#(side note anyway uknow when youve been fucked in the head for half ur life and now no one ever actually bothers to check in coz they kno

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#delete later #tw self harm mention #soz just rambling #im like hehe depressed again right anyway i fuckinf hate #how i capital k Know that people care abt me #and yet i just . do not believe it . #and idk its not helped by some shit atm coz one of my irls is constantly using me as a therapist even tho i told them that im #running real low on emotional capacity #and am struggling a lot #so its kinda feelin like im bein a bit used and a bit not taken seriously and i want to help them i do it just #yeah idk #and man i just dont have any fucking energy and i relapsed the other day agAIN and im just . #idk i know i can talk to my friends but i dont want to bother them and my bf is on holiday so i dont wanna bother him and im just #fucking sucks man ! i feel like im rotting away and no one cares ! #(side note anyway uknow when youve been fucked in the head for half ur life and now no one ever actually bothers to check in coz they kno #the answer #and u dont like care bc ukno u can still talk if u want but like . yea idk) #anyway hehe its fine !!! i will be ok i always end up ok and i should just get over it and help my friend and stop moping but uknow !! #but yeah it will b fine idk im just exhausted