#I gotta test this myself

[russellius]

TESTING 2024 : DAY 2 | so close!

#george russell #toto wolff #f1 #f1edit #*m #*mine #24 #testing24 #testing #(this was so cute holy shit) #(yes toto we caught you being silly. we caught you being endeared by your driver.) #(they have the same sense of humour but we been knew) #(also: george lovingly staring at himself >>>>) #(he is so so so so SOOOOOO beautiful. so handsome. i need to off myself) #(proper large gifs sorry about that. you gotta wait a lil for them to load)

[fuckyeah-bears]

I feel like trash sooo hard right now so here’s a bear

#I’m Definitely sick #Dunno if it’s Covid #Gotta wait til I get off work to go home and take a Covid test tho #And before anyone says anything #I’m alone in the office I ain’t endangering anyone by spreading germs #Ain’t nobody but me fucking here #And fuck do I not want to be here right now I feel so awful #Don’t mind me just whining and feeling sorry for myself hardcore #🙃 #But I feel like garbage so I’m bear posting

[claraswald]

AVA COLEMAN in ABBOTT ELEMENTARY 1.10 "Open House"

#ava coleman #abbott elementary #abbottelementaryedit #abbottgifs #dailyabbottelementary #usersitcom #cinematv #femalecharacters #usercharithra #userbelin #nessa007 #*mygifs #/dont mind me... testing this new editor #/and trying to see if this shows in the tags #/i dont like the idea of this new editor but i gotta see it for myself

[grumpygilly]

do not reupload / edit w/o credit // do not tag as kin/id

they shall be turned into a bunch of self serving stickers and a singular charm for meeee

#lavingo #professor laventon #subway master ingo #might print them out tonight to test them... its nothing fancy but i gotta make something for myself with these two

[whereismyhat5678]

Seeing people draw the FNaF animatronics like squishy cartoony cuties make me want to do it too-

Now that I think I can do it Imma try- ✊✊

(They still might look weird but I’m gonna try my best 😭😭)

#FNaF #Five Night’s At Freddy’s #Random nonsense #Seriously just spam liked someone’s blog full of FNaF art and I’M OBSESSED WITH THEIR STYLE #They draw Funtime Freddy ADORABLE and SUPER expressive #I want to be like that kinda- I need to test it eventually this is just a little note for myself CUZ I GOTTA DO THIS-

[trashlie]

In Which I Cry Some More About Tragic Siblings

Heads up that this post WILL contain spoilers up through FP 248 so do NOT read this if you don't want to be spoiled!!!!! But in light of 248, I have some strong convictions about Nol and Kousuke's future (like, way future lol) relationship and where we might see them head.

We've been talking a lot on the ILY discord server about family - especially in light of the confirmation that the long-fabled theory that Rand isn't Kousuke's father is coming to light, in terms of what does this mean for their relationship and how do we define family. There feels like, amongst all the other running themes lol, to be a running theme about family and how it isn't necessarily defined by blood.

We see this in how it's clear that Rand seems to have had suspicions about Kousuke's parentage for a while and that it feels like he's only acting on them now in need of a bargaining chip, but that he's always treated Kousuke as his son regardless of whether or not he fathered Kousuke. We've seen how despite believing that Kousuke and Nol share blood they could not force a brotherly bond to form between them, even though Rand had so hoped one would. And though it's not a territory we've had a chance to explore yet, I think we'll get to explore it with Shinae and her own estranged sister, and may see that blood cannot define family, especially when you have been estranged and are virtually strangers.

The conversation leading to this thought was essentially that while Shinae and Shinhye may be (potentially half) sisters, quimchee has given some vague hints that they may not be able to forge a relationship in the future, whether it's because Shinhye is dishonest or is involved with shady dealings or other circumstances, it feels like there may be a narrative that despite sharing blood, you can't force family. Shinhye is not a person that Shinae grew up with and though a part of her longed for her family to be reunited and whole once more, they grew up apart and into separate people, and who Shinhye has grown into may be incompatible with her, may not be someone who can mesh with her.

This feels like it parallels - and especially as a foil - heavily with Nol and Kousuke who everyone has believed are related and have been forced to act as siblings but absolutely cannot, due to the paranoia and fear that is so deeply ingrained in Kousuke. And it feels even more inverted - Shinae and Shinhye who share blood but grew up apart, compared to Nol and Kousuke who share no blood and were pushed to be a family. It feels like there's a theme here about how family is what you make of it - that family can certainly be the people to whom you're related by blood, but sometimes they are found family. Sometimes they are the people you call your family, regardless of your shared blood.

