#I WOKE UP AND HAD A HEART ATTACK

[charlataninred]

Happy fuck you and fuck your train friday

HAPPY FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR TRAIN FRIDAY

#i have been talking in caps a lot lately #just v excited #idk about what #oh and Mina. Mina one of the fmns found us #i woke up w a couple new notes to my fmns posts #and was like ‘cool! new fellow fan’ and then I read their rbs/replies #i almost had a heart attack (meant in the most positive way possible) #(it was Not what I was expecting at 5am the day after the queen died) #aegis talks to the void #the mechanisms

[crayann]

and in both cases lewis was involved

Correction: he’d actually have three nickels

(sorry I was too busy sobbing over charles’ disqualification I forgot the other one)

#i literally just woke up and almost had a heart attack #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #us gp 2023 #carlos sainz jr #carlos sainz

[randomminty]

Putting my iono and grusha here as well. They’re friends for streaming reasons

#Imagine getting a good atar score and it not mattering bc none of the courses you applied for need atar #Unrelated i got my atar today :) it was v good heheheheh #For non aussie ppl atars p much a mark for how you did overall in your y12 classes its important for most unis #But it can also not matter at all bc theres other ways to go to uni! And plenty of jobs that dont need uni! Idk! #I saw people saying grusha and iono are t4t. Ofc they are #Pokemon #Gym leader grusha #Gym leader iono #Oh my god i am yet to draw an actual pkmn and not just trainers god. I promise im a real pkmn fan #Oh yeah chongoblog replied to this art on twt i nearly had a heart attack #I woke up to like 12 new replies i and 40 follows i was like!!!!!! Aaaaaaa!!!!!!! #Todays been good so far. Only thing thatd make it better is if my dream uni got back to me….. they accepted my prerequisites i see you #Art tag #Only reason i posted this was to ramble abt atar. Farewell #oh my god i never replied to any of my replies on twt. im so bad at this. i cant think of things to say sjdbowwna augh

[ladysophiebeckett]

i headcanon betty as a kind of cinephile so i imagine she and armando watched 'anatomy of a fall' and armando was like 'and that's why you don't marry frenchmen...' and betty just sides eyes him like, 'oh we're still on that??' and says 'that could happen to any man'. and then looks straight ahead at the screen.

#he doesn't speak for the rest the movie #i do think betty watches a lot of movies #i think its canon that shes a fan of 'take my breath away' ?? so she watched top gun and top gun 2 (and hated top gun 2) #in ecomoda spin off they're watching a horror movie on tv that armando falls asleep to #and then in another ep he calls her his scarlet o'hara #so yes--i do think they watch a variety of movies but betty especially likes her blockbusters #i like to imagine they saw oppenheimer and armando fell asleep and woke up during the board meetings and had a heart attack #his nightmare on the screen this time

[brasiliangp]

everyone making memes and jokes meanwhile me

#I gotta get to class though I will NOT let a 5’9 dude ruin my day #also u bitches were talking about this like it was a done deal when I woke up and I had an actual heart attack thank you #lewis hamilton

[howdoyousleep3]

was feeling v feminine and cozy and strawberry today 🍓💕

#personal #selfie #nothing like posting in the middle of the night and falling back asleep to ease the nerves lol #a bean woke up and needed some lubbin’ to get back to sleep 🥺 #honestly I’ll freak myself out again the next time I wake up and delete it lol #anxiety has been sooooooo high this weekend #husband’s parents came to see us and my relationship with them is strained since the girls have been with us #felt like i was having a heart attack 24/7 the whole time they were at our apartment yesterday #and postpartum body and feels have had me in the dumps ugh #so anyway yes— felt cozy cute on my self care run to Target and sent this to bubs and she assured me i looked cute #🥹🍓🥹💕🥹 #i’ve never shared my face before and i was nervous for like five fours before saying fuck it lol

[rookflower]

found your blog and i think your opinions are interesting and correct (attempting to pick up warriors after like 2 years of not keeping up) anywayy can i ask for your opinions on thrushpelt? (yes i believe people would like him less if he was female but thats not his fault it's the erins')

I kinda like Thrushpelt! I don't have super strong feelings on him. He reminds me of fernsong in that i think the fandom puts him up on too big a pedestal for being the absolute bare minimum of a "decent guy", but unlike fernsong he has the advantage of feeling like an actual character rather than a cardboard cutout or missed potential. I think the whole idea of bluestar not being able to tell him (some of) her kids are alive and having to watch him go through that grieving process is genuinely tragic and compelling for both parties but i think a looot of that is held up by fanon. Haven't read BP in a while but I don't think it goes super in depth on that.

(in regards to the gender thing, I think he would just be a lot less remembered if anything. Warriors fans have always seemed pretty desperate for a "good dad" character to latch onto- which, fair I guess, because there really aren't many to the point where i have seen people make ridiculous stretches over the years to fit various male characters into that category- and considering that's one of thrushpelt's biggest defining qualities I think that portion of the fandom wouldn't care as much if he was a girl.)

