#I hate that! Make them relevant!

[thisisallthehattersfault]

AU where Hualian met and got together some time before Xie Lian's General Hua era, and they ended up properly being able to raise and take care of Banyue and Pei Su.

Also they somehow end up figuring out what's up with Jun Wu, and when Pei Su still ascends, he does so with the knowledge of what Jun Wu is. Instead of killing all those people at Banyue pass for Ban Yue, he's working within heaven against Jun Wu.

I just want a fic that really delves into Pei Ming's relationship with Pei Su, and the realization that he didn't actually know the kid nearly as well as he thought he did. Also, we see in canon that Pei Su seems to respect and look up to Xie Lian more than he does Pei Ming, which is another thing that's never really addressed but could be interesting to explore. And I like the idea of heaven being like "The Ghost City is dangerous and volatile and Hua Cheng is the ultimate evil" and then we cut to Pei Su vising home for a weekend and having to dodge dozens of well-meaning ghost aunties trying to feed him questionable things before he gets to Paradise Manor and is immediately accosted by Hua Cheng because oh, I see, you have the time to run all those errands for Ming Guang but you don't have the time to cALL YOUR FUCKING PARENTS--

#TGCF #heaven official's blessing #Pei Su #Hualian #Hua Cheng #Xie Lian #Pei Ming #Ban Yue #Really I just want more of the side characters in general honestly #TGCF has such a huge cast but most of the characters are #not actually plot relevant? #like you could replace the Banyue arc with literally any other situation #where Xie Lian was nice to someone and it went poorly for him #and zero things about the story would change #you could remove Banyue and Pei Su entirely #and the story would not change #I hate that! Make them relevant! #Actually the same is true for a bunch of other characters also #but I digress

[comradekatara]

> be zuko

> try desperately to ingratiate yourself within the avatar’s friend group (to no avail, of course, because you have terrible social skills, and previously tried to kill them, also)

> try to fight off the human wmd you previously hired to blow them all up

> fail miserably, because he is indestructible

> watch as sokka effortlessly kills him with a very precise boomerang throw to the brain

> suddenly recall every single time you got hit in the head by his boomerang

> feel immense gratitude for what you had previously dismissed as uncle’s obnoxiously stringent and paranoid over-emphasis on the importance of helmet safety

#zuko #sokka #combustion man #iroh #sokka could’ve taken down all of unanimity with his boomerang #he and yangchen would’ve been the fucking dream team fr #altho i guess jujinta also has rly precise aim so he basically fulfills that role #but like. sokka has precise aim AND everything else kavik has (except for waterbending but like. he doesn’t even need it) #anyway. these tags are not relevant to the post at all #also i think zuko would like the helmet bc a) they’re regulation so he feels more militaristic in them and b) they cover his scar #but for the purposes of this joke of he hates the way they compress on his skull and he also whines before iroh makes him put it on #honestly both are equally plausible to me #so let’s just say it’s a combination thereof

[iwoulddieforienzo]

The Percy Jackson fandom really needs to learn how to tag properly lol

Edit: it occurs to me that my habit of talking in the tags makes this post harder to reblog and get my point across. While I didn’t actually intend for the fandom to see this initially, I have decided that it annoys me enough to make this reblog-friendly. So here’s the tags I originally put down:

#snack time #Percy Jackson #PJO #HOO #TOA #solangelo #<- relevant tags because I’m talking to the fandom at large and I brought up solangelo specifically #(honestly the solangelo thing bothers me more than anything bc it makes it impossible to find content of JUST Will or JUST Nico #which bothers me because. tbh. I don’t like solangelo that much lmao #they’re cute don’t get me wrong I don’t HATE them I just. don’t care for how they’re defined exclusively by their relationship #ESPECIALLY Will. they’re sweet I just would like to see them on their own and also explore other relationships that they have)

[south-sea]

i've been promising it for ages, so here are finally some notes on the two iterations of black arms/doom i write for. in this house we ignore the "black doom is an evil space tyrant for the sake of being an evil space tyrant" thing and have fun exploring his motives from different angles

