#I havent played fnv in a while so I may have gotten some information wrong

[amazinglyegg]

hey! late to the boone sh discussion sorry. as someone who’s had close friends who were ex servicemen sh is real common, even without the whole dead wife thing, so my personal head cannon is that the blood trail was him accidentally or internationally going too deep and then trying to fix it (hence why it goes to the bathroom). BUT my hc is also that that isn’t where boone and carla lived together - i believe that they had a house and he moved into the motel when she was kidnapped, so personally i don’t think that blood could be hers.

Don't worry about being late, I like discussing headcanons!

I agree with you on all this. I think Carla and Boone were at least in Novac at the time (whether or not they lived in the motel, I'm not sure) but the wiki says Boone "tracked her down", so I doubt she died in the motel room, or even in Novac. The idea of him leaving her blood is everywhere like that one reddit comment suggested is... a bit strange, especially if you think about the bits of gore and brain-bits that'd be splattered around as well. It wouldn't be TOO surprising for Boone, but you'd think he'd just keep, like, some of her clothing or something??

Both him self harming with or without suicidal intent makes sense. He has the mindset that life needs to punish him for what he did ("Life has a way of punishing you for the mistakes you make. Big enough mistake, punishment can take a while. Mine’s not over.") - maybe he took a failed attempt as proof he can't take the "easy" way out and that he needs to suffer more, or maybe the self harm was him trying to create that suffering he believes he deserves. There's a lot of different ways you can go with this and they're all interesting enough to go in-depth about.

Either way, I wish there were more theories or fanfictions that worked with this headcanon. It brings a light to Boones motives and even his beliefs on fate and death - does he think he'll be "allowed" to die if he goes through enough pain? Does he think there's a higher being that decides when he's done suffering? If he believes in the afterlife, does he think Carla is the one deciding how much suffering he goes through?

#I havent played fnv in a while so I may have gotten some information wrong #going off the wiki and what i remember from going through boones quest! #but this poor guy. just. poor guy. #hes so sad and i want to give him a hug so bad #cw suicide #cw self harm #tw suicide #tw self harm #ask to tag