a part of me still isn’t sure whether or not argo would take the unbroken chain up on their offer. but i also know that, plot wise and character arc wise, it is a necessary part of argo’s story. so i think, at most, he agrees but is extremely hesitant and might even let fitzroy on immediately once he’s given the task of digging into fitzroy’s life

also, they’re boyfriends in this universe, so how could he Really keep it a secret for that long. come on jackal, you idiot, you know they’re kissing.

i think he’d Eventually warm up to jackal as a sort of father figure, but only after many nights of conversation and dancing around the subject of shebrie.

OH YEAH. this argo doesn’t know the commodore murdered his mother! important to note! he just assumes what he was told was true, that she sailed into dangerous territory and was ambushed.

during the tribunal bit If That Even Happens In This World, i think fitzroy actually is the one who figures it out Before argo. and once argo does, well............fuck!

OKAY last little bit, just gonna talk about some random extra parts of the world that i’ve thought of already:

in this universe, grey takes on higglemas’s identity instead of hieronymous’s!!! this is for good reason actually

okay so basically my thought was that, instead of whatever happened in canon yadda yadda dog time, hieronymous and grey are fighting and it’s a pretty evenly matched battle. there’s a cooldown moment where hiero thinks he’s safe but grey uses sneaky backhanded tactics to try and get the drop on him.

only higgs sees it in time and saves his brother, taking the hit himself. he collapses, extremely wounded, and hiero rushes to his aid. he’s cradling his brother’s body, trying to keep him alive, when grey approaches to deliver the final blow.

hiero is completely crushed and defeated and basically will let grey do anything to him by this point. the only thing he begs of is to let him live long enough to save his brother.

now, grey isn’t nice. let me make that clear. grey fucking SUCKS and the reason he agrees is because he wants a Real War with hiero and he can’t get that if hiero is basically like “if you let higgs die then you might as well kill me”.

so, grey agrees, and hiero ends up saving higgs by turning him into a cat. was supposed to be a temporary solution until he could find a better spell, but he wasn’t the magic guy in the duo. eventually, grey gets tired of waiting and decides to do some other shit. like turning the school the brothers have been running into a backalley place for demons!!

he takes the form of higglemas and leaves hieronymous locked in his office as basically a mascot. he’s like the queen and grey is the parliament--grey makes all the rules, but everyone assumes it’s hiero. faux-higgs is more on the ground, changing things and making the school a place more fitting for an eventual war. he builds up the concept of heroes and villains being Real, in the hopes he can sway some mortals to his side when he’s able to open a portal to hell.

hiero still tries to stop this from happening, but his pride and his self-image is wounded by what happened. he feels guilty and puts the blame entirely on him, instead of doing the whole cowardice route like higgs did in canon. he gets people to help him eventually, via mind control and all tht jazz.

also in this universe, buckminster is the one who gets birdified instead of leon!! has to do with my leon/buckminster and higgs/hiero narrative parallels that i’ve thought of for far too long.

firbolg is exactly the same in this universe. it is hard to swap three people and i didn’t want to think about him.

fitzroy doesn’t pick a grab. i think he’d rather a lizard, like a bearded dragon. he names him something stupid. like scaly. or kyle.

uhhh yeah!!! i think that’s....everything i’ve thought of so far!! lemme know if you wanna hear my takes on any other elements in the roleswap world!!!!

#taz graduation #taz sir fitzroy maplecourt #taz argo keene #roleswap maplekeene #ignorance cloud on #thanks em!!!!#sorry this is a mile long i had a lot to say #and now...i sleep!#jesus christ i have to drive 16 hrs tomorrow #help me :-)#ember360

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calpops · 5 years

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oh i feel for u so much w insomnia! mine gets really bad when im v stressed and not taking care of myself/my surroundings properly! a few things that have helped me is making a conscious effort to never do things in my bed that arent sleeping so no electronics, no reading, no eating, i think its called sleep hygiene (idk but google it anyway) and the main reasons is ur brain needs to associate ur bed solely w sleeping. also create a routine before bed helped me when i was consistent w it (1/2)

so i bought this body wash from lush that smells like lavender bc it meant to be calming lol and i would have a quick shower w that every night before bed and i would moisturise and make a tea and read in any room outside my bed to wind myself down and then try to sleep! obviously its not always that simple but cutting out caffiene can help, exercising like even just doing a walk or something active to make u physically tired as well as mentally, melatonin pills can help its natural (2/3)

or bby i would see ur gp if thats an option that might be able to help u more so! for me it really just took time, patience and trusting in the process, meditation also massively helped, theres an app called headspace that does really simple guided mediations and u can start off doing short ones and progress gradually as u get more comfortable etc! thats all i can think of atm, u are worth trying different methods n taking care of urself, i know its easier said than done but u got this ❤️ (3/3)

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I have a pretty solid routine at this point. I’ve had insomnia as long as I can remember. It’s gotten worse since hitting my head. I haven’t had caffeine in almost three months now. These are all REALLY good suggestions, most of which I follow! I may have to look into some lavender scented products! I have a lavender scented migraine mask that is really calming but I only use when my head hurts. I’ve been practicing guided imagery since high school; it helps but it’s never quite enough to get me to sleep. Exercise is tricky with my head at the moment but I have been walking every day to keep my body moving. Thank you for all this, it means so much you took the time send these! 💙

#i take melatonin every night!!!#again it helps but it still cant quite get me to sleep

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kyunsies · 3 years

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Oh MAN! I remember watching the mv for All In the first time and I lost it because it was just. incredible. The whole concept is cool and so so spectacularly executed