(it's because i had no idea that was even a thing until like a week ago. i've always thought the motivator was Just Food, and i like that significantly more.)

i like to think of eclipse's paternal qualities as something telling to black doom/the species as a whole, at least outside of canon instances. so that's an intentional trend across both.

it's also intentionally implied the alt arms are more or less what aruna's hive could/would have turned out like if he were less traditionally stubborn and foolhardy.

as for their plans and how things ended up:

alt doom started out as generally interested in how humanity might progress. once in contact with gerald, his plan was to trade his DNA for the chaos emeralds as a source of energy for the black comet, as its at-the-time power would have been mostly depleted by the time it circled back around in 50 years. this agreement was doomed to fail; both he and gerald almost immediately realized how badly it could backfire, got paranoid, and mutually planned to destroy each other. the fact humans are good sustenance for the black arms was just a convenient bonus at that point.

given shadow didn't make it past SA2 on this timeline, it left sonic to defeat the black arms. and in sonic fashion, this meant putting them in their place and sending them packing without properly destroying them.

alt doom is not so much one to accept he's been beaten, and more one to re-approach something from a different angle once he realizes his methods were flawed. this leads to him picking up and just going Somewhere Else. he's a scientist too, on some level. he can figure it out. and he does. rather than being all traditional and stubborn, he learns to work with other species, which in turn leads to securing better/more diverse materials, more ethical/convenient food sources, etc. the arms' population booms and advances at breakneck pace from then on. they diversify and spread out. without having to fight for survival, things are chill. it's considered the good end.

aruna's is the bad end. shadow is present on this timeline, and summarily wrecks his entire shit (for good reason).

the trouble with aruna's hive is it was in a constant state of nutritional deficit. they were the multiverse's scavengers, tending to pick planets clean whose populations were already critically low. not for any moral or ethical reason, just that the hive itself was so comparatively small in numbers, they didn't much have a choice.

this led to desperation. he got Tired of it. his last ditch effort to secure some means of easier travel/means to acquire food was to obtain the chaos emeralds. so he struck a deal with gerald, as these things always go.

he comes back 50 years later, finds his son has sided with the humans, and just snaps. just goes absolutely nuclear. if the deal isn't going to be upheld, and shadow sees the black arms as The Enemy, then he's just going to take the emeralds (and by extension the whole planet itself) by force. he's done playing nice. he and his people are starving. have been starving for enough years he's lost count.

this ends with the entire comet being blown up, and that's the last thing he sees as he's falling back to earth.

what all goes on after that point is between nobody but him, the multiverse's worst and, somehow, eventually, a familiar fallen god. (it's going in another aruna-centric post, some day, maybe, i hope.)

there's even still more i could say about how their respective hives operated and how they interacted with them personally, but that also needs to go in another post because this one's already long enough. but oh man is there more to say.

(and a shoutout/direct link to @motobug as always for the mobian design)

#black doom #mobian black doom #shadow the hedgehog #second chance au #semi-modern au #art by sea #i made exactly one too many shitposts about mobian doom and then somehow ended up making him my newest redemption project. oops #don't worry he still gets Bullied (excessively) #but that post became so ooc almost immediately that it's been bothering me ever since #he was originally meant for a throwaway background au but then THAT was made canon so i rerouted into making runa's stuff Also make sense #and now here we are #with still lots and lots and lots of details omitted because i couldn't format it correctly and csp hates processing text #and because i'm sitting on a whole pile of relevant sketches wondering how to format Those/continually adding to them #i'm in too deep (please send help i'm drowning)

[taitavva]

He never could tell the taste between a scar and its wounding, an angel or demon.

Ask me if I can still hear his exhaled prayers: I am still waiting to be found. To be found, tell me why there is nothing more holy than becoming a ghost.

