#Fully forgive. Technically his 'crime' was the least bad/minor but considering he was an grown adult lol no

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Fucking ridiculous. I'll literally spent months without seeing friends or talking to them and I still won't feel this level of absolute loneliness and despair :')

#miranda talking shit #I feel like I'd be able to spend time at this place fine if the people who have damaged me isnt here #But they are and ugh... No. #I think i feel ... Extra bad bc dad has started to act... Friendly towards me and i hate it #You were never there when i grew up you never helped me supported me or raised me you do not have the right to act like we are on good term #Its a recent year sort of thing to like... Oh it took 20+ years for you to realize you have another daughter ? That's a bit fucking late #He sends me messages and shit online too and i hate it. I usually dont open them like... Hes the one person i basically cant see myself #Fully forgive. Technically his 'crime' was the least bad/minor but considering he was an grown adult lol no #My brothers have abused me for years and given me bad trauma and trust issues but dad was just not there #No he didnt have that excuse he was there. He lived here. He was married to mom. But he never spent any time with any of us #He never took care of us or did anything with us unless mom forced him to go with her. If he wasnt around at all id be more forgiving #Its that he was but couldn't fucking bother to care for.. Know or love his children that i cant forgive #And how he treated mom. Mom deserves better . The amount of times she have cried bc of him through my years growing up #I hate it. I wanted to spend the last possibly 5-10 years of keeping away from him and ignore him as much as im able til he dies then cry #On his funeral then just support my mom. No instead he does this shit. I cant handle it how he acts like all is fine #You dont have the right to start acting like you care after 25 years. You had so much time to do so earlier #You dont actually care you just want to make mom happy #Negative