Rand may not have fathered Kousuke, and we don't know for how long he's had his suspicions about his parentage, but we do know that he has always treated him as his son. I know that people will jump on the weird take about how "That's why Rand was always so distant from Kousuke" as if not being the blood relative to Kousuke could ever justify being an absent father - as if Yui wasn't busy orchestrating Rand's absence. Not that I say the blame is solely on Yui, but we also know that Rand has shown the inclination to wanting to play his role as Kousuke's parent and we've seen plenty enough to know that Yui has meddled.

The point is: Rand loves Kousuke, and his distance in Kousuke's life has never been that he doesn't feel that Kousuke is his and therefore he can't love him. Plenty of people are step-parents to children they love as their own, because that's what family is. Plenty of people adopt children they love as much as if they'd birthed them themselves. This narrative of "he can't connect with someone he didn't father" is gross and disgusting and more over, the narrative has shown that was never the case.

And with this thinking, even though we are at a point where Nol is casting people from his life and appears to be heading into his revenge arc, my conviction feels stronger than ever that we will see some kind of reconciliation between Nol and Kousuke, because the theme of "family is what you make of it" just feels so strong, and the potential foil to Shinae and her own sister. That's not to say that Nol would ever entirely forgive Kousuke and they would suddenly be the partners in crime they could have been as much as I feel like part of Nol's narrative is that he is going to find himself in Kousuke's shoes. He already is well on his way, with his interaction with Alyssa, thinking of her hickeys as the result of cheating. Years from now he, too, will have his Kousuke moment of horror when he finds out what was happening to Alyssa, how she got those marks, what she meant when she told him it was "just business" and he will realize how he cast her away when she came to him in her desperate time of need, as Kousuke did to him before. Something else I'd like to talk about when I'm in the headspace to write about it is how Nol's revenge arc will very likely parallel what may be Yui's origins (stream episode 7 of ILY Tea with Trashellie if you don't want to wait for me to write it lmao) which may bring him to a point of understanding how Kousuke ended up where he did - how fear and anger drive and consume you.

What this is getting at really is just to say: I think we might see a future where Nol will be able to face Kousuke and say that he understands. It doesn't undo their past, it doesn't make up for what was lost, or what was done. But I think there is something so important in Nol being able to get that distance and understand, to see how Kousuke, too, was a victim, how his innocent needs were preyed upon and how his hunger for his father's love turned starvation coupled with the deep-seated paranoia and fear lead him to the desperate lengths it did. I think there's going to come a time where Nol will be pulled back from crossing a line and understand.

We already see that Kousuke shows so much shame and, I think remorse, for the things he has done. So much guilt. He knows there was no justification - what he thought justified his actions was all lies, was all manipulation. The mentality that they are different, the paranoia his mother cultivated in him that he used to distance himself from others, that isolated him from others because who could he trust but her - and she, it turned out, was the worst of them all. And while Nol is not ready to hear Kousuke's regrets or apologies, because it's too little too late right now, I think in the future, when he's been consumed, or maybe when he's healed, when he's had enough distance, when he's been able to step back far enough to see that in the end, they both were victims, they were both children who had SO MUCH stolen from them, that even if they couldn't then, maybe now they can start over.

I don't think it's going to be a fairytale ending. I don't think they can be the brothers I want them to be. Kousuke's wounds cut too deep and Nol is too raw from them but I think that's why I see it as starting over. They are different people, have had so much stolen from each other, have lost so much (and will continue to).

But I believe more than ever that they will reconcile. The bridge imagery has always been there and has made me feel this so strongly, but I feel like the family themes make me feel it even more strongly - this sense that they may not share blood after all, but that isn't what makes you family. Sometimes family is a choice. It's choosing to be there for each other. It's choosing to care. It's choosing to love. It doesn't depend on blood - it just depends on depending, doesn't it?