[Tanaya Winder, “Becoming a Ghost”]

#inspo is @irefaels on insta !!! #hunger -> obsession -> hate (???) #the poems don't apply at all but im making them apply #i love cutting out excerpts that seem relevant #persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 royal #p5r #procreate #photoshop #2022 #illustration #digital fanart #goro akechi #3 hours

[edwardwonghaupepelutivrusky4th]

technically if it's not simmered in the champagne region of france it's a sparkling best boy friend

#you see actually this is an ingeniously relevant caption b/c of the concept of Authentic food tying into the film's main themes re culture #Clearly impeccable lol....anyway here's me using this blog as like a tumblr hosted imgur #also just now in the shower it occurred to me the parallels / overlaps with My Big Fat Greek Wedding. obviously also v different but #so your family & by extension their culture aren't the Normal & your father especially holds on to this distinction #& you don't just want to work at the family business forever & then you meet a nice boy & there's no problem there he's just nice #except then how to reconcile this with your relationship w/your family & your culture & thus also your identity btw.... #anyways how about that uhh #elemental #elemental 2023 #pixar elemental #ember lumen #wade ripple #fanart #always a time & a half trying to decide how to tag these kinds of titles. but somehow i survive #it's really a testament to the so precisely captured Cuteness of wade's design that it's like; trying to just do a shadow of it justice lol #it's So good. definitely went for the like expressive wobbliness...the wavy smile is just thee perfect detail all thee time. ugh #giving both of them that Flow while also ember is pointier & has the whole luminosity element....the chefs are kissing #love the Relationship when it's like yeah it's easy to make it agonizing when it's like ya both people have fun & like each other & enjoy #being together & find the relationship enriching & motivating...you Are a cute couple / again that the conflict isn't really even like ooh #will the won't they as a question of if they really like each other; & Definitely not a question of [these ppl hate each other actually] lo #like me saying i like romcoms sometimes when it Does mostly mean i'll watch mybigfatgreekwedding 500x in a row. it's on youtube btw #then you watch some random other romcom & it's psychological torture. random xmas romcomdram like gave me a headache fr.... #anyways really liked this film really had a great time i'm def gonna see it again soon #i loved both these characters & their relationship & the Elemental manifestation of Culture is really inchtaraesting #plus other metaphorical resonance ppl find...physical disability; queer experiences.... #it was also fun b/c their interacting & their arcs w/each other having that mutual Effect & Change from their dynamic was like #that also just feels like both of them / their relationship = my relationship with myself &/or both how i interact w/the world/anyone #definitely always describing myself in ways like ''i never x except for when i do always; readily'' like Crying for sure lol. I'm Both.... #probably a bit more wade? within Myself; by this point lol. i feel like maybe i'm the wade w/someone i'm more comfortable around #but that otherwise i probably come across more emberesque. usually. except for when it's the opposite except for when it's not lmao etc!!!!

[sherlock-is-ace]

the imposter syndrome i feel every time i even slightly think i might be autistic is insane, specially for a person who highly relates to the lived experiences of people who are professionally diagnosed.

Like I was just watching this one youtuber, and she was talking about very specific examples in her life and childhood where she saw autistic traits that made her realize she was autistic and then seek a diagnosis and then get one, and everything she was saying was like she was describing my life! But yeah no, I can't be autistic tho

#and one thing that has been filling me with dread (as if it was relevant lol) is the idea of seeking a diagnosis and #either not geting it because it's already so hard to find a diagnosis for '''''''women''''''' (afabs) #and that will make me doubt myself even more! but most importantly those around me who already don't believe me #but also i'm very scared about this one thing in particular which is the talking to your parents portion of the diagnosis #where the therapist will want to talk to people who knew me as a child... and that person will have to be my mom #and i'm pretty sure she will dismiss most signs. like she would either not bring them up because ''they're normal'' #or play them as less important than they were #or maybe she didn't even notice them! because most of my struggles are internal! #things like being bullied or having no friends or liking a routine #idk if she'll be able to talk about all those #because my bullying wasn't violent it was mostly dismissive #my ''friends'' weren't really friends like i didn't CARE for them as maybe someone would have #and also they would leave me for no reason at all out of the blue... so i don't think even THEY considered ME a friend #and liking routine i guess she could say i prefered it but she doesn't know to the extent i hated going off it #i'm sure she forgot about the time i cried (as a 10 year old so not THAT young) because they made us change classroom #and i didn't know that was gonna happen... it was added to the anxiety that i thought my mother wouldn't be able to find me #but like the unknown classroom traumatized me (to this day i get anxious just thinking about that) #like... all those things i don't think she would bring up (if she could even) and i fear that will make me not get a diagnosis #not that this is a thing that's gonna happen cause as i established i cannot afford a therapist nor i'll ever get a diagnosis i don't think #so like it's not relevant #but i am anxious about it nonetheless #angel talks #personal #idk what's my point with this post btw i'm just venting and creaming to the void #dkfjhgdfg

