#-a

[deadandwalking]

eating late to keep this body semifunctional. collective unpleasant, work continues

#-A

[betterthanrevengetv]

YOU SAID YOU WERE GONNA GROW UP THEN YOU WERE GONNA COME FIND ME

#AHHHDHSWJHEIEIIWIKWIQW #-a

[lostkitty420]

Happy 420 and may your Beltane be bountiful.

-A

#420 2024 #Beltane comes #-A #original

[mercuryandmoonpods]

Belated Happy TDOV everyone :DD 💞

#-a #i shall celebrate by booping you all

[wanderingfearless]

Who are these beings?!

R was just struggling figuring out who "A" was in the intro. I was nowhere near front. She seems to have forgotten both that firstly, my name starts with A (despite saying it while trying to figure this out) and that I have cat-like traits. This is pretty funny to me.

I live half the time with a cat's body. My name is only 6 letters long.

#plurality #headmates #endo safe #-R #-A

[m4sk]

consider this an act of assistance, not of betrayal.

apologies for any repeats or confusing speech patterns, this has been typed over 4 days, we are extremely foggy headed and we took turns adding things

The issues inside are getting worse and me and Manasses are unable to leave Spooks alone. If one of us is to leave for any reason, Brooks steps in. Other than that, he is going between the memory room and the "evidence" to try find anything of use.

They are once more nitpicking your words and actions to try make it believable that you and our other father desire eachother more than them. Of course, we know better; we know you. Spooky however is not as content with that answer. They believe you have manipulated us in some way, to make us take your side. If you are interested in any further discussion of the beliefs or evidence, you may ask for any of the three working with your spouse. Given your, current state, they won't question it too much.

In relation to the previous issue, they have also had a spike in jealousy lately. They've been getting persistently wound up over your exes in random intervals, have started randomly checking blogs of people you know, they were near sick over the incident with Anthony's blog and are continually losing their temper at his lack of response to the messages they have sent.

They feel unsupported by just about everyone around them. Before anything else, this is not your own fault. They have obviously been struggling a great deal lately but feel as though they cannot speak of it due you having your own struggles that they deem more severe. They have also made little progress in terms of mental health support and are now falling behind in school.

They cannot keep up with the workload and attention has got even worse. They are falling behind in at least 5 classes and show no interest in catching up. They are agitated by the mere presence of pupils and staff alike. The teachers they'd usually enjoy the presence of have become harder to tolerate and children that they would have ignored suddenly fill them with an unspeakable rage.

Sticking to that topic, they are struggling to manage emotions. They never were good with them, they feel things in excess, but it is progressively getting worse. They can no longer hide fits of depression and have become more irritable than what is usual. They avoid their blood relatives like the plague and are agitated at so much as a text from anyone but you.

With a brief cycle back to the first point made, they have experienced more severe symptoms for their psychosis. They have been struggling to maintain themself as their paranoia has once more increased, and have been experiencing more frequent reality shifts. I believe one of us has explained this before but just to be sure I shall risk repeating myself - Spooky's delusions fall into a category labelled as 'Double Bookkeeping', meaning they live in two realities simultaneously. We have simply labelled these as Spooky's reality and Angel's reality. Spooky's reality is the delusions, while Angel's is the real world - the more sane of the two. Angel works to keep the two balanced if not closer to his side, but this task has become more challenging as time goes on. They are once more under the constant impression they are being watched, and are now convinced they are watched by ghosts of dead relatives. They have been going to the local graveyard to plead with their grandparents to leave them alone - which only makes things worse as they are now convinced communing with the spirits of the deceased has brought them closer. They further believe in their life being some social experiment, they think their life is a dream and they are going to wake up one of these nights, they now believe that they are dying.

At the time of writing it has been 13 days since Spooky took sick, and they have not recovered. The symptoms are not too bad - it's almost like a persistent head cold with more breathing difficulties and headaches. They have however decided it is entirely plausible they suddenly stop breathing and suffocate alone.

Now, for a more personal issue. Forgive any missing information on this part - Manny and Angel are a little busy and I was not present (or even alive) for a great deal of this.

Our family has seemingly taken a mass fit of misery. We all have our own issues, but are all collapsing mentally regardless. Spooky, as always, has taken it upon themself to deal with it. They are continually offering us reassurance and assistance for our individual issues. This has understandably caused them a significant amount of stress. They have been finding it harder to face all of us. They still love us the same, but they claim to have little reason to help us, as "[We] all broke [Them]".

Unlike our more tolerable family, the blood relatives have been less that tolerable, more specifically the hag. She has been mocking and doubting Spooks for their issues. Making them question the validity of their psychosis, taking the piss out of them if they're a little scruffy after depressive fits, refusing making proper accommodations for them to eat and sleep safely, and has suddenly took pleasure in making them relive old traumas. The most significant being a night shortly after you met Spooky, bastard child came at them with a knife. This has caused more paranoia and delusions, as well as a lack of trust for both him and his mother.

As a result of all this and more, Spooky has become more than tired. They have once more deemed death the only solution. We are actively working to redirect their mindset with little success so far. They are reverting to old associations for the sake of feeling young - and by extension small - again. They have taken to me as a replacement father and have expressed a greater interest in puppets and dolls again to cope with going back to being lifeless and used.

This has taken, so much from us. Hopefully it's of some use. If not, we are going to sob. If any queries are to be made or assistance is needed - ask. Spooks can only deny us a front for so long. We will if need be communicate via cryptic blogging.

Much love, your sons.

#-A #Brooks was here #Manny blogs

[thecowboycourt]

why is this so funny to me

- alice (she/they)

#-a

[helios-co]

Rolled for Emotional Maturity and got a nat 20

I do feel like a mom though which is an unfortunate side effect

#like honey i know you're really upset but can you use your big boy words for me instead of throwing your toys? #LIKE😭 #it worked tho and he apologized so we're good for now lmao #please let him never find my tumblr i have said too much shit on here #-A

[deadandwalking]

Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?

#-A

[betterthanrevengetv]

EVEN IF IT’S HANDCUFFED IM LEAVING HERE WITH YOU

#-a

[mercuryandmoonpods]

late to this but my top podcasts were Rusty Quill Gaming, Where The Stars Fell, Spirit Box Radio, Not Quite Dead, and The Silt Verses! i'd love to know what yours were + if there's anything i should listen to based on my own top 5 :) send me a star and i'll rec you smth too! - asha

#original posts #-a #podcasting #Rusty Quill Gaming #Where The Stars Fell #Spirit Box Radio #Not Quite Dead #The Silt Verses #rqg #wtsf #sbr #nqd #tsv #spotify wrapped

[m4sk]

Just incase you do see this in time, happy birthday other dad, we love you regardless of your views on being our parent

#Cassy posting #-A

[tiny--bubbles]

I thought he would be the last one.

#love #arya #-A

[jeevaschrist]

Hey 💁✨ I’ll be your bestie if u want !! ❤️ I’m always looking for friends on here 🥳

um omg yes besties pls

message me <3

#-a