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grimescum · 2 months

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under the cut because its me rambling angrily about what hirano did w walter again. sorry. it kills me thinking about what could've happened and then remembering that it didnt happen in any capacity

and also spoilers i guess but who give a shit

thinking about walter makes me sad sometimes, like. i really wish he wasn't killed off after his betrayal, or at least not until a while after, because being able to see the guilt he might've felt would've been much more satisfying and heartbreaking than the little sliver of remorse he showed when seras thanked him for being there. I REALLY WISH THE STUPID BETRAYAL DIDN'T HAPPEN INT HE FIRTS PLACE?!?!?! was it meant to be a twist??! like omg the Guy Who Is Not Really That Important was the traitor all along 😱😱😱😱?!?!$?! was the shock of walter betraying hellsing point blank somehow more interesting than the nuance and the anger and the grief that could've come after that?!?! the potential forgiveness?!??

i know that wouldn't have made any real sense given what i just said about him being mr Guy Who Is Not Really That Important but a girl with severe daddy issues can dream god damn it. GOD inwish i could just push hirano off to the side and write the shit myself when it comes to walter, i've got atleast three separate timelines in my head for how it could've gone, either with walter showing actual meaningful feelings of grief and regret and maybe even insecurity with how he was basically jealous of alucard, with NONE of that happening at all or with none of that happening but with walter still going through that whole "i dont want to be useless after i die" arc AND staying loyal

#flea talks #walter c dornez

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beck-a-leck · 1 year

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Feel like today's episodes of The Bad Batch really came at the end to punch me in the gut. Spoilers under the cut.

1. The plot line of exposing Rampart. I knew it was going to end poorly. Because I know what the future of Star Wars is like. I already knew how this story ended so it was more of a 40 minute long anticipatory fit waiting to see where and how it failed. Because I knew. Even if they got the evidence and the senate saw it, it wouldn't make a difference. It wouldn't change or fix anything because I Know How The Story Ends.

And somehow I STILL wasn't expecting FUCKING PALPATINE INWISH HE WOULD CHOKE ON A SOACE PEANUT AND DIE to come up and just rub it in everyone's faces that he is playing 5-dimensional psychic wizard and political chess whole everyone is still figuring out checkers. The goddamned long-term machinations. The GALL to act appalled when the clones did Exactly What He Had Them Programmed To Do. And the way he was able to spin it all to get exactly what he wanted. He's so fucking evil and I hate him so much.

And again. I was expecting everything to go wrong. But I didn't expect it to go So Wrong by working out Perfectly. 😭

2. Echo. Him leaving makes so much sense. As a character arc, as a person. He's been itching to join the bigger fight ever since he knew there was a bigger fight to join. And we saw him go through the whole 'do I chose the fight or the family' thing at the beginning of the season. And it's not surprising that he left when given the opportunity. I know he's going to come back. There will be a reunion.

But my poor heart of breaking for Omega. Depending on how you read the dynamic, one of her dads or brothers just left, and made literally the only family group she has known even smaller. This poor girl has been through it this episode, emotionally, having to watch her home get destroyed by the Empire, and then having her family break up even more. She deserves some hot chocolate is all I'm saying.

#star wars #the bad batch #the bad batch spoilers

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namegoesup · 4 years

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giving myself a mullet do not text

#i just saw a video of a girl giving herself a mullet and it looked good #but truthfully i font think that is The Look For Me #but inwish hair grew back quicker so i could find out for sure 🥴

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isletakebarzal · 3 years

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PLEWSASSSJEJWMFBNSF INWISH I WAS AS MESSY AS THAT !!!!!!!!!! but no it was me and the boy, the girlfriend/ex/sneaky link is all the same person. so in freshman year i liked him but he liked the girl, in sophomore year we weren’t friends anymore and he was dating the girl, in junior year we weren’t friends and then became friends again and he was dating the girl BUT THEN THEY BROKE UP, and then in senior year we were friends and they were broken up but now they’re linking 😬 i’ve pursued him like three times i got denied every time <3

OHHHHHHHH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHLKASJBLAKSFJBLAFK

I WAS LIKE OMG MY BI QUEEN!!!!!!

ANYWHOOOOOOOO

I'm sorry you got denied 3 times HOWEVER LOLLLLL MAYBE UR NOT REALLY FRIENDS IF U TRYNA GET W HER SNEAKY LINK AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

but also you are no one's second choice so if he picked her then we will simply ✨find someone else✨

he also seems to have commitment issues and not know what he wants and a man that does not know what he wants will NEVER be able to give you the sex you deserve bestie find a better orgasmate

#LOLLLLLL MY BADDDDD #MISREAD THAT SITUATION LMAOOO #THANKS FOR SHARING!!!!!!!!!#XXOXOXOOXOXOXOX

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my-stories-my-opinions · 3 years

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When you asked me what I wanted in my life, I never really had an answer for you. This is all I can come up with for now.

I want to wake up in our bed, to smell of your stinky morning breath. Light Humm from the baby monitor on the bedside table. Dog snuggled in between us, cat on the windowsill whining for food. Sunlight shining threw the blinds. A knock at the door gets me out of bed. I rush to get something on so I can answer the door. Open the the door to find someone arriving for the kids, your parents, definitely set up by you. "A weekend of adulthood" you say, coming down the stairs behind me with the baby in arm, 2 bags packed and a toddler hanging onto your pocket. As you hand them off to your mother, our little boy grabs me and hugs me tight, and the baby won't let go of you. Takes a minute or two, but finally the kids are wrangled into the car and driving away.

Once we get inside I can smell the coffee brewing. Music playing. He hates my favorite music, but is playing it anyway, even pretending to like it.