[sonknuxadow]

Twitter takeovers should either have the rule that no ships are canon or ALL ships are canon, either we all win or we all lose no in-between.

Not like it matters, Twitter takeovers are dubiously canon at best.

ehh my problem isnt "nooo theyre teasing ships i dont like instead of the ships i do like".. i mean yeah i Dont like knuxouge and thats part of the reason i found that answer annoying but the main reason is i just dont like it when they bring up ships or intentionally hint at ships in general. its annoying and unnecessary especially if m/f pairings are gonna get stuff like "the gang teases knuckles about how he may or may not have a crush on rouge" and the only mentions of a gay ship ever were just "EWWWW sonadow is so GROSS!!!!!!!!!" which is just... weird.

#and my feelings on son/adow are complicated theres a lot of things the shippers do that annoy me #but making fun of the ship like that when they dont have to answer those questions and m/f ships dont get that reaction is just weird #the only way they could redeem themselves is by having knuckles say that hes in love with sonic #and then never bring up shipping ever again (half joking) #asks #and yeah i agree that the twitter takeovers arent things that should be taken as undeniable canon #but that doesnt stop people from doing it and spreading stuff thats never mentioned outside of them as canon info #a particularly relevant example is that i once saw somebody say so/nadow is bad because sonic and shadow canonically hate it #even though the only evidence for that is the twitter takeovers

[suchine-toki]

Thoughts about Sakamoto

The guy is known as the loud fellow in a series like Gintama, that says a lot. But beyond being eccentric, he’s known for his huge heart and his love for money the people. He’s like the heart of the Joui 4 group and his bond with them is emotional and inspiring. His optimistic attitude was the light in the dark times of war.

It's interesting to think that Gintoki, Takasugi and Katsura, a group so united (due to their past, their motivations) would let Tatsuma in. But possibly it wasn't that they let him in, but that he simply made his way and, without anyone noticing, he became part of the group and its dynamics. I think Sakamoto's kindness also helped and perhaps, in a way, he reminded them of their sensei.

Tatsuma's compassion extended not only to his companions, but also to his enemies, as demonstrated in the Rakuyo arc flashback. He didn't intend for his arm to be rendered useless, but he accepted it anyway, as did his friends. Everyone understood that his place wasn’t in the war (although he was very talented with the sword), but in other battles.

His true nature came out in Kaientai arc, in which he meets Mutsu. Here he not only manages to change her, but he also manages to free all the slaves from human trafficking, becoming part of his crew and stealing the criminals’ ships. His ability to change people for the better is also demonstrated with Nobu Nobu later on.

However, it should be noted that Sakamoto is one of the least developed characters of the main cast. The little information there was about him was always scattered in different arcs in which he wasn’t the focus (even the Kaientai arc was more about Mutsu). We never saw why he learned swordsmanship or how was the internal process of him becoming disabled (if he wanted he could’ve used his other arm, implying he decided not to).

In both Rakuyo arc and Silver Soul arc he was involved in very similar situations, having to be saved in both cases by Mutsu (and whether we like it or not, that makes him look less capable). He never had any real opportunities to shine, and I feel like his character was only superficially explored, when he’d a lot to give. His only role at the end was to improve Nobu Nobu as a person, which was somewhat useless because he died shortly after.