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #ILY Spoilers #ILY FP #Nolan Oliver T. Lochlainn #Kousuke Hirahara #I MADE MYSELF SO EMOTIONAL WRITING THIS #which is so funny because i've already talked about this on discord #AND I MADE MYSELF REALLY EMOTIONAL TALKING ABOUT IT THEN TOOOOOOOOOOO #I JUST #;A; #i have such strong convictions about them lmao #and i know that they're gonna waver cos we're only just getting started and quimchee likes to make me cry #and test us but like #i gotta believe okay #I GOTTA BELIEVE #I GOTTA THINK ABOUT THE TRIO LAYING ON THE FLOOR IMAGE #I GOTTA CLING TO THAT AND REMIND MYSELF #BRIDGE TO THE BROTHERS BRIDGE TO RECONCILIATION #SCREAMS

[shylittleoctopus]

Hello! I don't know if I'll get any interest but I am a little desperate so it can't hurt to try, right? I really need some money for my car payment (yay rural America) and paying towards my wisdom teeth removal, but I don't start back up at work until the end of February.

As of right now I can only take paypal and I guess tumblr??; if you're interested feel free to email me at lferg92 at gmail.com, or send me a message here!

You can see more examples of my art here.

Even if you can't help, signal boosting would be very appreciated!!

#pixel art #pixelart #aseprite #8 bit art #pixel animation #gotta love america and it's healthcare system and how car centric it is #i really need to update my blog its been a while #if you're curious why there's such a gap in art its because that's when I got into college #graduated last year #might open a kofi #im high key stressing about money #edit because i'm testing something out #when i used to post art on tumblr when you posted art and it was reblogged before you updated it the unupdated post would be spread around #it drove me NUTS #i wanna see if tumblr fixed that #they did not. that's why i waited so long before fixing the text because i knew the damage was already done but WHATEVER #ill fix the rest of the images and reblog it myself

[vraska-theunseen]

i keep dismissing societal concepts i think are silly in my head and so i go around being like we made this up it's so pointless... abt like copyright law or whatever but then i kind of lock myself in an echo chamber of my own brain where i go around thinking stuff and then i have a conversation with a friend where i find out they put weight in [concept] i've dismissed like they're talking about how IQ is real and measurable and important for statistics and im like WHAT THE HELL...

#ive gotta talk to people more i did learn from that conversation a little bit #i think we had fundamentally different points that were flying past each other like they were saying iq is real and it's valuable for #statistics bc it's something that u can take over and over at different times and get the same result and therefore it can be solidly #extrapolated for different demographics and then that can be attributed to different things like chemical spills or economic inequality or #whatever and i wasn't saying that wasn't true but i was more arguing that it's silly the weight people give it outside of a metric of #statistics like the way people who i've talked to give value to it in real life is stupid bc i've talked to several people who have been #like oh you're so smart that makes me feel bad and im like it means nothing its just a percentage on a test everyone has different #aptitudes for things and that's what's meaningful out in the real world barring its usefulness in statistics #i also wasn't good at explaining myself i didn't really say what i said above i said like half of it poorly #alex talks

[bloodcoveredgf]

having a revelation. red velvet cake is Not my favorite kind of cake

#and if not then what is!!! ive been saying its my favorite for years and i think thats a lie. it is a lie #im almost positive its like. some sort of lemon cake. or strawberry cake #i love pound cakes too... #i will be reevaluating and testing this theory from now on. considering ive gotten red velvet for my bday cake for years and #the past 4 or 5 years ive thought to myself like.. eh.. like Yes but also... no.. i need to change things up its not my favorite #its no longer good enough to be THE birthday cake for me i seriously gotta reconsider and go hunting for a better flavor for my next bday

[b4kuch1n]

1/ true to luner new year tradition I've caught a cold after finally getting home and being able to unclench my cheeks. minor one probably so its just gonna be very annoying for a while 2/also true to luner new year tradition I've jumped into something new with No preamble so. hopefully I get this one done fast and we have a 12pg scribbly comic on hand 3/ I'm on bluesky now. do not ask abt what Ive been posting on there u will see

#bakuspeech #one small thing I can tell u rn is. the comic is a fancomic. if ur on my bsky u will probably know of what #listen. every few years I'll return to my roots like this. idk why Im trying to excuse myself or something I can do what I want forever #probably first sign of me not feeling Perfect yesterday was me drawing on my current tablet with. the previous one's stylus #and complaining Out Loud that the pressure was. not fully fucked? but Really weird. a whole stylus of a different color in my hand #sketch comms will still be fulfilled inbetween and after drawing this! but ngl I wanna be on my full faculty for that. it requires a lot of #quick thinking and problem solving that I dont think I can manage with a cold #well. more like if I'm not on my best mind I get frozen up and do Very boring things bc it feels safer #and with sketch comms I feel like that betrays the sentiment of it #we were doing good work. we gotta do right by each others #anyways! anyways. I'll treat myself to this comic for a bit. not even gonna draw much bgs for it lol I wanna test a technique #learned it from my friend truc... always wanted to figure it out since I saw it #stay tuned!! have a good day!!! enjoy hot drink!!!!