#for some reason I woke up to Tumblr telling me I had 10 messages in my inbox but it was just this one #it nearly gave me a heart attack lol I thought id done something #but instead it was just a nice message and fun question. yippee!

[katyspersonal]

I really can't catch a break with strange events connected with the internet, huh

I blocked someone over a week ago (needed mental space to sort my already overwhelming anxiety), and later unblocked and followed back when I felt ready. But apparently this morning I found out that this person got somehow blocked by me again, when I did NOT do that...? I know Tumblr IS broken, but I never saw a glitch where it'd block random people? And why now, and why this person? I thought I'd die from how bad this piece of trash app embarrassed me with this one :/

But also long term mutuals probably remember the stories about me "sleep blogging" (like all those times where I saw something in a dream and would wake up to it being posted without any prior information to make me anticipate it, or how I'd read Discord convos in my sleep that were happening at the same time as I was sleeping). I blame such things on human brains evolving because of how often we are using tech; both tech and brain have electricity and maybe they are getting sync for more and more people. Humans are adaptable 🤔 But I did mention that tonight I was tormented by really weird dreams, and the biggest discomfort factor was losing self-control and being pulled to "pick fights" like marionette.. So what if it was that feeling during being asleep what triggered this (extremely unlikely) spontaneous blocking?

Kind of hope it will turn out that Tumblr simply found new way to be broken and it is just an unlucky timing for my paranoia 🤦‍♂️ But I still can't list how many weird things happen.. I should consider stopping sleeping with my phone under pillow if unexplainable coincidences continue.

#personal #also semi-relevant thing but recently me and Val shared a dream #like... when he woke up and told me he dreamed about hanging out with me and described the- #-details I FUCKING almost fell off my bed because I just woke up from the SAME dream #or weird telepathy with Fareeha #or that time when I summoned a random person to send me a specific ask with thinking about it #(this one is hard to explain but I legit almost had heart attack because TIMING) #or that time when I saw prophetic dream about Crow #I can just go on lol ggjhjh #but I don't have any other explanation than 'electricity' #and now I am thinking about it in the hospital at midnight :') RIP sanity lol #I am scared #but not of the weird events themselves but rather I am afraid they'll become weirder and I wont be able to tell anyone #(yet AGAIN extrovert moment) #🛌

[whosname]

So, how was the Joi Rebels reunion, Gin-san?

Found this looking for the original Doraemon opening ('cause we used to get openings translate into Spanish and I couldn't remember it), best cover EVER

#my art #gintama #gintama fanart #gintoki sakata #tatsuma sakamoto #doraemon #had too much fun drawing this his face his fucking faaace xD #this is the second episode of the Joi reunion in a nutshell #I make fun of Gintoki but once I woke up with a panic attack 'cause we had an earthquake at 4:15 am and i couldn't go back to sleep #so I calmed myself down singing me (bad singing) SPYAIR's Samurai Heart #our sugar king

[sailorsally]

Did Misha send out automated replies re Yard Sale or??

#i woke up to a message #which im sure is automated #but had a heart attack nonetheless

[bonniebird]

Why do cats that break into your house always look at you like it's your fault for scaring them?

#one time molly woke me up and i ignored her until i realised something was touching my foot #i looked up and saw this scared cat who had been sleeping with their head on my foot. #Another time a cat came into my house to use mollys litter box but it got scared when i came downstairs to get a drink and had a fricking #heart attack at the stranger cat in my house at face height. it couldn't get out again and i had to get a stick to open the window more and #shoo it out. Molly talked the whole way through which was not helpful #one time a cat just fell into my house through the window #it looked around and was like nah this place sucks and left. #there was a brief time when molly would just bring my friends kitten over to feed it and then send it home lol

[1kari]

can someone come hit me really hard with a hammer. thank you

#just. not having a good day already. fell asleep havifn a panic attack. had a nightmare my heart was failing and i couldnt breathe. and then #i woke up having another panic attack and had to miss hanging out with my friend. im so tired man

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

slept on and off all day. finally woke up for real. its 12am

#good god my sleep sched #txt #on the plus side i had like 15 dreams today #one of them involved a bunch of killer 7 year old children and i had to slit their throats with a spatula to keep them away from me #but they refused to die and kept climbing up whatever i was trying to hide on #i woke up gensrs a little nervous and felt my dog move behind me and it nearly gave me a heart attack AKSJDHFG #that was definitely one of the weirder dreams ive had #realizing now that i seriously only have nightmares though #like i never have normal dreams ever #but tbf i think of them kind of like horror movies so theyre genuinely entertaining to me #anyways hi #pray for me that i actually sleep and wake up at a normal time #this is what i get for not taking my meds fr

[i-am-going-to-skream]

Today was kinda wild ngl

#I woke up to John Green himself reblogging my post and I had no fucking clue #then I found out and almost had a mini heart attack #john green #the madlad #reblogged MY post #and I had no fuckin clue #i’m so disappointed #in myself I can’t- #i only joined tumblr like a year ago maybe #and im still find shit out #John green is such a mood tho #frfr #he’s so precious and nice and I love him #(platonically ofc) #and the fact that his new blog is for a coffee brand that donates all profits to charity is just so amazing #man’s doing his part #wish I could do the same but I’m broke af #I haven’t even read his books and I’m already a fan #not adding any tags like fyp or shitpost bc there’s no way ima let THIS post blow up #I may crave attention #but today was a lot lmao

[rhaenall]

do you genuinely, romantically ship kenlogan? Like you want them to suck and fuck each other? Or do you like the fucked dynamic of… I don’t even know how to describe it… mutual, intrinsic obsession? How would you describe how you enjoy that… pairing? I’m just curious if anyone enjoys their relationship the same way I do.