I think Tatsuma would’ve been the perfect character to develop the sci-fi aspect of Gintama, in the sense of exploring other planets and the alien life that exists on them. He could’ve given odd jobs to the Yorozuya (bad um tsss) and thus justify the alien missions, taking advantage of the space travel in the series and, perhaps, giving more development to the Liberation Army, the Harusame and the Tendoushuu from the start.

#Gintama #Sakamoto Tatsuma #Thoughts about #I can write #my post #Also remember he met Gintoki again after all that had happened #Even though he hated the war he returned for his friends 🥺 #Ugh I wish the trio had told him about Shouyou #I guess Sorachi never make them do it so Tatsuma would stay neutral #Bc story-wise it doesn't make much sense other than it was #bc they wanted to keep the secret between them for safety reasons maybe #+I expected him to have a relevant role but he didn't do anything special in the end… #+Although Sakamoto acts like an idiot most of the time his crew appreciates him and is loyal to him #+One of the few characters that’s called by his first and last name indistinctively

[bugsinshoes]

what’s Laurie’s relationship like with the other three?(fidds ford and jocelyn(I already know they’re gay scdgdfbgd)

laurie and jocelyn are the most wonderful and joyous and whimsyest girlfriends ever !!! no comment !!! the sillies !!

laurie FUCKING HATES STANFORD !!1!1!!!1 (at first anyways) she thinks hes just some pretentious try-hard scholar and she HATES that !! but after a while, they warm up to each other and develop a sibling-like relationship. its a fire/water dynamic if that makes sense. they actually bond a lot over DD&MD as well as art (while ford goes for more sketchy-science-like stuff, lauries more into painting) like overall, they tolerate eachother, but by the end of their college years, theyre super good friends ! they should keep in contact and write each other letters !!!

laurie and fidds are good friends. they both have their little quirks and they love pointing them out to eachother. laurie will swear in french and fiddleford will be like "thats a new one" and if fidds were to say something laurie would say the same thing back. also laurie begs fidds to play the banjo JUST to annoy ford. theyre best bros, what else can i say?

if these 4 were to go camping, im sure laurie and ford would be the most enthusiastic about it. laurie bcs she loves the outdoors and its a thing her family used to do often, and she SWEARS she can put a bear into a chokehold (she cannot. this is merely to show jocelyn how undeniably fearless she is (she WILL jump at any sudden sound at night)), and ford bcs ANOMALIES AND RESEARCH :D !! jocelyn has NEVER gone camping before and its honestly heartbreaking, so shes unsure how to do it, but shes not against it. and ofc fiddleford is banjo-ing (is this a surprise?) but im SURE it will turn out to be a competition between ford and laurie on who can be the most outdoors-iest person (they both fail miserably)

#laurie wood #jocelyn smith #stanford pines #fiddleford mcgucket #gravity falls #asks #i literally hate them so much they make me ill #i have so many small stories with them that do NOT have any relevance to the plot AT ALL #still fun to imagine though

[stewyhosseini-bf]

sorry to randomly bring this up but. I think the thing that makes Kenstewy stand out to me so much is how their scenes feel so earnest ? to the point that they BOTH feel like almost different characters when they interact with each other. Like the way Kendall has a hard time looking everyone, even his own FAMILY in the eyes, but with Stewy he doesn't flinch and he holds steady eye contact almost all the time (and when he doesn't, stewy searches out his gaze but let's not get into it) .. the way Stewy never shies away from telling people what's on his mind in a totally blunt way but with Kendall he still tries to be nice about whatever he says.. like okay, Argestes:

first of all, they're like actively fighting and this is how they interact, FIRST time seeing each other since the big betrayal btw

then also the fact that Kendall genuinely wants to warn Stewy about the acquistion.. like he's NOT lying, at that point they ARE about to acquire Pierce and it WOULD kill their approach and he wants to warn him, which is fair enough considering everything that happened.

but then also:

even when Stewy's telling him he doesn't trust him he's nice about it but you can STILL tell kendall is really hurt by it.... like ... and re: Kendall being visibly hurt by Stewy saying 'I don't trust you' .. this is the same guy whose been told 'everyone here fucking hates you' 'x fucking hates you' millions of times and has essentially reacted with 'yeah okay, whatever, I can handle it' each time. but THAT'S his reaction to this ?! in a show where there is SO little space for genuine affection/consideration even between characters who are related or married .. the fact that these two seem to so genuinely care abt each other is kind of shocking.....

