We don't talk enough about the fact that Amelia Pond, s5 Amelia Pond, before the timeline is reset, isn't just a normal orphan. Her parents didn't die, didn't abandon her, and didn't send her away. They never existed in the first place.
And if her parents never existed, then Amelia cannot exist. She is a causal impossibility.
"People fall out of the world sometimes, but they always leave traces." A photograph. A face carved into an apple. Yes. Sure.
A child.
Now that's too big, surely.
But that's what she is. She is exactly the same as these things. A trace. An echo of something that could never be, never was, never could have been.
And the universe should never allow it. A whole person, that's just too much. She could not have continued to exist indefinitely, in normal circumstances, after her parents never existed.
In normal circumstances.
Because the Doctor didn't just save her from things coming out of the crack in her wall. He saved her from going into it. And he didn't just save her from the threat of going into it simply because of its vicinity.
No, by arriving when he did, he interrupted a process that was probably already in motion. And then by arriving again only moments later on a cosmic relative timestream (too quickly for the process to complete) and yet in the local relative timestream, years later --- years of a potential future caught midway through the process of rewriting -- he solidified that existence. Amy is a creature from another timeline, caught in amber. The Doctor prevented her from never existing, but only after she could already never exist.
And so, no one around Amelia thinks about it. Neither does she. There's some kind of consciousness block, because if you thought about it, really thought about it, for two seconds you'd realize she cannot exist. And the human mind can't deal with that. So, to protect itself, everyone's brain simply slides off it before ever noticing. They just assume that her existence makes sense, and don't question it, and don't notice what they don't question, that is staring them in the face.
But of course, to some extent they do notice. They can't think it, but they notice subconsciously that there's something they can't think. They notice there's something wrong with her, something uncanny. And they don't like it, and they alienate her even more because of it.
"Does it ever bother you Pond that your life existence doesn't make any sense?"
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Thirteen gutted me. You’re such an amazing writer. Your Emilie is one of the best I’ve read. It’s difficult to reconcile the woman who allowed or even promoted Adrien’s isolation and the perfect, loving mother that Adrien remembers. You reconcile that so amazingly that I’m a bit ashamed of ever having trouble reconciling it in the first place. Of course she is this way. It falls so naturally even though it must have taken great care and thought for you to form these conclusions about her. You really bring out the horror in Adrien’s childhood- not just from an onlookers perspective- but by focusing on the subjective experience of someone treated as a doll and not knowing any better but to be satisfied with it. You write better than many published authors I’ve read. I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate your story. I write too and every once in a while I come across a fic writer who really makes me feel this humbling sting of awe and envy. You’re definitely one of those people ❤️ Keep doing what you’re doing. You have a gift.
PS: now that you watched/read Ouran, are you considering writing any Tamaki centered stories? No pressure but he is my pre-Adrien blorbo so I would love to read your prose on him!
this ask is so so special to me i've just been like. keeping it safe in my heart and my inbox 😂 thank you so so so much, I don't even have the words!! i've (shockingly) spent a lot of time over the last several months trying to reconcile everything emilie must have been (which is hard!! it's so hard i spent a long time before i landed somewhere I liked) and it means so much that the way i've written her in thirteen rings true to you!! and AUGH "focusing on the subjective experience of someone treated as a doll and not knowing any better but to be satisfied with it" YES YES that's exactly it!!! yes!! so much of writing young adrien to me is about him genuinely not knowing that this isn't normal, that he deserves better, that it's okay for him to want better. I can tell just from this ask that you are a wonderful writer and I have to urge you to keep doing what you're doing too!! and thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement, it honestly means the world. <33
(ps I don't plan on writing any tamaki centered stories but SHAMELESS PLUG my dearest friend @marimbles has and I cant recommend it enough. honestly.)
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so instead of get back into art after the basic recovery of my surgery, I instead replayed Mario and Luigi Partners in Time…and why does nobody talk about this game?? Hardly ever see it in the Super Mario tag. Like. It’s actually insane how dark it gets. People die. Like actually die. Not as dark as SPM but like we see the dead spirits of Toads get siphoned through tubes. They had their life force sucked out of them via genetically modified trees. Yoshis were eaten by a larger alien Yoshi and were gonna be turned into more alien Yoshis via a factory IN THE GIANT ALIEN YOSHI. We see a town that’s literally just “Christmas is Cancelled” the city. Their mayor probably died. We never see these places restored because there are no survivors to restore them. The citizens of Hollijolli village probably all died by the time the bros shut down the Vim factory. And also there’s the entire scene with the Star Gate. Like. Hello??
maybe I’ll stream or let’s play this game and share it here because I think. More ppl should talk about Partners in Time. I’ll say it too: I like it more than Bowser’s Inside Story. By like a LOT. That’s my ramble for the night. Ttyd day tomorrow. Yippee
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my mom straight up told my cousin that I'm starving myself, and just now at Walmart she was looking at ice cream and she looked at me and went "It's not like you're gonna eat any, anyway" like hey maybe Shut Up and don't talk about my fucking eating habits???? especially don't tell people im starving myself??? hello????
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