One of the things that really got to me about WOODZ was him talking about wanting to make music to make people happy and not to compete. That's such a pure and wonderful thought and as a musician it's just like.. that's the whole point! It was so touching. I also watched the special back-to-back interviews they did with WOODZ and his two friends which was so so sweet... 😭😭

Oh oh I also watched a video Changkyun did with baverse back in March of him just driving around listening to his playlist, and that was such an experience - his playlist suited him so perfectly!!! and the last two tracks being Jazz Legends Bill Evans and Chet Baker made me smile so softly!!!!! I probably looked really silly watching it haha, but I LOVE Changkyun and I LOVE Bill Evans

I'm so so glad to hear your day was better today!! I haven't been sleeping well lately so I'm really tired 🥲 but talking to you has been a major highlight of my days recently 💓💗💖💖 - dkbtho

hello angel !!!! BUT YEAH OMG all in is so ,,,,,,, gorgeous beautiful amazing and just stunning cinematography at it's finest !!!! it's so good ;____; and i'm really glad u like it !!!!!!

about the woodz documentary !!!!!! omg yeah :( i think there's something to be said about artists just wanting to make music for music's sake and not the fame bc then it just really shows that it comes from the heart and it's from a place that's really sincere <3 i'm glad u can relate to that on a personal level <3 AND YEAH THE OTHER INTERVIEW WITH KINO AND SEUNGWOO ;______; it was just ,,,, so lovely to see them supporting each other and you can tell they've all been thru a lot with each other :(((( truly best boys ;____;

AND LSFKJSDKLFJDS LISTEN THAT BAVERSE CAR RIDE FOR A WHOLE FREAKING HOUR SLKJFKSLJDF i quite literally ,,,,,, flipped out when i saw that slkdfskfj i actually giffed it if u wanna see it here <3 but like, some of changkyun's music is really questionable sometimes (like the rap/trap he likes just aren't my thing lol) but THE JAZZ CHOICES AT THE END WERE TRULY CHEFS KISS and ,,,,,, u know what we share a common bc ,,,,,, i love him too <3 hehe but that video was such a vibe like it was raining and like changkyun i just associate with the night and he's just so lovely and beautiful GOD :(

my day was much more enjoyable thank you !!!!! i'm really sorry you haven't been able to sleep :( is it trouble falling asleep or staying asleep? have u tried popping a melatonin lol that might help !!! take them a few hours before bed and you'll be sleeping in no time !!!! or do some deep breathing exercises if u want too <3 and PLS SDKFJSDFK this is so kind of you :( it's only bc you took the initiative to talk and it's been so nice getting to know u angel !!!! <3

#asks #dkbtho

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smallnico · 7 years

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My high school used to start at 8 and end at 2 now it starts an hour later for bus scheduling reasons. TBH a lot of people were super against it and one school even lead a protest bc it meant less time for things like after school jobs and sport practices, and not to mention a good few people used the extra hour of sleep to stay up later. I'm not saying waking up really early for school is the best thing for developing teens, but making school start later might just make things harder for some

i can see the other side of this issue that you’re bringing up and it’s important to address! but i’d also like to point out that the original reblogged post that sparked this influx of asks about school start times brought up the fact that teenagers have a suppressed melatonin thing going on that causes them to not get tired until later at night and not feel awake until later in the day. that might be why so many people used the opportunity to not feel like they Had to sleep when they weren’t tired – not accounting of course for people who did it because they are actual fools and not just kids whose bodies are doing weird shit to them just ‘cause.

i think the health of children, that which directly ties into their being able to learn and function properly throughout the day, is a bit more important than convenient scheduling. i’m not saying the inconveniences should be ignored – they should definitely be examined and corrected as well – but all in all i believe it’s a reasonable exchange? like hey, you have to work a little harder to figure out part time job stuff, but at least your learning process isn’t being crippled by the fact that you’re barely mentally there for half the day.

also, and i’m not saying this is the case here, a lot of the time people don’t actually know what’s better for them. if someone has experienced a certain way of seeing the world for a long time (i.e. that waking up at 6 in the morning to make it to school on time is Reasonable) they’ll naturally be resistant to change because it’s different, and more often than not people get scared and negative as a result of that. they can only see what bad Could happen because they haven’t experienced the good that can come of it yet. i’ve known people who’ve been hesitant to see a therapist for mental illness reasons because it cost money, it was a pain to drive that far, they maybe didn’t have time, they didn’t want to talk to a new person about their problems, they figured they were doing perfectly well on their own – like. once they started receiving treatment things got better and easier on them and suddenly it became worth it because they knew what they were missing out on. and it took some pushing, but at the end of the day it was better for them.

now, please don’t take this as a dismissal. you raise some interesting points about other problems pertaining to the school board, like what if a student really really needs a job and these are the only times they can work? will they be able to get enough sports practice in if school ends at, say, 4 pm? what if the job manager doesn’t accept “school just started ending later in the day can i start my shift at 4 from now on” as a viable explanation, and the student is fired in favour of a different student worker from a different school who’s still letting its kids out at 1 pm in exchange for forcing them out of bed at 5? i don’t have answers to these questions.

luckily, i’m a 19 year old girl, and it’s not my job to come up with those answers. but student health, teen health is important. when scientific evidence suggests that something the institution is doing is causing harm to teenagers during crucial periods of learning and development, i think that warrants a period of transitional discomfort until such a time as the change has settled in, the people have settled down, and the good part of it all starts taking effect.

thanks for the message! :>

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