Hmmm loaded question. How do you enjoy Ken and Logan, anon? I am curious now.

All my feelings about Kenlogan are out there and I’ve really never held back on my thoughts on Kenlogan. So I was a little surprised by this and I'm a little nervous now. However since it will get me talking about Kenlogan I don’t mind it as much 😇😚

I will try my best to explain how I enjoy Kenlogan 🙏

The Romance part

To talk about this I’m going to use the other Kendall ships that I adore as a comparison: Kenrava, Kenaomi and Kenstewy. These I would consider Romantic ships. All three romantic partners are people that Kendall loved/loves romantically and/or platonically in canon and to me. I do not see Kenlogan in the same category as these three. What I do think is that Kenlogan is an obstacle to all of them. However hey are not the same to me, it’s not the same type of Love.

What I also think is that Kendall and Logan’s relationship does carry elements of a Romantic relationship even if they are not one. The elements would be from a toxic Romantic relationship. The one where the two people aren’t good for each other, have disdain for each other but at the same time can’t stay away and do have this strong love and bond. I have posted this how Kenlogan sometimes seems to have characteristics of a marriage (mostly in S2/S3)

In season 2 we see how dependent on Logan Kendall is and dare I say that Logan was just as dependent. They are intertwined with each other. We see Logan give Kendall affection that he doesn't give his other three children. It's affection but we can see how oppressive it is to Kendall. Logan has this power over him, Kendall just puts his head down ready for the beheading

S3 is where Kendall breaks this and I spoke on how Kenlogan’s actions reminded me of a couple getting divorce before too. Kendall trying to get the sibs on his side like a mother trying to get her children on her side and then getting painted out to be the crazy one. I went a little insane about this.

Kenlogan To Me

Well, going of from my above explanation to me Kenlogan are heavily intertwined, interwoven, with each other but they shouldn’t be and I think that’s the appeal to me. It's an unhealthy dynamic.

Before I watched Succession I actually watched Flowers in the Attic: Origin. There we had Mr. Foxworth who has this obsession with his daughter Corrine. It was horrifying to watch, Mr. Foxworth is a horrible man. However, I was really drawn to it because it’s so unnatural but still has this connection to Father-Daughter dynamics (Him not allowing her to see other men for example). I can’t really explain why I am drawn to fucked up dynamics like that other than that’s fascinating to explore

But I don’t think I would have found Kenlogan fascinating if I didn’t stumble upon Flowers in the attic first. hhhhhhh.

I think Logan has a similar obsession with Kendall. Logan wants Kendall broken like Mr. Foxworth wanted Corinne isolated from other men. Logan sees Kendall as an equal but at the same time he wants Kendall to rely on him, he couldn’t stand having Ken be on his own two feet.

And Kendall even if he wanted to break free from Logan he can’t, Logan is the sun he orbits (Thank you Jeremy Strong I will always use this now). Everything he does Logan’s shadow is looming over him. Even in season 3 and 4 where Ken seems to fight for the greater good or just wanting to break from Logan, it was rebellion against Logan. He wanted to break Logan...it was all about Logan.

“He made me (not us, me) hate him then he died.” It’s all about him and Logan! And even after Logan’s death Kendall could not shake him off, emulating Logan’s behavior, holding onto Logan and being his number one boy, Logan is inside of him, Ken can’t escape-- 😵‍💫

I guess this is how I enjoy Kenlogan, heavily dependency that fostered this mutual fixation, it's love that is twisted, haunting and violent and oppressive (for Kendall mostly) but I think the love does have it's in the eye of the storm moments, where everything is still and quiet and it's just the two of them on the same lane, two equals.

I liked how you described it as intrinsic, mutual obsession 🥰

About the sex part...most Kenlogan fics are explicit I think this is because of the undeniable power dynamic that exists, Logan holding this power over Kendall and how Ken submits to it so this translating into smut is very unsurprising.

#kenlogan #ALSO when i got this i almost had a mini heart attack bc i could only see the first questions #then i slept on it and when i woke up i thought i dreamt and that it wasnt a real ask help #succession #asks

[daunsun]

HI I LOVE YOUR ART BYE

YOU-

YOUUU. GET BACK HERE SO I CAN HUG YOU

I LOVE YOUR ART TOO!! I love your nightmare au and all your comics SO DANG MUCH! (especially the mermay ones, they're wonderful and how I found you)

SO THANK YOU??? I am losing my mind

#grabs you and shakes you by the collar #YOU'RE SO COOL I HAD A HEART ATTACK WHEN I WOKE UP TO THIS #asks