After I come out of the shower, I see you standing in the doorway, cup in hand. We drink our coffee, talk about mundane parent things. Wonder if the kids are okay, then we get back in bed for some much needed "mommy/daddy" time.

After we make our way back to the kitchen we start making some breakfast together. Music plays while we laugh and joke around. After breakfast, we go shopping for supplies.

Hours later our friends show up. Outside in the backyard, in our inclosed patio/bar we spent the entire previous summer building with these same friends arriving one by one. Once everyone is arrived we turn the music up, all start drinking and dancing and laughing, smoking all kinds of weed. Just enjoying life. We have a fire pit and we all gather around, drinking, smoking, telling funny stories about friends, family, our children, our grandparents, everything. Just making memories.

After a weekend of being carefree adults, the kids come back, we host Sunday supper with your parents, thanking them for watching the kids for us. Laughing at our 2 year old smashing mashed potatoes into his hair. Baby girl in her highchair laughing at her brother being silly. Today is the first time she has tried mashed potatoes, and she loved them.

When Monday comes the next morning, I wake up to the sound of a mumbling baby, a snoring you, and giggling 2 year old sitting on the bed with the dog. As I sit up looking around.me, I feel so much love and happiness.

After we are all up dressed and fed, it's time to take kiddo number one to daycare, and go to work ourselves. I work from home part time, due to still being on maternity leave, but now that little miss is 6 months old, she has started going to daycare with her brother twice a week, bit not today. She has a doctors appointment.

After her appointment she and I go home together, while she naps I get my work done, and even get started on some laundry. Seeing as she got her 6 month vacations, I expect her napnwill be longer, usually is after these appointments. I catch up on housework, changing out little miss' too small clothes for her too small clothes, then the same for sir "Looks just like Daddy". As soon as I'm done packing away the old clothes in the attic, I can hear the faint sounds of a crying little miss from the baby monitor I left on the hall table. I check on her, she is still sleeping, but whimpering slightly. I'll leave her be, let her work it out herself. But listen out for if she needs me. Now its about time to get supper started, I'm making chilli! Not spicy obviously. But I've got the hot sauce in the fridge for us to add to our own bowels.

Just after the Chilli is assembled, little miss finally wakes up from her slumber. And we sit on the living room floor practicing standing all by herself. Still can't do it without holding onto something, but getting closer everyday. After a couple of hours, we hear the sound of a car pulling, and little miss starts giggling immediately. I pick her up, walk to the window, and wave as you get big brother out of his seat, and chase him up the drive. He can't quite open the door on his own yet, so he needs you to help, but knce it is open he comes barreling in yelling for his baby sister, excited to tell her all about his day. Can barely get a hello in before he asks me to put her down in her chair so he can play with her. When I turn around, there you are. Arms open. I walk over, and sink into your embrace. Then you take my hand, and my waits, amd dance around the living room asking me about my day, little miss' appointment, adds how amazing dinner smells already. Asks me how long until it is ready, and then you go and shower quickly. Come downstairs help me with setting the kids up at the table. Once supper is done, we load the dishwasher while talking about the day, sipping our drinks. We decide to let the kids play in the back yard for a little while, mostly little sir, but little miss likes her swing her daddy built for her. Once the kids are tuckered out, I get them bathed and brushed and ready for bed, while you pour us each another drink, and fix the creaking cupboard door I asked you to fix a month ago, but forgot. Once the kids are in their beds, we each do our rounds, grab our drinks, and go out to the patio with the dog, and just sit and relax. Smoke a joint together and just love our life.

Something resembling this is what inwish you'd see, and at least make some aspect of it true for us.

#once upon a dream #unfulfilled wishes #i love him #first love #Love #if only #someday #love story

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kaiyanoo · 5 years

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i just rlly needed to get this out my system and no one rlly follows me on here soo-

i fucking hate school i fuckijg hate coming home no one even fucking likes me

i dont mean to push everyone away i really dont mean to thats probably why no one fucking likes me

i hate everythinf im just some edgy teen that no one fucking likes lmao!!!!!

i m not funny im not attractive im not amazinf what the fuck CAN i do im not good at Anything i cant even seem to breathe correctly bruh

soemtimes i wish i succeeded june 5th inwish i actually fuckibg DIED hahahah so edgy

i hate feeling this way i wanna get better but i dont have the proper help ive been asking for im just all over the place hehe

my cloest friends arent egen talking to me anymore my irls hate me i hate my body i cant live with the everyday dysphoria it sucks it sucks so bad i had it i hate living with it i wanna die but i dont really i feel bad that i cant appreciate the fact i have some good things in my life probably why so many people dont like me lmfao!! i canno with anyone anymore everyone i was close to i had to drop because EVERYONE was fuckinf abusive and they all manipulated me,, am i tht fuckinf bad or stupid to not notice until like 2 years later? o k.

i hate being so fuckinf stressed in school im in the advanced classes and the stress is unbearable, my performances dont help. im so grateful that i wss given the title of "best mariachi player" in the music group but i just its too much its too mcuh stress to keep it up i cant my hands shake too much for no reason i probably fuck up a lot more than some people,, my regular classes give an unbearable amount of homework but i have to do it if i have to get a good grade i have to im stuck i cant do anything other than the same routine everyday wake up go to school come home do homework shower go to sleep it repeats and repeats i want to spice up my life or something its so fucking boring and depressing

i dont like how i look i want to cut my hair into a pixie cut i want to get a binder i want to start testosterone i just want to look like a guy pleaseeee its so fucking hard to live everyday with the constant thoughts of "haha ur still a girl" it sucks i just fuckickckckckc

haha ok im done

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