[todayisafridaynight]

glas

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 3 #yakuza series #yakuza 3 #yoshitaka mine #snap sketches #last night before i went to bed i told myself i'd draw mine with glasses after i finish my mandatory stuff #and i'd have him up by 3PM or 4PM and wow would you look at that. i finished him at 3PM on the dot 💀 #i know myself well but not well enough gotta have more faith in my ability to speed draw somethin #im like semi ok with this- if anythin i kinda just used this as a way to test out shading and colorin an whatever so that was fun #kk bye

[nordic-language-love]

yeah i’m seriously thinking of applying for jlpt n4

#i just think n5 won't encourage me to push myself whereas n4 will #it only tests receptive skills anyway #if it tested productive skills too i'd be a bit more hesitant #but receptive skills is easy. just gotta learn the vocab and the grammar and the kanji readings #don't have to worry about producing comprehensive sentences

[bisan-is-trying]

Every time i see ads for language courses, I'm like, ooooh, should i?? Maybe it would be easier learning the language from someone whose job is to teach it? But then i remember i "studied" hebrew for 4 years in college, and all i graduated with were basic grammar rules and like 30 words.

#langblr #learning languages #saw an ad that was like “2 languages at the price of 1 !!!” and it opened old wounds #studyblr #never mind the fact that the education system forces you to cram as much as possible only to let go of that as soon as the exams are over #if you get stuck with someone who doesn’t even want to teach or feels like teaching is a burden then forget about it #i will never forgive the idiot who “taught” me hebrew during college. #that moron acted like he knew it all and then went ahead and taught us nothing #AND then started taunting us about the fact that we knew nothing #- “gotta admit his test were easy tho!” #yeah thats because they were the same things over and over and over #.....anyway #self study is not bad at all. i go st my own pace. learn what i want when i want. sometimes i find ways to test myself other times no #but thats ok. its the grammar and having no one to practice the language with thats difficult but fuck it we ball i guess

[mistninja]

Happy friday! New pronouns just dropped -> she/they

#gotta update the pinned post #wheres teos post about transitioning during pride month #i have been thinking about it for a long time but i want to start using they/them and see if it feels right #not super sold on the spanish/portuguese neutral pronouns (not in a 'they are made up and dumb' way it just doesnt work for me) #so u can use él/ele for me as well #im just Some Guy but more leaning towards femininity? idk i dont think of myself as a woman tbh but im not a man #ever since i started working and buying my own clothes i have been trying to look more androgynous #idk im just testing the waters #personal

[steppenwolfofslytherinhouse]

lowkey wanna write a story where Toji,having the crazy body that he has (heavenly restriction,all that) doesn't actually die but ends up in a different universe (multiverse ftw), y/n's universe where there are no jujutsu sorcerers,no curses but other supernatural stuff exists

perhaps I can finally write smth with decent relatable y/n who doesn't stammer or lose her head when faced with a (hot traumatized) man,is basically a tired-af level-headed woman who acts like a stressed out fifty y.o. (she's in her late twenties lol.)

#now i gotta persuade myself to postpone literally everything else #japanese test prep #italian studies #piano practice #typing up the dream diary #reading #...y/n is honestly me in this case #and no it won't be “i can fix him” story #bro is in his thirties about damn time he fixed HIMSELF #sigh #like y/n is damaged af herself but #she chose to heal and deal with it differently #personal #toji fushiguro #jjk

[thefleshyougoveggie]

no bc the struggle of balancing getting a lot of study done and getting enough rest and stuff is so real

#i have a huge test in like one and a half week #and i’m studying soo much #but i don’t wanna overwork myself either #but i HAVE to study #and uni applications are due like two days after #i mean i don’t have to do a lot just choose which programmes i wanna apply for and i’ve already put in a few #but the lists gotta get bigger and i’m like aaaaaaaah #it’s stressful #but oh well #after that it’ll be… a bit less stressful #atlas the thinker #personal