#(i may not be answering new asks/comments if i find it embarrasing or uncomfortable to answer them)

[fanficparker]

hey!!! i was gone for too long (fuck my exams) but now that i am back i realised you haven't posted anything for at least a month.I was expecting to find you on my dash when i logged back but you weren't there at all and here your blog seems inactive. I miss your fics (I am totally not pressuring you to post, just curious and kinda missing you) also hope you are good.

🥺 thank you anon for this ask, it sort of made my day. About posting... 👉👈 There are about 99.999% chances that I may not be keeping this blog anymore or writing more fics :( I have recently hit a major realisation that I am not that decent of a writer that I was in my head... The notes/comments I used to receive before made me believe that I could have a decent life as a fiction writer in the future but observing the performance of my latest works... It turns out that my beliefs were just delusional. It was not me or my writing that earned those likes or comments. Instead, it was Harrison Osterfield and the fandom's desire to live vicariously through Haz x Reader fics. I am in the transitional phase of my life rn and have to make the right choices to fulfil my dreams of becoming a writer, else I'll basically end up broke. Now that I have acquainted with my delusion, I guess it's time to actually work on the craft, practice, learn, improve & build my target audience considering my place in a third world country as a person wanting to write contemporary south asian romances and thus having a very localised, non-global audience (unless I just bash the third world and accept the first world as the saviour in my future writing and win a pulitzar lol). So yeah, I guess it's time to wake up and exit the dreamish fanfic space to do nightmarish real stuff. Peace out ✌️ also, for everyone who has ever read & supported my work, thank you so much. I can't express how your engagement has helped me move on with my life and work for my dreams. 💖💖💖

#i guess that's it #i thank you all again & can't thank you all enough #riya's blog #riya has mail #ask response #anon replies #love you all 3000 💖💖💖 #(i may not be answering new asks/comments if i find it embarrasing or uncomfortable to answer them) #this is basically an imformal goodbye 👋