#why is this relevant now? it isn't but i'm making an amv and watching scenes and . it's insane #it's INSANE! #kendall literally fucked him over so hard (from stewy's POV) after 1x10 and he still said you can talk to me! there's a human thing #standing in front of you! sorry. anyway it doesn't matter etc #i'm always thinking about them though. just so you know. PLEASE S4. LET THEM BE IN A ROOM TOGETHER AGAIN #and with stewy being nice about telling ppl shit honestly. remember when he told logan 'everyone fucking hates you' and said about #roman that 'people say he's a coked up dauphin who can't tell sh it from shinola' but with kendall he's like. bro people don't love you :( #it's tough :( #in 1x3. #like it's the same message it's just said soooo much nicer. and they could be such assholes to each other but they just aren't #i guess thats what i'm saying. i love that. also it's like. why is that. well we know why but WHY #kenstewy #argestes

[opiumvampire]

bro my dad is so freaked out about me and joefferry losing out on 12 potential apartments this week that he’s telling me to go to church and pray about it. i dont know if god has any sway over the chicago housing market my man

#catholic moment. #my mom was like ‘your dad is freaking out as you can see. have you tried a realtor?’ #im like girl we’ve used like ten. none of them have shown us anything relevant #and even when they do its gone again before we can see it or the landlord is collecting from a pool #and choosing to go with the 35 year old married couple with dual full time income over the 25 year old goth couple who went into the arts #everybody else moving on may first in chicago fucking STOP for TWO DAYS so i can get something i HATE YOU #i want to have my mutuals over and not make them sleep on a weird couch in my living room that is also my bedroom kinda.

[goldiipond]

maybe this is me having too much faith in the people calling for the extermination of an entire ethnic group but idk. i feel like the fact that israel has the most powerful settler colony on the fucking planet bending over backwards to defend them from literally every other country should be enough to make at least some zionists realize that they are not the good guys

#skye's ramblings #i dont know man im just. so tired. im so fucking angry all the time. i want this to end #i dont understand how people dont see that this is literally just textbook colonialism. and how some do know and simply dont care #i dont have enough contact with the native side of my family to feel justified saying 'as a native person-' #and i certainly dont want to speak over palestinians but fuck man. this just cuts so deep. white people have been doing this for centuries #they dont care about the lives the history the rich beautiful culture they dont fucking care about anything that lacks 'pure western values #they dont fucking care all they fucking do is destroy and steal because everything belongs to them in their eyes #israel is an illegitimate state composed of europeans living on stolen land that they say is theirs bc they're 'gods chosen people' #the 'savages' are now 'terrorists' but the sentiment remains that they are a stain that must be erased to make way fr the good white people #your philosophy is a poorly disguised recreation of manifest destiny that uses judaism as a shield #as if your religion has any relevancy to the fact that people fucking hate you for gleefully slaughtering families and stealing their homes #i dont know. i grieve the lack of connection to that side of my culture and these people are having theirs ripped away from them as i speak #i dont know how people can support this. i dont know. i feel sick.

[todayisafridaynight]

would it be okay if u told me why u like aoki😭/gen😭😭😭😭BEEN TRYNA LIKE HIM FOR SO LONG I JUST CANTT but i love ur art so much so i still consume it otherwise lol

i liked tohru adachi in high school and tbh i think that alone is enough of an explanation for why i ended up liking aoki

#snap chats #haha see i told you last post's tags were relevant #anyway vLKVJEVLKAEJVLKJ IM CRYING ANON youre so funny. this is the funniest ask i coulda got thank you so much #i dont know why i like him either <- yes i do #fine lets get Real Talk about it #well first off all i thought he looked hot rolling out the elevator and i was playing the eng dub and i think his voice sounds hot there #and thats like. not athing that happens to me ever <- literally thought sawashiro was hot two frames into the game but anyway #i like politician characters. or characters that are in a position of power ESPECIALLY if they have to act like they dont suck balls #like i very much love the idea of the power of charisma and that type of thing not to mention the 'strategizing' as aoki puts it #that comes with politics. LIKE HE SUCKS DONT GET IT TWISTED HE SUCKS BUT //shrug emoji// #like its why i love the mine rggo stories i like seeing mine's thought process and how he uses his intelligence #smart's sexy to me idk what to tell you but moving on #its fun watching him lose his cool too ESP IN HIS FIGHT LMAO HE STOMPIN HIS FOOT LIKE A TODDLER SHUT UP #i also really love the arakawa family in general and thinking of aoki's relationship with each of them makes my brain explode #especially him and sawashiro that shit is painful to watch and i love it so much #i also thought him going from goth to republican was the funniest shit in the world like i howled at that AND i was distraught #aokis so interesting to me from the notion that he IS loved by his family but he has so much hatred for himself it eats him up #and as a result he cant be happy no matter what he does- how hes constantly seeking validation even if it's nothing meaningful #his lil. Dog-Eat-Dog world world belief to ichi also appealed to my edgy depressed high schooler brain. sorry. #his speech at the lockers also got to me. unfortunately. sorry everyone i empathized too hard it got too real it wasnt funny anymore #like as much as i complain bout the very end the ending is what solidified me liking aoki if not also cause of ichi's impact in those scene #plus... analyzing him and the environment around him is so much fun too.... #idk reasons for why i like aoki also boil down to personal reasons. he still sucks tho so i cant be upset when people hate him LOL #i probably have more reasons or could elaborate more i love rambling but i mean. who really wants to read all that 💀💀 #maybe for a character that WASNT the worst but. aoki is so LMAO #thank you for loving my art regardless :) im sorry i have to be attached to the worst guys ever

[steampoweredskeleton]

Ignore

#delete later #in typical birthday fashion i am now exhausted snd overwhelmed and battling a meltdown #i stubbed my toe and now cant put any fucking weight on it #im exhausted from performing appropriate birthday excitement. i dont think i understand birthdays correctly #to me the only relevance of ppls birthday is that i can show that i care about them and give gifts that make them happy or #spend time with them. other than that its just a day. in my head my birthday is just a day but it's a day rhat im expected to be #ecstatic over. i dont understand that. i spend the day worried im not feeling the correct feelings or displaying them right #and worried bc the normal day routine is broken and im anxious bc i don't know what will happen #too much uncertainty. abd rhat anxiety makes me feel guilty. but at the same time bc to me birthdays are avout showing the #person that you care. if everyone ignored it i would start to assume they dont care. idk how to fix my brain on this #at least its only once a year. plus the whole still being alive at 24 thing freaks me out. so when i inevitably have my #meltdown or shutdown it comes with not fun things #i get the same way at christmas except its slightly more socially acceptable for me to hide at christmas. #meltdowns make me angry abd emotional so i know im being a bitch in my head but logic is hard so im just upset and angry #and confused on how im supposed to feel and act. i fucking hate my brain. #i have ordered good comfort food abd have weighted blanket abd new piercing. life is okay #i dont want to see mu parents this weekend but it will be what it will be. im so fucking tired

[hella1975]

returning to watching horror films like chin up princess. no paranormally driven axe murderer chasing you rn 🥺

#it could always be worse! me personally if my head got put in a meat grinder i would NOT be thinking about being underpaid that one time #words of wisdom with hella #this is genuinely something i always do to like. ground myself when im upset and yes i know it's incredibly invalidating of my own feelings #or whatever the fuck. but it's also a bit funny #like in first year when my attendance was utter dogshit i used to lie in bed beating myself up for not going to my lectures #and then i'd go 'imagine i got hit by a car though and THAT'S why i wasn't attending. this is way better' #and it would genuinely make me feel better. like sometimes roundhouse kicking ur problems into proportion #by comparing them to insanely improbable scenarios that have no real relevance CAN work #therapists hate me etc #hella goes home